#dbstask

[beedeesousaa]

God this is so hard. It's hard because I honestly don't know what happened. I would be lying if I said that I hated you or that you are the worst person in the world because you aren't. I think the whole bootcamp thing changed you. It really did. I miss the guy who I could honestly go and talk to about anything. I miss that guy who I could trust wouldn't use my past or anything against me. I know our relationship wasn't successful and I don't really miss it because of that, but I do miss your company and knowing that you are there for me. But I guess I just have a way of trusting people who are bound to leave.

Love Tiny.

[dustinparkerhere]

Retake till you delete it ll Video to Allison

Dustin moved around his dorm room impatiently. He was doing everything to just try to concentrate on anything or more so not think of one thing. Thing as in a person a person as in one Allison Smith. He was going to go crazy and the boy had no idea why that was. With the thousandth hair ruffling this afternoon he fell back on his bed with a huff. He sat and thought about how he could get this stupid repetition of strange thoughts out. He had tried video games and he did his homework and he texted some guys back in Florida but nothing had seemed to do the trick. He clicked on his tweeter app trying to find interest in that when he passed his sisters post, @AliceParker: The best way to let it go is to let it out. Say it out loud. Dustin's eyebrow lifted slightly at how perfect it seemed that she would type out something like that. He knew there was a reason he loved her, he thought as his lips formed a perfect smirk. He could just talk it out of him. It's not like any of the things he thought were bad. He could just tell the girl straight up and than bam problem solved. Was he stupid for not noticing earlier? Maybe, he told himself shrugging his shoulder not really caring. He knew he was smart after all he was just kidding himself. Smart enough that he knew he was good at making a fool out of himself from time to time. He knew his strengths and straight on serious speeches weren't them. Allison was out at a shoot so it's not like he could do it right away anyway. The boy decided to close out the app and opened his camera up flipping it over to the video setting and setting it to see his face as opposed to the dorm room beyond him. Clicking the play button he started to record.

"Allison." he said looking into his camera nodding his head up and down. This was awkward for him. Actually if awkward was a color it would probably be the only one you would see in the whole room... or maybe not. Maybe if emotions were colors there would be an interest mix in the room. "Ever felt like you wanted to tell something something but just wasn’t sure how? Or if it was even okay…?" he asked shrugging his shoulders. God he sounded like some type of horribly made add on TV for a new kitchen nick nack that no one actually needed. "Because for the longest time I would say I saw you like my sister. I’m just… Like what if I don’t? Not anymore?" he asked the camera pretending he was speaking to the girl before catching his words. "I mean, shit, what did I mean. I guess uhh you’re strong. I mean my sisters strong she’s not not strong. Fuck, okay, take 2." he said shaking his head bringing his hand up to ruffle his blond hair. He clicked to record button twice, once to finish that horrible rendition and a second time to record a new one.

"Allison." he started off with again licking his lips nonchalantly before continuing. "I wanted to tell you something. You know, which is the point of this. But now I feel like and idiot because hell what was I thinking… What did I even want to say" it didn't make sense in his head how could something bother him so profusely for such a long period of time without him being able to pin point it? He had stayed there not saying anything for a couple seconds making the pause just too strange he was going to rerecord it again and start over once more but he thought he would only try to explain the 'talk' again but maybe he just needed to blurt it out.

"Allison, you’re… You deserve anything you could ever want you know?" He asked sincerely. "But I don’t actually think you do and funnily enough I think that’s part of the reason you deserve it. As weirdly inspection like as that sounds..." He said making a face at how he had just worded that. "You’re funny in a witty way. You’re smart.  You challenge me all the time which I have to say thanks for because I’m a freakin jerkish hot head at times. And at the same time as you call me out on my shit I’m still completely myself around you because I feel like I can. Life’s really fucked you over so far I get that but it’s not because you earned it. Life is just fuckin’ unfair. And it’s just so fuckin’ not because you’re pure and good and your smile is freakin’ happiness and I swear I wanna punch every guy who looks you down because hell I get it but they could be fuckin’ respectful about it. And I kind of wish we could just hide out in that spot of yours because  it feels right." he finished up watching it to himself once realizing he probably shouldn't say those things. 'yeah, so never letting Allison see that' he thought deleting the video.

[richkidmiles]

Dear Zoe

I'm learning that you're not as bad of a person as I had originally thought, and I judged you too harshly. It was wrong of me to want to simply use you for my own personal gain and I'm sorry for that. I'm sure one of these days, I'll get around to telling you this, really telling you this and not some half-assed apology, but I'm a coward right now, and I don't know how that will go over with you. It's more fun to play this game, where we seem to hate each other, but also want to help each other. 

But yeah. You were (are) hot, and I couldn't just let you pass me by, even if was just to make out with you. 

I guess the real part of me that is afraid to apologize again is the part of me that fears that a real apology means we'll have to get back together. And as much as I like Katie, I can't help but wonder sometimes about the what ifs. You're a lot more like me than anyone I know, and if I had only given you a chance and not been so shallow, not wanting everyone to be jealous that I had scored such a hot girl, who also happened to be somewhat famous, then I think we could've worked out. 

Who knows. Maybe our story is still being written. 

[nothinglessthanjess-blog]

Long Gone ll Letter to Caden

Dear Caden,

What's the use? What's the point of writing down any of this on a piece of paper if it's not going to change anything. My psychiatrist thinks writing some stupid letters to random people could make me feels better. And so far... nothing. Weather I write down how I feel on this paper. It won't magically bring you back into my life. You're long gone... even though we said we would stay friends. I think one of the things that hurts the most is knowing it was my fault... I have no one else to blame but me. Me and my messed up head. 

At first I won't lie. I was mad. I was mad because of SO MANY reasons. It's just you made me feel like you really cared about me, and for the first time in a long time I believed someone when they told me that, but than you just walked away. If you loved me you were suppose to fight for our relationship. Couldn't you just have fought with me instead? I mean if I was doing something wrong you could have just told me. Was I not even worth the try? And I was just so clouded with all those stupid unnecessary thoughts that I pushed and pushed and pushed you away. 

I pushed till it hurt so much that it just cracked. Everything was falling down around me. It kind of still is. But Ryan helps, thanks for introducing me to him. It feels good to not have to keep it all to myself to share what weighs me down. If you hate me I would understand. I made it seem as though I was intentionally playing with your heart. I wanted to talk to you. Meant to when I finally got over my stubbornness. But when I did tell you I needed to talk to you right after I said I had no time. I didn't know it then but I was having a panic attack. I never meant to bail. I wish I could tell you. I don't want you to ever think you're any less than everything you're worth. 

How am I suppose to though? How am I suppose to explain any of this to you? I don't want to have you waste your time on me because I'm so messed up. I don't want to turn into that guilt friend you only have because you feel pity. I'm pretty sure that's what I already am for Ryan but I need someone... And now I feel like it can't change anything. You're still happy and you're still you and honestly I'm not anymore. I'm not half of the girl you knew but I'm trying to find her. So I guess what I'm saying is you deserve someone who can be there for you.

Someone who can ice you clumsy bumps and clean your silly scrapes and not have to pretend to laugh at your jokes because she just can't find much happiness in stuff anymore. To be honest I think I always knew you would find someone better than me. Everyone always had and you were the best person I've ever had the chance to get to know, simple logic really. So that's not really what hurts the most it's the fact that even having always had that in the back of my mind I don't know if even than I'll ever stop seeing you as more than a person I just want as a friend. But I would take it. I'd take any simple friendly conversation.

Not that any of this matters... because you're never going to read this. There was virtually no point in writing this. But in a way maybe I feel a bit lighter... I hope so anyway. I just hope it's not a goodbye letter.

love,

Jessica

[hotshot-torres-blog]

Dear Jenna,

I don't think I've ever wrote a letter before. Kinda never had to before now. Plus, it's not like I have all that much to say. Except I kind of do.

You're like, one of the best people I've ever known. I really mean that, even though I'm not so good at showing it. There were a lot of things I wish I could change about us. Or about me-to-you. For starters, cheating on you wasn't my best moment. I never really got over that, even though you kind of got me back for that, but whatever. Sorry for that. Hurting you was the last thing I wanted.

Secondly, I've kinda been a crappy best friend. I really care about you an it sucks that we haven't been as close lately. I want to fix that, and like, be around more often. And for Ryder too, I really miss that guy.

Not sure where I'm going with this. But I guess it doesn't matter since you're not gonna see it. That being said, I'm not sure how to finish letters so yeah. Bye.

[dustinparkerhere]

If I Could Just Put It On Paper ll Letter to Cassidy

Dear Cassidy, You're adorable. Don't know how I got a girl like you. You're so beautiful. I love your blue eyes. I love your pale skin. Love your crazy long hair. You smell like baking and sweetness and it drives me insane when I'm close to you. When you're embarrassed your cheeks light up with the prettiest pink (so okay maybe I try sometimes to see it.)  I know I'm not really good at telling you with like you know words all the time but I hope you know. To be completely honest sometimes I feel strange in my skin around you because I'm a bit worried your just gonna figure out I'm just not your type. I mean come on? The gorgeous girl with the not that funny jokester? Doesn't make sense at all right? So I guess sometimes I'm just so caught up in impressing you that I'm not as myself as I am with other people. Like Allison, who I know sometimes I shouldn't be so close to... I mean obviously were just friends but I just, I mean it doesn't bother you does it? But yeah wow this is girly and soft and yep never mind on the whole try to write her a letter thing because this is shit. On the plan b of impressing you...

[richkidmiles]

Dearest Francine

I know that I'm not that much older than you, but after everything I've gone through, I feel like I am. I doubt you understand why I do the things I do, but I'm just afraid that you'll make the same stupid mistakes that I have. I'd do anything to keep you safe, all of you guys. 

I wish I could tell you about what's going on with dad, but I know he's right. If I ever told anyone, our family would be torn apart, and there would be no one to blame but myself. Bruises fade. Scars heal. But at least if dad is taking his anger out on me, he's leaving you alone. 

I love you, Franny, and I love that you hate that I call you that. And I'm the only one who gets to call you that, forever. Even if dad tries to ship me off to another school, I'll always be here for you, as best I can. 

[ohitscassi]

Dear Nate,

I'm pretty sure as a girl who really does like her boyfriend I probably shouldn't say that I miss what we had before. I mean we had a lot of fun before, but I guess it meant less to you than what it did to me? I'm glad we are roommates though, your company is enjoyable. I always wonder what would have happened if we hadn't of gone different ways. You are too cool to be with a good girl like me anyway. I hope we can still bake and goof off together. Although it's not the same as before. 

Love Cassi.

[nxlockwood]

Dear Cassie, 

This is going to be hard I'm not going to lie- being your roommate and all I honestly don't know if I can do it. Being around you after everything will be hard but what I want is for you to be happy and if this boytoy of yours makes you happy I won't say a thing of it- I just wonder what if? What if we actually took a chance on us- I know I'm living in some sort of fantasy to think that we could ever of been more then what we were. You are so much a better person that I could ever imagine to be. 

I am going to try to be your friend-I have never only been friends with a girl with no strings before but I guess that's better than nothing. Why was I so afraid? Giving us a chance would of been the best thing for me- you would of been the best thing for me. 

All I say is your cookies better not be as amazing as they were before or that will make it so hard not to kiss you and you better not put cookie dough on me! 

All I have to say is I hope your happy with him and if he doesn't treat you right I will kick his ass! ;) 

-Nate 

[degrassi-boarding-school]

Since we got a lot of new people I'm going to repost our rules.

Please make sure everyone reads and likes this post.

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[niceguysfinishfirst16-blog]

Relationships

Sam- Zachary thought he was the only one who talked about intelligent topics like him. The two boys did go further with any conversations. Zachary was glad to have someone around on his level. Looking forward to this friendship Zachary could once talk to someone and not annoy them like he does with others with his nerd conversations.

Bianca- Talking to Bianca online during their trip Zachary was confused why she was with her boyfriend at the time. All he saw was her getting upset. He barley knew the older woman but he did care for her. Zachary just wants to show her that she could have someone better in this life since there is nice guys who treat woman like the Queen she is. 

Tori-  Just like Bianca Zachary wanted Tori to know her worth. Zachary really wanted to be friends with her. He wanted the younger girl to know that she had others on her side and corner. She was a human being and he didn't see anything wrong with her, he did hope he could get to know her better as well.

Jenna- Giving her compliments that she deserved he assumed she was single but Zachary knew better. When he found out she was taken he was jealous. Someone so nice and beautiful wouldn't even go for him, he did have a very slight chance in his mind. Zachary did get to hang with her in Disney, Zachary had a blast to share the special moment with her as friends.

Tanner-  When he saw his post about getting burnt Zachary knew how it would end up. Going on and on Zachary ended up arguing with Tanner. Calling him names Zachary did admit he had no fliter to Tanner which caused Zachary to be called a douche. Knowing more fights would happen the smart guy didn't care anyways since he was better than Tanner in anyway.

Brayden-  Again like Tanner, Zachary had to call Brayden out on a post of his over the internet. Zachary didn't even care about what he said about him he just kept going and going. He knew this would also happen again, Zachary was ready for it or he would just ignore him. Either way he doesn't like or care for the guy. 

[x-heartlikemine]

Relationship Task.

Character Name: Maya Matlin.

Zig Novak (Boyfriend) - When Maya first met Zig, she couldn't help but being completely taken back by how cute he was in her opinion. And the two became really close friends after that, and she formed a crush on him but due to his relationship with Tori she decided not to tell him. But when they kissed at the beauty pageant and a number of conversations the two have officially entered a relationship.

Cam Saunders (Ex-Boyfriend/Best Friend) - Cam was Maya's first love, first kiss, and first break-up. And regardless of that, they remained close friends afterwards and she was actually glad about that. Especially due to their son Hoot being he was the first person to ever know about Hoot aside from her family.

Lindy Rose (Best Friend) - These two girls had met at Lockdown for the first time and instantly became friends when they built a fort together. And Maya adores her to death and no matter what will always have her back.

Tori Santamaria (Best Friend) These two didn't get off to the best start due to the situation with Zig. And then the kiss at the pageant but the two managed to finally come together and get closer. Now no matter what the two girls have each others' backs.

Sam Cortez - (Close Friend) - One of the most recent friendships Maya had made at Degrassi was Sam. And from the first conversation even if Sam was a bit more nerdier than her, they connected especially over the topic of Maroon Five. And as much as he picks on her sometimes, she absolutely adores their friendship.

Owen Milligan - Their relationship is quite hard to explain because there is no exact term for it. When she was always over at the Milligan household spending time with Tristan, of course she noticed he had a cute older brother and maybe for a brief moment in time she actually had a crush on him. But when the two began speaking again, and he admitted feelings for her she was flattered and still has no idea how to take them.

Payton Crest - (Friend) One of Maya's first days at Degrassi she met Payton and the two became friends rather quickly based on coffee and music. The two have had various conversations based on those two topics and recently became closer in Florida over Spring Break when they discussed fashion and hung out a few times.

Sarah Saunders - Even though the two hadn't really hung out, they quickly bonded over music when they met. That's how most of Maya's friends and her had bonded but she was actually looking forward to hanging out with the other girl.

Nathan Lockwood (Friend) - Maya usually doesn't feel comfortable around people after one conversation but their conversation during Spring Break about rides. She found herself actually intrigued by him which led to the conversation turning into more of a dinosaur conversation. Now they have the nicknames of dinoboy and dinogirl to each other.

[beedeesousaa]

Future Week

FULL NAME:  Bianca DeSousa ( soon to be Donovan) CURRENT AGE:  24 OCCUPATION: Professional Dancer/Working on her own line of Jewelry RELATIONSHIP STATUS:  Engaged PARTNER(WIFE/BOY/GIRLFRIEND/FIANCE):- Mason Donovan KIDS:  ain't nobody got time for that. biography;

Bianca has finally risen out of her bad times. She graduated from college with honors and got her degree in business. After a while, she fell back into dancing and became very successful at it. She has gone on tour with the biggest celebrities you can think of. She has danced back up for her good friend from Degrassi, Vanessa Morgan, regularly. When she isn't on the floor, she is hard at work designing her new jewelry line. It's to be name Tiny Co. Jewelry. 

When she isn't out being busy, she is at home with her loving Fiancee Mason. They have been growing strong since they started dating almost 5 years ago. (Their 5th anniversary is coming up.) They have had their ups and downs, but they have always been there for each other. They are the perfect couple, and Bianca wouldn't have it any other way.