#and... this is why he oftentimes clenches and unclenches his hands... massaging his arm... gripping his knees...

[kafka030]

AFKJ OC - MAGISTER KAFKA'S ORIGIN (PART 3)

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Note: Don't ask him about this in the "mailbox in the Mystical House of his" (ask)... Please... I don't want him to get hurt...

Another Note: ⚠️ Warning... Quite sad though...

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Magister Kafka had been amongst Mortal for thousands of years now... Fully forgotten their so-called home... Two of their favourite places... The mountaintop at the West Edge of Esperia where the Tree of Life is at the centre of the mountain and... their "Sanctuary Realm"...

Of course they become... Exhausted and tired... Due to be amongst the Mortals far too long... Without heading back to their so-called "Homeland"... Have to solve the Mortals problems at hands for countless of times...

Having trouble mind almost... Most of the time... Although they... underwent Permanent Memory Reset and sometimes... Partial Memory Lost due to the contract... However... They do... still have a troubled mind...

Deep, within them... They longing to just... Drifting aimlessly across Esperia without even worried or cared about the Mortals and the fate of Esperia... Having such peaceful mind and observing the Mortals from afar (from their two favourite places) and near (shapeshift and blends amongst them) in silent...

However, he forgot... Truly forgotten because Full Memory Reset due to the contract... As if preventing them from whining, complaining and at one point... Becomes a rebel and doesn't want to do their duties...

and they sometimes... Underwent Partial Memory Lost due to the contract... as if preventing them to dwell too much on the ancient past self... unraveling the hidden... ancient memories of them...

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Health deteriorating over time:

>> We noticed that Zephyr (Magister Kafka) is prone to get sick in recent years... There's a lot of reasons to it...

>> Due to exhaustion:

- Of course, in the surface... it's obviously because of exhaustion... Carrying the fate of Esperia... Around thousands of years already...

- Accomplish the responsibility of Merlin... To fulfill the so-called Merlin's Destiny...

- Although he undergo Full Memory Reset after accomplish the Merlin's Destiny in each era... His vessel knows... How exhausting and tiring he feels throughout his lifetime...

- Serene Lyceum:

> It's very obvious when they attended a Serene Lyceum... Trying to juggle between being a student and The Magister Merlin roles

> Juggling between both responsibilities... truly exhausted him...

> The headmaster, staffs and even the nearby acolytes kept on giving him side quests... Almost EVERY.SINGLE.DAY...

> Despite his refusal but they kept on pleading, offering the rewards and turn blind eyes if he ever breaks some rules in Serene Lyceum... as if desperate and no other mage other than him this era can clean their mess...

> He ended up agreeing to their requests and do as they requested...

> in return... He gets the flexibility to be outside the Lyceum compound beyond the specific timeframe, giving him the space to not attend some lessons due to running the Errands for them and... Being away for a few days due to... feeling unwell due to exhaustion from those side quests... Recovering at the Mystical House of his...

>> Due to the insomnia:

- He had once stayed up for a week... Ended up losing consciousness in the wilderness...

- He felt restless almost all the time (troubled mind per usual)... For some odd reason... There's at one point, he feels like: "He's here but at the same time... not here"

- his inner core (the true self that he forgot), he can stay awake for months due to his half breed nature...

>> Due to extensive use of disguise spell:

- his inner core (the true self that he forgot)... It's been millennium since the last time he changed to his 3 true forms... either half Celestial half Hypogean // Full Hypogean // Full Celestial...

- he have a slight fatigue due to using disguise spell to stay as mortal for thousands of years now...

- Although General Hogan once said that this "Human appearance" is the "real you"... However... Magister Kafka slightly doubt about it... Feeling ever so exhausted when changing forms a lot...

>> Due to consumption of mortal drink and food:

- consuming Mortals drink and food slightly... Weakened him...

- However... he forgot this side effects and indeed he's quite picky with food and doesn't drink liquor...

- still, he consumed them... If he didn't, of course... he would faint... Where will he get the energy to do his tasks at hand other than consuming the mortal food and drink, since he... Forgotten what he usually consumed..?

>> **Normal consumption (past ancient self):

- They usually eat a dead star and a star that might explode...

- Or swallow the darkness, hypofiends and Hypogeans...

- sometimes, when they are too thirsty, the can drink a lake till dry

- Or devour a whole mountain in one bite when they are too hungry

- They actually... rarely devour and drink the blood of mages... However, they begins to crave for it after the... Forbidden ritual upon them...

>> **Do Forgotten Being... Bleed..?

- They are... Half-breed... Half Celestial and half Hypogean... In ancient times... Oddly they... didn't bleed... However, after consuming the blood and flesh of the Supreme Magister, Merlin (Forbidden Ritual)... they... as if inheriting the traits of a Mortal... Exhaustion... Bleeding... Fainting... Feeling unwell... Needed to consumed food and drink of mortals... Etc...

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This is why Magister Kafka seems to be such a weak, prone to sick, Magister Merlin... He had endure... A lot... For thousands of years now...

However, he forgot... He truly forgotten how long have he lived... His muscle memory does know he has been living... too long to count his age by fingers... He do know that he's "ancient" but didn't say it out loud since he confused whether it's true or not...

He doesn't want to endure everything in the first place... He's been forced to be The Greatest Magister Merlin, to shoulder the fate of Esperia as so-called Magister Merlin...

However... He forgot... He truly forgotten about it... About refusing to do so...

He ended up trying his best to eat medicine from the herbs that Dolly makes and sometimes he makes by himself to regain his health, and fear to consult a physician instinctively (due to questioning his ancient past self)... ...

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