#dk: Pearl

[slapthebass]

DIR EN GREY - TOUR24 WHO IS THIS HELL FOR? - KBS KYOTO 16/11/2024

[slateszyslak]

A six fanart challenge with suggestions from bluesky

[sulfur1c-4cid]

I had to scroll for 20 fucking minutes to show a friend an oc I made like 1-2 years ago and now I wonder. should I repurpose this OC. yes it's a wof roblox oc but I love the colors

their name is Hueshift and they were a child animus who got their powers child-proofed by their parents. lmao imagine

I just realized I had no idea what this poll was about. I'll probably end up remaking the fuck out of this char because I love the design

[taegyutual]

Like 3 other people have heard this song but Dirty Dancing by New Kids on The Block ft Seventeen fucking slaps.

[jaehoon-kim]

Pearl necklace. Incheon, South Korea, October 3, 2023.

[kreemkreem]

Your future spouse message for you 💜

Pick an image

Hello

I think you know me or do you? Ha ha I am just saying. Now if I start being practical how are you? Hmmm . Are you taking care of yourself or not? Hmmm. I think you are not . whyyy hmm. (In soft voice ahhh) . Did I make your heart beat faster or made you blush . I think not (maybe yes) . Do you want a ring babe? Oh your blood is rushed to your face. I think I do some magic on you . Why so shy babe hmmm . Cutie. Oh ,you are not but what should I do you are for me(hahaha).

Your future spouse is literally a tease. I full so happy writing this message. He flirts a lot . And you are a little reserved person. You might pretend that u don't like his teasing but you are internally getting butterflies.(Do give a feedback)

Hyy sunshine

I wanna talk to you 😭🥺. Just a casual talk will do. I am missing you. If you are manifesting me I am also manifesting you. I know it will take sometime hah how I know it will take time. Bcz I am fixing the things you might not like in me. My hairstyle,my confidence,my wardrobe I am refining it . Making me a brand new person. Dk you wanna go on a beach? Wearing the pearls. I will take time but I will come. Don't be in love with someone else I am not just saying the lyrics I actually mean it.

😘

(your future spouse may be from different culture from you. They were talking to me a language I can't understand (lol 😭) . Your future spouse is committed person they may pray that all other people stay away from my future spouse. Here a strong message they may person you in just 1-2 dates. For some of you they may even propose you in just one meeting. Maybe you will meet him in blind date or in arrange marriage set up.)(do give me a feedback)

When the wind blows I love you when will stops I love you in rain I love you in when a sunset I love you when the sunrise I love you on the half moon I love you on the full moon I love you on the seashore I love you when the leaves are falling I love you when the trees are growing I love you on the snowy mountain I love you. Just wanna say I love you 💗💗💗.

((sigh) your future spouse just wanna tell you. How much they love you. I think you are more focusing on yourself right now. And you may feel now you are alone but your future spouse is telling you they are always with you. You are not alone as they love you. Even in my own message they are coming to say I love you. I think some of you wanted a confirmation or asked the universe if your spouse love you. Look how much they love you)(do give me a feedback)

[synthetickitsune]

Merman!DK (SVT) | Seashells fluff | 1k | gn!reader -> mermay collection

The beach sparkles just for you. The night is bright and warm, moonlight illuminates the sea and its many waves. They glitter in the reflected light too. You take a deep breath of the sea breeze and feel stress and worries melt away into nothing. 

You’ve always loved the beach. It’d be silly to call it your hideout when it’s so public, but under the cover of night only few strange individuals would dare to come here. There are legends, stories to keep children away. But they stick to most for their entire lives. Not to you. You were always drawn here, always felt this is where you belong. 

Today too the beach welcomes you. The waterline washes over the gifts the waves brought. They wink at you when the water draws back and the light hits them.

Your friends all joke that the sea is trying to court you. None of them, no matter the circumstances, are as lucky as you are when it comes to finding pretty seashells and other treasures of the sea. 

Your collection is quite impressive - shells, the most breathtaking shards of sea glass, little gems, even a couple pearls. You cherish them all. The jar you keep them in is almost full. Your friends are probably right when they say that selling it could pay your rent for at least a month or two. Honestly, maybe more. They don’t know of all your little treasures. Giving them away, or worse selling them, would never cross your mind, though. It doesn’t feel right. More like you’d be getting rid of a part of yourself too.

You bend down to pick the first of today’s presents. A perfect shell the colour of morning sky. Not a chip to it, not a speck of dirt. Just a few steps away - another. This one sparkling in hues of pinks and blues. Something rattles inside. A pearl. Perfect, just as white as the stars shining above. It feels like the pearl catches their gaze and they turn their attention to you now.

Not only the stars do, however.

Seokmin watches from his usual hiding spot behind the rocks lining the beach. He’s nervous, his hands tremble over the rough surface and his lip begs for relief from his teeth. You’ve never declined his gifts, but what if?

He can’t see well from this distance. Yet he knows, he can feel it. Your gentle smile, the careful way your fingers brush over the gifts he leaves for you. 

Humans have different courting habits than merfolk, of course. He’s well aware. He doesn’t expect anything in return. His feelings need to be expressed, though. And they get accepted as well, fortunately. There’s guilt he tries to push back. You don’t know what’s going on. He’s taking advantage of your innocence. Seokmin knows. But he’ll suffer beyond what he can take if he lets his love without release. 

He watches until you make your way close to him, where his trail of presents leads every time. Yet he always makes his escape before you can notice him. One day, he tells himself, one day.

It turns out he can’t choose the fateful date, however.

You look so beautiful today again. Seokmin always struggles to look at you. You’re too bright. His own guiding light, the star he orbits around. Maybe he’s a little intimidated by how beautiful you are. Or maybe he’s just a coward, simple as that.

You’re getting closer. He knows he won’t have the gut to face you today either, so he slips back into the water and sighs. He lingers still. He wants you to know. But his heart would shatter if you screamed, if you got afraid or disgusted. He wouldn’t survive that. And so he runs. 

But the sea is a cruel mistress and she gets fed up with cowards. He’s a strong swimmer. When he expects the strength of the tide and of the waves. This one caught him off guard.

He finds himself in a whirl of water and then - staring up at the starry sky. The sand itches as it lodges itself under his scales.

He panics and then he hears it - the gasp.

His face crumbles when he meets your eyes and knows it’s too late. You’ve seen him. And now it’s all going to fall apart. His world is about to end.

“So it was you,” you whisper. There’s a shy smile on your lips and from this close, well, it’d be easier to breathe without lungs than while looking at you.

You come closer and he’s not quick enough to move back. He feels paralyzed. It looks like it surprises you.

“I won’t tell anyone,” you promise, unaware of the true nature of his fear, “I just want to talk.”

“It… It was me,” Seokmin confirms, dumbly, before he introduces himself. He of course knows your name, but he loves the excuse to repeat it after you, say it aloud. It belongs on his tongue, his body, his soul.

“Thank you for the gifts,” you smile, “I’m sorry I never left any for you, but I didn’t have anything good enough to offer.”

“You are enough,” he breathes before he can stop himself, quickly withdrawing away in shame, “I- You’re just really beautiful.”

“So are you,” you chuckle, biting your lip, “I’m glad to finally meet you.”

His heart is about to beat out of his chest. He’s so glad the sea is loud enough to hide its thumping.

“Did you know?” he asks finally.

“No human could leave such elaborate gifts,” your giggles ring in his ears, “Or would bother for someone like me.”

“They’re not worthy,” Seokmin surprises even himself with the strength in his voice. His unconditional conviction.

You smile and do the unthinkable. You offer him your hand. To hold, to take. He doesn’t know if he’ll be able to let go. 

His own hand shakes as he slips it into yours. He hates the grains of sand that stick to his skin stubbornly. But your palm is so warm, fits so perfectly against his that the sand can’t hide the truth - you were always meant to be.

[slytherinshua]

SLYTHERINSHUA'S 2024 TUMBLR REVIEW

(except it's me and i'm a bit unhinged w the stats)

TOP 5 FICS

brought the heat back (1764 notes)

anton boyfriend headcanons (1611 notes)

you, me, and bulbasaur (1266 notes)

texts with boyfriend jaehyun (1248 notes)

boynextdoor and kisses (1167 notes)

LONGEST FIC

burnt promises, second chances (14521 words)

SHORTEST FIC

handholding with tws (200 words)

TOP 5 FAV FICS

burnt promises, second chances (seventeen - wonwoo), this beast of a fic was just a labour of love tbh and it will always be one of my favs even though i could probably write it better now. it was honestly just a milestone in my writing career and i still love it !!

love explosion (&team ot9), i just thought this fic was super cute and it was fun to write, it's probably a bit of recency bias too but who cares!!

i wish you could hear my lullaby (nu'est - minhyun), a sad sad fic but i thought i portrayed the emotions well and honestly i just love minhyun

the night where it ended (zerobaseone - hanbin), part of a series of fics that prob defined slytherinshua 2024, but this one is my fav of the 3 in the series. the saddest part but i absolutely love how i wrote that death scene.

113 l seungjun (onf - seungjun), gotta be at least one onf fic on this list !! honestly this pick is more about the vibes than anything else. i always wanted to write a beautiful beautiful au and i'm so glad i did and did it for seungjun. i would definitely love to write more onf lore fics in the future :)

CROSSOVER FICS

pepperup potion (hogwarts crossover)

ruby out of control (steven universe crossover)

my heart returns (whisper of the heart crossover)

seventeen atla headcanons (avatar the last airbender crossover)

burnt promises, second chances (avatar the last airbender crossover)

FICS WRITTEN FOR MOOTS

kiss and makeup (sejun) written for @sunoo-bby

a jerk or not (eunseok), paris rain (anton), velvet and silk (yongha), you're worth it (anton), california love (doy), late night kisses (doy), pearls (one), sangha soft thought (sangha), just us two (shinyu), first kiss (anton), birthday girl (sangha), gambit (park jihoon), hanse headcanons (hanse) written for @eternalgyu

cherry bows (s.coups), chocolate cake (intak), really? in a cafe? (seunghyub), one more kiss (seunghan), you're such a dork (taeyong), leehan soft thought (leehan), fish ≠ human (leehan), texts with boyfriend leehan (leehan), texts with boyfriend sion (sion), soul soft thought (soul), dongsung soft thought (dongsung), riku soft thought (riku), troublemaking (ryo), hold my heart, keep it safe (jeno), for a million years (seunghan), nights with you (soobin), the night where it ended (hanbin), gunil soft thought (gunil), theo soft thought (theo), summer's #1 perk (gyuvin), boy dad intak (intak), cherry berry (sakuya) written for @blue-jisungs

imperfect weddings (seo yul) written for @candewlsy

snack break (hyojin), sleep is the best medicine (seungkwan), hyojin headcanons (hyojin) written for @wheeboo

golden retriever (mingyu) written for @mangocustard16

cooking with prince (prince), texts with boyfriend yushi (yushi) written for @haecien

dk soft thought (dk) written for @planetkiimchi

gunwook soft thought (gunwook), hey, sleepyhead (subin) written for @chewryy

jaehyun soft thought (jaehyun), 2am crisis (yujin) written for dodo (deactivated acc pls come back pookie)

flustered (kangmin), beautiful stranger (fuma), shinyu soft thought (shinyu), husband material (matthew), a bit tipsy (chanhee), on the bleachers (juyeon), too good to be true (hyunjae), shut your pretty mouth (eric), without words (sunghoon), sejun soft thought (sejun), sacrifice (eric), pepperup potion (harua), washed away (k) written for @hursheys

how lucy hugs (lucy), the breaking point (gwangil), caring hands (sangyeop) written for @completely-zoned-out

did we just fall in love? (leehan) written for @lxvemaze

i think my cat likes you (cha hun) written for @tocupid

reborn, undead (hanbin) written for @nonononranghaee

of doubts and mistakes (woodz) written for @from-izzy

winter's jealousy (jungsu) written for @loserlvrss

just for a week (soobin), my jewel (hueningkai) written for @soobchwe

tabloids gonna love this (hueningkai) written for @seokminfilm

slice of cake (wonwoo) written for @k1eev

the first snow (jo) written for @nicholasluvbot

how to approach you (ej) written for @fae-renjun

REQUESTED FICS POSTED - 101

GROUP I WROTE THE MOST FICS FOR - boynextdoor (22 fics)

IDOL I WROTE THE MOST FICS FOR - leehan (11 fics)

NUMBER OF GROUPS WRITTEN FOR - 28

NEW GROUPS I WROTE FOR - 12

2024 MILESTONES

reaching 2000 followers & 3000 followers!! joining more networks, meeting new amazing mutuals, writing for so many groups, hosting multiple events and many more <3

GOALS FOR 2025

reach 5000 followers!! write another long fic (10k+) or multiple!! write for wayv, cix, and day6 (plus other new groups i decide to stan in 2025!!), grow the &team writing community on tumblr, and of course get more ppl to stan onf <3

FAV BLOGS THIS YEAR

@wheeboo @blossom-hwa @raevyng @nicholasluvbot @lxvemaze

@blue-jisungs @fae-renjun @hursheys

FAV FICS I'VE READ THIS YEAR

you know i love you by @lxvemaze

partly moon, partly sun by @blossom-hwa

attractive attention by @hursheys

promise, love burning brighter than a fire, tattoo by @blue-jisungs

every time we touch by @nicholasluvbot

tell me that you love me, hi (i love you), rain or shine by @wheeboo

weather the storm by @planetkiimchi

first to know you, first to love you by @gluion

petrichor by @welcometomyoasis

if it's all i do: my heart beats true, one day robots will cry by @lxveille

tattooed heart by @juyeoniemyhoney

NUMBER OF FICS WITH MAIN CHARACTER DEATH - 4

NUMBER OF FIANCE/HUSBAND FICS - 22

NUMBER OF PREGNANCY/BABY FICS - 4

NUMBER OF NURSING TROPE FICS - 14

WORDS TO MUTUALS

to defining moots of 2024, my best friends in the whole world, who i wake up excited to talk to every day

@eternalgyu my soulmate forever and ever, i will never stop loving our conversations, the groups we stan together, the fic ideas, the calls, the games, and everything in between. my life is infinitely better because of you and i would have never even started on tumblr without your push for it <33 you are really the reason behind this whole blog and me pursuing writing more seriously as a hobby so i am always forever grateful to you hannie :(( i love you 🥹

@hursheys we fight every day but it still brings a smile to my face regardless. i said i wouldn't be sappy but here i am deal w it 👹 i loved introducing you to all the groups this year, it was genuinely some of my favourite memories this year. i've really wanted a christian friend who i could be close with which is something i've never had because of constant moves. and it's so nice to have met someone who actually gets me, who is so similar to me in almost every way, who i can annoy every single day and tell to kys 🙂‍↕️

@blue-jisungs my baby!!!! we always have each others backs whether it is sharing fic ideas or writing fics for each other, talking about wishies and tws babies and bonedo <33 i just love how close we've become in 2024 and now we talk like every single day it's truly become routine by now 🥹🥹 and i wouldn't have it any other way. you always make my day better when you text <3 my kyo forever and ever!! i'll always be your soul hehe :D

to all my other moots (i cannot tag you all cause tumblr will not let me post ksdksd), thank you so much from the bottom of my heart for being my friends, talking to me, loving my blog and my fics. whether we met in a net, or through each others fics, or just randomly i appreciate and love every single one of you. you all make my life so much fun and enjoyable. tumblr really has become my happiness and i'm so glad i can share it with all of you <33

and lastly, to all of my followers, the one's who have gotten me to 3000 on this blog. i love you so much. all the anons who have come talked to me. all the people who have requested fics, participated in events, read my fics, liked my fics, commented on my fics, reblogged my fics, thank you all so much. you've made 2024 such a memorable year for me and this blog!! truly the best year this blog has seen i truly believe. i hope i've given someone the same amount of happiness and enjoyment that everyone on tumblr has given me. i love you all <3 cheers to 2025 being even better!!

[star-bitten]

i really really have to go to bed but as i was drifting off the the image of mc in jolipoli dresses popped in my head and i am wide awake and going fucking feral. so here i am with a dress assigned to each house that i may or may not draw our beautiful amazing wife in (ft. some extra thoughts!!)

FROSTHEIM

both from their Spring-Summer 2026 collection “Elysian Glow” exhibited at Barcelona Bridal Fashion Week 2025

THE CRYSTALS!!! THE LINES THE DRESS CREATES!!! it looks like it was made of frost to me kind of & i love how the embellishments hang down a bit like icicles

the colours and the gems <3333 the symmetry of the design itself works too since ice crystals exhibit hexagonal symmetry. the material also makes the train look a bit like a snow drift...

VAGASTROM

was shown at SanYa Bridal Fashion Week 2024

it was a toss up between this and another gold gown but i ultimately decided on this one! i love how the fabric kind of looks like fine chainmail (perfect for the combative house) + the spikes up top and the sun imagery. the sleek/more streamlined silhouette fit too; it's just the right amount of bold

JABBERWORK

from their Spring-Summer Bridal Collection 2024 (was exhibited at Barcelona Bridal Fashion Week 2023)

the tulle was an immediate yes for jabberwock the whimsy the romance the volume!!!!!! + the design of the dress itself automatically makes me think of creeping ivy/sand on the beach. i'm a big fan of the juxtaposition in textures i think it really suits a house as dynamic as jabberwock... and the actual personalities in it lmao

SINOSTRA

second is from their Spring-Summer 2026 collection “Elysian Glow” as showcased at Barcelona Bridal Fashion Week 2025

dk if this requires much explanation...... this is Sinostra imo. 1) the keyhole REPEAT AFTER ME THE KEYHOLE!!!!!! sweetheart neckline!!!!!!! + the Beading and the subtle sheerness and how the colours shift... whew. the second one is also very them to me especially paired with the necklace!! sleek and elegant and beautiful... it could also go to obscuary i guess but i think the red touches are very sinostra

HOTARUBI

to be completely honest i can't really find one for hotarubi that Clicks. for this one i do like the colour!! and the floral embellishments + pearl strands are delicate in a way that is very hotarubi coded. cascading tulle always reminds me of a flood which goes well with how it's always raining at the dorm

OBSCUARY

backstage at Love Share Stage 2025

ohhhh claps my hands together like a supervillain. the floral print emphasising mc's curse which would render her nonhuman as per obscuary's whole gimmick!! the way it fades into the perfect shade of plum!!! the general otherworldliness of it... perfect!!!

MORTKRANKEN

i cannot find anything that really clicks for mortkranken either unfortunately but the colour works! and there's definitely something surgical about the bodice... the embellishments resemble tentacles too (tentacles being a pretty staple feature of visual language in cosmic horror, the messages of which the mad scientist trope embodies)

[callmesel]

Perciver Au Idea

PERCIVER IN A STEVEN UNIVERSE AU

Hear me out

Percy is a Pearl and Oliver is a Ruby

Pearls are there to assist their gem and are like an accesory to them too. (And also some gems were obsessed with getting one because that meant you were in a high rank or smt)

Rubies are for protection and like security guards. They also work better as a team. (*cough* team captain *cough*)

This would be wlw as most gems are presented as female. So wlw perciver into the mix to. Tragic lesbians that cann't be together for being different.

I like the idea of Percy being in a submissive role and Oliver helping getting him out of there. And Percy helping Oliver feel loved and cared for instead a disposable gem out of hundreds.

This would be set before all the revolution with Pink Diamond and the Crystal Gems so it makes more sense that they can be together. As drama to the plot with having to be secretive and them getting "reborn" to "mix" them and still find each other. It's really fun.

But I could also be set in SU into the Future and be more calm. An elegant and greaceful pearl with a rough and strong ruby. But that's a bit boring because it would be so taboo in that scenario. You could make them still racist as the Diamonds have to "undo their program" in their gem. Idk how to explain it. I also dk if the Diamonds stop gem production after the main show tbh. I don't remember much.

But yeah.

Pearl!Percy x Ruby!Oliver

And If you want to throw Penny into the mix, she could be a lapis lazuli (yk? water bending? clearwater? I'm so funny) and she could be Percy's superior. Although I don't think lapis lazulis get pearls but let them work together. Maybe Penny works for Percy's gem and Oliver is there as the leader of the rubies for that same gem.

[dollfaceksj]

BDSMSBSKFNSKSNKSD A DOSE OF WHATENDKSBSKSND DND FKDNDKDNSKSMS. CLOVER IM DKS SLSNSLSNS SKS. OC IS PISSING ME OFF. WTF IS WRONG WITH U IS A PERF TITLE BC WTF IS WRONG W HER !!! WHERE TF THEM PILLS COME FROM !!!!

this was written in a hurry. didnt feel like bullet point format would fit w this chapter. its not my best work but i hope yall get the feel i was trying to convey <3 (i won’t answer asks that spoil the story! gonna wait a few days so i don’t spoil the other readers who arent active currently!)

tw: body image issues(!!!) very deeply rooted issues that majority of women n ppl go thru. u have been warned. <3

wc: 2k ish

can’t afford love | myg (m) #20

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The instance the words leave his lips, your heart free falls—no, plummets—to the pit of the Earth. This isn’t how it was supposed to go. He shouldn’t have found out this way.

You can’t bring the anxious quiver in your lips to stop when your mind travels at lightning speed trying to come up with a response. An explanation. An excuse. A lie.

But nothing comes out.

There’s nothing that you can bring yourself to say.

You messed up.

Are you even sorry? Or are you Just sorry you got caught?

Your eyes mindlessly stare at the box of pills like it’s going to vanish into thin air and you desperately want to witness it.

Doesn’t happen, though. The box stares back at you like it’s mocking you. Laughing in your face whilst being in his grasp.

He says your name. Quietly. Angrily. Repeats it when you don’t respond. Sounds like his voice is inside your head yet it also sounds like it’s coming from a galaxy that is seven million light years away.

After what seems like ages—which in reality was just a few seconds—you finally find the voice in the back of your throat that seemingly abandoned you in your time of need. “It’s an old box of pills and besides, why are you snoopi–”

“The label says you bought these two days ago. I’m not fucking stupid.” The words don’t just roll off his tongue, they launch out of his mouth like a spear. Penetrates your chest. The tip of said deadly spear nudges at your heart. Pokes it a little. Maybe makes it bleed a little, you’re not too sure.

Your panicked gaze slowly shifts to meet his angry eyes after he aggressively throws the box back onto your dresser.

“And if you’re going to berate me for snooping, someone has been trying to reach you. Called you 3 times. Just went to check to make sure it wasn’t an emergency.” He steps aside and nods towards your purse, which is now lying on its side, wide open with the contents spilled out. Your phone. Lip gloss. Wallet. Tube of Vaseline. 3 q-tips. Pack of gum. Few loose pain killer capsules.

You slowly start shaking your head and take a small step back, hoping to enlarge the distance between the two of you that you had tried to close just a few moments ago. “You won’t get it, so just–”

“No,” he says as he stomps to you, wrapping his hand around your bicep to stop you in your tracks. “You’re going to stop fucking lying to me. What the hell has been going on with you? Why are you acting like this?”

You try to wiggle your arm out of his grasp but he doesn’t let you go that easily. Tightens his grip. Enough to keep you still. Doesn’t hurt, though.

“Let me go.”

“No.”

“Let me g–”

He pulls you a little closer. Not in a romantic way. In a don’t-you-move-an-inch way. “Why won’t you just talk to me? I don’t understand why you keep pushing me away.”

Swallowing is starting to feel like sandpaper scratching its way down your esophagus. “Please, just– stop.”

He shakes his head, damp black hair swinging back and forth. Water dripping off his ends onto his shoulders like shiny pearls. They drop onto the fabric of his shirt, creating tiny little polka dots that are darker than the color of his shirt. “No, I won’t stop. You’re crossing the fucking line and you know it.”

He’s got you. That much is clear.

The silence that envelops around you is so prominent. Heavy. Wraps around you. Kind of like you’re a fetus in a pregnant belly.

Heat starts rising to your nose and cheeks, enough for you to realize that you’re starting to get emotional. Doesn’t take much longer for tears to start rolling down your cheeks.

Is there any point in hiding it now?

“You’ll never understand, Yoongi.” You shake your head as you bring your hand up. Wipe your nose with the back of your hand. Sniff softly.

His chest deflates as he heavily exhales. Feline eyes soften for a moment before his brows pinch together again. “Then make me understand.” His voice is still angry. Furious. Fuming.

“Nothing’s been the same for me, don’t you get it?” you shakily murmur, finally wiggling out of Yoongi’s grasp but not bothering yourself to get rid of the proximity between you two. Somewhere there’s comfort in it. “I know I shouldn’t have got those, I fucking know. But what you don’t know is what it feels like, okay?”

“Like what fee– What the hell are you even talking about?”

You cut him off. Burst out. “I feel disgusting, okay?”

His frown deepens. Eyes never leave you. The intensity on his features keeps you glued to the floor beneath your bare feet.

Before he can even respond, you continue with your outburst. “You don’t know what it’s like to have been the it-girl, to have been looked at and craved by any- and everyone and to now look and feel like this.”

It’s the truth. Yoongi was the king of your college because he had you. You made heads turn. You made guys fight their best friends. You made girls copy your clothes and makeup.

And now, here you are. Gotten rid of a full-length mirror in your bathroom because you hated seeing yourself naked.

Silence prevails once again. Just for a few moments that feel like centuries.

His expression doesn’t change. “Like what?”

“Ugly! Fat! Disgusting! Don’t you get it? My hair fell out, I have stretchmarks and scars all over my body, my tooth fell out at one point, my boobs are saggy, I don’t feel like taking care of myself. I burst into tears whenever I even remotely look at myself.”

You continue, pointing an accusatory finger at Yoongi and press it into his chest until he winces. “And don’t you fucking get it wrong. I fucking love Jun. I would do it all over again. I love being his mother and there’s nothing, absolutely nothing, that I’d change it for. But nothing prepared me for this. I haven’t gone out, I haven’t done anything. I bring Jun to daycare and pick him up and that’s it.”

You start backing away from him. Lips still quivering and brows furrowed in hurt.

As you approach your bed, you sink down. Bury your face in your palms. Sob a little. “But then we started being intimate again and you made me feel so beautiful. So wanted. I didn’t see it coming at all. Like everything I was seeing was a lie and everything you saw was the undeniable truth.”

You take a shaky breath to continue, “I meant it when I said I wanted the baby, that was never a lie. I wouldn’t lie about that. But as we kept having sex, you just…” you sniff, “made me so addicted to the way you made me feel. Made me feel so good physically but also like I was the most beautiful woman on the planet.”

Your eyes involuntarily shift up to meet his but in the instance you do, you regret it.

He’s frowning. Black eyes staring you down. Arms crossed over his chest. Looks like his mind is racing at a million miles a minute.

You drop your head again, hurt coating your voice. “I got scared. Scared that I’d get pregnant when I was finally starting to gain some of my self esteem back. Scared that I’d have to end our arrangement and we wouldn’t have that anymore. That I wouldn’t see you anymore.” You steal another glance at him before shifting your eyes back to the floor. His face is still the same. “I decided to get birth control the day before the award ceremony. I swear, I just wanted to delay the pregnancy only by a month or two. I just wanted to feel okay for a little while longer.”

It’s quiet. Really quiet. Your vision is blurry. Makes the floor look like a pool of blood thanks to the bordeaux rug. Makes his feet look like two hazy clouds.

You hold your heart when he finally speaks up. “Why didn’t you just tell me?”

Ugh.

He doesn’t get it. He will never understand. Never.

“Because it’s humiliating! It’s embarrassing. I…” You exhale deeply in an attempt to compose yourself. “I’m ashamed, okay? The man that once saw me as the queen of the world has to see me come down to this? I didn’t want you to think of me as this… this pathetic, insecure woman. I didn’t want you to think ‘is this really what I once loved?’.”

The frown on his brows deepens. He kind of looks genuinely offended but still tries to keep the rest of his expression as neutral as possible. He’s failing, though.

Not possible when the line between his brows looks deeper than the Pacific Ocean. When his lips twitch like he wants to yell. When the veins in his neck look like they want to pop out of his skin.

You take a deep breath after the explanation. Hang your head down. Wipe your tears with your palms. Sniff quietly. Allow a soft sob to escape your system—which makes your frame tremble slightly.

All those days, weeks, months that you spent hating yourself. Mourning the you that once was. Mourning the Yoongi that loved you.

It all comes back to you in the form of tears. Sobs. Pain.

It’s so quiet that you hear him preparing to speak. The way his lips kiss his teeth. Clears his throat. He says your name. Once. Twice. Sighs when you don’t react.

Then he gently places your phone in your lap.

Mom

Missed call (5)

You sniff and wipe your nose clean. You clear your throat and dial her number. Hold your phone to your ear. Sigh softly before you let out a croaky, “hello?”

Yoongi turns his back to you. Sighs loudly as he runs his hands through his hair and tries to process all the information you just dumped on him.

Your mother sounds distressed on the other side of the line. “What the hell took you so long?”

“Sorry, I was in the showe–”

“Stop, stop,” your mom pauses. “You need to get to the hospital right now.”

Your heartbeat stutters in its rhythm. You shoot up from your seat right away. The back of your phone becomes slimy from the amount of sweat your palm has produced.

Goosebumps pop out of the upper layer of your skin. “What? The hospital? What happened?” The turmoil in your soul makes all of your limbs shiver.

Yoongi’s head snaps towards you. Horror is written all over his face. Lips parted in shock and body frozen in a state of panic.

“Just get here. I don’t want you to drive recklessly.”

You reach for your clothes as you tilt your head to your shoulder to keep the phone trapped as you slide your pants onto your legs. “Mom! I’m gonna drive recklessly now anyway! Tell me what happ– Oh, God. Is it Jun? Did something happen? What happ–”

Your mother cuts you off. “Stop it! Just get here.”

“Mom, I swear, you’re gonna tell me what the hell happened to Jun right no–”

A big pair of hands grab you by the shoulders and shake you out of your state of panic. At least they try to. Your eyes shift up, meeting black concerned eyes that are begging you to just listen to your mother for a moment.

The other line goes silent. Just for a few seconds.

“Jun had a seizure.”

To be continued.

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a/n: and i hope everyone that hated on yn feels like a piece of shit😋🩷

— enjoyed it? you can always show your appreciation by buying me some coffee if you want ☕︎♡

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[whitys2]

Ok, hear me out

STEX idol au!

DINAH

Still thinking abt some stuff, but for now i'll let it be!

I really like the idea of Dinah being a country singer, sadly idk a thing abt the older productions, but i remember seeing she was a country girl somewhere...(dk if it was a hc or no, but i love it)

Also! She doesn't just sing country music, but that's her main focus

Pearl is not included as a backing vocal bc i have other plans for her...

Here's a playlist that i've created for her!

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0kvSjnPSoaVgBQPLHG4Gi5?si=meqlPRIgQWOfd__42fYLvg&pi=e-nyrqHdfZSCix

next probably will be Greaseball btw

[stackofcashh]

A little introduction and about me! ｡𖦹°‧

𝄞 Halloooo!!! My name is Julia! Mostly this account will be used for fics, oc’s, and random stuff!! 𖦹

𝄞 I’m African American! + Birthday is May 27th

𝄞 Some of my fav artists are; Sade, Chappell Roan, PinkPantheress, Miles Caton, Doechii, Deftones, Lola Kirke, N.E.R.D, etc.

𝄞 Favorite movies + Shows: Sinners, Skins UK, Wicked, The Ugly Stepsister, Dinner In America, Yellowjackets, Arcane, Avatar, The Outsiders, La La Land, Pearl, The Boys etc.

𝄞 Never really found interest in uploading content until 2021 when I started editing! Edit acc is: Iconiicxs, And I didn’t enjoy writing until I watched or read Percy Jackson, then my writing obsession only grew from there tbh. I started writing for The Boys, Arcane, Sinners and much more!!

𝄞 Dk if I’ll start to upload my writing on here atm but I will be talking about Shows nd movies!

𝄞 That’s mostly it for now, I will be posting more trust!!!

[fosilizd]

would people like to hear about/see drawings of my life series pressure au

I know I post a lot more about maze runner and teen wolf now and I definitely still will

But this and my pjo au is honestly some of the only things keeping me tied to the life series fandom

And I'd love to show it I just dk if ppl would be interested

As a teaser it includes these groups going into the blacksite:

Boatem:

-Grian

-Scar

-Impulse

-Pearl

-Mumbo

Duos:

-Etho and Bdubs

And

-Scott and Cleo

Amalgamation:

-Grian

-Skizz

-Tango

-Joel

-Jimmy

-Gem

Treebark:

-Martyn and Ren

Not-Idiots:

-Lizzie and BigB

Pls let me know if you guys would enjoy me posting about that :P

[jaehoon-kim]

Handmade pearl choker necklace for doll. Incheon, South Korea, September 26, 2023.

[synthetickitsune]

A/N: Is this me being a monsterfucker? Is this me sulking bcs I couldn't find any svt mermay fics last year? Is this an excuse to finish two fics that I've been trying to finish for a year or longer now? Who knows.

S.Coups + Shipwreck

× What doesn't kill you makes you stronger - or so they say. You're not really sure. You think it left you scarred in more ways than just physical. × cw: injuries, blood

Jeonghan + Net

× This wasn't what you had in mind. You were supposed to be making money, not untangling a clumsy merman from your net. × cw: mentioned merfolk trafficking, blood

Joshua + Pearls

× It's a great deal for both of you - you make good money and he gets pretty human-made jewelry. Nonetheless, pearl hunting is a dangerous work. × cw: drowning scare

Jun & The8 + Differences

× It’s dangerous to meet strangers, more dangerous yet when they’re not human and you’re in their territory. And even once they become friends, are you sure you know what they really are at all?

Hoshi + Aquarium

× You hate this job. You hate your helplessness, you hate that somebody could ever be okay with this. But you could never hate him. × cw: hoshi is kept as an exotic fish

Wonwoo + Leviathan

× The old shrine is a ruin but it's your only option. Gods of present days do not answer your prayers, maybe one more ancient will. Oh how wrong you were.

Woozi + Seaside Festival

× For someone who doesn't care to explore the world and avoids humans like the plague, he seems a little too enthusiastic when the town celebrates.

Mingyu + Seafood

× It's about time he drops this need to show off. After all, what matters is that the food is delicious and the company is amazing.

DK + Seashells

× You've always been lucky finding the prettiest shells and gifts of the sea. Turns out it wasn't pure coincidence.

Seungkwan + Accident

× Nobody is perfect - no human or a siren. You're just lucky you haven't ended up as his dinner. × cw: talks of cannibalism, diet mention

Vernon + Lighthouse

× You've been warned. Isolation plays nasty tricks on people's minds. And yet you feel this isn't a simple hallucination. You're not going insane. The sea is calling you. × cw: drowning/freezing to death

Dino + Pirates

× Chan's been helping you and the rest of your crew survive and thrive for so long that it's only fair you take care of him when he gets injured. × cw: injuries, mentioned shark attack