#esp when you count in the nulls are mostly under fire (ha. under fire) for being abnormal

[fire-on-fuel]

I know it's left partially ambiguous because repcomm is a series about emotionally constipated adults with no believable settings for them to really get into it but I feel like I can't get a good read on the nulls without knowing exactly how ko sai was tormenting them as kids. Yes there's the live fire training as toddlers thing but I want to know what their contact with her and other forms of kaminoan training looked like after kal took them in. There's some real fucked up possibilities revolving around the idea that the kaminoans essentially told kal "you want to keep them so bad you make them somewhat useful", and obviously kal had commandos to train so he couldn't dedicate all his time to them, meaning they were probably in kaminiise hands for the more basic stuff. Kaminiise who were looking for reasons as to why they shouldn't exist. If this is the case there's a really horrible pattern of instability that likely develops around kal "rescuing" them over and over again from their daily schedules, as in they regularly go back and forth from being live tortured for acting like themselves and being applauded for it because kal wants to give them space to breathe. I think this would explain kal letting them do whatever around kamino since he can't bring himself to be punitive to them and add to their building associations that existing how they are is a crime. I can also see kal fudging metrics for them to keep the kamino standard-managers off his back while still teaching them skills in his own way. I think this would explain their unorthodox tactician skills and their wider perception that kaminoans = pain and suffering and bullshit. As they grow up they'd learn to navigate their environments requirements better by way of ultra-competency, but it can't have always been that way. The irony of this is that such a high level of emotional environmental inconsistency is The perfect fuel to make any baby sociopath continue to develop in that direction. That backs up their complete rejection of authoritative structures in that they just can't take them seriously, and I think it also explains their more manipulative sides. Torture as punishment tends to numb children to consequences (while exacerbating fear responses obviously) and inconsistency encourages the brain to see socialization as a game to be played for objectives. I mean the possibilities for different personality disorder traits are kinda endless here especially as group roles develop (who's the scapegoat, who's more x or y depending on the amount of each thing affecting their sense of self, etc) but it overall makes me think in circles, cause we never have elaboration on what exactly went down.