#aisha reads bsd

[cosmickoshi]

This is canonically the most murderous member of the ADA by the way.

[jotatetsuken]

“Hello, Baby...”

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[cosmickoshi]

Hi yes I'm still thinking about these two pages and about how Nakajima Atsushi really is the protagonist of all time.

Nothing could ever justify the orphanage director's treatment of Atsushi. Nothing could ever justify the pain and abuse Atsushi faced at the director's hand. But it is undeniable that the director has played a significant part in shaping who Atsushi is presently and has also aided him in times of need. It ties into BSD's recurring theme of how your past does not define you, but you also cannot flee from those memories because they have fundamentally influenced so many facets of your life — and acknowledging said memories is the first step to healing from them.

The director has been haunting Atsushi all this time and Atsushi so desperately wants to purge his voice from his mind, but he's also never lived a life where the director's presence doesn't plague him. What would he do once the person whose actions have shaped who he is today is finally gone? The director died and Atsushi cried because people tend to cry when their fathers die and now Atsushi is verbalising all of his loathing for his abuser in a way he couldn't for so long and yet he’s horrified by the prospect of being rid of his influence.

And the way Atsushi’s eyes are concealed from the reader until the director tells him that he’ll be gone “as early as today, even”, and there’s so little light in Atsushi's eyes when they’re finally revealed to us. The way they reflect these conflicting emotions within Atsushi surrounding the director's declaration — he'll finally be free of the very person responsible for so much of his pain and trauma, and yet that person has been such a significant part of his life that a world in which his abuser won't haunt him is unfamiliar and terrifying to him.

And I just. God. I can’t.

[cosmickoshi]

What if this was my final straw?

[cosmickoshi]

The way Chūya's gaze softens as he registers the contents of the photograph... the way he collapses to his knees as he crumples beneath the weight of the relief that comes with being handed something that might answer the question that has been gnawing away at him all this time... the way the rest of the Flags surround him not in an overbearing or imposing manner but as reassuring and grounding presences during this very vulnerable moment... I'm going to be sick.

[cosmickoshi]

I’m never moving on from this ever.

[cosmickoshi]

Atsushi believing in himself and his abilities and acknowledging his own strength and acting accordingly by literally TEARING THROUGH SPACETIME oh my goodness I'm so proud of him.

[cosmickoshi]

I love you sassy Atsushi.

[cosmickoshi]

Thought about Atsushi. Immediately burst into tears. What else is new?

[cosmickoshi]

It’s missing Tachihara hours once again.

[cosmickoshi]

This chapter dropping the day I have multiple assignments due is just cruel.

[cosmickoshi]

The weretiger is my ordeal. Return the weretiger to me.

[cosmickoshi]

Ranpo’s just like me (spent his childhood/adolescence being repeatedly told by the adults in his life that he’s different from everyone else because he’s “gifted” and “special” when really he’s just autistic).

[ghostlytragicangel]

I have never related more to a sentiment.

Thought about Atsushi. Immediately burst into tears. What else is new?