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jelliebeanbitch · 10 months ago

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I CAN DO THIS!!!! I CAN LEARN TO BE A THEATER DESIGNER!!!! YES I AM JUST STARTING OUT AND DOING THIS FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!! THATS CUZ IT IS A TRADE AND YOU LEARN A TRADE BY PRACTICING!!!!! SO I AM GOING TO PRACTICE DAMMIT!!!!

#i am realizing i have the capacity to be rly ambitious and hardworking when it’s something i care about #which i didn’t think i did. because adhd and academic struggles and such #but another side effect of caring a lot about this is i am rly disappointed and worried when i feel like i’m not doing well enough #which is a feeling i think most people get academically #but i turned that feeling off in my brain for a long time cuz again. at a certain point i was academically struggling #and i couldn’t be disappointed anymore #like it was just less stressful to care a little less #which i am currently experiencing in my classes right now actually. need to deal with that #anyway #idk i keep finding out how much i don’t know about theater design and then feeling so so embarrassed #and thinking i might be a fraud #but then people look at my work and they say nice things and i am deciding to take that to heart!!!#and just hope that they’re right #it’s existential about career hours rn #also mandatory acknowledgement that i’m privileged for even considering an artistic careen #and i’m definitely gonna be living off ice soup if i try to make this happen #uh. that is all . yeah #ok yk what i should probably be a theater professor #that is definitely the biggest way i’ve seen theater professionals get regular gigs (on college shows) and make enough money to live #and also have access to massive prop and set collections!!!!!#which is what it’s really all about baybeeee #ok that is all goodnjght #theater #career #rambling

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