#chris ramblings

[chronicowboy]

[a-little-ray-of-fantasy]

Chris Sanders characters who were built to be mindless machines (of destruction, in Stitch's case), but grow a compassionate heart thanks to bonding and develop a strong link to ducklings and goslings, my beloved!

[ithilien-writes]

cannot stop thinking about chris's shy hopeful "you'll be my dad again?" like goddddd

so okay. he went with his grandparents to get some space after a trauma. that's probably actually helpful at first. but then.. weeks start to go by and his dad hasn't come to get him or told chris he needs to come home. and then he starts to get inundated with snide little comments from his grandparents (who he also loves!!) insinuating eddie wasn't/couldn't be a good dad to him, which chris then interprets as them saying eddie doesn't want to be his dad anymore. which, in chris's mind is definitely a thing that happens sometimes right? like sometimes your mom decides she doesn't wanna be your mom anymore and just leaves in the middle of the fucking night. so here's this fourteen year-old thinking he literally drove yet another parent away and his grandparents aren't doing a fucking thing to dissuade him from that notion, in fact they're actively encouraging it!!!! like just when i thought i couldn't hate them any more than i already did..

[throatgoat4u]

oh my baby ☹️

he’s soooooo cute it hurts me :(

[apricustar]

there's something unbearably tender about the fact that christopher is symbolic of eddie's world—his everything—and it’s christopher he gives buck in moments where words may fail.

whether it's after the ladder truck incident, to explicitly giving him to buck in his will, or in 8x17, every time eddie gives buck christopher, he's giving him more than trust—he's giving him his heart on a platter.

like—this is the only thing of worth i have to offer you. this is the best part of me. its yours. he's yours.

eddie has been handing buck his heart piece by piece in the shape of his son over and over again throughout the seasons; i wonder if he even realizes all he's revealing in doing so.

[scrawledjournals]

rest in peace josh’s relationship status screen at the end of the game you will always be in my heart forever and ever

[dumbass-hyperfixations]

okay but, now that we canonically have buck moving into eddie’s house while he’s away, i can indulge in my own delusions a little bit. particularly, i really want there to be a parallel to that ana “i think we need to clean that kitchen first” “maybe you should go home first first” breakup scene when eddie and chris come back.

i’m thinking, buck welcomes eddie and chris with a big elaborate lunch/dinner when they return, at the end of which he’s like “so, I’ve already packed most of my bags and i’m all set to spend some time at bobby’s until i find a new place to leave, so i’m just gonna clean the kitchen and then i’m gonna leave and let you guys settle back in”

to which eddie (who has freshly realized he’s gay and in love with buck back in el paso) responds with “or you could stay here”

[sadgayeddie]

"Los Angeles was actually the job opportunity. Uh, but no ties here. Everything that matters is in Texas."

[trulygentle]

on the phone with bf!chris (press on pics.)

[enigma-absolute]

The two men on the road to Emmaus: haven’t you heard about the Christ? Were you living under a rock?

Jesus Christ of Nazareth, resurrected after His crucifixion:

[chronicowboy]

eddie calls buck when chris is asleep in his own bed. the one he carted 800 miles all the way from texas without even knowing if chris would ever want to sleep in it again. and he's just bubbling bursting with joy. and buck can see it the moment he accepts the call. and eddie tells him everything. all the way down to how much chris hates chess. and buck goes. oh thank god i've been trying to learn but i'm terrible at it eddie i don't understand a thing and i can never remember how the pieces move. and eddie blinks for a little while. you were learning chess? buck voice. well yeah i wanted to be able to play with him if i ever came to visit but i'm deleting that stupid app from my phone as we speak and i'm sure hen and chim are going to be so happy to be relieved of their teaching duties. and eddie is just silently falling a little more in love.

[aashiqeddiediaz]

i think there's something insane about the "you really did that for me" / "yeah. yeah, you and christopher." besides the most obvious points.

cause we've always said that buck and eddie tend to use christopher as a barrier to telling each other how they really feel about one another - aka the will for example. classic example of "i feel forever about you" "this is the most precious part of me, and i'm trusting you with it because i know you'll honor it." "he's my heart walking outside my body and he can rest with you because you'll keep him safe." and all those other things.

but this is the first real conversation where...eddie's finally having a realization on-screen that it's not just christopher that buck would do anything for. he knows buck would do literally anything for christopher. everyone knows that. this is not new information. but for him to be so shocked that buck, despite them "fighting", could do such a big thing for him - eddie's not using that barrier of chris between them in that moment. he's like...you did that for me. because buck did. he saw eddie stressed, compounded by his own behavior (intentional or not) and he fixed it all in one fell swoop.

but it is interesting that buck is the one that throws that "and christopher" in between them again, almost like he's kinda trying to distance them in a sense. maybe to preemptively protect himself from eddie leaving, and yeah, they're closer than they were the whole episode in that scene, but at the same time, there's only a split second when all the guards fall, just before they're stacked back up again.

[throatgoat4u]

STOP STOP STOP MY BABY IS ADORABLE IM GONNA DIE

LIKE OMG CALL ME CRAZY BUT HE MAKES ME WANT TO SOB WITH HOW CUTIE PATOOTIE HE IS :(

[apricustar]

we used to have buckley-diaz family dinners on screen we used to have buckley-diaz game nights we used to have buck and christopher going to the zoo so often they knew the layout by heart eddie said that on the engine all casual!!! WHERE did it all GO

[asoftepiloguemylove]

BUT WHO COULD LOVE ME? I AM OUT OF MY MIND // IVAN & TILL

pinterest // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Anne Sexton Complete Poems of Anne Sexton, "The Papa and Mama Dance" // Fall Out Boy Hum Hallelujah // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Ernest Hemingway The Garden of Eden // Florence + the Machine Grace // Elliot Wake Black Iris // The National Daughters of the Soho Riots // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Mitski I Guess // Adam Silvera They Both Die at the End // Lorde Writer in the Dark // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Margaret Atwood Cat's Eye // Chris Abani Dog Woman // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Warsan Shire Souvenir, "Our Men Do Not Belong to Us" // VIVINOS Alien Stage, "ROUND 6" (via youtube) // Louise Glück Faithful and Virtuous Night

[littlecrittereli]

Wanted to doodle some comfort bros to balance out the angst of my recent posts lol

Hey pookies! Just wanted to say I really appreciate all the love and support I've been receiving lately for Decoded! I always love your comments/asks/fanart/memes, it genuinely has been bringing me so much joy and I'm so grateful for it <3

I know I said I had a lot of art to post (and then proceeded to post none of it LOL) I'm just a little overwhelmed rn with some life stuff so sorry for the wait! I also have a lot asks that I haven't gotten to and I apologize for that as well!

Trying my best to keep up, but I haven't had a lot of time recently. Art's gonna be a little delayed, but don't worry Chapter 8 is still gonna come out this Saturday as scheduled!