#and its so annoying to constantly interrupt my train of thoughts while writing to include referencess

[phanomenology]

why is this essay 2500 words... how often do u want me to repeat that climate science needs to take social factors into account 😭😭🔫

[fyeahshinpachi]

Mini-fic: History of Shinpachi’s romance

A little thing for my friend Emmy-Lee (happy birthday girl!) who dared me to create a believable story of Shinpachi getting to date someone outside of Gintama cast. 

So it all starts with Otsuu, as many other thigs in Shinpachi’s life, and because of that he can totally say to his future children that it was all thanks to Otsuu that they came to be and that they should appreciate her music more, but I’m getting off-topic. 

One of the Otsuu concerts was a part of a bigger event - there was also a concert of a boysband, CAT-KUN, and their numerous female fans were there, including that one pretty plain looking girl, who was very adamant that no one holds the candle to the wonder that is CAT-KUN members, and that Otsuu’s music was just a noise. Shinpachi, no matter how gentelman-y he is, could not let it slide that easily, especially seeing how CAT-KUN’s music was the worst thing he ever heard in his life. 

So he got into a pretty heated argument about good music vs very good music, that quickly changed into a spat over useless otaku boys and wierd fujoshis. There was a lot of hand-waving and shouting, and it ended with the girl tripping and falling down, spraining her ankle. It was just an accident, no one’s fault, really, but Shinpachi  felt extremely guilty. However he didn’t know where to find her to apologize, so he let it go. 

It was by the dumb luck that he found her again, a few weeks later. She was walking down the street, alone, carrying about a ton of mangas, so it was Shinpachi’s chance. He gathered his courage, came up to her, apologized, and offered to help her carry the books. She was not so sure she wanted to talk with him, but the mangas were heavy enough for her to agree. They walked, and tentatiely talked, and it turned out they kind of hit it off. 

Nothing too serious, mind you. They agreed on some topics, disagreed on others and had fun arguing about it. She turned out to be an absolute fujoshi, he brought his A-game in otaku, he was kind of impressed she wrote poetry for magazines and was an aspiring mangaka, she was impressed he was a heir to a dojo that trained under a great samurai (well, after correspondence arc Shinpachi knew how to sell his work at Gintoki’s), and somehow they dared each other to attend one Otsuu concert and one CAT-KUN concert together FOR SCIENCE (to teach the other to appreciate the finer points of art). 

It was absoluetly not a date, of course not, don’t be stupid Gin-san. 

She was loud, un-lady-like, annoying, had this wierd habit of playing with her pigtails, her laugh was so intense, and her face was pretty only when she smiled and she was very bright, Shinpachi had to admit, but she also was kind of clumsy, but in a cute way, not to mention really kind and sort of funny and Shinpachi forgot where he was going with this, but really, Aneue, he was not going out with her, it was just a friendly meeting. 

Yeah, it was totally a date, and Shinpachi and the girl both were almost hyperventilating when they realized this 5 minutes into their meeting. But neither would back off, and they suffered, and then they both scrambled to find a way to invite the other for a next meeting without it being too obvious. So she felt a sudden urge to draw a manga, or write a poem, about a samurai so she would be really thankful if he could tell her all about his training, and Shinpachi had an epiphany that he kind of liked one of the mangas she read, so they started meeting regularly. But far away from prying eyes of Shinpachi’s family and friends.

At this point everyone knows Shinpachi’s head over heels. He is counting hours to the next meeting, he talks constantly about what she said and what she did, and how she looked like when she laughed, and daydreams about the next meetings. But Shinpachi claims its just friendship and there is nothing between them so he doens’t bring her to meet the gang, and Aneue and Kagura get more and more impatient and frankly pissed off. But Gintoki has a thought. What if Shinpachi is not bringing her to meet them and is so secretive about it because he’s afraid they would embarass him or scare the girl off with their usual antics? 

So he goes to great lengths to make Otae do a nice, normal tea-party, tries to keep Otae and Kagura calm about the whole situation, checks the dojo for stalkers who could interrupt, everything is perfect... 

Till 5 miutes before she’s about to come, when in true Gintama fashion the hell breaks loose and when the girl finally comes she and Shinpachi are met with absolute insanity. Shinpachi is... dissapointed in everyone. Yes, he was expecting usual levels of wierdness (actually, his reluctance to introduce her had nothing to do with that - he was worried the girl would take it as a confession of them getting really, really serious, and also was quite sure she would start shipping him with Gintoki and ... no, just no). But he was not expecting THAT and good going guys, this would scare off any sane person, thank you very much for ruining this. 

But the girl tries her best to ignore the wierd stuff (e.g. a woman in BDSM clothing hanging from a ceiling, a giant duck and a guy with a lapshade on his head...) and behave normally, or maybe as normally as one could hope to while the room is a battleground and the teapot for this tea-party is lodged firmly in gorilla’s ass. 

Shinpachi knows then that he’s really in love. 

And this marks the real start of their relationship. It’s messy, awkward, and sometimes people around them want to strangle them both, but it works. 

[babibluphas]

I'm writing this now so I don't forget to post it lolo also this is extremely unedited take this however you want!!! It could be romantic Latte or platonic//bromance Latte!!!

So everyone's talking about how Shiro coming back and bringing Matt with him will make Lance feel like he's going to get replaced as the blue paladin and/or how Lance feels like Matt would be a better blue paladin

What if Matt actually brings Lance's confidence down a tad bit when he first arrives, but quickly picks Lance up again after they actually start talking// get to know each other?

Also in my head Matt is like the leader of the rebellion group// is in second command (like a deputy of some sort)

When he first arrives with Shiro, Pidge is the first one to just run up to them and squeeze the living shit out of Matt, and they just have this long ass bro hug (even though Matt is basically getting suffocated). After, Matt meets everyone else on the team (except Lance) and gets along with literally everyone (Slav included).

Both Matt and Keith constantly look after Shiro, and literally baby him 24/7. Matt even teaches// practices hand to hand combat with Keith. They also are sometimes lone wolves and follow their instincts most times during a mission (but Matt knows how to back down// knows when to listen to his team most times) Also they both have fuzzy hair

Apparently Matt was once an engineer of some kind back at the Garrison, and loves eating anything Hunk gives him. Matt joins Hunk and Pidge's group, helping them out with mechanics and stuff, (since he was most likely a higher rank then both of them at the Garrison), sometimes even correcting Pidge when they're doing a separate project of some sort.

Allura talks to Matt about plans of sorts, and loves his ideas// adjustments to some of her original plans for a mission, and Matt started studying Altean with the help of Coran when he tries pronouncing the words and when he has problems understanding the rules of the language

The only person he hasn't really talked to// met yet is Lance. The main reason why is because Lance doesn't want to ruin his relationship with Matt the same way he thinks he messed up with Allura when they got to know each other.

Everyone just adores Matt and constantly puts the spotlight on him. He's even better then Keith with most things, which is astonishing to Lance, but it hurts more knowing that he has spent his whole Garrison year trying to beat Keith at basically everything, and impress both Keith and Shiro but never gets a praise out of anything.

He has a hard time thinking what his special talent// what he contributes to the team. In his mind, his only talent right now is being extremely annoying.

Lance doesn't hate himself. He has his insecurities sure, but he doesn't hate himself. He just hasn't found what he's good at yet. It used to be taking care of his family and comforting them when they had a bad day, but that doesn't seem to end the case anymore. Sure he was there for everyone else when Shiro went missing (I'll probably write another post about it later)

Also, Hunk doesn't upright ignore//forget about him. He still talks to Lance and he kind of knows about Lance's attention needs, but with all the missions and projects with Pidge, it's hard being one person. They're still friends, but they just aren't as close as they used to be.

Lance is the kind of person that doesn't tell anyone anything unless you confront him about it because he thinks he's just being a burden to everyone. He knows that he has to stop bottling his feelings, but it's hard when the people you consider to be your family is busy dealing with they're own problems .

He would talk to Coran, but he's trying to be there for Allura whenever she needs him, since they're still mourning over Altea

There's Shiro, but they aren't exactly 'close'. At all. Shiro is still trying to recover from his one year as a Galran prisoner. It's harder for him to move on since one of his arms was removed and replaced with a metal one after being experimented on.

Pidge is still looking for her father, and Keith is still adjusting to the fact that he has Galra blood inside of him, and is also looking for his family.

Slav isn't exactly helpful with emotional stuff, and Kolivan is a rebellion leader leading a large group of followers

Lance can't just break down in his room. People would hear him, and he'd probably get scolded for not telling anyone about all his problems and his attention needs .

That's where Matt comes in. So let's say that Lance is hanging out at the front of the ship one night when everyone else is sleeping, just watching the stars and thinking about his family, maybe even messing with the star map

Matt couldn't exactly sleep that night because he was wondering where his dad was, or/ and how his mother was coping with the loss of her family. He gets out of bed and makes his way to the training deck (something he picked up from Keith), only to be stopped when he sees the glow of the star map in the front of the ship. Thinking its Pidge for the hundredth time that week, he walks in ready to scold the fuck out of her.

When he sees Lance just sitting on the floor of the ship, a blanket over his shoulders, and still wearing his usual outfit instead of his pajamas, Matt gets a little worried. He actually scares the fuck out of Lance when he asks him what he was doing, and Lance starts cursing in Spanish, since he was born in Cuba. Matt apologizes for startling him, then asks if Lance is alright.

Lance just gives him a shrug, before zooming back into one of the planets in the star map. Curious, as to what the paladin was looking at, Matt takes a peak over Lance's shoulder. It's Earth that Lance is looking at. The sudden realization that Lance is homesick is enough for Matt to sit down besides the paladin and put an arm around his back in support.

Matt let's Lance vent on and on about his family and how fucking much he misses them and how much he just wants to tell them that he's okay and that he's coming back as soon as he can, and how much he's kept his feelings in because he never had a chance to talk to anyone about it. Matt just listens to him, not even interrupting him once throughout the whole thing, and rubs his back often when Lance looks like he's about to cry.

When Lance is done, Matt admits that he's homesick as well, but only because his mother has basically been abandoned by her family, and once in a while he feels guilty for not trying to get back home and instead is joined a rebellion group, but he knows he's doing it for his mom's sake, and for the Earth and all the other planets are safe.

And they just talk, except it's extremely awkward because this is the first time they've actually TALKED to each other since Matt arrived, and in the Earth calendar Pidge has, it's been months.

But they do talk (finally), and most of the things they talk about is either about Pidge being a dork or how they miss their families, maybe even some weird/goofy stuff, like how Slav actually does calculations stuff or how many planets there actually was using some mathematical bullshit methods, and by messing around with the star map.

Then Lance accidentally brings up how awesome Matt is and how he should be the Blue paladin and not him because to his team Lance is just an annoying try hard// joker

So Matt quickly throws that thought out the fucking window, and tells Lance how much the team cares about him and how much Pidge has said about him and how brotherly// awesome he is and how he's an amazing sharp shooter, while Matt is just some dude that used to be a coward most of the time

So they just talk about how amazing the other is and they keep talking throughout the night (until they fall asleep on one another)

This is extremely lame lol I'm sorry