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imperiuswan · 1 day ago
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My super-accurate f1 movie review!
I'm a pessimist f1 fan with free will so come along as I detail all 52 things I disliked about the f1 movie. (SPOILERS)
In the teaser of the movie, the engineer played by Kerry Condon (never caught her name) had an american accent and in the final movie cut she switched to Irish.
Max's championship stars were erased from his helmet. Noted from the trailer. Kind of small detail but as a Max girly i am pissed.
The only female mechanic messes up. Wasn't as bad as seen as a trailer, but I didn't like how they portrayed her as an innocent little girl who went around seeking validation from Sonny and the other drivers. A step back for women in motorsport.
Sonny hooked up with the female engineer. Again, not as bad as it they made it seems from the trailer, but the plot makes it appear like all her good work she made for apex after was motivated by the gain of Sonny, and not as part of her job. Makes it look like she was slacking before, and in other words, mocked her role as chief technical director in the team.
Brad Pitt got to drive a real f1 car in COTA. I made a post about it earlier, but it irks me that a man who has no involvement in motorsport got a chance to test F1 with mclaren rather than a promising F2/F3 driver.
Overtaking in the middle of a straight. If you know, you know.
Brad Pitt and Damson Idris drove real cars. It's cool that the racing scenes were real, but
Brad Pitt and Damson Idris got real grid kids standing with them during filming, which occured during the actual national anthem in Abu Dhabi 2024. I googled the criteria for becoming a grid kid and it involves being nominated by your karting club and also completing a video application. Like imagine you work so hard at karting and craft an impeccable application just to find out you will be a grid kid for Brad Pitt. I pity those two kids.
Joshua Pearce's ridiculous crash where he flipped around looking like a salmon. I think the footage was based off of Alex Peroni's crash in F3 2019. Modern ground effect f1 cars are unable to flip that way as it is specifically designed with long wheelbase and balanced weight distribution, so sudden pitch (nose-up or nose-down movement) is minimised. Therefore, such a flip (especially from such a small bump on the track) will be impossible.
There is no kerb in that corner at monza (the parabolica).
On the topic of the crash, when the car was going full fidget spinner in the air, the front wing just miraculously detached without any impact and goes flying. This clearly violates Newton's first law. UMMM.
Last note on the crash, when Sonny got out to help, he pullet over at the right of the track while Joshua Pearce's car was on the left.
The Brad Pitt fainting scene got cut out: THANK GOD!
When Charles was forced to film the podium scene and spray Brad Pitt with champagne. That was probably the most depressing 10 minutes of his formula 1 career, especially after he went from p19 to p3 in Abu Dhabi and ferrari STILL lost constructors. Poor Charles.
Clear visors in every day race. Inaccurate, I guess they really needed to show the eyes of the drivers. However, all the actual drivers had tinted visors.
Simone Ashley was cut out last minute from the film. I don't know much about it but seeing from social media she was greatly wronged.
I hate how Pearce and Hayes were abbreviated as PRC and HYS respectively on the timing sheet. Gave me a jump scare in the cinema as I though it stood for People's Republic of China and high yield savings. Seriously, why. I can't think of a single cinematic or practical reason to use it in favour over PEA and HAY.
Very unrealistic how Sonny blatantly disobeyed his teams instruction to box during the race when they were literally waiting in position in the pit lane. Really immature of a driver to do that if it happened in real life. Immediate lashing out by media. Probably put on probation after heated private meeting with the team principal. Maybe even fired.
The daytona pit stops at the beginning were way to slow and I thought Sonny's comment to his teammate about not losing his lead was quite threatening and unsportsmanlike.
In the opening scene of Apex gp garage, Joshua Pearce pulls in after testing, and gets out of a car at a lightning quick speed that I have never seen a driver get out at except when the car is on fire. Usually they take their time but thats a small detail they missed.
Additionally, immediately after Joshua Pearce gets out, a german speaking family comes in (idk who they are) and the children immediately climb into the cockpit and sit on the tires. Like after a testing stint the tires will be 100 degrees and the mechanics have yet to finish undergoing the process of cooling the car down to stop the engine. It is no place for a child to fool around in.
When Sonny crashes in the Silverstone test, no medical car is deployed even though the FIA requires supplies a medical car for all testing. Instead an ambulance comes even though it is supposed to arrive after the medical car assesses the situation. Also, why were there two ambulances if there is only one driver involved in the crash.
On Sonny's test lap, it probably wasn't even allowed under FIA regulations. Drivers are not allowed to test the current year's car in season, and even if they get to drive it they require special promotional tyres that aren't suited for fast driving. Yes Apex may have gotten special permission for Sonny, but judging based off the premise where literally no one wanted to join the team, I doubt it happened. It was certainly not permitted for Joshua Pearce to be testing the car, though.
The movie is supposably based on the 2023 season, and begins at the 9th to last race. In the film, it is purported to be Silverstone, however the actual ninth to last race in 2023 was Monza.
Apparently the outdoor scenes for Apex gp factory were filmed at the Mclaren Technology Centre. Apex gp is worth 350 million, and least expensive actual team, Haas, is worth a little over a billion. IF they are such a struggling team, how did they build such as high tech, modern factory, when a historically successful team like Williams operates out of a factory that resembles a decrepit school house?
During the team principals' press conference, everyone gave very short answers. Like Fred Vasseur and Zak Brown gave 1 sentence answers respectively, which barely answered the journalists' questions. Completely out of the loop considering the media training in modern f1, which requires a 4 sentence response at minimum that includes expressing one's opinion in conjunction with a diplomatic rebuttal that ensures their words will not be twisted by the press.
Why is Kerry Condon's character, the engineer, simultaneously the Chief technical director aerodynamicist and head of strategy? Her previous experience was aerospace engineering at Lockheed, so I'm curious where she gained her race strategy experience.
Why are aerodynamicists on the pit wall?
Kerry Condon's character was reduced to a stereotypical pick me who is "not like other girls". Someone who is good at poker, looks down on men, rolls her eyes frequently and yet simultaneously has a soft side that she is too anxious to reveal to just any man (except maybe brad pitt) Just bleh.
The Apex gp interview panel was so weird. Like the rounded marble white backdrop made me feel like this was filmed on the Artemis expedition to the moon. I have never seen an f1 team conduct interviews in that setting, it seems more appropriate for a football club ig.
What was up with the drivers' outfits in that interview? Sonny's clothes looked like it hadn't been washed in weeks and the unbutton shirt was largely inappropriate. Joshua Pearce's outfit was also quite offensive but to a lesser extent. They should be wearing team kit.
They also didn't seem very media trained. Idk exactly what they said but it perturbed me as stuff actual f1 drivers would never dare mention in response to an interview. Like an actual team in 2025 would never let one of its drivers call the other old and deeming them the "team's charity project".
All the tracks were oriented north when they were introduced before the races. A small detail, but perhaps not the best way to introduce viewers to the tracks as it reduced the recognisability of the track if f1 movie fans want to watch an actual f1 race
For both the Abu Dhabi and Silverstone GPs, the timing of the planes after national anthem was off. They are supposed to fly over the track after the national anthem was completed, rather than during the last verse.
After the national anthem in Silverstone the song "we will rock you" song played very loudly over Sonny and Rubens' conversation with the Apex gp investor. Very bad cinematic choice imo.
I find it hard to believe that Sonny Hayes, who was a former F1 driver, participated in private testing for Apex GP, and (so it seems) studied the rules and regulations of modern f1 prior to Silverstone would forget how to start the car.
F1tv is not available in the UK, where Joshua Pearce lives. Therefore, I find it odd that he was watching Sonny's old races off F1tv and not sky sports.
What were the team orders in the first race? They clearly didn't have a defined first or second driver yet, and believed the Sonny had greater potential than Joshua Pearce due to his years of experience of racecraft and motorsport. Therefore, wouldn't it make sense to let Sonny pass?
I haven't seen a driver getting physical with another driver, or slamming their helmet in anger, or destroying their steering wheel in anger in a good 8-10 years, so I enjoyed it when Sonny told Joshua off after their collision. One of the more entertaining parts of the film.
It was degrading how Sonny was mansplaining aerodynamics to Kate the engineer. Like she knows that a car needs to be able to run in dirty air.
Why did they change the tire rim during their pit stop? I may be going blind though.
Why was the pit wall shouting at the mechanics during the pit stop? Can't they communicate through their advanced speaker-headphone system that would allow them not to be overheard by the other teams?
Sonny Hayes was going around crashing into other drivers fabricating safety car periods just for his teammate to get points. He didn't receive any penalty points for cooking up Crashgate 2.0.
On an off note, there was an awful lot of amity inside Apex gp during this movie. Why can't Red Bull be like this.
When it was torrential down poring during the Monza race, neither Sonny nor Joshua Pearce tore off their peel offs when their visor was soaked in rain drops. Like do you want poor visibility??!
If you don't put on rain tires when it is raining, your race will definitely be compromised, and will most certainly run off the track. Apex gp should learn from Lando Norris in sochi 2021.
Sonny Hayes, an f1 driver, should not be making strategy decisons for his teammate DURING THE RACE. If he gives his COMPLETELY UNSOLICITED advice, the role of the team is to ignore it and keep Sonny FOCUSSED ON HIS OWN RACE.
A general motif throughout the film was the Sonny was a good for nothing loser who made a bunch of dumb decisions to end up recluse bum living in a dilapidated van. How was he suddenly offered the position of being race strategist? It is almost certain that he does not have a high school diploma, let alone a degree in mechanical engineering. Even based on his history, I can't see how he can be one that excels at strategising.
The FIA does not allow the substitution of a reserve driver after qualifying. It is evidenced that the FIA wasn't even notified that a change in driver lineup has occurred, as originally the graphic for the Apex reserve drive Luca something showed up as opposed to Sonny Hayes during the start of the race. In the event that it has been allowed by the FIA, it automatically requires a start from the pit lane, which Brad Pitt did not do.
When Sonny crashed during Abu Dhabi, Kate gave major Y/N vibes when she ran off the pit wall and towards the fence out of personal, rather than professional concern. Again, further degrading the status of women in motorsport.
There was a countdown for the remaining time under the red flag, which I had never seen before and does not exist outside of free practice.
What was the significance of the socks amongst Apex gp? Was it to remind them of the camaraderie they built during their runs? I don't get it, someone pls explain.
xoxo,
frida
ps. tell me if i missed anything
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uniiiquehecrt · 11 months ago
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Voice actors are NOT the same as actors.
It takes a specific kind of skill-set and training to be able to warp and meld the voice. It takes a certain kind of talent and dedication to hone that talent into the ability to meld the voice and invoke emotion with one's voice alone. Actors are used to using their voice secondarily to their body language and their facial expressions. It's all mirrored back on camera. They do have nuance. But it's a different kind of nuance and a different kind of training to produce that nuance.
Voice actors might get their likeness transposed on their character's design, and maybe their mannerisms might seep into the character's animation. But when it's all said and done: their presence is in their voice. They are bringing a character to life, showing that emotion in their voice, trying to keep a specific accent, drawl, pitch, tone in that voice and keep it consistent for their recording sessions.
The voice actor is like a classically trained musician who can play first chair in a competitive, world-renown orchestra. The actor (who fills the voice actor's role) is like a moot who played violin in beginner and intermediate high school orchestra and thinks they can get into Juilliard with that 2-4 years of experience.
This doesn't mean that the HS orchestra moot can't play. They can even be really good at it. Maybe they won competitions and sat first chair. But they are not in the same league as the person who's been training their whole lives and lives and breathes to hone their craft using the instrument and all of the training they've ever acquired to perfect it. They are not meant for the same roles. They are not in the same caliber. You do not hire the HS equivalent when you want to play complex music in a competitive orchestra.
Actors are not the same as voice actors.
And furthermore, actors - especially big name actors - taking the roles of animated characters for big budget films or TV pilots makes no sense anyways when - at least in the case of TV pilots - there's not a point to hiring a big budget actors anyways. That money could be used elsewhere (like paying your animators), and the talent that is brought onto the screen for X character could then be hired on to voice said character no recasting required.
I wouldn't say voice acting as a profession is in danger exactly, but it's certainly being disrespected and overlooked for celebrity clout, and this has ALWAYS been an issue. Shoot, even Robin Williams knew that much - which is why he tried so hard not to be used as a marketing chess piece for Aladdin and got royally pissed off when it happened anyways. People shouldn't go to any movie (but especially not animated films) because "oh famous actor is in it". People should go because it's a good movie and the voice acting is good.
People who honest to god think that voice actors are replaceable because "oh well anyone can voice act" or "I like xyz celebrity so naturally it'll be good" ... Honestly I just wish you'd reassess your priorities because you're missing the point and are part of the problem.
Voice Actors ≠ Actors.
#(i am incredibly passionate about this)#(and seeing celebrity voice actors in what should be a voice actor's role completely burns my buns it doesn't matter WHO it is)#(hemsworth as optimus? someone tell me one good reason why they couldn't get a good v/a to replace mr. cullen properly for the future)#(ben shwartz as sonic? dude literally isn't even a good voice actor OR actor anyways-)#(- A N D jason griffith AND my boy roger craig smith are still RIGHT HERE)#(jason griffith IN PARTICULAR would have pulled back SO many sonic fans that went to watch the film anyways. if not /more/.)#(and on top of that he has the same tonality and energy they tried to force this moshmo to try and emulate anyways so GET THE REAL THING)#(chris pratt as mario? i can at least defend /him/ and say that barring his failure to do a NY accent consistently he wasn't terrible)#(but mario's new voice actor could've been used instead and people would've clearly appreciated that WAY more)#(vanessa hudgens as sunny starscout in mlp g5's pilot movie? literally why. they replace her and hitch's va in the show.)#(don't even get me started on the concept of hiring celebrity singers to do musical theatre roles or not letting musical theatre singers-)#(-dub the celebrity voice actors you just HAD to hire for your film bc you're so worried about not getting enough clout to get ppl in seats#(that you're putting it all in this (1) big name hire bc turns out that you have no faith in your writing ability much less-)#(-animation as a medium.)#(and no before anyone says anything : no this is not me saying that ALL celebrity voice castings are bad.)#(there are some that aren't that bad and others that are actually pretty good.)#(i especially appreciate it when actors are damn well aware they aren't voice actors and try to LEARN from voice coaches-)#(-and/or their va predecessors if applicable.)#(that does not change the fact that the celebrity shouldn't have been hired just because the film wanted to have bragging clout-)#(-oh look at this FAMOUS PERSON we were able to hire — yeah ok. sure wendy. i want to know if this film is quality or not.)#(and 9/10 times the SECOND there is money spent on a non voice actor to voice the main character especially)#(that usually means somewhere along the way animation IS going to get shafted. if not w the animators themselves then in the way of-)#(-the actual animation itself and ESPECIALLY the screenwriting because it's especially been so dogshit lately even before the strike.)#(a celebrity being hired to fill a voice actor's role is such an immediate red flag to me and it is VERY rare that i get to be proven wrong
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piyo13sdoodles · 9 months ago
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day 5 on chapter 15 of Hands of the Emperor:
He played until the full moon sailed high above them, his last song one of the endless longing of a poet who had fallen in love with the Moon. [...] "It is nearly the eclipse," his Radiancy said in a quiet voice, and Cliopher realized that he probably knew its coming far more intimately than any of them.
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vaguely-concerned · 25 days ago
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there's a self-help/mental health adjacent post that's going around and it seems to be really helpful for a lot of people which is very good. I also personally hate it with all my fucking heart
#it's the anhedonia one btw lmao#if i. have to be exposed to one more goddamn cbt-ass advice post in my life. I will start tearing throats out with my teeth#and I will have earned the right to because I've been through the fucking TRENCHES over the years man#I think it's the appeal to urgency at the end however ruefully humorously packaged that ohohoho. really grrrrinds my gears.#this is obviously not what the person is trying to do with that but the unavoidable implication that the reason you might still#be suffering is that you just haven't tried hard enough to change to like things to open your eyes... hey. respectfullly. fuck off#peak advice for mild to moderate symptoms of mental illness thoughtlessly presented as universally applicable#without any consideration for the deeper thing you're saying -- that if someone is in a real bad way and DOESN'T get better#it's their own responsibility and they just haven't tried hard enough. in trying to be kind you are being so desperately cruel#to the people who are struggling the most. bitch I am fucking GREAT at liking things! it's one of my best skills!! I'm generally curious!#my capacity for enthusiasm and intellectual joy over any old thing that strikes my fancy is legendary and often I suspect quite annoying!!!#so when anhedonia completely envelops me I know it's a sign of something else and bigger going on in the background#it's not a choice. the brain is not solely a cognitive machine!! you cannot fix everything that can go awry with it by Thinking Better!!!#cbt must be great for the people it's great for and I'm sincerely genuinely glad for it. less suffering in the world is great#but it is a way of thinking that is a hammer and you just have to hope like fuck your problem is a nail. because otherwise#you're bruised from being beaten with hammers and the additional shame of what's wrong with you that it's not helping#and again I recognize very keenly that this is not a space meant entirely for me. people sharing resources that amn are not about me#is not only fine it's good it's great! however. it'd also be nice to not get thrown under the fucking bus for once#because my presence fully expressed is an uncomfortable reminder of the things we *cannot* control about our own brains lmao#I'm lucky that I've been in the game long enough and have enough resources to start to smell the bullshit here but...#the pain 'losing years' induces in you when you don't have *a fucking choice* -- because it's not a matter of willpower#or positive thinking or changing your mindset. you're just sick. in a way medicine hasn't quite figured out how to help yet.#well. maybe. maybe don't put that on someone huh. maybe don't make their 'lost years' to depression and doomscrolling or whatever#'their own fault'. I kind of think that's possible to do without submitting to doomposting. is all.#(I feel the same about the 'resting vs. rotting' idea. well friend sometimes the best I can hope for is some gentle rotting#thanks for introducing this layer of disgust and condemnation to the general despair. it's added a patina)#this might actually be the first time I've managed to hold on to my own anger about this rather than it getting drowned out by shame tho#which as steps forward go. *sigh* it's not a moon landing is it. but a small step for man nevertheless I suppose
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orangedogsquad · 13 days ago
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#y’all don’t have to read this. it’s going to get super rambly#we're in the process of rehoming Sadie. I don’t like talking about it because I feel like a failure#but I don’t want her to disappear from the blog with no explanation#and it sucks. because I get that she will move on to a different house and a new person and she’ll do wonderfully#with the proper attention she deserves and craves#I bounce between ‘this is for the best. she’s not thriving here’ and ‘how am I supposed to give her away’#she was my first cat (that wasn’t a family pet). I thought I’d never be able to get a cat (because of household allergies)#but there she was- a Devon rex! in a rescue no less#i'd lowkey given up on hopes of having a cat. Bek encouraged me to apply for her#and we'd had horrid luck with rescues in the past when applying for dogs pre-Henry so I was pretty pessimistic about it#especially for a breed like a devon. but they approved our application! i was giddy that whole car trip home with her#and she has the absolute sweetest personality which has been so nice for first time cat owner me. so gentle and affectionate and loving#I’ve tried so much to make her happy here but I'm simply not enough. and i need to recognise that i can't give her what she needs#idk there’s no point to this post just rambling#the rescue we’ve been dealing with takes 2 weeks minimum to reply to any message I send so it’s been a very drawn out process#and my emotions about it are all over the place#I guess one ‘good’ thing is that she helped us realise we could manage a cat in the household in regard to allergies#which means I won’t be completely catless. bebe cats are still here. it's just rough it can’t be her too#the rescue said they’re going to put her ad up today which is why I’m feeling it extra hard at the moment#It’s going to be better for both Sadie and me in the long run but in the meantime I will :(( about it#I was really hoping they’d have a foster who could take her#I don’t know how I’m supposed to hold it together if I have to do meet and greets with potential adopters here
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isabelleadjani · 10 months ago
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the face of decay, truly
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ivan-fyodorovich-k · 4 months ago
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Sometimes you'll hear people talk about how God has guided them to wherever they're at through little nudges or providential serendipity or little nudges to do or say this or that
I'm having the opposite experience, wandering into bad career moves, silly errors, inadvertent oversharing, etc., unintentionally self-sabotaging in a futile quest that can lead only to ruin despite my best, even desperate efforts to the contrary
#one pair of footprints in the sand but it's me blindly wandering off alone begging for help completely out of earshot#now the Christianese answer to this is to stop trying so hard#and just put it in God's hands#except that God isn't going to fill out these applications#nor has God led anyone to offer me a job apropos of nothing#or friendship or intimacy or love for that matter#all these things I am on my own to chase down#ironically pushing them further away with every effort#forcing me to conclude that God's plan all along was actually just isolated misery#like that cartoon of the guy begging God for a sign of what he should do and God tells him to be an accountant#except that God is telling me to stay in my hometown#bounce from dead end job to dead end job#be lonely#and submit to my family whose presence I cannot tolerate#for years people have theorized that there are some people who are created with the nature of a slave#I was created to be ground into the dirt#'Ivan what prompted all this today?'#accidentally left a reference to another job application in a cover letter#applying for jobs is a full time job#you need to give every application your full undivided attention so that ChatGPT can filter you out#except I already have a full time job#and a family that I can only describe as ASTONISHINGLY needy#of course there is no other kind#so when and where do I find the time and the ENERGY to devote to each and every job the love and care it demands?#will any of this ever return to me?#after I have poured myself out so there is nothing left#will anyone or anything pour back into me?#will I ever reap anything worthwhile?#is it worth it to be alive
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mintowls · 1 year ago
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everyday at work i hear something that makes me want to strangle rich people even more
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shikai-the-storyteller · 1 month ago
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Me going into that interview powered-up from all the luck and well-wishes from my family and friends like:
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#i talk#job talk#I think it went really well!#Despite my body and brain self-sabotaging me by keeping me up until like... 3:30 am last night#The biggest mark against me is the fact that I don't have tons of experience managing a specific program platform#but I (a bit belatedly) reminded them that I have tons of experience doing website management (including our company's website)#so maybe that helps???#There were 3 interviewers which would've been stressful (even if that seems to be the norm now) but I knew all of them#Like. I don't know them SUPER well but I DO know them. As in we've all met and there's no bad blood or anything#So that helped a LOT#Me on my hands and knees like: Please let this be a nepotism hire I need a better paying job so frickin bad#It's hilarious (but mostly extremely depressing) how the first interview I've gotten in YEARS after hundreds of job applications—#—is only because it's for a job at a company I already work for. What a mess. And I have almost 10 years of experience in my field#Anyways. It was a virtual interview but I still put makeup on so A) They don't see how dead I look#and because B) My eyeliner really makes my expressions more visible#I actually never wore eyeliner until I started teaching online during the peak of the pandemic / lockdown#I made the same discovery that my eyeliner really makes my expressions more visible and I look friendlier#Which I think helped since my students were all Going through It (I mean; we all were; but good god lockdown was bad for the kids)#So now I just kinda always wear eyeliner when I do makeup. I could probably do it thinner but I'm too lazy to re-learn it#Makeup is an expensive art form but I admire anyone who is dedicated to the practice. It's really cool seeing people do it!#Anyhoo back to work#gif warning
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oxymoronicdumbass · 5 months ago
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if one more person tries to talk to me about college, i swear on everything i love, i will explode
#“so what colleges are you thinking of applyi-” SHUT THE FUCK UP#DAMN#like dude#i get so stressed about college and im signed up for way too much shit that im not even interested in because it looks good on college apps#*cough cough* debate.... *cough cough*#like at this point it's like my life isn't even about finding the stuff that i enjoy and the community i want to surround myself with#it's all college college college#everything is about fucking college#and yk maybe if college was a little less “eternal debt unless you get a crazy good scholarship that's only given to 6.0 valedictorians”#and a little more like the AUs then maybe i'd actually want to go to college lmao#but at this rate#it's not even something i want to do#i'm just setting my life up for it because like what the fuck else am i supposed to do??#skilled trade seems nice but i dunno#like ugh#any time i consider a program or anything that demands my time the one thing at the forefront of my mind is#whether it looks good on a resume or college application#and lowkey#i do it so often that i didn't even realize i did it until i was chatting with this one guy at the bus stop and he was talking abt this one#rlly good internship offer#and i said smth along the lines of “i'm sure that looks really good on college applications” for like the third time that conversation#and he responded saying smth along the lines of how#college applications shouldn't be the main reason u choose to put ur time into something#and internally i was just kinda like “oh yeah...”#i have so much to say about this fucking fuckass topic but this is already turning into too much of a vent#my posts#cw vent
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lux-astrorum · 10 months ago
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lying on my bed at 6pm bc it's finally the weekend and the last two weeks have been some bullshit
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lovelyisadora · 11 months ago
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just submitted another job application and now I want to walk into the ocean and never come back
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kayvsworld · 2 years ago
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so we've been emailing and calling everyone we could think of to find out how to get access to the house to pack up and move our things into storage, and the only response we've gotten At All was 1) an email back saying "yeah you need to move your stuff asap. no we won't give you a clear date or info on how to get into the fucking house" and 2) a letter dated TODAY saying that everything from the house has now been moved into a storage facility and they're not responsible for ensuring that everything was moved out of the house and no we can't go check or pick anything else up :)
then the storage guy's like yeah the people who took the house never give any warning, and he has 4 other houses that this is happening to, and that they will personally charge us 800/month for storage and then give the storage guy a tiny cut of it, so he said we should find any other cheaper storage place and he'll help us move our stuff there for free
i am going insane. why is this like this. i am going insane
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arolesbianism · 1 year ago
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So I may or may not have spent a good chunk of my day trying to learn how to look into onis code and while I may not have yet succeeded I will likely keep fucking around with shit tomorrow and if I manage to succeed it'll spell great doom for my sanity as oni becomes the interest I've officially poured the most effort into analyzing
#rat rambles#oni posting#for now I must sleep but hopefully tomorrow Ill figure out how to decompile files#the real question is going to be if Ill be able to do this on my shitty ass laptop or if Ill need to figure smth else out#I just want to be able to view stuff so ideally it won't make my laptop chug too bad but rly Im more worried abt space#I might have to try to do some cleanup and delete some shit maybe Ill go scan through the shit that came pre installed#and hey maybe if I can get this to work I can go mega hacker mode and tweak some stuff for funsies#probably wont since I don't wanna break my game and I dont trust myself but yknow#itd probably help if I actually retained any information from the Two programing classes I took when I was younger but alas#one of them was even specifically a video game programming class and lemme tell you I remember absolutely nothing#also from what little I was able to view without fancy applications I have no new info but I can finally fully put jean in the we 100% know#their last name zone cause while we definitely already 100% did Technically we only got jea- for first name confirmation#but theyre referred to as jean in a note in a bio bot story traits file ty whoever added the notes there#god I hope theres other notes in the files I want to read those so bad#btw this was all spurred by that one nails log that disappeared cause I have found a file that looks like it but I cant fully view it#and I desperately need to view it I need to view it#also if I can look in the code then in theory itll make copying down all the lore logs easier#also the datamining thread of the forums hasnt been particularly active so who knows maybe I can become a proper dataminer#(<- will not do that probably unless it turns out to be easier than I thought)#but admittedly I am interested in hunting for potential future update content even if I probably won't hunt too hard for it#again Im mostly just hunting for lore#hey maybe if Im lucky Ill find some genuinely new and usable information in that department#maybe the secrets of b363 and dr. holland lie in the files ooooo (they probably dont)#man it'd be nice if I had a proper pc itd make my life so much easier and my desk feel less enpty lol#in a world where I get to play videogames at a higher framerate than 10fps#I mean we do have some older computers laying around the house although theyre probably also crusty pieces of shit#idk maybe I can see if I can salvage one itd be nice to have a proper computer to fuck about with#Im sure my mom wouldn't mind as long as its one that hasnt been touched in years#which tbf I dont know how many options thatd leave me but we at least have one computer that could theoretically be usable#albiet its definitely packed with viruses from me and my siblings being dumb kids
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neatrogenous · 2 years ago
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i have been going through things to an exceptionally impressive degree on like three separate fronts over the last week. and i finally got done losing my mind about it today and instead turned all my despair into committing several malicious acts. none of which i regret bc the people who will and are suffering as a consequence of my actions all fucking deserve it.
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aetherograph · 3 months ago
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#it's also hard because you have to figure out whether they actually like you or not. Because they're not supposed to say if they don't#and you know you like them but you don't know if they like you and you also don't know if they know you like them. #Because you obviously wouldn't be allowed to say if you didn't. and the things you're supposed to do to prove you do are really hard #but maybe they don't know how hard the things are for you and so maybe they think you just don't care #but also maybe THEY just don't care because maybe the things AREN'T hard for them in the same way?? #So by the measure of the thing you would use to decide whether someone really likes you: you don't really like anyone #but that's not true!!!
See this is why I don't play fucking social games (I'm autistic and ace also). If I like someone and enjoyed talking to them, I tell them before we part ways and give them my card, and tell them I would love to talk further with them. I constantly check in while we're hanging out and ask if it's okay to continue hanging out. And then when I part ways, I never expect anything at all, and simply enjoy the brief moment we had together. If they contact me to talk again, that's wonderful; but I'm never getting attached to anyone before that. It's safer that way. I live in the moment now. Everyone leaves, so you just treat every interaction like the last one and appreciate just that present moment for what it is. It's their turn to tell ME how they feel. I'm done making that move. It's the world's turn to be brave and approach ME.
assuming that people like you and want to spend time with you is crucial to making friends. unfortunately this is the hardest thing to do in the world
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