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Open question to everyone as I continue to wrestle with being a professional starving creative. I’ve been nudged towards making a Substack a couple times now. I’m hesitant on making a new page for anything due to how little the Official Author Website seems to have mattered in the grand scheme of my teeny scribbling career, but there are a couple pros to consider. The most basic plus is that it could make for a tidier spot to leave my Big Scribbles than just piling them in a scattered Tumblr. But the key part the online 'get passive income!1!!' gurus point out about Substack is the sub(scription) bit. And how it can be a charged subscription.
“It’s an easy way for freelancers to make money!”
With at least $5 charged per month. For weekly-to-monthly updates. From me.
That means scheduled writing that's worthy of wringing more money out of the ‘Everyone is Broke’ website at least once a month. Note, I would not be pulling a Watcher; I’d still be dropping previews for my big WIPs here per usual. But a $ubstack would come with that and other original works each month. Supposing there was more than 2.5 folks out there willing to burn their bucks on that endeavor.
Anyway. Chronic indecision and fretting are attacking so I’m hot potatoing it to you:
#I'd need to have more than a drive thru trip's worth of folks wringing out their wallets to feel comfortable doing a $ubstack#I hate hate HATE even throwing out a line like this#I am still working on trying to get the plushies in motion#I'm still chewing on ideas to better promote The Vampyres#I'm writing Harker and working on anthology submission stories#on top of a dozen other outlines#but like#I'm still job hunting#and I don't know what else to do#ugh#my writing#substack
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We should all take a page from the Columbia students' playbook and have primal scream protests in front of the houses of every fucking representative who has enabled funding to Israel and this goddamn genocide.
Will it do anything? Probably not, but it will be very cathartic.
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i'm honestly at a loss for words. i was expecting a straightforward "thank you for your email! i support israel and blahblahblah" not "thank you for supporting israel!" because i said no such thing ??? i sent a long detailed email expressing my disgust towards israel and saying i support palestine — the crazy part is that this response was sent twice, word for word
#palestine#i'm convinced these people in office have bots or something to respond to emails containing the words “palestine” “israel” and “hamas”.#why else would scott send me the same email twice lol.#i sent my emails over a month ago by the way#i'm just now getting a response and it's gross#i sent lindsay graham an email too#it was basically the same crap#i don't know what i expected#and i don't know what else to do#serious#i was honestly hoping for a better response from tim scott#because lindsay graham made me angry#but i already knew not to expect much from graham#ugh
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10 years later
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushi#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh#u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel#this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj#specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art#anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard#i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same#especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat#but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door#maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons#also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things#new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier#god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs#i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work
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First meeting
#stobotnik#doctor ivo robotnik#agent stone#sonic movie universe#i hope you all are noticing what i'm doing with stone's clothes specifically#white shirt pre robotnik black to fit his goth boss then colors when ivo starts wearing red#also i know we all like to think robotnik hated being assigned an agent but i present to you:#he sees it as a symbol of status kinda. stone hates being here#it just feels right to me. it's not that robotnik thinks the agent will be useful at all#he's just pleased that he got one#everyone else has an assistant why shouldn't he?#this ties to a very very stupid headcanon i have#and it's that robotnik's blood type is O negative#HEAR ME OUT he would hate that. he would hate being an universal donnor because he doesn't care about saving lives of humans ew#but then stone is also O negative so that means robotnik can receive blood from him if necessary#and that's mostly the reason why he was chosen to be his assistant#ivo is too important to die! and O negative blood isn't that common#Stone knows but probably no one told robotnik#then of course imagine stone getting injured and needing blood and ivo is like wait i can do that it doesn't matter what his blood type is#you get the point#i think. i'm pretty sure there was a point#oh well#oh the no hr joke. they're a shady goverment organization i don't think they treat their people that well#that being said maybe robotnik's treatment of stone was the reason they had to get an hr department who knows
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So I do a lot of book suggestion with my public libraries because, well, I'm a big reader and I can't buy all of the books, no matter how much i might want to.
Anyway, it always completely baffles me when, with series - especially when its in ebook form where you can see fairly easily on Libby whether or not there is another installment after the one you're currently reading - *I* have to suggest the next book for it to be picked up.
And not in a 'why is the librarian not buying it' way, but rather in a 'why are people not asking for it????'
For exemple, I've been reading a series of like 5-6 books total. I suggested my library get the first ebook, suggestion got accepted, i read the book and liked it well enough. About 10-ish people were in the hold queue. Of course that doesn't mean they actually liked it but whatever.
I suggested the second book, and because of the nature of ebooks reservation, some people got to read it before me. Ok fine. I read it, about 6-7 people are on the hold queue when i finish it.
Guess what? No one asked for the third book.
For EVERY book in the series, i had to ask for the next one and i'm just...
For people to read it before me, they had to have an alert on the book so they would know when it becomes available at once. Cuz obviously I have those alerts, but even just checking 5 minutes after the notification, there would be at least 2-3 people with a hold on the book already.
And its not even a 'oh, the library will get the ebooks at a certain time every months/few months so that's why it wasn't available yet'
I finished the second to last book of the series recently. It had been available since like october-ish. I had actually started back then, but since I'm not a fan of reading ebooks, I couldnt finish the book in time, so into the hold queue I went.
I know that public library. I know how often they get their ebook. If anyone had asked for the last book, it would be available already.
It wasn't.
Do people not know they can suggest books? Is the process too obscure for them?
Anyway, there is no point to this post except to say, my good peeps, you can make books (or dvds or games or whatever kind of item your public library offer) suggestion! You usually can do it online!
If you can't find where exactly, usually just googling 'purchase suggestion' or 'reccomand a title' with the name of your public library will get you to the right page
And if you're still not sure, you should ask your librarian, they'll be happy to tell you how!
#in my experience 95% of the time they'll get the book#when they can't it's either because the book is too old#or its self-published or something#or they have the first couple books of the series but no one else is checking them out#and like sure i get from a place of privilege because book banning isnt a thing in quebec (at least as far as i know)#but still#clearly if 5 out of 6 books of a series is already available#the librarian already doesn't care that its a queer werewolf romance series#anyway yes my good peeps please suggest titles at your public library!#its one way to let your librarians know what kind of books they should be buying#i don't have to do as many queer romance books suggestion as one might think#and if they already have a book from an author its usually a safe bet that they'll get their new one too#anyway#that's it#public libraries#books
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No Surprises.
This is my final fit / My final bellyache with- /No alarms and no surprises / No alarms and no surprises / No alarms and no surprises ... please
Local lyric comic artist makes another lyric comic after years of silence.
Honestly, I don't know how to talk about this comic. I drafted it in 2020 when I still enjoyed Radiohead and was in the throes of my Danganronpa obsession. I picked up working on it again in October last year and have been chipping away at it ever since, just finishing it this past weekend.
It's surreal to see this finished, and I'm really proud of it. This song felt very fitting lyrically, and I had a lot of fun depicting ch 5.
Anyways back to the pit with me 💙
#I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO WRITE ALT TEXT FOR THIS I'M SO SORRY#if anyone DOES write alt text for this ... I have nothing to offer but my gratitude will be eternal#danganronpa#digital art#sdr2#super danganronpa 2#sdr2 spoilers#nagito komaeda#sdr2 nagito#akane owari#sdr2 akane#chiaki nanami#sdr2 chiaki#fuyuhiko kuzuryu#sdr2 fuyuhiko#sdr2 kazuichi#kazuichi souda#sdr2 hajime#hajime hinata#sonia nevermind#sdr2 sonia#sdr2 junko#enoshima junko#danganronpa junko#alter ego junko#tw: blood#tw: death#sdr2 chapter 5#danganronpa fanart#can't tag anymore but don't know what else TO tag
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I don't know who needs to hear this, but as a creator -
I am fine with "the audience" -
downloading my fics
printing my fics
copy/pasting or screenshotting my fics
sharing your saved copy of my fics with anyone else who might want them in the unlikely but never impossible case that my fics are no longer available on ao3
making a book of my fic(s) and running your fingers across the pages while lovingly whispering my precioussss
doing these things with anything I create for fandom, such as meta, headcanons, au nonsense like 'texts from the brodinsons,' etc
I am not fine with "the audience"
doing any of the above with the purpose/intent of plagiarizing my work or passing it off as their own in any capacity
feeding my work into ai for any reason whatsoever
Save the fandom things. Preserve the fandom things. Respect the fandom things.
Enjoy the fandom things.
#fanfic#ao3#archive of our own#fandom things#tumblr things#i may have said this at some point#i'm sure i have#but whatever - just in case#i don't say this with the presumption that i'm so amazing and people are clamoring to save my fics#but just if anyone is so inclined that's all#ftr i don't intend on ever removing my fics from ao3 or deleting fandom things from this blog#i've always shared my fandom things with the intent of keeping them shared bc that's the whole point of posting#but the fandom atmosphere and ao3 constantly being under attack who knows what can happen#not that this applies to anyone but should all else fail you can also reach out to me and i will personally give you a copy#at least of fics bc i save everything#not so much the tumblr things but this is a good reminder to myself that i should do that for the things i care about#that i've made or done and only posted here#anyway sorry i have now used up my quota of the putting words into sentences doing for today#i have plans to stare into the void now
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lucanis is a 'I could sit in our quiet kitchen on a grey tuesday afternoon drinking coffee and talking with you about nothing much in particular forever and be the happiest man who ever lived' romantic, not a 'classic tropes and grand gestures' romantic. this is a distinction and conceptual gap I personally feel is crucial to understanding what's going on with him when romanced. for all his almost painful sincerity and clear depth of feeling he's not a very effusive guy by nature, but in the history of time no one has ever, with their whole soul, chest and being, been so genuinely and openly happy to just do laundry and taxes with you.
#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#lucanis dellamorte#rookanis#rook x lucanis#his enchanting bordering on comical low-keyness in all his dealings and quiet but unflinching devotion is the point!#that is where the joy is stored. To Me. the mutual 'your company could make hell paradise to me' level of just...#*liking* between him and rook gets to me. they're best friends who enjoy doing everything together and also in love.#diversity win two demisexuals living the dream out there and incidentally also sometimes killing dragons together <3#it's less about the butterflies in my stomach excited love more about the calm safe home/best friend kind of love. if you see what I mean#less dramatic and narratively explosive more realistic and soothing and exactly my shit haha#also I think he's autistic and leaning on romance tropes is more like scripting for him (not inauthentic in terms of the feelings#just some 'well as I understand these are the steps to *express* these feelings' not quite spontaneity going on)#but that is very much a personal headcanon and fully vibes-based and no one has to agree with me on it haha#if/when he proposes to rye I don't think he plans it all out or anything he'd just gaze at him in some very mundane everyday situation#and suddenly go '...hey do you want to get married' like he's noting that they're low on onions or something#because he's so utterly enchanted with rook's existence and being anything else seems kind of irrelevant right then#(rye knows him very well and is not particularly taken aback by this. if anything he'd been fretting#over popping the much bigger question of whether lucanis wants to get buried side by side with him lol#(reader... he said yes. and they were gravemates. (oh my god they were gravmates)))
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january month of yuugi
#yugioh#ygo dm#yugi mutou#idk what was in the water on 2025 opening but it really got me thinking hm. I will finally draw yuugi#ygo has been in my dna for like close to a decade at this point and yet. I have never attempted to draw anything for it#until now. my audacity has finally reached quota#wishshipping saved my ass this lunar new year and its not even an exaggeration. thank you kazuki takahashi for the boys. rest in peace#mutou yuugi I love u.... u r my son#not mentioned in this stack but dsod's decision to thin yuugi's choker is the funniest shittiest character design decision on earth#like as a detail its so nothing. when u zoom out it just looks like a shadow dropped wrong somewhere. I have come to terms with#the other fashion choice for him in that movie but the tiny ass choker I don't accept. that's stupid. big it#I rly like the vision of older yuugi being like. obnoxiously polite and cheerful#specifically in a way that's not like ceding space for everyone else. like it's clear at all time that he's Like That#and nobody will be able to stop him from being Like That#and also tbh I can never imagine him leaving domino for long (<- definitely not projecting my city slicker ass on him)#I think the game shop's been where he's safe to be himself for so long that he'd want to keep it running and extend#that shade to other kids in the city too. his loyal customers are so scared of disappointing him for no reason#.... typed huge wall of text abt jou leaving domino for tournaments etc frequently but always coming back to hang out with yuugi#I am actually ill abt them huh.... maybe ygo was the progenitor honestly maybe it started me on the two blokes who do fuckall ships#yuugi is so cute but I do know in my heart tho he does Not cook. that kid has never learned and will never manage#I know he doesnt even have water in his office whenever he works. scared of spilling#its a good thing hes got friends galore now people are blowing his phone up wasting their sms toll telling him to drink water#(slowly tipping into mania) I just think he's so neat. love that boy he's so cute
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Made more stupid smelltingville club I have more in store dw, make sure to see the surprise at the end [Not Clickbait] ✅️
#the eltingville club#welcome to eltingville#bill dickey#jerry stokes#pete dinunzio#josh levy#my art#animatic#drawing Jerry with eyes gave me nightmares I do not wish to recollect 🥀🥀#there's no way these stupid nerds are why I have my art motivation and learning to actually animate 💀#which I'll post once I'm done haha#te amo William ah mentí te odio pestoso ❤️#eltingville fanart#what else do I tag I don't know 💥💥#I'm trying to do the style as accurate as possible but ah maybe I will
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face value
#it's autism torment hours for cloud strife (featuring Projection™️)#everybody just assumes the worst about cloud the moment they meet him.#i think all the time about the 'be nice!' -> 'i'm doing my best :(' thing from remake. like. all he did was answer a fucking question.#it burns because i know EXACTLY what it's like to be on the receiving end of that. 'don't be rude!' i wasn't planning on it but ok i guess?#and people getting mad because they assumed i meant something completely different than what i said.#how many times have i asked 'hey when are we leaving' (so i know when we're leaving. god forbid)#only for them to hear 'WAAA WAAAAAAA HURRY UP!!!!!!! I WANNA LEAVE RIGHT NOWWWWW UGGHHHHHH'#like ???????????#we're speaking the same language right??? RIGHT????????#cloud listen bby. just know that i'm always here for you. even if no one else got ur back.#ok i'm better now. at least until the next easily avoidable stupid misunderstanding#ffvii#cloud strife#my art <3
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post-wipeout patch up on a tuesday afternoon (embarrassing) [electric guitar]
#stardew valley#stardew valley fanart#sdv sam#sdv maru#my art#i like these two together#and i don't know if it's more like “i ship them” or “these are my two favorite characters and i want to see them interact a lot”#because in every fandom i've ever been in i've never really been much into shipping (it just never scratched that itch for me)#but their ship name being electric guitar is pushing me that's just cute!!#at the very least they can bond over their shared interest in space :)#i think this ship would also cause a good amount of in-universe drama#“what if ur bisexual and both ur male and female crushes started dating each other what would you do” “happened to my buddy penny”#(eh i honestly kinda ship penny with haley so it's all good hehe they're cute too)#(side note: i also like alex and seb together. you can get a lot of drama out of that over their polarized stances on eggs)#(everyone else ur on ur own lol good luck!!)
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how ironic that one of the main criticisms of the school system in adolescence is how teachers would just stick on a video for the kids to watch instead of actually teaching them, and now all the talk from the government is about how adolescence should be mandatory viewing in schools. like are you actually gonna teach them anything? are you gonna do anything to deradicalise boys? are you gonna invest in youth and mental health services? are you gonna pay teachers the money they deserve? are you gonna do anything about the hate speech that gets spread online? are you gonna make sure parents are better supported and actually have time to spend with their children? no? i mean why would you do any of that when you can just stick on a tv show. jesus christ
#adolescence#i read that the irish and british governments were considering making this mandatory viewing#and i was like okay what else are u gonna do? and then i watched it and im. actually astounded that they think forcing teenagers to watch#this will be enough. girls know all of this. boys know all of this and a lot of them think its fine#i feel like generations are in such different places. gen z has known about all this for like a decade#and now older generations are catching up and are clearly very unnerved and don't really know what to do#but like...you need to do more than making them watch a tv show. like be serious
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jared padalecki, jensen ackles, rob benedict, richard speight jr jib con 2025 panel (amberdreams)
slaphappy and punchdrunk (no wonder it ended up in a piggyback ride)
+bonus
#j2#jib15#jibcon 2025#jared padalecki#jensen ackles#rob benedict#richard speight jr#long post#j2gifs#mygifs#j2 gifs#jibcon#just some more nonsense. they were really on one#saw the hand holding thing so i went looking to see if i could make the quality a bit better and ended up with all ... this#not to mention whatever i ffw'd through that involved them acting like they were all in a car? that was too much for me :p#the weirdly smooth motion and slight blurring is from me using the stabilization in premiere on the video#it was pretty jittery so i just used the out of the box warp stabilization thing#which. if i knew what i was doing maybe i could make it look better but i don't and it's not in me to learn something new#because i already have remade these gifs like 3 times because i kept trying to not make them huge (failed) or forgot smthg#the joke that broke jensen at the end can only marginally be called a joke LOL but you know when something hits you just right#and perhaps you're sleep deprived/hungover/who knows what else :p
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do skully have pokemon?
Pumpkaboo is the obvious one, but y'know, sometimes the obvious one is the right one! (we'll say SUPER SIZE Pumpkaboo, just for fun. big pumpkin for big skeleton boy.) and another person actually also suggested Greavard, which I somehow hadn't considered, but feels so perfect that I feel like I should have. dangit.
(they can also have little Nightmare Suit costumes :D)
#art#twisted wonderland#pokemon#poketwst#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#(sorry for leaving anon off for a while! i've gotten a rash of spam and i'm gonna wait it out a couple days before turning it back on)#also apologies for the rest of this not really being pokemon related#i don't have anything right now for part 4 of the event so i'm gonna use this space to go off about it#because. oh man.#a sad lack of the scullsman but a FEAST of everyone else#gotta love malleus and leona uniting in the common goal of hunting trey down for trying to game their whiny pettiness#(trey doesn't know what to do with someone he can't easily distract with cake)#also further confirmation that malleus WILL kill a small child and leona WILL point and laugh the whole time#also sebek's plans revolving around what he knows he's good at: screaming extremely loudly and hoisting nerds#and let us not forget what i consider to be the crowning jewel#which is jamil figuring out IMMEDIATELY where scully has taken his prisoners#only for everyone else to just. literally refuse to do anything about it.#jamil just standing there and going 'WE KNOW WHERE THEY ARE! WE CAN JUST! GO GET THEM!!!! WHYYY AREN'T WE GOING'#visibly losing his entire mind and it's beautiful#top 10 twst event moments honestly#also some delightful character consistency from jade being all#'actually my dicking around is a sign of my immense trust in your abilities to get things done :)'#'but also consider: there are currently two housewardens chasing a child'#'alternately angrily screaming poetry and begging them not to sue'#'and if you will pardon my city of flowers...there is no fucking way i'm missing that'#lock shock and barrel did not sign up for this. how did these idiots turn out to be somehow weirder than the three of them.#twisted wonderland must be a frightening place indeed
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