#anyways time to post this at the worst time of day possible ^-^ yaaay

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on being made to heal and not quite knowing how to [somehow it works out anyway] — part 2/2

part 1 | headcanon/au being referenced

[imjustaweirdo93]

SPOILERS AHEAD PEOPLE, SO WATCH OUT  oh and it’s loong

As my first post here I want to talk about the awesomeness that is Avengers: Endgame, because I had couple of days to fully absorbe it and get out of the depression, so I need to write down my thoughts.

First of all … don’t really look much deep into it. Everyone is talking about loopholes and silly aspects of the film, but really…time travel isn’t real (well not yet) so there is no scientific proof of how it should work. Stop questioning it, just enjoy the movie and accept the explanation we got from Banner. For me it was really easy to understand.

Now, I want to really give the biggest credit to the rat, you know which rat. Without it Ant-man would be probably stuck in the quantum realm forever and there will be no one to think about time travel, so yaaay, hero was born (maybe give it a movie marvel?)

So one of the thing that I really liked about the movie and was probably the biggest surprise for me, was Thor. Yeah, didn’t see that one coming and oooh it was sooo good. Not that I enjoy depressed superheroes, but it was interesting change to the character, like….we know him as this unstoppable strong god who already lost so much, but still didn’t break and kept going and now…now he did break, he was a broken man and was going through it like we normal humans do. I don’t really get the hate, plus it was insanely hilarious.

Another thing I loved was Professor Hulk. Him, Rhodey, Ant-man and Thor were the funny core of this film and I didn’t expect that at all. It was interesting to see him as this peaceful, calm, funny being giving his previous struggle with Hulk. Who knew huh.

Ooooh and the best scene of course - Avengers Assemble. That was just pure orgasm guys. That was the reason we all watched all those movies right? To get moment like this and it was totally worth it. 

Let’s talk about endings….

NATASHA

For her I never really had some emotional bond, but in Endgame they finally give her some space to really show her true colors, to shine and when she died I was heartbroken. As soon as they reveal that she and Clint were going for the soul stone everyone must have known what will happen. Clint wanted his family back and she wanted to save everyone. It was her purpose and it kind of makes me happy in the end. Not the fact she died, but the reason behind all of it. Also the whole scene between them, who will die and who will live, was great. There was no romantic love between them but it felt more real and raw than some romance. I wasn’t hyped for the Black Widow movie, but after this I am.

CLINT

The reason why I like him is because he’s one of the few parental figures in marvel movies. Someone here wrote something about people not caring for Hawkeye’s family, which is not true, I cared. The first scene hit me hard and I was thinking to myself “they want to torment us from the start?!” and yeah, I already felt terrible. Also, people saying Clint should have been the one to die and not Natasha, because what he did in those 5 years?? They both did bad things, that’s life, but each of them had different purpose in life, so I’m glad there weren’t more children without father in the end.

STEVE ROGERS

I really never was a big fan of Cap. I respect him, he is THE MAN, great leader and role model, I also love Chris Evans, but other than that I always found him a little boring. That changed during the Infinity war (yeah, the beard helped) and in Endgame I just enjoyed every minute of him. Maybe it is because he is no longer some naive boy, we-have-to-do-it-right boy. He has grown a lot and been through a lot, he knows better now. Also he apparently swears now and that gives me life. Anyway, since Age of Ultron I just knew that one of the great trio will die eventually, but for some reason I never thought they will rid of Thor, which left Tony and Steve. I was really really sure they will kill Steve, because it just felt there is nothing for him in the future unlike Tony who wanted to start a family and till the end of the movie I really thought they will go with the reasonable choice, not the most heartbreaking. Boy was I wrong. A lot of people said they ruined Cap’s character, that he wouldn’t just go live with the love of his life into the past, that he wouldn’t just stop fighting. But that was all he had, he never had a chance with Peggy and as I see it? He wanted to honor Tony and Natasha and live a life that they couldn’t anymore…he wanted to rest too and that makes me happy. He deserves it. 

THOR

I bet a lot of people thought that in the end, he will be the great king he was supposed to be from the start, but like from the first Thor movie it was clear that it wasn’t what he wants anyway and I never really saw him as a king, so him going into the space with Guardians, trying to find his place in the universe is in my opinion great ending for our beloved God of Thunder. Maybe people think they ruined all his character developement, but just remember Thor at the start of this epic journey. He went from his worst to his best and then to his lowest and I really hope that means Thor will stick around for a little while longer as Chris Hemsworth expressed interest in playing Thor again in the future. Maybe he will join Guardians and that would be totally awesome, right??!!

TONY

Ugh….this one still hurts. Let me tell you this, I have a Top 5 favourite list of superheroes which are Spiderman, Daredevil, Batman, Guardians of the Galaxy (yes, I take them as one, because I just love all of those assholes to death!) AND Iron Man, so….yeah. When I was watching the movie I was so focused on the moment when they’ll kill off Captain America (mainly because I read some fake spoiler about him dying) that this shit hit me out of nowhere. Once I saw him holding all those stones I knew it’s over for him and from that moment I tried really hard not to sob for the rest of the movie. Ooh and when the dying scene came up I couldn’t look, it broke me. I was Thor-level broken. When we were leaving the theatre I remembered the moment between Tony and Strange, where he show him just one finger, one possibility and that broke me again, because in that moment Tony realized what he must do and why Stranger wanted Thanos to spare his life, so he can save all of them. He knew there was no other way than sacrificing himself. Geeez I thought I got over it, but I’m still too emotional. Anyway his end was epic, heroic, selfless and the last goodbye was beautiful. Thank you Tony, yes, you are Iron Man.

GUARDIANS

Gosh I was so happy they showed us Guardians at the end, ready for next adventure like the last five years didn’t happen. I think I like them more than Avengers. The biggest and maybe my only issue with this film was not bringing original Gamora to life. I was hoping the whole year thay they’ll find a way to bring her back and in a way they did, but still, it hurts me that the real Gamora, with all the memories and love for Peter is gone forever. At least Quill was searching for her in the end, so let’s hope it was foreshadowing of the Guardians of the galaxy 3, where they’ll find the past Gamora and make her part of the team once again (and fell in love with Peter again, because they’re like my all time favourite MCU couple).

Well, for me it was really amazing experience. I had no expectations, I just wanted to see anything they got for us and I wasn’t disappointed. There was everything. Fun, love, sadness, hope, happiness, action, drama and I’m really sad that I can’t see it for the first time one more time. So thank you Marvel, thank you Stan Lee and thank you Robert Downey Jr.

Love you all three thousand 

[stylishgirrl]

Hi again :))

A lot of good things happened at the end of July & at the start of August 2020. Hehe. First, Chelseah Hilary finally has her own vlog na talaga! Yaaay!! Oh & btw, she got 100K+ subscribers already in just a few days.. plus, I see her more on R&N vlogs these days & I'm so lit with it 🤩🤩 Then, as I continue to fangirl over youtubers but mostly Haley Dasovich.. there's this day in July when I even send a msg to Haley's IG because I was so inspired by her. ♡ I rarely msg people (I've been a fan of itsJudysLife for over 6yrs now but I haven't ever msg her how a fan I am to her.. maybe bec I am just so shy or I felt like it's really impossible for her to be able to read it) but this time around, I didn't hesitated when I msg Haley Dasovich. I'm not expecting anything in return at all. I really just wanted to congratulate her for winning the Shorty Award for BEST IN TRAVEL && of course I just wanted to send her some sugar. Hehe. Chosz. But srsly, I wanted to let her know how amazing she is. Share what I feel. Talk to her even though I knew it's impossible for her to reply/seen my msg. Then on August 1, 2020, I casually replied to one of her IG stories.. I think more than five hours have passed.. I'm at Fairview Terrace na with mom but we separated coz she needs to buy meds & y'know 'social distancing'.. Hehe. So, here's the thing.. As I am waiting for my mom, I decided to open my mobile data for fb/ig or whatever when.. I SAW A NOTIFICATION from HALEY DASOVICH!! I was like "OMG!!! IS THIS FOR REAL??" "OH SERIOUSLY IT IS REAL!!" My heart skipped a beat. Haha. I really just can't believe it!! I WAS REALLY OVERWHELM ❤❤ (I suddenly remember this "Expect for the worst & hope for the best or dont hope at all" from one of their vlogs. Hehe) Coz really, I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS AT ALL. I know Haley is so appreciative but I DIDN'T SEE THIS COMING. Omg. Still can't move on talaga by the fact that she did not only read my message but even hearting it & replying to me. Grabe!! I was really in awe. Btw, I even screenshot & posted it on my story. Hehe. Then that night, she also posted a new vlog... in which, it was so hyped that I can't resist myself to comment for the very first time on her yt channel. Also, shared her vlog with my FB friends and all. Again, I'm not expecting anything. Then the next day when I woked up, I SEE A NOTIF FROM HER AGAIN!! OH GOSH. I GOT A HEART FROM HER. OMG TALAGA. How wonderful my morning is.. isn't it? Huhu. I know it's just simple things but it really made my heart full and happy. Plus, plus!! I wasn't able to share her vlog on my story last night eh.. in which the others did & I saw thats she shares it on her story as well. I've shared it on fb last night already but I've forgotten to share it on ig. But I also just really wanted to share her vlog with my friends... Hence, I post it on my story too, tagged her and some of my friends.. an hour later yata, she reposted it on her story. Huhu. OMG AGAIN!! How can she be so sweet with her fans. I'm really loving her even more!! I'm speechless. I melted when she replied again. Huhu. Grabe. I dunno what to say. I wasn't able to think properly by that time and just replied whatever comes into my mind. Huhu. (Sort of regret what I replied kasi it was so short.. & bsta. Haha. Huhu. Kaiyak) but still she hearts it. Kalerks talaga. Ramdam ko ung kabaitan nya and that she's very understanding and sweet and all. So ayun, that was my last interaction with her na (For now lang ah. Haha. This time, I'm hoping that I'll be able to get in touch with her again. I dunno if it's possible but whatever happens, it is as it is. Haha) Anyways, ang haba na neto again. I wanted to be very detailed as much as I can pero hanggang dito nalang yata kaya ng powers ko. 😅

CHECK OUT HER CHANNEL AH!!

HALEY TAKES ON THE WORLD ❣

Guyths, she's ready to build an empire. I'm so excited!! 🤩 Can't wait na talaga for her next vlog. Puros old vlogs muna ko while waiting for her updates 😆 Try watching too!! (YOU! Whoever you are that's reading this. Haha)

Pahabol:

HALEY DASOVICH IS THE BEST!! ♡

Now, I really felt that I've chosen the right person to admire. Actually, attitude is something that I usually check on people din kasi. Hehe. 😁

[privateerings]

Hey! Last monday I hit the halfway mark to a year of running this blog! That went really fast. And I find that to be an accomplishment because I don’t always make it that far and it’s around 6 months that I have a tendency to lose interest. But hey, I’m not feeling that way at all!

So I think this calls for a tiny 6 month anniversary thing. I’m not going to do a “follow forever” post because I’m afraid I’ll accidentally leave someone out, and then it’ll be sad and awkward for them. Besides, mostly everyone is on that follow forever list already. What I will do is something I’ve been wanting to do for a while–which is an unofficial relationships page that updates monthly and anything else I think of later on, but anyway I just wanted to say thanks for supporting me during this (uh, very trying) active year. It means a lot to know that there are people who think my writing isn’t awful and that I have a decent portrayal, even if I have difficulty conceptualizing and accepting that. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the next 6 months, I can only live in the now and enjoy writing Vace Asteris because he’s fun and always messing with my emotions asdfadsfjk

So yeah, yaaay! Also I’m throwing this silly thing in no particular order for people I’ve gotten to do some interacting with. I am not responsible for anything ya boi says, it’s his special week and therefore he is the supreme ruler of the cosmos and Always Correct but More Correct Than Usual. Precious boyo…

Two days ago it was “ listen here, cumslut” but now the mun wants to be nice when cake is involved.... sll right this is fine

(@hothrebels) Valeria Phiskar - “Ah… I don’t uh, know this person. I think there’s a typo on this pad. Do they mean Valeria Asteris? Ha, okay, that was a really lame joke. I never thought that I would end up having any kind of relationship with a woman I almost shot to death when I raided her ship. She might have shot me to death too, I don’t know, she also pointed her blaster at me. It was an exciting day, what can I say? I’m glad neither of us killed each other though, because it turns out we have some things in common, such as law breaking and an intense hatred for the Galactic Civil War. We’re like, the only people who know that nobody’s going to win this thing so we’re just stuck in the middle of it all. We have each other though and that’s what’s important. Val is deceptively strong and… she’s probably stronger than me. If anyone is going to make it out of this alive, I think it’s going to be her. I’m lucky to have her. I want to be more than enough for her, but instead of asking how to be, I end up just saying something that makes no sense, because I’m in love. Sorry. 

(@victory-class-captain) Elena Tarunt - “If I received news that the Justicia had blown up spontaneously I would probably feel only a little bad. Mostly for the Stormtroopers and anyone that had to work under Captain Tarunt’s supervision. They probably never experienced anything enjoyable prior to being killed off in a terrorist attack because the captain doesn’t like fun, happiness, or… anything that people consider to be pleasant. In a way I pity her for being like that. I kinda dig the “mature woman who takes her high position of power seriously” but the most one can do with that is look at her. And I’m pretty sure she will bite your head off just for looking in her direction, so… yeah, I’m good. Maybe one day she’ll find out where that stick has been in her ass all that time and pull it out.”

(@jundlcndwastes) Anna Hart - “Anna is like that friend you didn’t know you had and then when you realize you did, you’re really happy about it. Well... that's because basically we once a really long time ago on Tatooine and when I found her again it felt like I was seeing an old friend. We have a lot to catch up on. I'm not quite sure if she wants to share everything and honestly I don't really think I do either. I was a different person back then. I’m sure we’ve done some less than savory things just because that’s the nature of the job. Man, things were so much more simple back then. I was embarrassingly optimistic. I can only hope that we can still find some common ground, despite how much we’ve changed or it was all for nothing.”

(@notamailman) Gabriel - “G̛abr̀i͏e͏l͡,͝ ̸Ģabrie͏l,̴ Ga̴b͟ri̧el͜. The archangel of war. God's little boy scout. Beautiful soul. I think he's a good guy, really. Great drinking buddy who always knows what to say. He's also one of my favorite people to fuck with. I don't recommend anyone else doing that, though. I̧'m͢ ̸De͡a̕t̷h̡. ҉I͠ hąve ͜pŕìv̀il̛eg͢e͘s͘, b̕i͢tch͝. But really, I can’t say that there are too many people out there that put me at ease when I’m around them. I... I would say that I admire him but it’s not that, I just... let’s call it admiration and leave it at that, mkay? There are only a few things that I wouldn’t do for him. I wish I could do more to comfort his fears, but I’ve never been very good at that with anyone.”

(@arkhevia) Arkhevia “Kee” - “I don’t want anything to do with Kee but I keep crossing paths with the kriffin’ freak for one reason or another. We’d probably get along if her personality wasn’t so obnoxious and her voice wasn’t so grating on my ears. I mean, she’s a great fighter and isn’t afraid of anything. Perfect companion to get things done with, especially if they’re not so savory. But her head’s too far up her ass and there is nothing likable about her otherwise, and the worst part is she thinks she’s above me. Me. Standards? Looking and dressing like that? Really? Step the hell off.”

(@knxw-your-mxster) Kly’tem - “Okay, on one hand I feel a little bad that I’m so rude to her, but on the other hand, she’s weird. She stole from me and is basically extorting her way through space. I just... why is she like this? Why are people like her like this? I would ask, but she doesn’t exactly think much of me. The feeling’s mutual, I suppose.”

(@virtueundefined) Maura - “I would call them a partner in crime, but I don’t like to put labels on relationships. They’ve been a reliable person so far. Weird? Yes. Closed off? Yes. But compatible. Surprisingly. It’s not every day you run into a capable slicer who can also defend themself where necessary. Multi-talented people are my favorite kind of people. I don’t have time for duds--only winners! Take notes, guys.”

(lxst-wxnderer) Olivia - “Do I regret getting into a fight over Olivia? No. Now I get it, we all want some fuk tail and we have different ways of trying to achieve that. but in the Asteris House, you do not put your hands on a woman who wants to be left alone. Oh noooo. But anyway it turns out she might have some talents I could use too, so not only do I get gentleman points, but I also might get a valuable partner. A very pretty one, too. Don’t tell her I said that.”

(@masteroflightanddark) Revan - “A woman of surprising stature that doesn’t match her actual stature, if you know what I mean. She is an ancient god, one that will probably give me plenty of w҉͔o̷̖͙͎̰͉͎̹r͢k to do in the coming years. Where has she been all this time? Who knows. She’s not going anywhere, that’s for sure. It’s always nice to have someone who is old enough to understand you.”

(@gurlpilot) Sh’lari - “OH THANK THE STARS THIS BEAUTIFUL BLESSED LADY IS SAVING MY LIFE I OWE HER EVERYTHING. I’M SO HAPPY I COULD KISS HER. I WOULD LIKE TO KEEP MY LIPS, THOUGH, SO I WON’T.”

(@ofbirbsandbees) Lucia - “I don’t think I’ve met a person as nice as her. I don’t actually believe that there’s a sweeter person in the galaxy than Lucia--it’s just not possible. She might actually be some kind of alien and doesn’t know it. Kindness like hers just doesn’t exist out here anymore. I’m glad I decided to save her because it is totally worth it to me. Those cookies are to die for. And I’ve never met someone who loves life as much as she does. It makes me appreciate things I never thought I would. Also, she’s always down to fuck and I’m so into that.”