#and all in a fucking musical about wagons and dysentery and sung by a character called mouthface so nobody takes it seriously

[untimelyambition]

lost without you from trail to oregon is the most heart wrenching song ever written. i don’t even know which lyric to insert in here to back up my point it’s the whole thing that cracks you into pieces. she starts out with your typical surface level complaints about the cart and the journey and she seems almost nonchalant about her situation but as the song goes on you can see it’s all a facade and she’s trying to hide how badly the separation from her family is tearing her apart. at her roots she reverts back to leaning on her family, she’s just a kid after all. she’s using what little autonomy and control she has to collect these memories in honour of her family. you hear all her recount all the spots she dreamed of visiting and all the excitement she held previously is gone as they don’t mean anything to her all alone. it was her family that tied her whole world together and now they’re gone and she’s clinging at scraps of hope that they can hear her, begging the trail to lead her back home, dreaming up a scenario where she takes control of her own destiny and gets to go home. she’s desperate, she is so so broken at this point and by the end of the song that careful cover of being okay has slipped and you can see her teeming with awful acceptance that her old life truly will never be hers again. a quiet forlorn acknowledgement that her family, the only world she has ever known, are essentially lost forever. who is she without them? that’s all she has left. she knows that hope she holds is only hope and yet she can’t let it go because she’s got nothing to live for without it. she’s just a girl who misses her parents and her brother and doesn’t know what to do in this world alone. and all in a musical about the oregon trail. i am going to be sick it’s the saddest song in the entire starkid catalogue and i will always break down in tears whenever it comes on.