#anyway! arizona is... just random...

[strawberryfanaticccc]

can you watch my boyfriend, please? - m. sturniolo

🫧 matt sturniolo x fem!reader

🫧 the “can you babysit my boyfriend” tiktok couples trend with matt!!

🫧 just fluff.

🫧 549 words.

🫧 hi lovelies!! thank u so very much for wanting to read! this trend is so cutie to me, and i initially did a chris version of this & it made me want to do one for the others (nick version) as well, so i did!! i hope you enjoy reading bc they were very fun to write!! <3 masterlist

“Hi guys.” Matt looks up from his phone at the sound of your voice. “Can you watch my boyfriend, please? I just need to run into the store real quick, I’ll be back soon, I promise!” You say propping your phone up on the dashboard.

He watches as you open the car door and step out, shutting it softly after. His confused eyes follow your figure as it walks into the convenience store.

“Uhh,” he mutters out, looking into the camera. “I don’t- I’m-”

He looks down at his phone, his fingers doing a little dance across the screen. He lets out a small breath before he looks back up.

“Did you guys know that bees don’t have bones? I mean I’m pretty sure it’s well known at this point, but I just wanted to share in case you didn’t, well, y’know, know.”

A silence fills up the car for what feels like an eternity to Matt, but is only a few seconds. He looks down at his cup holder.

“Oh,” he lets out softly. “Chris left one of his Skittles Littles in here. You guys want some?” He asks, popping the top open, and pouring some into his palm. He then holds the candy container to the camera.

“Oh, did you also know that dogs can have pineapple, but only in moderation! Of course Trevor’s fatass doesn’t like pineapple,” he adds with a laugh.

Silence fills up the car once more as Matt munches on Chris’ forgotten Skittles. “He’s gonna be pissed at me when he finds out I ate his candy, but I don’t really give a fuck. I think I bought these for him actually.”

“Okay, wait, but I’m seriously running out of things to write for my Instagram captions. I think I’m just gonna abandon them or resort to using random ass emojis.”

Matt looks over at the sound of the passenger door opening, and you getting in setting a plastic bag down at your feet.

“What’d you buy?” He asks.

“Candy and cherry Arizona ice tea,” you reply with a grin, reaching for your phone. “Anyway, thanks for watching him for me, guys! I hope he was good for you.”

“‘Course I was good,” Matt mumbles out.

You chuckle. “‘Course you were, my love,” you reassure, placing a kiss on his nose, laughing at the way it scrunches up at the action. That’s the last thing the camera captures before the recording ends.

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comments

he was a lil nervy at first, but once he warmed up he told us some fun facts. did eat his brothers candy, but told us he payed for it. 10/10 would babysit again 😊

trevor mention lesgooo 🔥🔥🔥❤️❤️❤️

i feel like chris forgetting his candy has the same effects as him forgetting his pepsi, but slightly less severe

thank u for the skittles matthew! <3

oh he was so cutie for offering us some candy 🥺

nose scrunch ahhh 🥹💓

brief mattitude there at the end i see 🤭

ur so real for the insta caption thing. it’s so tiring having to think of them

hey god it’s me again..

the anxiety/nervous keyboard finger dance, REAL

i want what they have so bad but i won’t get it, so i’ll be sleeping on the highway tonight 😁

[tgirlwithreverb]

I saw that post about what to do if you're homeless again (the one that starts by telling you to spend all of your money on motel rooms lmao) anyway, here's a few thoughts, specifically for trans girls, cuz I don't really care otherwise tbh:

1) plan ahead, most trans girls are in precarious housing situations, you will have a much easier time when it falls apart if you already have a pack with most of the gear you need in it. Also, if you find yourself in a situation where you cant make rent, dont pay part of it, spend that money on gear, pocket the rest and leave, youll have a much nicer time. Look up your local eviction laws, you have plenty of time. (Gear list at the end)

2) travel! If you're in Arizona in May, leave. it's about to be hot as hell. If you're in Michigan in October, leave. It's about to be cold as hell. If you're in a big city, leave. It's way easier to be homeless pretty much anywhere else. Amtrak is cheaper and more comfortable than greyhound, hitchhiking is free and easy, if you're alone it's not that much slower than the previous two, and it's more fun, and sometimes people buy you food or whatever or give you money. I promise it's not scary and you're entirely capable of doing it, no matter who you are. 95+% of people who will pick you up are very nice. All you have to do is take the bus out of town, as far down the highway you can, to an exit with a truck stop if possible, then just stand on the side of the road with your thumb out until someone picks you up. You can stand at the bottom of the ramp(on the highway) near where the merge lane ends or at the top of the ramp(where there's usually a traffic light), the former is more likely to lead to cop interactions but will maybe get you a ride faster, check on hitchwiki for how the cops are in the area. don't be afraid to take a commuter bus or Amtrak to get out of a shitty cop area

3) skip shelters if you can (they are very occasionally a decent place to get stuff from) and encampments, good places to sleep include the trees near railroad tracks or highways, wooded areas behind shopping centers, sections of parks without paths, overgrown empty lots. Hang a tarp above you if there's an appreciable chance of rain, there's tons of YouTube tutorials on how to do this, maybe I'll make a post about what I usually do some day. There are many habits more fun than motel rooms, save your money for them lmao.

4) get on food stamps. This is easier in some places than others, but it makes the whole thing a lot easier. Just tell them you're homeless, if they don't give you a card the same day, you can probably ask to pick it up from that office, alternatively some drop in centers/day shelters can receive mail for you, or you can have it sent to general delivery(USPS service, look it up)

7) libraries are great for charging your phone and using wifi, but also keep an eye out, plenty of random outlets on the outsides of buildings are also powered

5) dumpster. sidewalk trash cans, Aldi, Einstein's, trader Joe's, pizza places, etc. You need to develop a bit of a sense for it but it's an easy way to get cooked food or travelling food or expensive food without spending resources. Also it's fun.

6) water is free, go into the bathroom of any gas station or grocery store in America(offer not valid in most big cities or on the west coast, but in that case just go to the library) and fill up your water bottle

8) hygiene notes: truckers get free showers from chain truck stops(loves, pilot/flying j) go there and ask them. convenient if you're hitchhiking, also you don't need to shower 3 times a day, really, you'll survive. Ditto with deodorant. Take care of your teeth though. Take your socks off every. day. Change them consistently. Safety razors give a good shave, work well without adequate water pressure, and the replacement blades are very stealable, they're kind of heavy though. Walmart makes these electric razors for women that take AA batteries and are pretty light but give a worse shave, also they kinda go through batteries, pick whatever works for you(cartridge razors suck)

9) traveling food notes: peanut butter is great, tortillas and bagels travel pretty well, tuna packets are pretty good protein for traveling(the ones with rice and beans or whatever are nice since theyre often the same price as the regular), condiment packets are free, hot sauce makes everything better, and mayo goes well with tuna and has a bunch of calories in it, salad dressing packets are free from truck stops and work well turning the Walmart shredded vegetable packages (labeled for making into slaw, next to the bagged salads) into a salad with real vegetables(not iceberg lettuce) in it or mixing in with tuna packets for even more calories than mayo

Gear world:

Necessary items(in order of importance): a gallon of water carrying capacity(an Arizona jug or other twist top jug is conventional, but a bladder+arizona bottles also works), a tarp(larger than 6'x9', not brightly colored), a hank of parachord, a sleeping bag (20° rated, synthetic insulation), a backpack with a padded hip belt(at least 50L, no more than 75), rain gear(a rain poncho might cover your pack too, a rain jacket can help with wind when its cold, a trash bag inside or outside your pack can keep it dry, a plan to watch the weather and not get caught also works), a z-fold foam sleeping pad, three pairs of socks, two pairs of underwear (at least one pair of boxer breifs strongly recommended if you arent incredibly skinny), a decent pair of shoes with good arch support, a functional jacket(skip if you got a rain jacket before), a base layer(wool or poly, absolutely no cotton)

Convenient items: a sleeping bag liner(cotton free, keeps you warm in winter and cool in summer), gallon zip locks to pack your stuff in(helps keep it dry and organized), no more than one change of clothes(as light as possible), a multi-tool(can opener, pliers, wire cutter), lighter(burning rope ends etc), spoon, floss and needles for patching

[inbabylontheywept]

holy hell are people just crueler in arizona????

how would the idea to drag a 2nd grader around on gravel until his back is destroyed even occur to a person????

glad you have your sister to back you up. as a certified big sister (the certificate being the shirt i got saying "awesome big sister" after the birth of my second baby sister), this is what must be done for siblings. you can't fuck with them, that's our job. if there were a nobel prize for big-sistering, i think she should win, but alas, there isn't.

my dad grew up in phoenix/scottsdale and was also bullied in school. once when he was a teen he was walking home and some random boys sprayed mace in his face for no reason and drove off (they were later busted for illegal possession of a weapon, as there was a gun in their backseat). is there something in the water there?

Ehhhhhhh. I've talked to some people about events like this in my childhood, and gotten a lot of responses along the lines of "What Bastard Ass Corner of Hell Did You Crawl Out Of," so here's my multitheory of Arizona Weirdness.

The Summers: Arizona doesn't do daylight savings because it has no desire to save any daylight. Whenever people aren't looking, it tries to discreetly pick pieces of sunlight off its plate to feed to the dog. There was a humiliating incident a few years ago where it thought nobody was looking and tried to throw a large piece of sunlight out an open window into the backyard, but the window was not open, it was merely very clean, so it SMACKED into the glass and slid down and fell on the kitchen floor while everyone watched. This incident is still spoken of in hushed winters in PNW dinner parties. The summers of Arizona make everyone a little manic. Fortunately, God realized this was going to be a huge problem, so He had for the foresight to limit summers to only approximately 6 months of the year. Adding fuel to the fire is that the mania is accompanied by an outside temperature above 110 F (43 C) so you either stay inside and get this very intense kind of cabin fever (like watching TV static on Adderall) or you go outside where you are both energetic and in extreme physical discomfort. Most of the people that are outside have actually tried their best to stay inside, it's just that the Cabin Fever finally succeeded in overriding their pain receptors, so they are basically the equivalent of mindless rage zombies unless they are actually inside of a pool at that very moment. This is why everyone in Arizona owns pools.

The Mormons: The Mormons are extremely resistant to cultural changes. This is because they pick their prophets from a group of 13 old men who are literally competing to see who lives the longest. The oldest gets to be in charge. If this sounds like a bad plan consider that any time one of them dies, everyone goes, ah, well, he probably wouldn't have made a good prophet then. You know. Because God killed him and all. I have always considered this hilarious in how brutal it is. Anyway, the Mormons consistently linger ~20 years behind the standard culture. So growing up in 1980's Mormonworld was, socially, very similar to growing up in 1960's Americana. Except I was in elementary school in the early 2000's, which meant that my social environment was probably most comparable to the 1980s, which television has led me to believe was the era that bullies were required to take mandatory Kung-Fu Dirtbiking courses.

The Water: If there was something in the water, we would still have to drink it.

The Water II: Maybe there's something in everyones water, but it only starts making you into an asshole when you drink a gallon and a half of it a day. Worth considering.

Dumbass Cowboys: Arizona reaaaaaally like its Wild West Heritage. Which in practice means that they are, culturally, very pro-violence. They're an open carry, stand your ground, castle law state, and they have been my entire life. This actually added quite a bit to my elementary school bitterness. It is extremely bizarre to be told, as a child, that you aren't even allowed to swear at people for hitting you while your parents would be allowed to keep shooting until they ran out of bullets. At which point they could call their complimentary NRA lawyer. I have a vague memory of my 3rd grade teacher saying that kids would be much nicer to each other if they were allowed to come to school armed, but alas, Columbine ruined that for everyone. She was actually a very nice lady when she wasn't arguing that children should be allowed to, occasionally, shoot each other. I think she was in her 60's then. Might still be alive.

[panandinpain0]

Could I ask for an Edward Cullen x male reader where the reader is Bella’s best friend (who moved right after her)- He ends up becoming infatuated with him instead, and they just have a happy time??

This is Different...

Twilight timmmmeee- time to reach into the archives of my memories and pull random facts from my ass.

Thank you for the request! I hope you enjoy <3

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Requested by: Anon

Edward Cullen x Male!Reader

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Bella had to kept telling herself to wait just one more week, because then (Y/N) would be there and she could vent to him about how weird this town was.

The two had grown up together in Arizona and were practically inseparable. Their parents did that thing where they were convinced Bella and (Y/N) were going to date and get married and all of that, which just isn't happening. But it made his dad easier to convince when they asked if (Y/N) could move to Forks, Washington with Bella.

(Y/N)'s parents had just gotten a divorce and his dad was moving anyways, and he was old enough that he just wanted to stay with his dad (and little sister that would come to visit every once in a while) until he was an adult.

So after Bella left to Forks, (Y/N) and his dad started packing their bags and started their trip.

Bella could not wait to tell him about the school, the weird but oddly charming students, and the standoffish Cullen family.

Finally the week came to an end and Charlie drove Bella to pick them up from the airport.

(Y/N)'s father, James, had planned to buy a car once they got to the new house, but Charlie had so kindly offered to drive them until he did get one.

At the airport Bella ran up to (Y/N) and he caught her in a hug, laughing at her eagerness.

"Looks like somebody missed me!" (Y/N) squeezed out a laugh, Bella cutting off his air supply with the grip of her hug.

"It's been absolute agony without you here, I have so much to tell you- and warn you about."

"Oh damn, that doesn't sound good," (Y/N) replied as Bella helped pick up one of his bags.

"It's crazy out here." She nodded, and the two shared a look that only childhood friends could share.

"Any cute guys?" they had a hushed conversation to the car, Charlie and James too wrapped up talking about fishing to pay attention.

"I'm sure you'd find them cute," Bella scoffed, throwing a teasing smile over her shoulder as she loaded the trunk.

(Y/N) scoffed back, betrayed at her diss.

"I'm sure you went for the stalker-ish one anyways." With a sly smirk he got into the backseat, closing the door on her denials.

...

(Y/N) had settled in, conveniently living next door to the Swan's house, and drove with Bella in her old truck to school that Monday.

"So, Jessica is into Mike and Angela is with Eric. And Tyler flirts with everybody, but nobody goes out with him?" (Y/N) recapped from the tangent of drama Bella had been giving him.

"Yup, pretty much," Bella confirmed, turning into the school parking lot.

"And all of the Cullen's are super hot- but they're dating each other?" (Y/N) asked, more suspiciously this time.

"Well, they're all adopted, but yes. Except for Edward- but I already told you what happened."

"Yeah the weird smelling thing and the he disappeared just to come back with a different eye color."

"They could just be colored contacts," Bella corrected, still not sure herself.

"Strange... Welp, let's do this," (Y/N) sighed as he got out of the passengers seat of the car.

Bella shrunk into his side, all of the attention on her once again. Last time it was because she was the new girl, but now it's because she had her attractive best friend with her.

"Yo, Bella!" Mike called out, giving (Y/N) a confused glare.

Bella waved back and started walking over, (Y/N) following at her side. Leaning down to whisper in her ear (Y/N) held back a laugh, "You left out the part about Mike's crush on you."

Bella just rolled her eyes as they met up with the group.

"Everybody, (Y/N)- (Y/N), everybody," Bella lazily introduced.

"You just moved here, right?" Angela asked, holding Eric's hand as they lent up against Tyler's van behind them.

"Yes, I did. I grew up with Bella in Arizona and where she goes I go," (Y/N) laughed, nudging Bella in the side jokingly.

That's when he noticed her distracted state. Following her line of sight he realized she was staring at a car full of probably the most attractive people he'd ever seen.

"Who's that?" (Y/N) asked the group, acting clueless to get more information.

"Those are the Cullen's-" Jessica jumped right into the rant about their family.

When she was done she came closer to (Y/N), grabbing hold of his hand as she batted her eyelashes at him. "Let me show you around!"

Shrugging, (Y/N) waved to Bella, who rolled her eyes at Jessica's obvious flirting.

...

"Where'd you find that guy? He's so hot," Jessica gushed to Bella at lunch. (Y/N) hadn't sat down yet so she'd finally gotten a second to ask.

"We grew up together- he wasn't that hot when we first met, trust me," Bella almost snorted, playing with the food on her tray.

"You guys aren't like..." trailing off she wiggled her eyebrows to imply.

"No- god, no," Bella laughed. "He's like my brother."

"Oh, good. Less competition then," Jessica sighed.

"I don't think you'll be having much luck either, Jessica," Angela pointed out, nodding in (Y/N)'s direction.

He was flirting with some guy in the lunch line, the guys face bright red as he laughed at something (Y/N) had said.

Jessica looked heartbroken but Angela and Bella just laughed about it.

When (Y/N) finally joined them Bella raised an eyebrow at him.

"What?" (Y/N) shrugged indignantly, opening his milk carton.

"Not even a full day in and you're already jumping on them," Bella teased, popping a grape into her mouth.

"Hey, you told me there wasn't any cute guys here, I just wanted to see what he was like," (Y/N) protested. "I didn't even like him that much. Kind of a dick."

Hearing a sudden and loud snort of laughter, (Y/N) and Bella turned around to see the Cullen's lunch table, Edward hiding his face as he looked towards the windows as his siblings glared at (Y/N). Or maybe they just all had RBF- save for the short girl with the pixie-like hair. She smiled at (Y/N) and waved, so he waved back.

"They're so weird," Jessica whispered as she dug into her lunch.

"How much have you actually talked to them?" (Y/N) questioned, taking a bite of his apple.

Jessica didn't answer for a minute, looking kind of embarrassed. Angela rolled her eyes, answering for her. "Once- and it was Edward rejecting her."

(Y/N) snorted and then apologized, "Sorry. It just seems like you're holding a grudge on people you barely know." He then changed the subject, not wanting to make an enemy out of Jessica.

She really seemed like a good friend, he didn't want to go pushing her buttons, that'd be mean.

...

"Mr. Molina, it's nice to meet you. I'm your new student, (Y/N)."

"Ahh, Mr. (L/N), is it?" (Y/N) nodded. "You can sit in front of Edward Cullen. You're lucky we had an empty seat," he joked, pointing to where he was talking about.

That was when (Y/N) got his good first look at Edward Cullen. His gaze was intense, just like Bella had said, but it was less scary than she described it.

Seemed like a guy worth getting to know.

Walking over to the desk with Bella, (Y/N) held out his hand to Edward. "You're Edward Cullen, right? Mr. Molina told me to sit in front of you, but I've heard stories and wanted to introduce myself." He smiled confidently.

Edward hesitantly took his hand and shook it, (Y/N) not reacting to the hard coldness of his skin.

Or at least he didn't show it- (Y/N) was immediately thrown off but didn't want to put off this attractive guy.

"Like you said, I'm Edward. It's nice to meet you."

"Likewise." (Y/N) winked and sat in his chair, not looking back at Edward or Bella once.

Bella just rolled her eyes with good nature. She'd seen him do this before, if she'd felt uncomfortable or threatened by someone, (Y/N) would draw the attention to himself. That's what worked about their friendship, he could take the attention that she didn't want.

At the end of class, (Y/N) packed up his things and then helped Bella do the same. He waved to Edward with a "Bye!" and they left.

Out in the parking lot his siblings all waited for him by the car.

"What's up?" Emmett asked, his arm around Rosalie.

Alice squealed, "Oh! It happened, didn't it? I thought it was Bella at first but then I saw him and just knew it would happen!" She jumped up and down and clapped her hands.

"What happened?" Rosalie questioned again, Jasper smirking as he sensed Edward's emotions.

"He fell in love," Alice stage-whispered. She was teasing him, of course, but Edward grumbled all the same.

They all piled into the car but before Edward got in he looked across the lot to see (Y/N) leaning on the truck hood talking to Bella.

He hadn't fallen in love. He couldn't- not with a human.

With Bella it was just an obscene thirst... but this was different.

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Sorry to cut this short, I wouldn't be opposed to writing more for this! I just think this is a good ending and leaves an open spot for a potential part 2!

Hope you liked it anon!

-Author Max <3

[chasedeys]

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Jesus Christ he pulled up on Joe ???! I need this devotion

he did 😔😔🤚🤚🤚

the Lakers Date in gifset form and in video form like look at joe staring at ja'marr like that and giggling and shit oh my god joe ja'marr is sure as hell funnier than you but really? ja'marr putting his arms around joe which is just. yeah. look at that little scratch and then actually reaching his arms out and then just saying something short and random 😭 you know. casual. and joe barely reacting to it ok whatever. oh and also there's this hilarious twitter thread in reaction to it lmao.

this is the wowing backstory (everyone say thank you to carmen's big brain!!) to the date and kind of why this felt like a psychological attack beyond the implication that this was A Basketball Date. basically ja'marr flew his ass to arizona for joe because the man was having the shittiest week and was sooooo weirdly messy about it because he posted a vague blurry ass insta story of his location and then deleted it (?????) god what is wrong with him. like the photo was obviously a quick little snap of him in a car with just a location posted in the middle of the night like it didn't matter what the pic was only the location and was posted the minute he arrived (?) like he was announcing where he was for a very specific reason and then deleted it like it served its purpose and he didn't need it anymore. (is that not basic teenager in love 101........)

on joe being miserable -> like joe went to a club and flipped people off and i think one of the events he had was the signing with obj and kd (beloved kevin durant <3 but its sooo random why the fuck was kd there im so confused as to what this event was) and joe's expressions throughout all the videos and photos were either flat as fuck or straight up not-enjoying-shit. the next time he gets snapped in public it's with ja'marr on a basketball court with matching outfits finally smiling and laughing right and doing silly shit like clapping all up against ja'marr's face like a besotted dork......mind you he clapped because ja'marr was on camera probably getting introduced to the stadium so everyone could technically see it so it was like he was teasing the ever living shit out of ja'marr who was trying to be all cool throwing peace signs only to get stunted on by his embarrassing ass man who just wouldn't let him live jesus i'm sorry but i'm genuinely wondering why he clapped that way. look at his impish little smile joe oh my god stop.

but he was really finally acting all goofy and silly and smiling and laughing genuinely when ja'marr showed up and yapped at him!!!!!!! insane. shining example of devotion and codependency tbh.

some Speculation! which i love to do unfortunately for everyone around me:

this was planned from the start way before joe went through apparent hell or something. they bought the tickets way back with dj and sam and this was like the only thing joe looked forward to which is why he was finally smiling and laughing and actually managed to get through the week.

from that event they had together kd gave tickets to obj (pretty sure he was also there but like on the opposite side of the court?? idk) and joe and joe requested/bought more tickets and invited ja'marr and sam and dj because he was in heavy need of Friendship Love Moral Support from his guys. yeah.

(the favorite. the full of love theory) ja'marr found out joe was Going Through It (from joe himself? from obj? from his manager? the internet? other friends? who knows) and flew his ass to arizona having bought the plane ticket within minutes of ending the call/text regarding the joe situation. knew joe needed some refreshing/healing so he searched up what arizona had going on for them that week or he was planning on watching the game from his home anyway idk and immediately bought court-side tickets for the game. invited dj and sam so joe would be surrounded by more close friends who he would feel comforted by. arrived in phoenix in the middle of the night, snapped a quick photo for ig announcing where he was, joe saw it and sent ???????? in reply, ja'marr then deletes the ig story bc he doesn't want anyone else asking shit too, and finally crashed joe's pity party and has him smiling within minutes. am i crazy. yes. am i free. also yes.

THE CLOTHES THING they're literally wearing yellow and purple -> lakers and coincidentally lsu's colors!!! technically suns' too i think. did they plan on matching or did they each plan on wearing lakers colors in the first place (these divas...) and just had that one-brain-ism thing they got going on. ja'marr was sooooo pretty btw 😭😭 his faceeeee the dimple the hairrrr i miss his cornrows he looks sooo good in bright mustard yellow toooooo somebody save me from myself.

OH and dj reader and sam were there too okay 😭 like they weren't there alone. that la lunch date was like this lakers date 2.0 bc they weren't alone damn it but it weirdly seems that way 😭 when you're in love etc. or maybe because they just weren't mentioned as much as these two :( but I'm really pleased that joe could smile surrounded by his teammates <3 joy etc.

okay bye 😭

[xetlynn]

Chapter Ten, Home

(Alice X Reader X Jasper)

[Nine] [Ten] [One]

It’s been 72 hours since I woke up. It’s been 120 hours since I, [Name] Swan have been announced as a missing person. The only people who know I’m “Alive” are the Cullens and my sister Bella. She’s been updating me on everything, especially Charlie and Rene. Charlie from what I know and have seen is beating himself up with guilt, Rene is too but I can’t see her from afar, it’s too bright in Arizona. I’ve been in Forks ever since I woke up from the change. Being in the Cullen’s house, having to be hidden from humans as much as possible. 

Trying to control my thirst along with my “gift”. Having the ability to drain energy. Like humans and vampires. With vampires, I can drain them of their gift and use it for 5-10 minutes. It depends on how much I focus. It’s really difficult when not everyone in the house has a gift. Just enhanced certain things. Like Rosalie with her beauty and self-control. Emmett has enhanced strength, and Carlisle is more compassionate to not drink human blood. And due to my gift, my self-control is exponential, I don’t have trouble controlling my thirst. Off the bat, I didn’t feel gravitated to drink from humans. I hunted with Jasper and Alice for the first time and they noticed my eyes already turned that golden color. 

Today, right now, I’m going to try and convince Alice, Jasper, Carlisle, and Esme to let me go home. Let me see my dad and let the world know I’m okay so I can go back to high school. Even though I am technically dead I still want to experience my senior year. They let me call Charlie once, with a minute phone from a random store that we had to destroy immediately after. I told him I was okay, sounding like I was out of breath but I told him he would see me soon and not to worry. Of course that doesn’t stop nor stunt his worrying even for a little bit. 

With me being hidden I’ve become closer to everyone, even Edward. And with that, I thought I could get his vote of letting me out of here. But he sat with my partners, not agreeing with me. 

“Hey, guys.” I walk into the living room where the four I needed sat comfortably on the couch. “Hey, lovebug.” Alice smiles and I roll my eyes at the nickname she refuses to drop. I stood in front of them with my arms crossed. “What’s up, darling?” Jasper asks, Carlisle nods wanting to know as well. “I want to see my dad.” I sternly state, getting right to the point. I feel the energy of the room shift. “[Name], we talked about this.” Carlisle starts but I cut him off. “It’s dangerous, I know but I feel like I can do it.” I plead, practically begging with the, “I have to miss out on a huge life experience! I want to go to prom! Please, it’s in four days.” I exclaim, pressuring them as I try to guilt them the best I can. 

“And we’re sorry, [Name], truly we are.” Esme steps into the conversation. “Please, my dad is killing himself because of guilt!” If I could cry there would be tears streaming down my face right now. I watch Alice and Jasper exchange looks at each other then turn to Carlisle. I furrow my brows as they sat there quietly before Carlisle stands up. “There’s nothing you will say that will change our minds and I’m sorry. Our answer still stands as a no.” He tells me sincerely and I squeeze my eyes shut for a second, my hands balling into fists. 

“Figures. You should’ve just killed me. I would’ve come back anyways.” I snap, storming outside, not daring to look any of them in the eyes. 

I end up near the border of the forest that is across from Charlie’s house, close but far enough that he wouldn’t even sense or see me. I watch him talking with Billy Black and Jacob who were holding stacks of papers with my face on them and right above my face is the word “Missing.” In big bold red letters. I painfully watch all of his mannerisms, they’re slow almost robotic. “Let us know if you hear anything, Chief,” Jacob says to my dad who only nods.

 Billy puts his hand on my dad's arm. “She’ll come home, Charlie.” Again he only nods and the two take it as their cue to leave. He’s been like this ever since he was told by Arizona’s cops that they saw my DNA off of the sidewalk outside Rene’s house. I don’t understand how my blood got all the way over there but it freaked him and Rene out. 

I notice him lift his head up and I rush away, knowing he’s going to look in the trees. He does it every day as if I’m going to be walking out of them. He’ll be right one day. Just not today. I’m hoping I can come home soon, I know that if I don’t he’s going to have to resign as Chief, maybe even as a cop just because of how he’s acting. He’s been calling everyone who has claimed they saw me. Some were prank calls which made me want to murder them for being so awful to a man who just wants to see his youngest daughter again. 

I hear footsteps running this way, slow ones so definitely a human. Having nowhere to run I climb up a tree skillfully quiet and sit up on a branch and look down. 

“I can’t believe it’s the chief's daughter though.” It was a random girl and boy who looked around the age to be in college. “She’s most likely dead by now. Statistically wise.” The boy responds he’s technically not wrong. “I wonder if she’s a runaway though who just doesn’t want to go home.” The girl ignored his words about me being dead. People have their theories that’s for sure.

Once I know they’re gone and out of sight, I make my way back to the Cullen house. I sat outside on the steps, not even minutes later I hear the door open behind me, two pairs of feet making their way to me. “Hey,” Alice plops down next to me as Jasper goes off the steps and stands in front of us. “What?” I say defensively, not giving them eye contact. “We understand-” “No, don’t even start that bullshit.” I scoff, “I get we’ve all been changed into a vampire.” I laugh at myself at how crazy that sounds. “I don’t get to experience high school anymore. I don’t get to enjoy sports or prom which I didn’t even want to go to but now that I’m dead I want to! Realizing that I have never got my happy ending. I never go to die old, I got it all taken away from me multiple times!” I wanted to scream, to feel my heart race or at least run out of breath as I talked but I got none of that. “[Name], look at me,” Alice says but I didn’t move an inch. “We have a proposal,” She tells me.

I hesitantly move to finally look at her, listening to what they have to say. “We thought about what you said. We all talked it out.” She glances over to Jasper, who ends up carrying on the conversation. “We’re going to allow you to see Charlie. But before you get excited we need to make sure you’re ready.” He tells me, my eyes light up, I sit up straighter and turn to Alice then back at him excitedly. “Really?” I grin.

“Yes, we are going to take you out of town. See how you do in a crowd.” He explains further, stepping closer and I stare up at him happily. Sliding my hands up his legs to his jean pockets. Well, not without having Alice on my lap. “I love you both. I’m sorry for saying I wished you killed me.” I lean my head on Alice’s shoulder.

The next day everyone ended up coming into the city with us. Well except Carlisle and Esme. But I had to cover up pretty well. Wearing a mask and sunglasses along with a baseball cap. I was trying to cover anything that could stand out. I had Jasper and Alice’s hands in mine as we started going into a crowded area. I feel like I should be having a reaction but I am not. I’m perfectly fine. It started to make me go back to the first time I met Alice and Jasper. My smell never bothered them. It only bothered James out of everyone. I let go of them and go further into the crowd. Breathing it all in.

 I can definitely smell a difference but not a difference that made me feral. I definitely am questioning things now. 

I glanced back to my family and I jumped up and down. Rosalie put her thumbs up as Emmett was chuckling. Even Edward smiled at me. Alice and Jasper seemed iffy but they brought me into their arms. “Let’s go make you look a little rough.” Rosalie steals me from my lovers. We race back to the house and she pulls my mask off for me. I gently take off my sunglasses. I get changed into my clothes from the day of the attack in Arizona. I also have to put contacts in of my original eye contact. We go outside and roughen up my hair a bit. We all stand outside. “Alright, we’ll see you later.” Alice skips over to me, pulling me into a kiss. Jasper comes in and forces me into a kiss as well and I laugh at the both of them. “Bella texted, they just got home,” Edward speaks up, and I push away from both of them. “Thank you,” I tell him and I wave everyone goodbye, emerging into the forest. Running through my familiar route to Charlie's house, to my house. 

I stop right before the road and I notice my dad in the window talking to someone on the phone. I slump my posture and head towards the house, I go up the steps and knock on the door. I patiently stand there, the door swings open with Bella smiling there. After a few seconds she calls out for Charlie. “Dad! Someone’s here for you!” She steps backwards and I hear fast footsteps. The fastest movements I’ve seen him make in a while.

“Huh? Who- [Name]!!” He immediately pulls me into his arms it was a tight hug and I feel tears dampen my shoulder. If I was still human I know I wouldn’t have been able to breathe against his hug so I acted like so. “Can’t breathe..” I tap his back as if I was struggling. “Right, sorry.” He wipes his tears, sniffling and he holds onto my shoulders. “Where have you been?” I shake my head, “I lost Bella, I tried to find my way and this guy tried following me and I got even more lost. I took taxis and um snuck onto a train trying to get here but I barely had any money.” I explain to him, pretending to wipe tears since I can’t actually anymore. “I’m so sorry.” I apologize but his eyes soften. “I’m just glad you’re alive and in my arms.” He tells me and if only he knew I was not alive.

“We need to call your mom and everyone else.” He excuses himself and I laugh in agreement. Bella comes up to me and hugs me. I breathe it in and I realize what they meant by her strong scent. It almost burnt my nose. “How did you convince them to do this?” She teases me and I shrug. “Honestly I don’t know.” I sort of lied, knowing it was because I dramatized how miserable I was. 

And the next three days my dad had taken me everywhere with him, not letting me out of his sight. Rene ended up coming to visit with me for two days of the three before having to leave being convinced by me that she should still live her life. 

They took me out to eat a lot which let me tell you, human food. Disgusting. Absolutely horrid. All it tasted like was sand, dry, dry sand. But I have to shovel it down like normal to seem well normal.

Everyone has been coming to visit me as well. Mike dropped by and it was definitely awkward. Right now I am with Jessica and Angela in my living room. Charlie has been outside making phone calls still to take down everything about me missing. “When we heard you were missing I like so thought you just ran away or something,” Jessica tells me and I press my lips together in response. “We’re just glad you’re okay.” Angela chimes in, going to take my hand but instead, I stand up. “Uh,” I clear my throat, “You guys want something to drink?” I smile.

“Water, please.” Jessica nods and so does Angela. “Me too.” I go into my kitchen and groan quietly right before listening in to their conversation. “She looks prettier than normal,” Jessica comments. “She’s always been pretty.” Angela tells her. “Yeah, whatever but she’s prettier. It’s strange.” She was practically thinking out loud and I snicker to myself.

I bring out their water to them and place them on the coffee table. “Are you still going to prom?” Jessica asks and Angela’s eyes widen. “She just went through something traumatic I’m sure-” “I’m going.” I cut her off and smile to let her know it was okay. “I don’t want to miss out on prom,” I say. 

“Good, we’ll have a blast.” Angela takes her water. “Do you have a date?” Jessica interjects and I stiffen a little bit. “Yeah, I’m going with Jasper and Alice.” I simply say. Normally I would have never admitted nor told anyone that we were going together but I genuinely just don’t care anymore and I don’t want to hide myself. Well, I have to in some aspects but in this one, I don’t. 

“So, a third wheel basically?” She questions and I shake my head. “I’m dating them. Both of them.” I breathe out as I watch their faces falter but quickly pick back up. 

“That’s different.” “Cute!” 

They both spoke at the same time and I just agree awkwardly. Jessica changes the subject which cleared the air a little bit better. I was internally grateful that it was all left on a good note even though I know Jessica was going to spread that to everyone. 

A few hours later Billy, Jacob, and Embry ended up coming over. We stood outside and they had practically jumped out of the car, lifting me up. I did my best to warm my body before they came. Wearing a thick sweater and jeans along with keeping my hands on a really hot coffee pot. 

“You have no idea how worried we were!” Jacob exclaims and I sheepishly rub the back of my neck after they put my back down. “Seriously everyone was on the lookout. You were on the flipping news.” Embry tells me and I nod. “You aren’t the only ones to tell me that.” I laugh.

I turn to Billy and my dad was behind him. “Hey, sweetheart.” 

“Hey, Billy.” I smile softly. “Boys, could you come to help me with something in the back?” Charlie conveniently asks and they follow him to the backyard. 

“You’re different,” Billy announces once they were all out of earshot and I glance back down to him. “I mean being a missing person does that to you.” I nervously say as if that could be obvious. “[Name] do not act stupid with me. I have known you for years.” He takes my hand and I watch for him to at least flinch but he doesn’t even react to the coldness of my skin. I think it only confirmed his thinking, disappointing him. “You’re still welcome on the reservation. Just promise not to become a monster.” His eyes sink into mine and I relax. “I promise,” I whisper. He lets go of my hand and the three come back laughing. 

The boys end up coming with me to pick up my prom dress and I’m surprised my dad let us go alone. He only seemed to trust Jacob and Billy the most around me. He had Alice and Jasper come over and he was stiff as a board. Finally knowing I was dating both of them instead of just Jasper. 

“So, where’s Bella?” Jacob asks me and I raise a brow. We had already gotten my dress and we were making our way back to Jacob’s vehicle. “Damn, I thought with me being missing for so long I’d actually come first.” I tease him and he stammers not meaning it like that. “I’m kidding. She’s somewhere with Edward.” I tell him and I notice him frown to himself. “Oh, cool cool.” He mumbles. Embry playfully shoves him and we end up hanging for the day. 

The day of prom. I’m helping Bella down the stairs as we had gotten ready in her room. She’s wearing a dark blue dress that has a v-line and ruffles down three times. I ended up wearing a deep dark red that hugged my curves tightly, it had long sleeves and it showed most of my back. I almost picked a pink dress but I decided to do me and not match with Angela. Plus I think it goes with the Monte Carlo theme. 

Edward takes Bella from me and I stand next to my lovers. “You look beautiful, darling,” Jasper whispers into my ear. I smile, kissing his cheek. “Alice lent me the dress. It was the only thing that would fit over my cast. Is it too-” “You’re perfect. I’ll take good care of her, chief.” Edward tells Charlie the last part. “Heard that before.” He says in a scoff. “Dad.” I hit him in the stomach. The three end up going outside and Bella and I stay back.

 

“I put two new pepper sprays in Bella’s bag.” 

“Dad,” Bella warns as I laugh shaking my head. “And… you both look beautiful.” 

Getting to the fancy place we walk in, looked arms and we meet up with Rosalie and Emmett. “Your dress is gorgeous.” Rosalie twirls me and i do the same to her. “You’re one to talk.” She grins, pulling me into a hug. 

We pull away and watch Edward and Bella walk into the doors. Rosalie’s demeanor changes but the rest of us wave to them. The night went on to be a blast with us five as we danced together. It felt good.

It felt right. 

It all felt… perfect.

The end of Twilight. New Moon is next!!! I hope you enjoyed this and you got to see part of my original writing works I guess. Thank you for reading:)

[chasing-clovers]

What did ja’marr do 👀

😭😭

well.

he posted "on a date kinda nervous" on his insta story with a partially cut off pic of some girl? like idk. yaoi goggles off, it was totally giving soft launch. but then. of course. there's the fact that this is ja'marr we're talking about and you can't take a thing he does seriously. i mean if it were another player i probably would've been more inclined to believe it but there was some part of me that went uhhh lol. is this more of his bullshit.

then he deleted the story LMAO. like brother what... which reminds me of last february when he posted that pic of him in arizona and then deleted it. before lakersdategate. iykyk.

so yeah who really knows what his deal is. but i am Amused. anyway

crediting the lovely aberfaeth with these scenarios but here are some possible explanations!! each one more hilarious than the last:

1. real soft launch. got shy

2. posted that earnestly on a first date. date ended poorly. forgot to delete it until later

4. joke and that was a random friend and people were taking it too serious so he had to do damage control asap

5. joke and that was a random friend and he waited until someone specific saw it to delete it *coughs in rpfer*

6. joke and tee had to text him TAKE THAT SHIT DOWN JOE HAS TEXTED ME FIVE SEPARATE GAMEPIGEON LINKS

many more... many more... idk i'm probably having too much fun with this. but what's new?

let's all just rejoice that joe can snap out of his manic frenzy before he does something wack like buzz his hair again :/

[paragonrobits]

so i've been wanting to give an update on my situation for a wHILE but honestly i haven't often felt up for social interaction in a while, and its difficult to do so anyway because I mostly use my phone and i find typing on phone to be so ungodly frustrating its easier to just go into Silent Mode for a while but ehhhh I thought it would be a good idea to at least try and voice a few update drafts I've had percolating in my brain for a while so!

Last time i gave a big update was... back in April, when the apartment we were at was going to have us leave within the month and my dad was to move us out around the 10th, after some frustrating lack of any communication. Good news is, we actually did move out on the 10th of April! It was a very quick move and way less frustrating than I might have worried, though a lot of my initial plans and intentions didn't pan out (for example there was this big TV that the previous tenants had left, and we'd meant to take it with us, but we couldn't get the right tools so who knows if my dad took it; we have the remote for it, too but he hasn't asked about it)

we're still in Arizona, and somewhere in Mesa; its in a quieter area that's a bit further from the more concentrated parts of the city where things are busier, so its been WAY calmer. We also specifically have a house now, a fairly small one that's about three rooms, none of them particularly big, but we're enjoying the quiet, the peace and my cat REALLY likes the exploring the whole place freely

we are living right next to my aunt and my cousin, and they've been really helpful, and not only is this particular cousin one I was close to as a kid, but I thought he'd died YEARS ago after some gang trouble where he went to prison and i hadn't heard anything about him since I was 14 or something, and it turns out he's married, has two kids, is a writer and is doing quite well, WHAT THE HELL says I, I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE ALIVE????

he introduced me to DND back when i was a kid and apparently this motivated him to give me his DND 5e books, holy shit

but there's a few other issues; the first one is that my aunt is trying to be more supportive and become my legal support in place of my dad, which he is apparently endorsing, but they're constantly arguing; he keeps refusing to give her paperwork or keeps flaking out at random times, so we keep getting tugged between them and getting weird, inconclusive information. My aunt claims we're supposed to be paying a tiny amount of money, but my dad says all my money is going to rent, and I have no idea which I can actually trust

fortunately, I got ahold of a card that gives me benefits that I can use to buy certain types of food as well as medicines, and its been EXTREMELY helpful, we've been eating way better than before and to top it off my aunt keeps giving us food, and this is also helpful because my food stamps are delayed; my dad forgot an appointment so I didn't receive food stamps at all this month, and its been over a week and I've been trying to get him to just FIX IT already

(I foujnd this out at the self check out only to find out too late my food stamp card was completely empty. fortunately my cousin bought me the food but it was still a nasty experience)

additionally, my phone has been replaced, since the old one was very old and didn't work with a lot of apps, and was increasingly less reliable, and the new one can watch Youtube just fine without the awkwardness of using the browser, which is honestly what I mostly care about

however there's three concerns. the first one is that me and my brother don't yet have internet; we're supposed to MAYBE get it soon, but who knows how that will work. As it is my phone has a T-Mobile thing so i can watch things on it and use it as a hotspot, though i prefer not to do that too much or for too long

the second thing is that we're getting a roommate; I've never met her and apparently she's worked for my dad doing cleaning stuff for his house in the past, and neither me or my brother had a choice in the matter, though if she didn't move in we DID have other options we were discussing for roommates, not helped by my dad refusing to communicate at all with us until the very last second. I honestly don't know if I can trust her or not because we keep getting mixed messages and apparently she wasn't happy either about moving in with two adult men she'd never met (and apparently in private my dad told her he did the whole house thing for HER, and not us, so while its probably just him being manipulative towards her that still pissed me off because it makes it sound like we were afterthoughts, which we likely are). Apparently she has an infant child and I keep worrying about whether this is going to make issues with my cat, or if I'll need to keep her in my room whenever possible to prevent someone potentially letting her out (NOPE NOPE NOPE ABSOLUTELY NOT) and I keep feeling antsy about things

however the more immediate issue is that the house is a fixer-upper. More specifically, tis kind of an absolute wreck and we're expected to repair it?

so apparently this house's tenants were drug dealers, and specifically crackheads; we've gotten at least one guy coming over and just staring into our yard looking for something, and they abandoned the place years ago, and they did a LOT of damage before they left. Protective railings to the underside of the house are completely gone, a lot of the tiles and wood fixtures are missing and need to be finished or outright replaced

my brother's room has multiple small wall gaps and bugs keep getting into his place (and he is pretty severely phobic towards bugs)

the bathroom window is permanently open and ajar, with a pillow or something shoved into it, with several bathroom tiles that are openly cracking and moving whenever you walk on them

one of the windows is completely shattered and boarded over

the electricity in one part of the kitchen is weird and the power goes out in that part of the house if you try to use, say, an air fryer and microwave (both given to us as gifts by family members, which was very nice) at the same time, no problem there but we did have to shove our fridge around to the middle of the kitchen to find an outlet that worked before our food went bad

the doors are all in horrible shape; the front screen door won't stay closed unless its locked, the main front door is horribly broken with a completely missing lock and nonfunctional doorknob that huge bugs have gotten through, and that same door is barely hanging onto its hinges and scrapes badly against the tiles whenever its moved. The back screen door works okay, but the backyard is in really bad condition (overgrown lawn, a shed that has fallen completely over last I checked, the space under the house exposed to the elements and bugs), and I currently have NO door of any kind, which is really stressful because i REALLY get distressed about people looking at me on the computer

apparently the guy who owns the place wants us to fix the whole place, though he's fine with us living here indefinitely and is SUPPOSED to have our rent severely reduced until its fixed (though we keep getting conflicting information, so I don't know if my aunt was wrong about that, or if my dad is secretly embezzling my monthly income, which my aunt is CONVINCED he's doing and at this point if he is I'm just resigned to it because there's not really any way I can check or do anything about it, and its also possible he's just being lazy in a way that also makes everything look suspicious). The good news is that he already gave my dad a ton of money to buy al lthe stuff we'd need to fix the house; floor things, new doors, new washing machines and every thing else. The bad news there is that its still my dad and he is INCREDIBLY flaky; we've been here over a month and most of this stuff is the same as it was, though is more presentable because my aunt has helped us with things like cleaning the drawers and giving us new appliances, but my dad is refusing to give us repair stuff until he has time to actually come down here and do it despite us telling him a LOT "no, we can do it ourselves, we don't need you to handle it all, just give us the materials and we can get it done" and the last I heard about it, he wants to wait until he sells his last house to actually do anything, and he put it up on sale last year so who knows when that'll happen

my brother has a friend, the same one who built the computer I was give a few years back as a gift, and he's come down a few times to help us fix the yard (its much cleaner now) and handle questions like electricity and other technical stuff we're not qualified to do, apparently just because he likes being helpful, which is very nice!

so all of that is good news, but there is a couple other things: a year or two ago my dad apparently started developing severe kidney problems, and the general feeling in the family for a while is that he probably only has a few years left to live, and he's said as much in conversations with other people (which was how me and my brother found out, since he never actually told us the specifics; not to spare our feelings, since he's never been tactful at all, but because he just never said anything to us).

to be clear I'm not saying I'm upset or stressed out or worried about this; as much as I might be, its honestly in a distant and clinical way because I have to rely on him since he's been paying for our apartment we've lived at for the last few years and, until we connected with my aunt and cousin again, the only actual support we had. He's just been so... mind numbingly frustrating to deal with, so uncommunicative and constantly making things hard on me for no reason at all, making me pay almost my entire monthly income in rent to him and then insisting I give him more money than I could afford to pay grocery bills for his household (which I wasn't allowed to eat, incidentally) and it never occurred to him that this literally left us with no money to buy food at all

so his kidney problems have me worried, but in the sense of worry about my long term prospects. If I care much about him personally, its in the same distant way as I would for other people in general. To be honest, there's been way too much history and ill-feeling for me to have much 'oh but he's my DAD' feelings; the constant bullshit he pulled when i was a kid, the absolute nightmare of the years he remarried immediately to a ableist woman who abused her children, stole all his money and abandoned him the first chance she got

and then there's more recent stuff; my inability to talk to him at all without either feeling stupid, him turning everything into an opportunity to passive-aggressively complain about everything i say or do (and we can't even have a basic conversation without it winding up that way, most of the time) or him talking about the past and having an EXTREMELY self serving memory that makes him seem like an unjustly victimized Good Guy who left my mom because, according to him, she went insane (when it was because they were constantly arguing because he was such a huge asshole and she didn't tolerate how he tended to bully me, my brother and my sister because of his fragile pride) and pretending like he's never done anything wrong in his life

and to be honest, he's always been a huge hypochondriac. Every time there was an outbreak of something when I was a kid, he'd go straight to the hospital convinced he'd caught whatever it was, so I'm taking him claiming he probably only has a few years to live with a grain of salt, and bearing in mind, me and my brother are both willing to do kidney transplants for him (in my case, partly because his continued survival IS a bit of self interest for me, but also because it feels like the morally appropriate thing and I dont feel spiteful enough to deny a transplant in his case) but he hasn't said anything about that to us

supposedly, he got us this place as the last big thing he can do for us, to ensure we'll be stable and have a home after he's gone. I'll admit that worried me when I heard it, and glad that we DO have this place, but apparently he had over a year to start fixing up this place, or have me and my brother start working on it, since getting this place was set up before our previous lease was finished. He just... didn't do anything until the literal last second, because we were moved out on the final legal date we HAD to leave the apartment, and he didn't tell us anything until that very last second

so it feels like as good as this is as an improvement, and that he genuinely DOES care about us (i think), he keeps doing literally everything in the most half-assed way possible, complaining every moment of it and sounding like he expects to be given awards for doing the bare minimum basics; at the moment we're running out of food (though my dad is supposed to come over tomorrow, hopefully to get the food stamp situation sorted out and otherwise he said he'll give us money for groceries so here's hoping he actually DOES that) and its entirely because he forgot about an appointment and didn't start doing the paperwork to get it fixed until nearly a WEEK afterwards

so honestly i'm sorry if that seems like a lot but I've been seething about some of this stuff for years, and the thing with this roommate has stressed me out a lot and the complete lack of communication has really bugged me something terrible but all in all

this IS a serious improvement and we've basically been way more comfortable than we were the entire time at the previous apartment; I can get grocery rides when I ask or have it ordered so i don't need to walk anyway, my cat LOVES the new place, and all in all things are great, even if not having a door yet stressed me out, and i have also been almost constantly sick with fevers and digestion trouble (my brother is worried that I might have some kind of liver problem, though I think its more likely that all the stress has knocked me sideways and its taken a while for me to recover from that) but this is still, in the end, a big improvement

so all in all im doing okay even if im not really up to being chatty for the foreseeable future!

[wendievergreen]

Miscellaneous Snakes

I'm proud of myself for drawing 14 snakes in one week, but I also kind of regret it (￣ ￣|||) spread myself a leeeetle thin. Real snakes cited and quick thoughts under the cut

1: Mlegtugwam (Calloselasma rhodostoma, Malayan pit viper, Malayan ground snake, Malayan moccasin)- most of the asps were assigned random venomous snakes. I picked the reference image based on the pose.

2: Girtranaeg (Xenopeltis unicolor, sunbeam/iridescent snake)- god its eyes look so silly. Anyway, y'all should look up sunbeam snakes, they're beautiful

3: Hrukgolklo (Micrelaps bicoloratus, Kenya two-headed snake)- I didn't draw it in a circle shape because I was so charmed by the original photo. They really look like they have two heads, it's adorable.

6: Tafmiwukri (Micruroides euryxanthus, Sonoran/western/Arizona coral snake)- red because its victims sweat blood

4: Thagolgrom (Naja naja, Indian/spectacled/Asian/binocellate cobra)- obvs I had to include the most iconique serpent somewhere

5: Shabalrang (Rhabdophis subminiatus, red-necked keelback)- in my sketch its eyes were closed, but than I remembered that snakes don't have eyelids😔

7: Krefemklog (Vipera berus, common European adder/viper)- I really like how the vapor turned out.

9: Nrogklongo (Neelaps calonotus, black-striped burrowing snake)- just a little guy

11: Zriggwanto (Chrysopelea ornata, golden tree snake, ornate flying snake)- ZHOOM

8: Kraehozdim (Elaphe quatuorlineata, four-lined snake, Bulgarian ratsnake)- lives in Italy, on the larger side for a European snake. The pattern is from a stereotypical dairy cow, the white lip is a milk mustache.

10: Samgleshti (Crotalus cerastes, sidewinder, horned rattlesnake)- I'm 90% certain I found the original species during research. Luckily, there's a very similar snake in North America, lol. Horns are inspired by Jacob sheep

12: Kramlengga (Macrovipera lebetina, blunt-nosed/Lebetine/Levant viper)- I like how its eyes turned out. So piercing! (◉-◉)

13: Galwinglik (Bitis schneideri, Namaqua/spotted dwarf adder, Schneider's adder)- the smallest venomous snake

14: Yeakrindra (Leptotyphlops carlae, Barbados threadsnake)- the tiniest snake of all!

I finally got around to listening to the Maniculum Podcast this week :) I love it! 10/10

[dreamwatch]

I never used to make playlists for my fics because I didn't really see the point, but I don't know what it is about the last couple of fics I've been writing, music has just been bringing the worlds alive for me. So now I'm making playlists.

And it's all mostly luck, something turns up on Spotify and it ends up being perfect and off we go down a story rabbit hole I hadn't thought of. Today's find - the random town I needed the boys to find so they could pick up some Tylenol - turning out to be Winslow, Arizona, like so fucking perfect! To the point that I might wriggle the timeline around a bit because right now Eddie has a blinding headache but I need him to enjoy this experience! Sadly, though there is a memorial to the song, Standin' On The Corner Park, the statue of Glenn Frey that is there now wasn't there when the story is set. Boo. I wanted him to get a picture with it for Wayne. The flatbed truck will have to do.

Anyway, thankyou for coming to my TED talk.

[fulltidalwavecomputer]

Oh goodness I found this ARG like... earlier this week thanks to that Wifies guy. I did come up with a small theory of my own, after some thought. It's hard to choose a favorite character since there's only three and they're all p cool, but I do like Smiler/Everette. So glad there's an official name for that guy now.

I put the theory beneath the cut :P

Uhhh well... You remember when Andrew said he knew an Everette? Or the name at least sounded familiar. Do people think that's red herring or? Because I don't think it could be a coincidence or just random info. Look, he says that he never lived anyway snowy and didn't recognise the house, but that world was made for christmas and he noted how old the building looks now.

Funnily enough, we don't actually know that much about Andrew outside of minecraft. Like, he's the main character but we haven't seen parts of his life from an outside perspective like with the other two. And now we're back in his old world with Chris... wonder if we'll learn more about his past now? We know that he has a family and goes to school, and Chris (who lives on the East coast himself) says he lives on the West coast which is presumably referring to America. Other than that, we probably know more about Everette's home life than anyone else's. We don't know which state any of them live in actually, the only one mentioned is Arizona where Oliver moved to and he isn't even really a character aside from a random name drop atm. Btw Arizona a southern-western state I looked it up.

But then there's also the stuff with the Lethe protocol affecting Andrew's memory, and for all we know parts of his memory could've gotten erased before. Accidently or on purpose. Or he just, you know gets older and forgets stuff.

So here's my wild speculation:

Maybe Andrew and Oliver are the same person somehow? Like he could've just been a classmate of Smiler's or maybe even one of the bullies but I don't think so. Neither really work imo. But that got me thinking, what if the reason "Oliver" had to move to Arizona was because his family needed to escape something? I've got no clue how witness protection works but those who are in danger often have to hide their identities right? Both of the other characters have their respective traumas outside of the well-related stuff and it makes sense for Andrew to have past baggage too. There's no real evidence yet but again, there's no real reason for him to bring it up either at the moment.

Or maybe he's been going by his middle name or smth the whole time idfk. I'm not sure why Everette would refer to his friend with a fake name in a video made for him, unless it was a nickname??? Ehhh I doubt it. He'd only know him by his birth name in school. What's really funny to imagine is any memes that might get made about "the biggest plot twist is Andrew isn't even his real name 😱!!" He's only ever gotten referred to as Andrew so far though, if Smiler recognises him then he's keeping his mouth shut.

It's... what actually is the Lethe protocol? Did Chris build it? Why was it made and why does Andrew have a subject number? Chris also had a subject number in Into The Mind... We know he's a tech guy but I doubt he'd be able to create a machine in minecraft that can erase a living person's memory. I feel like there's still a lot of loose threads that need to be tied up, and I'm hyped to discover all the pieces.

Tell me if I'm missing anything because I must confess I've only watched the latest videos after Wifies' summary. For example I didn't actually know Chris had a creeper skin when he played with Andrew, so the bit where his ghost puts on the head didnt quite click on first watch. But yeah, I'm glad I found this ARG because it slaps ✨

...

Also how old even are the characters what is the timeline I- ???

[riddles-n-games]

A.M. Analysis-Jameson and Grayson

One great song from 1D’s fifth album is the title song itself, A.M. Although I knew the words before, after entering my TIG era, I related to the song differently. It reminded me of that scene in The Hawthorne Legacy where Grayson and Jameson were in Arizona waiting to meet with Grayson's father. The chorus of the song and second verse resonate most with Jamie and Gray's brotherhood, the overall mood of the scene, their shared reminiscence of childhood nostalgia, and the underlying tension due to their current and past problems.

Chorus Won't you stay 'til the A.M.? All my favorite conversations Always made in the A.M. Cause we don't know what we're saying We're just swimming round in our glasses And talking out of our asses Like we're all gonna make it (yeah, yeah)

The chorus sounds exactly like Grayson questioning what they’re doing when he caught himself smiling (refer to The Hawthorne Legacy bonus POVs). That scene from Jameson’s perspective gave off the feeling that the last time he and Gray actually enjoyed being in each other’s company was quite a while ago. But here, in this hotel room, in the middle of the night, for once, they’ll make do. “An honorary Vegas” as JLB puts it. They talked about random stuff, they made fun of each other, they laughed at themselves, the drinks loosened their tongues and hidden truths came out. As they say, a drunk man’s words are a sober man’s thoughts. And in the end, only the two of them would know other than Avery.

Second Verse Feels like this could be forever right now Don't wanna sleep cause we're dreaming out loud

This part kind of bleeds into a continuation of the Drink or Dare scene since the lines kind of sound like the endless waiting that the two of them experienced as Sheffield Grayson took forever to come. And then the second line projects this secret inner want to keep holding onto the moment because as Jameson states, they don’t do this, not anymore. Now would be the time to savor this brotherly bonding moment because they would go back to their regular lives right after.

Trying to behave but you know that we never learned, how You and me were raised in the same part of town Got these scars on the same ground Remember how we used to kick around just wasting time?

These last four lines are the perfect summary of Gray and Jamie’s childhood. They were raised by their grandfather, played the same games, learned the same lessons in different ways, got hurt, etc. It sounds a lot like the last part of the chapter when Jameson is admitting in his own way that he still cares about Grayson. At the end of the day, I think that scene just showcases that both of them desperately miss those times but their pride, oh that stubborn Hawthorne, male ego thing called pride won’t let them. But I also believe it gives us, the audience, the underlying sense that this is a shifting point, that things will change and the future is bright because they aren’t done. Right now they are at a standstill and maybe the ball won’t roll immediately but it will and they will learn to be those brothers again.

Anyways, that's the end of my analysis. Whoo, got something out of my longstanding drafts done. Yay. Also, here's a link to the Hawthorne Legacy bonus POVs if you want to read them yourself:

[dailymothanon]

THE ALASKAN DREAM CONSISTS OF HUGE FUCKING FISH ‼️ I don’t know if y’all in the Lower 48 also learn about fish in your schools, especially salmon (and yes in Alaska we do indeed say salmon like ‘samen’, salmon without the L cuz we’re always winning no we’re not), I had to learn atleast like two weeks worth of school of purely salmon and watching salmon documentaries and dissecting salmon cuz of how important they are to Alaska 😭 (I didn’t mind tho cuz I love learning about Alaska) (also, a really long rant below, I don’t expect y’all to read all or any of it— it’s not a sad or deep rant, just like a long letter of appreciation for you guys)

Btw I’m sorry I couldn’t do more this post :( my heads been a little preoccupied with some struggles so I couldn’t focus on drawing much else, also I just simply hit a creative stump is all as well, I have considered talking a little deep about me (or technically, my life a little bit) for y’all, I dunno why, maybe it’s simply the fact most people I’ve talked to within this fandom n such has simply just been so nice and relaxing (although, I’m aware I don’t interact that much or consistently) sometimes I really like deep conversation as well, or just spouting random facts and ideas I have, it’s nice, especially if there’s people that atleast somewhat get my rambles— but I suppose this is a thank you, to be honest, because I love that you guys like my work and sometimes even use them or build off of them, even if I think the idea I had was a bad idea (Punk Ny for example was an idea I was worried about not being a good one), most of the time I don’t edit them out because I think maybe one person out there might like it and want me to keep it there, like my girlfriend who encourages my ideas or helps me shape them, I never had this type of interaction and it makes me so giddy at times, so I really appreciate it :)

Also, I know I’m not obligated to draw so much with each post (maybe I’ll talk about how long my process is and what I do for most posts) but sometimes I feel like I owe you guys it because a lot of you are very respectful, and a lot of states do not have the amount of content that one who is passionate about would want, I mean, that’s why I joined this place and immediately started drawing Alaska like a mad man since there wasn’t much content about him (especially specifically about him), im passionate about my state, I yearn to know as much as I can and see how others think of it and us, I wanna do the same for other states but I worry that I don’t feel the same amount of passion for them as I do Alaska and I know that’s fine, but I still feel bad about it because I think I can do better for you guys, Indiana and Arizona and North Dakota for example I feel I can do more, even if you guys are content with what I came up with, but it’s very relieving to hear the expectations were not unreachable like I expected you guys to be about them, and I’m glad you guys aren’t critical about the fact I’m very inconsistent with Alaskas design because I’m not quite sure what I want for him and how much his design feels like him so I’m still trying always

anyways, have a good day or night yall <3 much of you guys are simply so so nice. Err, idk how I feel about this rant cuz I don’t wanna waste y’all’s times because I know you’re here for the states, so I might delete it depending on how I feel later about it

[moth-eatenmoss]

(This was the post that started the random ramblings and wasn’t Pjo related I just think the fandom would think it’s neat)

The gods each have states and countries that they kinda treat like their own ant colonies/pet rocks. (This is what’s inspired the “Hephaestus would like Colorado” post from like a month earlier.) Anyways, here are some things from off the top of my head.

Arizona is shared by Helios and Set

Kansas has Apollo (as a Kansas dweller, I can confirmed that the sun is harsh here)

Helios also has Rhode Island based off of his sacred island named after his wife Rhode

Poseidon had Floridian because is a Florida man

Hera was given Hawaii by Zeus as an apology after he messed up big time

Pan has Oregon

Dionysus and Zeus share Nevada

[flickertheory]

i am now desperate for your 3-hour rant about “the addison returns to grey sloan to do fetal surgery" episode”

i need this in my life diane don’t leave me hanging

so basically

I would die for addison (look, the mix between "diane realizes she likes girls" and "diane is very enthusiastic about female characters with red hair" is just a venn diagram.)

her season 18 (and/or s19??? don't remember) episodes on grey's anatomy aren't ALL bad. she gets to touch on her emotional hurt / her difficulty in parenting / her burnout / her relationship to roe v. wade as an OB-GYN who is no longer able to help people the way she knows how to.

she is so GOOD. kate walsh is phenomenal.

BUT there's also this string of episodes where addison is used to propel the plot forward. she has to sit through richard and meredith bickering about job stuff. she has to teach the medical interns because they are, understandably, struggling.

there's literally an episode where a pregnant woman is going through intense emotional pain and addison needs to shout at richard webber (I HATE HIM) to stop being so self-centered. Because addison needs to focus on her poor PATIENT, not richard's ego and his fixation on yelling at meredith

(look i am aware people dislike meredith but I just kind of like her, okay? she's not a character I love, but i do like her. she is my emotional support character sometimes.)

AND THIS IS SUCH A WASTE OF KATE WALSH'S ACTING TALENT. SHE HAS TO DEAL WITH SQUABBLING PEOPLE AND HANDLE EPISODE-BASED CONFLICTS INSTEAD OF BEING ABLE TO FULLY FOSTER HER RELATIONSHIPS WITH CHARACTERS.

What a fucking waste of a character. She returns after, like, 5 seasons away and you use her to teach some random students she's never met (student characters that the audience is only kind of invested in, by the way!) instead of being able to FULLY see her bond with her old friends.

There is old friend content, THANK GOD (Addison & Meredith, and her with Amelia and Meredith's kids), but we could've had more of it if we didn't waste Kate Walsh's screentime like this!

Like, Addison also has relationships with Webber and Bailey that we wanted to see more of. And we all want more screentime of Addison & Amelia because they're practically sisters.

No one CARES about Addison's relationship with Benson Kwan, for instance, who is NICE but is not, like, a character any of us really know that well. Benson has been on the show for like 1 year.

Anyways Addison's grief and emotional turmoil is great. I love her and cautiously like her return episodes on GA but am so mad that they're wasting some of her screentime on "she needs to work on the medical case" rather than "she gets to build emotional friendships and gets a character arc.

They did this very recently with Arizona Robbins too, AND I'M STILL MAD ABOUT IT

ARIZONA DOES NOT EXIST SO SHE CAN DO SURGERY AND TEACH MINOR CHARACTERS AND GO HOME!!!!!!!!!! GIVE HER AN ARC!

[babygirl-diaz]

Samtember Day 09: Carnival | King of Mardi Gras

841 words | Rated G | @samsseptember

((I chose Carnival as the theme))

It was a warm summer night and Joaquin arrived at Sam’s apartment in a car he borrowed from his friend. He looked at himself in the rearview mirror, straightened his olive jacket, and ran his fingers through his hair to make sure that it looked good. After deciding that he looked enough, Joaquin went to the door and rang the doorbell. 

When Sam opened the door, Joaquin’s breath was almost knocked out of him. He wore a white button-up shirt and black slacks, and he was perfectly groomed, as always. Joaquin felt his heart racing. “Wow, you look beautiful,” he managed to say. 

“Thank you,” Sam replied as he stepped out of the apartment. ‘You don’t look too bad yourself,” he added cheekily. 

“Thanks,” Joaquin chuckled as he led Sam to his car. 

“I didn’t know you could drive?” Sam said as he got in. 

“I’m from Arizona, Sam. It’s kind of a requirement to drive out there,” Joaquin replied and pulled out of the street. “This is my friend’s car, by the way. I never really needed one here in New York.” 

“How are you liking New York and the civilian life, anyway?” Sam asked. 

“I miss home. I’m not gonna lie. But I’m glad you’re here.” Joaquin didn’t mean for it to sound as flirty as it did. But oh well, the damage was done. 

Sam just laughed at that. So that was a good sign. “So, ready for a fun evening?” He asked instead. 

“With you, I am always ready for an adventure,” Joaquin replied, blatantly flirting with Sam again. 

“You’re really laying it on thick, aren’t you?” Sam asked. 

“I am trying to.” Joaquin didn’t look over at him and kept on driving. 

Random small talk filled the rest of the trip upstate. When they finally got to the fair and parked, Joaquin was immediately by Sam’s side when he got out. There were bright lights everywhere, as it was after dusk. They first browsed the place before stopping near the games. Joaquin tried Ring Toss at first but was absolutely terrible at it. He then tried his hand at whack-a-mole and that’s where he excelled. He won a giant brown teddy bear, which he handed over to Sam. 

“Oh, no, no, no, I’m not carrying this thing around the fair,” he told Joaquin. 

Joaquin turned his sad big brown eyes at Sam, who sighed and took the teddy bear. “So manipulative,” he grumbled under his breath, but Joaquin heard it anyway. He followed Sam through the fair with a pep in his step. 

Once they got hungry, the two of them had funnel cake and cotton candy like a couple of kids. 

“Do you know how many carbs these things have?” Sam asked as he ate the funnel cake. 

“No, do you?” Joaquin asked. 

“No, but I don’t care right now because I am having the time of my life,” Sam replied and gave Joaquin a smile that brightened his whole evening. 

After they finished eating and walked around, Joaquin dared to take Sam’s hand, who didn’t protest, so that was another good sign. 

“You wanna go on the Ferris Wheel?” Joaquin asked once they were near the brightly lit giant wheel. 

“Sure, why not?” Sam shrugged and dragged Joaquin along to stand in the line. Once they got to the front, Joaquin let Sam ‌take a seat while he talked to the operator. 

“What was that about?” Sam asked once Joaquin got in. 

“Oh, I was just asking him how old this thing was because it doesn’t look very safe,” Joaquin replied. 

“Not afraid of heights now, are you, Joaquin?” Sam teased, bumping his shoulder against Joaquin’s. 

“No, of course not! I mean, if I was afraid of heights, then I would never wear the Falcon suit.” 

“I know, I know, I’m just joking,” Sam chuckled and leaned in to kiss Joaquin’s cheek. 

Joaquin’s entire face suddenly felt very warm, and he looked up at Sam, surprised. 

“You’re cute when you’re flustered,” Sam told him. 

The Ferris Wheel soon started going around and Joaquin slowly moved the teddy bear Sam had placed between them to the side and scooted closer to Sam. If Sam noticed, then he said nothing.

Once they reached the top, the Ferris Wheel stopped. 

“Um, Sam?” Joaquin called out. 

“Yeah?” Sam asked, looking over at him.

Under the bright lights of the Ferris Wheel, Sam looked even more beautiful. “Can I- uh- can I kiss you?” 

Sam burst out laughing, dwindling Joaquin’s confidence a little. 

“You gave the operator money to stop up here, didn’t you?” He asked. 

“How did you-” 

“That’s a classic trick. I bet the operator makes tons of money on the side.”

Joaquin blushed and rubbed the back of his neck. 

“Yes, by the way.” 

Joaquin looked up when he heard that. “What?” 

“You can kiss me,” Sam said, leaning in. 

Joaquin closed the gap between them and finally kissed him. He could swear there were fireworks behind them or maybe they were just in his heart.