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xoxokiz · 6 years ago

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How Love Dies- 1

*6 months later*

E T H A N

I looked out the window in my room, which gave me a full view of the street. The one advantage of having you room at the front of your house, is how you can see the sunsets every day. Having the golden light hit your walls.

Like every other day in the past 12 months, I've been watching the sunsets.

I hear the door creak open, then a deep voice. "Seriously dude?"

"What? I asked Grayson without turning around.

"It's been 6 months, get over her," he explained as he sat beside me. He looked out the window as well, and I could tell that even he was mesmerized.

"I am over her- I've been dating Raman ever since we broke up. I think that counts as 'getting over her'," I implied. Grayson sighed, and looked over at me.

"Really? Why are you watching the sunset, huh? Isn't that something Tanya used to do?" he interrogated.

I turned to loom at him, breaking my gaze from the sunset, and crossed my legs. I sat with my hands in my lap, slouching. "I don't know, it's a habit."

Which it was. I never really payed attention to the sunset, until I was with Tanya. I usually only watched it with her at my place, but never otherwise; now, I can't stop.

Grayson raised his eyebrow. You could sense the awkwardness between us. "Well, if you're over her, you wouldn't mind me asking her out? Or would you?"

I felt a tiny twinge in my stomach, but chose to ignore it.

"She's going to say no, Gray," I tried to explain to him, in order to get him to not do it.

"Obviously you would think so... 'cause you're not over her," he stated.

"What do I need to do to prove that I'm over her!?" I snapped.

"Nothing... I already know-"

"Know what, Grayson!?" I exclaimed.

"I already know what impact it's made... you've been different ever since then. Watching the sunsets and all," he informed, as he glanced out the window.

I couldn't argue against it.

In result of my silence, Grayson got up and left. He made sure to slam the door shut, in order to prove he was frustrated.

I groaned, and followed behind him shortly after. I ran down the stairs, and to the kitchen. Grayson leaned on the counter, as he watched mom prepare dinner.

"Mom!" I called.

"Yes?" she responded.

I leaned over the counter like Grayson," Do you think that I've changed?"

Grayson gives me a look, but I smirk when I hear my mom respond, "Not really, sweatheart."

"Thank you, now if you excuse me," I walked over to the pantry and grabbed a box of Oreo's, and stuffed one in my mouth," I'll be in my room, preparing for the retreat."

I bolted up the stairs, and closed my door. I walked over to my Bluetooth speaker, and randomly tapped on a playlist. As soon as the song came on, I realized whose it was. (Play music)

Tanya's.

T A N Y A * the next day *

I swung open the big red doors of the school, and enter the madness of the main hallway. I passed multiple groups, who obviously looked over at me, but made it look like they weren't. I knew what they all were thinking.

Here comes the girl who dated the most popular guy in our grade, but got cheated on.

Yup, I've been getting that look ever since November.

But it's been 6 months, I couldn't care less.

Along with having no boyfriend, I'm also stuck with no friends. After my best friend turned out to be a backstabbing bitch, I never really trusted anyone again. I chose to stay alone, rather than have anyone break my heart again.

I stopped in front of my locker, and grabbed my math Textbook and notebook. I love math, but I hate having it in the morning.

I slam it shut, and make my way to Ms. Jeffries class. I looked down at my notes while I walked, trying to review for the test today.

In a blink of an eye, my stuff goes flying everywhere, and I'm left fallen on the floor. I rubbed my head, as a hand extended out towards me. I took it, and got up.

"You should really watch where you're going," I heard a familiar voice say as I looked into deep brown eyes.

"Thanks," I said coldly as I took my books back from Grayson. He smiled, but I looked away.

"Hey," he said getting my attention back.

"What?" I ask rather a bit to rudely.

"Chill, I was just wondering if you want to, um, go out some time?" he asked nervously.

"Ha, just to be betrayed by dolan number two? No thanks," I rejected, and left. He looked a little hurt, and I turned away. Soon, I'm yanked back by a pull on my arm.

"Ow," I wince as I rub my arm. Grayson stepped closer, only inches away. (or centimeters? I'm canadian smh)

He looked into my eyes a bit longer than her should have, and then looked around to see if anyone was listening.

"Listen, I'm sorry," he said softly, so only the two of us could hear. "I should have told you , and I was stupid enough to let Ethan do it, let alone tell you I-" he began to ramble. I stopped him.

"Dude, chill," I calmed him. " Thanks for apologizing and all, but I don't think we could ever be friends again."

I walked away, leaving Grayson standing there. I wanted to look over my shoulder, but I look straight ahead, keeping a brave face. It hurt me how I just left him there alone, but the pity was quickly washed away after I walk through the class doors.

E T H A N

I waited for Grayson at out regular table. Our table is in the centre, which makes it hard for us not be watched while we eat, and have fun.

Aaron, Nate, and I waited for Grayson and Alex to come. We spent the time being throwing Takis Fuego, aiming at each others mouths. Nate caught one, but then began to pant for water, exclaiming that the heat was too much.

"What are you guys doing?" I heard a familiar voice ask.

I smile as I turn around to look at Raman. She slid in between me and Aaron, and kissed me on the lips.

"I missed you," she mumbled in between kisses.

"So did I," I respond, before making out again.

"Ewww," Grayson gagged as he sat beside her. " No more PDA, guys."

The two of us broke apart, laughing a little. I shook my head for a bit, and then looked down at the pizza slice in the red tray. I pushed it away, "They expect us to think this is food?"

They agreed with me, then Raman began running her hands though my short hair. "I miss your long hair."

"Yeah," Alex said. "Why did you cut it?"

Grayson looked over at me, and gave me a look the screamed you-better-tell-them. I looked down into my lap.

"I don't know? I guess... I just wanted something different," I lied. Grayson rolled his eyes, and continued to eat the 'pizza'.

(Flashback btw)

We laid on my bed, and she rested her head on my chest. My hands lightly stroked her back, and she looked up at me. She ran her hands through my hair, paying extra attention to my streak of purple. "Long hair looks good on you, you look maybe 1 percent less ugly."

I put my hand over my chest, and opened my mouth to form an 'O'. "Excuse me?!"

"Wh-hat?" she replied even more dramatically.

"What the fuck did you just say?" I say, getting up.

She broke into a fit of giggles. "I was just saying that you looked very handsome sir."

"Good, and it should stay that way," I whispered as I crawled on top of her, and began to kiss her hungrily.

(End of flashback)

"Earth to Ethan!?" Nate exclaimed. I looked up, and realized i just zoned out in front of everyone... again.

"I gotta go," I said, rushing as far away from the cafeteria as I could. Once I was in a hallway, quiet enough that no one was there, I pull out my antidepressants from my backpack pocket, and grab a bottle of water from the second pocket. I run over to my locker, and open it wide, so I could block my face.

I unscrew the lid of my water bottle, and hold the green pill in the palm of my hand. I look both ways, then place the pill on the tip of my tongue. I drown the pill down with water, and wipe the water off the edges of my mouth.

A voice startles me. "Why did you send Grayson to apologize? You know its not going to work."

I turn around, and come face to face with Tanya. I look at her shoulders, where her newly cut hair hovered a little above them. I was so used to her long hair, at first couldn't even recognize her. Her deep brown eyes pierced into mine.

"I didn't send him," I stated coldly, turning back to shove my water bottle and the container of pills into my locker.

"Really? And aren't you not supposed to have more than 2 pills a day?" She further questioned. I look at her blankly, at awe how she still remembers. It took me too long to reply, so she walked off after rolling her eyes.

She was wearing blue jeans that were ankle cuffed, and a red shirt that was tucked in. her hair was spiraling in majestic curls, and her black horn-rimmed glasses were slowly falling down her face. My eyes followed her as she slowly disappeared in the hallway.

She changed.

A lot.

Everything died inside of me when we broke up.

But that's How love dies

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