#casual vent art...? kinda sorta maybe

[2aceofspades]

Lil' bunny boy

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[dion-onyx]

Tl;dr - A cardgame almost made me cry for the first time in years (and I hated it)

Greetings, think of this as an animated storytime video but this is a rehearsal for my hopeful maybe non-existent youtube channel where I can vent onto the internet void with 🎇✨*~style~* ✨🎇

I guess tumblr is not just an art posting website for me anymore. This place has become so quiet, so I feel the most comfortable here. Anyway! Here’s the story!

So I thought I could rely on my ✨toxic masculinity✨ to not cry and embarrass myself in public. Well APPARENTLY not on THAT day.

It was on the previous weekend when I decided to go to a small card tournament to play some Yugioh. I have been going there on and off for a couple of years, and I have been losing almost. Every. Single. Game.

Now, some of you may ask:

“Why haven’t you bought any new cards and get better at the game?” - I have, I bough 3 decks, one of them I abandoned for other people to have for free because I don’t like that archtype and I’ve felt the pain of throwing cards away in the bin and I swore never to do it again.

“Why don’t you just quit the game if you’ve been losing a lot?” - Its one of my only chances to have a social interaction in real life. Otherwise I’m starved playing video games and watching tiktok comps on youtube. Loneliness can make you go a little bonkers I can tell you. But then again, I don’t go often.

Back to the story:

So I was going off the more competitive tournaments and playing the more chill ones because they’re more fun, I could actually experiment with my cards and played with decks that I knew could not win with regularly. And last weekend I decided to give the competitive thing another go.

Oh god.

I’m not ready.

Like not at all. Far from it. Fucking hell.

So the main difference between the regular competitive tornaments and the casual tournament is that the chill ones have mostly younger people, they’re either new or just having fun, and most of the decks that I’ve faced from there - while cool and tactical - are some I feel like I can beat (but I usually don’t).

The competitive tournaments however, are mostly made up of older dudes with too much time on their hands, oh, and their meta decks. Now for those that don’t know, meta-decks are supposed to be the most powerful, and give you the easiest wins, like, give them a turn and you lose kinda easy, and very broken.

So I technically had a deck that could become meta, but I’ve never been good at building them, and I don’t wanna waste a hundered dollars to have fun playing cards - this is why you scavenge the cards that people don’t want and use it against them like tHE FOOLS THAT THEY ARE!

I thought that I had built this deck, after two years of scavenging, building, researching, trading, I thought that I could at least reach the middle rank, maybe higher. I’m not super dedicated to the game, but I really thought that after getting used to what I have, and how I grown, that this time would be different.

First round, I play 2 duels one was a loss, the second made it a draw. I was fast and tactical, even during the loss I felt kinda proud that I made the duel last for a while. I don’t think my opponent was using a meta-deck that I know of, but it was pretty tough. Very scaly, lots of reptiles.

Round 2, I’m playing against a guy that’s coming back into the game, but he has a meta, Shaddolls. It pretty notable to me that what used to happen, whenever the shop runner would announce the 1st place and ask what kind of deck they’re using, everyone would groan and complain when they said Shaddolls. So I bought the deck, I thought about using it someday, but I didn’t think I would be going against it so soon.

So what? Even if the guy was new-ish, I wasn’t going to go easy on him. Even though it was a pretty chill duel, it was the first time I felt like I was holding back tears in a while - the last time being watching the first Frozen movie with my cousin 6-7 years ago (oh god, I’m cringing 🤢). Anyways, I lost both duels, it was alright, I think, not too bad.

Round 3, the opponent was playing with a pretty neat deck - Zoodiacs, I was curious about the archtype and seeing it in action manage to overcome the feelings of loss. I don’t think this one is completely meta, but it was pretty powerful.

Last round: The deck itself wasn’t familiar at first, they were using a few different cards, then brought out an abyss, and I thought oh cool, something I’m sorta familiar with, but then he brings out a card I thought was banned. It was the link monster for Phantom knights - Phantom knights of rusty bardiche.

It was another deck that I’ve bought, but it was also one that I tried to play, with that card. I straight up asked the dude about that card specifically, calling him out as others have done to me, he said it was fine. We continue dueling, I lose the first bit, I started stuttering, trying to concentate, trying to not ball my eyes out and I had no idea why.

Seriously, I was just playing the game, and I got progressively sadder and sadder and I didn’t know shit. But I did know that I was playing a meta-version of a deck that I grew to like. It felt weirdly personal. I could not speak after that, I was just wishing I didn’t exist at that moment. I know it sounds kinda cringy reading this now, but it really did feel like not so great day. Even after the tournament I was still feeling down in the dumps, basically lying to my mum about how ✨*good*✨ my ✨~*day*~✨ was.

So yea,. fuck meta. You know what? Fuck yugioh in general 👎 I might still like it, but I’m gonna be moving onto a different game.