#bc while she doesn't acknowledge it there are nice things about being part of a group and she doesn't hate everyone nearly as much

[krispypajamalady]

How similar are dragons to their riders?

very, very similar.

Let's start with Ridoc and Aotrom: it's kind of self explanatory. These two are of the same age, play pranks on each other, and Aotrom might just be protective of his loved ones like Ridoc.

Mira and Teine: The protectiveness Mira has for Violet, Teine has for her. Both of them have dry humour and an awesome streak. Mira doesn't have coordinating with other riders or fliers, and neither does Teine with other dragons.

Sawyer and Sliseage: These two are really adorable. Like, insanely adorable. Also, they're comparatively sane.

Imogen and Glane: These two have a ruthless streak but a soft side and a crush (which is of their respective species ofc)

Lilith and Aimsir: based on assumptions, these two only appear when needed. Both of them have a no crap attitude and have seen a lot of things in life. Honestly, their literally the same person in different fonts. (How I wish Aotrom does not turn out to be Aimsir's child or else I'll cry)

Bodhi and Cuir: both of them have a calm nature and give no trouble. Really nice person and dragon (fuck u daddy aetos).

Cath and Dain: don't tell me Cath wasn't disowned as well. Also, these two give "self- loathing" energy so bad

Rhiannon and Feirge: if Rhi and Feirge don't turn out be royals or smt I'll cry. These two have the commanding vibe, like they can command a crowd really well. They also have their priorities straight and aren't hot headed while making decisions.

Garrick and Chradh: no way in hell these two don't exchange dragon-human gossip Ober a cup of tea (or coffee) every day and Chradh does not torment him about his (hopefully they exist) feelings for imogen.

Xaden and Sgaeyl: there is no other dragon that will resemble Xaden more than Sgaeyl. Appreciation of asshole-ry towards them bcs it's attractive and badass? Being dramatic as fuck when my mate's bonded (or wife's) said something rude to me? Head over heels for their love? Mutual support towards Andarna? "I find it hot when my love kills" vibes? PLEASE. The graduated from the same school of Brooding and Lies. They were raised together in the Institute of I NEED Therapy but Omg My Love is so Attractive.

Also, don't tell me sgaeyl was never even once in her life in denial abt her feelings about Tairn.

Violet and Tairn: Tairn's image among people and Violet's image among people is LITERALLY THE SAME. Tairn agrees that he isn't the strongest but everyone else? Who tf is Codagh? Violet thinks she isn't the strongest but everyone else? "I'd rather lick my dragon's shit than piss her off." BOTH of them are protective towards others but they don't intervene when their loved ones are being confrontational. They let them handle it. Also, they don't like lies at all. Especially if it's Sgaeyl or Xaden lying.

Violet and Andarna: they are LITERALLY the same person. Not even different font. Just different species. Both of them being different? Holy hell. Both of them finding it hard to belong somewhere where their parents left them (andarna in vale and vi in quadrant)? Both of them being babied by Tairn even if he refuses to acknowledge it? Both of them having a violent nature? Being extremely vicious? Like Andarna doesn't know about her not being able to bear a rider, Violet did not know about her sacrifice. But their parents (tairn and sgaeyl in Andarn's case) did. Violet being reminded of her as a teen after seeing how andarna acts? Them losing a part of their autonomy when someone made decisions for them? Also, them MUTUALLY COMMITING TREASON?????

[yesimwriting]

Do you think whether Louis shares this past family at all?

I imagine it’d hard to talk about Claudia being that he doesn’t really acknowledge vampirism, and it plays such a huge part with her whole stunned body, the broken laws, and the coven. Not to mention Claudia took pride in being vampire and was phenomenal at it.

Also, I think about the conflict with his late human family. Paul’s death was crazy af, and the blame he got for it. The whole Graces’s baby thing. Him watching his family mourning his death.

I know he had to tell Daniel in order for the book to happen, but how much could he possibly tell the reader?

OMG what if she could create a painting with Louis and late (actually dead, not undead) his loved ones, that he either didn’t have a lot of photos of or they were lost in time.

Ohhhh this is such a good question/ask 😭 I've been thinking through their dynamic in relation to this for such a long time.

The painting idea are you kidding me 😭. That's such a great idea and something she'd definitely do/try to piece together based on any remaining photos and Louis's description.

Okay so, onto what Louis has told her. Louis has definitely told her about everyone/everything at least once. He trusts bestie reader sm and he wants her to know that, and also they're together so much it'd be kind of hard for certain things to never come up.

However, Louis isn't consistent with the level of details he provides. Bestie reader knows more about Lestat and Louis's fights and the complexities of their relationship more than anyone else. He's told her things about Lestat he's never even mentioned to Armand. Some of this is intentional, but sometimes it's just bc they're both drunk (or on other substances) and he's thinking about it and she's serving as an outlet.

Also, because I'm a firm believer that no matter how separated Louis is from Lestat, he still loves him, he talks about Lestat a lot bc it's the closest he can get to reader meeting Lestat. In some ways, reader knowing Lestat is this fantasy Louis has that he's incapable of acknowledging, but I digress.

Anyways, back to Louis's inconsistency in detail. Some of what he leaves out is because of his memory and limited perspective (kind of like what we see in the show), and other things are left on purpose. He's so afraid of reader seeing him how he sees himself, so he'd never directly address how he failed Claudia. For example, he'd tell reader about how Claudia came to be and the age that she was turned and how hard it was for her, but he'd never talk about all the ways that he made her existence harder.

Claudia is also a difficult topic for him to discuss with reader because while he doesn't see reader as Claudia, he sometimes sees a little bit of Claudia in her. Sometimes when they're really happy, Louis remembers the early years when things still seemed like they could work out. When reader wants to do things that make him nervous, he sees the ways in which he could have tried harder to keep Claudia safe. When the reader is happy and in her element (like at an art gallery), he sees what Claudia might have been.

He censors himself the most when talking about Armand. Partially because of how controlling Armand is, but also because of reader and Armand's dynamic. Armand's behavior around bestie reader is visibly different, he's more restrained, almost gentle. If Louis were to tell reader about some of the things Armand has done, she'd start seeing Armand as a monster, and Armand wouldn't feel the need to play nice anymore bc her mental image of him is already ruined.

Louis is not risking reader's safety and peace to tell her about things like Armand's torture era in the 70's.

Also, Louis isn't planning on leaving Armand so it's kind of like when the person your dating has seriously wronged you but you can't tell your friends bc then they'd hate them too much. AND reader would probably try to slap Armand or something if she knew everything, and Louis doesn't think Armand's patience with her will extend that far.

I think Louis is very back and forth on mentioning his family to bestie reader. Stories about them are, by far, the least dangerous, but they also make him think about things in certain ways. Sometimes it's weirdly healing to be able to tell her about the way that his family viewed him and other times it's nauseating.

I think he'd talk about Paul's absence the most, but he wouldn't delve into the details of what happened if that makes sense. Like he talks about his feelings over Paul's death, but he divides his emotions from the chain of events that caused them. Tbh that's how he handles most discussions of grief.

Okay, some new bestie reader lore that you have no way of knowing about because I haven't written it into existence yet that's super relevant to this question, but part of the reason that reader lets Louis get away with being relatively 'cagey' about certain aspects of his grief is bc she's doing the same thing.

Not to drop crazy lore here, but in my head, bestie reader lost someone important to her a little before she met Louis. In some ways, she feels similarly to what Louis feels, in the sense that sometimes she's scared that she's replacing the person she lost with Louis. However, her grief is much more plain sadness than actual guilt, and so she assumes that Louis doesn't want to talk about certain things because it's hard and not bc of vampire self hatred/guilt.

Louis also knows that there's someone reader isn't talking about enough because he pays attention to how she acts, but also because he can see into her thoughts. I do think he works hard at actively giving her mental privacy, but at times he gets really worried or her thoughts are particularly loud bc she's distracted or overwhelmed and he hears things.

So basically, to an extent, they're living in a mutual denial. I have an idea for a drabble/fic where this is forced to end and they talk about a lot of things, and if you'd be interested in that pls lmk!

Also, slightly off topic, but a big part of the reason he keeps anything from reader is rooted in a subconscious self hatred. Bestie reader is going to get Louis to love himself or die trying, and I'm so serious. As the story progresses, bestie reader is going to lock in and get Louis to feel less guilty about what he is.

He's actually so delusional, so convinced that any blunt conversation about vampirism could be the thing that pushes reader away. In reality, reader does not gaf about him being a vampire. She is generally curious about vampires, but she thinks everything about Louis is so much more interesting.

That's her Louis, and if she walked in on him actively draining seven people at once she'd just be like 'sometimes I need a late night snack too'. She'd actually become a vampire activist if it meant Louis would feel better about himself.

[sylusbelovedart]

Analysing the two dove flying at the end of Valleydream Bloom's Kindle

Oooh Infold I saw those two bird flying at the end of their kiss. And it wasn’t one crow and one dove but two doves 🫠

So y’all know me, brainrot down below

The symbolism of dove is so so fitting of SylusMc as well for their characters and their love story.

I love how in the beginning of this article, the author describes doves as "Gentle bird". Which is so fitting of Sylus bc that’s just how he is with MC and his love for her. Rooted in infinite gentleness that is shown through his words :

And his action, like brainding her hair in grassland romance, making sure she stays safe everytime she goes on a mission, the way he kisses her in this card, and how he is always gentle in how he handles her.

And I wanted to talk about it when I will do my serpent analysis but fuck it "If a man is as wise as a serpent he can afford to be as harmless as a dove" + In the Bible it even says "be wise as a serpent, but as innocent as a dove" (Matthew 10:16) 

Sylus is wise. He makes sure to plan ahead, watch his back, have the upper hand in his deals. He speak several langages to not let extra people in his business. He is calculated and tactical. He is cruel and kills people who tries to fool him, kill him and harm innocent people. BUT he is harmless with the ones that don’t do any wrong or that are normal citizens. He even protects them like he did with Elysium and in his anecdote (I will do a protector thread and brainrot one day, promise).

And our Sylus ? Harmless against us and innocent and pure in his love. No malicious intent, just blatant admiration and adoration for his lover.

"Renewal, transformation" -> reprensentative of Sylus, and makes a good contrast with his myth. In the myth, we see MC struggling with her acceptance of being different. She was treated poorly and persecuted for not bending to the Sanctuary's mindless laws and rules. In the myth, MC is the one transforming. She was helped by Sylus to embrace that part of herself and he even helped her take revenge on the one who wronged her.

In this timeline, Sylus is the one transforming while MC helps him embrace the beautiful and peaceful part of life. She makes place for him in a world where not everything lives in the shadow and violence. As she was once becoming a dragon bc of him, he is now become a dove bc of her.

"Compassion and kindness to others during difficult transition" We often talk about Sylus patience, but I do think that MC is too. She’s patient in the sense that, she takes time to show him the parts of her world where the sun shines and people are nice.

"Not all is lost" + "right path and inner wisdom" Sylus finally acknowledging that what was once can't be recalled nor seeked endlessly, especially since MC doesn't remember anything. Sylus understands that she is here now and this shouldn't be waisted.

⬆️ I don’t think that’s was the original meaning, but to me, this just supports how much the "Sylus finally is no longer waiting for her to remember" is accurate. He is ready to live this life with her to the fullest and show her all the things he couldn't when they first met.

"Symbol of lasting love" + "good luck in the love and relationships department" + "eternal bonds" + "connection with the Divine"

Through the story, SylusMC are shown to be cursed and ill-fated together. And I find that heartwarming that in Magnus Opus, Sylus wanted to go to the temple to have their relationship blessed (a man that doesn’t side with the gods mind you) when it fact, it is shown time and time again that they are blessed in this relationship. And through that symbolism, their love is "described" as lasting, pure and peaceful where no matter how hurt both of them are, they embrace and let the other be their most "chaotic, unique and beautiful" self. They love one another in this sweet, pure and innocent way that no hardship, the "tainted" soul or hatred could tame. This love goes beyond bonds, fate, time and space. Like Sylus said in his letter, he doesn’t need to know why he loves you, he just knows he does bc it’s you. 

To me they are far more blessed and meant to be that they think they are. But I think, that makes their love story even more beautiful, bc they choose to love e/o, seek out one another and grow together despite everything. Their love is so harmonious that even flowers blooms to their resonnance, animals represents them, nature embraces them and gods smile upon them.

And maybe the afterlife theory going around wasn’t that bad. They died once so you could say, that this is some kind of their afterlife ? An afterlife where their soul were guided to meet again and be reunited. An afterlife where they can fully embrace and live their story. I wanted so much to find another way to turn this afterlife theory more beautifully and not tragically, so I am happy I found this.

To me, this afterlife thing was more like; they once died but their soul finally found each other again. And I would like to think that those dove could have also been a representation of their future selves that once parted in this field. Not their soul obviously but more like their essence ? 

Dragon!Sylus and Sorceress!MC finally flying away and free bc they got reunated and found each other in Leader!Sylus and Hunter!MC. They both died there separatly but finally were able to hold and kiss each other just like they dreamed about. And this kinda stroked me when Sylus said "We’re not dreaming" bc this time they hold one another, in a blooming flower field, for real. 

And I want to do a dive in so much about how birds shows Sylus growth and changes through the story but I guess I already started a little bit. 

I finished this thread with tears in my eyes and a heart way too big for me. I love SylusMc. I love them so so much and how they’re written and how pure and liberating their love is. This representation of love heals me like I never thought was possible. Bless SylusMc and may the main story be good to them because they deserve it. Gosh they deserve everything.

[pleasantspark]

ZooPhobia Unhinged Rantview

I finished reading ZooPhobia and I have to say, its a two pack of ASS, the fact it was cancelled (I refused to call it Hiatus bc face it, any Hiatus Comic is cancelled, see Mega Man Archie.)

Where do I even FUCKING begin?

The Pacing

My FUCK, its so fucking horrible, the plot bounces from shit to shit, and EVEN when it gets back to Cameron its OFFSCREEN DEVVVVEEEELLLLOPPPMENTTTTT!

Then the asspulls, HOLY FUCK Zill and Kayla had an argument that was ass af and it ended with a Dues Ex Machina and they agreed it was CLICHE! (nice try Viv, that was CORNY AF.)

Also, Damien had a crush or some shit.

The Characters

A step up from Hazbin (Or Stepdown) but still not developed on the part of being Shelved. While the cast is as eccentric as ever, and had some personality the one PERSON we needed info about (who is the main character BTB) has YET to give a reason to WHY she developed Zoophobia (We never will.)

In fact, we got infodumps about Jack, Zill and Damien before we got GTA6 (ahahaha kill me please.) The worst part is, most of the characters lack the screentime, and the most screentime someone got was Addison-The-Dainty-Angel-Dust-Prototype (Seriously!? What is VIV AND HER OBSESSION WITH LITTLE BOYS AND SUB/MALES IN DISTRESS?!)

The worst part is not that its also…

Shipping

Adustvo is ONE of the rushed ships, the HuskerDust of Zoophobia if you will. And the fact this ship even is considered good? No, in fact the last few pages were dedicated to a relationship thats illegal in some sates and the fact the copout of "Oh it's not a date uwu xdxd" pisses me off, Viv really doesn't understand pacing, and STILL DOESN'T.

Final Thoughts

Point the shotgun in my mouth and paint the walls red with my blood, so some housecleaner can clean it, this story lacked ANYTHING to do with this, and the FACT this woman refuses to acknowledge the VERY thing that SHE lifted off of for Hazbin is jarring, probably because of all the Addison Smut Art she created.

This story is dead, gone, and everyone's free to do whatever the fuck morally with the characters, Viv literally cares about her gay demon characters and I am currently in the process of redoing Zoophobia, because godamn it, it reeks of missed potential.

Final Score

3/10 (Because I find Gustav hot af)

(Stay tuned for my review in video format.)

[doodler16]

Gonna resend my ZooPhobia Review (A Bigger In Length one is created for a Video later on. This is also posted on my Tumblr.)

I finished reading ZooPhobia and I have to say, its a two pack of ASS, the fact it was cancelled (I refused to call it Hiatus bc face it, any Hiatus Comic is cancelled, see Mega Man Archie.)

Where do I even FUCKING begin?

The Pacing

My FUCK, its so fucking horrible, the plot bounces from shit to shit, and EVEN when it gets back to Cameron its OFFSCREEN DEVVVVEEEELLLLOPPPMENTTTTT!

Then the asspulls, HOLY FUCK Zill and Kayla had an argument that was ass af and it ended with a Dues Ex Machina and they agreed it was CLICHE! (nice try Viv, that was CORNY AF.)

Also, Damien had a crush or some shit.

The Characters

A step up from Hazbin (Or Stepdown) but still not developed on the part of being Shelved. While the cast is as eccentric as ever, and had some personality the one PERSON we needed info about (who is the main character BTB) has YET to give a reason to WHY she developed Zoophobia (We never will.)

In fact, we got infodumps about Jack, Zill and Damien before we got GTA6 (ahahaha kill me please.) The worst part is, most of the characters lack the screentime, and the most screentime someone got was Addison-The-Dainty-Angel-Dust-Prototype (Seriously!? What is VIV AND HER OBSESSION WITH LITTLE BOYS AND SUB/MALES IN DISTRESS?!)

The worst part is not that its also…

Shipping

Adustvo is ONE of the rushed ships, the HuskerDust of Zoophobia if you will. And the fact this ship even is considered good? No, in fact the last few pages were dedicated to a relationship thats illegal in some sates and the fact the copout of "Oh it's not a date uwu xdxd" pisses me off, Viv really doesn't understand pacing, and STILL DOESN'T.

Final Thoughts

Point the shotgun in my mouth and paint the walls red with my blood, so some housecleaner can clean it, this story lacked ANYTHING to do with this, and the FACT this woman refuses to acknowledge the VERY thing that SHE lifted off of for Hazbin is jarring, probably because of all the Addison Smut Art she created.

This story is dead, gone, and everyone's free to do whatever the fuck morally with the characters, Viv literally cares about her gay demon characters and I am currently in the process of redoing Zoophobia, because godamn it, it reeks of missed potential.

Final Score

3/10 (Because I find Gustav hot af)

(Stay tuned for my review in video format.)

Vivziepop’s writing hasn’t really changed at all. I read a bit of Zoophobia but that villian with white hair, and hypothesizing eyes, and golden apple; does she ever make a comeback at all?

[paramountinplace]

🍓 - thank you so much, i love all of those thoughts! lottie being the upset mother while nat riles van up before bed is so funny to me! also the bratalie thing, yes! here’s my thoughts, feel free to expand. i love that in this au you’ve created thru my requests, it’s just them all hanging at the compound for months! best au ever!

• nat is the only person that is able to just flop down beside van and hug her without warning. no words are needed between them. they’ll just lay there for hours, without sleeping, just listening to each others breaths and feeling the warm familiar weight of each other.

• anytime anyone makes van upset, nat is very quick to corner and verbally attack them. bc how dare they? that’s her van and she’ll be damned if she lets anyone upset van anymore than van has already been upset her entire life.

• nat is the only person who can get away with calling van ‘vanessa’ bc she was there when van was only called vanessa by her mother. van doesn’t always like it, but sometimes it’s nice to hear it once in awhile to remind her of who she was, and nat will do anything to give van some sort of peace.

• nat gets van hyped up on sugar all the time. especially if she knows they’re gonna have a little group get-together. tai and lottie always make nat take van for the night after, considering she was the one who hyped her up. they jump on beds, messily consume ice cream sundaes, and watch ninja turtles.

It's very fun to think about!

Aww this is so sweet. They're definitely the types to cuddle like puppies with each other when they won't do it with anyone else. Half of the time, Nat's doing it because she senses that Van needs it, but the other half it's fully for Nat's benefit.

Nat's absolutely soo protective and she's willing to step to anyone who she thinks is messing with Van, even if it was a total accident on their part. They've both had such a rough go of it and she hates to see Van's face wilt the way it does when she gets upset.

Oh this is super interesting! I played with the idea of Nat calling Van "Nessa/Ness" for a while because I think it's so interesting that her full name is almost never acknowledged. She obviously doesn't like it much (really fascinating thought about it being comforting to hear, though, I like that). Wondering about how Nat decides when to use not-Van for her!

That's so silly; Nat letting Van have a bunch of sugar if they're all gonna be together as a group because Van won't be as energetic and cheerful otherwise. I'm sure Van loves to get a night with Nat and is absolutely so stoked to get to watch TMNT. Does sugar give Van nightmares?? I've heard about the cheese before bed causing nightmares myth, but oddly never anything about sugar xD.

Absolutely love these ideas!

[lowkeyed1]

Willow Month 2023: Day 3 - Favorite Episode This is a tough call for me, because it's very close. I love Episode 7: Across the Shattered Sea because it has so much gorgeous character development for everyone and so much beautiful scenery, but Episode 4: Whispers of Nockmaar just barely shades it. I think it's the whump. This ep is basically 45 minutes of whumping on poor Graydon and.... he suffers beautifully.

This poor kid starts off the ep infected with dark magic. He and the group both know it will eventually corrupt his entire system, cause him to become possessed and try to kill everyone, and they will have to kill him. And they spend the first part of the episode chaining him up and not doing anything about it, except Elora comforting him.

They finally decide to do something and this leads to him restrained even more, splayed out on some kind of bench. He spends a lot of time writhing and moaning in pain. They tear his shirt open while he gasps, exposing horrific scarring he feels deeply ashamed of and doesn't want to talk about, while he sweats and groans even more.

Then they throw a bucket of liquid on him while he writhes around some more and it's obviously painful and I should probably just acknowledge it's not just the whump I love in this episode? They did NOT have to make this whole thing so BDSM but they really did, god bless them. Plus lovely grace notes in the script referring to him being ravaged and also reamed -_-

ANYWAY we go on from here to his having hallucinations about his painful past, then the possession really starts to set in and he gets aggressive, then starts talking in the voices of loved ones to scare and distract people. Then we have a break in the action and when we get back to Graydon...

well. all right then. Spoiler, he's fully possessed here but acting like he's not. You can tell because they flat-ironed his hair! Lol, but also he's uncharacteristically comfortable with his exposed flesh and touching other people which seems like a nice, subtle hint.

Trust me, Graydon in his right mind is never leaving that many buttons unbuttoned. He leads Elora up to the tower so he can complete the banishment ritual Bavmorda was trying to do to baby Elora at the end of the movie, but then everyone else shows up and he gets whumped on some more...

Literally I would die, as an actor, if I had Erin and Ruby holding me down and Amar crawling on top of me and pretending to pummel me but like. That's the biz, I guess?

At any rate, Kit convinces Elora that she is magic enough to fix this, so she goes and almost-but-not-quite kisses him (she does call it a kiss later) and sucks the evil out of him. He tells her he never doubted her, and the boy is clearly smitten after that

Unfortunately, Elora had a vision of him shoving his brother out of a tree when he was possessed as a child and feels like he might be sketchy. So he's giving her a big smitten smile when they leave....

(credit to willowgifsdaily for this gif)

...but that smile starts to falter bc she's giving him this look in return, yikes

Anyway, that was good wholesome fun for the whole family and kudos to Disney+ for realizing they needed to put in a bondage-themed whumpfest to really sell me on the show! And kudos once again to my boy Tony Revolori, who sells every inch of this episode just amazingly. The emotional range is all over the place and there's no part where he falters in just performing the absolute shit out of this one. This episode changed my brain chemistry forever, I think. And that is why Whispers of Nockmaar is my favorite episode of WIllow! Send help!

[theha1rarch]

verse drops/descriptions for these verses & tag drops as well:

cobra kai - originally joined cobra kai when he was still in his asshole king steve era esp bc tommy & carol did as well & of course he always followed where they went. when he decides to change & better himself as a person & dump those assholes he joins miyagi-do & the rest is history this is very vague bc i know there's so much dramas between the dojos & everything & all that but i know very little so here's the basic basics - i hope that's good enough/works cobra kai people pls feel free to correct me -

tvdu - okay so i've actually decided to do a verse for each show since i legit couldn't figure out what exactly to do or how to connect him across all three so (to note so i don't have to repeat it both times, in both tvd & to, has been a vampire for at least 10 years at the point of the verse & was turned at 19) ...

tvd - moves to mystic falls about a year before the events of the show, decides to pull a stefan/cullen family & attends mystic high. it's also here he meets robin, the kids, etc, all that. then the events of the show start happening, he realizes he's not the only vampire/supernatural being in town & ends up mixed up in the many events that happen over the course of tvd in various ways & such

the originals - moves to new orleans as a new place to live/hide out so it doesn't get sus when he stays somewhere & doesn't age over the years. you know the vampire drill. somehow, some way or another ends up mixed with the shenanigans of the originals & their family & people brought into their circle ...

legacies - not long after he's turned by the vampire, gabriel - he hears of a school for young supernaturals & decides to check it out. despite being physically 19, he's able to attend especially when the school seems to be more helping these young people - rather than educating them. having a place to figure all this out & to go through it not alone is really nice & he ends up meeting some of his best & closest friends while attending it

oz - steve is from winkie country, had his asshole king steve era in hs but starts shiz the same time as our mcs & really views this as a way to have a fresh start & to be a whole new, better, person as he left king steve behind the year before he graduated hs but so many people still couldn't let that version of him go. so he starts shiz as a better person, never bullies elphie, in fact is friendly towards/her friend & majorly on her side throughout things. probably stands up for her. when everything goes down & she's made out to be the wicked witch he's extremely sus of it all, doesn't believe a word of anything & is the most sus of glinda ...

grey's anatomy - steve grows up in seattle instead of hawkins/whatever small town. still meets & knows all his people there. he doesn't necessarily experience the HorrorsTM or even the fandomless version of them, but he still experiences traumas bc of course he does - he's steve. & maybe a few of them end him up at seattle grace/grey-sloan & gets to know some of those just-as-traumatized surgeons ...

shameless - steve is a cousin of the gallaghers, on his dad's side - frank his some relative of his. but he grew up not really knowing that side of the family, his father refusing to acknowledge or associate with them ... until steve was 10 & came home one day to find his parents gone. gone completely, moved & out & away & having left steve behind. already living in (the upper/nicer part) of chicago, & knowing that 'good for nothing family' of his father's also lives there ... he decides to do some searching, ends up finding their address & after many taxis & subway rides ... arrives on the gallagher's door step. there's some debate about taking him, of course there is - it's another mouth to feed. but at the end of the day, he's family & if there's one thing gallaghers are known for, it's their loyalty to family. (plus the kid has such big sad eyes it'd be cruel to leave him behind). and it's not long before you'd never know there was a time where there was only six gallagher siblings ... (to be clear/for reference), steve is the middle kid - a year older than debbie)

seeing ghosts au - steve was able to see ghosts from the time he was young, always seeing them in places & knowing they were there ... haunting him. but whenever he tried to bring it up, his parents were quick to dismiss him, telling him it was all in his head. & no one else believed him (so he soon stopped telling anyone). but steve knew, steve knew he wasn't crazy. he knew they were real. especially when the girl who died after being taken from his pool wouldn't quit haunting his backyard. eventually ... eventually, he finds people who believe him & starts communicating with the dead more often

the hunger games - a boy from district 1 who volunteers as tribute when his young friend, dustin henderson, is reaped. only to be thrown into a world of chaos & pain & choice he doesn't know how he's going to make when his best friend, robin buckley, is also reaped. the games are hard, full of pain & when it comes down to making that tough choice ... well it really only comes down to one (stobin pulls an everlark, to be clear)

[justallihere]

Alli this chapter was such a nice surprise !!

Violet is a sarcastic queen "we can hold hands" she says to Liam as if the only person she wants to hold hands with is not her husband. Liam and Violet are very special to me and the way you write them is very unique. He's so protective of her but she's also very strict on her boundaries in the friendship which I love for her.

Oh so the panflet did make its rounds in this fic. Devera u sneaky bitch I know what u are (a traitor). This is a perfect opportunity to reveal some truths but because our Violet is indeed the queen of a whole ass country I doubt she's gonna do that, there's just too much at stake, but I do wish she had done something in canon. I wonder if she's gonna talk to Devera here? If she even suspects it was her?

“Be logical, riders,” Markham said as he collected the last of the leaflets. “When has Navarre ever sent a riot of only Blue dragons? I expect better from you all. More critical thinking. It will be imperative once you’re out of Basgiath and on the battlefield.” oh this is pure gold the way propaganda is discussed here is just so good. i love these conflicts.

Jack is back ?? creating chaos for sure. maybe trying to murder violet? omg imagine violet being able to see that he's a venin way earlier bc she's sees the sage way too often in her dreams and when she sees jack she goes "umm that's weird, that's suspicious" Also I've always thought Baide was sus for keeping it hidden i hope the damn dragon dies. maybe tairn can actually kill a dragon this time.

Oh Xaden is just so miserable my poor baby "I know you're awake" ohhhh u wanna talk to her so bad. Violet acknowledging they have a routine is very special to me and an improvement. As much as it hurt me them sleeping in separate beds it's very much needed bc they need to TALK I'm just waiting for the chapter in which they will fight so bad they both break and then they'll make up.

their conversations in the dark !! they need each other so badly, the weight of ruling is heavy and while xaden may try to play it off he doesn't handle it well either.

“Yes and no. Eventually you get used to it. You stop feeling the weight. You do the best you can with what you have, and you make so many horrible choices that it’s all you know, and you have to make yourself stop second-guessing. It’ll drive you mad if you don’t.” Sir what u need is therapy.

Violet talking about her dying before seeing her future and Xaden saying she'll live and then Violet calling him a liar … THATS WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT !! and followed by her calling Aretia home and Xaden having a mini breakdown over it ? oh he's very screwed indeed but she isn't much better. i wonder when will she realize its him that's home and not Aretia the place.

also xaden suffering the consequences (violet putting herself in danger for the good of Tyrrendor) of his own actions?? we love to see it but also omg the angst !! he's just like "pls sit down don't do anything dangerous"

"We’re married. We’re supposed to be a team." she knew she had him with that, the only thing he wants more than for her to live its for them to be a team. the cant live without u line is very on brand for violet denial sorrengail to misinterpret love that !!

love the bodhi and violet crumbs !! they're family they need to interact more i also think they'd be a formidable pair against xaden just to annoy him lmao. but for now bodhi will rat her out to xaden !! he's part of the "violet and xaden should talk like rational adults" club. also they're so married bickering so so married they're disgusting actually. (him not missing the opportunity to call her beautiful, sir you are not that sneaky i see u)

xaden agreeing to go with violet on her suicide mission is very supportive partner coded gottalove that !! cant wait to see him go ballistic when shes tortured.

once again you've delivered such a good chapter thank u so much <3

My favorite thing about Violet is that she’s kind of a bitch because so am I and we deserve that representation. She loves Liam so very much but my girl likes her space

Violet and Devera talk soon-ish. I love Devera so much, I need more of her

Xaden and Violet are in their married couple era for SURE, there’s more communication from them in the coming chapters and it’s gonna hurt and it’s gonna be so good I can’t wait

“what u need is therapy” that’s what Garrick and Bodhi are for 😭😭

Listen like it’s so important to me that they follow through on the things they agreed to. They talked and they decided no more secrets and they would do everything together from now on and they took that shit SERIOUSLY!! It’s part of their married dynamic, I love them

Thank you so much for reading 🩷🩷🩷

[icharchivist]

I was okay with Bhaisa for the first part, I thought maybe she'd grow out of her primal racism and while her "telling someone to do something and then shaming them for it" quirk is obnoxious, I figured it was a hit and miss at a personality quirk. It didn't work, but okay

It's difficult whether she was being transphobic to Bhadra because she did out her and comment awkwardly on her being amab but also told us to be nice to her so that's ???

But then in part 2 she just kept telling Mapra to die and it just wasn't funny?

It wouldn't surprise me if she's the real villain of the event and also the reason the other Buddhas are all messed up

the transphobia takes another level with part 2 too becaus ein part 1 she says all this bullshit about Bharda "looking like a woman so it's easier to call her she, but she doesn't even seem to know or comment herself on what she wants", which made me wonder for a bit if maybe Bharda was intersex or nonbinary (especially since her body doesn't look like, say, Ladiva.)

but no, part 2 shows us that Bharda's deepest desire is to be accepted and recognized as a woman without feeling left out, which confirms she's a trans woman.

so not only Bhaisa outed her and was awkward with the wording but that shows how much Bhaisa doesn't care for the others Buddha at best, or how she doesn't even consider their desires.

For Mapra i really didn't find the running joke funny. Like i do think "man who's terrified he's always going to end up in jail for everything he does" is somewhat funny, but it being "because he believes he's a creep to women" isn't funny. Bhaisa adding to it bc she gets upset everytime Mapra is slightly more comfortable around her because it means he sees her "as less of a woman" and then she threatens him to die and you see him really not enjoying it, it just feels abusive. Like it feels to me like she's the one who must have convinced him that he was a creep. Like this whole "order people to do things then shame them for doing it" can be on the table here.

idk i don't find it funny or quirky, but i get that not all characters are made to be likeable, and clearly her POV about primals is supposed to make her unlikeable/tell us we shouldn't take her to the word

but so far they do very little to have us care for her and this is getting tiring.

Honestly i'd like them to acknowledge that her ways are super toxic at least.

idk i don't want them either to just remove her because i don't like her, i think there's room for charas who are just plain unlikeable.

But it sucks when we see scenes where she's abusive and it's painting as "ahah isn't it funny how Mapra is scared of her" like... no......

[roobylavender]

You last ask was about Kory and something that came into my mind while reading her Tales of the Titans issue today was just how much her relationship with Dick has been diminished. No that’s not all Kory has/had but it was a humongous part of her relationship with earth and many other things so just to cast it aside has been something to read. I guess what brought this on is reading the new Tales of the Titans issue today for Starfire, and there were many nice moments (I still think it was a forgettable issue) it’s just crazy that even as a friend Dick was kind of just not there at all to the point he didn’t even need to be in the issue at all. His only role was to literally say “hi oracle” and then at the end to be like “oh I have to get back to Babs”. I know others won’t see it this way and just be glad that she’s not just about Dick but it’s not even about that it’s kind of like this thing where they keep trying to get her out of the way with out any meaningful conversation between the two even as old team mates. How many times do we have to see Kory give her approval of Dick’s relationship? Because she has to do it every time she has appeared recently. It’s not being unkind or harsh to her with writing but it’s starting to in the kindest way make it true that Kory was just a fling…

And I’m saying this as someone who equally loves Barbara Gordon as well…

Today did her no favors. In one issue she’s helping out the titans but at the end you are reminded that she’s Dick’s girlfriend hence her reason for being there. In another she’s murdered by Punchline in a dream. In another she’s held captive for Dick’s pain in his nightmare.

I’m just very tired of seeing these patterns repeated but seeing fans cling on to one or two panels that are considered goods to them.

Like superhero comics aren’t going to last long as the rate we are going. It’s burning old readers out and the new readers just want something to project onto.

i got your subsequent ask btw and i don't mind answering this at all! it's a perfectly valid vent if anything. i haven't read the issue (or much of anything really) myself but i'm not surprised.. it seems every year all dick and kory's interactions will amount to is revisiting that they're okay with the fact that they're broken up. which is wild frankly bc they officially broke up more than a decade ago so like.. what even is the need for any of this. if you as a writer are truly committed to the idea of them moving on from the romance but continuing to be teammates why not dedicate their interactions to that rather than reassuring your readers about the breakup as if they're stupid. and like you said why is acknowledging the foundations of that relationship antithetical to how they're portrayed when romantically apart. it's not like they jumped immediately into a relationship when introduced to each other. it took a long time for them to actually realize they liked each other like that let alone to start dating! that's kinda the whole crux of their relationship, is that they were such good friends and teammates first, so while a breakup certainly does change things that foundation doesn't automatically disappear. everything feels so surface level and immediately palatable these days and it's depressing. there's nothing real or deep anymore and it's insulting of writers to approach their relationship like it can only ever be deep if they're romantically attached when a big part of their dynamic even when they were off in the 90s/early 00s is that they were still incredibly close and reliant upon each other bc that was how deep the relationship went regardless of its nature. like what are either of them in the modern day but utter shells of themselves. it's sad

[theradicalace]

If this is cool to ask, may I hear your gigtunia thoughts? Since you mentioned having ideas in the bingo :]

i had to wait til i got home to answer this bc i needed to have the character sheets i'm working on handy to cross reference but YES i DO have plans. sadly for giggles these plans do not involve endgame gigtunia they involve past-tense gigtunia.

the general arc of their relationship goes from childhood friends, to spending a good couple years friends with benefits as adults, to eventually breaking it off and going back to being platonically friends when petunia starts dating handy (and later mole hashtag polyamory but he's less front and center to this part of it).

i haven't put too much thought into the actual FWB part of it, because all the interesting and fun to play with parts come After that, once they've broken it off.

petunia's the one to break it off, of course, and to her, it honestly didn't mean much. they've been besties forever, and they'll keep being besties forever, the fact that they're not having sex anymore shouldn't change that!

giggles, on the other hand, did not take it nearly as gracefully. she was crushing harrddd on petunia, but refused to acknowledge or process her feelings until petunia and handy were already flirting, and by then it was way too late.

so now giggles is just sitting around with all these feelings that she doesn't know what the hell to do with, and petunia has no earthly idea that she's even still hung up on it.

it really adds interesting dimension to all of their dynamics, including handy and mole by proxy. giggles is head over heels for petunia and can't admit it, while petunia is inadvertently making it worse, because she's still very affectionate with her closest friend.

on the other hand, giggles is also holding this quiet resentment towards handy for "stealing" petunia from her, even though she knows that's not a fair thing to think about either of them. it puts a strain on what would otherwise be a really nice and respectful friendship between the two of them.

mole's introduction to the dynamic sort of complicates things for giggles, and she ends up with incredibly mixed feelings towards him. he became a part of petunia and handy's relationship later on, so it's not like she can unfairly accuse him of stealing anyone, but there's still resentment towards him for occupying a role in petunia's life that she can't, and it manifests as jealousy. not helped at all by the fact that she also finds him more than a little attractive as well (tall, dark, and handsome, anyone?)

so basically, petunia is just hanging out with her boyfriends that she loves very much, and giggles has to seethe and cope about it the entire time while lamenting the fact that she didn't shoot her shot 3 years ago 💀

tldr: the actual endgame ship for my fanon is molehantunia and giggles is SO fucking upset about it. THIS CHIPMUNK IS GOING THRU IT LMAOOOO

[ry-ya05]

so today, alto responded to sofronaria's "apology", and here's what she responded with, along with my own comments. i will not hold back.

"you" means sofronaria

tw: suicide, SH

long rant ahead

okay so.. final thing bcs im lowkey stunned i know i said that would be my final response, but i think i need to address some things because that might have came off wrong regarding the apology, if it didn't come across that way, i'm truly sorry, but to say it was entirely insincere and self-centered is unfair. i only included my feelings because i felt they were important since they are a part of the situation.

girl. our feelings are also important. if our feelings didn't matter, we wouldn't have this conflict.

regarding (boyfriend), i admit, i did make mistakes in disregarding boundaries, but to paint me as someone who deliberately ignored everyone's feelings is kind of.. inaccurate. it did seem like a small confrontation to me as it was brought up as a topic at lunch and ended shortly, and everyone seemed to be okay with his presence after that confrontation, so i felt the opinion on him had changed. in my opinion, it would have been better if you guys spoke up more about your discomfort with his presence than going with it, or something. you have the right to be angry, but this conflict with (boyfriend) could have been avoided if you spoke up more about it and genuinely solidly communicated it instead of letting me bring him around more often and leaving it to me to interpret one little discussion with each of (friend group) and a relatively more relevant discussion with you. with that being said though, i did still disregard the boundaries you guys have set after that, and made a mistake bringing him to the group. i'm sorry for that, and i'm sorry for not trying to be more active about it.

the apologies are null and void because you try to justify your actions AGAIN by saying "you guys should've spoke up about it sooner" smh

i also acknowledge the hypocrisy of my actions, especially with my frustration about F. it does sound stupid when you paint it that way. let me clarify, though, that i did not mean to be like her, especially in the way that every conversation felt like it was just me trying to kill myself; it was a habit/phrase of mine, but lowkey it is stupid. i want to clarify as well that i did not mean to break your boundaries about self-harm. i will admit, i did not know you were trying to stay clean, but then again, it was a sensitive topic, and i knew that well. i'm sorry for bringing it up, though, and breaking your boundaries in the process.

the main thing why F was brought up was because YOU are acting nice with her even though you ACTIVELY SHOW DISLIKE TOWARDS HER. "You act all buddy buddy with her, while constantly talking behind her back. How should others know that you actually like them without the fear of you shit talking them behind their back." THAT IS WHAT ALTO SAID. AND YOU DIDNT TALK ABOUT IT AT ALL!!!!!!!!

sure, alto also said about SH and the overuse of "kms", but the way you address that claim is so... idk how to put it, but it doesn't sit right with me.

alto did not say that you were acting like F, rather, you had similar characteristics as F, and you hate her. despite knowing that, you still continue to use "kms" without any sign of changing that habit.

and about the "diss track", it did feel mean, but yeah, i wanted to express my frustration. i didn't intend to be "projecting"?? anything, i do acknowledge i'm a narcissist in the same way as (me, hi), but recently, many things she's been doing lately: letting me read stories unrelated to my interest, straight up calling me a manipulator and narcissist- it felt like a genuine attempt at provocation, and i wanted to express my frustration of it. no apology was meant

this just hurts. i told you about what i've been feeling -- along with the others -- through the guidance counselor. and suddenly, i don't deserve an apology just because i'm narcissistic, a sociopath, and a troublemaker?

you also didn't touch on the fact that i feel the same thing as you. no... "i get it" or anything? just insults on insults?

i will admit, though, that yes, i told some people whom i trust about the issue, and yes, gynt. and, with that, i do not expect any forgiveness from him. i knew what i was doing, and i meant to do that.

but you have the understanding to know that leaking shit is bad. i could leak your full legal name you know.

i will also admit that i was trying to be buddy-buddy with F, and i'm not gonna explain more on why. i'm not gonna try and justify this either, because yes, i do mean to do that.

um ok

and to clarify a few more things: about ryoka, i want to clarify i wasn't trying to make her out to be someone with evil intentions. i'm sorry it came off as different, i'll acknowledge it did sound offensive, but my intention was to acknowledge that our relationship was neutral.

ok

about kelis, i was genuinely, GENUINELY not trying to justify my actions towards kelis. i dunno if it came off that way or that's how you interpret it, but those were two different things i wanted to address. i wanted to address that i am sorry for all of the things that i've done to kelis, but i also wanted to address, separately, that i genuinely felt she only tolerated my presence. regardless, though, my harming her was still unjustified, accident or intentional. i really do, apologize for that, because i genuinely feel bad for hurting her, especially physically.

ok but you're still justifying your actions by following it up with "i felt like she only tolerated my presence." yes, your feelings are important, but in an apology, the person who you'e apologizing to is MORE IMPORTANT. whether your intentionally trying to justify your actions or not, the way you frame your message makes it like your defending your actions instead of accepting responsibility.

and also, about my ending message, my intention there was to genuinely point out that i am getting better. i was trying to express that i've actually found a healthier environment, and out of that, was hoping it would be an "i'm glad, that's nice" thing, not meant to provoke anyone. i'm sorry it was taken the wrong way. to address the "new friends" point, i didn't intend to paint you all as "evil villains." and no, i didn't feel you guys were like that, even though, yes, i am pissed at the shit that happened. i was trying to convey that i've found a place where I feel supported, not to belittle you or something. and, yes, i understand that finding new friends doesn't erase my past mistakes, but i will admit, i've gotten and felt better because of it.

i could care less about your new friends -- what i want is a proper closure and apology.

you also misinterpreted the message. it's not that it's "provoking", it's more on "look how much better i am without you guys" in a /neg way, which just shows your narcissistic side.

skipping to the end because the rest are directed to alto (and gynt ig) so i dont have a say in that

and lastly, i sincerely apologize for all the boundaries i've crossed. i know i've crossed many, many i was honestly not aware off, but that doesn't excuse my behaviour. i am genuinely sorry, and i do understand what boundaries i've crossed now are. i understand that you're hurt, and i'm not trying to invalidate your feelings, but once again, i feel like my perspective is being dismissed. i don't wanna continue this back and forth, but i needed to defend myself against some accusations, and also own up to the things that i did do and intend. i wish you all the best, and i hope we can move forward. and yes, i'll be growing up

girl. we are not trying to dismiss your perspective. i can't speak for the others, but i can and will speak for myself.

i've always acknowledged your perspective on things, even considered your opinion was the "right" one and that my opinions were wrong if i ever had a different perspective. i'm gonna pull a mafuyu asahina: because of that, i've lost my assertiveness in group discussions and only voice out my thoughts when someone voices something similar to mine. if not, i try my best to change my opinion to connect with others more.

the only time i haven't changed my opinion is now. this is my true, unchanged opinion about you. i have genuinely tried to turn a blind eye to your mistakes and give you the benefit of the doubt, but i just can't anymore. i don't want to change what makes me [me] just to please people anymore/have the same wavelength as them.

again, i've been asking for a proper apology for my side. i've sacrificed a lot of things to maintain our friendship to the point i've almost discarded myself just to meet your standard of a "friend". before you go saying "well i didn't ask you to", well i wanted to. i wanted to be that one friend you can talk to anytime without feeling uncomfortable and feel happy just by being with them.

however, i've realized that i shouldn't change to meet anyone's standards. and once i've finally decided to talk about my thoughts, the same thoughts i've had about you and berating myself for thinking of those bad thoughts even though we were "friends", you go and point out those same flaws and didn't even try to acknowledge MY perspective?

i have tried so hard to see your side and validate your feelings. but to not even get the same treatment... or even a simple "sorry" directed towards me...

you're cherry-picking your faults. actually, you're not even picking out your faults-- you are just downplaying them by convincing yourself that we're worse than you. there are so many things i can call you out for, but i chose not to because - again - i turned a blind eye to you. even now, i still can't bring myself to say it.

am i guilt-tripping? possibly. a lot of times. but this all stems back to you: you were the one who made me like this, it was you who made me egotistical by making me feel in the right with your "advice", if you could even call it that.

clearly, you've only focused on alto's perspective. makes sense, you've been friends for... how many years now? basta,, but you've also admitted that WE WERE FRIENDS. we were best friends. please, you could've also tried seeing where i came from just like what i did to you, but you've just insulted me (and technically shit-talked about me behind me back with alto).

your perspective isn't dismissed; in fact, you are the one dismissing our perspective. alto's response was us trying to voice out our perspective and feelings towards it, and then you just downplay it by saying "yeah, well you guys are just misunderstanding it" and "i feel like my perspective is being dismissed"

and yeah, i admit that i was being provocative, passive-aggressively calling you a narcissist and manipulative. for that, i see what i did was wrong and i should've just shed light on your behavior and why i disliked it.

and if you still think you're in the right after all of this, then here: i thought you were okay with it since you've brushed it off with "HELP" and "LMAO" so i kept on doing it.

doesn't it hurt?

doesn't it sound familiar?

it's your perspective about bringing (boyfriend) around. you thought we were okay with him since we paid attention to him, laughed at his jokes, yada yada - but don't you see now? don't you see how ironic the situation is?

i'll contradict one of my points in my other rant: not everyone has the guts to confront someone about their behavior. you can't just downplay our perspective by saying "you should've just told me better/again". it's not that easy, sofronaria. it's not that easy to confront someone.

if you think i'm ignoring your perspective here, then i think you need to read my initial rant & alto's message again. the tone of the other rant wasn't as harsh as this, and alto's message started with an APOLOGY. A FUCKING APOLOGY. are you that negative to just skip over that part and give us some credit for actually giving you a proper apology?

i'm still scared of what people will think if they see this rant. it's too negative and harsh and i lack the empathy to acknowledge your efforts in this rant, but you are literally calling me out just to justify about your insults about me that - just like you - i have to defend my feelings. i have to finally stop being a people pleaser and take a stand.

that's all.

[manofmanymons]

Taking advantage of tumblrs lack of restrictive character limit to do something I like to call sharing every random thought I've had lately about various unrelated franchises

Whenever people talk about gender fucky kingdom hearts characters it baffles me that they don't bring up roxas but then I remember that in all fairness I think only the original ds game and the novel have that scene where he does not know what gender is but not the cutscene movie that most people know 358 from

The scene in puyo puyo tetris 2 where Squares remarks how Marle doesn't smile around him anymore hurts me deep in my soul bc he really really just wanted his big sister to love him again

On the note of ppt I am trying so hard to unhear that Morgana and Ryuji are very much voiced by the same VA's as Ringo and Tee.

While I'm talking about p5 I truly did not expect to like Yusuke this much. He's so goddamn weird and he keeps saying shit that gives me severe secondhand embarrassment but idk I just adore him.

Also jokers relationship with his teacher is deeply concerning me like what exactly is happening here 💀💀💀 ma'am please don't talk to a child like that I am begging you

Also also my god I should really make it a drinking game to take a shot every time something about it reminds me of digimon.

Ryuji kinda reminds me of Beat. Like they're very different characters obviously but...loud blond idiot with a heart of gold..

I hate how few people in genshin fandom seem to understand that you can love someone and also hurt them, and in the same vein that you can acknowledge that someone mistreated you and also still love them for all the good things they did. People try too hard to force everything to be black and white and in doing so completely erase what I personally think is one of the most interesting familial relationships in the game.

I've recently become obsessed with the k seven stories soundtrack, specifically the songs blaze, lost small world, and tenrou no gotoku

Gameplay wise zenless zone zero was more fun than I expected but I hate the fandom so much I just can't get into it. The only straight hoyo fandom ksjskd

The digimon movie redubs are so good and it's so nice having an english version of the actual original stories. Objectively the story makes so much more sense and the tone is so much better during all the emotional moments. That being said, subjectively I still like the og english digimon movie better. Like if I can't watch a koromon running around while hearing RIGHT ABOUT NOW THE FUNK SOUL BROTHER CHECK IT OUT NOW over and over again then what are we even doing here :/

I recently rewatched digimon adventure (1999) AGAIN and my god I never get tired of it. I like Matt a lot more as an adult than I did as a kid. TK, Izzy, Joe, and Mimi are still my favorites tho.

I watched season 2 part 1 of tower of god finally. Rachel is still the worst, khunbam continue to be gay, and I'm way more attached to the obnoxious little Prince guy than I'd like to be.

It's 2025 and I have seen many shows and movies and played several games since 2022 and I still don't love anyone else the way I love Kaito Shinonome. I'm convinced he was made in a lab to be my favorite specifically.

Sonic movie 3 has a lot more toxic yaoi than I expected from a sonic movie and the weirdest part is that it's not even bc of sonadow

I listened to the entire epic soundtrack. My favorite songs are any time it's hermes or athena. I like that this version of odysseus didn't repeatedly cheat on his wife bc I always hated that part when I had to read the odyssey in high school. Like bruh she waited faithfully for you for SO long but you couldn't do the same and I'm supposed to root for you??? Get outta here.

There's a genshin character that feels like someone took every single thing I love about Kaito and made a man who is the exact opposite of all of those things and I hate him with a passion.

I regret to admit I still never finished Adventure 2020 or Appmon. I have both of their openings on my playlist tho. They slap.

I finally watched the barbie movie. It's exactly the kind of stupid that makes me happy.

I think that's all of my thoughts.

[xx-ally0urbase-rbelong2us-xx]

HI these are gonna be insanely disorganized but ☝️ i have a Few .....

•"telamon" is a sort of stage persona/alter ego for shedletsky. he used it when he hosted matches in sword fight on the heights, he used it for the cult he threw together for the sole purpose of making 1x (re all this), it's just kind of a fun excuse for him to larp and be all big and mysterious as such an otherwise famous person (i think shed is a very silly guy. always up for participating in A Bit)

•1x and shedletsky have almost the exact same if not an identical body, the faces and features are quite different of course but if you took all the accessories off both of them their silhouettes would be UNCANNILY similar. 1x thinks it's disgusting that she resembles him so much but doesn't really ever talk about it. shed is terrified by the thought (he tries HARD to separate 1x from himself and act like they aren't Literally part of him)

•1x has like. physical difficulty Perceiving the 3 dimensional world around it. they've gotten relatively used to it by now, but when shedletsky first summoned them it was ROUGH for a while of adjusting.

•1x's green parts are like a translucent gooey acid. it kind of behaves like corn starch & baking soda, you can stick your hand in slowly but things bounce off it with harder impacts. Also if you stick your hand in it Will be dissolved so maybe dont do that in the first place. the rest of her body, the black parts, are like a hardened/dried out version of the substance and the texture is kind of comparable to a very tough leather or jerky, if you cut through it you'd see more of the undried green stuff underneath it! she keeps her claws raw and undried on purpose so it hurts more when she cuts people with them. Yoooowwww

•1x's mouth stays zippered all the time because if she opens it that Aforementioned green shit just starts pouring out. they communicate through firing evil mind beams into your head (their thoughts are translated Directly to whomever they want to hear them. this also means they have absolutely no filter on what they say to people but they don't really care about having one in th first place #LOL)

•1x lived with john and jane prior to being forsaken. they tracked those two down thru their ties to the other admins with the hopes that they'd eventually take it to shedletsky, and just sort of... inserted herself into their marriage from that point onward 😭 LARGELY due to johns Evil Code Arm. ive mentioned before that 1x generally feels safer and more at home around the other killers bc her "hacking" isn't an intentional or conscious thing, it's just a product of her being a 4th dimensional entity in the 3rd dimension- but being around people with similar abilities makes her feel like she's among equals. NICE!

•1x does not have the Best handle on certain mortal concepts. for example, cooking. she understands in a sense that robloxians heat their food to gain more calories out of it, and they value efficiency above all else, so if you asked them to cook you something it would probably end up feeding you charcoal ����

•that said 1x DOES enjoy being given things to do for the other killers. it takes any task they give it very seriously bc it wants to impress them and remain in their good graces, not that it would ever admit or acknowledge this

•shedletsky gave 1x his GERD alongside all of his hatred and negativity and that's why it wants to murder him so insanely fucking bad (THATS NOT THE REAL REASON WHY BUT ITS REALLY FUNNY TO SAY. I do legit think 1x has GERD tho that's why theyre so coughy hacky #IHAVEGERD)

•shed is a buff orpington chicken bc i think theyre cute CCCCC: 007 is a turkey, 1x is more of a crocodilian than any bird, c00lkidd is a common cuckoo... leetguest is a whooper swan i tink, i haven't thought of a bird for noli yet. maybe a european starling....?

•007 didn't have much of a formal education and has no living family members that he's aware of or in contact with. i think robloxians can consummate a child between themselves if they want but sometimes babies also just Spawn in without anybodys input, and it's not unlikely that every so often a baby just....never ends up taken in by anybody. there's foster care systems (those "adopt me" games) so they're not just letting infants wander around unaccounted for, so he spent most of his childhood in and out of those and never really got adopted into any family, so hes kinda just been doing his own thing, like....his Entire Life prior to having c00lkidd and bluudud dropped into his lap

•because of the Aforementioned complete lack of family or a stable support system, he grew up extremely self sufficient to the point that it's kind of detrimental to his socialization. he's selfish and always puts his best interest first, and has a lot of trouble extending himself to others if he doesn't see himself gaining anything from it. he Hates asking for help and beats himself up severely if he can't get something done on his own, when he gets hooked on the idea of doing or making something by himself he will not rest until its either done, or it's impacting his physical health too severely to be feasible for him to continue working on it. he also has a lot of trouble taking advice and listening to other people's perspectives, he feels like it's a waste of time usually because he's survived for this long without bothering with any of that, why should it change now?? he's just. a very very stubborn person. it was NOT easy to convince him to give up exploiting

•....which is why c00lkidd and bluudud getting thrown into his life was such a huge Thing for him. he never expected to have or particularly wanted kids, much less even any kind of roommate at all- he quite liked being on his own prior to them!! at first with c00lkidd he was fully expecting him to end up with another family at some point, people he'd feel are actually qualified to raise a child. he was just taking care of him in the interim. and then they started bonding and going out and having fun, and he got c00lie into his whole exploiting gig, and it just rapidly snowballed into "if anything happens to this little red ball of whimsy i will kill everyone in this room and then myself" <:] and admittedly, not that he'd ever say it, he felt crazy guilty putting c00lie back into the same system that chewed him up and spit him out when he was just a kid. he loves his kids so much, they're Literally the most important thing in the world to him, he gave up the entire career path of exploiting he'd been going down just to make sure he could be around for them....

•I HAVE TALKED ABT IT WITH YOU BUT I DONT THINK I SHARED IT PUBLICLY SO ILL INCLUDE IT HERE the does are kind of like grandparents to c00lie n bluuy, and they look out for 007 too. jane was the one who convinced him to give up exploiting, while her and john still worked at HQ (prior to the accident that lead to john's Evil Code Arm) they'd get called out frequently to deal with the messes 007 n his kids made through exploiting So That they could let 007 off the hook and not get him banned or in any major trouble. jane got really really sick of how flippant he acted about his own safety with not one but two kids under his care and ended up cussing him out really bad one day, and that was the final nail in the coffin for his exploiting career

•i think c00lie is younger than bluudud but came to live with 007 before bluu did. c00lie was a straight up Baby when 007 found him on his porch but bluuy was a little older, like 5 or 6 i wanna say when 007 found him? they're 10 and 12 respectively so c00lie would've been 3 or 4 when he gained Shiny New Big Brother. their whole sibling rivalry thing is really just based in bluuy being jealous of 007 and c00lies bond (because he's terrified that he's "not good enough" for 007 compared to c00l and that 007 will get sick of him and just kind of Send him away at some point. he acts out crazystyle kind of as a defense mechanism i guess, he's always testing 007s patience to see if that's true. which of course it never is and never will be!! bluuys just a kid with problems he's not old enough to understand, more or less)

•forsaken 007 is an INSANELY different person from the exploiter. he's quiet and withdrawn and horrendously fuckin riddled with guilt and shame over his past, spends a LOT of the time disassociating to the point that he can barely make conversation or move on an especially bad day. he's been humbled in the most severe and humiliating way and you can just.... tell. the others are wary of him bc they only knew him for so long as a dangerous exploiter that the admin team just couldn't get their hands on- his retirement into being a father was comparatively a much shorter time than that whole career, and even then a lot of people weren't convinced he had actually changed in any meaningful way. he tends to solo matches and stay as far from the rest of the team as he can- the only people he really trusts enough to consistently stay near are chance, noob, leetguest and Maybe Sometimes Twotime (but that's less so out of any actual trust for them and moreso because they have a weird fascination with him, and he's too perpetually exhausted and messed up to tell them to buzz off)

•SPEAKING OF LEETGUEST! i don't have Much for him....i haven't decided whether or not i like the idea of him living in the brookhaven neighborhood w the rest of the cast prior to being forsaken or if he was from somewhere else- i think in either case though his deployment took up such a big chunk of his life that he isn't really familiar with any of the survivors like the rest of them know eachother. it's part of why he's so neutral on everybody, but the other half is that he just has a very "not my circus not my monkeys" mentality when it comes to other people's personal lives. he doesn't like getting involved or having an opinion if he doesn't concern him, he just has other things to worry about

•noli doesn't live in the neighborhood at all and never did, they don't tend to stay in one place too long and they relocate a lot. they still show up every so often tho :-) they don't hold anything against 007 for quitting his exploiting gig, and they still visit him & his kids

•noli and charlatan are jester/clown solidarity. they're kind of like match & pencil from bfdi they're bestiiiiiieeeeeeesssssssss (and they say it really drawn out and pronounced like that)

anyone got thoughts to share about 1x1x1x1/007n7/noli/coolkidd/shedletksy/guest1337

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this got so long i'm sorry lol. that post about jonathan hurting steve just reminds me of my number one issue w steve and jonathan/nancy becoming closer which is that the onus is almost always placed on steve to make amends and take that first step w/little to no emphasis on that effort being reciprocated. like, steve apologizes to jonathan for everything in s1 (as he should) and saves his life twice. whether or not you think jonathan should apologize for how intense the fight got is up for debate (i would just like acknowledgement of how seriously he did/almost did hurt steve) but steve def deserves an apology for 1)the photos (which he never got - obv he broke the camera but then he also bought jonathan a new one all w no actual apology to steve on jonathan's part, it wasn't only nancy's privacy he invaded) 2) the fact that he slept w nancy knowing she and steve were still together (which he literally verbally acknowledges when nancy says she waited for him or w/e). that second one obv also goes for nancy bc she also doesn't apologize to steve for leading him on for a year while having feelings for someone else then cheating on him. this isn't me saying jancy are terrible ppl and entirely unsympathetic (nancy is obv v traumatized and struggling w barb's death tho this does not excuse the way she treated steve) but they both did some fucked up shit to steve that ppl rarely make them acknowledge or even feel bad for, which creates a v unbalanced dynamic imo.

Oh boy this did get long!!

So this might just be curating different fandom experiences, but I don't personally see a ton of Steve being the one who has to make amends in fandom or Jonathan and Nancy not having introspection on their pasts. In canon I totally see that though, and it's a lot. Like I think they're all just really human, which I love. They fuck up, and they mistrust, and they have to learn and grow into being close. It isn't automatic.

I think like.......here's my thought process. Apologies are nice. Apologies are good. The right thing to do is always to apologize if you feel like you've wronged someone.

But I also think Steve wouldn't accept it.

Okay I'm putting the rest under a read more because I'm going on a little meta rant on Steve Jonathan Nancy and why apologies are a complicated thing for them and ultimately not what any of them really need.

First Steve because he's my blorbo. Steve is a really interesting character. He has this veneer of extreme self confidence that hides a really soft core of a person that ultimately experiences a significant amount of rejection. He has this brittle exterior that's bitchy and snarky and gives as good as it gets, but things touch him in a deeper way that I think is easy for a lot of people to ignore. I could totally see Jonathan awkwardly trying to bring things up to maybe try and apologize only for Steve to be like nah man we're fine! It didn't work out no biggie, I'm aok, you guys work together and we didn't.

Steve is constantly searching for validation and love (Implied because his parents are neglectful or at the very least have an extremely bad marriage that would be enough to add layers to anything) I think that the bullshit conversation really impacted Steve in a significant way, but if he shared that, then he's leaving himself vulnerable to getting hurt again, so he would do everything in his power to truly make everyone think he's okay, even potentially making himself think he's okay too, when deep down he isn't.

I alsoooo don't really think that Nancy or Jonathan necessarily feel bad. If Steve is pushing so hard to say he isn't hurt, then eventually I could see them not thinking too hard on it. Jonathan because in canon they aren't really friends obviously (Which is a goddamn travesty by the way I wrote an entire series of fics because I hated that they weren't friends) and Nancy because Nancy is an extremely self focused person.

Not selfish. I think it's important to make the distinction between selfish and self-focused. I don't think she's intentionally doing things to hurt the people around her for her own gain, but she thinks about how things effect her and how things impact her first and foremost. Not even just with Steve, but with everyone. A good example of this is in season three when she cost Jonathan his job too with her sleuthing. Her boyfriend who is in a very bad financial situation at home and could have really used a job that actually pertained to his interests and might have lead to future relationships in his industry. She didn't feel bad about that, she was too focused on the injustice to her. Even something as simple as never knocking when he's in the dark room and ruining his pictures over and over.

She just doesn't think about other people, which makes sense! She's a teenager, she's a privileged person, and she's smart as all hell. She gets extremely focused on doing the 'right' thing (according to her rules and her mind because she knows she's smart and thinks she's the smartest in the room always) and she misses doing the best thing a lot of the time.

For Steve, someone who is clearly extremely not self focused-which is also not a great way to be because extremes never are- and Jonathan- Someone who has been forced to put his family first his entire life- that is always going to be a point of conflict in her relationships with them.

But I don't know if we've ever seen Nancy give a genuine apology in the show, and I honestly doubt we ever would. It's not in her character really. But! Regardless of all of that, apology isn't really the end goal. Saying your sorry shouldn't be the end of something. I would much rather see Nancy Steve and Jonathan grow into people with more empathy and ability to own up to their shit/call people out on their stuff in the future rather than rehashing their past again. Unfortunately I have a feeling season five is gonna be a lot of rehashing lmaoooo