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WYWS episode 10

For someone who has been shooting champion, I am surprised the father didn't shoot in chest/heart or head. I know that would end in Jae Chan's death, but, rationally looking, the father wasn't looking to just injure him, right? But to kill. And that'd do the trick essentially 100%. So, uh, I will just overlook this fact. (And apparantly, he did hit some vital organs, so...)

The hospital scene with single Jae Chan's tear as he looks at Hong Joo tore at my heart. I knew the clinical death moment was coming and it /still/ hurt, so that's saying something. And I think, this moment is Jae Chan's true bravery. He may act childish or cowardly a lot, but when he's on death's door, what he really cares about is not the pain or dying, but how Hong Joo will bear this weight. Weight he feels he has put on her.

I can deeply understand the seemingly unphased, out of it phase Hong Joo enters and the way reality of her own very likely future death hits like a truck. How she tries to be strong for Jae Chan's brother, but with her mom, everything tumbles out. It's so real and painful to watch.

The childhood/adult transition felt a little odd at hospital and even worse when Chief Prosecutor got involved. I cringed. Like, you don't do this to us, Writer!! It's not even funny, omfg. We get enough heartfelt scenes that say only in dream sense as it is. WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO US. (Later, I realized it was to give them a chance to sort both of their complicated feelings regarding their first meeting all those years ago. Also, wait, what. The earring is throwing me for a loop. AND JAE CHAN WHY DON'T YOU REMIND HER HOW SHE MENTIONED THE PUNCHING.)

Yu Beom doesn't let it go, that a-hole. Don't think everyone is as rotten as you!! Argh. At least they pointed it out.

Wait, did she meet Jae Chan or not? Apparantly not. I somehow really felt that up and down elevator scene, a perfect symbol for the should I or shouldn't I, what to do emotions in Hong Joo. Something in what Woo Tak said definitely is an echo of his own secret. Perhaps the good and straight image is the lie that is not a lie anymore, because he will keep it to the end. My heart aches prematurely for him.

JAE CHAN THAT IS SO THE WRONG PERSON FFS. (slightly skips through this part because too much second hand embarrasment) Hong Joo, you drama queen, tho. At least she didn't go wacko on Jae Chan and dealt with it with pose. (Too much of it, even.)

As for the prosecutor's struggle, it may be just filler, but it did add to the backbone of this drama about how wrong or right are emotions, our instincts and wishes to protect our dear ones. That perhaps there is no black or white category for some things, yet you end up feeling horrible anyway. The very thing that Hong Joo is struggling for 13 years regarding the event at reservoir. It reminds that sometimes, intentions or thoughts don't matter, but the action, the right one, does. The Prosecutor does not go to kill anyone who could donate kidney to her son. Hong Joo didn't let Jae Chan and the Junior Policeman drown. And that is what matters. Though it always leaves a scar.

And Jae Chan's words to the father were both painful and scarring, and healing. Again, Hong Joo worked as someone who opened his eyes to something, as a moral compass of sorts, because listing data would do nothing for the parents who have lost their child. Not before he had outreached his hand as a human and accepted their grief.

Honestly, this wasn't action or 'plot' packed episode, but it was emotionally important one. It provided tearing down of some walls our couple was not even aware they had between them. And for that emotional growth, we got awarded with some really amazing kisses. (But seriously, dream Hong Joo, get your man back to hospital and smooch later.)

Also, the way Jae Chan adjusted the umbrella Hong Joo was holding so she was more out of the rain, AHHH. These little things make me squeal!!

All in all, this episode felt very satisfactory! Though I fear next week will do something horrible to the little kid and his Prosecutor Mom, something I mentioned/dreaded in this blabberpost.

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#blabberpost | It always takes me a lot of days before I get to absorb everything and finally know what to say. And tbh rn, I'm still confused. I just am really happy to have spent years of my life studying Psychology. And to become a licensed psychometrician after everything feels really rewarding. Cramming what I should have learned for four years into six months isn't the easiest thing. And if seeing many of my friends not making it to the cut-off score isn't the most heartbreaking thing in the world, I don't know what is. My world fell apart a month before the examinations, and ya bitch aint got no time to pick the broken pieces because I still got to memorize Horney's neurotic trends and the values of the normal curve!!! What I know for certain is how much I am truly grateful for the people whom I shared this journey with: E, D, C, and S; how much I am grateful for the people who never doubted me and apparently trusted in my capabilities more than I do; how much I am truly in love with this field; how it has changed the colors of the world for me, how it has made me understand myself more, and how it has prepared me to understand people and help them when need be. This is for Psychology, for mental health awareness, for my friends and family, for you 💚, and for mankind. (?) Chos superhero lang. Haha. Congratulations to all #BLEPP2018 takers. Roger Angelo S. Lansa, RPm https://www.instagram.com/p/BqL3xSgFH6d/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=q1c6qptshjhg