#and then I'll be able to do some plot stuff.... I can't wait to share it with you guys!!!

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Babylon The Great Series Masterlist

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Main Masterlist - Dean Masterlist

Rating/Warnings: 18+ for canon-typical violence, swearing, severe mental health issues, self-harm and suicidal ideation, mentions of rape/non-con, and sexual content.

Tags: Dean Winchester/Female Reader, enemies to friends to lovers, canon divergence, slow burn, smut, angst, fluff, eventual happy ending.

Series Summary

There's something wrong with you that's not wrong with other people. You're a hunter, and a damn good one, but you might be a monster.

There might be something in you that needs to be put down. Something broken that can't be fixed.

It's why you've had one rule your whole life. The only thing your father has ever made clear is that, no matter what, you need to stay away from John Winchester. He can't even know you exist, or he'll kill you and never blink.

And when your paths cross a hunt, you should've run, but you didn't. You couldn't. Because you looked at Dean Winchester, and something changed inside of you. Something called you to him, and you can't figure out what it was, but you know it's strong. And you know that, whatever Dean's doing to you, you don't really care to fight it. Things are broken in you, just as much is broken in him, and you fit perfectly together in a way you'll never be able to describe.

But it's more complicated than that, though. The world pulls you and Dean apart again and again.

And you find your way back, again and again.

Author's Note

This story is non-canon compliant rewrite, but primarily plot wise. Think of it as we're cooking with all the same ingredients (i.e lore, characters, setting, and backstory) but with one change (you) that gets us to a drastically different ending.

What the means is that there will be a lot of similar plot points to Supernatural, but the further we go through the story the more it will diverge. I've also take some creative labor with the reader, adding lore that's defiantly not a part of canon, but crucial to this story.

If you have any questions about this, feel free to ask! If not, I hope you enjoy the story!

Chapter List

Chapter 1 - In My Brain and In My Blood Chapter 2 - Under My Skin Chapter 3 - I Get A Little Dizzy Chapter 4 - You Bleed Like Me Chapter 5 - If You Let Me Chapter 6 - All The Noise Chapter 7 - Something I Can See Chapter 8 - Keep Us Far Apart Chapter 9 - Does The Feeling Haunt You Chapter 10 - Look and See Chapter 11 - You Might Drown Chapter 12 - Watch You Work The Room Chapter 13 - You'll Have to Believe It Chapter 14 - Water Is Forever Chapter 15 - Before It Falls Apart Chapter 16 - Try to Catch It Chapter 17 - You Come Back Chapter 18 - You Can Start to Make It Better Chapter 19 - That's Nothing New Chapter 20 - Wait for Me Chapter 21 - If You Want To Survive Chapter 22 - I'd Go Black And Blue Chapter 23 - You've Been Waiting to Break Chapter 24 - Just Hold On Chapter 25 - And It Was Written Chapter 26 - Worth the Fight Chapter 27 - When You Go (7/3)

Pslams (In-Series Bonus Chapters)

Can You Hear Me - You sit on the roof of your car. Takes place a month after Chapter 15. I'll Keep On Waiting - Dean watches you, and Jo shares some thoughts. Takes place after Chapter 19. So Go On - Sam Chapter! Takes place after Chapter 20. Spinning Around - You, Dean, and allegedly Sam go to the movies. Takes place between Chapter 19 and Chapter 20. Just Pretend - You and Dean have some dreams. Takes place almost any time after Chapter 20. On My Way - Dean looks at some fruits. Takes place around Chapter 23.

Extras From Me

Listen to the Playlist! Memes!

Stuff By You Guys!!! (Art, Memes, and Anything more)

Meme Art by @dammbi Dean Art by @dammbi Memes 1, and 2, by @dammbi Soul Art by @youdontknowe Princess Art by @youdontknowe Language Art by @imnotmentallyst4ble Princess Moodboard by @deans-yn Playlist by @imnotmentallyst4ble Series Moodboard by @dammbi Journal Spread by @imnotmentallyst4ble Memes by @brtodd Princess and Dean Art by @youdontknowe Princess Marilyn Monroe Art by @youdontknowe Princess Art by @youdontknowe Knife and Blade Art by @youdontknowe

[damsels-n-dice]

playtesting adventures: the story begins

after creating characters two weeks ago, we've begun playing our playtesting campaign of 'til it kills us! as always, i'll start by sharing my general thoughts on the game's progress, the campaign, and storytelling for the game as a whole. and then there'll be some specific information about my player group under the cut :)

general playtesting thoughts (& feelings):

it's hard as someone mostly used to D&D to remember that it's allowed/expected for players to know the rules & help out

that being said, i continue to love this system!

we had an awesome domino effect of a scene where a player had to get rid of the bogeyman hiding in her shadow, and ended up slapstick falling onto her ex-boyfriend (despite succeeding)

it's great fun to play with these people and see what they do with my game that i worked on for so long

... some of them admittedly still don't understand that it isn't a crunchy system though and they are Confused about it

not everything went exactly as i'd planned, either, as it's hard to keep to the beats you wanted in such an improv-y game, but i'm gonna work around it to keep us on track for the right themes

game updates:

some more major ones are being made or considered this time around, though most are quality of life things!

editing powers to make it more clear that (a) they are once per scene per free and (b) you can recreate them with a roll but it is more likely there will be failures or consequences

editing wounds to be "reduce wound severity by 1 stage" instead of "remove minor wounds", to make major wounds easier to get rid of and avoid accidentally killing ambitious players

possibly rename a few abilities? and i may need to clarify again which abilities are inherently magic and which ones are not

then someone also suggested allowing being able to combo abilities, which i think could be quite a fun and interesting way to do things? i think that would probably work by averaging the dice values you have for the two abilities, but would have some other benefit?

speaking of benefits -- some complication deals need to be rephrased for clarity, as they don't do anything right now

finally: looking to change the balance on powers for a few roles. the gravedigger's power may end up just being used to fuck with other players, which i do not like, and i feel that the drowned probably needs a stronger healing power. we'll see there though

anyway i'll end this with a question: does anyone have advice for players with the "it would make sense for my character if i was overpowered" kind of mentality? this is sort of work but also playtesting with friends and it's an,,,, awkward situation

now for some plot details below the read more!

the story so far:

the bogeyman (it/its) has decided to fuck around with the rest of the players using its magic, while pretending where possible to actually be a different playbook! it's very entertaining stuff and i can't wait to make it deal with the Consequences there

an NPC has exploded in the middle of their cafe home base, forcing them all to help the injured and deal with the damage

this NPC is a lighthouse, and is going to be part of the overarching narrative -- dangerous NPCs with their own problems and magic, which all tie into the (secretly government-funded) charity that supports "the magically afflicted" in this city

several of the players are also now under suspicion, after being caught lying to the police, or straight up threatening them

my plans going forward:

the NPC has gone missing, so the players are going to track him down and probably discover that he was arrested without trial, due to information gathered from the aforementioned "charity"

the players are going to be dealing with the suspicion they're facing, and the fact that two of them are without a job now

they will be given the opportunity to help rebuild/fundraise/etc for the community centre, but i don't know how likely it is that they'll take it when there are mysteries afoot in the city



[shakingparadigm]

What if Luka expects Hyuna to come like she did in his round with Mizi and he is plotting something.He has the trust of aliens,the love of the public and no one would suspect him to do something outside the box,far from the image he created of himself.Hyuna made her appearence in round 5 when we didn't expected it. If the round isn't entirely dedicated to Ivan and Till,this may be an option.He may confront Mizi and Hyuna,they may not be able to rescue Ivan and Till and not make it in time. Luka may not appear at all.

(Me overthinking things: OMG Akugetsu will cover Hyuna's song this must mean something | The other me: OMG I can't wait,this song literally suits him!)

(I like the style of your drawings,the way you use colors and the way you phrase things! When something about ALNST comes out I just wait for your updates! I can't imagine what will happen on tumblr when round 6 is out. And then all of us will wait for the next one over again XD)

Till the end.

TILL... the end...

Ok this is the worst joke I could ever make.

Oohh. Luka appearing in ROUND 6 would honestly be insane. I thought about him making an appearance in the short teaser scene before credits, but if he actually confronted anyone himself that would be so interesting. Imagine all 6 of them in the same episode... the same room... no way... the Alien Stage would be real...

Luka attempting to sabotage Mizi and Hyuna is such an intriguing concept. I do think he's figured out that Hyuna will be returning, he grew up with her, after all. He's most likely aware of her penchant for protecting people. He probably expects Mizi to come back for the only friends she has left, too. He couldn't do anything the first time he saw Hyuna after ROUND 5, but he might be more eager to get his hands on her now. If we get our first adult Hyuna and Luka interaction during ROUND 6 I'd actually go insane. as much as I hope for it though, I'm not sure whether or not it will actually happen. ROUND 6 already has a lot going for it. A final confession of love already makes for a heavy episode, but with Till's newly revealed backstory added to the mix? Mizi and Hyuna's attempt at a jailbreak? The whole video would probably need an entire week to be processed and even comprehended, especially if they want to go into extensive detail on each aspect. Still, though, if Luka interfered... if Mizi and Hyuna were unable to save anyone and had to defeatedly return to the rebellion base carrying the weight of their failure, well, I DON'T THINK I'D BE REACHABLE FOR AT LEAST 10 BUSINESS DAYS I'd have to go into hiding in order to cope with that. But who knows! The fun part about VIVINOS videos is that they're always gonna leave you fucked up in one way or another!

AKUGETSU COVERING ALL-IN. TILL COVERING HYUNA'S SONG. I've posted so many times about this day holy shit its finally real. It really does suit him! Do you think AKUGETSU is

1) hinting that Till is joining the rebellion

or

2) giving us the All-In cover as compensation for whatever bad thing is going to happen to Till

(or a secret third thing: he literally just did it for fun and we've just gone insane.)

Ahh thank you so much for enjoying my stuff! I'm so happy, everyone's been really nice to me as of late and I don't know what to doooo hahaha I'm just really glad to share everyone's excitement for ALIEN STAGE :)

You wait for my updates??!! oh no I'm so sorry 😭 I'm quite late at times because I've had some stuff going on (I've barely said anything about the April Fools actor au 😭) but hopefully I'll be free to go absolutely nuts after the release of ROUND 6 tomorrow!! If you're ever in need of someone to scream about ROUND 6 with my inbox is always open!! Thank you for your kind words!!

Can't wait till I get to hear from you again! :)

[kurios-development-hell]

New Lightner in the block

Sorry for the lack of updates. I sketched in the night the concept of my Undertale OC, who can actually appear in my AU as another Lightner in Home Town. He's still the cousin twice-removed of Undyne, a Delta Rune monk who also happens to be a ship-wright (though I guess in Deltarune maybe instead of building ships he could be just a mechanic of cars and other vehicles). He has some Undertale lore but I think they are not very relevant in Deltarune because of the changes Toby did. Still would spar with Undyne at any chance since they both still greet themselves with an impromptu of a test of strength and finesse. His weapons are still summoning coral-red battle axes and fights like a viking possessed 🪓🪓

Hmm, maybe I should give him a mechanic coverall for this AU and put his workshop in an inconspicuous part of the town. Who knows, maybe Toriel could go to repair her destroyed tires after Chapter 3, by sending her car to his workshop and this would be a good moment to introduce him to help in the plot, since he's still a warrior merfolk like Undyne 😊

⚧️ There's also some extra stuff that I added to the character, as fishes are able to change genre depending of the pressure of the environment, he was born a she just like Undyne, but family upbringing changed her to the he he's today. He didn't mind though as he found himself more in tune with being male than female. He however admires Undyne for not changing and still becoming one of the strongest females in all known monsterkind 🐟 (they both share the same age by the way)

And that's it for now. Computer still being in bad terms with me and makes everything too slow because of the lack of GPU. I've pending some few graphics for the blog that were scheduled for the end of August but... Welp, time is a finicky lord. I'll try focus on that tomorrow if nothing tugs me away from my spare time. Until then, take care.

PS: I'm happy to announce that another one moved to commission me an avatar of their OC. I'm glad to do this because I want to make others happy with my work, and an avatar is always a nice interactive experience in which literally they are wearing your art in public, and that makes me explode of happy 😳As for the ones I was working, the progress is good and I believe (if the computer allows) that they will be finished this month. Can't wait to show them in motion whenever they are finished. I aim for excellency and the comfort of the person using my avatars.

[tawus]

So the NSFW thing that I'll be sending you isn't a fic or anything but a NSFW Gojo Dating Simulator called, Teacher's Pet by khywae! Yep! That's right! This saucy jig will take 6 years off of your lifespan! (They even did one for Toji as well~.) 🤭

Sadly, you can't play it on mobile. It does work on Mac. Once you click the link to itch.io you'll be able to see the Important Notices & Download information if you're intrested in the whole thing.

I recommend putting on head-phones and definitely wait till like you're FULLY ALONE to try out the demo simulation! It’s not voiced but don’t worry it’s ~the plot~ that makes it up. 👀

Having to personally played the demo myself. It took me a couple of hours to finish due to the insane sexy Golo content that I saw and let me tell you of how low my jaw dropped when I experienced the two nsfw scenes on the demo alone.

It’s all thanks to digitalstarlyte on Instagram. Where I was simply scrolling through reels and I saw her content that made me check out this Gojo Simulator. I don’t wanna link her reaction (of 1-4 parts) to the game since I think it’s better to go in blind. 😌🥰😚 But you can totally go to her reels and scroll down to find them.

Here’s Part 1 of her reaction if you wanna get a glimpse of what to expect. 😏

Let me know what you think, if you plan on trying the demo or the full game. 😘

Btw: He’s 20 years old in this simulation, so don’t worry. :D

My two kettles have been boiling on the stovetop for an hour now as I've been playing this demo. I was meant to wash my hair and do my skincare but horny Gojo just. won't. stop! 😤🤚

Most of all, I'm really impressed by the creators of it: the developer, the writer, the artist etc. I've always dreamt of bringing my visions to the reader as a full sensory experience, and these people have done a phenomenal job at it. Talent is overflowing, as is Gojo in this game

It's nsfw, involves a teacher-student relationship, involves some moral corrupting, all the nasty stuff we enjoy in fiction - so read the summary, heed the warnings, then embark.

Thank you for sharing Mokonnie ❤️ Your Gojo-obsessed mind always finds the juiciest stuff 🪄

[rocksibblingsau]

I love how you over analyze and over think when you do your work, also doing some research and considering some things and planning things through. It's very convenient and useful when it comes to building a story. And I like and respect you for that.

I wish I could be like that, but I don't really get a lot of idea's. I only get some through other people and I want to be able to think of something independently.

Ik this is a stupid question, but I wanna know what you think would help with getting idea's and thoughts for certain things. Maybe from your experience perhaps? You probably don't have the answer, but If you do could you share?

----DumbTruck :>

Thank you! My brain constantly going at 90 mph is useful sometimes.

To me, ideas are a snowball. Getting enough to get the ball rolling is what you gotta worry about. You get that initial plot idea or scene idea, and then you just start throwing stuff at it until it starts to look like something.

I've read a lot of fics, looked at lots of fanart and I listen to a LOT of music. I've seen lots of various AUs, 'missing scene' concepts and tweaking characters around. Listening to music also helps me since I'll just start sticking songs to characters and wait for a concept to make that song work with that character.

If you're struggling to come up with that initial idea, it might help to do some experimenting with ideas that already exist. Absolutely nothing wrong with you reading a fic and going 'I want to try my own spin on this idea'.

Since you're here, I imagine you also read fanfiction so think of your favorite fandom, the one that occupies your mind the most. Then your favorite character. What is the one fanfic you would most like to read? Has someone written that idea? What did you like about it and what did you dislike about it? Were there fics that had some elements you liked that you think would be cool merged? I started Rock Sibblings because I couldn't find the exact fic I wanted, so most of it is wish fulfillment.

If you don't have anything in mind, think about some common AUs or plots. Pick some of those and think about how you might do them. Try to push away from the normal and even if it gets super weird, you're gaining something from the experience. I think working with minor/background characters helps me because it opens up more avenues to me. I've never seen anyone work with Petra in fanfic, and I decided to toss her in and I think she's gonna add a lot of new avenues!

If it's less the initial idea and more the everything after, just getting sucked into random things helps me. Looking up subgenres of rock music can quickly spiral into learning about other things. I also recommend googling random things sometimes just to see where that leads. The diner scene really only happened because when trying to name the fry special I thought of greasers and then decided to google them. Then I was reminded of 50s diners and realized the scene could have a lot more life to describe the diner as similar to that, and then of course that opened up the chance to include rock n roll music. There's also a place near my home that has this sort of historical exhibit with a 1950s area (really just dig up any memories you have related to random topics), and there was a jukebox and pinball machine in the diner, so of *course* there needs to be a jukebox and pinball machine. And you can't just have a pinball machine and not have them play it. So now they're playing pinball, and so they gotta be hanging out and goofing off! Tada, snowballing.

This was a little disjointed and I'm sorry if it's not of much help. I've never really thought too much about making ideas, its more the execution that I struggle with.

[quiet-nocturne]

ohhh for the writing ask meme how about 11, 20, and 28?

oooh, thank you for the ask!! ok, so: 11. Three tropes that are fine but overrated. honestly, I love a lot of tropes (lol @ myself, earlier, looking through a list of tropes and desperately scrolling to find one I don't love - like literally give me a soulmark au anyday), but the ones that aren't my favorites are: 1. Regency/Royalty AUs - I love, love period dramas, but often I feel like when fics are written with this trope, the characters feel totally off for me. There's not a lot in the royai fandom, but definitely in some other ones I've been in. 2. Virgin!fics - I just don't consider it to be all that accurate (for royai, anyway - it could definitely work more for other fandoms/pairings, depending). Like, even for Riza, I really don't think her back tattoo prevented her from having sex at least once (excluding/before Roy) - in my opinion, anyway! I find general inexperience is more fun to play with then straight up virgin fics. 3. major character death - I will usually avoid reading something involving this, because it usually makes me big sad. :( not that it can't be well done, butttt yeah haha. I love some good angst, but I don't enjoy when it's too angsty. also for royai, I'm like... at least let them have some happiness, jeez?

but honestly, any trope can be cool and interesting depending on how the writer does it! and, like, whatever floats your boat, ya know? 20. Do you work on a single project or many at the same time? How does that work for you? okay, so this depends on my mood, and current wip hyperfixation, but generally I do enjoy working on multiple at once. it's nice to be able to switch between projects when you get stuck... but sometimes it's also nice to focus on one thing.

28. Any writing advice that works for you and you feel like sharing?

so writing advice can be very... self-specific, if that makes sense? i find a lot of writing advice out there that's supposed to be geared towards anyone sometimes doesn't always work for everyone. but! a few things that I find helpful for myself are: 1. don't believe the voice in your head telling you that your writing is awful - that is the devil talking, lol. let it sit for a bit, and come back, and I promise that it'll be better when you're reading it using a different mindset. it's happened to me so many times where I'm like "this is fucking awful why did I ever write this" and then I reread it a few days/weeks/months later and I'm like "wait, this is actually good??" it just needs to simmer for a bit. 2. as stated earlier, let your writing sit for a bit, especially while editing, or trying to figure out transitions or plot holes. I'll get really frustrated with an issue sometimes, and believe it's impossible to fix - but mostly that's just me hitting a wall. if I let it sit for a while, and stop reading my own words for a bit (i basically get sick of my own writing lol), then suddenly a lot of the problems are a lot easier to solve. 3. keep a list of words/phrasing that you like - then you have a reference to look at when you're struggling with word choice. super helpful, as I often get stuck with descriptions, and then I have a nice little list to use as reference. 4. skip over stuff that you're struggling with in the initial writing process - can't think of a name? add it later! not sure how to describe something? skip it and come back! don't like your word choice? fix it later! basically don't fixate on small details, as it can always be added in later. this is why I always have to tell myself that editing is not as bad as I blow it up to be in my head, because honestly the best parts of my writing usually happen during the editing process.

i don't know how helpful those are, but yeah!

[rosanna-writer]

WIP Wednesday Snippet

Someone in the comments of the last chapter asked about the possibility of the whole "Rhys flaunting Feyre as a plaything at Amarantha's party" thing in we said hello and your eyes look like coming home, so I'm sharing a little snippet of what I have in progress for that!

Putting it under the cut because it has some plot stuff readers might not want spoiled; skip this one if you don't wanna know the twist I have planned for Amarantha's riddle :)

Nuala and Cerridwen faded into the shadows just as Rhys appeared, a look of disgust on his face. I expected to see hunger as his eyes swept down my body and he took in all the exposed skin, but there was nothing but distaste. "You look horrible in white," he said by way of greeting.

I just raised my brows, resisting the urge to cross my arms and attempt to cover myself. He'd seen all of it before anyway. "I was under the impression you were the one who picked this out," I said.

"I was. You looking horrible and making a mockery of your so-called virginity was the point." I bit back a retort that I could have figured that much out for myself and just waited for him to explain. "We're exploiting the loophole that you never had to be sober when you heard the riddle."

That explained the instruction not to drink anything that he didn't hand to me personally. I understood where he was going with this. "But you're not actually giving me anything stronger than water?"

"Precisely. You'll pretend to be drunk, and she'll taunt you and say it's such a shame humans can't handle faerie wine because the riddle was so simple."

It was neat and tidy, just as I'd come to expect from Rhys's plans. There was just one problem. "Rhys, I've— I've never actually been drunk before," I said, cheeks burning.

His eyes went wide with shock, and he swore under his breath. "I can't believe I've never asked. How old are you, Feyre?"

"Nineteen." I still didn't quite know him well enough to read all the emotions that crossed his face in quick succession, but now really wasn't the time to discuss this in detail. We had work to do. "But that doesn't matter, I'll be able to pretend. I just might need a bit of help."

Talons brushed the edge of my mind. "I'm right here, and I won't let you fail."

[thecloudstan]

Thoughts regarding the changes of certain elements of the OG in "Rebirth" (e.g. Cid's personality being changed or Dyne's death)?

This is such a great question!! I'll answer for both of these because I do have thoughts, and the game is so big that I'm already forgetting some things that you guys remind me about. I'll start with Cid.

I'm not entirely convinced that Cid's personality is changed, so much as the...timeframe of his life is being shifted? I'll try to explain.

In the original, you meet Cid and he's already this grizzled asshole who is doing THE MOST, and his hatred of Shinra is so acute that he eventually starts to rival Barret for who hates that company the most. I love Cid, but I guess if anyone from the playable party had the weakest motivation, it would be him. "They stole my dream" is motivation, don't get me wrong, but doesn't it sort of pale in comparison to "they murdered our parents and burned our village; they murdered me and brainwashed the love of my life; they did EXPERIMENTS ON ME." Sorry Cid, but your trauma is a bit...hmnnggh bebi by comparison...

In Rebirth, Shinra hasn't 100% fallen from his good graces yet, at least with regard to him being ambivalent about their misdeeds because he needs to turn a profit. I think the changes to when you meet Cid, how you meet Cid, and how he behaves about Shinra boil down to two things;

1.) Game functionality. It made the most sense to introduce him sooner to give access to the world in an exploratory sense, and the only way to do this in a remotely timely manner would be to introduce him sooner. But then you kinda fuck up the placement and point of Rocket Town, so he needs some other "hook."

2.) I believe they're saving his "fall" for the third part, much like Vincent's background will be saved for the third part. We still need some dramatic flair and some reminders why everyone should hate the fascist overlord, and by then we already know very well why Barret, Tifa, Cloud, Aerith, Red, Yuffie, and even Reeve harbor those feelings.

Long story short, I think he's been set up for his own character development. It was also kinda nice to have the Tiny Bronco around before Cid's wings are totally clipped, so to speak. It was interesting to see that spark of pre-FUCK THIS SHIT Cid. One thing I do find VERY intriguing is the connection to Ifalna!!!!!! I can't wait to see how that pans out...how well did he know her? Did he have FEELINGS for her?! Is he the reason she was able to escape, even though she didn't make it far? Is Aerith walking free because of Cid Highwind?! That would be kind of gaggy, to be quite honest.

So, sure, they did adjust his personality a bit. Like I doubt he's going to verbally abuse Shera and drop F-bombs, but that's fine. They changed a lot of things from the original that just would not play well to an audience nowadays, and I get it.

Dyne stuff under the cut!!!

My husband and I fully disagree on Dyne. I'm not too assed about him not leaping to his death (I mean, he already fell into a gorge which was probably kinda traumatic???? So having him NOT choose to off himself that way could make a bit of sense). What I am most intrigued about is how he goes full fucking Tetsuo from Akira half way through the fight??

In the original game, Dyne is just a man. He's strong, but he's just a broken man. He isn't experimented on by Shinra, we have no canon understanding of him being Mako poisoned or something, he should not be capable of what Rebirth Dyne was doing during that fight with Barret. My husband has chosen to write it off as the dev team just beefing up the battle to make it more modern/difficult/fun.

I don't share this thought process. Hojo is already understanding things (in my opinion) that go above and beyond the original plot. There are already mutations in Rebirth that didn't exist in the original, and I don't know if I'm reading too much into that, but it seems to me that it's kind of an emerging theme...

SOMETHING. Happened to Dyne. Whether he...fell into the gorge and then was Mako poisoned from being too close to the blown up reactor for years...or something else...I don't know for sure. But I wouldn't be surprised if Rebirth is NOT the last we hear about what happened to Dyne. They're REALLY going in on the human experimentation thing...it's going to get quite ugly with Cloud's background (and Aerith's, I'm assuming, if Cid ever spills those beans), and just Red XIII's Trial in the Temple of the Ancients ALONE was bone-chilling. I don't have precise answers or predictions or anything, but I do think it was changed with an intention deeper than "let's make this battle harder/more cinematic."

[vt-scribbles]

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

🌿how does creating make you feel?

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

💞what’s the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn’t think it would take you?

🍭why did you start writing?

💎why is writing important to you?

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you’ve finished a fic?

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Kept it to the questions that were positivity-oriented because, well, asking you to think about the rougher aspects of fandom writing doesn't feel like a nice thing to do, but if there are any other questions you wanted to answer, feel free to do so!

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

Another one of my fave comment types is people who just... liveblog their reactions. Nothing fancy. They just write reactions or thoughts as they read along. I love these so much because they let me watch a reader's thought process, and it lets me know where I'm tripping up or where I'm conveying things exactly how I want. Plus, I just LOVE seeing people experience the story blindly, because, well, it's the one thing that I as the author cannot do. I'll never get to experience my writing as a reader. I know all the secrets.

🌿how does creating make you feel?

It's the closest to 'magic' I can get. Creating something from nothing but the thoughts in your head. And sometimes these thoughts connect with other people? I'm weaving words or images from NOTHING, and it's doing SOMETHING? that's incredible.

Not to mention, it's always an addicting feeling when characters start to come to life on their own. Or, when pieces of your plot start to click together. It's as satisfying as making progress on a puzzle, except you know the puzzle is going to look absolutely incredible at the end and you can't wait to show it to people.

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

My writing can be very 'cartoonish' at points, and I adore that. I love writing my stories so that an animated film/show plays in the reader's head.

💞what’s the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

Definitely the characters. Plot and worldbuilding are a very close second. It depends on what type of story I'm following. If it's a fairly simple story, the characters need to shine. If it's a complex world with lore and twists and turns, the worldbuilding needs to be tighter. But I mostly care about our characters being at least interesting to watch. You could have a great setting and such but if the characters are boring, I'm not going to watch/read.

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

Honestly, The Harvester! We didn't expect so many people to connect with it, or to be able to look past its rougher edges as a "copy-pasted roleplay between two nerds".

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn’t think it would take you?

I'll instead talk about a chapter of The Harvester that was hard to write. There's a future episode where Hema reflects on some of the bad things he's done, in a very down-to-earth conversation with someone. I think about this chapter a lot because it was written right after my car accident in 2017, which was my first near-death experience. I was in a bad place mentally, and the breakdown Hema ends up having is very similar to a real-life breakdown I had while visiting a friend's house. Reliving that very raw and upsetting feeling was hard on me, but it made the scene hit harder and it felt more honest, which wound up improving it, in the end.

🍭why did you start writing?

I'm not really sure! I had ideas, and I wanted to get those ideas down. I started writing after finishing Fullmetal Alchemist, and I wanted to have my own animated show some day. Now that I'm older, I understand that a book series would be way more affordable haha. I actually almost stopped writing because my highschool english teacher told me to 'give it up, you'll never go anywhere with this,' and to this day that spite has mixed with love and passion for the craft and drives me forward.

💎why is writing important to you?

Because it's the closest thing I have to magic. Like a fish has to swim, I have to take people on journeys. To make their existences easier. To make life a little more fun or creative for them, for a time. I want my stories to be an escape for those who need out, and shelter for those who need to hide.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you’ve finished a fic?

So this is an odd one for me to answer because I do chapter-by-chapter releases and haven't finished a whole story yet. But my after-chapter-posting routine is usually 'go to sleep, get snacks, and keep Gmail open on the side in case of comments.' Sometimes I go back and re-read it, or I doodle something for the chapter.~ But tbh at this point, it's a pretty casual thing for me.

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

It helps me feel like I'm part of the world. Like my stories make me more real, because it's one of the few modes of human connection that I have. I can reach out and connect to people that I may never even speak to, but a tiny part of me lives on in their story because they read something I wrote. Or maybe something stuck with them, or they got new friends because of it. The world is one big story and I'm just looking to have a few cameos in it.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

How abouuut... the first draft of Find Your Wings' prologue? ;3

[cainrising]

1, 4 & 18 for the ask game!

from here

1. the last sentence you wrote:

Charles' hands slip over his ribs

4. a story idea you haven't written yet:

I have SO many but i'll try not to yap too much

- street racing au, basically max is the top dog in the region, pretty much nationally—I'm thinking set in Tokyo bc. I love the vibes—he's so good & revered, and Charles is the new guy who literally goes balls to the walls and accepts pink slip conditions in a race with max, which, like. nobody does because they know they're gonna be the one to hand their car over. but Charles beats him, and it's basically toxic yaoi except its the kind of toxic where they HAVE to be together bc they'd be a danger to anyone else. also the street racing scene would be pretty intertwined with like crime rings, and stuff like that, and it's pretty. distinct in my notes that Oscar is a bartender 😭 idk where and why that popped into my head but I can't let go of it.

- time travel where sauber Charles and firecracker max end up in 2025 established lestappen's apartment. I don't really have a plot for this, hence why it's still an idea. I just know I want younger max watching older max race from the back of the garage, like. that's a pretty distinct scene in my head. and also. self-cest. ☺️

- Oscar races for alpine in 2023 and goes to red bull in 2024. maxcar. again, no plot, so I haven't really been able to write it. I just really wanna write wheel. and maxcar.

- charles max title fight future fic, soulmate identifying marks -- au: Ferrari win the constructors in 2024? idk this one is confusing me. the ending is so vivid I just dk what's going on in the beginning/middle. letting it marinate some more

18. share a deleted paragraph or sentence from a published fic :

[from Angle of Incidence. a little longer than a paragraph LOL]

Oscar blinks blearily up at him, eyebrows pulling together, and he garbles something through Lando’s fingers, drool running down the seam of his lips.

“Well?”

“N-No, no, I haven’t—swear, I didn’t, I wouldn’t—”

Lando rubs his knuckles against the burning heat of his cheek. “I know, baby. Charles would be, like, leading the championship if he had your mouth. You’re magic.”

“Oh,” Oscar goes slack. He’s so dumb like this, believes anything. Lando enjoys it perhaps more than he should. “Okay, okay. I wouldn’t—anyway. Fuck Charles. Swear.”

“Bet Charles would love to fuck you, though,” Lando wonders aloud, lazily gets back to jerking himself off. “Amount of times he fucking—touches you, always hanging around, ‘s fucking embarrassing how bad he wants to tap it. Everyone can see, Osc, ‘m not even kidding. You’re not that funny, why is he laughing so much?”

“I don’t care about Charles,” Oscar complains. Lando’s left his mouth empty for too long, clearly. “Can you just—put it in. Please.”

Lando drags his nails lightly on the downstroke, and his thigh twitches, sweat gathering between his shoulder blades. Maybe he should just get off like this, over Oscar’s throat, if he’s going to get mouthy about it. It’s what he’d deserve.

No, wait—even better: “Come on then, scoot forward,” Lando levels his expression, and Oscar hesitates, wary. Obeys. “Just for that, you can do all the work today, how about that?”

He takes his hands off his cock, leaves it to lay heavy against his thigh. Slouches on Oscar’s sofa, throws his arms over the back of it. “Go on then, get to it.”

Oscar has the nerve to look like Lando just shot his puppy. “What do you mean get to it? Aren’t you—but. You always—”

What he means is Lando likes to fuck his mouth. Blow jobs aren’t exactly blow jobs because Oscar sits there, goes all pliant and open, and Lando just. Bruises the back of his throat. It’s mega. 10/10 would go again. Seriously, Oscar’s mouth is the stuff people write sonnets about. But Lando’s kind of tired from, like. The drive of his life, and Oscar wants to gob off, so he can have a go at putting the effort in for once. How about that?

“’s what you get for getting sassy.” Lando toes his inner thigh, mouth twitching at the reflective jolt, the sharp inhale. “Weren’t you just moaning about a shower? Clocks ticking, mate. Better hop to it.”

“Lando, come on,” Oscar implores, whacks his forehead against Lando’s knee. “Please?”

“It’s adorable you think that’ll work on me. Again.”

Oscar stares up at him like he’s waiting for Lando to change his mind. His phone is tossed on the other end of the couch, so he reaches over to grab it, ignores Oscar whinging. There’s an email from Sophie and an alert from Team Snapchat that he’s about to lose his streak with Carlos. Very pressing, that one. He swipes up, flicks in his passcode. 0-5-0-5-2-4.

There isn’t any sound for a beat. Lando wipes at the sweat clammy across his brow, stretches his leg out. A couple of hours until he has to catch up with Max. Oscar might get to blowing him sometime before then if a miracle occurs.

Or sooner, because a fleeting touch skims his thigh, falls away. Oscar breathes out. Lando stares blankly at his home screen, at the picture of his sisters, and then he remembers. Snapchat, right. Swipes right, to his yellow apps folder.

Slender fingers wrap around his cock. Lando wonders how Oscar manages to reach all the buttons on his steering wheel when his are—fucking. Tiny, compared to Lando. Such a prince, all dainty hands and soft hair and kind smiles. Lando’s, like, the dragon in comparison, curled around the tower and spitting fire.

He feels like he’s on fire. It’s hard to stay still when he’s actively trying to do it, ends up staring a hole into Carlos’ stupid as fuck bitmoji, forcing breath out between his teeth. The pressure tightens, forms a tunnel, and Lando nearly bites through his tongue in an effort not to fuck up into it.

[spyroforlife]

24 👀

24. What work would you like to talk more about?

So. (thuds loudly on your door) Do you have a moment to talk about Heart Thief?

Look I'll admit Heart Thief is so much of an AU it COULD be an entirely original work, sure it has nods to canon bits and pieces from Hermitcraft and DSMP but otherwise it's like. Not Minecraft all, it's a modern setting where everyone's human with a completely contrived plot based on a prompt I was sent in 2022 of "Character B, a robber, saves Character A from ANOTHER robber. bc circumstances"

This spiraled into figuring out a pair for it, and as me and @cyberspace12345 were already shipping Scar/Dream in the background of us working on the New Place AU, we were like. Hey why not just have Dream be the robber who broke into rich dude Scar's place, and haha our ridiculous rare pair is gonna get together. Fake dating into real dating trope. yayy

But as out there as this story is, I still absolutely adore it and have put so much thought into it, and while writing is going a lil slow, I'm looking forward to when it's fully finished because I think it's just gonna be a really good story. And also I have numerous one-shots to share AFTER the main story is done, which I'm really looking forward to. Some might need to be reworked, as there's some plot stuff toward the end that I'm still trying to figure out, but nonetheless. I just really like this universe and while I understand it being probably a lil too niche to get a lot of readers, I would love to be able to discuss it more with people <3

like here's some bonus info. Back when we were first figuring things out for Heart Thief, we tossed around the idea that it's a modern setting but also hybrids exist, and I believe cat Scar and bunny Dream were ideas lmao. But eventually it got refined into what it is today, fully human, but still very much enjoyable. It's been fun writing such an affectionate romance between these two and I can't wait for it to progress as the storyline progresses.

[littlewalken]

Sep 21

Started rewriting the boy band story in preparation for typing it. The way this one worked is I did a draft by hand from my notes (this story has had several drafts over the years but was stripped back down to plot points and notes for reasons) and the next draft is also being hand written. I'm still tidying up and trying out a few things and it's easier to go back over hand written notes right now.

Once I finish this next draft and let it rest I should be able to type it in to the computer then print out a copy so I'll have a version on hand just in case. Of what? Exactly. Last house had a week long black out because someone decided they wanted copper wire, then another one because someone hit a major power pole while street racing. Here brown outs are just part of the dystopia.

Wait a minute, it's not a dystopia because no one in this zip code is a White Person. We're just the white ladies who share the bounty from our junk runs and returned squirmy neighbor puppy when she got out.

But if you're poor and already on the poor people electric plan, they do check so you can't scam, and have medical equipment like a sleep breathing machine or something do ask the power company if you can get a generator. Because we live in a place that seems to hit the brown out lottery on a daily basis they gave us a generator and portable solar panels to charge it.

You can also request the poser company inspect your home and if you're poor enough or your fridge is old and shitty enough they might give you one. No ice maker or wifi but it still fridgapates. The one they gave us is nearly 20 years old, should have got replaced at the last house with a few other appliances but guess which family member fucked that up too.

But the place we're hoping to get in to will come with appliances so we'll get to leave that fridge for the next people who move in here and that could be a blessing for them.

Well, we start physically butting things in storage in preparation for the eventual move today. This time it should only be for 3 months at the most, the destination is supposed to be ready to walk thru in October which means we can hopefully got in sometime in November or December but I don't hold my breath for shit like that, and it will be close enough to visit and not half a continent away.

So hopefully there will be some healing mixed in with this. It will be one large unit, not three of varying size because half of it has to be the Life Ruiner's literal trash, and there is time to organize how the stuff goes in to utilize the space more efficiently.

Hell, most of my stuff like my craft room and pretty much everything doll related has been packed since 2021 anyway. Can't sort what I literally can't get to. Now aside form compacting anything of the dealing with nature will just have to wait for the new home.

Aside from books, of which I thinned out the hoard quite well, and the Barbies I want to part with I'm pretty sure my possessions spark joy. I just haven't been able to use or display them in a joyful manner for a couple of years because shit happened.

[daily--piplup]

3/4 cameras disabled.

[kit-the-dreamer]

♧ LittleBigMovie ♧

°.• The Plane of Wonders •.°

(I'll change the image to something more original later ;w;)

It is here!!!

The LittleBIGPlanet Movie Project is officially here!!!

•.°•.° ♤ °.•°.•

• What am I talking about?

During the last few days, the idea of making a LBP Movie hasn't abandoned my mind (Post 1, Post 2). However, being fully aware that doing it on my own is something basically imposible, I decided to call the Fandom/Community to achieve it. That way, the project will be more meaningful since we'll unite to make our collective dream true!

• Can I join even if I have no experience nor talent?

Who said something about experience or talent? Who needs that when we have dreams to achieve. Experience, I think no one here really has it (regardings the topic of movie making I mean), and about talent, I personally believe more in hard work than talent itself. So yeah, you can definitely join! A helping hand is always needed, wether it be something small or big, from mere ideas and themes to the animation itself, it's up to what you feel comfortable doing here!

• How is it being developed?

Status Update (21/02/2023): We currently have some ideas of how the story could progress, along with some character ideas and arcs. However, the details of each scene and such are still in discussion, but the general idea of the plot is pretty much stablished. We have voicecall meetings every now and then (which are announced with lots of anticipation) to discuss our ideas put in various Google Documents we have created for each purpose, so we can get to an agreement and move on.

If you want to be part of the brainstorming process but don't want to join the Discord Server, it's alright! Don't doubt joining the Jamboard (click here for more info. about it) to let us know what ideas could be introduced in the movie. I can't promise that they'll be featured, but could probably inspire us as well to come up with more ideas, so don't be scared to let us know your thoughts!

Join the Jamboard! ⇝ https://jamboard.google.com/d/11SvE3aRxIhm0N21to5eUcZWpMjrmYa8c_WvoOjYzTRQ/edit?usp=sharing

• Where can I join the Server?

Right here! First we'll start slowly, familiarizing ourselves with the environment as we wait for more people to join. Today (June 3, 2023) we won't exactly work on anything, but the channels for chilling and brainstorming ideas and themes are open to chat. Once people actually join (and we have a decent amount of them around) we'll be able to officially start organizing some stuff for real. I hope this isn't an inconvenience for anyone... I'll see you around!

• Any questions?

Drop them by on the comment section below!

•.°•.° ♤ °.•°.•

To end this post,

Please spread the word among the Fandom, Dreamers, and let everyone know that we're about to make LBP history!

•.°•.° ♤ °.•°.•

When I read/hear this quote, I can't help but think of this project. Might as well leave it here for all to see:

"One can gaze upon something and see the wonder in it. Two can gaze together, and share that wonder. We are forever imitating sparks of imagination. So, let's spark together. In every mind, is a piece of code that operates our creative functions. It forms a conduit, called the cerebrumbilical cord that extends to the farthest reaches of imagination. So let's build. Together, we can push back the boundaries until they are a mere speck on the stellar horizon. Lets fly! Lets put our minds together and create. Everyone on this orb of dreamers contributes ideas. They ascend the cerebrumbilical cord to congregate in the Imagisphere: the natural home of our creative wanderings. So join us, for you have always been, and always will be most welcome...In LittleBigPlanet."

— Stephen Fry, LittleBigPlanet 3 introduction narration

[nextinline-if]

Long Anon Response - Spoilers Below

Okay, so, dear anon who sent the original message, I didn't want to wait to respond till Friday because you send the third message. And I understand you're reading other people's thoughts in response. Plus, I only shared a part of your previous message due to spoilers but I want to provide the full context as I think that's fairer. So, I'll respond under the cut to hide spoilers. This is VERY long! Some of the photos are long so you will probably need to click on them to view them properly - sorry!

MC's personality will be able to change more as the game progresses, because the player will have more control. But they are 21 years old, so they are somewhat fixed in that sense. They've already had some experiences.

Okay, so as for Anna, I think I've shared a few thoughts since you sent me this and the last thing I really want to add is that Anna is an important character, particularly when it comes to James. This is MC's story, but James is their twin and important to the story, too (he did abdicate after all).

Some people like Anna and others don't, which is fine. But I did write her the way I did for some reasons I can't reveal right now. Now, I've heard a few times that people don't like certain things she does, like going to F & Felix at the ball and that they would like more reactions after as well. That's acceptable and valid, and I can (and will) create some additional choices to give the player more control.

Yes, F did fuck off and more about that will be revealed in Chapter 2. Again, it is actually tied to the larger plot. I've already started writing the scene for it. Your feedback is not the first time I've heard that people want more reactions when meeting F. I actually made some changes before releasing the demo. However, I recognize that I do need to add some more there, such as reluctant, etc. And, that's on my to-do list.

As for Constantine's introduction and allowing him to call the MC by name, there's already a dynamic there of because of their positions. My goal was to make it more approachable because this is both a romance and friendship game. So, relationship building. Constantine has literally saved James' life multiple times and is his best friend, so I though it would be okay to try and level the playing field here. Then, at the ball, he does use formal titles in front of the Queen. Still, I understand your perspective and how it comes across.

I will say I somewhat disagree with your statement of "Suddenly getting mad." I thought that I included throughout the demo, MC's thoughts about people shutting them down and their frustrations. These thoughts were not always voiced, but were sprinkled in. However, I'm going to take a closer look and see if I can emphasize that more. Because the office scene is meant to be a build up to them standing up for themself.

I'm not changing the stuff with the Gods. My goal is not to give the player less if they don't pray. I'm an atheist so that would kind of ironic lol. MC will have opportunities to gain some of those attributes that they missed if they did not pray. I am sorry that it seems the player gets penalized for not praying but I'm happy with the direction of that portion of the game. I will keep your feedback in mind though because I don't want to accidentally create additional areas of the game where that feeling is present.

Yes, MC has been training for about 5 years at the compound, and there will be more about this in future chapters (2 and/or 3). They were training to be a well-rounded citizen of Castelon, not a Monarch. Does that mean they aren't prepared education wise? No. I'm going to do my best to make it so the next chapter gives a lot more choices and personality steering. However, and I've mentioned this in some places before, MC will not have a completely set personality. Like "just stoic" or "just XYZ." But I will do my best to give more control/options to the players.

If you felt that MC was a pawn, then you felt what I intended. I wanted them to feel like a pawn in the demo so that they can become a proper player at court in the future.

I didn't officially share Felix's letter because I'm thinking I will in the game.

I don't think you or anyone was trying to force me to make changes - so sorry if I seemed like I did. As I mentioned, I do try to please people and that's my own issue. Not yours. But it does carry over into my work because, obviously, I want people to like the game I'm putting out.

Yes, I did put work out there, so it's fine for you to share your opinion. And just as you share your opinion, other people will share their opinion based on whatever you said. All of that said, I'm fine with getting feedback. I believe that I can have an emotional response to something and still accept it and be willing to talk about it. Your feedback didn't upset me because it was critiquing my work, but because I consider myself a feminist and from what I read, it made me feel embarrassed about what I wrote. Again, that's not on you at all - my feelings BUT again, I think it's fine to have an emotional response to something. I am a person who feels a lot of things so that's how I work through it all.

Thanks for your sharing your thoughts - really! I do appreciate it and will be considering it as I work on the game.

On that note, my messages should be open. Or if it's more comfortable for you, my discord is: writingmysoul#6083 or my email is nextinlinegame [at] gmail.com. I'm willing to talk privately with you or anyone else. I hope I don't come across as unwilling to take feedback because I'm very happy to hear it.