#adam kolan (oc)

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I’ve got a lover I love like religion 💖

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give me just one more chance

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Adam! Huh, wonder what’s going on with this guy… 🤭

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do you have any lore you can spare for Adam? His artfight description has made me VERY interested in him 😳

Yes I absolutely do! I’m so glad people liked the Artfight desc

(MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING FOR: cults, heavy talk of religious trauma, mentions of trafficking, mentions of homophobia, physical abuse, and heavily implied sexual abuse)

Adam was raised in what claimed to be a normal Christian church but was actually a front for a cult. He lived in one of the many desiccated housing areas where members would be forced under very strict rules and would all come together at 4am every morning to deep clean the church. They were also given strict diets, clothing, and schedules (such as times they would wake up and go to sleep and what times they were and weren’t allowed to eat), so basically every part of their lives were controlled by the main priest who was actually just the cult leader.

He chose Adam to be the next person to take the role of leader because of how “dedicated” he was to the church — but the actual reasoning was just that the cult leader is a fucking creepy old man who’s insanely obsessed with Adam’s looks and intends to use his body as a vessel after he dies.

Adam was born into the cult, unlike Alain who was brought into it under the assumption that it was simply a normal church, and later got trapped there. Adam’s heritage is completely unknown to him, but the reality of it was that his great grandparents were trafficked and later brainwashed to serve the cult. It’s a miserable environment for everyone, but everybody is under the belief that “God does everything for a reason” and that they’ll “be happy as long as they stay loyal”. The cult runs off of forced reliance on the church and a sense of fear — of hell; of what god will do to them if they leave, but mostly what the leaders will do to them if they’re ever found “acting out of order”.

But when Adam met Alain, something clicked in his mind. The realisation that he was miserable — that he was trapped in an environment that he despised — one that feeds off of fear, violence, and lies. Him and Alain fell deeply in love with each other, and when they were alone, Adam stopped caring about what God thought.

And yet, as soon as they were found out, that fear took over again. When he saw Alain being dragged kicking and screaming out the door, he lied. He claimed that he had been possessed when it happened, that a devil took over his body. That wasn’t him who was kissing another man, it was a devil.

And so Adam was never punished. He was forced to undergo an exorcism, but was never physically hurt for it in the way that Alain was — being beaten and left out on the street with no money to his name, severely injured, under the expectation that he’d simply die out there.

But Adam knew he was lying to himself. He didn’t want to be here anymore. But he truly had no life experience, nothing to call his own, and he knew could never survive alone out in the world. This life gave him stability, even if he knew it was all fake. He loved Alain, but he’d rather lie to himself and be miserable for the rest of his life than have to face whatever the priest had in store for him.

Adam realised something that day: he never feared God, he feared the cult.

And ever since then, Adam has been living a life that he’s certain is worse than any hell could possibly be. He’s set to be married to a woman he doesn’t love; forced to perform the same grating, monotonous routines every single day; undergoing training to soon replace the head priest when he goes into retirement, and therefore having to interact with him everyday. Being expected to just take his weird looks, his touches, the gross things he says to him when nobody is looking. But even so, he still can’t bring himself to leave.

And no matter how much time passes, Alain is always at the back of his mind. The day he was kicked out of the church replays in his head again and again like a broken record. He blames himself for everything, and the guilt he feels eats him up inside. Adam has been under the assumption that Alain is likely homeless, or worse, dead. He has no idea he managed to survive, little own has moved to New Zealand and gotten a degree.

So how will Adam react when he takes a plane over to New Zealand under the instruction of spreading propaganda, and runs into Alain in a small, unassuming town?

I guess you’ll just have to find out!