#chapterofsunrise...tobecontinued

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Once upon a Sunrise

Let me take you back to a few moons ago...see I wasn't always this loud mouth, problematic outspoken piece of something no honey, I belonged to a shell that was broken but attached, shaped but missing a few essential pieces. With that being said, I was in a moment of travel through this journey called life I had a father but instead he chose another family not me, so in this Town called City of lost souls I was happy, hell I even was satisfied at the fact that I never ever saw him, I mean can you really call it seeing someone when the only time you see them is once a every found pearl, I say this cause pearls are rare to find "just a figure of speech" back to reality, so while on this busted up taxi on my way through my life. during one of my fathers yearly visits, I discovered that this wonderful seasonal superman, belonged to another family. So shocked to my surprise I figured the nigger was working you know that's why he hadn't been in my life for so long. Regardless I gave him a picture you know those corny ones in your school uniform taken at some neighbours fancy house, I figured since he has two more kids let me just give him a memorabilia, perhaps he could frequent seeing his only daughter a few more times a year, I know right not gonna happen but still I had hope cause that what little black girls do, we have hope in in hopelessness.

Nigger took the picture home but he forgot about it in his Peugeot 407 .Yep that's why I never saw the NIGGER he had hidden a whole entire human being for a whole 12 years of her existence. SHOOT, now what does he do, anyway he forgot the picture his sons one of them bearing the same sorta similar resemblance to me found the picture and gave it to his mom.

OOOOPPPPPSSSSS sorry dad. Now fast forward to this big moment where I met this family and mommy part 2 gave me hope she had always wanted a daughter and god blessed her with one SHE WAS ME... Hooray I have gained a whole new mother seems sweet as hell, in fact I've in my heart replaced my strict mother with this woman who is treating my like Gold... Then now visit nr 2 I get woken up on a summers morning to a beautiful sunrise...get walked/guided into my supposed bedroom, dads  13  roomed house with a pool, I mean bliss compared to my moms L-Shaped RDP.

Then suddenly hands around my throat.... I cant breathe, I'm panicking, is this how people die? wait I haven't had a boyfriend yet. I stop take a gasp for air she lets go at the sound of her sister saying its not her fault, door banging, telephone ringing... She lets up I run to my brothers room and go back into this mattress on the floor, hide myself under the covers while my face is covered with tears rolling down like the Nile River. the brother that resembles me wakes up to answer the telephone cause it kept ringing while the door was being banged harder and harder. Then I hear this woman walking down up and down the passage screaming "I will burn this whole house down, with us all in it"  :(…..OH NOOOOO mommy oh strict mommy where are you now? I need you just to say goodbye and say I love you. closed my eyes and tried to block out the noise...thump, thump, thump goes my heart....hmmmm