#can u tell im kinda desperate for external validation (read: notes)

[terhangus]

170525 16:04. is this post cheating lmao, since i did everything in this picture yesterday? i have a 5-day holiday until exams start and i just spent yesterday journaling my life plan for the next 7(???) years and jotting down notes from an article in nautilus’ new issue, is matter conscious? the fact that the biology concepts immediately made sense to me while my head hurt thinking about the physics probably says a lot about me. thinking of consciousness as a hardware is so weird, but it makes sense -- we all never really interact raw-ly with the world. it’s all your brain, your consciousness, processing the world. i was giddy all through reading it lmao, i’m so excited for the future of cognitive science and all its sub-branches!! i hope i’ll be part of it!

now... for the life plan, it’s mostly to reassure and re-focus myself since... everything has been spiraling down lately. i haven’t talked much about it here, but i might not go to IBDP as i planned because of financial and familial issues, and that fact scared me so much that i actively didn’t want to talk to people for a few days. but i’m glad i did reach out in the end, because they reminded me that there is more than one way to achieve my dreams. and if going to IBDP and overseas for university is not the path laid out for me by the universe, i won’t regret that i didn’t at least try to make it happen.

(and hey, if you like that article, here’s another about reading online vs  in print!! the illustration for it is so pretty)