#back to our usual programming

[applestorms]

I’d talk to you, really talk to you, if I didn’t flop around like a dead fish trying to catch my tongue. Fuck sounds far too abrasive, Murder is caustic enough to be out the question. I suppose burgeoning, visceral fondness would align closer to Marry. my siblings and I have this bit going on where I yell “APPLE JUST FUCKING POSTED!!!” and it’s not that I’m useless the rest of the day, not any more lethargic than I usually am, but your pace and candor is like a block of concrete in the hale of my thoughts.

what I mean to say is, I’ve been on this delusional streak idolizing Death Note blogs I do follow and thinking of them as an inviolable concept to revere. I desperately need to sober up, but you’re an exception. Somehow, I can acknowledge that you’re beyond just awfully fucking witty and fun. It’s so much more charming that way, thinking of you as more than an account on Tumblr; someone behind the name.

ugh ugh ugh ok that’s all. I would marry you. Not worship you, not envy you overtly, not have bitter intercourse all of that’s reserved for lawlight >:3

but but,, what I would do, however, is slurp on a vein like a noodle, choke on it, and then get uncomfortable enough to talk to you. one day. wish me luck! [insert comical boom sound effects in rapid succession]

oh, nonnie... i assume this is in response to the fuck/marry/kill poll?

first off, i'm very touched that my writing and posts have connected with you so much!! i have a lot of fun writing stuff around here, and it means a lot that we can all bond over this story. this has been by far one of the better fandom experiences i've had on tumblr, and i'm very grateful for everyone around here that has made this such a pleasant part of the internet to hang around =3=

that being said, please don't think of me as an exception. i am not somebody to be idolized-- not because i'm exceptionally terrible or evil or anything like that, but because i can't be anything other than another human, and for that reason, can never live up to any heightened ideals you may set upon me. if there are ways in which you resonate with the feelings and experiences i put into my writing, i'm glad! perhaps we have enough similarities there that my stuff happens to stand out as particularly meaningful to you. but this does not make me somehow worthy of any special reverence, and, whether you establish them consciously or not, i will not be able to live up to every one of your expectations.

speaking from personal experience-- it can be very easy, when you're very isolated, to hold tightly to and cherish the few connections that you do manage to make. and there can be a hefty amount of fear associated with holding on to these connections, and ensuring that they stay as meaningful as you want them to. again, just speaking to my own life here since i know nothing about where you're coming from, but when it feels like everything around you is falling apart and your life is shit and you are terrible and nothing you do is ever going to be good enough, it is incredibly easy to look at the one place where you feel as though you've found something Good and decide, "This is it. This is going to be the Thing that fixes me. Nothing is ever going to be this meaningful to me ever again. I've found The Solution, and if I lose it, I'm done for."

very rarely is that feeling ever true. no single thing is ever going to fix you-- because an entire life and person is not something that can be fixed, only slowly but surely improved and cared for through agonizingly tiny steps that hardly ever feel like anything in the moment but mean Everything in the long run. i often ask that people speak kinder about themselves, not because i am somehow omniscient and capable of seeing every facet of their life and person to judge whether or not they are Worthy of the care, but because it is only through extending that care regardless of some presumed "worth" that we can make our lives better in the first place.

i suppose this is all to say that i would like to talk to you more too, anon. i quite like the verbosity of your writing style, how it forces me to slow down and consider each individual thing you say, the visceral nature of your metaphors and imagery. i'm also quite awkward, and anxious, and somewhat socially inept. i do not have a vast myriad of connections, and thus like to put special care in the ones i do manage to make, online and in real life.

but i'm afraid i can't do that if you approach me from the start by seeing me as something more than i am. i'm willing to tolerate quite a bit of awkwardness in social conversations-- somewhat of a necessity, i find, for talking to equally socially anxious people online. but please don't forget that, just as you say, i am a person behind the name and the screen over here, just as flawed and capable of mistakes and missteps as anyone else.

i appreciate your willingness to face the discomfort to try and talk to me, even if it's just through an anon this time. believe me, i know how difficult even that can be sometimes. and i do like hearing from you. please don't be embarrassed by my little speech here, it is far from my intention to shame you, but i just wanted this to be said.

let's all keep enjoying the lawlight antics together, yes? c: hopefully without making anybody any more or less special or untouchable than they actually are, for their sake and our own.

[ventique18]

To be allowed to love

You don’t need to thank someone because you’re hard to love.

They love you because it’s hard not to.

[wolfchans]

<3

[lycoristyx]

It's April 1st here which means I am legally required to be silly now, so take a Duck Shuffler (until I come back to normal again tomorrow)

[cashmerecrow]

Day 27: Goose

"𝔓𝔢𝔞𝔠𝔢 𝔴𝔞𝔰 𝔫𝔢𝔳𝔢𝔯 𝔞𝔫 𝔬𝔭𝔱𝔦𝔬𝔫"

[idontevenremember5minutesago]

I don’t get involved in fandom drama anymore. I’m here to have fun and scream about how much I love things with my fellow lunatics.

But I’m seeing some rumbling from….. that portion of the Helluva Boss fandom about the creepy fan guy (Arick?) and how they are especially mad at Viv for her using him to represent critical fans and haters.

And I just thought I’d point out that his character and design has been used in cartoons since the fucking 90’s. It’s practically tradition to depict crazy, overly critical and obsessive fans like that.

It’s not new, you’re not special. It’s not an elaborate insult that was made specifically for Helluva Boss haters or critics. It’s literally the status quo.

Calm down.

That is all.

( Also, this is not an invitation for anyone to come here and argue about how Viv blew up your house or how Helluva Boss’s writing is contributing to inflation or whatever. I don’t do that back and forth shit. I will block you with the swiftness if you do not spark joy.)

[lavenoon]

"I trust you."

@naffeclipse hope we all enjoyed the funnies because (:

*self insert is not a girl (he/ she)

og detective au by sunnys-aesthetic!

[blackwaves]

light is burning / as i am burning

relationships: vein/xia fei, vein & xia fei; characters: vein, xia fei; canon-compliant relationship study; 1k words

A phonecall that shouldn’t logically be placed, and Xia Fei’s voice on a panicked, laoban, help. It’s a surprise the first time it works and Vein appears behind him, too-quick, apparition summoned. It’s a reassurance, later, when it’s something solid to rest again. Even later, Xia Fei reaches for his phone, unlocks it hastily and touches the icon for the right contact. It ricochets through his whole body when the realization lands that there's no one to pick up on the other end of the line.

read on ao3.

[abirddogmoment]

Something unique to Rory out of all my dogs so far is how she needs dedicated focused attention during the day. At least once a day I have to put aside what I'm doing and give her my full attention in the form of full body pets, snuggles, or smooches. I call this Rory Appreciation Time and it is extremely cute.

[banannabethchase]

For the prompts fae dating fluffy please.

Fake or Date?

~

There was no ship attached so I created one based on something that has been tickling the back of my brain for a while now. Set in a universe I've been thinking about where the Time Quangle was manipulated by a group of billionaires, but one extra was created so all the Intrepid Heroes get sent into New York to defeat the billionaires.

~

“This is the worst idea you’ve ever had.”

“It is not!” Fig hisses, yanking at Adaine’s arm. “See? People are already paying attention to us more than anything else in here. Riz will be able to get in and out of that family’s restaurant in minutes.”

“I am unsure anyone is going to be that interested on the two of us going on a – a – a presumed date in that douchebag’s restaurant,” Adaine says. She wants to reach out and grab Fig’s hand, but she’s not sure if she’s allowed to. Even if this is al supposed to look real.

“The douchebag's parents’ restaurant,” Fig corrects. She boops Adaine on the nose and, frankly, it’s a little startling. Adaine’s not used to be prodded like this, in a romantic kind of way. She’s not sure how she feels about it, which is strange all by itself. Usually she hates it. “Come on. Hold my hand.”

Adaine feels herself turn a bit pink, all the way to the tips of her ears, and it’s hard to walk into the restaurant even though people are talking. Maybe that’s actually why it’s hard. “Or,” Fig says slowly. She slides her arm around Adaine’s waist and leans in, lips at Adaine’s ear. “Ayda likes it when I hold her close when it’s busy like this.”

“Should we really be discussing your girlfriend while we’re undercover as going on a date?” Adaine whispers. Fig’s hand is incredibly warm. It’s cozy.

“Ayda would love to have you on board, if you were up for it,” Fig says, and it’s so casual Adaine almost misses what she’s really saying. She’s stunned enough that she allows Fig to guide her to the little table, right in the middle of the restaurant, and enough eyes are on the two of them and hostess as they sit that no one even notices Riz duck into the kitchen. “But anyway,” Fig says loudly, “I’m so glad you agreed to come out with me. One date, and you’ll see.” Fig winks.

And Adaine, who rarely has this reaction, feels something uncommon but not fully unknown, flutter in her stomach.

[voidbeau]

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ indulging the inner middle schooler in me. that Bou would have been so fuckin hyped to see where our art went from there since then lmaooo.

for the record, im blaming her existence on you @zeroofshadow

[lady-harrowhark]

when your parents make a big deal out of visiting for the weekend for your birthday and you know it's not actually going to happen and then still get disappointed when it doesn't happen :/

[hikayunas]

my last few posts have gained this blog quite a bit of new attention and new followers. while i appreciate it, i would like to make one thing clear; if you regularly engage in discourse about "unhealthy" or "illegal" ships, this is not the blog for you. fiction is fiction and i advise that you find a new hobby.

[margridarnauds]

Alright, now for the ranty all-caps take on selkies and what they've evolved into on here, for the sake of my temper:

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN, WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK? THESE STORIES WERE A WAY TO TALK ABOUT THE DANGERS OF MARRYING OUTSIDE YOUR IMMEDIATE LOCAL AREA, A WAY OF TALKING ABOUT ABUSE AND LONELINESS AND UNHAPPY MARRIAGES AND WHERE THE CHILDREN FALL IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS AND YOU ARE TURNING THEM INTO SOME UWU WHOLESOME THING? NO. THE FISHERMEN IN THE STORIES *STEAL* THEIR COATS BECAUSE THEY ARE ENTITLED INCELS. WHILE THE FUNCTION OF THE SELKIE STORIES COULD VARY FROM TELLER TO TELLER, THEY ARE PRETTY MUCH ALWAYS USED TO DISCUSS UNHAPPY MARRIAGES BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT THEY WERE FOR. DISCUSSING UNHAPPY MARRIAGES IN A SOCIETY WHERE DIVORCE AND SEPARATION WERE IMPOSSIBLE. FUCK OFFFFFFF. STOP REMOVING THEM FROM THEIR CONTEXT OF RURAL IRELAND/SCOTLAND.

[lesbiansanemi]

It’s kinda funny in a low key depressing way how I’ll have days where I legitimately feel fine and normal and on those days I will get comments from coworkers that are very much meant to be nice and compliments but they basically boil down to “aw you look so happy today! Normally you look like you want to kill yourself” like my coworker basically said that verbatim but then seemingly caught himself and hesitated before saying instead “you often look like you have the weight of the world on your shoulders” like lmao I get the sentiment and maybe some ppl would be offended but honestly I think it’s amusing

[broken-clover]

I loveeeeee caring about things that don't matter what the fuck do you mean there was an extended version of the opening to the janky veggietales spinoff flash cartoon that literally only got four episodes made in 2002 that was considered unfound lost media for 15+ goddamn years until someone found the downloaded audio file from before the show even released and what do you mean I was absurdly hyped learning every single one of those facts