#because i saved it to drafts instead of posting...

[vii0so]

[ BSD 124 Spoilers ]

Thoughts, Theories and Analysis

This was typed and meant to be posted the same week the update came out but instead it's been collecting dust in my drafts because I've been busy and haven't had time to continue it. I remember wanting to go more in depth on topics.

Anyway, since the update will be out tomorrow, I'm posting it. Be aware, I haven't checked what I wrote, so if it looks like a point was abruptly stopped or something doesn't make sense it's because of that.

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Firstly and most importantly, it's not over, nothing ever is with this story. The only thing over is Ueda's suffering and guilt.

This part, Ame-no-Gozen, may be over (or maybe not) but just because a pawn has been captured doesn't mean it's checkmate. Fyodor is still out there, the battle isn't over.

Secondly, Akutagawa did die...I'll explain.

Akutagawa's head was crushed and so he died. In the last chapter I assumed he wouldn't stay dead, just like all the others killed by Ame-No-Gozen who turned into bubbles. Surprisingly, this wasn't exactly the case. Akutagawa never even got to become bubbles.

In one part, Atsushi says the following:

Basically, once the space breaks, all the people trapped inside (the people killed by ame-no-gozen who turned into bubbles, as well as Atsushi and Ueda) will be free and therefore alive.

This is great and I expected it...but something I didn't expect was that on top of breaking the space itself, he also travels back in time to before Akutagawa's death to save him.

The time travel wasn't the unexpected part, the director literally explained that Atsushi could move between past and present in that space, so it was bound to happen.

But if Akutagawa was going to bubble anyway, then once the space was broken he'd be fine again...so why travel to before his "death"?

Also, side note, this may just be me, but I find it interesting that the time travel was shown to us in the form of a static screen...actually, the more I stare at it, the more it looks like scribbling out a scene in pen, which makes more sense too:

Anyway, before I try to answer the "why travel to before his "death"?" let's think about the "what does this mean?".

Time travel is finicky and all authors, stories, and plot conditions make time travel have different outcomes and effects.

There are many ways time travel may work, here are a few:

Creates an alternate timeline, erasing the previous one. -1 +1

Creates an alternate timeline and the time traveler ceases to exist in the previous one but the timeline continues to exist. -0 +1

Rare case that only works under specific narrative conditions: The time traveler was always meant to go back in time and change stuff, therefore the timeline remains the same. -0

The amount of time traveled also makes a difference to the timeline; luckily, in Atsushi's case, it was only minutes.

One common factor about time travel (except in a few rare cases) is the fact that:

Time travel creates alternate / branching timelines.

Let's backtrack a bit:

In an old post of mine, back when we found out Atsushi was the "bookmark" and I tried explaining what that meant, I said this:

Well let's start simple: "What's a bookmark?" It's an indication of where you left off in a story. In a game, you could think of it as a [save] point.

The bookmark would be the only way to progress in a story. The only thing telling you where the 'present' is. Time is divided in three: Past -> Present -> Future Q. Where is Atsushi? A. The present No matter wether he could time travel, or we read chapter 1 again, he will always be experiencing it 'currently'/in 'present time'.

At the time, I myself wasn't sure how to explain it properly and tried to explain my thoughts as best as possible. Surprisingly, I was technically right!

To paraphrase and add a bit:

Atsushi, as the bookmark, represents the present. Time travel is possible because no matter where in time Atsushi is it'll count as present time, just like a bookmark in a book, he marks what page we're on.

Now...I don't know how many of you reading this have ever read any Gamebooks like 'choose your own adventure' or played any Visual Novels with choices and different routes and endings, but I'll be using them as a way to further explain, so I'll try to explain a bit about them.

In a Gamebook, while reading, you are given choices, for example:

In an attempt to find out where the sound came from, you run towards the hall. Just as you enter, you see a lady running down the left corridor, screaming about a ghost. As you're about to follow her, you see a ghost floating down the corridor on your right, towards the garden. Who do you want to follow?

If you want to follow the ghost, flip to page 56

If you want to follow the screaming lady, flip to page 82

You then go to the page, read until another choice appears and eventually reach one of the endings of the book.

A Visual Novel (VN) has the same concept as a Gamebook but is a video game with pictures and music, along with words. Some are more like plays (more dialogue and inner thoughts) while others are more like novels (more descriptions, paragraphs and only necessary dialogue).

One thing in common with both VNs and Gamebooks is the way the reader/player always has to make choices that lead to different situations and/or endings. They're interactive, with branching routes, bad and good endings.

Another thing they have in common is a bookmark.

A Gamebook is an actual book and therefore a bookmark can work with it easily; just put it between the pages to save your place. You choose to follow the ghost and flip to page 56? Ok, the bookmark is now on page 56. You want to go back and follow the screaming lady instead? Sure, the bookmark is now on page 82 as if you never followed the ghost. We control the bookmark to mark where we're up to, what the 'present time' in the story is to us.

In VNs it's slightly different. A choice appears that may branch the timeline? You have to save that instance to a save slot. A few dialogue boxes later you realise you should have picked the other option? You load your save from its save slot and travel back to the option again, like nothing in the other timeline happened, erased.

Both of these examples are great. Visual Novels loading and overwriting save files, therefore erasing that timeline (even if the possibility of it still existed in the branches) and Gamebooks that use a bookmark to mark the present timeline, choice after choice, and jump between them.

Now, when it comes to Atsushi as the bookmark, the similarities can help us understand how time travel was used in this context, and so, we can figure out what happened to the previous timeline.

Placing the bookmark back (loading a save) makes it so anything that happened after that, never happened. Therefore the new timeline becomes the only timeline and the old timeline is erased, overwritten, and ceases to exist.

Even without the bookmark deep dive, just considering the scribbled out effect to show the time travel, it lets us imagine the previous timeline being scribbled out, erased and rewritten.

So yes, in the old (now erased) timeline, Akutagawa died. But that him has now ceased to exist and this him is the only existence.

Also, while the previous timeline was erased, it doesn't change the fact that this is now a different timeline, where Akutagawa never saw the Dazai hallucination as he was never in a near death state by Ame-no-Gozen before being killed. I'm actually a little upset by this...like, don't get me wrong, I'm glad he's alive, but his near death hallucination experience felt like a needed moment of weakness (in a positive he-finally-shed-a-tear way) and weird form of acceptance, and now, the current him never got that.

I guess it makes sense though...if you're only reason to live is to seek acknowledgement by proving yourself through fighting and basically wanting to be told you've fought enough, that your effort wasn't for nothing, that your life had meaning, then why live past it and not accept your death when it's right there? If he lived past that, do you think he'd have the same resolve to live and fight? The reset meant never getting what he wanted, and that was the only way to keep him going.

Also, I think I saw someone mention how Atsushi saw Akutagawa's Dazai hallucination and that's why he Thanos-snapped the timeline. I get that it was probably just a headcanon, but I'm just going to mention it here in case anyone was genuinely confused: Atsushi did not see anything.

Even if Atsushi could magically see other people's hallucinations, there just wasn't enough time. Atsushi looked out onto reality, saw Akutagawa for a second, witnessed his death, and then shouted his name, no indication or enough time for him to see anything.

Anyway, let's quickly talk about where the new timeline starts:

On the left we have the erased timeline (Chapter 123.5) and on the right we have the new timeline (Chapter 124). Both panels are of the same moment.

Akutagawa's left arm still bubbled, it's just that at that moment in the new timeline, Atsushi suddenly appeared from the dead and took Akutagawa's full attention instead.

That's the first difference in the timeline.

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So why travel to before his "death"? idk (maybe I knew while writing this all in the start but I didn't write any note for myself)

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I was initially briefly confused by this. Was the Ame-no-Gozen we knew actually Tsuki-no-Gozen or was the sword used to remove Ame-no-Gozen's life force Tsuki-no-Gozen?

The answer: The sword used to remove Ame-no-Gozen's life fore: Tsuki-no-Gozen.

It pulled out Fukuchi, who was Ame-no-Gozen's life force, essentially killing it. We can even see Ueda holding the sword and the difference being clearly shown.

[thelocalcoyote]

Ok so I kinda discussed this AU in the past in this post and this one (and I have at least one more sitting in my drafts which I should probably just hit post on), but that’s barely touching anything outside of superpowers. And Skeptic, unfortunately, is one of the characters who I’m more stuck on. Like, I was considering giving him some metal themed power, but I’ll have to think about this a little bit more.

But I guess when it comes down to personality, he’s pretty similar to Batman (and it doesn’t help that I saw both Batman Begins and Dark Knight for the first time like a week ago). In retrospect I realized I might have written my reblog to sound like they’re super similar, but really he just acts a lot like Batman but mostly uses combat skills, careful and quick thinking, and some of his powers when necessary instead of gadgets. (Sorry if I gave the wrong impression!)

So when it comes down to the Superman-Batman and Smitten-Skeptic dynamic, it’s mostly down to personalities. Skeptic prefers to work in the cover of night, keeping his identity a close-guarded secret while his brother, Smitten, loves nothing more than saving the day in broad daylight (and I’m leaning towards him just. Literally not hiding his identity at all. He doesn’t care how many people know he’s a superhero, even if this frustrates basically everyone else in his life). Skeptic likes to rely on his acquired skills, like knowledge and training, over his superpowers, while Smitten mostly fights using his powers. Heck, Skeptic tends to come off as standoffish and cold towards strangers and even to acquaintances/coworkers (and to bis family/ close friends, a bit of a matter-of-fact, no nonsense pessimist (not trying to dis him I just end up writing him that way a lot for whatever reason)), while Smitten is constantly in the city’s spotlight, attempting to be the bright and hopeful inspirational role model the city seems to desire (he’s become a bit of a weird mixture of arrogant and naïve because of it, I dunno how to explain it).

But yeah uh I’m not entirely sure what Skeptic would call his tools if he had them, though crow-crowbar in particular is absolutely cracking me up and I could totally see him unironically calling it that until Prisoner finds out and is like “are you being serious right now.”

Oh and yeah I also saw the Superman movie like…a little over a week ago I think? And as a fallen-off-the-bus Marvel fan with the average person’s knowledge of DC I really enjoyed it a lot (and it fed the brainworms who are writing this AU. That felt good) The superhero fans in my life are attempting to convert me to their ways and it’s working lol.

But I really need to talk about this AU more often, there’s so much here and so much story I need to share, come on in we’ve got the equivalent of S.H.I.E.L.D., Tower has an evil corporation and a secret magic-enhanced army, Razor gets character development, multiple people have identity crises because the truth is a crushing weight to bear, a time skip happens, space is involved, gossip magazines probably talk crap, Cheated listens to music (and fights to music in at least one scene), Adversary cries while simultaneously being one of the most powerful and dangerous beings on the planet at the time, trauma bonding for the house, the actual original game is somehow somewhat successful written into this, I desperately wish this could be an original story but unfortunately Razor is basically the exact same as she is in canon power-wise (and I think a lot of the character arcs are just too similar to the OG routes) so it would probably be dubious at best, IDK i need to vomit words onto paper and stuff it in people’s faces, ahhhhhhhhh-

gosh that was long, sorry if it didn’t make sense/isn’t really what you’re looking for, but what you’re talking about sounds really fun and interesting and I’d love to hear more about it.

Hope you have a great day!❤️

What if I just make Skeptic Batman

[electrozeistyking]

Happy Birthday, Beanie! :D

I designed her on this day one year ago :3

Fun fact: this is technically how Beanie’s fourth bootday went down. She finally got to try whatever awful concoction drones whip up to make cake that day!

Additional fact: originally had this one scheduled to post since my own birthday... which was apparently 230 days ago, but i meant in months. which in that case would be seven.

[shikai-the-storyteller]

I've been thinking a lot about Leonarda's not-death ever since it happened back in April.

("What death?" you might ask, to which I say: "EXACTLY!")

Back in mid-April, Vegetta and Leonarda were mining together in a one-block wide tunnel. A mob (a Petriman) got between the two of them, and Vegetta told Leonarda to step back while he took care of it. At this point, they'd spent enough time together that he trusted Leo to listen to him.

Instead, she was killed by the same sweeping edge bug that killed her siblings.

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Vegetta's reaction here is what's really interesting to me. Unlike most other parents on the Island, there are no shouts or tears – only a very brief "Hmm" and then silence. He very quietly takes stock of the situation, saying "Vegetta, no" and wondering aloud why Leo didn't defend herself. In chat, Foolish says "It was a bug, right? LAG" to which Vegetta slowly responds "Yes, lag. Bug." (Despite this, Foolish still asks "WHAT HAPPENED" in chat, though Vegetta doesn't reply).

Instead, he creates a slightly wider space in the tunnel where Leo's body is. He continues quietly taking stock of the situation, wondering why Leo didn't defend herself (which is what necessitated his intervention). She'd been lagging a lot that day, and he figures that must be the cause, and eventually when Leo re-appears out of thin air in the middle of the cave and collects her stuff, she confirms that the lag got to her and that's why she didn't fight the mob.

Now here's where things get interesting:

Vegetta checks the tab list. Online, it's just him, Leonarda, Roier, and Foolish. He quietly tells Leonarda "The body has already disappeared, and without a body, there is no crime. Nothing is happening. Did you die?" Leo shakes her head, and Vegetta shakes his head too, and in the kind voice he uses sometimes with Leo, he says: "I believe you have not died. Where is the body? It isn't anywhere, no mija. If it was a mistake, it was a mistake."

Leo says: "I saw Diosito (God) pa, and I was scared. God, what am I doing here?" and Vegetta laughs, telling her it's alright. Leo says "No pasa nada (don't worry / nothing happened)" and Vegetta says: "And the people who are watching us have not seen it either." To Foolish and Roier, he messages: "Secreto."

And the funniest thing about this is it worked.

Not a single person spoke about it. I saw this entire event go down live and I didn't see a WHISPER of what transpired among fans. I can't even remember if the QSMP official accounts talked about it (they sure didn't mention it in Vegetta's recap of the day). We could discuss this in meta terms of course– Leo was having known lag issues that day, Vegetta's beloved by the admins so of course they're willing to turn a blind eye rather than slap a "?" over Leonarda's life on the Eggstatistics, but meta talk isn't what I'm interested in here.

I'm interested in q!Vegetta, the weird "god-adjacent" aura he's got, and the way the universe bends to his will.

Before he took a break from the server, Rubius seemed to be a caretaker for the Eggs who died (for example, he was present when Maxo, Quackity, and Mariana & Slime said their final goodbyes to Trumpet, Tilin, and JuanaFlippa). Because of his role as an "angel" and some of his dialogue during the early days of the server, it's not a stretch to say he probably came to collect any Egg who lost a life. I can imagine he did the same when he saw Leonarda die – that is, until Vegetta said "And the people who are watching us have not seen it either." Realistically, we know Vegetta was saying this to Chat (and possibly the admins as well), but again, we're looking at this from an "in-universe" perspective.

I wonder if Vegetta was aware of Rubius' role, and this was his way of telling Rubius "No. I won't allow that to happen." We know Rubius has a soft-spot for Vegetta (and we also know that Rubius was cast out of heaven several months later) so it makes me wonder if these two instances are connected.

Either way, this isn't the first time the laws of the QSMP universe have bent for Vegetta, and I certainly don't think it'll be the last.

Rubius or no, Leo didn't die that day.

Vegetta made sure of it.

[charlie-dowds-migraine]

I've risen from the grave to present my Noel scribbles :)

Also this one I posted and immediately deleted on Valentine's Day that a total of three people might remember:

I couldn't stand how I drew John so I was going to redraw him and that didn't work either so I'm giving up👍 just pretend he's looking at John ok (his eyes are gold bc John is bright and shiny) I might try again later

[sidesteppostinghours]

i adopted this habit from fhr into other ifs i play, but it's so interesting to me to think about how a differently gendered ro might affect an mc's relationship with them. there are the obvious ones like sexuality changing the compatibility of a relationship, but there's also the more subtle ones that poke around a character's preconceptions around gender. for my sidesteps, cyrus is largely the same regardless of ortega or mortums gender (which is interesting to explore in its own right!). while cecilia's relationship with ortega wouldn't change if she had julia, ace wouldn't have dated mirlene, which would've led to her experience in ace being a lot more bearable as she wouldn't have to question her sexuality the whole time she hung out with mortum. she might even start Enjoying being in ace to hang out with mortum more, which is a ceci first. i also think the first time she meets mirlene, she's going to have a heart attack realizing she's kinda hot. which is Not the time to be having that realization ever at all. (putting the rest under the cut because it gets long)

compared to the relatively minor adjustments of cecilia and cyrus, caine and chance's relationship to their ros will look Vastly different depending on gender. caine doesn't have a relationship with mortum outside of business partners, and that's unlikely to change with genders. Ortega on the other hand. with ricardo, caine has been harboring a crush on him since their sidestep days, but was completely oblivious to it up until retribution. in a universe with julia though, he's been flirting with her since his sidestep days and openly considers her his girlfriend. while they're very close to ortega in both routes, the way they treat the two is Night and Fucking Day. he's dry, blunt, and generally touch averse with ricardo. julia???? they're so lovesick it hurts. if they're not holding hands right now he's going to implode in a million pieces. pecks whenever possible. he's sleeping on her lap. julia has a big dog basically. this difference in attitude comes from One place: ✨heteronormativity✨. caine's always been taught that straight was the default and never had good reason to really question it. throw in ortega's need to be seen as straight and ricardo never stood a chance. caine has always been bad at picking up hints, especially when deprived of his telepathy, but it's easier to recognize julia's flirting because he's already operating under the idea that julia is a straight heartbreaker. ric doesn't have that. any attempts at flirting is flying directly under the radar. sorry ricky.

as for the difference in behaviour, that happens because of what caine thinks is appropriate to express in a romantic vs platonic relationship. when they're close to somebody, they will get More stubborn and argumentative, because they're comfortable voicing their opinions instead of shrugging and going with whatever. ortega was the first one to breach his walls enough to coax this out of him, so they tend to get it the worst. that said, caine's got the vague sense that since julia is their girlfriend, they should be nicer to her, which is why the impulse to be stubborn is tamped down. he also gets clingy with julia because he's fully in control of that sort of touch and it does not occur to him that he could just. do all of that shit with his friends. he'd be casually initiating physical affection a lot more if he realized that was fine and normal to do with friends actually.

(and just for funsies because im Always thinking about him, in a butch chen au, i like to think caine would figure out they weren't cis a lot sooner than in canon. not because he got pushed to do any real introspection, but because of that thing that sometimes happens where somebody of a certain sexuality gets attracted to another person with an "incompatible gender" that turns out to be an egg. chen gets a crush on caine and caine goes like "now hold on a second. mr chen the lesbian should not be having a crush on a man. what's going awn here." it's either that or chen clocks them as nonbinary and caine picks up on that suspicion. both are very in character for caine.)

chance is definitely the most complicated when it comes to this though. with julia, she's bitter and betrayed and has her as his rival. she needs to burn down every stupid thing julia thought she could build with him. with ricardo there's just... none of that. nothing at all even. she is unnervingly detached to things. when chance has julia, yeah he's quiet, but you can tell there's something bubbling under the surface, even if that something is barely contained rage. chance with ricardo is just. quiet. resigned. his rival is replaced with her current self, and she's not nearly as prickly or caustic as he was back in her sidestep days. it's a real point of concern for ricardo, he doesn't know what to do about the fact chance is a ghost now. like caine, this had a lot to do with ortegas sexuality, but it was because of chance's expectations of ortega rather than an expectation of sexuality. chance flirted with both ortega's back in the day, but it was a different experience depending on their gender. flirting was wonderful with julia. to put it simply, she felt special. she was the first woman julia ever dated, and the fact julia was willing to potentially put her reputation on the line for him left him giddy every time she thought about it. sure, julia had a string of boyfriends and kept up the player act, but he was the one she would go back to at the end of the day. it was that belief that she meant something to julia that made her believe the promise they would always have eachothers back, and made it hurt all the more when she broke it. ricardo was an Entirely different story. he was always kissing women, so their fling wasn't anything truly important. a la that one line in the game, "what made you special? nothing at all. just another mouth to kiss." she was convinced he was going to leave her once he got bored, so the fact he really did leave him behind at the farm had no fanfare. there was no betrayal. only confirmation.

now for the part where it gets complicated: chance's past relationship with ortega had a lot of repercussions in the present. like. a Lot of them. as in, chance's relationship with the different genders of mortum is directly affected by the gender of ortega. the relationship table goes:

mirlene w julia: chance feels "safe" enough to date mirlene, as eden is a man and thus he wouldn't fall into the same trap as last time. she couldn't help comparing mirlene to julia at the start, and she was always on guard and very flighty. i think mirlene picked up on this despite chance's efforts to hide it, but she couldn't really put a finger on the cause. the fact she noticed how tense he was, though, alongside mirlenes general respect for boundaries lead to such a gentle experience chance couldn't help but relax. he's fully aware she's fallen for the trap again, but he can't bring himself to cut it off. she's waiting for the entire thing to explode again.

mirlene w ricardo: mirlene met eden relatively early into chance getting a foothold on eden's personality. unlike with julia, where chance is strong-willed enough to just inject her own personality into him, eden needed a push to prevent him from becoming a wallflower. mirlene's flirting drew out the chance from the sidestep days, the one that was stubborn and laughing and teasing. it was a surprisingly welcome adjustment, and it made him prefer being eden over being chance. she'll always be grateful to mirlene for dragging her out of her apathy.

merle w julia: No flirting. none. nada. she refuses. he is perfectly fine being friends with him. she is Not pining, he is Not staring wistfully at his hands from across the room or laughing a little too hard at the jokes with a scotch in hand. and even if she was doing all of that, it doesn't matter because they're friends and He's Not Pining. this scenario is the only circumstance where chance actually wants to reveal the truth to mortum. not because she's wondered if he'd ever want her in her own body though. obviously not. (never tell her about lover's triptych, he'd sink julias bike if he found out she flirted with merle. THIS ISN'T JEALOUSY GUYS IT'S ANGER ON BEHALF OF A FRIEND)

merle w ricardo: he was slightly startled at merles initial attempts at flirting with eden, but wasn't against it. like with mirlene, merle helped coax out chance's old personality. the biggest difference was that chance was a bit more wary about letting loose since she wasn't sure how to act as a man dating another man. this got remedied pretty quickly as merle began showing off his less glamorous sides. it was comfortable calling his boyfriend a dork.

anyway. aside from being an excuse to talk about my sidesteps and their ros, this was my long winded essay on how exploring gender is an incredibly interesting way to gain an understanding of a characters mindset . 👍

[fisheito]

The Yaku🔴sub⚫️dom⚪️neutral ratio check, SSR event units from left to right:

🔴⚫️🔴⚪️ ⚫️⚫️🔴⚫️ ⚪️⚫️🔴⚫️ ⚫️⚫️🔴⚫️

+⚪️⚪️OG SSR +🔴Story H +⚪️OG SR +⚪️SR Incognito Cafe

= 6🔴/9⚫️/6⚪️÷21

=29%🔴/42%⚫️/29%⚪️

Justifications for each room under the cut 🤨

Disclaimer: do i have an actual system for classifying what is subby vs. dommy? nope! i vaguely describe dom as "controls the pace/leads the actions" and that's it ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

Cocoa Liqueur:

🔴 R2: eiden grabs yakumo by the dick/forces him to take a break ⚫️ R5: baby's first kabedon. yaku goes jealous 2000s seme mode

Ocean Breeze:

🔴 R2: woe, eiden's oral skills be upon ye (try not to squeak too loud) ⚪️ R5: yaku going "pleasepleasepleasepleaseplease" and eiden answering "sure"

Crimson Phantom:

⚫️ R2: lost in the bloodsauce, immediate regret ⚫️ R5: better grip on the bloodsauce, Count Domkumo fully awakened

Dark Nova:

🔴 R2: "don't think. just follow my instructions" ⚫️ R5: yaku lacks lucidity and is hopped up on snake senses. less self-control leads eiden to go on the defensive

Shadow Lineage:

⚪️ R2: veers into dom bc yakumo's pinning eiden/eiden has no leverage, but net neutral bc yakumo still acts on orders ⚫️ R5: yakumo puts on a show for his annual outdoor sex evaluation, and eiden submits fully to snake bondage

Fateful Aegis:

🔴 R2: NAKED APRON YAKUMO ON HIS KNEES ⚫️ R5: yaku caught too many emotions again and drills eiden into the floor

Abyssal Pearl:

⚫️ R2: starts with power of Eiden Suggestion, but ultimately ends up in dom territory due to phenomenon of Domkumo Voice. ⚫️ R5: yaku shows eiden how much he wants him (it's a lot)

Sword of Determination:

🔴 R2: behave like a good student and you'll get a salty reward ⚫️ R5: plumbing be damned, you're getting splooged in the shower

OG SSR

⚪️ R2: they compromise on their horny goals because they have to get up early tomorrow for character development ⚪️ R5: eiden provides live feedback so yakumo will continue railing him against the wall, also stop apologising

🔴 Story H: yakumo learns what (human) sex is

⚪️ OG SR R5: respectfully, let's fuck *pushes eiden onto the bed* (mostly eiden indulging a pent up yaku)

⚪️ SR Incognito Cafe: eiden holds the reins in the first half, yakumo gains control in the second. a truly riveting game of push and pull.

[brucie-baby]

I've got a lot of thoughts about "Robin gives me magic!" and absolutely none of them are coherent but I'm sharing them anyway.

So for context: this line comes from a story in which Calendar Man is planning to kill Jason, and Bruce tells him that he can work the case but not out in the field. There's a whole thing here where Jason gives Bruce the silent treatment until Bruce calls him immature and sends him to his room. That night, Bruce apologises and explains that he can't lose Jason, and that sometimes Batman has to go out alone. Jason says he understands but sneaks out anyway, planning to take Calendar Man on his own.

When he gets back to the cave (after Bruce has been searching for him despite bleeding out), Bruce tries to scold him. This is where he says that line, and that Robin lets him do things he'd never have dared before. Bruce says that it sounds like recklessness, and Jason says no, just maturity. There's a few more bits here that I have a lot of thoughts on but these are the most relevant parts of it.

The thing I find so interesting about this is actually from a different comic from a little while before. There's this guy, Collins, who wears Catman's costume and believes it has this magical ability to give him nine lives. Collins narrowly avoids death several times (e.g. nearly hit by a truck, almost crushed by rocks) and he thinks it's the suit's doing, but actually, it was Batman following and saving him every time. While they're fighting and Collins is insisting that the suit gives him magic, Bruce thinks, "I've created a monster - he's completely reckless - unwilling to concede there's any danger his costume can't handle!"

Now I also have a lot of thoughts on this that I might get into when it's not five in the morning but the main one is this: "Robin gives me magic" is not proof of Jason being the happy, chill Robin. This is him giving Bruce grey hairs in real time. This is him thinking that he's nearly invincible. To me, this would've been the perfect point to start shifting him into his post-crisis self. I think Jason's too complicated to label him as just reckless but also? I would not say it's wrong to. He is occasionally reckless and he does act without thinking sometimes. And just to clarify, this isn't criticism. I love pre-crisis Jason. He's my little guy. That's why I hate it when he's just boiled down to 'the happy Robin' (and the fact that it's a stupid label for any of the Robins, please let go of that), because he's been stressing Bruce out since day one. Like, this is the kid who said "if you don't make me Robin I'm doing to run away to the circus," and then did. And post-crisis he's very explicitly written as violent and reckless. He's always been a menace, don't take that away from him!!

[lastmurianwarrior]

Drew PAT and he's basically flippable :O

[hballegro]

casts 'if i had a nickel for every time scott bakula starred on a sci-fi show involving an episode that centered around mpreg, id have 2 nickels, which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice' on you

[lynaferns]

Not to brag, but uh *leans on door frame* I recently sweep my room and changed the bed sheets.

(it didn't take me months of thinking about it but not doing anything)

((at all))

[whysamwhy123]

@spacegatito is the bestest, pass it on 🥰

[adreamofbutterflies]

Bet. What do you wanna do?

IM BOOOORREEEDDD watcha doin ? :3

-@protectingidiots

Uhm, sterilizing equipment? Actually, no, I'm not doing anything

[unnonexistence]

adhd is SUCH bullshit man like "i couldn't focus because it was too boring" at least makes some sense but what the hell is up with "i couldn't focus because it was too interesting and i got overstimulated and wiggly about it"

[boyg0d]

miss my boy and our banter and his pretty words and lips . her sharp eyes and sharp teeth and wit

[twpsyn-who]

Time-loop AU, but instead of being forced to redo a moment in life until the problem is fixed Jean gets thrown from universe to universe with the mission to save Marco.

Just that he always fails. No matter what he does, who he trusts, when he acts- he keeps failing. Marco always dies and Jean always finds the body first.

And Jean is tired. So many things happen at once, roles reverses and scenarios changed- he can't think straight. Dying means redoing the same scenario. Marco dying means doing another scenario. He doesn't know how to stop it. Doesn't know how to save Marco without dying in the process.

It is hell