#ceanna's ocs

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literally mindy and jude

FRRRRR!! Especially "I need to know. That when I fail you'll still be here. "Cause if you stick around, I'll sing you pretty sounds And we'll make money selling your hair." Is so them fr omgg!!

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In honor of it being the day before Halloween: Elijah and Cleo slay Halloween every year. They did the family costumes with Jude and Marley on the actual day of Halloween and they did their own costumes the day before. Elijah and Cleo def did a Gomez and Morticia costume like this one

i am OBSESSED with them and this costume (is Cleo taller than Elijah?)

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kurt cadwell sketch

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Fan art of my own OC, Ceanna the Fighter/monk

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Eesa and Ceanna: *discussing their cool OCs on their blogs*

Me, about to reblog my 528363737 cannibalism post:

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Impulse

Summary: Jude tries to navigate Summer's pregnancy and the issues with his parents

TW: Pregnancy, mentions of vomiting, abortion, arguing

A/N: Shoutout to Eesa for helping me make this more accurate

Sitting in Summer’s bedroom felt weird now. She lay beside me on the bed, quiet and tired. It was 10 p.m., and I should’ve been at home, but I stopped caring about being grounded 4 months ago when I found out Summer was pregnant. They knew she was pregnant and if things kept going the way they were, I don’t know if things would ever be the same between us.  Everything had been a blur since then. She told me she was pregnant a month and half after her parents found out about us; the night when her parents walked in on us. She wasn’t sure about keeping the baby but her grandparents were so pushy about it. Her grandparents were incredibly religious Catholics and they were appalled when they found out that their closest grandchild and potential favorite, was pregnant with an out-of-wedlock baby from an agnostic recovering addict. They scared her into not even thinking about getting an abortion. They told her she’d be permanently ruined if she got an abortion and that she’d have no choice but to go to hell if she did it. That lasted for 2 weeks, all the fear-mongering shit. Summer was already scared and on the fence. 

I still remember the day she told me she was pregnant. Summer looked like she was going to pass out the whole time but she didn’t beat around the bush. She told me she hadn’t gotten her period in a month, she was vomiting all the time, and her pregnancy tests all came back positive. I paid constant attention to her now: we had study hall together with Aria and I’d follow them out of the auditorium while Aria tried to comfort her whenever she’d throw up. I just stood outside of the girls' bathroom like a fucking weirdo, trying not to get written up for sneaking. She’d thought it’d all let up after the first trimester but it didn’t, she kept getting sick and she quit soccer this upcoming season because there was no way she could be on the team like this. She was probably going to have to go home bound like most of the pregnant girls at our school did. 

I didn’t plan to tell my parents about Summer’s pregnancy until the 8th to 9th-month mark. Summer and I thought this was best because then I’d already be moved out for college, and they wouldn’t have a say. That didn’t happen, though. Nothing had been going the way either of us wanted. They found out a week ago and things were still so tense. They found out when Ruby and Andrew had brought up one of Summer’s appointments. My parents usually tried to speak calmly whenever they were angry at me, but I don’t think I’d ever seen them so pissed before. When I came home from school that day they told Kai and Marley to go to their rooms so they could talk to me privately, but it wasn’t a private conversation when you’re in a screaming so loud that the neighbors could hear.

“You’ve done so much stupid shit, Jude, but this bad. Really fucking bad! Do you not understand that?! You’re bringing a fucking baby into this shitshow!” My dad was fuming. My life wasn’t a shit show but they never wanted to see that. I’d been sober for almost a year now, I was gonna go to college, I could get a better job, I could really fucking do this. 

“And in the last 4 fucking months, almost 5, you lied to us again! Do you think I wanted to find out that you got Summer pregnant because Ruby brought it up at lunch?  Do you ever think about how your actions have consequences?” My mom was shaking because she was so mad.

“It’s not that much fucking different then you get pregnant with me! You were an unmarried couple who’d only been dating and knew each other for 6 months! I’ve known Summer longer than you and Dad did! You don’t want to fucking admit that maybe I could be a good father!”

“That is not the same and you know that! You’re barely 17 and 18 years old!  You haven’t even finished high school yet. You lie, you’re irresponsible, impulsive, immature, and you haven’t taken responsibility for your actions! If you decide you don’t want to be a father anymore, we can’t fucking fix that for you! You couldn’t even be responsible enough to tell us when you found out! Were you just gonna hide it until she’s in the delivery room?” 

“You just think I’m such a fuck up, don’t you! I don’t fucking need this, I don’t need you! I figured out 4 months of the pregnancy and I can figure out the other 5! She’s giving birth in September so I’ll be out of the house before you fucking know it and who knows, you might not even see my daughter at all. As a matter of fact, I’m leaving tonight!” 

I was so pissed that night. My parents were still yelling at me and telling me not to leave, that it would be another bad idea but they couldn’t stop me. When I walked into my room, Kai was already sitting on my bed. 

“You’re not serious about leaving, are you?” 

“I need to get out and cool off. I’m not skipping town or anything, I’m just gonna sleep in my van or crash at Summer’s. I’ll be fine, I promise.” I wasn’t even looking at him as I started shoving my clothes into bags

“I know what it’s like to have parents who aren’t ready for you at all and never figured out how to raise a kid. I don’t want that for you, Summer, or your kid. It’s not fair.”

Kai was always right. He was living with us because of how awful his parents were to him. Calliope wouldn’t be in that situation with Summer and I as her parents, though. It wouldn’t be perfect but I wasn’t going the ruin my child’s life like my parents wanted to believe. 

“We’ll be fine. I just need someone to trust me. Please, just believe me.” 

I walked out after and I spent 3 days at Summer’s house. She didn’t mind me staying but I got the sense her parents and Lennon wanted me out as soon as I got there. It’s been 7 days since I came back and things were still so fucking tense. 

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I thought Summer was asleep by now. She hadn’t spoken in a while and the "Last Unicorn" VHS had already ended. 

“We need to start looking at apartments again.” She said, her hands lying on her bump. 

We were already starting to pack up some of the stuff in her bedroom. Her collectibles were packed neatly in boxes, all of the clothes and toys were packed away in containers, and there were huge boxes of pampers already stored in her closet. We were going to try to find a place by August and it was only April, but I was worried we wouldn’t be able to find one. 

“We can start looking more tomorrow.” 

“I just don’t know what we’re gonna do. I don’t know if we’re gonna have enough money when she’s born, I highly doubt I’m getting the money from my grandparents when I turn 18. They don’t even look at me the same way anymore. I just want it all to be enough for her.”

I didn’t know if we’d be okay. I could ask my parents for money and pay them back in the future, I could start working more hours, and I would still be getting money for performing. Summer didn’t want me to quit Wine Cellar, and I honestly didn’t either. I just want my girlfriend and daughter to be happy. 

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in the crossover au i could totally see marley and cade being into each other (i remeber marleys queer but i could be wrong).. theyd def go on sm dates to crystal shops and record stores and theyd go star gazing all the time

Deffff!!! I feel like they would do the thing where people recreate album covers with their partners (idk if it's a trend, I've only ever seen it on Pinterest). I think they would make jewelry together and dye their hair together

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summer is so very hachi coded and I think she would end up getting pregnant in high school with jude's kid. they'd keep it because I think that abortion hasn't been brought up to them before since summer grew up in such a Catholic upbringing, her parents wouldn't be upset if she got an abortion but her grandparents would tell her it was wrong and Cleo and Elijah were in a similar situation when she got pregnant with Jude but they kept him and it turned out well so Summer and Jude have a kid in their senior year.

TW: Mentions of pregnancy, teen pregnancy, and abortion

Summer and Jude are 17 and 18 when she gets pregnant, have only been dating for around 7 months, and their parents already don't like the fact that they're dating so there's so much anxiety and stress during the pregnancy. Summer's grandparents are very against abortion and she's constantly being told that she has to keep the baby and she has to get married to Jude. Both sets of her grandparents are extremely conservative in that regard and will not be letting up. Her parents don't tell her either way whether she should get an abortion or not, letting her make that decision herself. But Summer's grandparents have a strong influence on her and she already feels vulnerable, so she keeps the baby.

Jude is scared and confused. He never thought about the idea of children and he's not opposed to the idea of having children, he just didn't think he was going to have a kid barely 2 months into college. His parents already don't trust him anymore because any trust they had in him went out the window when they found out he lied about being with Summer in the first place. They think he's irresponsible, impulsive, and immature and the idea of him having kid at freshly 18. He has no plan of telling them until Summer is around 8 or 9 months he thinks it's better that way (shout-out to Eesa fr because they helped me map out this and came up with this idea). Cleo and Elijah find out at around 4-5 months because Ruby and Andrew had said something. They're not happy in the slightest because this is another instance of Jude lying to them and they don't trust him with a kid. I think he does compare his situation to the one Cleo and Elijah were in when she was pregnant with him, but they think he's ridiculous.

Essentially, I think that Summer and Jude are 2 high school seniors. They don't know how to feel, they're scared, vulnerable, and trying to become extremely independent before their daughter is born.

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you said that Jude loves the peanuts comics and all I can think about is Jude playing piano and Summer sitting on it or near it like Lucy and Schroeder

Omgg I love this! I remember I used to think they were cute when I was little when I watched the shorts and the movies.

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Ribbons

Summary: Summer and Kurt talk for the first time in so long.

TW: Mentions of sex, pregnancy

I sat outside the club, waiting for Jude to finish talking to everyone and packing everything from his and Kai’s set. I hadn’t been to a Wine Cellar show in 4 months since I got pregnant. It felt awkward going anywhere in Coralie because everyone knew I was pregnant and everyone had something to say about it, but we weren’t in Coralie. We were in Wilmington; only about 10 people here knew us. I didn’t expect one of those people to be Kurt but I saw her on stage. She wore a sleeved purple corset with dark purple details and a long flowy skirt. I hadn’t seen her in so long and it was a year since everything went down between us.

I don’t know how I would describe Kurt and I’s relationship or if I could even describe it as one. We hooked up for 4 months, from May to the beginning of last January but I ended it. I hadn’t been with a girl before and I didn’t even know Kurt that well before it started. I saw her around at school and I always thought she seemed cool. I knew she was best friends with Mindy, and she was friends with Roxanne. She was on cheer and I had homeroom with her in sophomore year, but I didn't really know her. I felt like I didn't know her until she kissed me for the first time. I spent 4 months having “fantasies” but I never let myself think too long about it. I liked the way we kissed and the way she let me take the lead when I wanted to or how she guided me through it when I wanted that, too. I remembered the way her perfume smelled or the posters in her room. I ended it right after New Year's. It felt like time had run its course and I didn't think it mattered to her. And I never followed up on anything because by the end of January, I was hooking up with Jude, and now a year later, I was pregnant with his baby. It's funny how time moves so quickly. 

Kurt was sitting on the steps when I walked out. 

“You can sit down here, Summer. I’m not going to stop you.”

 I just nodded slowly and sat down, smoothing the fabric of my sundress. 

 “Is it true? The pregnancy, I mean. ” She asked. It was like she couldn't imagine that I could be in this situation. I didn't believe it myself until my doctor confirmed it.

“Yeah.” 

Kurt sighed. She looked at me with pity. 

“Why Jude? I mean you ended it so you could hook up with him, right?

“No. I ended it because I didn't think it needed to go on that long. We're so different Kurt, it wouldn't have worked. 

“Like you and Jude aren't?”

 I wondered if Kurt was drunk. It was like all of her thoughts spewed out of her mouth, venom covering each word. She was right: Jude and I were different but it wasn't a bad thing. We had shit in common: we liked the same music and collectibles, we had the same humor, we bonded over how much we disliked our younger siblings, we used to go surfing every day after school, we liked the same art, we’re both water signs and I think that means we were twin flames. 

“Please don’t be a bitch, Kurt, I don’t want to hear it. Why are you so pissed at me anyway?” 

She looked at me like I should already know the answer. I could never figure her out. I used to write poems about her or try to figure out when I sketched her in watercolors or charcoal. I was always mesmerized by her black and purple bangs, her jewelry, her clothing, her makeup, the perfume she wore, everything about her intrigued me. When I was cleaning out my bedroom to decide what wanted to pack for when I moved out, I found her hand chain bracelet. The base had a long chain with a ring at the end, a trail of red jewels lay on the band. I never gave it back, it was far too awkward to give it to her at school or carry it around hoping I’d see her around town, so it just remained in a drawer in my vanity. It was something so simple but it just captivated me. Maybe Kurt used to have that effect on me?

“Why wouldn’t I be mad at you? I actually liked you, I really did and you just ditched me for some boy you hadn’t spoken to in 2 years. I remember what happened Summer. We were at his concert and we all started talking to each other backstage: you laughed and giggled with him for 3 hours, and then you left in his van after eye fucking each other the whole time. You fucked him like a week after you ended things between us. Of course, I’m pissed!”

I never had sex with Jude that night. Sure, I left with him and we went to his van, but we never fucked. I remembered it all very clearly in my head: I smoked more weed with him in his van and we played in the water like little kids, splashing each other with the saltwater waves like we used to do when were kids. We talked about how we both had read a book that week about the Acali Raft, we talked about The Muppets, how we were upset about missing the Stevie Nicks concert in Charlotte, and a bunch of other random shit. We did a lot of things that night but I didn’t hook up with him, not until February. 

“Why would you think I fucked him that night?! We just talked. Is that hard for you to believe?”

I could’ve sworn she scoffed at me.

“I can’t believe me but why does it matter to you? I wasn’t sleeping with you both at the same time, I wasn’t dating either of you, and you didn’t even talk to me. It shouldn’t piss you off that bad.

“Why Jude, though? Are you even happy with him or are you just trying to stay together for the baby?”

I was incredibly happy with him and I didn’t feel the need to defend my emotions to anyone, especially not to someone who wouldn’t believe me no matter what I said. I promised myself I wouldn’t stay with Jude just because were having a kid together. I didn’t want to be with someone I wasn’t truly in love with, I was so scared of looking back on my life and realizing I had spent years with someone I regretted being with. That couldn’t be how Jude and I lived our lives. It wouldn’t matter what I said to Kurt because I knew she was moving to Europe after we graduated.

It wouldn’t matter where Jude and I ended up because whether we stayed in Coralie Ridge or ended up oceans away in Helsinki, the world was too big for us to ever run into each other again. 

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This is so Cleo coded

Picture found on Pinterest

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Lennon would loveee Jellycats and stuffed animals like these.

Pictures found on Pinterest

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does Marley feel sad when Jude moves out

I don't think she feels that sad about Jude moving out. I think that for her: the relationship has been so strained, he's hurt her so much and there hasn't been any real apologies from him, and there's just been years of resentment building up for her. She's sad about how their relationship has ended and she feels weird about going no contact with the person she grew up with from day one, but she feels a bit relieved about him moving out.

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I'm writing a fic about Kai and Aria, and I just wanted y'all to know that Aria is a theater kid and that's gonna be talked about in this fic.

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roxanne would listen to ceechyna. shed def pretend to listen to her ironically because of the insane lyrics but she would 10000% fw her

Dude I just listened to her and omgg I lowkey vibe with her fr

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guh ignore how this is such an obvious breakup song but the lyrics “and all i taught her was everything” feels so elijah and jude

YESS OMGG!! Elijah and Jude's relationship makes me so sick fr. Because Elijah and Jude really did teach everything: the techniques he uses in singing and playing his instruments are exactly like Elijah's, he taught him about life and art, clothing, etc, and he feels like Jude was never grateful for any of it. They're so similar and it makes me feral omg