#comments I use 'redacted' which makes it sound like [redacted] and [redacted] are the same thing although they're completely different

[vinyls-and-valentines]

Ah, yes, the two stances on canon: "you're fucking dead to me" and "wanna make out sloppy style in the parking lot?"

[awakefor48hours]

Hard of Hearing Mimosa

Part 2ish of another post I made. I really like this headcanon and wanted to go over it a bit more detail because I got too attached.

Disclaimer: I'm not a CODA, Deaf, or Hard of Hearing (HoH) so if I get anything wrong, I'm sorry. It's not my intention to misrepresent/hurt anyone with this. If I get something wrong, please let me know and I'd gladly fix/change this.

Mimosa Vermillion is HoH (headcanon) and starting off this post, let's look at her life.

We never get to see the Flower Vermillions' parents so we don't know their personalities, there's room for assumptions to be made about them that don't break the world-building.

The royals/upper-class members of BC are shown to have ableist beliefs and looking at Kirsch, it seems to be as if the environment they grew up and it didn't leave room for any other thoughts. Working off of that assumption, if Mimosa did have any hearing issues, that information would probably be heavily redacted.

If Mimosa (or another royal for that matter) was HoH, her parents would do everything in their power to stop that information from getting out. Meaning, she probably wasn't taught sign language and was forced to learn how to read lips and talk at a young age so that way she could pass as hearing.

There's also the matter of how Mimosa talks. She's quiet and soft-spoken. When it comes to people in the Deaf community, the opposite is typically true. Due to the hearing loss, folks in the Deaf community don't always know how loud they're being but if Mimosa were to pass as hearing, I could see the opposite for her.

When it comes to learning how to pronounce words, it's harder to learn the sounds words/letters make which can cause mispronunciations of common words. If Mimosa were to ever mispronounce a word, speaking softly could potentially avoid this situation. If she were to mispronounce a word, it would be harder to hear.

This could also explain why she's bad at reading the room. The thing about reading lips is that it's hard. Even if she was taught early, reading lips isn't easy. There's so many things like accents, speech impediments, yelling, facial hair, body language, and more that can make it hard to read lips. It's also recommended to make guesses when you don't understand what someone says (ex. "Hi, how ___ you?" and guess that it's "Hi, how are you?").

There's also a matter of tone. Tones and emphasis can change the meaning of a sentence (ex. the sentence "I'm so happy you" and "I'm so happy for you." are the same sentence but they have two different meanings).

So if she was hard of hearing, forced to pass as hearing, and constantly trying to read everyone's lips while also trying to understand their tone, it would be very hard to read the room.

Looking at Mimosa's character and how she presents herself in the series/thinks of herself is also important.

In Mimosa's introduction, Noelle says something passive aggressive to her but her aggressive nature flies completely over Mimosa's head. She just smiles and brushes past it. (Chapter 12)

Judging by Noelle's thought bubble and what we know about Mimosa, Mimosa didn't say this maliciously. From her POV, Noelle asked an actual question and now she's sending similar energy back to her. Using the heacanon that she's hard of hearing, this could be an instance of Mimosa not understanding tones in conversation.

There's also this moment that stuck with me (Chapter 17)

Mimosa calls herself "slow," a term that can be used in two different ways. The first way is literal, in the sense that Mimosa lags behind everyone else but that's not the case here. The moment they landed, Mimosa was attacked, even Klaus was surprised so I don't think she'd beat herself up for this.

Leaving the other way being a stand-in for a intellect slur. People with disabilities like Deaf/Hard of Hearing, are typically at risk of having their intellect commented on like this.

It's also very clear that others have said this to her seeing as how in Noelle says the same thing in a flashback (Chapter 19) and her character page calls her "an airhead."

Looking at this, this means Mimosa feels this way about herself because she was told this from others and has internalized it.

There's also her relationship with Asta. Pretty much every character in BC who has talked to Asta has commented on the fact that he screams nonstop but Mimosa doesn't. In fact, she even thinks his shouting is charming (chapter 22)

Asta's constant yelling is an unlikable quality that no one likes, except Mimosa. If she had a hard time understanding people, his loud nature could be helpful for her to understand what he's saying without needing to guess.

Next, looking at Mimosa's magic. At the beginning of the series, Mimosa doesn't know any offensive spells. She's part of the Vermillion family and all Vermillions are supposed to join the Crimson Lions when they get their grimoire. Meaning that she was supposed to be a magic knight from birth and expected that she would be on the battlefield but she doesn't know a single offensive spell. Not to say a lack of offense is bad for combat, take a look at Finral, but the fact that she doesn't know any is strange.

While plant magic is typically used for healing and support, it's not impossible to learn/teach offense. In fact, take a look at Kirsch. He uses plant magic, grew up with the same parents/in the same household, and he almost purely uses it offense, so why not Mimosa? Why is Mimosa the only one in the Clover Silvamillion family who just learned support spells? Here comes the headcanon.

Going back to the ableist beliefs held by the royals, if Mimosa was disabled, her parents may have wanted to train her to enhance her abilities so she could one day she could "fix" her disability.

Looking at Mimosa's history with her own magic, it's important to note her affinity for healing and the praise she received for it. (Chapter 19)

Her healing magic, even for a royal, has been shown to be on another level. I also want to look at the quote "a healer who can heal ANY injury." It seems as if this idea that she could heal anything was spread around her house a lot and who knows, maybe it was her parents who started this.

Even though the royals scoff at hard work, Mimosa was able to pick up offensive spells somewhat quickly. After meeting Asta, Mimosa finally wants to learn how to fight herself and is able to learn her first offensive spell (Chapter 114)

When they do meet again, Mimosa does say she hasn't seen Asta for a long time, she still learned a powerful offensive spell in under a year. She probably could've done this sooner if she learned at a younger age but she didn't.

There's also the matter of Mimosa's tracking spells.

Along with having a strong affinity for healing magic, she's also really good at using tracking spells. As we all know, royals have high mana levels but that doesn't explain why her tracking magic is so well-tuned. (Chapter 12)

While I don't think it's incredibly strange to know tracking spells if her specialty is support magic, it is a little random. But if she was HoH, using spells like this might be helpful for filling in the gaps that she can't hear.

Also, because I use my time wisely, I went through all the manga chapters and here's all the instances where Mimosa's hearing could play a role in the story and here we go.

During the Royal Knight arc, while Mimosa is introducing herself to Zora, she has her back turned to her crystal while they talk. She has her back turned to it until their crystal is shot. (Chapter 113)

Speaking from firsthand experience, when someone shoots at you, it's easy to tell where the bullets are coming from using sound (yes, I'm from the USA, how could you tell) but when their crystal was shot, Mimosa didn't know where the shot came from and needed to use a tracking spell in order to find out where the sniper was. Part of it was definitely because pinpointing where their enemies were hiding but she still didn't know where they were even coming from in the beginning.

Also, all the moments someone has their backs turned to Mimosa, she doesn't typically say anything to them

Chapter 14 || Chapter 116 || Chapter 136 || Chapter 155 || Chapter 210

When Klaus tells her to just focus on herself, she doesn't acknowledge it. Typically people in this position would say something like "yes" or "thank you" or "okay" but Mimosa doesn't.

When Kirsch starts talking to Mimosa, she immediately closes her eyes. If she were hard of hearing, this is almost the equivalent of covering her ears. But he's also very loud and close to her face as he talks meaning she could probably hear part of what he's saying.

Klaus asks a good question but Mimosa, who's looking in a different direction, doesn't even acknowledge Klaus's question.

In this scene, Asta and Yuno have their backs turned to Mimosa while they argue with Bell. While Mimosa watches, she does think to herself "what is going on" while this happens. At this point, Mimosa should know Bell well enough that she gets jealous but here, when everyone has their back turned to her, she doesn't know what's going on.

In this moment, Mimosa is looking away from Rhya as he talks about What Rhya has to say is acknowledged but it's by Nozel saying "prince?" but not by Mimosa even though she said something first.

This is another moment where I want to bring Asta back into this topic.

The first time Mimosa ever responds to someone who has their back turned to her is Asta. (Chapter 193)

In this moment, Asta is yelling and for once Mimosa says something back. It's a simple "huh" and "what" but she's still responding to what he's saying.

There's also this scene later (Chapter 195)

Mimosa is looking at David's body as Asta asks his question but this time, he's not yelling and she doesn't even acknowledge he said anything.

She doesn't say "I don't know" or "let's look around" or anything of the sort. Her attention is immediately diverted elsewhere entirely, almost as if she didn't hear him...

The other time when she has to say something even though her back is turned is yet again when someone is yelling. Noelle makes her speech loudly and when Noelle yells "everyone?!" Mimosa also pipes in (Chapter 265)

The next scene I want to draw attention is her fight against Robero (the tongue dark disciple), there's a moment when they interact (Chapter 253)

Robero says something and Mimosa responds to it but it's kinda clunky.

Not to say "we trained so that we wouldn't lose to people like you" isn't fitting in this situation but it's not, per say, the best response to this. It's almost generic, just saying that she trained intensely.

Saying something like "we will never give up" is a lot more fitting response to what Robero has to say. "Never giving up" is a term often used in the series and it ties back to Robero saying that she should "just give up."

If she was hard of hearing, then in this case, she probably heard him say something (and since she's wrapped his tongue, she probably felt the vibrations) but because reading lips in this situation is impossible, she's probably making another guess. In this case, assuming that he said a taunt, she tried to give out an appropriate response to avoid looking small.

If you like this headcanon and you've integrated it into your own headcanons, I have then the one thing I ask of you, please learn a little bit of sign language. I'm not asking you to learn a new language but I am asking that you pick up the basics. As someone who knows basic ASL and has interacted with people who are Deaf or mute, knowing sign language has been really helpful in these situations. Some of them get really happy/excited when they realize someone will understand them. Even if all you go to do is learn the alphabet and say "hi" that's enough.

Also, if you're interested, I do recommend the YouTuber Jessica Kellgren-Fozard. She's a Deaf lesbian with a chronic disability and makes videos about her experiences with her disabilities and her sexuality. I really like her videos and if you're interested in supporting a Deaf creator, she's a good one.

[balrogballs]

Are you able to tell us in broad strokes what your book is about? I totally get it if not. I’m just so damned curious about it that I had to ask

I always wonder if it’s something that’s already on my bookshelf or if I’ll ever find it one day

Anyways, again, I absolutely and completely understand if you can’t tell us, and I hope you have a wonderful day ❤️

Hahaha thank you and sorry I only just got to this!

Honestly it’s very unlikely you have me on your shelf, if I was on that level I would not be sat here making my redacted wink at Elrond on Tumblr dot com every day like a bat-signal. However, I was still in the chain retailers last I checked so maybe you might pick it up one day, who knows.

Broad strokes wise, have mentioned before but I cba to find the post again — it was classified as “world literature” which doesn’t narrow it down haha. I have my issues with that as a “category” in its own right tbh, because it subscribes to a 1980s/90s school of well meaning but dated postcolonial scholarship… (sorry I sound insufferable I realise, reading this back) but yes, that’s as far as I’ll narrow it down.

Idk if you’re the same person who asked about recognising style a couple days before this ask, but wrt that, it’s not likely either… I only have one book out so you’d have to be a huge fan of said book (which is also unlikely since *gestures at my comment re: my redacted winking at Elrond) to ever tell. Plus, my fanfic is where I keep my indulgent little stylistic cliches, autofictional shoulder-patting and nostalgic soapboxing from the activism days, so that I don’t feel tempted to do it in my irl writing, so that muddies the water even more. And after the whole Lindir debacle I am twice as more cautious re: authorial voice carrying across both, er, mediums…

sorry totally off topic anecdote but this reminded me of the time immediately post Lindircident when people on YouTube/TikTok were trying to guess what the book was and one of them suggested a non-fiction memoir about a guy being really into whales and having panic attacks over their strandings, and while it was a fantastic book and i was very flattered, i am to this day confused as to WHAT it is about me that implies “blonde guy who is into whales enough to have panic attacks in a fish market” 😭

[teriwrites]

Beneath Alder Creek: Part 4

My Live Reaction to Reading Through My 2020 Novel

So we've reached the part of the story where spoilers start becoming a bit more real and relevant. I've written out a full set of notes for everything, as I've been doing, but, as this is a full draft (as opposed to The Lies in the Legend, which was only the beginning of one) of a story that I'm very much so still working on and will likely rely on a lot of the same decisions/spoilers/etc. (as opposed to like Castle on the Hill, which will be changing drastically enough that showing you guys notes for the whole draft wasn't that big of a deal). All this to say, I'm going to be redacting certain information. Cutting out some excerpts and comments, keeping things vague, that sort of thing. I apologize in advance if the rest of these parts aren't as fun as previous projects, but I'm not ready for this guy to be Public yet.

Chapter 15: The Three Prophets

"How much farther?" Winnie asked for what felt like the hundredth time.' winnie would be a nightmare on a roadtrip

That lil convo with Llewellyn casting doubt over Taliesin's intentions really threw her for a loop

Classic 'landscape enshrouded in a thick fog'

And here they are! Wearing all black, including long veils that stoop towards the ground, and golden crowns, all very normal attire to find for bog witches

Uh-oh! Local all-knowing bog witches don't care about that curse you snatched off a weird tree-man

Don't have anything on you to trade? Sounds like the perfect time to strike a deal! :)

This is sure to go swimmingly and smoothly and not cause any issues whatsoever

Chapter 16

I can't tell if this is intentionally a janky transition or if I totally forgot to inform the reader about where they're going

'Though Taliesin had regained some of his humor, Winnie no longer took comfort in the deprecating jokes. Llewellyn had not convinced her of the Dusk Court's trustworthiness, but they had reminded her that the golden man deserved similar skepticism. If the woman in white could draw people in through dance, and Gelert could trick her using sympathy, Winnie would not allow Taliesin to use his humor to lure her into blind trust.' honestly? valid

Winnie's acting very coldly towards Taliesin and is Shocked that he was able to piece together why lmaoo

Friendly reminder that Taliesin wears a cloak and is also a drama queen and Absolutely uses both of these to his advantage

More fae lore: they aren't born, they don't die, there's banishment and even 'killing', but there's a certain cycle within the Fae that will always ultimately bring them back

Kinda love the idea of amassing power and influence from others as 'boring'. like, this man's ideal self is truly being a homeless, lowest-rung-on-the-ladder nuisance

'There was still a slight wariness about the golden man; Winnie could trust in his determination to get them through their deal, but she also trusted his sense of self-preservation that would leave her behind in a moment if there was real danger.' yeah, that about sums up where they're at rn

Chapter 17: Pixies

Casually hiking some low mountains, watching as some of the boulders move of their own accord. Typical fae shit

Classic rain storm while hiking up a mountain with no real shelter

But who needs to Find a shelter when you can Make one? And by 'make one', I mean 'shrink yourself and your human companion to the size of an ant and hide out beneath a boulder'

'Across the way, a crevice in the side of a rock was lighting up like a lantern's light bouncing off walls. There was an excited shifting of light through several colors, an ever-changing kaleidoscope of light through a prism.' ignore the nano-iness of that sentence, and focus on the fact that the pixies are hosting a rave

Whoops! Pixie found their hiding spot

Taliesin helping Winnie along when she stumbles and the two of them taking hands to stabilize each other as they deadbolt down this decline isn't very 'his self-preserving ass would leave me behind in a heartbeat' of him ngl

Oh, no! Winnie was stung

She's forced to lance the growing blister on her hand in order to flush the wound out with an antidote they nicked from Pryderi's

Very chill, very not awful to think about, very not painful

Chapter 18

But, right, we're back from our sidesidequest to our sidequest

'After several attempts to lure the birds, Winnie had insisted on resting while Taliesin formed a new plan. She woke to find him perched in a nearby tree, hands held to his mouth as he cried out in distorted bird calls. "You look ridiculous," Winnie told him. "Do you have a better idea?" (i love them your honor, these two dumbasses)

Winnie's 'better idea' is to lay out berries to attract the birds and then catch them in a net

But they don't have a net

So she hides in the bushes with her knapsack and acts as the net

It doesn't work.

'Laughter up in the trees revealed Taliesin's hiding spot.' same

Taliesin doesn't want to use magic to draw them closer.

He uses a spell anyway.

It doesn't work.

They get caught.

They're not having the best luck.

This fae woman just met y'all and is already done with your shit

Even Taliesin is like 'bitch wtf are you DOING??'

Literally, he says: "No! What are you doing?"

I mean, it's a very small ask, really, which definitely doesn't involve face-to-face interaction with a Very powerful, important fae

No big, right?

Ending Thoughts:

Since I'm editing everything else, I'm going to edit my wrap-up for this little section, too. So I can't talk too much about what's literally going on, which makes it a little hard to provide any thoughts about it. All I'm going to go ahead and say now is that Winnie needs to brush up on her fae etiquette, and quickly.

[fastcardotmp3]

tagged by my adored alex @gothbat99 to do a little self-love moment 🥹💛

rules: post five of your favorite fics that you've written and talk about why you love them. tag some mutuals so they can do the same and we can all spread some positivity about our writing ❤️

✨someone else's favorite song - 120k | rated E - I swing wildly on the pendulum between loving this fic for all that it is and wanting desperately to Fix It, but lately I've felt a lot of pride in this thing, warts and all. I went into this one thinking I was the extent of the audience for it and let the stream of consciousness muscle pull it out of me without much forethought, but ended up finding so much connection to the people reading it who felt seen or understood in some way in their own grieving processes. No matter where I am on the pendulum of feelings about this story, I am never not grateful that my own little catharsis has been able to create a sort of 'not aloneness' every time someone is kind and courageous enough to share their own stories with me in the comments 💛

✨that's just wasteland, baby! - 19k | rated E - I started writing this entirely because at the time I couldn't find any fics that really dived into what an apocalyptic Hawkins setting might look like and I wanted to READ it more than anything. It's so slice-of-life in that world and I had really so much fun building up the rules of the world and the dynamics between characters still in the fight but settled to an extent within a new normal to the point where even Steve can't even remember how long they've been doing it. 'the world ended but we're still going' is one of my favorite premises of all time and this universe is one I'm genuinely SO proud of without any equivocation about it UGH

✨how the light gets in - 29k (wip series) | rated T-E - if there are going to be one million and one versions of kas!Eddie (including my own) there HAS to be a kas!Chrissy and by god if I have to do it myself I WILL. Wheelingham is one of those things that just smacked me in the face one day when I realized the unending potential of taking a fridged girl, bringing her back to life, and making her kiss the final girl, like... COME ON. This series is a labor of love and it's truly such a joy to do a proper character study on two girls who have so much untapped potential built into their psyches. they're my babies I am holding them gently in my hands and never letting go :(((

✨METAMORPHOSES - 160k | rated E - I think of everything I've written for ST, this might be the thing that's most structurally sound writing-wise, like it's long enough that there are definitely spots it could use smoothing, but I am genuinely so proud of how it turned out and how it told the exact story I set out to tell. I love these characters, I love their little house in Indy, I love the ways they grow and regress in tandem, I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOR. Never has a vision I had at the start ended up feeling So Right to this extent and I will never stop screaming about this fic just you try to stop me 💚🐍

✨The Hawk - 10k (wip series) | rated T - "The Bear" AU that no one asked for but which I am wholly and completely enamored with only 2 'episodes' in. Another chance at a Nancy-centric story with the added bonus of getting to write so many POVs of a larger ensemble? Incoming Ronance and Lumax and Steddie and Jargyle?? Wheeler sibling dynamic exploration?? it's my DREAM tbh and it's surprisingly simple to slot our ST characters into this wildly different world because you know what! At the end of the day it's all just about family isn't it!!! UGH. Once I'm done with writing (redacted) trust that I will be launching myself back into this one full-force, I've got so many plans and I can't wait to show you all more of this world

(if you've already been tagged apologies but also) tagging! @kkpwnall @fragilecapric0rnn @judasofsuburbia @gideoncharov @figthefruitfaeth @cheatghost @stargyles @capriciouslyterminal @sharpbutsoft @hellsfireclub

[geneeste]

20 questions for fic writers

Tagged by @mrv3000 like, last year, but we'll just pretend that isn't true!

1. how many works do you have on Ao3? 53

2. what’s your total Ao3 word count?

It's about to be higher, but currently 236,415 (89k of that is co-written with @machawicket, though, so I can't claim it all!)

3. what fandoms do you write for?

Arrow, Stargate SG-1, Bones, Timeless, Pitch, and a few others that are sort of incidental to the main ones.

4. what are your top five fics by kudos?

I'm pretty sure all of these are going to end up being Arrow fics (Genie's note: ha! I was right!):

Our Version of Events falling in reverse Chips and Dip (With a Side of Sparkle) Cabin in the Woods The Male Prostitute in the Club With His (Word Redacted Due to Content)

5. do you respond to comments?

I try really hard to!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I was going to say Forfeit (SG-1), but honestly I think it's a toss up between that and time's right but the clock's wrong (Arrow).

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

This one's tough, because my angst to happy ratio can be pretty hight in my fics, but in terms of, like, purest fluff, probably How the Day Sounds (Arrow).

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I have, especially in the Arrow fandom because it's probably the biggest (and therefor has the most potential for toxicity), but it disappears fast.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

LOL yep! I do write explicit smut, but even that is pretty vanilla (which is not to say that's bad, and maybe one day I'll write kink, but I haven't yet).

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I imagine a lot of crossovers, but I rarely write them. The only one I've done (to my recollection) that didn't involve characters from different shows but still in roughly the same universe was The Male Prostitute in the Club With His (Word Redacted Due to Content) (Arrow), in which Oliver Queen met his doppelganger, Jason from Hung. It was ridiculous, and fittingly, my first fic in that fandom.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of. Honestly, for the most part my fic is too short for most people to bother with, I think.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? 

I wish!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Absolutely! There's obviously Our Version of Events with @machawicket, and I wrote a few SG-1 fic with @danveresque back in the day. I really enjoy co-writing, although I'm almost always the one slowing us down.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Sam/Jack from Stargate SG-1. It was my first love and the only one I come back to over and over.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I am reserving my 5th amendment right not to incriminate myself.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I like to think I'm pretty good at characterization and nailing a character's voice. I also enjoy writing dialogue, although I don't know that that makes me good at it. I'm also pretty good at hitting the emotions I want to hit in a scene and also writing emotional complexity.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Writing consistently and to completion is a big weakness -- a result of poor executive function skills and high perfectionism, ha. I'm also great at coming up with big sweeping plots and terrible at executing the details of them. And, until recently, I clung a little too much to thinking fic needs to be realistic and grounded -- now I understand that fic can be as ridiculous as I want, because what matters is how much fun I have writing it and whether it gives me the serotonin I'm seeking (as @mrv3000 put it).

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I'm incredibly impressed by folks who might be polyglots who can do this. I, sadly, cannot.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I honestly don't remember! I have a notoriously bad memory of my childhood and I got into fandom very early. But the first fandom I published a fic in was Stargate SG-1.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

This is like asking who my favorite child is. I don't think I can answer with just one! Favorite funny fic is probably Cabin in the Woods (Arrow). Favorite fic where I just slid easily into the character's voices? Probably the devil's right there in the details (Timeless). Favorite (and only) remix? reclaim (the destiny rules remix) (Stargate SG-1). Favorite angsty fic (of which there are maaaany), probably god himself would call it justice (Arrow).

I'm trying to remember who recently I know has been writing -- I'm going to zero-pressure tag these just a few people, but if you're writing, consider yourself tagged! @annerbhp @mylittleredgirl @sharim28 @joracwyn @starrybouquet @anretc @tielan

[frostyreturns]

“I’ve said for a long time the gmm show/guys are satanists and have speculated that the show (which is rife with pedophilia and occult symbolism) is at least occasionally a front for sex trafficking. Remember in the wikileaks docs where we found out the elites were auctioning off children under the guise of a concert, where they could covertly put children up for sale and the auctioning was mixed in with the weird show so that a casual observer would have no idea what was going on, and would just assume it was some weird avant garde thing... but people who were there to bid would know the signs and codes and how to bid. On past blogs I’ve detailed other similar epiosdes that looked to be doing the same thing... Well take a look at this gmm episode in particular. Keep in mind Rhett has claimed previously that he does have family members who belong to a secret society and has on the show been accussed of abandoning their faith to serve the devil in exchange for fame and money and his response was “that’s exactly right, how did you guess it exactly.” But he said it in that jokey I’m telling the truth in a sarcastic voice kind of way. 

Anyway not every episode looks as nefarious as this one so this kind of content is an outlier but it’s not unique and it’s loaded with red flags.

Red flag #1: Guest is accused pedophile Seth Green who was named by a man who was shortly thereafter “suicided” who claimed Seth personally approached him and revealed not only that he was a pedophile but that Seth tried to recruit him and revealed a dungeon full of chains and childrens toys that he claims Seth said “this is where we keep the “chicken” chicken being a placeholder word for children. What was that show Seth Green did again? You know the one that opens with something being strapped into a chair...robot something...

Red Flag #2 Remember me saying chicken was a common pedophile placeholder for the word children

Red Flag #3

The use of gavels...you know like at an auction

Red Flag #4 This was one of the categories of this game they made up for the episode...a game they never played previously and have not played again.

The round also required the person to give a number, that number could be associated with a monetary value and could constitute a bid or an opening bid. And the person was also asked to detail their sexual skills, which could be the covert description of the person for sale. Also a link quote from this round was “I’m going for a 5 star review and a lot of yelping” which didn’t make a ton of sense in the context unless you see it’s more nefarious potential meaning.

Red Flag #5

In the next round they were required to read out loud their last text exchange. And what he read sounded suspicious as all fuck in the context. This is supposedly the last text exchange in rhett’s phone between him and link “How long of an adventure are we looking for?” “Roughly how many days, the longer the deeper you can go.” “(redacted name) has a lot of experience with this.” “I was thinking two full days, plus a fly day on either end to keep it to four days.” Sounds like maybe what’s up for sale includes a trip somewhere...maybe an island of sorts? Links description said somethign about having a bush removed that made no sense within the context of what he was saying...but again made sense if viewed in the lense im presenting.

This is just me speculating based on what has been exposed about how these types operate, but also keep in mind this is not an isolated thing this is just one of many examples of very suspicious content these shills have put out over years. Like when they did this episode about “products for dragons” 

That episode had them “joking” about eating babies where they make hilarious jokes like speculating that babies taste like lamb, and asking for blood to wash down the immitation baby meat and wondering if it would simulate the screams of a baby being eaten as well. Link even makes a comment about it being kosher for jewish dragons. Seems weirdly edgy for such a neutered tame youtube safe channel meant to be sterilized for mass viewing no? This is also just one of many examples of them simulating eating children over the years. They’ve also eaten ribs out of baby dolls, simulated eating the face off a doll in a separate video and “joked” about eating salt brined children as a christmas snack. So it’s not just one goofy video that could be misinterpreted it’s a pattern.

Again I’m just speculating I have no inside knowledge of these guys or of the people behind their show apart from what they themselves present. But man I feel like you’d need to do more mental gymnastics to disprove what I’m saying than to confirm it...but that’s just me.

[nebulations]

[ID: Image one is the chapter cover of Naruto chapter 485: "So Close, Yet So Far". It features Naruto and Sasuke standing in front of each other with intense expressions. Following is a collection of comments by redacted users left on March 3, 2010.

Is it only me that think Naruto on the cover looks sorta weird? / Looks like he's going in for the kiss

Is this a romance drama? Is Kishi watching too much soap opera? / Yes and yes.

this is a yaoi manga. kishi probably was in love with his friend or something / Brokeback Naruto (smirking sticker)

That's borderline gay AND stolen from Hinata's confession. Poor girl, he ignores her and instead tries to use her confession on Sasuke. (laughing sticker) / Kishi has trolled the NaruHina fandom once again (Cookie Monster sticker)

why are people acting like this chapter is off the scales gay? their part 1 meeting was many times gayer. people should be used to these little speeches.

BS (angry sticker) that doesn't make sense. this means that sasuke had the same influence on naruto as eurica had at that time (wailing sticker) / That flashback Naruto had at the VotE in which he smiled at Sauce and Sauce smiled back, love at first sight (Cookie Monster sticker)

Sasuke and Naruto, Ying and Yang, Romeo and Juliet... Epic love story right there,

I'm hoping I translated wrong...it sounds so...gayish... (horrified emoji)

This is the gayest manga in history. There are yaoi and shoenen ai mangas that aren't as gay as this

wonder what karin is thinking about this "no wonder sasuke never liked me he had Blondie all along."

I'm not bitching, I'm laughing my ass off. At this point, I want to yell out "Get a room you two!"

Kishi drew Sasuke with the rasengan and Naruto with the chidori as an attempt to strengthen the idea of Naruto and Sasuke being like "soul-mates"

wonder if there a fetish for Naruto and Sasuke trend to clash Rasengan and Chidori. They still don't realize that doesn't work? / That's how they express their love for each other (Cookie Monster sticker) It turns them on (Cookie Monster sticker) Sex through chakra (laughing sticker)

I have no idea where kishi gets his material from no kid ever have these gay talks about feelings is this how he got down in school??? He must be thinking naruto & sasuke are girls talking about these feelings crap. Is there a special edition chapter realese without teh gay lines???

yak... That's official Yaoi Manga / Not Yaoi. Shoenen ai. Yaoi would be Naruto buttfucking Sasuke on panel. And that won't happen no matter what.

Lol oh god. Terrible Naruto, just terrible

When will this gayfest come to an end?

lol at reactions/ NF is crowded by homophobes. End ID]

[distant-screaming]

1, 3, 10, and 24 for the fic ask game!

Hello anon o/! Fic ask game my beloved :)

1 - What’s something new that you tried in a fic this year? How did it turn out and would you do it again?

In terms of technical style usage, the fic that was the most experimental was analogues (nueng + chopper parallels fic) - and I really liked it! I think it turned out pretty well, though I would probably use more html if I did a style like that again to make it look visually better.

If we're talking about fic content, then... my tinngun fic a house (for two) probably was the most experimental one this year - I wrote it in second person and there's no actual dialogue! It was pretty fun to write honestly, I would definitely do another one like that - but I don't know how well it turned out. I tried using little details and references but I'm not sure how many of those translated properly into the story, so...

3 - What’s something you learned about yourself as a writer?

Probably that I'm great at angst, not so great at describing action. I need to get more used to writing what's actually happening instead of just introspective fics/snippets :')

10 - What fic made you feel the happiest to work on?

Honestly, all of them! I love writing my silly little fics :D If I had to choose though, my wlw tinngun au gave me SO much serotonin every time I wrote it (and the comments were so so wonderful!).

If we're counting unfinished fics, I also had a ton of fun writing a soundwin [REDACTED] au with @soundwin :33

24 - What's something that surprised you while you were working on a fic? Did it change the story?

One of my soundwin au fics, infuriating(ly pretty) is probably the fic that went through the most revisions. Soundwin aren't too difficult to write, but Win's relationship with Sound in a non-canonical (technically) context was not as different as I expected it to be which was kind of surprising! They're the same in every universe this is true and canon. Anyway it definitely did change the story, though the basic plot stayed the same!

I don't know when to stop talking this is unfortunately true

[persianflaw]

H, N, Z, T 👀

💋💋💋 keeses u

H: How would you describe your style?

[shuffles through papers in a blind panic, running my hands through my hair as i question not only how i write but in fact whether or not i have ever written a word in my life] hahaha i can answer this easily :) uh, kind of a combo between simple and fancy? i like the contrast of having almost stream-of-consciousness sentences mixed in with short, very straightforward ones. i bet there's a word for that or at least a nicer way of phrasing it but unfortunately i'm not a writer

N: Is there a fic you wish someone else would write (or finish) for you?

[long redacted comment about the embarrassing kinkfics of my dreams] but also i had an idea for a fic loosely based on futurama's "the sting" and i wish someone would write that because it would be cool as hell

T: Any fandom tropes you can’t stand?

i don't know if this is too close to my issue with mundane/modern AUs, but chatfics. the characters never sound like themselves, they always have funny pun usernames that sound like cool tumblr urls and not the boring thing a grown man would use, and they would never use a group text in the same way as a bunch of teenagers. which... actually, okay, if it IS a modern canon with appropriately-aged characters that's fine. now that i think about it i'd love to see a bottoms chatfic with the humor styling of the movie, that would be hysterical

Z: Major character death–do you ever write/read it? Is there a character whose death you can’t tolerate?

I LOVE MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH FEED IT TO ME YUM YUM YUM 😮😐😮😐 <- me chewing... on the mcd i guess... i may have gone off the rails slightly. i don't think there are any characters i wouldn't want to read about aside from little kids, but most of my fandoms don't have little kid characters like that. and even then, i read a gut-wrenching fic along those lines about ten years ago and it was really lovely, so even then i've got exceptions.

oh, but you know what? for some reason, daniel pierce dying really gets me in my feelings. which is funny because almost everything we know about him comes from hawkeye, he's not his own character. but the fics i've read where he dies make me all sad and smooshy :( i guess i like what he represents, yk?

[hobgayblin]

Happy 4/4 I finally sat down and wrote my 2000 word essay on Jhin’s gay coding and why he’s a gay gay homosexual gay

I think tumblr is still weird with links so I’m going to post it under the cut and also link in the comments.

IMPORTANT NOTES: 1. I am insane I know this thank you mwah 2. This is mostly unedited because I am tired so if things sound weird I’m sorry gdfhfs 3. This is not meant for argument I don’t care if you think he’s another sexuality but I don’t want to hear it on my post about why he’s gay. I will block you ❤️

The (Probably Unintentional) Gay Coding of Khada Jhin

Since his release in 2016 Jhin as a character has hexed and bewitched me, a humble homosexual. Jhin is to date still one of the most interesting characters in League of Legends in all aspects: design, theme, lore, and character wise. One thing that has also caught my interest about him in all my insanity driven frantic delving into his character is the very subtle gay coding that exists in the writings about him. Very subtle meaning of course, easy to ignore and in some cases perhaps not even canon any more, (such as background information that was given about him on old official riot boards that have since been taken down). The coding still exists, however, and I’m going to unearth it like an archaeologist driven by some divine madness to tell everyone why this pixel man is gay.

To start off, it’s important to understand what gay coding is as well as why and how it’s used. Gay– or the more general Queer-- coding is a type of subtext in media used to imply a character is LGBT+ in nature without explicitly stating it1. Historically it’s been used in times where creators are legally unable to confirm such things, or cannot otherwise because of moral taboos against queer people. The same is still true now, especially for big game studios like Riot who don’t want to confirm their character’s being gay due to queer content being restricted in some countries internationally. However, this phenomenon cannot be blamed by that alone, as it is still largely due to homophobia in League’s NA servers, and Riot’s cowardice. This is especially true for not confirming characters as gay men as opposed to the several lesbians and bisexual women riot has confirmed, but that’s a topic I’ll get into later. Now to explain how the gay coding works it’s very simple: Use tropes commonly associated with gay people. To explain how some of these tropes are used, we’ll look into Jhin’s actual character, quotes, and backstory.

Immediately looking into the backbone of Jhin’s character we find the arts. He’s very theatrical, even working in the theater for quite a while in his youth, and obviously obsessed with creating art. While these aren’t exclusive to gay people by any means, these are both interests that are highly prevalent in gay communities and used to make characters in media read as obviously gay. Theater and the arts are also seen as more feminine, flamboyant, and campy in nature, which is also tied to gay men. Obviously Jhin isn’t interested in theater like a character from Glee, but he certainly fits into the role of “flamboyant performance artist5,” just more nuanced and evil. Again, obviously not every man interested in theater can be typecast as gay. The flamboyant nature and tone of most of his voice lines and speech mannerisms2,6 that go with his theater background, however, make it very gay. I don’t even have a semi-academic or succinct way to describe how the tone and wording choices for Jhin read as gay (without taking 10 pages to discuss every line). I, as a gay man, simply look through or listen to the words he says and think “okay [SLUR REDACTED]” we get it, you’re gay. Moving away from the association with theater and flamboyancy as obvious gay signaling, there are some other bits of Jhin’s character that read as gay as well.

On his release or near it, one of Jhin’s writers did an AMA (ask me anything) about him and his backstory. Tragically, the original boards were deleted, but a summary of some of the points was made by a reddit user4 on a discussion of his backstory. Before getting into it, it is important to note that technically none of what has been said in the forums/reddit threads is official canonical lore, or could be easily retconned in future stories, but I will be discussing it anyway because I think it’s important to the character. In the thread the fact that stands out the most to me is Jhin’s strained relationship with his father. Even going so far as to say “his father never accept[ed] him for who he was4.” Which of course is probably in reference to a young Jhin’s budding fascination with death, but is also the most explicit, slap to the face instance of gay coding in his character. The exact phrasing of his father “not accepting him for who he was” is a sentiment gay men, and other queer people, can frequently relate to and is usually used in media to tell that a character is gay. Again it has the plausible deniability of being about Jhin’s interests instead, and being on a social media board instead of written into canon, but it’s some of the only information we have regarding Jhin’s younger life/relationship with his family at this point in time. Going along with that also there is a point in the thread about Jhin’s father forcing him to learn his method of fighting with chi-daggers as opposed to letting him learn his own way (and then him rebelling by learning his own way anyway)4. This point isn’t directly related, but it’s not unusual for fathers to try to force their gay/seemingly gay sons into more “masculine” activities (such as fighting in this case) as if that will steer them away from being gay. Moving away from the bits of technically unconfirmed backstory (for now), there’s more to explore in his canonical interactions as well. 

Up to this point in my analysis most of Jhin’s coding can be interpreted as a general sort of queer coding. Everything mentioned could also be applicable to bisexual men or any other form of queer man as well, but Jhin has something extra that really pushes him into the category of specifically homosexual, in my eyes. In almost every instance of writing Jhin has been in, whether it be the Zed comic, or his short stories, or even his voice lines in the game itself, Jhin has shown explicit disinterest in women. The in-game voice lines are the most subtle of them for sure, and could probably be taken as misogyny instead of a nod to homosexuality. With how he comments on Miss Fortune “needing a wardrobe upgrade6” and Illaoi wearing “too much gold6” it doesn’t just read as him being rude, it invokes a couple other staples of gay tropes: 1. Being a catty bitch, and 2. Having an interest in and commenting on people’s fashion choices. This isn’t limited to the women either, he also comments on Tahm Kench’s fashion choices in two separate voice lines, so he clearly has at least a passing interest in fashion (gay). In the comic and his short story, however, his disinterest is much more explicit. He has, on multiple occasions, referred to women as looking “boring”-- In both the Zed comic2, when he is talking about a woman Zed has a crush on, and also his color story The Man With The Steel Cane3, when he is referring to a woman at an inn he’s staying at. Perhaps he is just talking about how boring conventionally attractive women look, but in a world where every single character is made to be beautiful and conventionally attractive I doubt there would be any women he doesn’t find boring. And also given his highly theatrical character, “boring” seems to be one of the worst things Jhin could find someone; how could he make art out of something boring, something devoid of inspiration? This also sticks out as disinterest in women due to the fact that it’s been said more than once, in what is technically two-thirds of the written stories for him. One could argue he is also not interested in men or any other gender either, and in fact the same message boards that gave us some of his backstory would agree with that. However, I am gay and I make the rules.

Much of this coding as well as a couple other things could potentially point towards Jhin being asexual, or even both gay and ace. Unfortunately I cannot find a good source, but I remember another AMA answer floating around of Jhin being called “gunsexual” when one of his writers was asked about his sexuality. Now, ignoring the minor homophobia of making a joke out of his sexuality, this can be interpreted in a couple ways. It can be interpreted as Jhin being asexual, and disinterested in anything aside from his gun, the source of his artistic expression. Or, it can be interpreted as dodging the question of sexuality because Riot cannot/doesn’t want to confirm characters (especially men) as being gay. I find it important to note that this, while a joke, does point to him being queer in some respect though, as I feel a joke would not be made to keep his sexuality vague were he just simply heterosexual. Going back to a previous point, I think Riot is dancing around Jhin being gay because they know announcing a champion, especially a popular champion, as gay will receive backlash. Looking again at characters they have officially announced as gay there are a number of lesbians (Neeko, Leona, Diana, Caitlyn, Vi possibly Nidalee), and bisexual women (Rell, Nami, arguably some in the lesbian category), but only one gay/queer man (Varus). This is because of a double whammy of homophobia and lesbophobia, wherein lesbians are more marketable to their huge userbase of cis heterosexual men due to prevalence of lesbian fetishization, and also gay men are reviled and would be seen as “ruining a character” due to the rampant homophobia of the same group. Which is to say, unfortunately I don’t think Jhin will ever exist as gay outside of just his subtle coding. That is a whole separate issue I could go on about at length, however that is not the topic of this essay.

Looking back at what has been discussed, it is incredibly clear to me personally that Jhin is a gay man. Possibly also an asexual man; though I personally feel that would be, in a canon sense specifically, a bad move for Riot to make him asexual. I do agree Jhin can be read as asexual and I appreciate ace Jhin headcanons from other fans, however, in the context of canon sexuality I think it would be sweeping all of his explicitly gay coding under the rug and label him as anything but gay. That, again, is another whole conversation to have in a place that is not this essay. Looking at Jhin’s backstory, his interests and mannerisms, his several accounts of disinterest in women, and other smaller details of his character, I feel it is fair to say this man is absolutely homosexual. He may be too busy with his art and murders to seek a relationship, but this man loves other men.

References: (version with links attached in comments)

1. “Queer coding”, Wikipedia, last modified on 28 March, 2022, 

2. Shafer, Odin. Zed, Issue #2 (other issues referenced as well), Marvel Worldwide Inc, 2019-2020.

3. Shafer, Odin. “The Man With The Steel Cane.” 

4. @la_goanna."Jhin's Family/ Backstory." Reddit, 2020, 

5. TV Tropes.  Performance Artist.(See also: All Gays Love Theater) 

6. League of Legends Fandom Wiki. Jhin/LoL/Audio. 

[surefireshore]

dove i am reblogging bc i dont think this could fit in a comment. Short answer: yes.

Long answer: I live alone, and my dog is a very sleepy old boi, so if I'm not making noise there is simply no noise. So i started saying my thoughts out loud. It's usually small stuff like "oh shit" or "where did i put my phone" etc., but as i continue to live alone it happens more often with different things.

Only very recently did i learn that something i meant to be an inside thought had broken containment into being a public thought. I am now going to share an unflattering story about myself.

I learned that [redacted] had gotten a puppy from a breeder, and i was asking them about it. Bc like!! Adopt dont shop, ya know? I was trying to understand why they went with shop, but also trying not to shame them about decisions they are excited about and cant change. The relevant bit went something like this, except actual dog names were used:

[Redacted]: Yeah we actually got dog 2 from the same person as dog 1.

Me: so theyre both from a breeder?

[Redacted]: yeah but she- the person we got them from- is responsible about it. Like she doesnt do it very often and stuff like that.

me: how far apart are [your two puppies] in age?

[Redacted]: about six months

My thought: sounds like she does it pretty often then.

After this, the conversation pittered out and moved on and it wasnt until like the NEXT DAY when someone was like "i cant believe the sass/audacity/comeback you had about [redacted's dogs]" and i had to be like "???? What are you talking about i didnt say anything?" And THAT was when i learned that i had in fact said something and also been rude.

So i think there's a number of factors that can lead someone to say something they dont know they're saying, all of which make a perfect storm into the social nightmare that is me:

Spending lots of time alone, which switches your instinctive/default mindset from "i must be considerate of other people's peace by being quiet" to "noise i make does not matter bc there is only me to hear it". Not that I cant be in the first mode, just that i am by default in the second one.

Poor impulse control. My ADHD-ass already has a brain-to-mouth filter delay of -0.5 seconds, which means im often only thinking about what im gonna say when im already saying it. I recognize that this is a Problem, but it is currently true and thus relevant to the point im making.

Feeling strongly about something but not wanting to share it. When the poor impulse control is in place and you really want to say something, it's instinctive to say it. Almost automatic. If you have no reason not to share something, you could/might just say it and it would be fine. It's only when there's incentive to hide what you're thinking that this breakdown might occur. The brain is thinking "oh we wont say this" while the mouth is already saying it.

A naturally loud voice. I think there is a world where this scenario happened and I muttered the sentence under my breath and no one heard me. But my hearing isn't very good so I'm a bit loud (also bc of the 1st point), so i said it full volume for everyone to hear.

All this to say that yes, I think there is a certain type of character who can say things without knowing it or meaning to, but I don't think that is every character. Someone who is naturally very quiet and/or spends a lot of time around other people might not. Someone who is already passionate and quick to speak whatever is on their mind might. Sam Gamgee might not, Pippin might. Lan Xichen might not, Wei Wuxian might. I think characters like Jean Valjean or Enjolras have too much self-control, but Grantaire or Gavroche might.

has anyone ever, in real life, not realized they were speaking out loud?

it's such a common trope in fic to write out a character's thoughts and then reveal in the next paragraph "oops, I guess I said that out loud." like they didn't realize words came out of their mouth until somebody else responded to them.

i have had the opposite happen, where i thought something very clearly and didn't realize i'd failed to share the thought aloud, but never in my life have i been having a normal awake conversation and not noticed that words came out of my mouth.

does this actually happen to anyone???

[euphor1a]

besties wanted jk n mingyu so i gib jk n mingyu🤩

— or, a small bit of the very messy outline of my death the junggyu fic™. totally unedited and raw (intentional). kept that way so that one can feel the original vibes i was feeling when i was brainstorming this on a random 3 am 😙

fwb popular!jk & campus crush jock!mg 

jk is popular for very obvious (? or is it) reasons 🤭, almost made him a fuckboy but nah not really. man’s terrified of commitment so he used to sleep around often, kinda.

but then he finds our oc and *cough* *cough* legitimately falls. still not willing to commit tho 🙄 hence the “fwb” (at least that’s what he convinced himself)

our poor oc... sigh. let’s just say they’re on different pages :/ and our girl is tired of jk’s bs, desperately trying to gather herself and actually move on.

SHE DESERVES SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY WANTS TO BE W HER!!!!

incoming our campus crush kim mingyu 😍

man’s so fine that everyone can feel themselves physically swooning when he’s around 😫

he’s also a jock 😼, not entirely sure which sport i want him to play though... (?🏀)

NOW NOW!! this man is one of those guys who rejects all advances but his love-life is pretty much non-existent (sounds like the biggest lie but yes,,,)

rumor says he used to be nasty nasty at first apparently 👀 but then he found better people as friends and changed 🤨? did a total 180°?

on this random evening after a session, oc asks jk to help her make mg jealous (?) idk she just needs his ✨ATTENTIONNNNNN✨!!! am i self-projecting? am i?

oc always knew him (who wouldn’t), but she was introduced face to face with theeee kmg by jk 🤠

she actually got pretty close to jk’s friend group cause she tagged along w jk to group hang outs frequently (fyi, it was jeon jungkook who would drag her w him 💀)

and 👉🏼👈🏼 she developed this silly little crush on mg 🙈

later on, as oc realized jeon jk is hellbent on staying “friends”, she decided to give other people a chance.

she secretly hopes that if she dates someone else, maybe jk can see and come back to his MFING SENSES

but anyway, our girl is a bit too deep into the mingyu rabbit-hole by now also 😔✋🏼

sulky n pouty jk being mad about oc liking mg… cause guess what!? junggyu homies 😔✊🏼

hmm…. jk still fucking oc in the midst of that ish cuz why not 🫣 n he’s mad too so kinda hate fucking? anyway — oc convinces jk bc she is a simp for mg same girl i feel u and jk agrees half-heartedly cause he would actually give her the whole world 🙄 just stupid ass simps everywhere!!

jk thinks that mg will never say yes 🙃 so deep down he’s like making plans about how he’s gonna absolutely destroy oc and punish her once she gets her heart broken by the campus crush 🥴

like??? BITCH LOOK WHOS TALKING? men are so dense sometimes like WHAT EVEN CANT YOU SEE THAT YOU HURT OC TOO (maybe in a worse way tbh)

sigh... so anyway.

mg thinks oc is prettiest ever & attractive asf and he gets butterflies and stuff when she’s around 🥰🦋 but he never made a move bc he knows there’s sumn fishy going on between oc n his friend 😩

SURPRISE! that man has been pining over oc from who knows when 😦

no one except him knows about it though 😔 (well... you guys know now)

moving forward 👾

jk being grumpy n fighting oc every 10 secs for the dumbest things bc she fell for his bff out of all people 🤡 (but jk is an asshole too cuz bro should’ve stopped saying shit like “we are nothing but friends”?? like yk you can’t just expect a girl to be your fwb for the rest of your life?? 🙄 plus she caught feelings for you n you were a dumb bitch abt it... she deserves to be loved, verbally, physically, mentally and in all the ways 😔🥺)

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... i think i spoiled a bit too much 😵‍💫! but yea here you go!! if you have any thoughts about this, feel free to share them through asks or comments! i’d love to hear them! and, for this once, i request to not rb 🙈! i wouldn’t be the most comfortable seeing this reblogged 😭

[tiny-crecher]

Unus Annus Secrets

Here I’m going to try and explain all of the Unus Annus codes + possible lore. If I have forgotten some information or if one of these links doesnt work/is incorrect please let me know. This post will be updated when needed. 

This is LONG, so be prepared. 

At first, these codes were only in videos edited by NerdFiction, but as of October 26th this is no longer true. (The possible exception to this would be the first video I’ve listed, as the editor is not in the description). 

1) 5 Weird Apps That Predicted Our Death

 “Here at Unus Annus the end is nigh... when the timer hits zero we will cease to exist. is it fate? is this a simulation? Can anybody hear me? My name is.... [FILE REDACTED]”. Timestamp - 0:14

2) Ethan Roasts Mark for 15 Minutes Straight

 “and in the comments, you will read the words you soon will see are wise controlling pawns who type our deed ‘That is Discord, not FaceTime’” Timestamp - 0:40

“within this truth a question stands, is the pee sauna ever close?”. [“Pee Sauna”was uploaded about a week afterwards] Timestamp - 0:40

3) Our Fans Try to Scare Us with Their Homemade Creepypasta

“What will happen if the clock stops”

“Could I find a way to keep it going?”

“If neither hand is right, what deals are left?”

“Who is the master of the clock?” (all around 8:44)

4) Learning to Cry on Command to Increase Our Youtube Views

“remember the key, the incompletion of a logolept’s corrective action” [a logolept is “a person who takes a keen interest in words”. Marcus is likely referring to himself.] Timestamp - 1:49

“the long wait ends with twenty four more for a path of destiny chosen before”[“Pee Sauna” was uploaded the day after] (closely after the last code)

5) Becoming One With the Horse

“They heard me, I knew it could work!” (timestamp currently unknown; to be updated)

Around this time, NerdFiction’s Twitter bio said, among his normal information, that he was “trying to stop the Unus Annus clock from within.” 

6) Preparing a 5-Star Meal for Our Youtube Famous Dogs

“I couldn’t stop it. Will I die with the machine?” (Timestamp - 21:33)

7) Does This Magnetic Skincare Routine Really Work?

“freed or so I thought. Another layer, but still the clock.” (Timestamp - 9:45)

“The Beginning of The End”. 

On July 26th, at 12pm PST, a video was uploaded to Unus Annus titled “Traversing the Desert to Find Our Inner Truth”. This video was only up for a few minutes before it mysteriously disappeared, only to be replaced by another video, titled “The Beginning of The End”. At first glance, the videos were identical, save for different titles and slightly different descriptions. However, the second video was slightly longer than the first, and upon further inspection, many came to realize that the audio was slightly different as well. You can listen to both audios here. There was a rumor going around that the captions of “Traversing the Desert to Find Our Inner Truth” said something about looking out for Norbert Moses, but no one has been able to confirm this to my knowledge. 

8) Puberty Simulator

“Happy birthday to the beast or to the body that once housed me. A transfer made for pity’s sake. Tricked into the machine as he had my cake.” (Timestamp - 14:36) [The same code was found a week earlier in “Mark and Ethan Shave Chica”, uploaded on NerdFiction’s birthday. The original code was very difficult to make out, so it is likely he inserted it into a different video to make it easier for us.]

On the same day, NerdFiction’s Twitter bio read “Everyone must leave something behind when he dies. Memento Memoriae” (remember memory)

In “The Koala Challenge: TikTok’s Intimate Couple’s Trend” one of the clips is edited to look like a TikTok video, with the user ron_somberest being used. Ron_Somberest is an anagram for Norbert Moses. This TikTok account does actually exist, and the icon is a zoomed in and brightened photo of Norbert Moses’s face with the eyes scribbled out. 

Around this time NerdFiction’s Twitter bio read “’It’s not dark, never was’ - Ron Bestsmore”. Ron Bestsmore is also an anagram for Norbert Moses. It is possible that the “dark” being referred to here is Darkiplier, and NerdFiction is trying to imply that Dark is not involved in this. 

About a week after the koala challenge video was “How to Start a Fire (except don’t)”, which featured an appearance from Unus. NerdFiction’s Twitter bio read “In the end, who is your savior and what are they saving you from?” 

Things were quiet for about a month. NerdFiction eventually erased the cryptic message from his Twitter bio. 

9) Learning To Use The Force

“wait no something is wrong. he knows!” (Timestamp - 10:45) [translated from small coded words hidden in the montage]

“STOPTHISWHATAREYOUDOINGO3″ (Timestamp - 11:40)

“it worked” (a spectrogram, derived from a sound played at the end of the video)

10) Momiplier Tells Us True Scary Stories from Korea

“As I was, as I’ve done to him now. Am I right to decide his fate?” (Timestamp - 5:44) [Right before this, Mark’s mom is talking about a nightmare she had where she was paralyzed, possibly implying that nerdfiction was once paralyzed and has now paralyzed someone else (pointed out by @/minervas-sandwich)]

11) Cryptid Olympics

“I thought you’d join us but, hey, that was just a theory, Memento Doctrina” (remember learning). (Timestamp - 5:49) [The code references the Game Theorists channel, which had uploaded a video about Unus Annus earlier that same day.]

- From here on, every video has had some sort of code -

12) Edward Pumpkin Hands - This was the first coded video not edited by NerdFiction, instead being edited by Diceroll.

At various points throughout the video small parts of a url are seen. When pieced together, this link is made: https://imgur.com/a/tyDewJ7. It leads to a photo of the Unus Annus hourglass. When edited, a series of binary text is shown, which translates to “zhIaNL2“. Inputting this into another imgur link gets you to https://imgur.com/a/zhIaNL2. After editing the photo (although you can still sorta see it without doing so), a cipher of a custom alphabet is shown (I posted an edited photo here).

At 5:01 in the video a weird image is shown for only a moment (a slightly brightened version of it here). Nobody knows what the hell it means.

At the same time, there is a reversed audio of someone (presumably Ethan; it sounds like him) saying “we did that”. For context, the sentence said right before that line was “if one of us dies, the other has to take over for the remainder of time”. This is possibly implying that someone, or multiple someones, has/have died and been replaced.

13) Blood Bath - edited by rad_r

“Everything’s fine”

The Unus Annus timer is shown. It counts down for three seconds before counting up for one second. Heavy breathing can be heard over it. It is then cancelled by an error message

“ITS NOT FINE HELP” (this and the previous two messages are hidden at 5:57)

“you’ve done it now.. a machine observed. there is no returning.. a machine unnerved. there is only.. a machine unconqured.” (right at the end of the video, before the timer)

14) The Unus Annus Annual Costume Contest - edited by nerdfiction

“I saw just one door in a hall filled with many, I locked your gate but they were too late to join me. He was re-placed, she was undone, I had escaped yet he had still won”. (Timestamp - 2:05) [possibly talking about diceroll and rad_r. The pronouns would line up, and it would make sense with those two now having edited coded videos.]

15) Ethan Turns Mark Into a Werewolf - edited by rad_r

“futility or farewell? only time time time.” (timestamp - 7:17)

16) Ethan Kidnapped Mark - edited by Diceroll

Two spectrograms are shown in this video; one at 14:08 and one at 17:38. Combined, they create an imgur link: https://imgur.com/a/gKB62sv

The imgur link shows a photo of a key. On the key is a code translating to “stop the clock”

At the end of the video before the timer is a set of text in the custom alphabet previously mentioned. Translated and decoded it translates to “I can hear it coming theres not much time left the ones that tried to stop it have had their hearts cleft it is now your turn to put this loop to rest take us out of here and show us a new nest”

17) Being Brutally Honest with Each Other

“It is alive, no longer living / misunderstood beats unforgiving / escaped that fate but lost the tale / does a hope yet remain or just one final nail?” (Timestamp - 26:03)

18) Recreating Every Single Unus Annus Video

“The bottom of the spiral” (timestamp - 10:55)

19) “All Our Video Ideas That Never Happened”

“Be careful for what you wish for” (taken from two different codes)

*20) The Unus Annus Last Supper + Who’s Cutting Onions In Here??? - both edited by rad_r

“We’ve asked... we’ve tried... is there no way to stop the end? To those who aren’t deterred: how much will you sacrifice to ascend?” (A quotefall puzzle, split into 2 parts)

21) Everything’s Legal If You’re Dead

Norbert Moses is mentioned at 10:50. Look closely, his name is only there for a couple frames.

These have been the only codes I’m aware of as of 11/11/20. 

(be sure to check out @gemstone6’s list as well!!)

Link to my Unus Annus theory

[grison-in-space]

I'll just fill out my own read more here, @gosuperdonnie: I never mind things being out in the open, but I deeply appreciate the care for privacy and I want to make sure I can respect yours back by redacting anything you'd like. Anyway, none of this is going to make any sense without the context of your bit. I heavily encourage my followers to read your full post.

No, really, doxxing holds no terrors for me: I write here under the cheerful assumption that I can be easily identified with the right context, and the main reason I have switched names even ONCE since 2007 is that I, uh, very publicly flipped off a pack of MRAs using both my real name and my last pseud, it got pretty viral, and I was kind of concerned it might get big enough that some chucklefuck might try to SWAT me or dig out the AO3 account to wave at a boss. Never happened, and I care even less now. I get the doxxing concerns and I am gratified by the care and kindness with which you've approached me, a stranger, after I was rather rude to you: I totally did use your comment as a launching pad to think about the shared sphere of our work, invoking both of our shared communities, and then I plastered it all over everywhere you'd be likely to see assuming we shared the same primary social network (ie tags, which I almost never do). Which I did not consider because, frankly, I'm a thirty something millennial who had long since assumed all the youths had decamped to cooler, greener pastures. This says way worse things about my manners than yours.

Truly. I get exactly why you were embarrassed and pissed. I did, without thinking about it, a pretty rude thing socially! For that, I apologize.

Okay, that little mortification out of the way:

My memory is also awful, but what you're saying sounds about right to me. I think you did provide that context about IDD spaces, because I was smiling and nodding along to it and thinking about how true it is: how even among those of us who can contort ourselves into passing without supports or even acknowledgement, I have seen a lot of neurodivergent people just collapse out of graduate programs, usually either from burnout or (disproportionately commonly) being actively targeted for bad treatment by a mentor. I've been around the block a time or eight and I have observed a lot of bad behavior in a range of fields.

Academia is not exactly an accessible profession. It relies incredibly heavily on the affirmation of relational networks and requires a level of investment that presumes a full time spouse-caregiver, a role for which it does not pay. Those relational networks are prone to abuse and distortion at the best of times. My PhD left grievous scars because my relationship with a supervisor crashed and burned for reasons impossible to untangle from our mutual neurodivergency. Like most people, I find myself hyperattuned to my own experiences and viewpoint, you feel? So that's what I was talking about as I was thinking out loud to myself.

The things you're hearing in your IDD/higher support communities come from true experiences, too! That's actually a branch of neurodiversity politics I happen to share! Like, that's the political end of the quote unquote movement that I align with, thanks. I'm uncomfortable with my animal research models self on that panel, too! The only reason I was willing to go into this field while, I have to stress this very much, desperate, terrified, and in the most severely damaged mental health of my life is that my PI agrees with me that most of the animal autism model work is bullshit and frequently goes on rants about marble burying!

Here's a little of my context: I've been consciousness raising and trying to build networks of support among disabled academics for something like seven years. The past two years of my postdoc have been literally the first time in my life that hasn't involved tightly compartmentalizing my life about my neurodivergence and closely guarding who gets to know what. Fuck, it's been like desperately pretending not only to be straight around all the other players in the professional women's soccer team, but also pretending that there are no other queers in the league either!

The observation you were making was poignant, accurate, and clear. Your broader point was eminently understandable and relatable. Let me just underscore that again: that context is important and worth discussing. I picked up the tip of that glacier that set me thinking and toddled off with it because your critique was true, valuable, and not new to me: I was chewing my thoughts over, and it didn't occur to me to go over the parts that I had already integrated. That does not mean that it was a bad idea to make that critique again. Not everyone has heard it yet, and not everyone understands its implications. And being reminded is always useful, too.

I also agree wholeheartedly that the project of including more IDD folks in the room is a wholly different thing from just throwing more neurodivergent folks at it. In no way do I want to dismiss that! You have zero reason or context to know this about me, but I believe strongly that passing is an important inflector of marginalized experiences because it's a powerful tool that comes at enormous cost. So if you want to understand marginalization from all angles, you need to be talking to people with a wide range of options to pass: people who cannot pass tend to be more keenly attuned to the consequences of being perceived as marginalized while people who can act so tend to be more attuned to the consequences of being isolated from anyone who could perceive them. Do you see what I mean?

And that means that you have to be including people who can't pass long enough to make the credentials at every level of your field, including conceptualization of the goals of the field of study. Which is what I pulled from your commentary, and—yes! Of course! So obvious that it was just a pleasure to hear it articulated and agree!

When I was a kid, the decision my mom made was to literally train me like a performing seal if that was what was necessary to avoid anyone Finding Out about me. I was explicitly and repeatedly scolded for even talking about it well into adolescence. I used to have a lot more brainpower at my disposal, so I more or less could, up until I hit my thirties right into COVID... when I hit burnout really, really bad. I am actually coping with becoming significantly more visibly disabled because I can't always maintain passing anymore, and that's always a journey. I have been performing that mask nonstop for long enough to be hitting the long slumps and crashes that many of my peers describe. It's a mask that must be glued to the face each day and ripped off at night, leaving irritation and exhaustion in its wake, but it lets me go places and achieve things I might not have been able to do otherwise.

Unrelated, but I was just complaining the other day that no one seems to know about Jim Sinclair these days. What a clear eyed, clear headed writer and thinker they are. I should try to knock together some kind of neurodivergence reading group again; I haven't had a chance to try and organize such a thing in Psychology but I had a really wonderful conversation last spring with Dr Williams over in the CDSC and it would be so nice to connect more directly on a regular basis...

Losing it is terrifying.

Also, let's be frank: I assumed you were talking way more to your classmates, continuing with them on a meta-conversation that a random like me doesn't have full context for, than like. TO me.

Your program of research sounds, bluntly, desperately needed and incredibly valuable. And way, way more likely to change things immediately for the positive for folks on the ground than mine. I'm so sorry people have told you that your work isn't worth doing or interesting; I won't pretend I'm surprised but I want to underscore that those people are fools. I'm incredibly glad and gratified that folks like you are here. I thought about working on autism from a psych or neuroscience perspective before I graduated undergrad, but I decided against it then and went for animal behavior because I found the experience of reading the autism literature too dehumanizing. I am so genuinely delighted and impressed that you can be here, getting your foot in the door to do this work. If I had any connections to people who know what they're doing re giving your precious, precious perspective a place to set root, I would give them to you immediately.

The work I'm currently doing mostly involves building up enough expertise and credit with mainstream "autism researchers", especially in the animal model world, to carve for myself a platform upon which to perch while I shriek invective at much of the rest of that field. I think it's necessary work, too—they do have a lot of money and power—but it's a longer game and it also relies on not collapsing and letting the academic PTSD win.

But yes: I am so sorry I didn't craft my post with the understanding that you might see it and correctly recognize yourself in mind. I would have provided a lot more context, for one thing! I hope that gives you context for the direction of my commentary the other week. Regardless, thank you for all the subsequent food for thought and for such a gracious comment in an awkward situation.

yesterday's talk to the neurodivergency activism program also included a fun "ethics in research on neurodivergence" panel conversation at the end when one person expressed this real frustration with the academy: that it's so unfriendly to neurodivergent people who can't navigate the social structures of academia, and it is so frustrating to this person to know that they want to go back to school and get the PhD but it's so unfriendly to neurodivergent people--

bear in mind, I'm the only openly neurodivergent researcher on the panel and by far the most junior (the others are all established faculty), plus I do animal research which is probably as far from the rather clinical focus of the folks in that program as humanly possible. and I've discussed openly how relational academia is, and how much it relies on the approval of your supervisors. we've even had a nice conversation about the same thing in clinical practice.

but I'm sitting here going... you know what, the interpersonal fuckery that almost ended my career actually was a result of blundering into another neurodivergent person's unacknowledged shame spiral, actually? you know that neurotypical research PIs are a distinct minority in my experience? you know that this is an incredibly dysfunctional institution, I ain't arguing that, but it's also one that has been by and large built for, by, and around neurodivergent people's needs and desires?

it's just they don't know it, so if you talk about it openly you get panic reactions. but it's so, so, so funny to see. (as I expanded on this theme the lady I liked best, a black woman working on intersections between developmental disabilities, race, and access to health care, is just grinning SO wide and almost giggling to herself.) you label yourself and people go OH NO A LABEL but if you know how to see the shape of the thing the label is supposed to describe, you can see that they oughta have a label, too.

so on the one hand, real consequences for being too open about yourself, but on the other hand, things actually have gotten so much better in the last 5-10 years. and on the gripping hand, just being in a space with only other neurodivergent people does not necessarily fix the problem of inadequate communication, hurt feelings, bad relationships with power, and weird insecurities. it just doesn't fix it. what works is understanding how to resolve conflicts, building structures that are less reliant on single dyadic relationships, and finding alternate ways to make connections with scholars in your field.

dammit, this means I should probably poke my bluesky again. fff.

[leejungchans]

what if noona wasn’t neomu yeppeo part.2/????

@joshuas @seungcy my lovely noonas that are younger than me (no comment as to which one of us said what)

warning(s): very questionable things, probably shouldn’t read this if you’re under 16

/ = same person ; // = different people

i can’t believe people didn’t choose Illusion as number one mv 🙄🙄 it’s austin’s sexiest song

lightheaded🙏 seeing god

KEEP YPUR CLOTHES ON EVEYRONE

“SOL RIA HELP ME WIPE@MY BUTT PLEASE!!!!!”

i wanna kiss seungkwan in his liver / on his lips isn’t enough

my father is not running over any pedestrians today // we’ll see

my braincell is reviving

BEG FOR ME BY RV IS A SONG YOU NEED TO [redacted] YOUR BOYFIE TO

moisturizing my meat 🥩 / and lotion 😘🥩‼️

i’m [redacted] enuf purr

idk people that are mean to him are anti me bc he’s my entire brand </3

a big slay created the universe / slayed too hard i created planets

your honor / my [redacted] is [redacted] ‼️🥺

shuas back probably hurts sm </3 / from carrying the title of best dilf // FROM CARRYING ALL THE WEIGHT OF BEING SUCH A DILF

I WANT HIM I WANT HIM TO [redacted] ME I WANT HIM TO MAKE ME HIS STUPID [redacted] I WANT—

gurlz moisture their meet

you owe me a [redacted] / COKE

sometimes farts sound so embarrassed / WHY DO THEY ECHO 💔💔💔 / i need a bathroom that’s far away from society

good news is i seem to have gotten over fifty shades so i can write ceo hcs wo cringing again 😻

mothers and feckers of the jury

i’ll shove my cane up your butt // boring

WHAT IF HE THREW ME OFF A CLIFF IN MY DREAM // still cute

guys i showered / please congratulate me

i’m going to [redacted] you

im gonna shred all my clothes into pieces

oh my god it’s a sunday morning / i’m cuteeee / cursed

i don’t want you to have my children???

lucy is like what wikipedia is to a university assignment

i am the master of my own destiny bbbbb

american dream 🇦🇺🦘

how am i supposed to live laugh and love in these conditions

cant believe a pecan got to u before i could

prof ; so what visual aid did u bring / me : myself <3

oi eff u you smelly cant

connecting with my estarlian roots rn

thongs are uncomfortable

me when i accidentally bonked my piano teacher’s poodle on the keys