#also drunk yifan is the cutest

[mistmarigold]

Sang Yan does so many tiny endearing things every episode but I genuinely think twirling in the snow while softly gazing up at Yifan twirling was the cutest (I’m pretty sure he’s gonna beat this record soon enough).

Sometimes I wish Yifan would find out all the times he has been looking out for her and cheering her on just so she can have the comfort that even when she felt that the world is out to get her, he was always there, existing in the shadows and pulling the strings in whatever capacity he could. He was/is the best bit in her life and she knows that but I don’t think she truly knows the depth of his feelings since she herself was in such a tough, vulnerable place.

When he said he’ll be there with her always, he truly meant it even if it included him just seeing her from afar in Yihe, even when she broke his heart (unwillingly).

I know I’ve said this before but I really love how they use the reflections to emphasise that there was a time when they could’ve had it all, when they almost had it. Especially in this hug, which could’ve happened back then when they both needed it the most. It’s her image mainly which is mirroring in this sequence bec she was the one who wanted to hug him and even turned back but couldn’t.

So this time around when her arms wrap around him, she’s hugging him in the present moment but this also carries the lingering longing for literal years. How many times did she allow herself to think about that night and regret over it or justified it? With Yifan, it’s almost like even if she’s aware deep down she doesn’t let herself think or voice it out.

I love that she finally got to do this - a full circle moment for their youth and a closure to that night. Even the mirroring kind of settles once he starts putting his arms around her - it feels like a new chapter almost.

(Also, I lowkey think he had a feeling that she wasn’t sleepwalking simply because he has seen her do it before while Yifan doesn’t really know how she acts when she sleepwalks so it’s totally easy to mess up. With the way he’s so in tuned when it comes to her, he might have clocked it too. Plus, he doesn’t touch her much then bec she’s obviously not aware. Even in the kiss bit, he holds her for a second when she’s about to fall but takes his hand away from her when she’s stable. So this time around when he hugs her back, it gave me a feeling that maybe he knows she was pretending.)