#aughhhhhhhhhhh and i will have to write more. meow

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clean, pure tortured

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MEMORY LOG: KT-10-01

SUBJECT ID: 382947

READ?

>YES   NO

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trigger warnings for mentions and depictions of blood, child death, s**cide aftermath, pills

in the back of your mind, there is a girl. 

she’s a slight thing, pale and thin. a wisp of smoke in a bright meadow. 

she lives in your memory, dancing out of reach, standing alone, eyes sparkling as she spoke about different creatures. 

you didn’t know her. you weren’t… quite you yet, really. quieter, less sure. you used to see her around, watching from further away. you couldn’t help but think she was beautiful. 

in your mind, you would imagine her in the stories you read. maybe she was a princess of the clouds, with her pale skin and delicate frame. maybe an ice spirit, coldly shining in the garden lights. or, your favourite, maybe she was a shooting star herself, come down from the heavens with her own glow. 

you… haven’t thought about her in a while. not since… not since…

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MEMORY RECALL PROTOCOL ACTIVATED

FILE: KT-04-09

SUBJECT: 382947 

RELATION TAG: 328863-A

PLAY?

> YES     NO

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it’s quiet in the corridor.

it always is, but for some reason it’s different, right now. 

no sounds of people moving around in the different rooms, no teachers or staff rousing little humans from rest or ushering them through the halls. it’s still. 

it doesn’t matter. you’ve never liked being alone with the quiet, either way.

footsteps echo on the tiled floor. you read a story once where the hero would slip her shoes off and stand on her toes to keep her steps silent, in order to not be noticed. 

you see no need to do that. you’re just looking for your friend, that’s all! 

well, your friend’s friend. you noticed that katarina (“call me katy, like katydid”) wasn’t there at meal… she’s probably really hungry, if she didn’t show up! 

“Kat- Katy? Are you here? You missed meal…”

nothing. 

all of the doors are closed either way… if she’s here, maybe she couldn’t hear you?

oh! there’s a light, peeking from one of the doors! it’s a little bit open, could it be…?

“Katy? Katy, are you there-?”

It’s red. Red on white, red on silver, red on the medicine in her hand-

“Katy? Katy? What happened? Are you sick???”

closer, get closer, she’s 

not

breathing

“Can- can you hear me? Katy???”

she’s not responding. she’s

she’s not moving

she’s not

“I- stay, stay here, I’ll go get someone!”

you run to leave and still

she’s

not

moving

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PLAYBACK COMPLETE

EXITING RECALL PROTOCOL…

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…

in the back of your mind, there is a dead girl. 

you didn’t even realize.

idiot. 

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[ALERT]: SUBJECT CONSCIOUSNESS RETURNING…

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hooooooo boy that was a doozy

shoutout to sash ( @mobblespsycho100 ) for writing pacting with me and motivating me to finish this on my trip to and from work!!!! love you sash

taglist for this one uwahh @alien-til-i-stage @messengers-of-the-gods @verdantlights @lookatmysillies @friedclownshrimp @chevalperd @nottoonedin @ivanttakethis @rotibakasstuff @apriciticreveries

and last but the opposite of least @imperfectnothing for. well. extensive depiction of katy <3 love u rock

ouhhhh it’s tagging time ain’t it. ughhhh