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strazem · 4 years ago

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I noticed that I’ve been getting blocked by a lot of Ososan artists lately and... At this point I’m sure it’s because of bad rumors and misinfo getting spread about me in discord servers. I’m going to put a lot of this under a readmore because I don’t want to clog people’s dashes with this, but I really want to clear the air here as I feel like there are a lot of things being left out of the narratives people are telling about me, and also the fact this is still happening and has been for four-five years, isolating me from a lot of the ososan community and hurting me in a very deep way...

Now, first off, I’m not here to say that over the past 4-5 years I wasn’t immature and childish. There were many times where I was, even to the point the behaviors could be seen as abusive or toxic even if that wasn’t the intention. I was in my early to mid 20s and had serious issues with oversharing my thoughts and feelings with people I really only knew casually, usually to the point of making them uncomfortable. I would also use all caps a lot, not really realizing the effect it had on people, making others feel like they were being shouted at. I would also act immaturely when I saw that other roleplay blogs were getting more attention than mine, even though the ones I had were for OCs, which meant that of course canon characters would get more traction.

Again, I was very young and not very socially developed. I am by no means trying to use my autism as an excuse, but rather an explanation.

Prior to getting into Ososan around 2016, I did not have any “real life” friends, that is, friends I knew in person. I did not know anyone my age and socializing was, and still is pretty limited to just my immediate family. Almost all of my interactions were online, and even that I struggled with. I had recently gotten out of an abusive relationship as well, and was just starting college. I did not think about how others felt enough and was too concerned with saying my piece and sharing my own opinions, making everything about me or about how I felt, and less about the other person. Again, this is something I’ve struggled with for most of my life as part of my ASD, but I’m still not excusing it by any means, especially considering the fact that other people ended up hurt.

I think the main issue was how immature and self-focused I was if I’m being honest, and how I would tend to make everything about me and how I felt and what I made.

My intentions were always good, that never changed. But as people have stated to me before, good intentions don’t mean anything if the outcome is bad. My immaturity really ended up hurting a lot of other people’s feelings and causing a lot of resentment, and I am by no means saying that anyone has to forgive me or be “ok” with me.

What I do wish though is that perhaps people who I have had struggles with in the past could refrain from spreading biased opinions of me to people who have never even met me. I understand wanting to support your friends, and I also understand that when someone you know tells you someone is “bad news”, it’s natural to take their word for it, especially if they only show screenshots of me at my lowest rather than when I was trying my absolute best to be a good friend, despite my immaturity.

However, I’ll be honest and say that I do think that this behavior in general seems counterproductive and perhaps even concerning... If there’s someone that upset me in my past, I don’t tell others or divulge about them to new people I meet unless I felt they did something actually illegal. I remember misinforming about someone in the ososan community based on false claims and I still feel guilty about it to this day, so I’ve also been guilty of this in the past. It’s also important to keep in mind that if someone is really making someone out to sound terrible or horrible that there is usually a bias clouding their perception. I've sat and reflected a lot on my own biases these past five years in therapy, and at the end of the day, I don’t think most people have bad intentions, at least not lonely kids in a small fandom. I think it’s a lot of miscommunication, lack of confrontation, and fear rather than any malicious intent.

Because if there’s one thing I know that I’m not, it’s a manipulator. I straight up do not have the social intelligence for that. I would all caps, I would get upset and leave chats and worry people, I would go on rants that people couldn’t talk me down from, or get too emotionally volatile, or put my own emotional issues onto other people by panicking and venting and putting on a scary and upsetting scene, but I never tried to manipulate anyone or turn anyone’s friends against them. The only two instances I can think of that even come close to me “warning” anyone about someone (and not for blm*tsu related reasons) happened in 2018 and 2019, well after all of this was (I assumed) done with.

Most of my issues that people have gotten upset with me for was regarding my social immaturity, self-centeredness, altercations, public panic attacks, public mental breakdowns and a tendency to go off on emotional and heated rants, especially in public areas and in public chats. That’s why this thing about me being a manipulator seems misinformed to me, because I’ve never been great at DMing or talking to others one on one, I think anyone that’s known me will agree. Many of these altercations happened in public group chats.

I’m assuming that many of the bad rumors being spread about me are regarding my skype days back in 2016-2017, back before discord became the new norm for online chatting and servers and such, as well as a very specific “drama” that happened on anti-bl oso-twitter concerning people that had met in an osomatsu-san kin discord server (which I was not in or even knew about).

Essentially, I befriended some of these people on twitter through people that had been in my second skype roleplay group (the first one I made was in 2016 I believe). I was unaware of any previous dramas or issues and was even unaware that said “person of interest” was even upset with me or thought I was toxic or bad. I had figured we had just stopped talking due to naturally drifting apart. Of course, in my young and naive mind, before understanding “social media etiquette” I went to go ask them why they had blocked me on twitter (I had started being active on twitter during that time.)

And of course, in my immaturity, was freaking out and panicking about having been blocked by someone I thought was a friend to people in my second roleplay group chat... As always... Ugh.. It wasn’t anything malicious though, just confusion and me being scared I had done something wrong.

One member in the roleplay group though, who I guess was a member of the osomatsu-san kin discord, started going off about said “person of interest”, claiming they had gotten their friend into a car accident and that they had groomed minors. Another person in the roleplay group felt the allegations were crazy and unfounded and left. Meanwhile, I was just lost as to what was even happening, I wasn’t aware these people were this connected or knew each other and admittedly, did a pretty poor job as a mod/admin that I didn’t stop the discussions sooner.

I have no idea if the claims were true or not, I imagine they were exaggerated due to bias, I have no idea, but then the same person who had made those claims showed me screenshots that “person of interest” sent to their mutual friend about me. How I was scary and toxic, that I had upset lots of people.. That they were panicking that I even contacted them on tumblr with a friendly “hello!”

Naturally, I responded with confusion. Again, my autism makes it very difficult for me to realize when people are upset or frustrated with me, especially over text. At the time, I couldn’t think of anything I had done to upset them and was very hurt and confused, as our last actual interaction had been seemingly positive.

I did not try to turn anyone against them though. Here’s what actually happened: After being given this info, I also learned that there was a small discord group of the friend group that the person making the claims was from. I joined it hoping to learn more or get some sort of clarification only to find out that this entire group was very upset with “person of interest”. Like very upset. They made claims that this person lied, that this person liked to play victim as a way to manipulate others, that they had groomed two of the people in the group, that they had said unsettling things, that they would do strange and backhanded things ect. Again, I don’t know if these statements are true and I’m not trying to claim they are, I just know that this group of friends had been very upset with "person of interest” before I had even come into the picture. They were already planning on cutting them off!

I did not sway anyone or say anything, I was literally just there in the hopes of finding out if I’d done something wrong.

Of course, this doesn’t at all excuse when I was still friends with “person of interest” and subjected them to my barrage of emotional baggage and panic attacks. I just want to make it clear that I never sent anyone after them or tried to turn their friends against them. In fact, I even tried to help them when they came to my twitter DMs asking me for help. I was already incredibly scared of pissing anyone off in general, and tried to keep things peaceful on both sides. When I asked the second roleplay group if they’d be okay with them rejoining, it was a unanimous “no”... I distinctly remember offering to still roleplay with them one on one and to make a new group that they could be in (and this was even after I had been shown the screenshots of them calling me toxic, which I still wasn’t holding against them!), but the offer was turned down.

I’ve noticed this very distinct pattern over the years of me running into a lot of issues due to miscommunication as well. It was very rare that people would express with me how they were feeling, or when they did, it was usually during one of my panic attacks, which were often bad enough that my brain would repress the memories of what happened during them the second they stopped, and it was rare that I would actually go back and read the things I said. People have had a very easy time going to others and complaining or venting about me to friends, but have had a very hard time actually telling me these complaints themselves, as themselves. I don’t really blame them, as we were all pretty young and given how much I freaked out publicly, it would make sense to be scared of how I might react. Not to mention there were probably things in their own pasts that made something like confrontation difficult. However, what I don’t understand is why this would still be happening five years later... I would assume by this point people would have moved on, especially regarding spats within fandoms.

I hold no ill will towards people in my past who’ve gotten upset with me, I do not hold grudges, and for the most part, if someone wants to cut contact with me, I just accept it and move on. But now that I’m noticing that these false claims are being spread around to other people in the fandom, people who weren’t even involved in these situations, blocking me based off of... Stuff they’ve heard about me... I felt a need to say something.

Honestly, my biggest wish or hope is that, given that it has been five or so years, that people who have never spoken to me or met me before maybe give me another chance? If I have personally hurt you, I don’t want you to feel the need to reach some sort of conclusion with me, or forgive me, or whatever...

But at the very least, perhaps people could be more careful when sharing personal issues we went through with other people, people who know very little about me and who I am and only know me through the lenses and narratives of people who felt slighted by me.

I have changed immensely over the past five years, more than I can even describe. I am not the same person mentally that I was, I have had therapy, I have had help, I have reflected, I have become more sensitive to other people’s thoughts and feelings. I even managed to help a friend of mine get therapy! I was not perfect, I behaved irrationally, but I do think it’s important to drive home the fact that it has been a few years and that I’ve made a lot of progress and that as I’m nearing 30, I have mentally matured quite a bit.

Again, no one from my past has to forgive me, I am not here to dictate how people should feel about me. I am just here to try to share my own side seeing as how I am unable to join most ososan servers and communities nowadays, and thus have a harder time being able to get in contact with or reach others.

I’ve been dying to say something, but kept worrying that it would stir up negative feelings or memories for others, but it’s getting to a point now where I’ve felt so isolated and hated by the fandom for five whole years that I’ve actually started having thoughts of self-harm again for the first time in awhile. I’m not saying this to make anyone feel guilty, and I haven’t acted on the thoughts, I just need to be honest.

This sort of behavior on the internet; gossiping about others, spreading misinformation about others, using a position of influence within a fandom to keep someone from making friends in fandom spaces... Or maybe people don’t even realize how much their words can affect others? Especially if they’re well-liked and exist in a lot of spaces. I’m sure there are no actual bad intentions when people say these things or vent to their friends.

And while I explained that one specific incident in detail that was with a specific person, it is not the only issue I’ve gotten myself into over the years either. I simply spoke about that one as I am just guessing it’s the big reason a lot of this is still going on to this day. I behaved poorly enough in the past that separate groups of people have ended up mad at me, regardless of even knowing each other. I was incredibly troubled, dealing with the aftermath of an abusive relationship, overworked with my animation assignments, and incredibly clueless in social situations or trying to relate to others. Again, these aren’t excuses... But explanations. Mentally ill people are not well, that’s why it’s an illness. In 2016-2017, I was at the lowest of my low, and continued to be until around the Fall of 2019. I have also matured significantly since, and have been working with a far more effective therapist as of late 2018, which I think is why I had such a positive change by 2019, as well as finding wonderful and supportive friends who truly care about me.

I know this is getting really long, too long honestly, but I really needed to get this off my chest...

I’m trying to decide whether or not this will be one of my final posts on tumblr as a whole, as I don’t think I will be able to participate in enjoying ososan publicly with how isolated I’ve been over the years by various groups and people; I think by this point the reputation is too soured for me to be a part of the community. Again, probably not out of malice, but fear and resentment at how I’ve acted.

The fact that I’m seeing more than a few people in ososan fandom I’ve never really spoken to, or people I was mutuals with blocking me is enough I think for me to consider calling it quits for public enjoyment. The fandom is already very small, and the anti-bl side is even smaller, so everyone is pretty interconnected and rumors can spread very easily. There’s no way I can compete with that, especially if I’m barred from most servers anyways.

I’m still going to mull it over, but again, if you’ve never met me, or if you’ve only seen screenshots of me from 2016 while panicking or allcapsing or at my worst... All I can really do is hope that maybe you’ll be able to see past these things and consider giving me a chance.

As for the people I genuinely did hurt, I know I’ve said sorry many times now, even on my old blog Nutastic which I abandoned for similar reasons, but I don’t know how else or how better to prove how genuinely sorry I am... Because the proof of regret is in changing and becoming a better person, and there’s not much chance to see if I have or haven’t if I’ve been cut off.

No one has to forgive me, but perhaps at least entertain the idea I might’ve changed over the course of five years, and that telling people how I was back then instead of who I am now seems a bit unfair. Again, I suppose I dug my own grave by behaving like that in the first place, but I always try to show empathy even to people who wronged me at a low place in their lives, unless they were incredibly abusive and cruel.

At the end of the day, we’re all just people trying to enjoy a show about wacky sextuplets, and I don’t think anyone actually has any ill-will in their hearts, or has it in them to be “bad”, specifically on the anti-bl side. I don’t hold grudges, there’s no one that I currently have blocked unless they are a bl or a man that made me uncomfortable. My DMs are always open, as is my askbox.

Feel free to ask me anything or confront me about anything, though admittedly, doing so through anon makes it hard for me to reply as I don’t want to post anything potentially upsetting publicly.

And I will try to come to a decision about whether or not to pull a Jenna Marbles and leave social media for good out of regret and declining mental health. I will most likely make a post about it when I’m feeling more capable.

Thank you so much for reading, and I hope your year is going good so far despite... Well, everything

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kuwurapikaaa · 5 years ago

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Chrollo Character Analysis

I have to warn you, even if this analysis does not have spoilers in the manga, but it is very long and with a dash of personal bias towards Chrollo - Admin MeiQi

Chrollo Lucilfer. One of the main villains of Hunter x Hunter. Leader of the phantom troupe, the band of thieves responsible for the Kurta massacre. Love him or hate him, he is an impressive character from a writer’s standpoint. You don’t know his morality. Like many characters in the manga, you don’t exactly know where to pinpoint him in the morality spectrum. He’s very gray in his morals, and that is what I want to see with a character.

Honestly, Chrollo is my most favorite character to write for, his complex character and his cunning personality easily makes him one of my favorites to stan and write for. Dissecting him is a very interesting thing to explore. - When I said that I can write a 2000 word essay on Chrollo, my friends said that they couldn’t believe that it was true or if I was joking, but here we are, with the quarantine and nothing to do, it has to lead me into this, a 2000 word monster.

His Past and How it affects him.

As of writing, we knew nothing about Chrollo’s past. And I think Togashi is not that interested in Chrollo. In my headcanon, Chrollo grew up roaming the streets of Meteor City. No family, no money, no food, nowhere to go. I can even see Chrollo doing sex work just to get around his life. He had to grow up very fast and was exposed to a cruel society at an early age. So, with his charm, his intelligence, and his sex appeal, he can put anyone around his fingers.

Meteor City is already a rough environment for an adult but you should also think about the children who roam the streets. How would a child interact with an environment as harsh as Meteor City? The city had always been described as this hell hole. Where people throw unwanted things, including unwanted children. Nobody was written in records and nobody knew the place. The city seems like it has no peace and is constantly in danger.

If my dad is writing this, he’d say that Chrollo is “Nagutuman” it literally means “starved”, it means that Chrollo got something taken away from him. Something that is really important. If I am going to paint a picture of Chrollo’s past, it would be less than beautiful.

Combined with Chrollo’s harsh upbringing and some type of mental illness, you have a recipe for disaster. - Perfect building blocks for a villain of a series as complex as Hunter x Hunter. As an aspiring writer, I always looked up to Togashi’s work and how complex the series is. Chrollo’s layers are one of the hardest for me to dissect without writing a long essay. Once you make me talk about Chrollo, I will run my mouth for ages. (Like what I am doing right now)

If I am going to embody Chrollo as one of the seven deadly sins, I think he’d probably represent greed, although envy is very close as well. He was a man with nothing who wants everything. He wants the money, he wants vast knowledge, he wants other people’s nen, he wants all the worldly things.

He was very obsessed with human nature. To the point that he will use this obsession to manipulate another person, and get what he wanted from them. He instilled himself to read books and observe the people around him. He used these books to pick a personality trait. Look, in typical literature, it’s easy to distinguish who is “good” and who is “bad” and personalities are not as complex as humans are.

With no one to talk to, he had this very reserved personality. Then, the books and observations couldn’t suffice anymore, so he started stealing very important things from people to know how they would feel when those worldly possessions were gone to them. When he saw how these people reacted to him doing that, he was joyed. He was happy in a twisted way to see what would happen.

I would say Chrollo is kinda numb, but can you really blame the man himself? I don’t think so. Nobody looked after him. Nobody cared for him. Not that I’m trying to convince you that Chrollo is a good guy, which obviously is not the case. (Being the antagonist of the series)

Stealing these things made him understand humans, made an empty void in his body filled in this twisted way. But since Chrollo is greedy, these things never satisfied him. I can even compare him to Ging, Gon’s dad. His greed made him leave his son so that he can have all these adventures and stay a hunter forever.

That’s why I would hate being in the hunter x hunter universe. As someone who has a very set standard of morals, I don’t believe greedy people like hunters deserve the privileges that they are taking for granted. I believe that people should have equal rights and people that have privileges should use their privilege in the right way.

What is the troupe for him?

A favorite quote of mine from him would be “I’m not important, but my orders are.” It shows that Chrollo treats and respects each leg of the spiders like his equals. I would even argue that the members of the troupe are the only thing that is important to Chrollo. I would go more into that in the last category.

The troupe is everything for him. His friends, his family, and lastly an extension of himself. The troupe became his identity, the thing that gave him life, and probably the only thing that is making him significant in this world. The troupe members are the only ones who cared for their beloved boss

To form it, he gathered people that he trusted the most. They all shared a thing in common, immensely talented nen users and outcasts. They shared his philosophy. “We can steal anything from you, but never steal anything from us” He built the phantom troupe with immense trust and him sharing the same principles as his members.

The troupe members are the only people that actually know Chrollo and even then, as I observed, he doesn’t seem super close with anyone in the whole troupe, minus Pakunoda and Machi ?? I will expand on Pakunoda and Chrollo at another time.

One of the ironic things I have seen with the Phantom Troupe is how they would go through all that for the death of a member. (With the requiem for Uvogin) But it was also said that in order to join, you have to kill a member. I find it very contradictory. Or maybe they would get mad or be like that when the person who killed Uvogin didn’t join the troupe ?? That is just very ironic.

Although I don’t have an opinion on it, I am putting it out there so that we can discuss it below and what do you think about this ‘rule’ made by Chrollo. It was something I never thought of when writing this analysis or just as I am watching the anime and dissecting the manga.

How would his demise be?

I think his demise would be ironic and symbolic. As an avid fan of Teleseryes, anime, and a reader of many book series, I know what I’m talking about. His death would be satisfying to both him and the reader. I am aware that Togashi defies the tropes of regular shounen manga, but this ending is the best in a way that it is shocking and satisfying.

His death would be bittersweet. - His death would seem cold, yet twistedly satisfying. He would have nothing to lose. I have to stress it again, that he’s a man who has nothing, and for him, death is inevitable. Remember what Melody said? “He walked with death by his side” That means that the man is really prepared for his demise and feels satisfied whenever it would happen at whatever point of his life.

I can see that his troupe members would be in heaven already. Him being cornered by either Kurapika or Hisoka (if Hisoka wants a re-match). He’d be happy if Kurapika killed him because the boy will get what he wants because he knows that nothing good will happen in a life full of revenge. Kurapika will just regret it in the long run.

Yet, he would die with a smile on his face. A genuine smile, not the one that he’s showing to the people he manipulated. It would be the only time Chrollo would feel happy because he can join his troupe members in heaven. (If they are ever going there) He would be happy to be with the only people that he cared about.

In his conversation with Neon, which showed his human side (but of course, in typical Chrollo fashion, he used this vulnerability as an Uno reverse card and manipulated Neon with it) he showed that he genuinely believed in the afterlife. In life and death. In heaven and earth. In sin and forgiveness. In my headcanon, Chrollo is a devout Christian like myself. He prays every night and day.

His favorite bible verse in someone’s headcanon that I also agree would be Corinthians 13:4-7 “Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily anger, it keeps no records of wrong. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

This exact verse shows that Chrollo is someone that has sympathy, as much as he is portrayed as evil, in fiction’s black and white principle. But, he always cared for the Phantom Troupe. The troupe is above his life. The number tattoo that they have shows his loyalty and how he would instill to his members that “once you’re a spider, you’d always be a spider”. As said before, the troupe is the extension of his identity.

The million-dollar question: Is Chrollo capable of loving someone?

As much as I am the Chrollo fucker that I am, I will answer you wholeheartedly, No. Why? You may ask. Because at the end of the day, Chrollo is a thief, a wanted criminal with a high bounty on his head. Having a significant other can throw him off from his highly unattainable ambitions, from him achieving what he wants in his life.

When I was writing my OC, Zara, that was partnered with Chrollo, I started thinking about this deeper. Since Zara is an OC of mine that is like the opposite of Chrollo. She wanted simple things like a family and a husband that will love her forever. - Chrollo doesn’t want all of that. As I said before, what he wants is the treasures and knowledge to fill his empty void.

I don’t think Chrollo is someone who is capable of loving someone. - That is my opinion.

Like he isn’t the kind of guy for a long term commitment. He will fuck, but he’s the kind of guy to leave you behind. He sees that his troupe is far more important than some girl/man that would leave him if they knew he was this wanted criminal.

As much as the troupe is a piece of huge evidence to show that Chrollo is capable of loving people in a genuine sense, but his love for his troupe is limited to familial and mutual respect and trust. It isn’t something that should be taken into a romantic context.

Chrollo’s relationships minus the troupe will always end up in an abusive standpoint. It will always be filled with Chrollo feeding his partner lies about himself just to get what he wants. I said in his past that he never had anything, so he wants to take away everything from other people.

Without his manipulative nature, it would be hard for Chrollo to express love in a genuine way. I can even say that he’s like Kurapika in this department. They both are emotionally constipated people. Yet, they express it in a different way, being traumatized in different ways. Chrollo, unlike Kurapika, he used people to get what he wants and not push them away.

Since I am not a registered medical professional, I am not going to diagnose Chrollo with a mental illness. Like surely he does, but without proper knowledge, I cannot personally deliver it to the reader.

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rpbetter · 4 years ago

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Today I learned a popular vent blog is repressing submissions about the drama with the now defunct resource blog. They probably have a relationship to the resource blog admin, or they are the admin. I know two people who sent submissions that were not published, but new submissions they made after were. The admin is silent after inquiries about it. They are ignoring everyone who tries to talk about it. It is so hard to find a place in the rpc that is transparent right now, a place that does not censor people who need to get things off their chest. Of all places that should keep their bias in check. It should not be a vent blog. That is one of the last places people go when they can not confide in their rp partners, or people in real life. Sometimes just having a vent post published can be everything. It is more silencing than people think.

Okay, I do know what you're talking about. I've said in the past that I specifically look around the RPC to gauge a rounder set of experiences, problems, etc. That blog is such a place that I have visited in the past to do so, and I have both noticed and been told what you're telling me now. I will admit, because I do believe in honesty here as a part of transparency one should strive to uphold off of their RP and personal blogs, that I have held exactly these suspicions since the blog choose to "handle" recent events the way they did. That is why I was paying attention to the disparity in both original submissions published and the responses to them.

What I have seen is a little uncomfortable feeling. It isn't just The Topic itself, it's also anything relating too closely to that mun's repeatedly expressed positions on things as well. Well, you know, a frightening number of people do feel the same way, do engage in those behaviors, so I am willing to believe that I am merely seeing shit where it doesn't exist. I am, after all, just a person, doing what people do, being fallible. I'm not acting on any information that anyone else out there isn't privy to, I also want t be clear about that. It's the opposite of my interest to withhold information, make it up, or inflame the situation.

Like everyone else in the RPC right now, it's incredibly difficult to not be suspicious. So many really ugly things were revealed and transpired, it was like every three hours there was something horrifying and new going on. And the way that it was left off, with the meme blog mun and with that vent blog just served to chafe those feelings for many.

So, again, while I am not trying to give this all a spritzer of gasoline, and neither am I acting on any knowledge none of you have, I've had suspicions since the time that vent blog decided that it was fully appropriate to refuse action for what went on that there was a bit of a personal connection going on. When your blog has established that it will mass-block people for far less, but suddenly, over this, it's a useless effort not going to help anyone? I'm sorry, that's suspicious to me. If nothing else, it was incredibly shitty to tell muns who were targetted because of interactions on their blog to just get over it and be adults when the adult thing is to approach the mods (hello, it does stand for moderator) with concerns, and this is a serious concern.

One that has done exactly as you say - effectively shut down venting and communication on that blog. I love that the direction is constantly to take things to the comments lmao gee, I wonder why no one is willing to openly comment anymore? Total mystery! Could it be that even you feel you can handle potential harassment, you don't want to endanger anyone else who might not be able to? Possibly.

Venting has a negative connotation here anyway, that doesn't help. Months before this all happened, I was seeing an increasing number of people equating such blogs to burnbooks, or at best, "childish echo chambers."

However, venting on one's own blog is not alright either. We're not supposed to have a visible problem with anyone or anything they're doing, ever. It's supposed to work out every time like this: you approach the person(s) causing you this problem and discuss it maturely with them in private, the issue is resolved, and everyone goes off into the sunset crapping rainbows. Double ones, even.

The problem is...it doesn't work out like that very often. That isn't to say it shouldn't be your first action, it should. Sometimes, especially if you've been both lucky and extremely careful about your writing partners, you'll be wonderfully surprised and it'll be a great conversation that helps both muns. So much of the time though, it instigates a fight because everyone is automatically defensive as hell, or one or both muns are so afraid of that happening that they'll refuse to have a meaningful confrontation (confrontation is not always negative, we need to stop viewing it that way). One or both say whatever is necessary to smooth over the problem, while they change nothing at all, making the feelings of anger so much worse.

And maybe, this problem isn't that big of a deal, one needs to work themselves up into addressing it, or they've cause to actually fear the other mun's response to them.

So, they have three options, and none of them is alright with the RPC:

vent to a friend - this is unacceptable because it is always seen as talking shit behind another mun's back, bringing drama to others, and trying to force people to take sides, no matter how much none of these may be the case and hold a lot of variables depending on the type of venting and the relationship of the muns involved

vent/vague on the dash - not always the same thing, not always occurring at the same time, and not always invalid either, but always viewed as incredibly malicious and wrong. Even if the result was either getting the friend who wouldn't stop refusing to engage to have a meaningful conversation with you or finding a new partner because someone else has been experiencing it too, you know you're not going to do this to each other, and a mutual you've been ignoring is now a valued partner

vent on a vent blog - seen as even worse than venting on one's blog in some corners because it's a more open to visit place, it's just stirring up drama and fights, this makes everyone feel vagued about and suspicions and accusations of being mentioned/mentioning someone run wild. Everyone wants a drama-free dash, no one wants to allow anyone a better place to do it

Venting is important. I think it is necessary to maintaining a less explosive environment. It's called "venting" for a reason!

Maybe it is the most ridiculous complaint in history, but those things do build. And build. And build. Until they blow up all over in someone's face, it might even be someone totally innocent who happened to be in the right place at the wrong time with exactly the worst coincidental words spoken to you. These places allow for people to get it out without hurting anyone's feelings or starting a massive argument when it wasn't even anything that serious. They offer, or used to, different perspectives that let muns feel seen while helping them to decide whether they are just blowing things out of proportion, misunderstanding/potentially unaware of another aspect, or even in a worse situation than they were allowing themselves to be aware of with a harmful relationship.

It goes beyond just venting when there are conversations going on about the topics! Sometimes, people just need to feel like they're not so isolated. Sometimes, they legitimately lack the tools and perspectives to approach a problem more directly or successfully. And yes, sometimes, they even need to see that this is kind of shitty of them and they should reevaluate.

Vent blogs are difficult to manage.

We all have biases, and when it comes to more personal situations we can recognize or see ourselves within, that is never more likely to become a point of extra difficulty to keep in check. This is actually why I left that vent blog the first time around, there was way too much bias being expressed with a mod taking it upon themselves to opine on submissions, fight with people about them, and refuse to post them while vaguing about them. Among other, increasingly perturbing behaviors I had no desire to keep seeing daily on my dash.

When you decide to create or accept a position moderating such a blog, you have to know that you will be thus challenged. Someone is going to vent about someone you'll recognize, a situation you feel passionately about, or say something in a vent that upsets you. You have got to remain visibly impartial. Go on and vent about it yourself to friends, write a post on your personal, do whatever the hell you need to in order to not be visibly biased and acting upon that bias.

I see blogs like this, as well as other places of moderation, often becoming incensed and offering the angry justification that "mods are people." Yes, I should hope you are! No one is saying you must be an impossibly perfect person without opinions, biases, or mistakes. We are holding you to a higher standard of you deal with these things out in the open where you hold this position, yes. That's literally what your job is, my friends. Go off about it, feel your feelings, even cultivate a block list from that blog! But you don't show it, you don't ever make people feel worse when the point of your blog is to allow them a voice.

The only time you need to give a personal opinion is when it is requested or you need to express that a submission was declined/comment had to be moderated due to you exercising your judgment that it violated the rules.

This is supposed to be a safe place for muns to anonymously let it out of their systems and discuss these topics. Not a place where they'll feel exposed, judged by the mods themselves, and denied a voice because of a mod's biases being exercised.

And I'm extremely sorry that people are being made to feel this way, all over again in some cases, because someone cannot handle the position they took up. I'm sorry for the whole community who has lost an important outlet. I wish that I could recommend another place for people to go that might provide a better experience, but as yet, I do not. Hopefully, that'll be changing in the near-enough future, but for right now...all of the vent blogs I was familiar with have long since closed down.

If anyone has any currently running vent blog suggestions, I'd love to know about them and share them! Please, they do have to be legitimate vent blogs. I'm not going to recommend here that might be too close to actually being burnbook-like, deals in publishing URLs, and so on. If you want to engage with that, it's absolutely your choice, but it's not something I want to give certified approval to on this blog, and I hope you understand why. If they're legitimately anonymous, safer places serving as vent blogs, let me know so I can check them out for a few days and publish your ask!

It wasn't my intention with this blog, though I did offer that a couple of times just to get people talking about problems important to them in the past, but if you want to vent here, I'll do my best to publish them (unless you request otherwise) in a relatively timely fashion.

I'm just not a proper vent blog, and people should be aware of that! I do offer opinions on those matters. It's more in line with the point of this blog to do so - I want to be able to give some point of assistance in publishing them. I cannot promise, therefore, to be impartial, but I can promise to not judge you or ignore what you send because I don't agree, am tired of it, etc.

I'd just ask that, once again, everyone realize that sending hateful messages to me isn't going to result in me being nice to you in return. If you've a complaint to lodge, lodge it respectfully if you desire to be treated that way yourself. This blog will publish anon hate, that doesn't mean I'm going to be nice when you send it. Anything else, however, I will genuinely try to offer you the opportunity to be seen and heard, some advice, experiences I might have had with a similar issue, and to approach it fairly.

Sorry that everyone is going through a hard time, that it just doesn't seem to stop, and probably will not for some time now. Thank you for sending this, I hope it made you feel a little better! That has been, and will continue to be, my objective in publishing asks relating to this matter - I just want everyone to feel like they have some agency and respect somewhere, that they're being seen, and that they have the support of others in the community.

#answered #anonymous #vent blogs #tumblr rpc #drama cw

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courtedclover-a · 5 years ago

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

tagged by: i thief tagging: anyone that sees this on their dash & wants to do it :)

MY MUSE IS: canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated.

IS YOUR CHARACTER POPULAR IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED HOT™ IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK

IS YOUR CHARACTER CONSIDERED STRONG IN THE FANDOM? YES / NO / IDK

ARE THEY UNDERRATED? YES / NO / IDK [ if i had a dollar every time someone calls clover a side character or diminishes clover by calling him a knight in shinning white armor or saying qrow would be dependent on clover’s semblance or clover is the solution to all of qrow’s problems, i could buy the entire state of texas ]

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN STORY? YES / NO / UNSURE

WERE THEY RELEVANT FOR THE MAIN CHARACTER? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG /

ARE THEY WIDELY KNOWN IN THEIR WORLD? YES / NO

HOW’S THEIR REPUTATION? GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON? fuck canon my oc now. okay look i just think if you’re going to make a foil compliment character to one of the main characters can you at least keep them for more than one season?

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals. name a sexier middle aged adult male character in rwby other than clover and qrow i’ll wait. clover mfing ebi has big strong arms, wide chest with pillow sized tits, pretty green eyes, tight af uniform--all for no reason but im grateful. his fighting style is the first, i believe, to use a non-lethal weapon. in rwby every weapon is a gun, bazooka, or flamethrower etc. shitty af atlas is described as the america of remnant and the kingdom is known to make robots and guns and ships--even the general wields guns but my man clover out here fishing the grimm. name me another character with a non-gun weapon i’ll wait. clover’s known to keep a kind yet professional distance with everyone until qrow branwen showed up. clover was the one person qrow could be himself with and i say this with a non-shipping bias. qrow didn’t need to be uncle qrow, or qrow branwen of ozpin’s inner circle, or qrow branwen of former team strq, or qrow the drunk, or qrow the lone wolf, or qrow who brings misfortune--NONE OF THAT! qrow could be himself when he was with clover and again i ask you to name me another character, that we the audience have seen, qrow was able to be himself with i am waiting. clover was the one person we as the audience could see qrow have an engaging and honest relationship with and as qrow was learning who clover was, we the audience were too, and they took all that away to be “ooohhh we kool storytellers we use shock as a device” maaaan you could almost say clover des--

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?). cop. he was a cop and i hate it. they made an elite law abiding cop team have three poc on it? okay. they made the leader of this cop team have a sort of captain america base, but forget steve rogers in the first avenger dropped his uniform mid-war to go rescue bucky?? steve even has a scene where he’s asking his superior to go save his friend and he still goes to save him when he’s denied and THEY HAVE THE AUDACITY to say clover is pre-winter solider steve???? just say you planned clover’s death since the beginning and i’ll go.

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE? despite clover being the fisherman’s luck aesop tale and having a fishing/ocean motif, when i learned clover also has a bird motif too, like his hair and weapon is a kingfisher, i was like ‘oh, i guess clover and qrow really are foil compliments. that’s cute.’ and here we today still crying about fg and clover ebi

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING? spite. i see clover reduced as a piece to qrow’s story/development and im like SIKE. i literally made pets headcanons for clover like a day ago. gotta make my own food.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

DO YOU THINK YOU GIVE YOUR CHARACTER JUSTICE? YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO?

DO YOU FREQUENTLY WRITE HEADCANONS? YES / NO / SORT OF?

DO YOU SOMETIMES WRITE DRABBLES? YES / NO

DO YOU THINK A LOT ABOUT YOUR MUSE DURING THE DAY? YES / NO

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR PORTRAYAL? YES / NO / SORT OF?

ARE YOU CONFIDENT IN YOUR WRITING? YES / NO / A LITTLE BIT

ARE YOU A SENSITIVE PERSON? YES / NO. / SORTA

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL? i don’t mind at all as long as you are nice and understanding. if something it incorrect to his character building then by all means i don’t mind being corrected. representation matters.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU TO EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER? of course! i do not mind questions at all to anything about my muse! i love talking about him and it makes me so happy that you're interested in my muse! i’d love you for it tbh

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY? not really. plots, threads, meta, and opinions about the canon show are totally okay to talk about and discuss and even disagree, but my muse and my headcanons? please do not even try.

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT? the unfollow and block buttons are literally right here. for free. for your convenience. literally do me the favor.

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT? literally shut your computer off damn. they’re all fake. these characters are all fake. it’s all pretend my guy. relax.

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS? i don’t mind at all as long as you are nice and understanding about it. english and spanish sometimes flip flop between my one brain cell.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN? i think i am. i am shy, i don’t usually start conversation easily or keep them going. i think im funny. i always say yes when ppl ask for certain plots/thread/ideas and i know im slow and annoying.

#ooc.#early munday i suppose #just a little rwde #rwde //#long post //

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ryoshan · 7 years ago

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whew this idea came so spur of the moment so scuse the reused banner. so it’s christmas right? i hope you’re all having a wonderful day regardless whether you celebrate or not, and to those having rubbish days: don’t worry, it’ll be over soon, and in the meantime there’s always wholesome videos of an elderly british gay man who loves dogs on yt! this christmas also marks a year (ish, since i don’t remember the exact day we opened blogs) since me and @gainhope joined rwby rp on tumblr. back then we were just a yang and a ruby, now we here covering most of the cast between us!

now, i know the rwby rpc has had its up and downs over the last year, but for me (despite the few months where the hiatus totally got the better of me) it’s been a majority of ups. i don’t think i’ve ever connected with a community so strongly since 2012 dragon age rpc before inquisition came out. i don’t think i’ve ever made so many close friends so fast, and it’s those that make an rp experience, in my humble opinion. so here’s a little list of the people i personally want to thank. please don’t be sad if you’re not mentioned!! this isn’t a follow forever, it’s not a bias list, it’s a shout-out to the friends that have made the last year in rwby rp as fulfilling as it has been.

best friend squad

@gainhope / you’re the ruby to my yang, the rose to my white. there’s so much i could say about you that can’t fit in a single paragraph. i wouldn’t be here at all if it weren’t for you, but it’s so much bigger than that, because our friendship has been a staple in my life long before you introduced rwby to it. i wouldn’t be half the person i am without the love and support you’ve given me, and it’s been a damn pleasure to watch you grow in every aspect of your life too. we’ve seen each other through some tough times in the last year, and we’ve had some of the most fun i’ve had all year too. life isn’t nearly as big and scary, no matter what’s going on, while i have you by my side. i love you more than anything, and here’s to another year writing infinites together.

@galateian / again i cant fit everything i could say about you in one paragraph. you’ve supported me through some incredible bollocks, you’ve suffered through glasgow on friday night with me, and our discord pins are a source of such utter joy i’ll never be sad again. i can talk to you about anything, and i fcuken do, and i don’t know where i’d be through more than just this last year without you. can you believe it’s been what, six years? i sure can’t, and here’s to six more, possibly in guam, definitely with no less than 16 dogs and an absolute shed load of ugly furniture, loved like only we can. ily jen.

@nvvrrmorr / holy shit can you even believe it’s been almost a year since i drunkenly dragged you into a long conversation where i danced around the ‘hey maybe winter and raven should fuqqq 👀’ thing? we got so close so fast and i can’t thank you enough for sticking around past some Weird Relationship Drama you got roped into so early in our friendship, cause frankly, this year would have been a lot emptier without you in it. i love you to bits, i love our late night overwatch sessions, i love the unerring support you give me even when i’m legitimately being shit, and i love how easily we write,,, anything and everything together. bring on 2019 aye?

@liluura / we’ve come so far from me (anxiously) and jess dragging you into some cracky banter (and you being too dang FAST for our punchline) to walking down the streets of amsterdam telling you about the last time i took a shit. it’s incredible how quickly we became close, and even more incredible that not an inch of that closeness has been lost in a year where our interests have aligned, and then not, and then come together again. thank you for being you, and for being there for me, especially through one of the scariest few days of my life. i would have made it home without you after the netherlands debacle, i’m sure, but not nearly as calm having spent almost the whole day with you. i love you, soph, and i hope we’ve got many more years of friendship ahead of us.

the rarest of peeps / @washuman, @herguidance, @thuskindlyiscatter / you guys are absolute treasures to me. we don’t talk every day, but i’m always comfortable approaching yous with the most ridiculous of things. all three of you have written such fantastic stuff with me from sad siblings, to multiple developed ships. the things you have in common? fucken rarepairs man. pour one out for cinwin, glynter and catrilia to be quite fucken honest. also, all three of yous support my need to talk about charlie nonstop, so thank you.

horny bastards / @gcrdens & @hoardofheroes / ofc i had to mention you two together. it’s been pretty recent that i’ve gotten to know you two, but i couldn’t not include yous on this post because of the sheer impact you’ve had in such a short amount of time. you’ve both made me a braver smut writer. it’s not the only thing i love about your writing by far, but there’s something so refreshing about seeing yous unashamedly write your muses making babies (literally) all over the dash. yous are inspiring, and i hope we stay friendly for a long time.

team rryp! / @veiliisms, @paramithi, @ancestryfated (and dee, whose blog i can’t fucken find) / listen guys, we might not all talk as much as we did once upon a time, but team rryp will always hold a special place in my heart as being a time i dove into social interaction with (almost) strangers and lived to tell the tale. it might not seem like a big deal, but sending dabbing asks of all things as part of a group made it so much easier in the long run to approach people in future and man, what a great way to do it. i love you guys so much.

special mention / @lunyrd / not only have you been like a happy cheerleader behind me constantly throughout my rp experience, you’re a gem in my twitter feed as well. a day i wake up and you’ve tagged me in a tweet is a good damn day. lets do more writing this year, aye? i’ll get my finger out and get some starters up!

honorable mentions! / last but not least, maybe we don’t talk a lot or rp a lot (which should change js), but you guys have blessed my rp experience in some way, be it liking mosts or just filling the dash with inspiring content. i love you guys. / @tadmean, @wellbloomed, @canefought, @tyriannical, @becomeshield, @becomestorm, @gracedly

#long post #WOOOOFFFFT #merry shitmas bitches #bias list /#its NOT A BIAS LIST #but im tagging it for ppl who dont like seeing stuff like this on their dashes

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detroitbecomehumanwritings · 7 years ago

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In Your Hazel Eyes (1/?)

Pairing: Ralph/Reader

Rating: M to become NC-17 eventually

Chapter: First / Next // AO3

Summary: You are a customer support worker at a company that works for Cyberlife. The schedule is tedious and busy, so it’s easy for you to get caught up in the cycle of work-sleep-work without so much as finding something to smile about. You decide to take a new walking route one day and come across a garden, and in the garden, a peculiar Android that you grow ever so attached to.

This is the story of how you meet Ralph and fall in love, how you both find eachother again after he goes missing, how he learns to heal from his trauma and live like a free man after the revolution.

You weren’t sure how you recognized him. Through all the dirt and grime, the stolen clothes and the horrible injury that warped half of his face, you simply did not know how you managed to recognize him.

Through the fear that coursed through your veins and the adrenaline that seemed to stop time, all you could focus on past the knife he held towards you was the fact that this Android, this man--you knew him.

“Ralph?”

You knew him.

And that’s when his expression changed. From fearful aggression to recognition, and then finally to blubbering joy, the man in front of you dropped the knife to the ground, ran and pulled you into his arms so fast and firmly that you were grateful that he didn’t break or bruise something out of his pure and momentous joy.

“Ralph’s missed you,” is all he can sob in your ear. “He’s missed you so much.”

It freezes you to feel him, to hear him, but most importantly to see him in such a state. He’s covered in the thick blue liquid you knew clearly as his equivalent of blood, wearing tatters for clothes and--god--half his face looks like it was torched and battered in with something heavy. It hurt to see the damage, hurt something deep inside you to see him in such a state.

“Ralph,” the name is forced between gritted teeth, anger already beginning to seeth in your chest as you clutch him as close as you can. There are so many questions you could ask right then, so many things that you held onto for months and thinking they would never be answered.

But one question was prevalent among everything else, suffocating every other idle curiosity with a passionate, loving fire that felt like it was going to scorch him through your fingertips.

“Who did this to you?”

-- [Several Months Prior] --

Your life, for the most part, was as disinteresting as it could be. Though you knew there was maybe some bias in that opinion, considering you’d been living your life as long as you had known, it was still a relatively disinteresting life all the same. Your job was stable and your fridge had food in it-- those were already things to be grateful for--a life with too much interest was stressful anyway, and you didn’t want to deal with everything that came with it.

And so you started your day off like any other, readying yourself for another shift of work.

Despite having to shuffle yourself through one of the busiest sections of the city, you always appreciated the sights around you--flashing signs and ads detailing the next innovation of modern technology, the occasional blip of good things on the news (you always focused on the good). It was nice, lively even. It put some sound in your day, something to think about and cling to.

About halfway to work, there was a small garden in one of the larger city centers. It was part of some law or policy to integrate more greenery into the growing metal and gray roads, and you loved seeing the plants every day when you walked to work--they were a wonderful dash of color that always seemed to brighten your day; if those little flowers could grow surrounded by the chaos of the world and Detroit city, then so can you, dammit.

You even stopped to enjoy them on one of those days to work, your eyes boring into the petals and wishing you had that same unrelenting force of will that they did.

I’m proud of you little flower, you keep showing the world what’s what around here.

It was in the middle of that silent moment between you and the foliage that you were interrupted.

A tap on your shoulder.

“Do you like them?” Came a question, a soft voice barely a foot or so from your ear. It made you jump, having been so deep in your own thoughts you hadn't heard anyone approach you. Your head swirled quickly to the side to catch a glimpse--

It was a man. An Android specifically, but for all intents and purposes for your own spiritual beliefs, a man.

He was tall, body lithe without being stick-thin, hair a gentle blonde and eyes an even softer hazel. For a moment, you were silent, simply taking the sight of him.

“I apologize if I frightened you,” he finally said, tilting his head as the LED by his right temple flashed. “I saw you were enjoying some of the flowers and I am programmed to ask about it.”

You blinked, knocked out of your thoughts and finally sputtered some type of flustered answer of ‘they’rereallyprettythankyou’ before rushing off into the crowd and continuing on your way to work.

You didn’t look back to see if the Android tried to stop you, to see if he did anything other than continue attending to the small garden. Your heart was simply hammering out of both shock and foolish, but understandable social fear.

You ran the rest of the way to work thinking about those pretty hazel eyes.

Dealing with customers over the phone came with its own unique challenges, but ones that you’d rather deal with than having no job at all.

“Ma’am I’m sorry, but this is not a warehouse, we don’t keep any Androids here, you will have to go directly to the nearest Cyberlife store and--....Ma’am? Hello?”

You clicked the button over your headset with a groan, hoping that it wouldn’t be another needless negative remark on your quarterly report simply because the woman was trying to call the wrong person to begin with. It wouldn’t put you out anywhere, but it did feel stressful enough to deal with in the back of your thoughts, taking other calls and typing through the database to help with people’s orders.

It was numbing at the very least. Hour after hour passed without so much as a hint--you even forgot to eat lunch because you were dealing with a particularly complicated order issue.

“Sir, your Android isn’t even listed in our system--was he registered in the system?....I--er, I mean, I guess it, but I mean he is like a person to be--” You sigh into the phone. “Did you register it into the system of the store you bought it from?”

Work was work as it always was--the same things and the same people working for a company who sold Androids that looked, sounded and felt too human for you to be talking about them like a computer.

At least you had a job.

Other calls, other issues, all of them began to blur together until you were packing up to leave for the day.

The sun was already dipping beneath the horizon as you walked out the front door to the nondescript building, personal bag slung over your shoulder. The streets were still populated, but far less so than what there had been earlier that day--more peaceful, at least. One of the few benefits of working so late sometimes.

You let yourself get lost with nonconsequential thoughts for a while, eyes flicking between the sidewalk in front of you and down to your feet. Lights were starting to turn on around you in the street, flickering to life autonomously just as a police drone hovered overhead and turned a corner just up ahead--a relatively normal walk home.

Except you came upon the garden again that you noticed earlier that morning. The same garden you ran from--you never did get to enjoy the flowers before you acted like an unsocial idiot.

The overall landscape was easier to decipher with fewer people--it was a small park, honestly, perhaps no more than the size of a block of its own right, with one long sidewalk pathway that went down the center to make it easier to get to the stores on the other side.

The two major sections was comprised of large trees and a couple saplings that looked to be recently planted, but the outer area was lined with flowers. The colors carefully sectioned off in a manner that looked deliberate and, honestly, complicated.

There had been so much care taken to the garden that you couldn’t help but stop once more from your walk.

This time you took the time to sit at one of the benches on the center pathway, right beside some beautifully bright orange flowers that you honestly couldn’t name. Regardless of your own lacking knowledge, a lot of work had been put in to make them grow so well, that much you knew. They must had been cultivated with a gentle hand, since you don't believe the city contracted any massive landscaping company to do the work.

It was genuinely nice to take a few seconds off your feet--the constant sitting in your office cubicle had left you a bit out of shape to walk the full way to work and home without feeling sore and at least mildly tired. Perhaps it was worth it to take a break at the garden anyway--it was halfway between the two points.

You hummed and turned your head to the side when you heard a noise of someone nearby. With a blink, you realized that the slim, blond-haired figure who was kneeling in the dirt of the garden edge just a few meters away was the very same man you had abruptly run away from earlier.

Well, the same model at least. It was odd to think about Androids sharing the same face with so many others--like having a thousand twins. God.

He knelt there, simply tending to a patch of flowers without an ounce of focus on anything else. He reminded you of coworkers, when they were just too drawn into their work. He looked peaceful, like he genuinely loved what he was preoccupied with.

He looked completely human.

You weren’t sure what feeling pressured you the most to step closer to him; was it curiosity, gratefulness or, perhaps even guilt for what happened before?

Regardless your legs lifted you, walked you over to him.

“I uh--” you weren’t sure what to say at first. “Hello again.”

The man stilled, but finally turned to look at you, those same hazel eyes meeting yours for a moment before a smile pulled on his lips.

“Hello!” His tone was far too bright for it being so late in the evening, when most people were eager to simply go home after work. "You were here earlier today and didn't answer my question--was it out of line? I can take a report if you felt it was too invasive."

But he didn’t get to go home. He didn’t probably have a home. After a moment, you shoved that line of thought from your head and instead tried not to sound like a fool again.

“I uh--I’m sorry for hurrying off earlier. I like the flowers a lot--did you grow them?”

Your eyes drifted down to his chest, hoping to get a name or something so you didn’t have to try and bumble through the question yourself--Androids had names right? Something individual to them? It was always hard to tell when you only dealt with the customer service side of things for Cyberlife, and not even through the company itself, but a third party entirely that took on some of the jobs the company couldn’t otherwise outsource to Androids themselves and--

“I did grow them!” The man’s voice shoves you out of your own head. “I am assigned to this garden specifically and have been taking care of it for the last three years. The city has strict rules about the flowers and trees to be grown here and I am to ensure that they stay maintained.”

WR600. That’s the only thing you have to work with.

“They’re beautiful!” The compliment pops out of your mouth before you have a chance to stop it. It seems to make him happier, smiling almost like as sweet as a kid who is proud of his own creation. “I--er. Do you have a name?”

The Android blinked at you.

“A...name?”

There was a little creak in your heart that you chose to ignore, instead forcing a bit too much enthusiasm into your voice as you spoke; how could you expect him to have one? To a lot of people he was just a machine.

Just a machine to them.

“I mean, something you’re called, like...like a more specific number than...that--” You pointed to what must have been his serial code just below his model number on the chest of his green gardener’s uniform. “Except instead of numbers, its in letters.”

He blinked again, LED flashing yellow as he took in the information, but wasn’t seeming to understand.

“Okay, let’s try it like this,” You say with a raised brow. “Hello, my name is…” Just for an example, you repeat the phrase with your own name before gesturing for him to end the sentence himself.

“I don’t have a name,” The Android finishes slowly, pursing his lips together after a moment. There’s a beat of silence before he speaks again. “I was not needed to have a name, so therefore I don’t have one. “

That seemed unfair. That seemed very, very unfair in a long lines of unfair things you chose to ignore or downplay. Frustration filled your chest and you, quite suddenly, speak the first response that comes to mind.

“How about I give you a name?”

It wasn't obvious if there had been an overstep at first. Your words sounded half-annoyed, moreso at the fact that he could walk around and smile and talk and look at you like that with his pretty hazel eyes and just...not have a name? At all?

It seemed to be such a simple concept for things to have at the very least a name to their ownership--something that embodied who they were to others.

The Android tilted his head to the side, curiosity seeming to fill his otherwise confused gaze.

“....Am I supposed to answer that?” He asked. “I...haven’t thought about a name.” He thought some more, conflict making the LED on his temple flash between blue and yellow at a rapid pace. “I….would like it.” Another beat of silence, another flash of thought. “What would your name be for me?”

Oh damn. You were on the spot. You did this to yourself, after all, bumbling into the moment without considering why you had wanted to talk to this Android in the first place.

“Uh,” is all you can muster after a moment of non-thought. “Give me a moment--I need to think of a good one.”

In all honesty, that sounded a lot more sure than you felt. Names, what are good names?

Jeffery? No, that just didn’t sound right for him. Dennis? Still not right, too...wrong?

“Oh!” His body echoes yours as you brighten, a finger pointing at him in a eureka moment. “What about Ryan?”

The Android looks blankly at you for a moment before furrowing his brows and shaking his head. You huff and go back to fervent thought, recalling ever a situation when you had to focus this hard about someone’s name.

Robert, Daniel, Jack, Jacob….

“Ricky….R…..” The sound sticks to your tongue for a few seconds. It makes you sound more like a small dog than anything else, but you finally flick your eyes back to look at the man in front of you who looks so gentle, so sweet, so confused and curious all at the same time.

And then it hits you.

“Ralph!”

It sounded perfect. It sounded exactly like he looked, like what you saw in those lovely hazel eyes.

“How about the name ‘Ralph’?” You’re smiling like an idiot by that point, a silly little fool who is standing there giving a random Android a name and talking to him like he’s a friend--a person.

But it’s not that silly to treat someone like a human being,your thoughts echo from your inner conscious. He deserves to have a name.

Slowly, his--Ralph’s--expression blossomed into a smile.

“I like that name,” he said with a little laugh. “Ralph. Thank you. I….have never been given anything before.”

He looked gentle like that, gentle and happy and so oddly sweet--the fact that he was an Android was lost to you if only for the fact that you were giving this man a name, a literal name, and that simply didn’t register as right in your head at all.

You could see life and meaning in his eyes, enraptured as you were momentarily, life and meaning you wanted to know a little more about.

But it was late, and you needed to be home, start dinner and settle down to bed to redo the cycle all over again.

You hurried home with only a short couple pleasantries to the gardener, taking the time to shake his hand (to which he was really confused) and promise to see him again tomorrow morning (which must not have happened all that often). You weren’t sure if his soft wave goodbye or cheerful expression was something programmed into him or not, but it warmed your heart regardless, only emboldening a desire in your heart to see Ralph the next morning.

Life felt just a little bit more interesting now.

#dbh #detroit: become human #ralph #dbh ralph #sfw #sfw readershot #readershot #got i'm already in love with this plot save me #ralph readershot #in your hazel eyes #in your hazel eyes chapter #readerinsert #reader insert

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wonderingangelsuniverse · 7 years ago

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January 7th 2018

I’ve noticed something different in me which I think I understand. The universe is astonishing lately, keeping kind. It maybe because my wishes always vary from light to dark in some ways, so it doesn’t have to worry to much about how to find that fine balance between love and torture. I consider myself invested in my own growth as I tend to make sure I learn things I need to for my overall goals of becoming a better writer and most importantly so I may understand the humans more. I realize I have a fine sense of people/psychology as I have never truly been one myself, so I am able to take a not so bias embrace to what I’ve heard is truth from many voices in my lifetime. Mostly empathy not so much sympathy.

This brings me to my point. As we both know I’ve been experiencing raw emotions on a next level basis like I have never before felt. In any case I have expressed that I may need some assistance discovering what true evil within a person is like. I never expected in any way that I would become the dummy. It makes a very large amount of sense to me that in some aspects I must suffer in order to test what darkness is, but for me to be both the antagonist and the victim is a shock. Destiny is the greatest writer and although I too wish to be that good, I almost feel like it has a fairly high advantage over me. Over my existence, even at a young age, I have found that if destiny wants to shake anyone simple put it can, perceive or think such an outcome maybe not so much. Its kind of screwy, I have spent many, many of times writing out all the possible situations that may unfold upon the future. I have gone as far as taking bets with you. I feel like its not always entirely true as destiny attempts to persuade me otherwise with letting me predict small things. The problem is that it appears to keep an equal playing field for all the players in the game. If I am able to predict something then someone with an equal or better ability of anticipation an assumption can also interpret the next move. I can’t decide within myself weather to be mad or what, however my only outlet right now appears to be: to push everything towards the unknown. It’s because of the unknown that I am having these issues. This will never solve my problems and will only just do what I am proficient at which is to withdraw and berry any remnants of my issue. I keep finding myself having no reason to be so sad, not depressed, no, sad. A deep rooted sadness that makes me question if I’m going to stop living shortly. My lead theory is this strong inner emotion that often strikes me later in my day almost but most definitely heartbreak. I thought and I keep thinking, sadly, that I have once before experienced heartbreak undoubtedly, previously in my lifetime, however this is not true. We can come to this conclusion because of a recent discovery, one that separates admiration from lust. I’ve always understood love, as love is something given out. Love is not only something given out but something us humans are often exposed to at a very young age. I however have had a real tussle with lust so far. Not necessarily in a bad way but in a very confused way. Confused to the point that the only thing that makes sense to me, may not make any sense at all in the long run. I feel like the conclusion I have come to is both easily agreeable and nearly identical to the literal definition which should lead me to believe I am correct, although, from my point about destiny, I surprisingly may not know definitively. Let me explain, admiration is an extremely intoxicating feeling that makes me unable to get enough, because I find this person to be godly beyond and I must impress them. I fall unable, silent in fact, and yet I absolutely crave that persons presents. No matter how imperfect, their imperfection becomes my idea of perfection. Simple put, envy to an extreme. Lust is completely different is it not? I have gathered at some point that both lust and admiration enjoy holding hands romantically while they gaze at the vast illuminated ocean at the days end. Lust picks at me like ticks in hidden places, making me yearn for something I want desperately. I don’t consistently want actions from a person, but I feel a consuming warmth, like I’ve been eaten. I feel my blood rush in response to the ticks. The ticks are no unpleasing in anyway, but exactly the opposite of pain. I find myself taken away by lust just as I am taken by admiration except the dreams I have of lust are pearly sexual and admiration treats sex like its embarrassing.

In middle school the trendy thing to do was to have a boyfriend. I have to say I’ve always admired the idea of an intimate relationship with another. As I am/was female and ignorantly unable to be anything else, questioning the boy part in the word boyfriend wouldn’t cross my mind. What I wanted in my partner wasn’t sexual and just included sex in the package, so what did it matter to me? I was never repulsed by the thought of having sexual interactions with any gender anyways. In factuality I had already had intercourse with a male before I even entered the middle grades. I found it very glorious on a physical level. When I found the right guy, it would be both physically good and emotionally good as well, right? I was positive that the right guy would spark greatness in every encounter we made together. Wrapping this up I had absolutely no way of telling or evidence to reconsider about my partner not being a male. Why would I ever set out to make my life any more difficult then it already was? I scouted the halls of the middle school for the perfect male partner, even when I had a boyfriend, and was regarded as very happy. I was even admired for my cute little half cocked relationship I graciously accepted my way into as a kind favor. I loved the thought that someone genuinely enjoyed who I was, and could easily be broken emotionally if I were to protest. I’ve always been quite a kind and gentle soul. The boy I did end up admiring, key word, was a kid I thought was perfect in his appearance. I had little to no idea about him and in no way ever wanted him to mount me. I was addicted to how I felt about him however, always speaking of him kindly, and felt disingenuous stringing my so called current boyfriend along for no reason. If I had to break his heart it was going to be over the truth. The truth was simply because I didn’t find him, or in his defense any man, ever to be sexually appealing. I didn’t feel anything but love for him as a good overall person. always feeling that way over and over again towards admirable male personalities. Back to my walking art piece. My luck was quite fantastic when it came to wooing over the male I thought was perfection, sense I ironically had picked up many females online before. Definitely not an overly obvious hint to my clear lesbianism. I persuaded him to go out with me for a whopping ten days. I however was completely ignorant to this fact and avoided him like the pledge. I thought he genuinely rejected me sense he dashed off and didn’t answer my question. When I finally did catch up with him I found many people cheering in shock for whatever reason. Turns out he had admitted he would like to date me for some unknown reason. I didn’t understand this at the time so I was completely crushed into small shards of melting glass pieces when I did come to the realization. We did not love one another, I am still sure of this, but we were going out for an entire ten days. We never actually hung out or chilled, or did anything at all. He just kind of acknowledge my existence, stuck some half ass gum in my hair and made sure to remind me that my life was shit occasionally throughout those days. It was when he broke up with me and I realized I’d momentarily squabbled my chance that I was truly tortured. I retired from ever going back to my only public school option therefore deciding I could easily be self taught. I have only ever know this as heartbreak.

You however maybe wondering quite deeply at this point on, why or,who or, perhaps how, I managed to become heart broken considering I haven’t been with anyone as of late. I’ve acquired many deep and meaningful connections with an assortment of types of humans so far. One of my dear friends for example displays a personality type I like to consider like minded. Their like mindedness gives my brain a magnetic pull of justification. This person is always ahead of me on deep beliefs/concepts that I try to explore making them everything I could find attractive. I guess hiding that this person is female would be silly at this point, but you’ll have to excuse my need to be discrete. I did mention that I didn’t want to desire to struggle in anyway if I didn’t absolutely need to. Having a partner who could communicate both appropriate and clearly to me some of the answers in which I often seek out hands me no reason not to want them by my side forever. I find them both attractive physically and mentally, although I am unable to give out any physical features they have, I am sure you know whom I am speaking of Pain. Possibly I could go on and on about how I have been emotionally connected to this person, however I am not witting this out to cause myself inner conflict. My opinion on this person hasn’t seeped into the quicksand, because it was ultimately I who decided to be a masochist. That’s right I chose to stomp on my completely legitimate feeling. I debated spiritually and mentally about it but inevitably asked the universe to give me the ability to truly open up to her. How would I ever get anywhere in our already existing relation ship if I am constantly clouded by emotions that I don’t have a license to drive? It seemed illogical to me for many reasons. One major cause being that we had already spoke about in some way of, us. She didn’t break my heart because I find that she does love me dearly. Quite sad isn’t it? Already it’s unfortunate, although I am entirely to blame. It is I who fell for her. It is I who didn’t stop me, and it was I who made the end choice of continuing. Even at the time of discovery of my feeling, I still felt back then that I wasn’t a lesbian. I debated long and hard with myself on the topic of whether or not I believed that I honestly enjoyed who I was as an individual. All because of this heartbreak I poisoned myself with. I have always stuck true to myself so if I did decide that I hated me, it would be a difficult task to change who I am, nearly impossible in fact. I really can’t justify disliking my character in anyway due to my overall life accomplishments.

Finally all of what I have written about will come around now into my new thoughts. I asked the world what true evil was like. The only evil I have ever found is greed. Now I know that true evil can and will come from within. Sense I am now extremely heartbroken in order to speak with a dear friend on the same level, regardless of all the circumstances, I am pissed off. I am unable to be regretful about all of it, I am unable to be to angry at her in anyway sense she has done nothing wrong and doesn’t deserve any form of ridicule, and most important I am not going to be mad at myself for this shit that I didn’t sign up for. I didn’t say I wanted to be gay, I didn’t say I wanted to love her in that way, nor lust. I in no way said yes. I asked the universe questions, I asked the universe for favors. Oh yes I fucking nearly begged for love, because that’s what I was sent to this plane for. I was sent here as a human to do human things and be human and I REFUSE to take the blame for doing what I was called to exist for. No, I caused this, I undeniably did this to myself. I am the victim of my own crime and yet I have no choice but to be entirely angry at the universe. I will thank it, I will take more, I will complete any task it asks of me, but it can’t really be frustrated at me in anyway. NO, if the universe is a friend of mine then it should allow me to be mad. More Importantly because of the truth that it is I who both caused and was effected by said heartbreak. It has ripped a black whole deep with in me. My purity ruined by myself. I see the evil. I see it. I lay my gaze on the darkness I feel, how it manifests from the this sadness.

Edit from the Future: Blackhole of sadness not heartbreak but a deep warning from the pits of space calling to me, watch out.

#universe #dear diary #help #heartbreak #heartache #signs #therapy

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Ohh, 6, 9, 11, 19 and 25. For all the games, but if it's too hard to pick, you can have one by game :p

Thank you, Serahne!!! ^ v ^

From here: https://kimmysfandomblog.tumblr.com/post/170470327942/lafumiko-hi-people-i-was-searching-for-a-good

Spoilers for V3, so these are under the cut!

6. Favorite plot twist?

DR1: Gosh, it’s a tie between Sayaka being the one killed and even planning to kill to escape the game and Naegi escaping execution!!! Bot of them realy threw me for a loop! I will say that discovering Sayaka was murdered left the greater impact, though, and was the reason I stuck to Danganronpa early on. It blew my mind at the time!

DR2: Hajime being Izuru/the “mastermind” was the most shocking thing to me! I really wasn’t expecting that??? I really came to love Hajime a lot by this point, and was feeling incredibly sorry for him already. When we were exploring the school for the last trial’s investigation and the Hope Cultivation Plan came up, I kinda figured it out. I don’t think I connected the dots completely though, ahaha. Also, just the fact that all of them were evil and responsible for spreading Despair worldwide was such a great plot twist, in my opinion!

DRAE: There weren’t many plot twists in this game, but I guess the most shocking was that Monaca was not an invalid. Like, she was pretty obviously the one running the show, and she was obsessed with Junko, but her faking being handicapped to control both her family and friends for sympathy and to get what she wanted was a genius plan on her part!

V3: I honestly didn’t like them all that much, especially Kaede not being the protag. The ending one where Tsumugi reveals everything is a lie (literally) wasn’t bad or good in my opinion. Like, I wasn’t necessarily disappointed by the ending like I thought I would be (that one was spoiled even before the game released in Japan because I couldn’t blacklist on PC and thought going through Hajime’s tag would be okay :( Damn you, dataminers!!!), I kinda just accepted that this was it. Also the trio being alive was not an exciting plot twist in the least (I love you Himiko and Maki, but your survival kinda makes me go ehhh with how the game ended). I guess that only leaves Kaito being ill and dying before his execution killed him as my favorite! I really liked how that last execution (not counting Danganronpa’s execution) was the reverse of the very first execution we see (Jin Kirigiri’s), and I already loved Kaito. It was nice that Kaito’s final goodbye was a middle finger to Danganronpa’s theme of killing the blackened with an over-the-top execution!

9. Favorite Ultimate Talent?

These are all very tough decisions…

DR1: Ultimate Biker Gang Leader! I honestly would never expect such a talent to exist, and I gotta wonder how HPA was able to gather data for that talent, hahaha. It helps that I found Mondo endearing even if he swears a bit and reacts with violence. He hast a golden heart full of regrets, and I liked his backstory! Also the talent itself is just… really cool.

DR2: Ok, so this is kinda weird, but Ultimate Lucky Student. Makoto was a totally different kind of Ultimate Lucky Student than Komaeda’s, where all-in-all he is an average guy and his luck only affects him sometimes. While that is an interesting talent, it’s not as interesting as Komaeda’s. Komaeda is probably the truest definition of Ultimate Luckster! His luck is tragic. It takes away any personal relationships and turns it into materialistic fortune. It is so powerful it warped Komaeda and his view of the world drastically. Gosh, it is very interesting and gets me wondering what could possibly happen around Komaeda because of his luck in different situations and with different people. Truly, a fascinating talent that I wouldn’t bestow on anyone!

DRAE: There were only a few people with an Ultimate Talent here, haha. I liked that Kotoko was the Ultimate Li’l Drama who actually will not perform for anyone (understandably) and the Fighter of the Group! If that counts, haha. Otherwise we only have Byakuya, Fukawa/Syo, Makoto, and Komaeda (and technically Izuru but he is on the screen for, like, 5 seconds and has every talent, so that would be boring anyways). If I had to choose between the four talents without Komaeda repeated, I think the most interesting would be Syo’s Ultimate Murderous Fiend! It’s really interesting to me that she’s a split personality of Toko. I kinda have to wonder how Toko can get exhausted easily, but Syo can slash and dash, even hurling herself several feet in the air, without breaking a sweat!

V3: It is a tie between Ultimate Anthropolgist and Ultimate Mage Magician! Unlike with the previous installments of the series, I was able to just see the talents before knowing the characters, though, so Ultimate Magician was the one that really caught my eye since I’m obsessed with Fantasy AUs, especially of the RPG kind with that class system! I’ve also always been really fasinated by Magic and magicians in general, haha. After playing the game, though, Kiyo really sold me on the Ultimate Anthropologist talent! I was a Cognitive Science major in the school within the university that focuses on the humanities, so not only am I very interested in human cognitive thinking as individuals and as a group, but I took a lot of history and some anthropology courses. I really nerded out with Kiyo and Shuichi during those FTEs! History/Folklore is truly fascinating!

11. A character you’d revive?

Alright, this is a tough one for some of these because most of the ones I liked who died died “well,” as in their story was finished and satisfying. I’d surely love to see them alive again, true, but if we are going by canon and I could only bring back one, then it almost feels cheap. Kinda like “DR3 cheap.” That makes most of these characters not my favorites, but ones i felt deserve a second chance/should have survived.

DR1: Ishimaru. He isn’t my favorite character (I’m honestly gonna place him in the “he’s ok!” range), but he clearly didn’t have any satisfying development. You can’t get FTEs from his Kiyondo form, and he dies having done very little as Kiyondo other then some inconvenience regarding Alter Ego! It would probably be super interesting to see what he would do in later chapters, and if he ever snaps out of it in the chapters after.

DR2 (assuming the DR3 anime never happened): Saionji died for nothing, let’s be real here, lol. She was just barely going to reform herself and become a better person, and then she dies, offscreen, on accident. A friend also helped me realize that we never come across her murder weapon. I think that what would have been the best solution was not having a double murder. Plus, it would make it interesting to see whether she is able to forgive Kuzuryuu at all or not, how that affects the groups trust in each other in later parts of the game (since it is really hard to get close to her since she doesn’t trust people easily), and especially her reaction to being Ultimate Despair, as well as her growth spurt.

DRAE: Chihiro’s dad Taichi. He and Yuta died for shock, but how sad would it be if he was alive and found out his son was killed? And that his son’s legacy, Alter Ego, survived? Man, what a tragedy! It would have been nice to see him tag along with Toko and Komaru to the adult’s base and maybe try to hack into devices, or slowly give upgrades to Komaru making her life a little easier. He could also join Togami and leave Towa City. He’d be an incredible asset to Future Foundation, but he would either refuse out of grief, or he’d take time to warm up to the idea, before accepting and becoming the head of any project regarding the Neo World Program/Alter Ego Chihiro, working closely with Miaya, and keeping close to those who had been Chihiro’s friends.

V3: hmmmm, this one I don’t know for sure. It’s between Hoshi, Miu, Kiibo, and… this may surprise you, but Angie as well.

*** Angie Negativity, you can skip it ***

I hate Angie, but she honestly needs the story development. She got the most abrupt ending, another offscreen death, and no resolution. Honestly speaking, if she had a better story and some form of redemption/questioning of her actions, I would like her a lot more. She just never learned that what she did was wrong, and unlike in her FTEs, telling her “no” made her stick more to her own opinion. Like, initially I didn’t like Celeste in CH3, but I actually grew to like her because she had that backstory that made her want to be more than she was, and she anyways accepted her death in the end without being spiteful and ruining the secret of Alter Ego, even giving the others a hint of where she kept him. She was leagues a better character than Angie. Angie, I was starting to kinda accept her after finishing her FTEs when I was still in CH2 (even if I hate the racial stereotypes, what with orgies, sacrifices, etc). She really made me mad when she refused to listen to anyone else and manipulated others to agree with her (I have an extremely soft spot for Himiko and Gonta, so my bias didn’t help her at all). I’ll give her that she’s really sly and a lot smarter than she tries to let on, but her cutesy personality combined with manipulation to convert to a religion, suggested by light brainwashing using her paintings (and the fact the others were converted overnight), all so that she can get whatever she wants, and then not seeing any kind of downfall: no backlash or consequences because of what she did? It makes me mad. I’m sorry. I hate her and yet, she is one of the people I’d revive, hahaha. Geez, I honestly tried to like her despite my initial feelings I would dislike her, lol.

*** End of Angie Negativity ***

Kiibo dying while the other three survived is something that rubs me the wrong way since he almost never got respect until he was destroying the school, even when he was one of the few character that were actually helpful during the trials. Honestly, if the others survived, which, given the ending, was kinda pointless, then him surviving as well wouldn’t detract from the impact. Seriously, if anyone deserved to survive, it would be him or Maki.

As for Miu, her death felt like a cop out, for some reason. I can’t explain it exactly… I know that her being killed was because they needed her to go after Kokichi, so that they could get him to trick Gonta to kill her, but it feels wrong somehow? Like there was unfinished business? She had the electrohammers, electrobombs, a remote control, and a bug catcher, her more amazing inventions, made after her death. All her upgrades to Kiibo were very useful, but not as amazing. A drone and the camera set up are really simple, too. Her working with Kokichi on these amazing inventions feels like a plothole instead of plausible. It would be really nice to see her survive since, despite being vulgar, she’s really entertaining! And I wonder how she’d react to being told she wasn’t real, nor was she actually a genius inventor.

And I can’t forget Hoshi! He died horribly for no reason. Kirumi could have bashed him in the head with a tennis racket, or against the wall or something, after she knocked him out. There was no need to pin the blame on anyone. The second trial p*ssed me off so much because it was unnecessarily convoluted and cruel for no reason and anyways made no sense. My heart truly goes out for Hoshi. He had a horrible life! He was imprisoned for killing the Mafiai, was a true hero, and I wish he could have learned that he could find something to live for.

So yeah, V3 was the hardest for me this question, hahaha. I honestly can’t choose between these four. BIG SIGH

If this was bot the answer you were hoping for and you just wanted to get a list of my faves who dued, it would go like this: Sakura, Komaeda, Taichi, and Kaito! Priority goes to Sakura since Ko lives post-canon, hahaha

19. Favorite Free Time Events

DR1: Alright, honestly I need to actually play this game myself. I’ve only seen LPs of the game, and the anime does not have FTEs. The only FTEs I recall are Sayaka’s, Chihiro’s, Ishimaru’s, Kyoko’s, Sakura’s, and Asahina’s. I don’t think I can really say which is my favorite, but I really like Sakura’s and Kyoko’s. I just… can’t remember most of their backstories ^^

DR2: DR2 had too many good FTEs. Komaeda’s are probably the ones I liked the most, though? I didn’t care much for Komaeda initially. He was an interesting character, and I didn’t hate him (I was very neutral). I felt like there was more to him, so when I played the game myself after abandoning the LP I was watching, I went after him first and it changed my mind completely! I like it when a character’s background is explained and matches consequences and actions the character makes during the main story, and DR2 did this really well for my taste. Komaeda’s helped explain everything and made him a sympathetic character and helped me to understand him. Of course, it also sparked the Koma/Hina shipping, hahaha. If I had to come up with a runner up, it would be Souda’s for a similar reason! His also ties really well to the main story, especially with not being able to finish his FTEs until like after CH4, after he is done doubting Hajime.

V3: I’m stuck between Kiyo and Maki’s. Kiyo’s had more of an impact on me, though, because it flipped my initial suspicion I would hate him. Him being fascinated with anthropology and teaching Shuichi about it made me seriously love him as a character even though I was sure at the time I would hate him since I was spoiled about the incest plot twist. Maki’s was really well explained and tied nicely to the game’s story. She is kinda like Komaeda, in a way, hahaha. She had a tragic backstory because of her talent, been through hell, lost someone very precious to her, and her talent makes her actively try to avoid people and trust them. And, like I said before, I like FTEs that help explain why a character reacts the way they do (although in her case, a small part of her FTEs do land up in the main story, so I say they were slightly less effective, but tied better to the story)

DRAE doesn’t have FTEs, but there are explained backstories of the kids, and I loved Nagisa. His was the most relatable, with all of that pressure to succeed, never feeling good enough.

25. Saddest Death

DR1: 100% Sakura’s!!! She’s a real gem of a character, and I wish Danganronpa had more female characters that were like her! Anyways, she was so interesting, and not just for how she looks or her talent, but that she was the traitor torn by family duty and her loyalty to her friends. She thought that the best way to end this killing game was by sacrificing herself so that the group would not be split. She was so selfless and loved so much, yet she was treated horribly in her last hours because Monokuma made sure to make her as disliked as possible. And then he spits on her death further by stealing her last letter and will so he could use Hina to make the trial more interesting. My heart goes out to her more than anyone in DR1.

DR2: My gut instinct was to say “Komaeda” or “Nanami”, but truth be told, CH2 wrecked me! Peko’s execution really got to me because, firstly, I never suspected her, and secondly, her backstory with Fuyuhiko and the fact she killed and died to save him made the execution 10 times worse to endure! I hadn’t seen her FTE’s all the way through the first time, but I saw most of them and while she hadn’t been a favorite, she had a cute personality! I really did like her!. What made her death worse was Fuyuhiko’s reaction and him trying to intervene. I’m getting shills remembering it ^^;

DRAE: Most probably Taichi! Though it is hard to choose between him and Yuta, Taichi’s was the one that was most tragic, because up to his dying breath he was so excited to be able to have the chance to meet his son again. I mean, even if he did survive, his son would still be dead, but somehow it just felt worse than Yuta’s since we seemed to get to know Taichi better (he worked at Towa for the company, we talked to him more and his love for his son).

V3: Another hard one, and it is between Kaede, Hoshi, and Gonta… I feel like none of these three should have died, or at least for Gonta and Hoshi, not the way that they did. Gonta’s was the one I felt the most emotional over leading up to his death because of the present feeling of how Kokichi betrayed him and the feeling of how it wasn’t even his fault, really. Kaede’s I felt the angriest at because she was 100 times a better protag than Shuichi and I loved her. It doesn’t help that her death was especially tragic and her execution was gruesome (not that Gonta’s wasn’t gruesome, but it was too weird for me to feel much). Hoshi’s I felt the saddest over during the trial because of just how not-fair this was. I don’t even hate Kirumi, I really hate the writers for the trial because of all the pointless and illogical parts of the case and how Hoshi was murdered, but I ranted enough about it.

#thank you for the ask serahne!!!#ask meme #mehere #character hate #serahne

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eren-s · 8 years ago

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tag game

Rules:

Always post the rules

Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you

Write 11 questions of your own

Tag 11 people

tagged by: the lovely @tatakaeeren thank youuuuu <3

tagging: @yaboylevi and @uttsukushi because i would love to to know your answers to some of these questions and all that but don’t feel pressured to answer this if you don’t want to c: also tagging anyone else who wants to do this

1.- If you could date one anime characters who would it be?

These type of questions always make me think that i love things differently from other people... or something? lol because i never get a crush on the characters i like... i know this isn’t mean to be a serious question and all that, you know but kahjdkhasjdg i won’t date anyone lmao i prefer being by myself even if it gets a bit lonely sometimes

2.- What was your first anime?

Definitely dragon ball, i have many many memories from it from my childhood, my mom still doesn’t like it haha my brother on the other hand loves snk and levi is his favorite, he also watches some other animes from time to time

3.- Fictional character or real people?

Fictional character, i have been there and loved real people (as in idols etc) and it’s draining and tiring and not something i would like to do ever again lol

4.- What’s one of your dreams?

Writing a book, i have had this dream since i was a child and i actually wrote a so called book when i was like 13 haha but it’s a mess so i have it hidden somewhere in my room, i also used to get praises here and there when i wrote poems, etc for school. Tbh idk if i will ever be able to accomplish it because the career i’m majoring in, in college has nothing to do with this type of thing so yeah but maybe some day as for now i still write fics in my free time

5.- Favorite books of all time?

I wish i read more buuuut i will just mention the one i’ve been reading recently which is ‘everyday’ by david levithan, i have yet to finish it, but i love the way it’s written and some of the things the author writes about in the book hit close home for me, i have some favorite quotes as well and i just love the book jasgdjhsagd gotta finish it before this year ends

6.- What’s your dream country to live in?

I like my country but maybe spain, places i would like to visit tho: korea and japan also any other countries in south america because all i know is my own country and i’m curious lol

7.- Isabelle/Levi/Farlan or Armin/Mikasa/Eren?

why... the shiganshina trio because the bonds of friendship between the three of them are lovely, as for the acwnr trio... it makes my heart ache and i can’t watch/read it w/o crying lmao

8.- What’s your otp (only one)? Eren + happiness

9.- Drabble or Fanfic?

Fanfic, although i really admire people who can write short things ajsgdjhasgd haha how do you do that

10.- Your hogwarts housse (if you don’t have any cause you’ve never made the test just answer muggle, or go made it !) -

11.- How many time do you spent on tumblr ?(daily)

…I check it several times through the day but the time i spend on it varies? it depends on wether or not i’m trying to upload gifs or something or if my dash has new content or if i’m talking with someone and stuff like that haha i think i spend more time over at twitter

12.- Your top 3 anime openings?

Sora ga Aozora de Aru Tame ni by Glay

Know know know by Does

Guren no yumiya by Linked Horizon

13.- Quick! you have the power to bring one character back from the dead (with no secondary effects) who would it be?

Carla Jaeger, jsagdhjasgdhjsa Eren has been missing his mom for years, i just- need okay

14.- If you could crossover 2 animes, which ones would they be?

omg gintama x shingeki haha that would be soooo funny to watch

15.- Choose 3 hair colors.Ok. Ready? Now tell me your fav character with that hair color.

pink hair - kominato haruichi

white hair - gintoki

black hair - hijikata

16. Guilty pleasure?? (food, music, movies, etc)

food: like anything sweet, i love sweets... cakes, ice cream, cookies, etc lol

music: maybe those songs that are famous and that you don’t want to openly like but you end up liking them anyway?? haha

17.- Pick two characters to protect you and the rest will kill you [choose from here x]

yo eren and luffy for the first part and then the rest could kill me

18.- In which anime do you think you would fit the best if you were to live in their world?

relife... i have no idea if you have watched it but i am one of those adults (ugh yeah i’m an adult lol) who feels like their life isn’t going in the direction they want it to go and i really love the idea that the author of this manga (which was adapted into the anime last year) offers, it deals with important topics such as: depression, suicide, being unemployed/not being successful at the expected age by society... the consequences it has in your life and stuff like that? i just think i would like to live inside that universe because the characters are really really kind towards each other and they help each other out and there’s the particular relationship between the protagonist named Arata and Yoake which is the person who helps Arata to ‘relife’ his life haha (spoilers maybe if you end up deciding to look this one up) anyway this relationship esp is my favorite, i just LOVE how they support each other

19.- A night out! ..pick 3 characters and tell me: who is buying the drinks, who is the designated driver and who is the one dancing while singing barbie by aqua

hanji is buying the drinks, annie is the designated driver and the one dancing while singing barbie by aqua is definitely sasha

20.- A movie that you can watch a million times and will never bore you? Why?

any animated movie! be it a disney movie, or one from studio ghibli, i... really love animated movies

21.- Do you have a favorite seiyuu(s) which one(s)?

I’m not much of the kind of person who gets enthusiastic over voice actors or any other type of famous person in the industry tbh... not even the authors of the mangas itself because i don’t like getting invested into people but rather i fell in love w/ the characters they create more than anything else so i don’t really have a favorite seiyuu

22.- How would you like Snk to end: everyone dies, a bitter sweet ending, a happy one or an open ending?

Victoria you sure love making these kind of painful questions lol jk but i haven’t really thought about it, being realistic there’s no way there’s gonna be a happy ending at least not a “wholesome” one i think? I would really hate it if everyone died at the end though... at least one of these persons who sacrificed their lives has to live to see a new beginning, or new something start... i don’t care who although my bias would love for it to be eren and all the kids (and the vets) but just someone, you know? As for an open ending it depends... like what if it ends right before eren is about to die... or on some really ambiguous scene? tbh i would like to feel satisfied with the ending more than anything else be it a happy/sad or open one just something that ties everything up nicely... that’s my humble opinion

my questions: ( i will just write 4 or 5 because this is long enough as it is and i’m not a really creative person lol )

- What’s one thing you really like about yourself? - What do you do to cheer yourself up when you are feeling down? - Do you play any instrument? - Are you a cat person or a dog person?

#tag game #pp #this is long and i talk A LOT so if you read this thing till the end thank you in advance #gracias <3

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silenceisbetterthanbs · 8 years ago

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K-pop question tag

I was tagged by @suju-bangtan and @jinilin <3

a. Always post the rules. Answer the questions asked then write 11 new ones.

b. Tag 11 people and link them to the post. Tell the person who tagged you that you’ve answered their questions.

@suju-bangtan:

1) Who is your favorite girl group?

Tough question. I used to love 4minute and 2ne1 but if we’re talking about active groups then it’d be either GFriend, Blackpink or Mamamoo. Dreamcatcher is slowly going up my list too, I really like their style.

2) Who is your favorite boy group?

B.A.P. I just love them and their work so much, all their songs are perfectly crafted in every way, and they’re so lovely, hardworking and talented. They’ve been through so much but they fought together and are still trying, I really admire them.

3) Are there any choreographies that you love the most (from any group)?

I have to answer B.A.P again. I just love their choreographies, I think they’re so complex and well executed. I particularly love Power and One Shot but all of them are amazing, really. There are other incredibly talented groups I love too: GFriend, SHINee, Infinite and BTS, to name a few.

4) Do you prefer when groups release hype songs or when they release chill songs?

Normally I like hype songs better, there are some ballads I love but they’re usually my least favorite songs in an album.

5) What was your favorite debut song (from any group)?

I don’t want to turn this into a B.A.P biased meme buuut I love Warrior lol, I’m not a big fan of the all-blond style but I really love the song and the choreo. My other favorite debut song is Fanfare by SF9, I fell so hard for it, had it on repeat for days.

6) Are there any groups you wish that were not underrated/would get more recognition?

I’m going to write a lengthy answer for this and it might not even make any sense so I apologize in advance lol.

I try not to think too much about this because it’s dangerously close to what I personally consider “bad fan-etiquette”. Doesn’t matter how much someone screams underrated, it’s always a biased opinion. A specific group might be the best thing on earth for me but it doesn’t have to be for the rest of the people, everybody has their own taste and their criteria of what’s important in a group. Not only there’s no real way to objectively rank idols based on how good they are or how popular they deserve to be, but I feel like it shouldn’t matter much anyway. I know there’s a limit of how “nugu” a group can be before they disappear so we all worry and fight hard to make sure our groups are known, but as long as they get by well enough to survive I don’t care too much about awards and number of views or stans. Sadly, that’s not really how you measure talent or professionality (even if some people like think so), let alone how lovely or hardworking they are. And sometimes talent isn’t even relevant, in my opinion, sometimes you just like a group simply because you do and you’re perfectly entitled to. I don’t like forcing anything on anybody and I don’t like putting value where it doesn’t belong.

Stuffy rant said (sorry for that, it’s a topic I’m somewhat passionate about and I couldn’t help it lol), I’m going to answer this question anyway. I personally wish B.A.P and Monsta X had more recognition, in my very biased opinion. B.A.P was on a really good path before everything went to hell because of the lawsuit issue, and I think it’s really unfair because they were brave enough to fight back and they ended up being punished for it. And Monsta X is doing so well and they’re so good but they still haven’t won anything and they think it’s their fault, so it’s frustrating. But there’s nothing I can really do about it besides “doing my part” and buying/streaming/recommending them when asked, so why complain about it.

7) Do you choose your biases or do your biases choose you?

They choose me. I always try to choose and stick to it but it’s inevitable, they come for me hahaha. When I get into a new group I choose the cutest member and go with it, but then I get to know them and usually someone else does something that makes me go ‘who are you and where have you been all my life’.

8) What’s the first Kpop song you heard?

Fantastic Baby by BIGBANG.

9) What made you fall in love with Kpop?

I just love the aesthetics and how professional they are. I was in awe, the way they train for this and how hard they work for every single comeback after they debut. They have to sacrifice so much to become idols, they spend so many uncertain years trying to debut without even knowing if they ever will – and when they do, it’s not like everything is done and they’re going to live in luxury the way popular Western artists do. Being an idol is really hard and the competition is brutal, you never know how long you’re going to be up. It’s amazing, you don’t see this kind of commitment and professionality around here, in my opinion.

10) Do you have an merchandise of your favorite groups?

I do! I’m very picky when it comes to merch but I own several t-shirts/hoodies, lightsticks, photocards and some other goodies.

11) Do you have any song or group recommendations?

You seem to have a very nice taste! I feel like you’re going to know everybody I mention. I saw you just got into SF9, Pentagon and 24K. Do you know MVP? They debuted recently and I love their stuff so far! I also got into Victon recently thanks to Eyez Eyez.

@jinilin:

1) Favorite kpop music video?

Aw man, how am I supposed to choose. I’m going to say B.A.P again, sorry. I love Skydive, 1004 (Angel) and Wake me up, such good videos. I love VIXX’s mvs as well, they’re always so dark and dramatic. I love EXO’s Monster, Monsta X’s All in and BTS’ Run too. I can’t really choose one hahaha.

2) Favorite girl group dance practice?

I love 2ne1 and GFriend’s dance practices.

3) Favorite boy group dance practice?

Monster by EXO. It’s so artistic, I love it.

4) Who’s your ultimate bias and why?

My ult bias is Bang Yong Guk from B.A.P. Where do I even start. I feel like we’re very similar, he looks introverted and quiet and someone who is very active inside his mind, but who is also funny, quirky and sassy. I feel like I’d feel really comfortable around him. I don’t know how to explain it, he seems to have a nice and calm aura and I feel so at ease with such people (introverted things lol). He’s really smart and socially aware, he doesn’t speak much but every time he does he says the right thing. He’s such a good caretaker, all the boys love him and respect him SO much, I feel like it says a lot about him and how he makes people close to him feel. He’s an amazing person as well, he does so much for other people and gives so much to charity, I feel like we don’t even know half of it but it’s already impressive. He’s so incredibly talented too, he plays such an active part in the creation of their songs and they are always so good (and so is the rest of the work he does under his known pseudonym.) I could go on forever but I won’t do that to you lol basically, he’s an incredibly amazing and gorgeous human being, an amazing leader and a talented artist.

5) Who’s your ultimate bias wrecker?

Most of the people I stan, really. I just love everybody so much, they move up and down on the messy list all the time. They’re all amazing. I guess I’d say the rest of B.A.P if I had to choose, specially Youngjae.

6) Have you ever seen a kpop group live/been to kcon?

I have! I went to KCON LA 2016 and I’ve also seen EXO, GOT7, SHINee, Red Velvet, AOA, FT Island, Tiger JK and Dean live. Amazing experiences, all of them. I’m really hoping they’ll do a KCON in Europe this year.

7) Is there a group you want to see live?

B.A.P! They’re coming to Europe next month but nowhere near me and I can’t take the time to travel far because of work (all the dates are weekdays, WHYYY). I’ve already seen Monsta X and GFriend at KCON but I’d love to go a solo concert, that’d be lovely. I’d love to see BIGBANG, VIXX, BTS (if it’s in a seat far away from the rest of fans), Mamamoo, Highlight and Block B too. Who am I kidding, I’d love to see everybody I stan lol.

8) What was your favorite comeback of 2017 so far?

B.A.P, of course hahaha. I’ve loved many comebacks and debuts actually, obviously Highlight’s “debut” is a close second but I also really liked GOT7, Winner, Day6, Victon, SF9, Teen Top, IMFACT, BTS, CLC, AOA and CNBlue. If we’re talking about debuts, I really liked Dreamcatcher, MVP, Seven O’Clock, Black6ix and UNIT BLACK. I’m probably forgetting a couple debuts/comebacks I loved lol.

9) What upcoming comeback are you looking forward to?

Highlight’s Junhyung is making a solo comeback soon and I’m super excited about it! He’s my BEAST/Highlight bias, and I love his work and rapping style. I’m high key excited about Triple H’s debut too, I love Hyuna and Pentagon so I’m looking forward to see what they come up with!

10) Is there a group that you know of that you want to get into?

I have what I call my “side-children”, it’s basically groups I check out when they come back and occasionally see on my dash but I don’t actively follow. I’d like to get more into them, I don’t know much beyond the music and I wish I did. Groups like KNK, IMFACT, B1A4, 24K or Brave Girls, among others.

11) What’s your favorite kind of album concept? (royalty, cute, gang, elegant, sexy, etc.)

I usually like any concept as long as it’s well done and it fits the group, but I’m not very into cute concepts. I tend to favor dark and aggressive concepts best but I don’t have a favorite, I’m in for anything if they can pull it off successfully.

I didn’t give you straight answers, I’m sorry hahahaha. I just love so many groups, it’s really hard to only choose one. I really tried to keep it small, I swear.

I’m procrastinating at work and I can’t think of anything original to ask so I’m just going to recycle your lovely questions, sorry :P

What made you fall in love with K-pop?

Who’s your ultimate bias and why?

Who’s your ultimate bias wrecker?

Do you choose your biases or do your biases choose you?

What was your favorite debut song (from any group)?

Are there any choreographies that you love the most (from any group)?

Favorite dance practice?

What was your favorite comeback of 2017 so far?

What upcoming comeback are you looking forward to?

Have you ever seen a K-pop group live/been to KCON?

Do you have any song or group recommendations?

I tag: @bumgee, @b-laxk, @lovelyzc, @kirspel, @gotsoulmates, @the-princejinyoung, @daehdream, @tzefoxes (I can’t tag you for some reason :/) and if someone else wants to do it consider yourself tagged!

#as usual #you don't have to do it #i just don't know who else to tag haha #if you like these things let me know and i'll tag you #mine #tag game

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sorry for so many but 7, 12, 17, 21, 27, 30, 34, 37, 40, 46, (girl squad) 51, 53, 55, 57, 67, 73, 76, 77, 78, 80

Sorry this took so long to answer but there were a lot of questions!

7. Who of the actors is your favorite and why?

Ooh, this is really tough because I really think they are all so talented. They all do such an incredible job portraying emotions without having to say anything.

However, I do think that Josefine and Thomas did a really incredible job in season 2. I think Josefine especially does a lot of good job of portraying emotions without speaking. There are so many scenes I can pick out where I could feel what she did, just from a look. I also think they together were great, they seemed to have a lot of natural chemistry that didn’t seem forced. I will also probably never get over the anxiety scene. They played off each other so well. Hence why I’m still mad that Thomas bailed, so much potential.

12. Do you think skam handles what it’s like to have a mental illness right?This is difficult since the only main character that we see firsthand experience anything (which we don’t see diagnosed) is Noora and her anxiety. I do think it was very important that they did show it and a way to help someone with anxiety. Of course there is Even with his bipolar, but you only see Isak’s experience with Even. Having a mental illness and being around/helping with someone mental illness are two very different things. There is also Vilde who is it is implied has an ED, possibly Noora has experience with that as well. I do think that Skam does much better than most television shows with addressing mental illness, but they haven’t yet really delved into having their main character having a mental illness which would be interesting to see for sure. Especially to further undo stigma attached to mental illness. To wrap up this long answer, I don’t think skam has properly handled what it’s like to have mental illness right, since they haven’t had a main character directly experience and deal with it every day.

17. Do you know any series similar to skam?I really can’t think of any American shows that are really similar, I would maybe say Friday Night Lights, only because I think it has that element of realism and emotion that Skam does. But really American shows about high school don’t come close to Skam at all.

My Mad Fat Diary is a good one I think that’s fairly similar. I think that handles mental illness in a real raw and good way where the characters are also in high school. I highly recommend that.

21. Would you want to go to Nissen? Why?I would want to go to Nissen solely so I could experience russfiering because it looks really fun and I’m sad I didn’t have one. I am a little bitter I didn’t get to be a Russ, because who doesn’t want a month long country endorsed party while you don’t really have responsibilities? Also I really want to know what their schedule looks like? What time do they start and end? My high school was much different. But, I have no desire to go back to high school.

so this doesn’t clutter up dashes I’ll put the rest under a read more!

27. What scene made you the happiest and why?This is also tough. Honestly I love all of the slomo scenes, but the top would be between the girls walking to the penetrator party and William and the boys getting out of his car or the hills but that kind of doesn’t count.

Overall I’d have to say the scene where Noora tells William off for being an asshole. The girls really hadn’t been friends for that long and Noora really went to bat for Vilde. And I think girls supporting girls is very important. Especially to the guy who really seems untouchable and is never put in his place. It’s also impressive that she essentially does this to the most popular, coolest guy in the entire school as someone who is brand new to the school. I love the idea of her taking back the balance of power from the boys. Plus I mean there is no better song for the end of it than Bossy by Kelis, it’s perfect. I love that scene a lot.

Also in the running are when William tell Noora she’s beautiful and when Noora sings Justin Beiber to Eva and when Noora gets caught lying about Eskild not being home.

30. Is Skam your favourite series?I have a hard time ranking shows, but I would say that Skam is definitely up there as one of my favorite series. It’s just so well done and really doesn’t sugar coat things and treats teenagers like people. It’s handles a lot of difficult topics well and has very relatable characters.

34. If you could be best friends with any character who would it be?I would have to go with Chris because I love how she just doesn’t give a fuck about what anyone thinks of her, which I could always do more of and she’s hilarious. I think she’s a very underrated character.

37. What is your opinion on (character name)?I didn’t see a specific character for this, so I’ll skip it for now, but if you want to ask again and pick a character I’ll do it!

40. Which character is most like your best friend and why?I think my best friend is a combination of Noora/Sana/Chris. Noora’s style/makeup. Sana’s protectiveness and fuck you attitude when necessary. Chris’ goofiness and humor. If I had to pick one though, probably Noora just less serious.

46. Do you think skam handles sexuality right?This is a very complicated question. Sexuality is a spectrum and basically in all media it is lacking. I do think that skam did a good job with Isak’s season to address his struggle with coming to terms with his sexuality. I think it was especially important his conversations with Sana about religion and sexuality and also when Eskild got really real with Isak and his bias/prejudices. Isak is a very flawed character and so was his story.I also think that they did a good job handling Noora and how she felt about her sexuality after her experiences with her prior boyfriend and also the entire Nico situation.Sexuality is deeply personal and complicated by our own experiences.I do think with what skam has addressed, it’s done a good job, but as with all media they have a lot more they could do in terms of representation, but they’re doing better than most shows. Especially in regards to teenagers.

51. Who is your favorite squad member and why?I would have to say Sana, because she gets really real with all the girls and comes off as a bit rough and prickly, but she protects and takes care of her girls and wouldn’t let anything happen to them. I love her humor and how she handles when people question her and her choices. The talks she has with Noora and Isak are so important. I think she has a very mature viewpoint.

53. What do you think is most important about the friendship of the squad?What I think is most important about the friendship of the squad is them just supporting each other. They start out really not having close friends at a new school and very quickly are supporting each other. From Noora defending Vilde, to Sana throwing a drink at Pepsi Max for calling Vilde a slut, to them all leaving when Sana runs out of the party, to them going to the doctor with Vilde twice, them taking care of Vilde when she drank too much, to the fight with Iben, to them at the cabin, to them all being there for Noora when she thought she’d been raped to when William left. I just think that it’s important that they’re there for each other.

Especially in high school which is a complete emotional mess, I love that they have each other. They fight, but at the end of the day they’re there for each other and protect each other.

55. What do you hate about the squad?I wouldn’t say that I hate anything about them. I think I just dislike how judgy they can be of each other at times, but teenage girls are judgy. I guess I also don’t like how at parties sometimes they just split up and not see each other again? Like at the help the penetrators party or william’s party in 2x3. But there’s nothing I really hate.

57. Do you have your own squad?I do! It would be the girls I lived with in college (lol this is where everyone figures out I’m old). We have a named group text and everything and I pretty much text them everyday.

Kollektivet

67. Who would you want to share rooms with?already answered!

73. What is your favorite fanfic or headcanon & why? I honestly don’t read/look for much of either but let me swoon over you by @kiranstein is super cute and I love it. Go bug her to write more!!

76. Did you learn Norwegian for skam?I have started doing duolingo for Norwegian almost every day since I started watching haha. It’s actually been really good for me getting back into language learning.

77. What is the most crazy fan theory you’ve heard so far?That s1 or s2 was just build up to s3. Because both Eva & Noora had incredibly important journeys. The illogical William hate. Or that Noora isn’t a feminist or vastly changed from s1 to s2 because of her relationship with William.

78. What is your most favorite gifset?There are a lot of good ones so this is terribly hard but two of my favorite colorings are this one and this one even if the scenes are sad. Also one where they managed to make the super purple more than words scene look normal but I can’t find it.

80. What is a fandom related url you wish you had?I actually quite like my url, but I think initially I wanted damnskam, instead it’s the title of my blog.

#thank you for asking!!#feel free to ask more!#q&a #skam questions #just me talking shit #Anonymous

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tarnishedtrust · 8 years ago

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i’m going to try to say this in the least bitchy way possible because that’s not how i intend for this to come across . . .

a few days ago i posted a message about hamilton being less problematic than other founding fathers . it was made in the heat of the moment in a situation where another user was dragging him for the affair while boosting another revolutionary figure who’s done , in my opinion shittier things , but they were comparing their actions in a way i felt was disproportionate in nature and was like comparing a punch in the mouth to a gun shot to the head . it seemed ridiculous to me which is why i posted . shortly afterwards , i felt that my post was just as ridiculous because it sounded awful out of context and i promptly deleted for that reason .

i never meant to offend anyone or play off hamiltons shitty behavior . so i apologize for any offense that had been caused , that was never my intention to make anyone feel bad or upset . in the past , i have frequently spoken out about his treatment of maria via the reynold’s pamphlet and it being just as bad as what james did to her ( ironically i got flack for that ) . my point is i know he is not flawless and does have problematic traits : they all do . my main point of the post was if you are going to drag him , drag him for something that can match the problematic nature of the this other revolutionary figure you are setting on a pedestal .

in the future i will try to reframe from posting in the heat of the moment , that’s when my tunnel vision and bias take control , but if you feel personally offended come talk to me ? please don’t run off vaguing and talking behind my back to your friend group because i’m not in high school anymore and i’m tired from that kind of behavior . i’m fairly chill person when it comes to admitting i fucked up --- which is why i deleted the post in the first place .

like i said before i’m not being a bitch or anything . i’m just trying to clear the air about a situation i didn’t know existed because no one came to me when it happened . again i am truly sorry if my post offended / i don’t come on here for the sole purpose of hurting people . i am also not going to tell anyone to get over how their feeling about me . i’m not like that . if you don’t wish to be friends or rp partners , i’m not going to bother you . there are plenty of people who have dropped me as a mutual and i usually send them a message wishing them a happier dash . i get it . people don’t agree and if that’s a deal breaker than i get it . please don’t feel like if you come to me to discuss something that’s upset you i’m not going to call for a witch hunt or anything like that . i’m literally the laziest person on the planet and hating people is hard work i’m not up for . i suppose that’s everything i wanted to say .

#✧. elizabeth trash personified / out of character

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lilysbook · 8 years ago

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Ramblings: Reflection

My 3 weeks of freedom is coming to an end in 3 more days.

The first week was filled with apprehension and anxiety as I busied myself with the thoughts of finding a part-time job right away before my internship officially starts. It seems that I had forgotten how tough it was to get a job. I sent several resumes and even had an interview however time was a cruel factor. After a few half-hearted attempt in securing a job, I realise that I would not get this opportunity again in the near future. The opportunity to just do nothing. To rest and relax after 3 years of monotonous and toxic environment, I can afford to rest for a mere 3 weeks, can’t I? So rest and relax I did.

In the second week, there were news of EXO’s grand comeback, and EXO’s official SNS were created. Rumors about teaser (and eventually official news of the teasers) started to arise. SM dropped individual teasers at 12am KST each night for their title track.

It was the beginning of my fangirl experience in comebacks. I was on twitter 24/7 and I think that I am an annoyance to my non-EXO twitter stans who had to see all my fangirling EXO tweets, so I am a little sorry about that. As this was my first comeback experience (EXO was my first ever kpop group I am obsessed with), I had no idea what to expect. So, I stayed up every night to wait for the new teaser alongside my twitter timeline that became frenzied every night an hour before it was released. The experience was in a word... fun. I had a sense of comradeship with my fellow EXO-Ls (although I don’t have any common mutuals -- I usually tweet and talk to myself loll). But I had a great time reading, liking and retweeting. The best part was 5 minutes before the teaser. Everyone in the timeline was filled with anticipation and excitement so it’s so easy to fall into the delirium as well.

Kai was the first member in the teaser. Even though I had been excited just a minute before, when the teaser opened with the catchy tune, my heart dropped. Kai had dreads. Disappointment mixed with adoration. Kai looked so cute as always but he had dreads. My stand on it is that it is cultural appropriation and that it is not right for those not in the African culture to have it. Some don’t share my view but I think it is still wrong. He had dreads during the Wolf era as well and he did not like it so why now? Many (including me) defended him saying that the stylist/SM were the ones who forced it upon him. However, now we know that Kai was the one who requested for the hairstyle which disappointed me even more. He needs to be educated about this and some EXO-Ls had planned to do so. Hope that the message will reach him and he will be more knowledgeable about it and hopefully he would stopped wearing that hairstyle.

Baekhyun was next. The first thing that I did was to laugh at his hairstyle. But as time goes by, I think he pulls off the mullet really well. I fell in love right away with the song in his teaser, Forever. Kyungsoo’s line “Don’t break my soul...” was a clincher.

There were many theories of whose teaser it will be the following night. Some said it was in alphabetical order, some said it followed the old songs order, some said it was the appearance in the teaser of the previous member. The last theory proved to be right (well, only for the first few nights). Chanyeol was the one to appear in the teaser. I loved his cotton candy hair. I love any hair that is bright. Chanyeol look so handsome in the teaser. The song Chill was awesome too.

Sehun came next and he looks good as always. He had grown on me over time. I always look forward to him when he is in variety shows. He has that natural entertainment sense. Anyway, he was amazingly badass in the teaser. His chest was covered with tattoos and his gaze was intense. I was like, woahhhh the maknae has grown up!

The next night was Suho. I love Suho and his awkwardness. But there were no traces of awkwardness in his teaser. He looks dashing even in the various weirdly-styled outfit and his centre-parted mob of hair; both fits him perfectly. Suho is very princely and he has that royal aura surrounding him. As expected, that is our leader with high ranked visuals.

We were left with my top 3 biases: Kyungsoo, Xiumin, Chen & Lay. I know now that Lay is not in the comeback, but back then, I still had that tiny hope that he would appear the last night or something. Anyways, I was still so grateful and happy that SM saved my favourite boys for the last.

The next night was Xiumin. Wow. I was so speechless by his ethereal beauty. Is Minseok even real? As I have posted often here on Tumblr (LOL), Xiumin is my bias wrecker. I just can’t keep my eyes of him in the teaser. He has that gentle and feminine look that I adore so much, yet he is manly (do I make sense?). He is just so so beautiful. His eyes is his best feature. With his black comma hairstyle, (let’s face it he can dye his hair in any colour and he still look gorgeous) he was the most good-looking out of all the members by far. Of course, EXO has no visual hole (everyone is so very extremely handsome) and this is just my personal opinion anyways. Xiumin is just so underrated sometimes and I just want to shake everyone and tell them to look at that beauty and talent and intelligent human being and stop sleeping on him. His vocal is one of the top in EXO but he was still overlooked. I’m so glad that SM gave him more chance to shine with Young and Free and also The War album. So proud of you my darling, beautiful Minseok.

Chen came next. Different from the other nights, I watched the teaser late because I was not home. The first thing when I got data was to check who was next HAHA. This level of dedication (or obsession) surprise even me. Anyway, it was the vocalist who slays high notes in EXO, Chen. I like Chen’s personality. He even bleached his hair for the first time just for this album. That is dedication. I always like idols with blonde hair as I find them good-looking and Jongdae was no exception. he looks so good in the teaser.

And then who do we have left? Yes, it is my ult bias in EXO, D.O, Do Kyungsoo. Out of all the members, I like his voice the most (yes I may be slightly biased). I like everything about him. I like that he is shy outside, but his stage presence is amazing. I like that he is passionate about both his singing and acting. I like that he is a man of few words, but when he talks, everyone cracks up. I like that even though he is physically small, he is a manly man. I like his smile, I like his hair. I like his loyalty because even though he has acting commitments, he drops everything for EXO. I like him so so much. In the teaser, he smiled so gently, it feels like he is my boyfriend. In this album, I like that he has a lot of parts because i like his singing voice. You know how you like someone and you like everything about them but you cannot also point out specifically what you like about them because you are afraid you will miss out on something? Yeah, that’s how I feel about Kyungsoo. I just... like him as a person. I admire him so much.

Even though I have biases in EXO, I love each and every member too. They are talented and popular, yet they remain humble and polite and down-to-earth. They were met with so many challenges but even so, they are still one. Their gratitude towards the fans are what made us EXO-Ls stay and what makes them still relevant imo. I hope Lay will join them in the repackage album!!!

I love stanning EXO.

Anyway, the group teaser of Kokobop was released night after Kyungsoo’s and then the MV the day after. I love the song. I love the whole The War album. I love how EXO feels so excited about this album because they were involved in the making thus making them attached to it. The MV itself needed some time to get used to because there were slight drug references in it. The first time I watched, I had already picked up on the not-so-subtle cues that they were high on drugs lol (don’t do drugs kids). But I may have overreacted and think too much as well. I don’t know. Baekhyun explained they were aliens sent to Earth (in reference to previous MVs). The filmography was amazing though.

They then had Vlive and everyone was so funny and cute omg especially Kyungsoo’s freestyle dance to Touch It. HAHAHA that ahjussi. The most exciting schedule that they have and that I am looking forward to would be their appearance in Knowing brothers. I am a Knowing Brothers maniac so having two of my faves set of people meet is the best thing a fangirl can get.

Their first live performance of Kokobop was just tonight and it was amazing. The dance, the vocal, the visual were top notch. I like the starting and the dance break part the best.

And they performed The Eve too. Wow. It has a sensuous feeling to it. HAHA. I am barely explaining it but the whole album is that way so yeah. (I want to see this live lol. I attended Exor’dium concert where they performed Artificial Love and woah what an incredible experience).

Anyway, my point of this entry (before I could stop myself from writing an essay about EXO) was that EXO unintentionally became my project during these 3 weeks break. I experienced how it was like becoming a full-time fangirl and it was an amazing and fun experience. I foresee myself not having the luxury of committing this much time and effort in the future due to internship and work commitment hence these 3 weeks had been an enriching and novel experience in its’ own way. I believe that everything happened for a reason. EXO’s comeback just happened to be at the time where I have no commitment and for that, I am utterly grateful.

I will be cherishing my last 3 days and giving full support towards my boys whose rival is their 2016 self (as wisely said by Minseok). I will be like them and constantly try to improve myself as well.

This had been really fun. I will miss this feeling.

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societypress · 8 years ago

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Stacey Dash On "Why I Say What I Say"

Why I Say What I Say, Even Though I Drive Whoopi, BET, and Most Other Black People Crazy ... After reading the article above, here are my thoughts... Stacey Dash drives me crazy, and I'm not even BLACK! She having grown up in the South Bronx, having voted for Obama in 2008, and now a right wing representative of the most extreme kind, I agree with her much of the time, but she sticks to the script when she knows it is WRONG. I'm not really disagreeing with this current post, except in terms of the way Republicans always attack social programs when working on the budget before they attack our inflated military budget. I'm all for a strong defense. I'm not a pacifist in that way, but we don't spend the money on our weapons program for the people of this country as much as we spend it for the people making money off it. Sure, we need reforms in the welfare system, but not cuts, at least not yet. I can't argue with anything Stacey Dash has said in this article. In fact, it is very well said. Besides the "Now, in the promised land of freedom, we seek the lost Eden of separatism?" statement, which I don't understand, I totally understand where she is coming from, but when she starts making the states rights argument in support of the Confederate flag, she loses me. Her adamant support of all things from the right, and her partisan support of Trump loses me. But, it makes sense in our bi-polar nation. When you go from voting for Obama, to voting for Trump, nothing can exemplify that more. The states rights argument for slavery is, and always has been a cloak of justification, which is not much different than what she points out about modern Liberalism. Donald Trump is just another fat cat that told people what they wanted to hear to get the vote, appealing to their confirmation bias. And, that's just the way things work, she might, and really did say, in this article. That's what's wrong with American politics, it's just hype from the rich to the poor. Neither party is perfect, and it's like I told someone just this morning... I don't believe in the legislation of morality. I don't support blue laws and I don't support laws on sexuality either. The government does not have a place in your church, your bedroom, or your garden. There shouldn't even be any such thing as a government issued marriage license. We have TOO MUCH government; on this we agree. The downfall of conservatism for minorities lies in the lie of "self-sufficiency". Even if there was only one person on the planet, s/he would have to rely on other things to survive. That is a very far fetched example, but so is the idea of self-sufficiency. It DOES take a village for all us to live. One person on the planet wouldn't last very long, don't you agree? So, we have an entire populace of people stuck in public housing without any real upward mobility. Well, we should be thankful that it's there, or we would have people lying in the dirt starving to death like they do in Ethiopia. Without Liberalism we wouldn't have welfare and the like. But, they go way too far in not just trying to care for people, but in forcing their own moral agenda down the throats of everyone like a blue law that says you can't buy alcohol on Sunday, from the other side of the fence. Where we are in this system is where we need to be with a balance between the free market and the government supplied social safety net. Perhaps, welfare recipients should be required to work. That would make a difference. Anything FREE is taken advantage of and while the exteriors of many public housing projects are well built the interiors may not be all that well kept. It all depends on who is living inside, no matter what color they are. Stacey Dash goes way too far in the other direction from her days supporting Obama, by embracing things that are seemingly racist. The middle ground is the better place if you want to maintain credibility with the masses instead of just the Republican party. They have their shtick and the Dems have theirs. It's a script and when she says some of the things she does, one can't blame people for giving her flack. I agree with her on BLM, but I don't discount that there is racism. Is BLM there now with all the shootings that just occurred in Chicago, or are they just waiting for another cop killing to protest. I know what she is saying. To randomly kill cops is asinine and doesn't solve anything. But, to discount the entire movement is unfair. However, ALL lives do matter, including BLUE lives and 99% of cops never kill anyone each year... So, you, reactionaries, have a 99% chance of killing an innocent cop if you randomly kill one. The Oscars, who really cares, but as I've written on her page many times, she deserves one for her work as a Conservative. I am glad to know about her past, in that she grew up in the Bronx and saw street life, for real. I just feel like people who aren't finding solutions in one group often jump into another which is like going from the frying pan to the fire. I've always aligned with the right in my way of thinking in terms of family values, even my religious beliefs, and on social issues to the point of personal behavior but not the point of legislating my beliefs over someone else. I've also always been exposed to people of different view points and lifestyles. I've also read our Constitution, and when the other day she made a post about Libertarianism I took issue with one of her readers after he took issue with me. Unfortunately, people are not able to self-govern themselves without posing a threat to others. Libertarianism is just another unrealistic, pie in the sky, elitist idea based upon one's own self in determining how we should be governed and it is usually embraced by good people, but it doesn't work for society as a whole. We need laws, we need government, just at a minimum and certainly less than we have, but Republicans always attack social programs first when it comes to the budget based on their fallacious idea of self-sufficiency, and never want to mess with the military budget even though it consumes over 50% of our spending, and only the fat cats are making money off it. The same with petroleum. It's not the guy at the convenience store that's making money off the gas sold. He's not making hardly anything on gas sales. He's making his money on over priced items at a convenience. The gas is almost, if not, a loss leader. So, who is making the money? Donald Trump??? Bill Clinton liked to say it was the economy... but without the environment we don't have an economy. Unless these jokers are planning on gobbling up our planet to ruin, and then somehow escaping to a new one to destroy they haven't told us about, then it doesn't make any sense to rape our land the way THEY do. Is there some planet THEY'VE already discovered and THEY aren't sharing with us? And, even if there is, why wouldn't we want to prolong life on this one before we race to destroy it? I am not a global warming alarmist, but I do believe we could do a much better job of taking care of this place. That's why Bernie almost got me to vote. That, plus he exposes the expensive lifestyle of being poor where your interest rates are higher, if you can even get a loan, and everything else is too. Food deserts lead to people eating at convenience stores instead of grocery stores, which isn't just higher in price, but higher in the price on your health too. However, on an individual level, people are just too lazy to go to the store in many cases, and they are ignorant of healthy eating habits. That's their own fault especially in this day and age of the Internet where you can learn anything besides, and not only, the latest song, or rap, but where it was once thought that religion was the opiate of the masses, today in America, entertainment is the opiate of the masses. I just get frustrated with absolutists and both parties exemplify that characteristic. Maybe I'm naive in that I think we can do better than bullsh*t, and 'that's just the way things work'. Stacey Dash is right about that as long as bullsh*tters are in charge. So, what gives? What really matters in the end is how you treat your neighbor, good old fashioned Bible stuff. We can pass all the secular laws we want in our secular government trying to be controlled by people of varying opinions that want to try to force their ways of thinking on others when we don't need any laws on how we should relate to one another in a brotherly, loving way. The civil rights movement... It didn't end racism. It just threw a blanket over it, and while I realize that's a broad statement and there have been tremendous strides toward more equality in the last fifty years, it's still there, and then we get a guy like Donald Trump to come in and stir that pot again like a witch and her brew. What's more is that somehow he got Evangelical Christians to vote for him which is downright revealing that they can't tell the difference between Jesus Christ and Donald Trump... And, I consider myself to be evangelical, at least in the sense that we are to spread the good news... just not through legislation! In other words, I hear Stacey Dash humming, but I cannot walk past her posts without saying something. I agree, I agree, I agree and then she will tow that company line, and I'm like PLEEEEAZE! If we can just get past the bullsh*t we might actually make progress. By progress, I mean we get past the bullsh*t on both sides. Do you know, without documented evidence, and only by my own observation that BULLSH*T has to be the word most used in the jailhouse. I base this on my ten arrests in the last ten years, which were pretty much all BULLSH*T... Of course, because everyone is INNOCENT in the jailhouse... There are also two other words that make up the top three words used in the jailhouse, but I'll skip those so as not to be INFLAMMATORY as seems to be the custom of so many political people on EITHER SIDE. We lost Prince this year, but he knew all about CONTROVERSY, didn't he? So, I'll commit to you this. I'll never post on the Stacey Dash page again because I don't think I have anything else to say. Yes, black folk need a new narrative. Yes, they need to believe there is at least a way out of public housing, which they don't in many cases. But, along with that, they need to realize they're probably not going to be the next great rapper, or athlete. Don't get me wrong that crosses racial lines because, black or white, everybody wants to be a rock star. It is the rock star mentality of our youth that holds them back the most, and in continued disappointment under our current system of "mansion capitalism". Much of this stems from the idea projected by our leadership. Even the Obamas are moving into a $5 million dollar mansion. Why don't our leaders live in the village? It stems also from modern American Christianity which by translation is misleading. When Jesus said there are many mansions in his father's house, the Greek word translated as "mansions" does not mean anything more than a home, or dwelling place. I don't have a problem with capitalism. It's fat pig mansion capitalism I have a problem with, and the usage of this word in translation and interpretation sets up a wrong "fat capitalist pig" image of what Christ was talking about. He's the one who turned over the tables in the temple because they were being "fat capitalist pigs". Simply, put "mansion capitalism" sets up a false image for people to aspire toward and leaves most in disappointment when they only have an apartment to live in. Tell that to a homeless person, ok? This is the same kind of capitalism that would argue against any government regulations. That's HOGWASH! So, on this journey of life long learning, if that's what we take it for, I've learned a lot. Don't believe anything anybody tells you. Don't make promises you can't keep. Keep the promises you make. If you make promises, under promise and over deliver. This is quite the opposite of how our political leaders work where they over promise, or over objectify, and way under deliver. This is the biggest problem we face as a nation. But, this is what I was taught as a salesperson by some of the best sales training programs there are. Maybe the first one negates the rest, but I try to live by these things to this day even though I stay in a homeless shelter among people that often behave just like some of our wealthy leaders who are consumed with greed, and hardly ever keep the promises they make, and don't really seem to have any intention of doing so. Perhaps we could throw a suit and tie on one of the homeless and nominate them for president. They behave the same way. What's the difference? Just wealth, that's all; while the fact of the matter, even our poor live like kings in this country compared to the truly "poor" around the world, unless they just choose to live in squalor. So, while Stacey Dash is adored by many, probably by even more before she started down her political path, I still "love her'"! I just hope she stays on her lily pad, and I don't let her knock me off mine! Such 1st World Problems!!! from BLAHG, BLAHG, BLAHG!!! http://ift.tt/2iIYB2t via IFTTT

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societypress · 8 years ago

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Stacey Dash On "Why I Say What I Say"

Why I Say What I Say, Even Though I Drive Whoopi, BET, and Most Other Black People Crazy ... After reading the article above, here are my thoughts... Stacey Dash drives me crazy, and I'm not even BLACK! She having grown up in the South Bronx, having voted for Obama in 2008, and now a right wing representative of the most extreme kind, I agree with her much of the time, but she sticks to the script when she knows it is WRONG. I'm not really disagreeing with this current post, except in terms of the way Republicans always attack social programs when working on the budget before they attack our inflated military budget. I'm all for a strong defense. I'm not a pacifist in that way, but we don't spend the money on our weapons program for the people of this country as much as we spend it for the people making money off it. Sure, we need reforms in the welfare system, but not cuts, at least not yet. I can't argue with anything Stacey Dash has said in this article. In fact, it is very well said. Besides the "Now, in the promised land of freedom, we seek the lost Eden of separatism?" statement, which I don't understand, I totally understand where she is coming from, but when she starts making the states rights argument in support of the Confederate flag, she loses me. Her adamant support of all things from the right, and her partisan support of Trump loses me. But, it makes sense in our bi-polar nation. When you go from voting for Obama, to voting for Trump, nothing can exemplify that more. The states rights argument for slavery is, and always has been a cloak of justification, which is not much different than what she points out about modern Liberalism. Donald Trump is just another fat cat that told people what they wanted to hear to get the vote, appealing to their confirmation bias. And, that's just the way things work, she might, and really did say, in this article. That's what's wrong with American politics, it's just hype from the rich to the poor. Neither party is perfect, and it's like I told someone just this morning... I don't believe in the legislation of morality. I don't support blue laws and I don't support laws on sexuality either. The government does not have a place in your church, your bedroom, or your garden. There shouldn't even be any such thing as a government issued marriage license. We have TOO MUCH government; on this we agree. The downfall of conservatism for minorities lies in the lie of "self-sufficiency". Even if there was only one person on the planet, s/he would have to rely on other things to survive. That is a very far fetched example, but so is the idea of self-sufficiency. It DOES take a village for all us to live. One person on the planet wouldn't last very long, don't you agree? So, we have an entire populace of people stuck in public housing without any real upward mobility. Well, we should be thankful that it's there, or we would have people lying in the dirt starving to death like they do in Ethiopia. Without Liberalism we wouldn't have welfare and the like. But, they go way too far in not just trying to care for people, but in forcing their own moral agenda down the throats of everyone like a blue law that says you can't buy alcohol on Sunday, from the other side of the fence. Where we are in this system is where we need to be with a balance between the free market and the government supplied social safety net. Perhaps, welfare recipients should be required to work. That would make a difference. Anything FREE is taken advantage of and while the exteriors of many public housing projects are well built the interiors may not be all that well kept. It all depends on who is living inside, no matter what color they are. Stacey Dash goes way too far in the other direction from her days supporting Obama, by embracing things that are seemingly racist. The middle ground is the better place if you want to maintain credibility with the masses instead of just the Republican party. They have their shtick and the Dems have theirs. It's a script and when she says some of the things she does, one can't blame people for giving her flack. I agree with her on BLM, but I don't discount that there is racism. Is BLM there now with all the shootings that just occurred in Chicago, or are they just waiting for another cop killing to protest. I know what she is saying. To randomly kill cops is asinine and doesn't solve anything. But, to discount the entire movement is unfair. However, ALL lives do matter, including BLUE lives and 99% of cops never kill anyone each year... So, you, reactionaries, have a 99% chance of killing an innocent cop if you randomly kill one. The Oscars, who really cares, but as I've written on her page many times, she deserves one for her work as a Conservative. I am glad to know about her past, in that she grew up in the Bronx and saw street life, for real. I just feel like people who aren't finding solutions in one group often jump into another which is like going from the frying pan to the fire. I've always aligned with the right in my way of thinking in terms of family values, even my religious beliefs, and on social issues to the point of personal behavior but not the point of legislating my beliefs over someone else. I've also always been exposed to people of different view points and lifestyles. I've also read our Constitution, and when the other day she made a post about Libertarianism I took issue with one of her readers after he took issue with me. Unfortunately, people are not able to self-govern themselves without posing a threat to others. Libertarianism is just another unrealistic, pie in the sky, elitist idea based upon one's own self in determining how we should be governed and it is usually embraced by good people, but it doesn't work for society as a whole. We need laws, we need government, just at a minimum and certainly less than we have, but Republicans always attack social programs first when it comes to the budget based on their fallacious idea of self-sufficiency, and never want to mess with the military budget even though it consumes over 50% of our spending, and only the fat cats are making money off it. The same with petroleum. It's not the guy at the convenience store that's making money off the gas sold. He's not making hardly anything on gas sales. He's making his money on over priced items at a convenience. The gas is almost, if not, a loss leader. So, who is making the money? Donald Trump??? Bill Clinton liked to say it was the economy... but without the environment we don't have an economy. Unless these jokers are planning on gobbling up our planet to ruin, and then somehow escaping to a new one to destroy they haven't told us about, then it doesn't make any sense to rape our land the way THEY do. Is there some planet THEY'VE already discovered and THEY aren't sharing with us? And, even if there is, why wouldn't we want to prolong life on this one before we race to destroy it? I am not a global warming alarmist, but I do believe we could do a much better job of taking care of this place. That's why Bernie almost got me to vote. That, plus he exposes the expensive lifestyle of being poor where your interest rates are higher, if you can even get a loan, and everything else is too. Food deserts lead to people eating at convenience stores instead of grocery stores, which isn't just higher in price, but higher in the price on your health too. However, on an individual level, people are just too lazy to go to the store in many cases, and they are ignorant of healthy eating habits. That's their own fault especially in this day and age of the Internet where you can learn anything besides, and not only, the latest song, or rap, but where it was once thought that religion was the opiate of the masses, today in America, entertainment is the opiate of the masses. I just get frustrated with absolutists and both parties exemplify that characteristic. Maybe I'm naive in that I think we can do better than bullsh*t, and 'that's just the way things work'. Stacey Dash is right about that as long as bullsh*tters are in charge. So, what gives? What really matters in the end is how you treat your neighbor, good old fashioned Bible stuff. We can pass all the secular laws we want in our secular government trying to be controlled by people of varying opinions that want to try to force their ways of thinking on others when we don't need any laws on how we should relate to one another in a brotherly, loving way. The civil rights movement... It didn't end racism. It just threw a blanket over it, and while I realize that's a broad statement and there have been tremendous strides toward more equality in the last fifty years, it's still there, and then we get a guy like Donald Trump to come in and stir that pot again like a witch and her brew. What's more is that somehow he got Evangelical Christians to vote for him which is downright revealing that they can't tell the difference between Jesus Christ and Donald Trump... And, I consider myself to be evangelical, at least in the sense that we are to spread the good news... just not through legislation! In other words, I hear Stacey Dash humming, but I cannot walk past her posts without saying something. I agree, I agree, I agree and then she will tow that company line, and I'm like PLEEEEAZE! If we can just get past the bullsh*t we might actually make progress. By progress, I mean we get past the bullsh*t on both sides. Do you know, without documented evidence, and only by my own observation that BULLSH*T has to be the word most used in the jailhouse. I base this on my ten arrests in the last ten years, which were pretty much all BULLSH*T... Of course, because everyone is INNOCENT in the jailhouse... There are also two other words that make up the top three words used in the jailhouse, but I'll skip those so as not to be INFLAMMATORY as seems to be the custom of so many political people on EITHER SIDE. We lost Prince this year, but he knew all about CONTROVERSY, didn't he? So, I'll commit to you this. I'll never post on the Stacey Dash page again because I don't think I have anything else to say. Yes, black folk need a new narrative. Yes, they need to believe there is at least a way out of public housing, which they don't in many cases. But, along with that, they need to realize they're probably not going to be the next great rapper, or athlete. Don't get me wrong that crosses racial lines because, black or white, everybody wants to be a rock star. It is the rock star mentality of our youth that holds them back the most, and in continued disappointment under our current system of "mansion capitalism". Much of this stems from the idea projected by our leadership. Even the Obamas are moving into a $5 million dollar mansion. Why don't our leaders live in the village? It stems also from modern American Christianity which by translation is misleading. When Jesus said there are many mansions in his father's house, the Greek word translated as "mansions" does not mean anything more than a home, or dwelling place. I don't have a problem with capitalism. It's fat pig mansion capitalism I have a problem with, and the usage of this word in translation and interpretation sets up a wrong "fat capitalist pig" image of what Christ was talking about. He's the one who turned over the tables in the temple because they were being "fat capitalist pigs". Simply, put "mansion capitalism" sets up a false image for people to aspire toward and leaves most in disappointment when they only have an apartment to live in. Tell that to a homeless person, ok? This is the same kind of capitalism that would argue against any government regulations. That's HOGWASH! So, on this journey of life long learning, if that's what we take it for, I've learned a lot. Don't believe anything anybody tells you. Don't make promises you can't keep. Keep the promises you make. If you make promises, under promise and over deliver. This is quite the opposite of how our political leaders work where they over promise, or over objectify, and way under deliver. This is the biggest problem we face as a nation. But, this is what I was taught as a salesperson by some of the best sales training programs there are. Maybe the first one negates the rest, but I try to live by these things to this day even though I stay in a homeless shelter among people that often behave just like some of our wealthy leaders who are consumed with greed, and hardly ever keep the promises they make, and don't really seem to have any intention of doing so. Perhaps we could throw a suit and tie on one of the homeless and nominate them for president. They behave the same way. What's the difference? Just wealth, that's all; while the fact of the matter, even our poor live like kings in this country compared to the truly "poor" around the world, unless they just choose to live in squalor So, while Stacey Dash is adored by many, probably by even more before she started down her political path, I still "love her'"! I just hope she stays on her lily pad, and I don't let her knock me off mine! from BLAHG, BLAHG, BLAHG!!! http://ift.tt/2iaPYdj via IFTTT

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