#dyn: breaking a few worthless eggs

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

having a lot of thoughts as usual about sdmi and its portrayal of the cycle of abuse, and how pericles, cassidy, and ricky's foils and parallels to each other there are all both fascinating and deeply tragic.

in particular today i'm thinking about how ricky is an abusive mentor toward marcie, and tries to be abusive toward velma and fails because she has a support system and hasn't been worn down yet, and velma being an example and continuing to extend marcie support and a hand out of her situation is what gives marcie the courage to leave even when it's dangerous to do so, and how pericles spends the series--present day and past--systematically isolating ricky and dismantling his support system one by one, and how everything cassidy stood for was refusing to continue the cycle with everything she had, and how she felt so so guilty and violated and betrayed when ricky manipulated her into it anyway, and how she was willing to die to make it right, and how marcie standing up to him to great effect with her new support system leaves him utterly stunned, and how after that he starts trying to stand up for himself against his abusive mentor and break the cycle, and how he tries to take up cassidy's convictions as his weapon to do it with because cassidy was crushed under the wheels of the cycle but marcie proved it was possible to break,

and how he couldn't do that with his own abuser because pericles has spent his life building a steel cage around him, and tightening and tightening and tightening it without him even realizing it until it was too late, and how fucking devastated he is when it's finally demonstrated him that the door to the cage is closed for good,

and how when he is made complicit in his abuser reaching through the generations to make sure cassidy died for nothing, and that this little girl who gave him hope by defeating his attempt to continue the cycle couldn't escape him after all, it breaks him.

fucking kill me, man. god.

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

talking about sdmi meta out of context is wild because it's just 'sir blorbo bingus betrayed spoingo gungle and left them with internalized self-loathing and survivor's guilt, and then manipulated their old flame into being complicit in their murder to silence them. sir bingus did this in search of a cursed artifact to free the ancient evil god they serve and become its vessel, which their species is implied to have been created for. also this is scooby-doo and sir bingus is a talking parrot'

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

i am having just. so many thoughts about how much of pericles, cassidy, and ricky's respective core issues come down to 'why didn't you help me,' 'circumstances can never change what Doing the Right Thing realistically looks like or can be expected of you,' and 'to be loved is to be changed.' there's so many thousands-of-words-long posts to be written about SO many facets of this and i have no idea where to start. they're So Much and they fuck me up

[thecottageinthedark]

#sdmi#scooby doo: mystery incorporated#ricky owens#cassidy williams#professor pericles#rickidy#pericky#i am deadass considering putting up a poll to narrow it down; if there are any particular points people are interested in seeing first#that one 'bully neurons firing' bit from FH except it's 'fucking fuck me up about these three neurons firing'#SDMItag#dyn: when i die i want you to die too#dyn: she was right all along#dyn: so nice to meet you; angel#dyn: breaking a few worthless eggs#gnaws on a table edge the interwoven parallels and foils and tragedy of it all

i am having just. so many thoughts about how much of pericles, cassidy, and ricky's respective core issues come down to 'why didn't you help me,' 'circumstances can never change what Doing the Right Thing realistically looks like or can be expected of you,' and 'to be loved is to be changed.' there's so many thousands-of-words-long posts to be written about SO many facets of this and i have no idea where to start. they're So Much and they fuck me up