#do not read anything into me being told I'm worthless for not being blonde aged like. five? and my current taste in men

[david-watts]

I'm just so pissed that literally everything is my fault. oh it's my fault there are boxes in the hallway despite the three times I've told them to deal with their shit. oh it's my fault there's a draught even though I've pointed out the window leaks and there's a hole in the door. which doesn't latch because the damn thing broke. everything's my fault because that's convenient! why own up to the fact you're a human when you can blame the grandkid that's closest on hand and the one from your least favourite kid. the one that you said to his face wasn't worth much because he wasn't blonde

[harbingerofchaosandorder]

Deku Origin Story

This is the first chapter of a fanfiction I’m writing over on Wattpad it’s BakuDeku/ Villiandeku/ UA villain rehab. I hope you guys enjoy and let me know what you think?

2 years ago 7th grade....

Midoriya: "Hey Kacchan could i talk to you alone"

Bakugo: " Fine nerd"

They walked out into the hallway away from all of their classmate. Izuku was standing with his back against the wall and his head staring at the ground trying to figure out the right worlds to say, Katsuki was facing him eyes glaring.

Bakugo: "Spit it out shitty Deku"

Midoriya: " I'm in love with you Kacchan, I always have been, I wanna be with you and us both be hero's together"

A single tear rolls down Izukus face, Katsuki just stares not knowing what to say his expression seemed to soften but Izuku couldn't see he was still staring at the ground.

The spiky haired blonde thought about what he just heard from the shorter green haired boy, its true hes always loved Izuku more than anything, But since he found out Izuku would never have a quirk he knew he couldn't give in to his feelings.

Not if he wanted to be the number one hero, He saw his feelings for Izuku as a weakness.

He didn't know what to do he was happy yet at the same time hurt, angry, a flood of emotions went through him and the only way he new how to handle it was to lash out on the boy he wanted more than anything.

Bakugo: " Ha you think I could ever love a shitty quirk-less deku like you"

As he started to walk away he could hear Izuku starting to cry, it hurt him so much.

He didn't want the other boy to love him anymore, He knew how it felt to hurt like that and if he couldn't stop how he felt he at least wanted the other boy to stop hurting.

" You know if you really want to be a hero that badly, there's actually another way. Just pray that you'll be born with a quirk in your next life and take a swan, dive off the roof of the building. "

He wanted Izuku to hate him, To be free of the feelings he had for him, Even if it hurt him.

School ended and on the way home Izuku was attacked by the Sludge Villain. All might swooped in and saved him Izuku being his biggest fan and after the day he had Needed to talk to him. After holding onto All Might when he took off he was flying threw the air when the mighty Golden haired hero noticed the small child he landed on top of a building.

All Might: "Not a very smart move. Bang on the door for a while, someone will let you in. Now I have to go, see you on the flip side".

Izuku: "Wait, not yet. One second".

All Might: "No, I don't have any time".

Izuku: " Wait, I HAVE TOO KNOW...Is it possible to become a hero even if I don't have a quirk?" " I'm a normal kid without any powers. Could I ever hope to be someone like you?"

All Might: "Without a quirk?" "Pro heroes are always having to risk their lives. Some villains just can't be bitten without powers". "So no, I honestly don't think you can be a hero without a quirk".

And with that all of Izukus hopes and dreams were gone.

He felt like maybe he should just kill him self take a swan dive just like kacchan said he should. After All Might left Izuku walked to the ledge and contemplated.

He stood there for 10 minutes lost in thought but was to scared to go through with it.

He went to the door and when finally someone came he just walked past them and kept going, He didn't know where he was walking he just continued on he didn't wanna go home he felt like a burden on his poor mother, a worthless loser at school. He felt like he had nothing to live for.

He eventually made his way into an alleyway, He'd been walking for hours it was already dark outside, He leaned against the cold brick wall of a run down building and sunk down to the ground his knees in his chest with his arms wrapped around his legs.

He took his phone out of his pocket to check the time it read 11:55. 'Huh' he thought to himself its almost midnight and still not a text from mom she must be working late to help support him. He hated how useless he felt and with that he threw his phone at the wall across from him. He curled up even tighter and started to cry.

After what felt like hours of him crying when its only been around 15 minutes he heard the voice of a boy " Hey whats wrong?" and then a females voice " Is he ok? Hes crying".

Izuku looked up to see a boy maybe 14? He had turquoise eyes, scars on his face and arms, piercings and spiky black hair, He was wearing a black hoodie with the words lowlife in red on it, black jeans and purple vans.

He then looked to his left and saw the girl now crouching next to him, She looked to be the same age as him 13. She had blonde hair in two messy buns, Yellow cat like eyes, She sported a big smile her fangs fully visible, She wore a beige cardigan with a blue skirt, blue knee highs and brown shoes.

Izuku was confused why were these two complete strangers asking if he was okay?

Toga:"Hi My names Himiko Togo but you can just call me Toga" she said with a giant grin and giggling.

Izuku: "My names Izuku but most people call me Deku" He looks back down at the ground trying not to start crying again.

Toga: " Doesn't that mean useless you don't look useless?"

Dabi: " Yea it doesn't look like theirs anything wrong with you so how can you be useless?" "I'm going by Dabi right now so that's what you can call me" he said smiling with a smirk reaching out a hand to Izuku " How bout we be friends?".

Toga: "Yay Yea lets be Dekkun" she starts screeching in excitement.

Izukus a little surprised by this no ones ever wanted to be friends with him.

Izuku:" You guys wouldn't wanna be friends with me sorry " with his eyes starting to fill with tears, Finally two people seemed to show interest in him and he knew it was just going go away when they found out the truth.

Dabi: " And whys that?" he asks while looking over to Toga who just shrugs and looks back at the green haired boy crying.

Izuku: "Because i don't have a quirk" he starts to shake going into one of his panic attacks as he braces for them to start laughing but to his surprise the taller boy sat down next to him and wrapped his arm around him.

"Why would that matter?" said Dabi and Toga in unison. Izuku looked up shocked hes never had anyone act this way towards him before.

Dabi: " You have a home Izuku?" looking down at the smaller boy arm still wrapped around him but now Izuku was holding onto it for what seemed like dear life

Izuku: "Not anymore" he said not wanting to go home and be a burden to his mother or the people around him anymore.

Toga and Dabi looked at each other and silently nodded knowing what to do.

Toga: " Dekkun come with us" she smiles at him "You can be apart of our family if you'd like"

Izuku: " What family" Izuku looked up shocked.

Dabi: "A family of misfit" dabi chuckled "People that everyone else has given up on" grabbing Izukus hand.

In that moment Izuku felt safe and wanted two things he hasn't felt like that in along time. He weakly smiled at the two other teens and says "Okay" and with that the three stood up and walked down the alley.

After around 15 minutes of walking they got to what looked like a door behind an abandoned building.

Toga puts a pass code into a little number pad next to the door after a few seconds it unlocks, I follow them threw the door into what looks like a bar

There was a purple mist guy in a nice suit standing behind the bar polishing a glass, and a light blue haired guy who looked around 18 sitting at the bar watching TV.

When they noticed us walk in the Mist guy looked at Toga and Dabi and with a Serious tone said "Where Have you two been its past 1am" "That's no time for two teenagers to be running around the city what if the hero's saw you two".

" Sorry Kirigiri" The two whined in unison " We didn't mean to worry you" Toga squeals.

"Lay off them Kirigiri" the light blue hair man chuckles " It looks like they made a friend" He looks over to Izuku " Hi My names Tomura Shigaraki whats yours" he smiles lightly and tilts his head.

Izuku: "m,m,my names Iz-Izuku" the green hair boys looks down stuttering wasn't out of the ordinary for him but he didn't wanna look stupid in front of these people they where all being so kind and welcoming.

Tomura: " Nice to meet you Izuku what brings you to our home tonight, or should I say this morning"

Dabi: "He doesn't have any where to go Tomura" he answers for his new friend griping his hand knowing that the shorter boy was having a tough time.

Toga: " Yea Shigi, Dekkun said he wants to be apart of our family" she says in a hyperactive tone jumping up and down.

Tomura: " Is that right?" looking at Izuku.

Izuku: The younger boy Nods his head yes, "But i don't have a quirk, I'll understand if your don't want me. No one ever has"

Hes never felt this way around people before, Around his mom he felt like he was just burdening her even though he never said or showed that but he knew, and all the kids at school just hated him and treated him like trash.

But these people they excepted him, They wanted him. He could tell by how everyone looked that none of them where biologically related but the bond they all had looked stronger than any Biological family he's ever seen.

Tomura: " What does having a quirk have to do with being family?" He looks confused.

Toga: " Shigi we already told him that" grabbing on to Izukus other hand.

Izuku starts to tear up he doesn't know what he's done to deserve this.

Tomura: " Don't cry everything's gonna be alright"

Kirigiri: " Welcome to the family Izuku you can look at me like an uncle" "I'm Kirigir"

Tomura: " And you can look at Me and Dabi like older brothers and Toga like a sister" "You don't have to feel alone anymore"

Izukus now fully crying but these arnt tears of sadness they are tears of joy hes never has felt so cared for before.

Tomura: " Would you like to go meet the man whos like our father?"

Izuku shakes his head yes and follows Tomura threw the bar and down a few hallways until they get to a Big oak door, Tomura knocks on the door and it swings open. A mans voices comes from the door " Come in you two", As we enter the door Tomura introduces me to the man inside and then leaves so the two can talk alone.

Izuku and the man sit there for a few minutes before the man asks for Izuku to tell him is life story, Izuku gladly tells him everything that has lead him hear all the pain the suffering the heart break everything. Hes never felt cared about before and this man wanted to know everything about him it felt like he had a father finally.

After he finished telling the man everything he was shocked when the man said "Would you like to have a quirk?, If that will make you happy my quirk will let me give you one" "But even if you don't want one you will still be allowed to be apart of this family we will still get you everything you want and need" after hearing that he didn't need a second to think.

Izuku: " Yes, please Dad give me a quirk".

[stilesitilinsk-blog1]

Underwater And Drowning - Shevine

Summery: Adam has been depressed after his divorce with Bee, will the Judges and Blake step up and save him before he gets pushed too far? Find out.

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It all started on the weekend. Adam and his Wife had a gotten a divorce and it felt like the world was being torn apart by the seams. It felt like his whole body was going to collapse and die and he wished it did, because he didn't want to see the disappointment on Bee's mother face or his own mothers face. It hurt to look at anyone with blonde hair and his eyes ached each time he told himself to cry and his tongue was dry, forcing him not to speak.

He didn't speak to anyone in months. His Twitter was slowly going mad and he was losing fans. Soon enough he quit Maroon 5 and that was all over Social Media, however, he didn't quit the voice. It was that one place where he felt ridiculously safe from everything and everyone. He almost felt like he could get a stronger connection towards Blake Shelton.

The Judges had noticed his change. His humour slowly dying, his smile disappearing, you no longer heard his voice, saw his eyes crinkle, he no longer allowed any affection because it reminded him of what he USED to have. He was mad and plain upset. He heard talked to the contestants, he never told anything to the Media again and he was rude every now and then to his friends, Shakira, Usher, Pharrell (but he calls him P), and Blake. It caused the Judges to grow cold and distant. It's not like cared, no not at all, he deserved it anyway.

He was worthless. And in that moment it showed. He stopped sleeping, eating and bags were appearing under his eyes from the lack of sleeping, his skin no longer had the Tan and it grew sickly pale. He got skinnier and opted to wear more bigger hoodies and sweatpants to keep his bones covered. He read more hate too. Why? Because he deserved it.

And it wasn't the Judges fault they decided he wasn't good enough for the attention. No. It was his fault most defiantly, he stopped any conversation between the Judges and him and always hated seeing their presence. Why? Because he didn't want to see the disgust, the anger, the annoyance towards him because he deserved it. He deserved everything that was thrown at him because he wasn't good enough for anyone.

And so, like he said... He wasn't going to quit The Voice, he was going on a break for a few seasons to clear his head. But that wasn't really possible. A season later and Adam was beginning to cut but mostly on his arms. His bones ached with every step and his face was sinking and he felt like a Skeleton. He became too Suicidal to function without thinking about death and how much easier it would be to leave everyone behind than face another disappointment.

But one day he decided that maybe he wasn't good brought but the Judges would want an explanation for his upcoming death. So when he arrived at the voice and everyone was startled to see him, he just sent quit 'mhm's' to everyone he went by. When he finally got onto the stage nobody cheered because they weren't expecting him... or... or... NO. He was here to say goodbye not to dwell in self pity.

He walked towards Blake and bit his lip. Blake's reaction was not what he expected.

“Everyone's noticed your change, buddy. What's happening to you? Is it personal? Should I be involved?” Blake looked straight into Adams eyes and once they met.. Blake's world seemed to crumble. He held Adam tightly as he could and took off his top and saw everything and every bit of pain ever caused to him, the scars were skin lines and there was no fresh ones thank god and his bones were showing.

“Blake.. I'm so sorry, please don't hate me more,”

Blake was stunned. Hate him? He placed Adam onto his lip and rocked him gently until he fell asleep. Adam was soon asleep and Blake arrived at a nearby Hospital to fix him up. He wanted him to get better but not by Rehab.

Adam heard them talking, and smiled.

Thank god for Blake.

“No–Listen! He can't go to Rehab, it isn't right. He needs to be around happiness and everything good not depressed people who are going to make him feel like shit for thinking about himself.”

Ouch.

When Blake turned back to look at Adam his eyes were so, so sad and he wanted nothing else but to make his world seem a tiny bit brighter or as bright as the glorious sun that didn't seem so glorious when Adam's dark clouds were covering it. He would do everything in his power to keep Adam here.

The next few weeks were as difficult as anything. Adam was slowly but surely coming back to himself. He has rejoined the voice and his humour was making everyone laugh again. Blake couldn't help but notice had Adam had a crinkly eyed smile and how Adam beamed every time someone complimented and laughed at his jokes. It was heartwarming to many.

During the present day, after a long day of The Voice and Adam having gotten 1 new Teammate along with Blake everything was settling down well. Adams ribs no longer showed, he smelt better and Blake was pleased. Saying how he was so "proud" of Adam on a daily basis and on how they were going to make sure he continues this way because Blake didn't think he could handle anymore tears.

And one Adam walked up to Blake and whispered a lovingly, “Thank you.”

Right in that moment Blake knew once and for all that Adam was better and better for good, he hoped.

Fin.