#especially since him and fuyumi are the oldest

[nohoney]

thinking of fuyumi’s bestie being in a relationship with hot older brother! Touya

“Hey! Sorry I’m a little late! Kinda got held up a little, sorry.” You sit down across from Fuyumi, just a few minutes late from the lunch reservation she had made for the two of to have some alone time. “Just ah, traffic and all that. You know?”

Your best friend giggles, fixing her glasses and pouring you a cup of water. You call it traffic but Fuyumi has noticed the pattern early on that it’s just code for ‘Touya made me run late’ and she’s polite enough to not say a word. You had always been punctual before when it came to any plans the two of you made together. Since dating her older brother, there were a few times that you’d send the ‘running late!’ text and always send your apologies.

Fuyumi didn’t mind though, it wasn’t a terrible habit that happened too often.

You and her do a small catch up over tea sandwiches and little cakes served on delicate tiers. How are the kids in the classroom? How are your office clients? This happened when I went grocery shopping. I saw this really interesting video about compassion fatigue the other day.

The two of you are bouncing off one another and decide that it’s time to pay and leave the tea room. It’s supposed to be your treat today but you look into your purse and find your wallet missing.

“Ah fuck! I think I left my wallet in my other bag!” your face heats over the embarrassment of not having any means to pay for lunch, searching twice again despite knowing that your credit cards won’t magically appear looking into your small purse. “Dammit! This is Touya’s fault!”

“My fault?”

Both you and her look to see Touya walking up to the little table you’re seated at, standing out in the flowery pink tea room. He holds up a little wallet, one that Fuyumi recognizes as the one you’ve had for the last few years, holding it limply towards you and you take it from his hand. “Don’t pin the blame on me, you’re the one who forgot it.” he’s nonchalant as he sits in the empty chair beside you.

“Yeah, because you-“ you start to speak but then your eyes glance to Fuyumi before you pipe down. She knows damn well that the reason why you were late was because of her brother but she doesn’t need to know the details of how he made you late.

“Say thank you.” Touya tells you as he reaches for a leftover sandwich on the cake tier, “I paid for your guys’ bill.”

“Okay, thank you. You can go now.” You try to wave him off, “I’ll text you later.”

Touya scoffs and peers into your tea cup, wondering if drinking it would be worth it to quench his thirst. He’s not exactly a fan of tea itself. “Are you really blowing me off?” he directs his gaze to his younger sister, “Stop hogging my girlfriend.”

Fuyumi laughs, “I’m not hogging her. I’m just spending time with my best friend.”

“Yeah, and you girls have had plenty of years together. Now I want my time.”

You step in with an audible groan to cut off the dialogue, “Alright, I will not be in a Todoroki sibling competition for my attention. Touya, thanks for bringing my wallet. I’ll… reward you for it later.”

It’s all he needs to hear, springing up from his chair and saying that he’ll expect you to keep your promise. All you give him is a sigh and a little nod, rolling your eyes when he kisses your forehead and bids the two of you goodbye.

“Sorry about… your brother, I guess.” You’re a little sheepish but there’s no mistaking the happy smile that comes on your face.

And Fuyumi smiles back at you, having noticed that Touya had been a little happier since having met you.

[baby-tini]

Bully Dabi🥵 he messes with you your whole life ever since you moved in the neighborhood. He makes sure you don't have any meaningful connections with friends from school so no one bothers you. It wasn't till University that it got kicked up a notch. He wasn't shoving into you or saying mean things anymore it was more sexual now. He grabs you around the corner of a classroom and makes you grind on him. While doing that he says the nastiest things in your ear. 'You always wanted this' 'wanted to ruin you for so long' 'wait till you see my cock you'll drool over it like the little cock slut you are' 'my cock slut' 'can't wait to see this tummy buldge from my cock'

TW- NONCON, victim blaming, sexual assault, bullying, verbal and physical abuse You had moved into the neighborhood when you were about eight years old, your dad had gotten a new job that payed way better then his old one. Being an only child, you never really had people to play with so, when your dad told you that there was a family across the street with kids your age, you were ecstatic. The kids were really nice to you, well, except the oldest, Touya or as all his friends called him, Dabi. He was always so mean to you. Tripping you, pulling your hair, spilling juice on your pretty clothes, you never liked Touya, he never gave you a reason too. So, you did your best to avoid him, you only came over to play with Fuyumi anyway, so, you would just be in her room playing dolls and having fun, until you had to go home. Now the bullying wasn't too bad as kids, it was more like an inconvenience for you. But in high school? That's when it started to get worse, the tripping turned into Dabi- as he now forced you to call him- pushing you into lockers and laughing when he sees the bruises on your shoulders and thighs. The hair pulling turned into him yanking you up by your hair as he called you mean names. You wanted to tell someone, you truly did but all the girls loved Dabi, that was apparent when he had a new one hanging off him everyday. Plus you didn't want your parents to move you to a different school, you had a lot of friends here. You especially didn't want to tell Fuyumi, knowing she'd tell everyone, it would be in good faith coming from her but, she really couldn't keep a secret to save her life.

Dabi being older then you by a couple years means he graduated and went to college first, giving you two years of peace, you didn't have to look over your shoulder or wear jackets all the time in order to cover the bruises he inflicted. You could have fun and joke around with friends without him staring you down from across the hall. It was the best two years of school you've had in your life, plus, Dabi moved into a dorm on campus with his friends Keigo and Tomura. So, you rarely saw Dabi around the neighborhood, except when he came home occasionally on weekends. But even then, you'd rather five- rarely seven- days of peace then none at all. It also meant you could talk to guys without Dabi threatening them or in most cases, beating them black and blue. It's the worst in college though, the years of peace in high school gone all too quickly as you start uni. Although, you don't have any classes with Dabi, so you rarely see him. After classes is a different story though, he's trailing after you, holding you hostage in empty classroom and calling you mean names as his bullying gets bolder.. more.. sexual. He's pinning you against the wall now, leaving hickeys and bruises on your neck, shoving his tongue in your mouth and probably the worst is when he pushes you on top of the desk to spread your legs and hump your cunt over your clothes. Then there was the time that Dabi had dragged you you into an empty classroom, calling you a slut because your skirt was too short for his liking as he laid you on the empty teacher desk and proceeded to pull your skirt up and take his cock out. He had you lay there as he rubbed the head of his dick over your clit, through your panties, making you beg for him to play with your pussy. "Feels good, doesn't it slut?" Forcing you to wrap your legs around his waist, he grinds into your cunt. Slapping your hands away when you try to hide your face and laughing when you start to cry. Pumping his cock a couple times, he runs it over your panties, making sure his tip catches your clit. Trying to look away from him doesn't work 'cause he'll just pull your upper body off the desk and make you watch him fuck your clit, his slit leaking beads of pre-cum, wetting the sensitive nub, his piercing catching on it so nicely. He'll switch from that, to pulling your underwear to the side so that he can slap at the little bundle of nerves and rolling it with his pointer and thumb.

"I don't know why you're covering your face, you were asking for it, wearing all the slutty clothes that you do." Dabi says the meanest things when he has you like this, he's never been soft while he touches you. Always bending you over the railing in the stairwell so that he can lift your skirt to rub your pussy with two fingers then he'll pull your thong tightly against your pussy, so that your lips peak out and he can grind against you. Or when you're leaving the building he'll pull you with him behind the school so that he can give 'daily hole checks,' as he calls them. He says he does them to make sure you're not whoring yourself out, seeing how tight you are by making you suck on his fingers so he can push them inside you. "Bend over bitch, I won't ask again, gotta make sure this pussy is just how I left it." If you're too slow doing as he asks, he'll push against the wall and pulling your ass towards him. From there, he'll pull your panties down, letting them drop to your ankles as he spreads your pussy open and literally stares at your pussy for minutes, pulling lips apart and pushing tip of his thumb inside, spitting on your clit and using his palm to spread it all over your cunt, getting spit on your thighs as he does so. If he deems that your pussy isn't how he left, whether his cum is no longer in you or you feel "looser" then he'll punish you. He makes you hold up your skirt from behind with your face squished against the dirty brick wall as he slaps your ass, hitting you so hard your eyes burn from the salty tears running down your cheeks. Telling you mean things as he carries out his brutal assault on your ass. "Don't start crying now bitch, if you weren't such a slut, I wouldn't have to hit you." or, "Did you really wipe my cum out of you? You ungrateful little whore." and, "Move away from me again and see what happens, I'll hit a lot fucking harder, try me." and of course, "You really think anyone'll believe you? Those bitches you hang out with would kill to be in your position, would beg to have my cock stretching them so full it bulges from their fucking stomach.

[kurgy]

What should Endeavor have done? Like he was trying to atone.

im gonna blow your mind here but not only should he have had to hang up the spandex when his long since thought dead oldest son outed him as a violent abuser and aired out all his dirty laundry on national television, I think he should have been publicly fired and denounced by heroes as a whole. his hero license should have been revoked. he got to set and control the terms of his own "consequences", and shockingly, that amounted to nothing at all. he still puts on the spandex he still hits things really hard he still has all his money and the wife he bought and still has the respect and admiration of his colleagues and community. his outing as a violent abuser had no affect on his actual career or legacy. he bought a wife to have eugenics children and she agreed bc he promised to help her family financially. and then assaulted her for more kids when she didn't want anymore. yeah to the other heroes that's annoying at best but in their words "at least endeavor gets the job done" (this tells me hero abusers are actually quite common since every hero was just cool with it. I wont do the cop comparison today lmao). endeavor should have been publicly fired and his colleagues denounce and distance themselves from him, he should have been investigated, the act of locking his wife in a psych ward for the last 10 years should have been investigated, the doctor that told him quirk marriage eugenics children were unethical and possibly illegal but let them go ahead with full support anyway should be investigated. tarnish the one thing endeavor actually cared about, his legacy, actually hurt him in a way that makes him realize he can't just "Sorry :(" his way out of 2 decades of violent abuse (everything he did was illegal!!)

what im saying is, especially because he admitted that everything his son said was true in a press conference, denied no allegation, his agency shouldve cut ties, his colleagues should have condemned him, have literally any character ask Shouto how he's doing through all this specifically, because the Todoroki siblings and their mom were all sidelined in their own subplot to spotlight their abuser feeling bummed about abusing them, their actual feelings and thoughts stopped mattering the moment endeavor wanted to atone, and they only mattered again when they were talking or thinking about endeavor. how revolutionary.

the point is at most the only real consequence endeavor really suffered was Natsuo cutting him off and refusing to ever let him meet his wife or future grandkids. like thats the extent of his consequences. Dabi had to take his own pound of flesh and there is no shortage of ppl to shit on Dabi for that or say that the abuse was his fault or justified, that it didnt happen at all, that he was just a spoiled kid, he just wouldnt do as he was told, etc., honestly choose anything out of the abuse apologists play book and i can point you to a fan who says and believes it wholeheartedly. and even Dabi at the end could not find peace, endeavor kept him in a life support tube where he could only be conscious or talk for a few minutes a day as he waited to die just so endeavor could come by once a day to say he's sorry. words and actions that truly mean nothing at this point and serve no purpose other than making endeavor himself feel better. Dabi's conclusion wasnt even a conclusion for Dabi or Touya as characters, if Dabi/Touya was given an actual conclusion of his own it wouldnt have solely focused on endeavor, Touyas wish to talk to his mom would have been an actual scene, talking to Natsuo and Fuyumi for closure, sharing that meal with Shouto, but he was reduced to an object for endeavor to talk at until he died and that was portrayed as a good thing. he still has the full support of his colleagues. the wife he bought and abused is left to be his caretaker. I don't think the author ever even considered giving her an ounce of autonomy.

youre asking what endeavor couldve done, and like, literally anything that actually takes responsibility? but he didnt. he just felt bad and said he wanted to atone without putting in any work to take accountability for his actions (if he wanted to atone he should have retired on his own without being outed and I mean that) and he did this by doing the exact same thing hes always done. hit things really hard.

[pallorpyrearch]

Today  was  finally  the  day  for  a  date  eight  years in  the  making.  Years  ago,  Shoto  had  told  him  they'd  eat  soba  together;  guess  some  of  him  really  liked  that  idea.  So  much  so  that  he'd  thought  about  it  every  day  now  since  then.  No  one  thought  he'd  make  it  this  far━well,  except  for  maybe  Shoto,  and  if  he  didn't,  he'd  never  really  shown  it.  He  always  came  to  visit  when  he  could.So  did  Dad.

Even  though  he'd  spent  much  of  his  time  unable  to  move  around  properly  or  do  anything  but  sit,  he  enjoyed  their  company.  When  he  was  a  kid,  he'd  watch  them  train  togetherand  wish  that  one  dayhe'd  be  allowed  to  join  in…  Maybe  somehow,  he  started  to  feel  like  he  was  finally  included,  even  if  it  was  nowhere  near  the  same  thing.

People  should've  known  better  than  to  count  him  out.  This  wasn't  the  first  time  he'd  cheated  deathand  lived  way  longer  than  any  doctor  had  told  him  he  would  or  could.  And  you  know  what?  He  was  feeling  pretty  good,  especially  today.  The  restaurant  was  pretty  small  and  out  of  the  way,  but  Fuyumi  had  recommended  it.  He  arrived  on  time  and  was  a  little  surprised  to  find  Shoto  already  waiting  for  him."H-ey,  Shoto.  Sorry  if  I  kept  ya'  waitin'.  I'll  haveta  work  on  gettin'  qu-icker."

A promise they had made, eight years ago. Shoto never brought it up, never spoke of it ever again, nor asked his brother if he meant to keep it, to keep on living until this day, for he had absolute faith in him, never having doubted this day was bound to come. Shoto believed in Toya— someone had once believed in him as well, when it seemed as if he was lost in darkness with no chance to get out. He knew Toya could get out of his own darkness. There wasn’t anything impossible. They had taught him, his friends, his oldest brother, standing before him, having defied death once more.

He rarely lost his appetite, yet since he had woken up this morning, he had an uneasiness in his stomach he couldn’t get rid of. The same uneasiness he used to have whenever he’d get a chance to get near his siblings, the same yearning, from when he was still forbidden of being part of their lives. Patiently he had waited for many years, yet those few minutes felt much longer until he’d watched him cross that door. As if he were five years old again, his face would light up, even if subtly, like when he'd watch his siblings play, hoping for a single moment to join them. Except this time, Toya was meant to join him. 

❝ Toya. ❞ He stood up by instinct, to tend to him in case he needed any help, but wouldn't move unless it was asked of him. ❝ It's alright. I arrived a bit earlier. ❞ He had so much he wished to say, for someone who didn’t speak much. About the hero he had become. The person. Recently he reached number two in the hero ranks. Like their father once was. He wanted to know what Toya thought of it. Of him. What his emotions had shaped to be, after years of resentment and years of recovery. His brother was kind not to speak of his REAL emotions anymore, despite carrying honesty in all his actions— in how hard he tried, in choosing to live. How much of the burning resentment that once fueled his fire was still inside of him? Maybe, there would always be a part of Toya that couldn’t forgive him. Shoto didn’t know himself if he had forgiven his father for everything he had done, and mostly, if he had forgiven his own self. He had accepted it, what couldn’t be changed, accepted to be the one to carry the weight of all their sins. If it meant his family could move on, if Toya could have soba with him. 

The reason he was born into this family . . . Maybe it was for this day.

Much  like  his  father,  death had  decided  it  didn't  want  him.  That  was just  one  of  the  many  painful  lessons  he  had  learned  when  he  was  young.  Unlike  his  father,  however,  it  seemed  death hadn't  changed  its  mind,  so  while  his  survival  may  have  surprised  everyone  around  him,  it  hadn't  shocked  him  very  much.

He'd  inherited  more  from  Enji  Todoroki  than  just  his  flames.  His  dogged  persistence  burned  within  him,  too,  and just  like  his  father,  Toya  could  say  achieving  all  of  his  goals  wasn't  everything  it  was  cracked  up  to  be.  But  did  he  really  achieve  his  goals?  Sure,  he  wasn't  being  pushed  away  by  anyone  anymore,  but  their  family  would  always  be  broken.  Natsuo  wanted  nothing  to  do  with  their  father,  and  so, Toya  barely  spoke  to  his  brother  in  the  last  eight  years.  It  seemed  like  something,  or  someone  was  always  destined  to  be  missing.

And  what  about  the  League  of  Villains ?  Toga  and  Shigaraki ?  It  still  felt  surreal  to  him  to  think  that  they  were  gone.  If  you  were  to  ask  him,  they  had  the  most  of  everyone  to  live  for.  It  made  his  entire  situation  more  bitter  still;  the  knowing  that  they  had  died  while  he  lived. . .  Shoto  was  a  silver  lining  in  the  clouds.  The  sweet  amongst  all  the  bitter.  It  was  nice  to  have  a  relationship  with  at  least  one  of  his  brothers,  to  feel  like  he  could  be  forgiven  and  maybe  understood  on  some  level.

❝  Nice n' punctual, a good quaa-lity for a hero. ❞ He rasped, with the best shit-eating grin he could muster as he made his way to sit at their reserved booth. Though he'd never want it to show, even moving around short distances made him tired now.

[offrostandflame]

Floor Time

Floor Time |still accepting|

It wasn’t the first time that Shoto has dealt with a sleepless night, he doubted that it was going to be the last either. Difficult memories connected to his childhood, those difficult situations he faced alongside his classmates, or the familiar trauma being the reason behind his scar. 

His classmates knew the truth behind it since Shoto was willing to tell them about it while it was Katsuki and Izuku who learned about it first. Those two were the ones who managed to gain his trust first especially after he started to open up to his classmates after the Sports Festival. The walls that he once held up started to disappear showing his classmates and his teachers who he really was. He started to smile more. His sense of humor started to come through despite there still being things which easily could confuse him. 

Everyone had gone to their rooms for the night, but a peaceful night for the dual-quirk user wasn’t going to happen. Minutes soon became hours before he decided to head to the common area since his room was starting to feel a bit suffocating as well, the tension from the nightmare wasn’t helping either. One that reminded him about how he received his scar because of the type of person his father was. He was the reason why there was tension with the Todoroki family as his oldest sister, Fuyumi was the one who was holding onto those broken strings to make them be the family she thought that they could be. Shoto knew that it wasn’t going to be an easy feat. 

After gathering his pillow and blanket, he made his way down to the common area making sure to be quiet to avoid waking his classmates. They needed to sleep. They didn’t need to worry about him dealing with a sleepless night while he was going to try and see if his favorite drink was going to help. He was going to avoid using the stovetop to warm up the water since that wouldn’t help deal with the nightmare that caused this state of his in the first place. 

With the warm drink sitting next to him, Shoto found a place to lay down at in the common area before pulling out his phone to watch his favorite cat videos. It would be a good way to help distract him from his thoughts. 

[likeadog]

@yugiohz

so i started this when i was in like, 10th grade right so if i ever were to seriously pick it back up id have to overhaul most of it because it was story wise just like a beat for beat retelling although i had to cut down the cast size by a lot since at the time the adult:student ratio was insane and then there was other shit like what had been revealed at the time etc etc anyways. most of this is in sketchbooks so bear with me for poor image quality.

here are some digital bits and bobs from my senior year flash drive: goldenstar(nana) and lionpaw(all might), hawkwing (ignore that i wrote hawktalon on there) (hawks), swiftrunner/swiftpaw (iida), and skyfeather/skypaw (uraraka). those two were me wanting to practice with more "realistic" vs more simple designs. anyway

i have a full allegiances list but i wont share that bc its five pages long. the clans were MightClan (led by Lionstar/All Might), WillClan (led by Redstar/Vlad King), HeartClan (led by Wolfstar/Best Jeanist) and IronClan (led by Darkstar/All for One). I like remade the lore system entirely to explain the names but dw abt all that. i started writing a fic thats out there somewhere

anyways. this consumed my soul forrrrr the better part of 2? 3 years? so incoming for images i guess. i went and hunted down my sketchbooks to get some quality pics and theres more than i even remember. some from earlier this year even. some of the characters ive drawn also arent in it necessarily just bc i like doing cat designs of characters. also the cat dabis look so jank because trying to figure him out was hell. it still is. one day, one day maybe ill do it

the very oldest piece of art if i recall correctly is what birthed the concept and its this picture of izuku (bravepaw) and all might (lionstar)

also it turns out i have more than tumblr will allow so eek picking and choosing um

some bravepaws over the years! The third one is the most recent, but the last one I still really like a lot, especially with having Softshadow (Inko) Lionstar and Cleartongue (Tsukauchi)

and then of course, how could we forget Bakugo, who I find surprisingly easy to draw as a cat. moreso than as a person for sure. and from there we have the most recent thing; a doodled out little conflict between him, shinsou, and monoma, who are both ex-kittypets. Monoma goes back and forth on how much trouble he gives me, for sure.

some assorted monomas, although far from all of them. the first one is the oldest, but I like it so much I try to get the same vibe...

and then we have some of the rest of the peanut gallery: Ravenpaw (Tokoyami) and dark shadow, Skypaw (Uraraka), Softshadow (Inko), Rockpaw (Kirishima), Roundmask (Fatgum), Thornpaw (Ibara) and Shimmerpaw (Hagakure) (the two below them arent bnha related), Maplepaw (Kendou), Redstar (Vlad King), some of the ladies : Nightpelt (midnight), Rabbithop (Mirko), Blossomnose (Makoto tsukauchi), Snowdapple (Fuyumi), some doodles from my hs math notes ft Shadowstep (Aizawa) and some more maplepaw, rockpaw, thistlepaw, bravepaw, redstar/weaselpaw/violetpaw (Shinsou), and Lionstar (All Might) x Cleartongue (Det. Tsukauchi)

From there, we have some Todoroki Family stuff; Flamestripe (Endeavor), Frostfall (Rei), Spottedblizzard (Natsuo), Snowdapple (Fuyumi), and Maggotflesh (Dabi) (Formerly Brightpaw). also some oc's that were meant to be the grandparents? Idk. Second page is Frostfall after retiring early to the elder's den and being cared for by Silverflower (Recovery Girl) and Streamrunner (Gran Torino)

And now, Villains! First thing is a small scene practice with the Shie Hassaikai and Eri. Bottom row is League (And some others). Toga's I still love. Shigaraki had a form of noncontagious mange, hence his hairlessness. Kurogiri.... His initial art was bad he looks way better in some of the pages up higher. Again, Dabi was a nightmare for me.

Shigaraki's name was Icepaw; he's still an apprentice despite being way too old, since AFO is his mentor and holding back on making him a full grown warrior. Toga's warrior name would be Fuzzclaw.

Instead of Nomu, their gimmick was that Darkstar knew how to talk to dogs.

And for fun, Ojiro and Shoji, who didn't actually feature in the story but I liked to draw:

maybe ill let people request characters to draw as cats again, i always have fun designing them

every time i start verging on a psychiatric breakdown i start getting the urge to draw bnha cats again. anyway does anyone want to hear about my old bnha warriors au. ihave pitchrs

[gojifan97]

AU where Shōto is born as the oldest Todoroki sibling.

Shoto was born shortly after Enji and Rei were married. Shortly afterwards they decided to have more kids to support him, leading to Toya and Fuyumi as twins. Finally Natsuo was born last.

Shoto was eager to learn from his father, who because the Toya thing didn't happen, has a much better relationship with him. Shoto actually wants to be Number One like him.

Unfortunately this has also put immense pressure on Shoto. Also since Enji's still not a great father, while he's more affectionate to the whole family as a whole he's rather blatant in his favoritism to Shoto.

Toya still unraveled, this time because of his desire to earn his father's affection by surpassing his brother. Enji however forbid Toya from training when he began burning himself, so Toya began doing it himself and even attacking his older brother.

Shoto tried helping Toya, since he cares for his siblings but their relationship decayed with Toya soon hating him. The others tried to mediate between them, but Toya soon resented them for liking Shoto at all, instead of hating him with Toya.

Enji tried to stop this by distancing Shoto from his siblings, but the others ignored it. Except Toya. The incident with the peak happened when he was 11 and Shoto was 9.

Enji is more closed off, and places a lot more pressure on Shoto, but isn't as bad as his canon counterpart was at the beginning. Shoto is caught between craving the pride his father puts in him and resenting it for what happened with Toya. Fuyumi still loves her dad, Natsuo resents him and especially his hero job (but less than canon)

Rei and Enji's relationship is...strained. She does care for him and can influence him into occasionally into going easier on Shoto or spending more time with the younger kids, but she feels she isn't strong enough on it sometimes. Enji meanwhile respects her opinion but can often be too stubborn and bullheaded. They aren't particularly affectionate, but both do care.

When Shoto enters UA, Toya has become Dabi, but his antics make a lot more sense to those around him since he's a pretentious 13 year old theater kid, instead of a pretentious 13 year old theater kid who's actually 24. Fuyumi is closest to her mother, but inherited her father's temper and can cow any of them with a simple glare. And Natsuo is a bratty 9 year old who gave Hawks the Kota treatment when they met.

When Kota and Natsu meet, they will get along great. Meanwhile Eri will love playing with her big sis Fuyumi.

[insertpoetryhere]

Can you do yuuichi ootori for the 20 hc thing 🤗

My boy!!! My favorite Ootori!!!

Fun fact I’ve tried to post this twice and the app crashed both times. 🤞.

1.) Like I said with Kyoya, the Ootoris are new money. Yoshio’s grandparents were farmers prior to WW1 and then stumbled into a fortune. Yuichi is the only sibling old enough to remember their great grandparents, who died when he was 7.

2.) Yuichi is the most down to earth Ootori, mostly because his Great Grandma Kyoko would come back from the dead and bitch slap him if he started acting high and mighty.

3.) Yuichi is a dog person in a house full of cat people.

4.) Yuichi is Akito, Fuyumi, and Kyoya’s half brother from Yoshio’s first marriage to his childhood sweetheart. He inherited the company shortly after Yuichi was born and decided his wife wasn’t fitting of his status. He quietly divorced her and married a richer woman, who had Akito and Fuyumi two years later. None of the siblings know that Yuichi has a different mother.

5.) Yuichi has always been Fuyumi’s partner in crime, with her getting them into trouble and him talking them out of it. This dynamic continued into adulthood, but now almost exclusively applies to their father.

6.) Even though he loves his siblings, Yuichi can never remember how old Kyoya is. Every time he guesses, he’s always a few years younger than the actual answer. It’s the oldest to youngest child dynamic (speaking as the oldest of four myself)

7.) Yuichi is bad at lying but very good at bending the truth. He can omit information like a pro but if you ask him to tell a bold faced lie he will immediately start sweating.

8.) While he was in university, Yuichi fell in love with a Psychology student a year above him. The feeling was mutual and he wanted to marry her, but knew his father wouldn’t approve because (while wealthy) she wasn’t rich enough for the Ootoris. The relationship never went anywhere, but the two are still in contact and at 29, Yuichi Ootori remains suspiciously unmarried.

9.) Up until Kyoya’s mall trip, Yuichi was undefeated as the only Ootori siblings to have ever eaten a meal from McDonald’s.

10.) Yuichi has a one sided tension with Akito. While has adored Yuichi practically since birth, Yuichi sometimes feels resentment for Akito solely based on the pressure his father put on both of them to compete for the title of being the heir to the Ootori name. He feels awful for this resentment, especially considering how Akito comes to him with everything.

11.) The rest of the Ootori siblings come to him for advice on everything since he is the least likely out of all of them to tell their father.

12.) Yuichi’s policy on what Kyoya does is a lot more lax than the other members of the family. If he sees Kyoya doing something “unfitting of his status” he will immediately turn around so he can deny he ever saw him. It’s the unspoken “go ahead, I saw nothing” when he very obviously caught him sneaking out to do teenager bullshit. And, true to his word, he will keep his mouth shut. That is unless he finds out it’s illegal, dangerous, or stupid in a way that isn’t funny. Even then he doesn’t tell their dad or say anything to Kyoya himself. Instead he will run his mouth to Tachibana. He knows who Kyoya actually listens to.

13.) His approach to his other siblings in adulthood is “did you add or subtract from the population? No? Then please don’t tell me”. He will help them out of a situation but for the love of god please don’t give him ALL the details. As long as no one gets arrested and dad isn’t pissed, then all is well.

14.) As shown above, Yuichi actively hates being in the know about most topics that don’t concern him. It makes him feel out of control.

15.) Yuichi’s third year at ouran was also Akito and Fuyumi’s first. He spent most of the year keeping them out of trouble.

16.) Mr. Ootori’s computer password is Yuichi’s birthdate in numerical order.

17.) Yuichi is 6’4 and is the tallest Ootori.

18.) Yuichi minored in history in college, which is the field he wanted to go into before his father had him go to medical school instead.

19.) A lot of people have described Yuichi as “too gentle” for the line of work he is in.

20.) When Kyoya was born, Tachibana would sneak Yuichi into the nursery so he could see his baby brother. He was the only Ootori sibling interested in doing so.

[hotwings0203]

This is so utterly stupid but I have a few HC’s about Muslim Dabi(again obv this isn’t canon I just think it’s funny)

-Dabi would def be the type of Muslim dude who claims to be super religious cuz he never eats pork and “goes to the mosque to pray”(which is actually just code for hitting a blunt in the back of the parking lot w Hawks and Shigaraki💀), but yet smokes^^ and still has hella sex with like every other girl who bats her lashes at him from across the dining hall

-he also is a big cat lover, he claims since the Prophet Muhammad had cats of his own it’s sunnah to keep one

-on Eid namaz he’s the most dripped out one at the session, I’m talking black kurta dress, nice ass watch, slicked back hair...but funny enough, no one has actually seen him in line for the prayers themselves

-if he were back at home with the rest of the Todoroki’s, he’d most definitely be THE MOST spoiled one. Fuyumi would get on his ass for not cleaning the dishes, but he’d wave her off and tell her it’s training for her to be a better housewife for her future husband(cue a soapy sponge thrown at his head)

-Snitches.Constantly. Bro like this dude catches Shoto on his phone when he’s supposed to be doing a dua? Boom, instant callout followed by a long ass lecture about how he’s straying away from his religion and how he’s going to hell just because he spent one measly moment on his device instead of praising da lord

-Hes also always telling fuyumi to cover up her sleeves that come just a bittt before her wrists, claiming that she’s showing too much skin(especially when Hawks is over, that fucker’s got his eyes on every single one of his family members). But she’s quick to point out his secret tattoos, piercings, and hair dyes. He just scoffs and pulls the “women were created lesser than men so it’s okay for me to act a fool but not for you” card🙄stg I can’t stand him

-Since he’s the closest to Natsu, he’s always giving Eid money to him the most. The dude will slouch against his favorite brothers’ door, watching him play 2K. “What do you want?” Natsu asks with no real malice, not taking his eyes off the changing screen, furiously clicking away on his controller. “Mom says you gotta iron your clothes, Fuyumi’s doing her own so she can’t do yours as well. Oh, and Eid Mubarak by the way.” Natsu pauses him game and stands to stretch his arms above his head, groaning at the tendons popping in place on his back. “Yeah man, you too-what’s that?” He points to a fat parcel in Touya’s hand. The white-haired boy grins and chucks the bulging package at him, which Natsu catches easily. His eyes widen when he tears open the cream-colored paper envelope and reveals dozens of bills exceeding the usual 5-10$ family limit. “Yo, what-how-thanks Touya!” He sputters, throwing the package on his bed and throwing an arm around his brothers’ back in a man-hug. Touya rolls his eyes and barely suppresses a smile at Natsu’s excitement,(something he’s always wanting to be the source of) pounding his back to let go before he asphyxiates. He lets go and Touya smirks before heading towards the door, calling out over his shoulder, “Oh, and I’d thank Sho-turd as well while you’re singing my praise.” Natsu stops in his tracks and looks suspiciously at the withdrawing slender figure. “Why?”. Touya’s voice is distant as he moves to close and lock his door. “‘Cuz it’s his money after all.”

-The two brothers are always waking up at Sehri the earliest in Ramadhan, just so they can scarf down a majority of the food in the fridge and go to sleep without having to interact with the rest of their family at sunrise. And in the case that their family DOES wake up in time to see them chomping down food made for a WHOLE FAMILY and not just two boys, Touya is quick to grab his keys and jacket and cackle that him and Natsu are going to iHop to eat some more. Natsu ofc is quick to follow pursuit, throwing an apologetic grin towards his parents and other siblings.

-When they’re at the mosque and Enji has somehow bullied him enough to sit the hell down and actually ATTEND the lectures for once, Touya still has one up his sleeve. Planned out strategically, he always simpers to Rei that he wants to donate to the mosque, causing her eyes to water and a handful of cash thrown his way, her voice wobbly as she praises her son for actually taking the foundations of his religion seriously. Unbeknownst to her however, this just means that he’ll take a little bit more than he gives. Hawks will be standing at the front of the hall, bowing his head and using his silver tongue to graciously thank the many men and women who come forth to drop their allowance into the money basket. When he sees his best man approaching, he has to stop the smug grin from reaching his ears, instead slanting his brows and holding the basket out to the now black-haired thief. “Glad to see you’re taking eternal damnation seriously, for once,” Keigo flashes his perky whites and Dabi drops Rei’s money into the donation basket, dipping his hand a little lower for a second. “Glad to see you’re still standing here like some busboy peasant, as usual,” he fires back, the two boys catching each other’s eyes and stifling their cackles as the patched hand withdraws, a copious amount of bills in his hand, more than what he put in.

-100% steals shoes. Usually you hear about older men doing this, but age aint nothin’ but a number to Dabi, baby. “Nice kicks,” he nods to a boy Natsu’s age, noting the blue and black minimalist patterns adorning the shoes. The boy recognizes Dabi as one of the most revered figures at the mosque (and the most featured by adults. Who’d want their kid hanging out with the eldest Todoroki as an influence?) and bobs his head excitedly, spewing out the manufacture and release dates of the shoes. Dabi looks at the fanboy amusedly, continuing to lean against the shoe rack as more people crowd around and start to push the boy inside. “See you later Dabi!” The eccentric kid calls out as he’s pushed into the hall by grumbling uncles. The ravenette snickers fo himself, “Yeah, but you won’t be seeing these shoes anytime soon.”

-A notorious playboy in the community. Uncles glare at him, unable to scold him outright for his shenanigans due to his father’s close presence, and aunties steer their children away from him at dinner parties. Speaking of, Dabi’s at a dinner right now. He’s lighting up a joint in amongst 3 mesmerized girls sitting on the floor in front of him and 2 jealous dudes his age in a locked room, away from all the screaming little kids. “Wow Dabi, doesn’t it burn?” The youngest of the three girls asks him with imploring eyes. He smiles a charming smile down at her and he thinks he sees the other two swoon. “Nah, sweetheart, you get used to it after a little while. Don’t be like me though, keep yourself pure and clean,” he shoots a wink at them and they giggle, faces turning red. The other two boys sitting at the far end of the bed scowl at his successful flirting, but Dabi doesn’t care for any of them, honestly, they’re just target practice. Right as he inhaled the fumes of another puff, a little body throws itself at the door, banging its fists on the wood. “It’s time for food!” They all jump at the intrusion and chuckle as the intruder runs away, containing to scream about food being served. The group gets up to leave and exits through the door, but Dabi takes his time. He wasn’t done with his joint, and he has to waft the smell away anyways when he leaves. He’s opening a window to let out some air when he heads a soft shuffle from behind him. “Shows over guys, go eat-“ but when he turns around, the oldest girl of the three stands before him, fiddling with her hands and looking at the floor. “Um, Dabi? I know you said not to try it out by ourselves so...I was wondering if you could-if you could teach me how...?” She looks at the half-used roll in his hand, and he looks from the blunt to her face. He looks behind her. A closed door. Perfect. Taking a step forwards, he relishes in how she takes a hesitant step back, the breath in her throat catching but she still doesn’t back down. She looks to him like he’s a god, and he feels like one right now. And so he steps closer until she’s backed against the wall, his lids lowered to her wide ones, and he placed a hand next to her head. “Didnt your mom ever tell you not to take things from strangers?” He ghosts by the shell of her ear, and she shivers. “She never told me the strangers would be this hot,” and he has to laugh a bit at her tenacity. He pulls away and flops back on the bed, signaling for her to join him. “Well come one then, I’m hungry, better hurry up before I change my mind.” And 5 shotguns later, Dabi barely wipes off her bright pink lipstick from his face and straightens his kurta along with his hair before bounding down the steps, eager for food. At his command, she comes down a minute after him as to not cause any suspicion, but it doesn’t stop Rei from shooting him a knowing glare from the living room as he piles his plate with food. He shoves a veggie roll in his mouth as he turns to join the boys in the dining area, but his path is blocked by a large woman. “I know you’re up to no good. The children told me what funny smell was coming from the room upstairs, and I know you’re to blame, Touya Todoroki. I respect your mother a lot so I won’t make a scene here-“ he interrupts her, mouth half full with a roll, “-I mean, you already kinda are,-“ but she continues her tirade. “-I don’t think you’re a good influence on these kids, especially your siblings. What self respecting family would be okay with their son acting like a hooligan, having piercings, smelling like weed?” He smirks and swallows before swerving around her. “I don’t know Aunty, why don’t you ask your daughter? She didn’t seem to mind my, ah, influence.”

-When they were all younger, there was a time where End*avor wanted the boys the toughen up a bit and stop messing around so much. He brought the family up to the mountains in a nice cabin, purposefully choosing an area with farms nearby. It was around the time of Eid-e-Adha, so naturally goats and sheep’s were going to be sacrificed for the family feast. Touya already knew what was going on, so Enji left it up to him, a scrawny preteen boy to take over the initiation. Fuyumi wanted to come to the farm too, but Touya glared at her and told her to stay home because “girls are too emotional for this.”(he really did think that, but above all he held a secret soft spot for his only younger sister). Natsu and Touya both started heading down to the field to pick out a goat, and ofc little Shoto wanted to come along to. He begged and begged for his older brothers to bring him along and to not leave him at home for once, and with a sly glance to Natsu, Touya relented. He leaned down to Shoto’s eye-level and asked with serious eyes, “You sure?”. Shoto nodded eagerly, standing straight up as to look more solemn and mature. Natsu held back a snicker and grabbed Shoto by the collar as they dragged him out to the pasture. Oh, the little boy was in heaven among the bleating sheep and fluffy coats. “Go ahead, pick one out!” Touya said eagerly, nodding to the clueless toddler to choose a sacrificial sheep. And so the heterochromatic child pointed to one, looking to his big brothers for assurance, to which they gave an excited nod. Shoto yelped with glee and spent the rest of the afternoon frolicking with the soon-to-be-mutton chops, completely oblivious to its grim fate and creating a bond with the animal. So when it was finally sunset and the time came to start preparing for the feast, Touya walked over leisurely to Shoto, pushed the grubby hand away from the animal’s collar, and started pulling the creature towards the chopping block. “W-what’re you doing?” Shoto asked uncertainty. “Well, we gotta eat, right? Thanks for picking out such a fat sheep, ‘wonder how it’s gonna taste,”. The eldest grinned with malice at his youngest brother, who started to sniffle and ball his fists. “You’re lying! Leave it alone!” He cried out. “Nope, m’not lying, ask Natsu.” Natsu turns to Shoto and shrugs his shoulders without any real regret. “You’re the one who wanted to come along, right? Think of how proud dad will be of his favorite-he finally sacrificed his first sheep!”

-the first time he was ever asked to lead the namaz, Keigo and Tomura kept kicking the back of his legs so he would fall over while trying to recite the prayers, and in turn he’d immediately whip around in the middle of the whole damn hall and shoot fire at the two howling boys. Needless to say, he was never asked to read again

(one would think since Dabi knows sooo much about being a gOoD mUsLim and how to follow the rules he’d take some of that advice HIMSELF)

[marieanneline]

wait wait hold up i am actually seething about the reveal

ya boi's not a dabi stan. at all. the only reason i'm remotely interested in his character is if he's actually related to shouto and how that would affect hero society in general. i remember reading the training camp arc, seeing him being one of the villains there, him saying todoroki's full name, and thinking "SIBLINGS?????" because agshdfjlk their EYES are SO SIMILAR!! i really want to give credit to horikoshi being able to portray their similarities from artstyle alone because that's talent.

(it's more apparent in the anime since you see the eye color— but appearance-wise, shouto takes after rei and dabi takes after enji the most, so this definitely isn't the best photo to prove my point...)

anyways,,,, dabi's ideals of heroics fall in line with stain's ideals and so we all already theorized how if he was the long lost big brother touya, it would be because of the fact that his father really wasn't a hero. this makes sense. and so, we're all fucking right. props to us, really, and props to horikoshi for all the foreshadowing because i had fun :)) in terms of story and plot, i think this reveal is fantastic.

alright, on to why dabi is a dick

(i'm assuming this was his choice and no one pressured him after all)

the todoroki family is on the road to recovery!!

- shouto finally visits his mother back in season 2 and visits her every chance he gets. you see the effort he makes and it's nice to see him change from season 1 to 2 (early-roki!!)

(guys he even sends her letters- look at that sparkle by his face!! he's sweet :)) and rei's smile!!!!)

- enji (whether we wanted it or not, i don't mind much personally) is trying to atone for everything he's done to his family

- natsuo, who originally wasn't fond of shouto because he had their father's attention (although he does come to the horrible realization that shouto was one of the most unfortunate) and mother's attention (because she wanted to protect shouto), has a closer relationship with his little brother now (can you believe he didn't even know shouto's favorite food was cold soba until ch. 192?? i was sobbing). he really regrets the prejudice he had against shouto and he's trying to be an actual brother to him now.

- rei's almost recovered enough to be released from the hospital!!

- fuyumi and her idyllic "happy family"– wHICH, BY THE WAY, ALMOST CAME TO FRUITION. their mother coming home, shouto connecting with his siblings, and enji being not-the-way-he-was-before is the best outcome they could have hoped for. and it was happening.

and i realize that all of that setup is for this very moment

this? this. this. this is being broadcasted. to everyone. that means the citizens know that their new #1 hero is directly related to a member of a really bad villain organization (i almost called it a terrorist group oop-).

by ruining endeavor, the citizens faith in heroes will collapse. this also affects shouto's reputation as an upcoming hero, and i am so terrified of what this could mean for him. imagine your career ending before it even started, just when you found your passion for being a hero again. all that progress he's made for himself since starting UA could be seen as pointless to him and i would hate for him to retrogress like that because it's not his fault. i would absolutely hate it if the media starts bashing shouto for being related to a villain, when he was also a victim of abuse.

seeing this look on shouto's face is making me dehydrated istg i'm fucking SOBBING— he doesn't even look angry!! in the last few chapters he was angry and worried for his friends, teachers, father maybe, other heroes... but he just looks sad. and the fact that the panel chooses to show the left side of his face is.... there's so much to unpack.

but yeah, this is being broadcasted. does fuyumi know? the cameo she had showed her working so maybe not. natsuo's cameo showed that he was at a lecture, so he also probably didn't see.

but rei did. that's like- that's the person i would want to keep this from the most.

the effects of this entire reveal genuinely scare me. how will this affect rei's mental state? she'll realize that what enji did is actually so much worse. their first child being a villain?? i'm terrified for how she'll react, she's doing much better in recent chapters after all. her kids are visiting her, shouto sends her letters to keep in touch, and enji sends her flowers and respectfully keeps his distance. i really don't want this reveal to result in a relapse. and if she does relapse, then fuyumi's ideal of a happy family is once again out of arms reach. the future of their mother finally coming back home is so far away again and it's genuinely so heart-breaking.

:(

plus— how will fuyumi's little elementary school students react to her being related to a villain? will the school fire her because of her connection to a villain and how that might cause concerns for students and parents????

it's also hard to say exactly how this will affect shouto and natsuo. natsuo was the closest to touya when they were kids so what would his whole opinion be of what touya's become? will he have a moral crisis?

in terms of moral crisises, i guess i'm more concerned about shouto. the boy knows he wants to forgive his father, but this is just making it so much harder. and after this, will he still want to? and finding out that his own sibling is a villain... remember the stain arc? there were some parallels between midoriya's, iida's, and todoroki's positions in the last chapter and i'm worried about what that could foreshadow. from that arc alone, we know that shouto doesn't agree with stain's views at all [i forgot what he said but it was really compelling]. we know that dabi's a stain follower though, so will this disrupt shouto's sense of justice? i hope not.

but family has always been kind of a weak spot for shouto, hasn't it? i hope this doesn't affect his resolve to be a hero because i do think that there's a way to– somehow– not have a corrupt hero society and i want him to fight for that.

touya being a villain is perfectly valid though, i don't doubt that. it's just disheartening to address that while every other todoroki was working hard to become a normal family, here's their oldest brother, who's not really dead. what's going to become of that altar at their house now?

learning the extent to touya's hatred towards endeavor is truly terrifying. we know enji is or was a horrible person and his redemption arc is based on the very fact that he can't be forgiven, despite some of his family trying their best to do so or at least get over it. but the fact that touya has even thought about killing shouto? that's just. ouch. touya's definitely gone through too much abuse, and all of the todoroki family problems are because of enji's bad parenting. but this does not justify murder and especially that of his younger brother, who also got the brunt of the abuse.

needless to say, i am a fool. i don't know if anything i just said will ever be true, but the important thing to take from whatever the heck i just shat out is that all of this is/could be a result of this reveal. it's the fact that dabi seems to have no sympathy. it's the fact that he doesn't care if his blood related family crashes and burns. really, if this is solely about endeavor and what he did, there's no need to bring the rest of the family into this. rei was sent to a hospital for god's sake. shouto has a scar. it's excessive and unmoral and although questionable ethics and values are key traits of a villain, it doesn't justify how much he's hurting the todorokis.

(look at this shit eating grin he has. no remorse. he really doesn't give a shit about the others but I DO and I'M so SAD)

and assuming that the whole "endeavor's wife admitted into hospital" was swept under the rug in terms of media, will that suddenly come back to light? because it shouldn't. maybe it should be known that she's in the hospital because of marital abuse but either way rei should not be dragged back into this disaster, and neither should the rest of them. there's also a chance that the media will accuse rei of having abused her kids too, which is messed up for different reasons. they're trying so hard to have any semblance of a normal family, and if dabi's way of revealing this to the world ruins that in any way then i hATE THIS REVEAL ASDFGHJKL—

[todomitoukei]

Japanese vs. English Todoroki - A 302 Comparison

After chapter 301 gave us a bit of Touya’s backstory, this chapter continues giving us some flashbacks as well as the conversation between the Todofam in the present time with plenty of questionable lines! Just like with 301, we’ll take a look at every line from this chapter so this is another lengthy post...

「今後は焦凍を他の子らと一切近付けさせないことにする。」

「今後 ; kongo 」-> from now on; hereafter

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「他 ; hoka 」-> other

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「子ら ; kora 」-> children

「と ; to 」-> with

「一切 ; issai 」-> absolutely not; without exception

「近付けさせない ; chikadzukesasenai 」-> won’t let someone near someone else

「ことにする ; koto ni suru 」-> to decide on

= “I’ve decided that from now on, I will absolutely not let Shouto near the other kids.”

The official translation says that “we” are keeping the kids away from Shouto. While the Japanese line doesn’t include the pronoun for “I” it makes a lot more sense to go with that since Rei didn’t exactly have much of a say in anything, so whether or not she agreed to this isn’t even important. The point is, Endeavor made this decision.

This was most likely right after Touya tried to attack little Shouto so a direct continuation of the last flashback from chapter 301.

「俺は仕事でずっと面倒を見るわけにはいかんその為の使用人を雇った。おまえも燈矢から目を離すな。」

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「仕事で ; shigoto 」-> attending work

「ずっと ; zutto 」-> continuously; straight

「面倒を見る ; mendou o miru 」-> to look after someone

「わけにはいかん ; wake niwa ikan 」-> cannot afford to

「その ; sono 」-> that

「為 ; tame 」-> sake; purpose

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「使用人 ; shiyounin 」-> servant; employee

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「雇った ; yatotta 」-> hired

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「燈矢 ; touya 」-> Touya

「から ; kara 」-> from

「目を離すな ; me o hanasuna 」-> don’t take one’s eyes off

= “I am attending work. I can’t afford to continuously look after him, for that sake I hired a servant. Don’t you take your eyes off Touya, either.”

The na at the end of me o hanasuna is a negative command to say “don’t do” I’m not sure how exactly Rei is supposed to not take her eyes off Shouto and Touya when they are kept apart from each other, but what do we expect anyway? Also, keep in mind that Touya is 8 years older than Shouto and has been training on his own for around 4 years at this point without his parents being able to stop him. Of course, Endeavor is not going to be the Number One Hero if he can’t even stop his own child from doing whatever he wants. How are two adults not able to handle one tiny child??

「。。。あの子はあなたに見てほしいんだよ。」

「あの ; ano 」-> that

「子 ; ko 」-> child

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「に ; ni 」-> by; from

「見て ; mite 」-> to look

「ほしい ; hoshii 」-> to want

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “...That child wants you to look at him.”

The “that’s all” in the official translation is a good way to capture the nuance of nda yo. 

「。。。俺はヒーローの世界しか。。。見せられないよ。」

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「ヒーロー ; hiro 」-> hero

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「世界 ; sekai 」-> world

「しか ; shika 」-> only

「見せられない ; miserarenai 」-> to see (potential negative) *shika requires the verb to be in the negative form

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “I can only show him the hero world.”

Shika is usually used in a negative context, so an alternative translation would be “I can’t show him anything but the hero world.”

Anyway, I absolutely love (sarcasm) when people try to claim that Endeavor was a loving family man who just didn’t know how to express his love even though it’s so obvious that he couldn’t be bothered to try and be an actual father. Saying that he can only show him the hero world is just a lazy excuse, similar to him telling Touya that he’s ignoring him “for his own good” - none of those are in any way helpful or something that a child could understand. Instead, it only signals that Endeavor doesn’t care. No one is born a perfect parent nor is anyone expected to be one, but a good parent would try to do a good job and not neglect their child because they are incapable of being a parent. It’s also like he pretends that only the hero Endeavor exists and that he isn’t anyone outside of that. He’s a hero and nothing else (unfortunately, he isn’t really a hero, either, though). The problem with separating the hero from the person behind the hero is taking away the responsibility and sort of using the hero persona as a shield. Instead of recognizing that he failed as a parent, he is acting as though he doesn’t exist outside of his hero job and thus doesn’t have any responsibilities outside of work. That is how he also ends up blaming Rei for everything that happens rather than acknowledging that this is all his fault.

「ヒーロー？　逃げてるだけじゃないの。。。」

「ヒーロー ; hiro 」-> hero

「逃げてる ; nigeteru 」-> running away; escaping

「だけ ; dake 」-> only

「じゃない ; janai 」-> aren’t

「の ; no 」-> explanatory question marker

= “Hero? Aren’t you just running away…?”

This is a fantastic line and it’s nice to see her call him out, however, it also just makes no sense when later on in this exact chapter, we see Rei - in the present time - now being a lot nicer to him and supporting him instead of calling him out for being at fault for what happened to Touya.

「燈矢兄遊ぼー！！」

「燈矢兄 ; touya nii 」-> Touya-Nii

「遊ぼー ; asobo- 」-> let’s play

= “Touya-Nii, let’s play-!!”

「おお」

「おお ; oo 」-> Oh

= “Oh.”

Something I want to point out about this panel is that we see two desks here. Do they have a computer room? Do Touya and Natsuo share a room? While there are plenty of books on Touya’s desk, the one next to him has a couple of action figures on it. Though it’s hard to determine who those action figures are supposed to be, it would be absolutely hilarious if they just had a bunch of All Might figurines that they placed around the house to piss off Endeavor.

「焦凍見るな。兄さん（アレ）らはおまえとは違う世界の人間だ。」

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「見るな ; miruna 」-> don’t look

「兄さんら ; niisanra 」-> older brothers

「アレ ; are 」-> that person

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「とは ; to wa」-> topic marker with added emphasis to the topic

「違う ; chigau 」-> different

「世界 ; sekai 」-> world

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「人間 ; ningen 」-> human

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “Don’t look, Shouto! Your brothers (they) are people of a different world.” 

Here, we have a sentence where the Furigana (= what the character says) read as are and don’t match with the Kanji (= what the character actually means), which read niisan.The ra at the end of niisanra is a pluralizer, just like tachi (ra is more informal). These pluralizers can be translated as something like “group” to say something like “the group of which your older brother is a part of.” It’s interesting that he says this, though, since the word kyoudai (=siblings) exists, which would better include all of Shouto’s siblings. Adding ra to the word Niisan (=older brother) rather than using a more neutral term like kyoudai then sort of adds emphasis to the older brother. This would be a great moment to joke that this is where Touya got his sexism from since Endeavor can’t even be bothered to mention that Shouto also has a sister here. But, I think this “group of which your older brother is a part of” refers to Touya specifically for a different reason. Natsuo himself has mentioned that Endeavor never even acknowledged him and instead he was tossed aside right away. And while Fuyumi is the one shown to be closest with Endeavor in the present time, that's only because Endeavor relies on her since she more or less replaced Rei in her mother role. But back then, she was probably just as ignored as Natsuo. That makes it feel like even here when saying “your siblings are in a different world” he is referring to Touya being a failure and thus not being part of the hero world, while not even acknowledging Natsuo’s or Fuyumi’s existence at all.

「いっかいだけでいいから燈矢兄たちと遊ばせて。」

「いっかい ; ikkai 」-> one time; one round; one game

「だけで ; dake de 」-> just

「いいから ; ii kara 」-> listen up

「燈矢兄たち ; touya nii tachi 」-> Touya-Nii and the others

「と ; to 」-> with

「遊ばせて ; asobasete 」-> let (someone) play (command)

= “Listen, let me play with Touya-Nii and the others, just one time!”

Ii kara is an expression used at the start of a command sentence for emphasis.

As mentioned before, tachi is a pluralizer and it’s similar to saying “Touya-Nii and the others” which is important for two reasons. One, this indicates that there were no further incidents where Touya tried to attack Shouto, since the latter doesn’t show any fear or resentment towards Touya, probably not knowing about the incident at all. And two, it really feels like Shouto is looking up to big bro Touya here. The oldest child - the head of the kids, if you will - and all Shouto wants is to hang out with this awesome brother of his. It’s not clear whether he knows that Touya used to be trained too or not, but either way, Shouto emphasizes Touya here and I’m glad the official translation included it like this, too!

「ダメだ出力訓練��。」

「ダメ ; dame 」-> no good

「だ ; da 」-> be

「出力 ; schutsuryoku 」-> output

「訓練 ; kunren 」-> training

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “It’s no good. It’s output training.”

As mentioned later on in the chapter, Endeavor only ever taught Touya how to increase his flames and not how to decrease them. So I assume that “output training” is just that - training Shouto to increase his flames.

I’ve seen some people claim that the panel we get of Touya is him looking at Shouto in some evil or jealous way, but it’s more realistic to assume he’s looking at Endeavor, especially when looking at the part that comes right after. ALSO, please look at Natsuo in that panel. 

He looks so worried as he’s realizing that he’s about to hit Touya-Nii in the face with the ball. You think Touya manipulated Natsuo? Actually, Natsuo physically abused Touya :/ (this is sarcasm). This is also the part where, in the anime, Touya just falls down and Natsuo and Fuyumi laugh at him. No wonder he ended up as a villain. Bullied by everyone in his family, the poor kid...

「そりゃああの時は俺が悪かったよ。。。！！焦凍に罪はなかったもの。。。でもお父さんも悪かったんだよ！　俺たちは失敗作だから相手にされないすごいよな。。。要らない子をつくってこれが現代ヒーローなんだぜ。」

「そりゃあ ; soryaa 」-> well; that is to say (interjection, form of それは)

「あの ; ano 」-> that

「時 ; toki 」-> time; occasion

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「悪かった ; warukatta 」-> was at fault; was in the wrong; was to blame

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle 

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「に ; ni 」-> for

「罪 ; tsumi 」-> fault; responsibility

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「なかった ; nakatta 」-> wasn’t

「もの ; mono 」-> sentence ending particle used to indicate reason/excuse/dissatisfaction

「でも ; demo 」-> but

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「悪かった ; warukatta 」-> was at fault; was in the wrong; was to blame

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

「俺たち ; oretachi 」-> we

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「失敗作 ; shippaisaku 」-> failed creative work; flop

「だから ; dakara 」-> because

「相手にされない ; aite ni sarenai 」-> don’t associate with; take notice of (passive)

「すごい ; sugoi 」-> terrible

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

「な ; na 」-> sentence ending particle; used to seek confirmation

「要らない ; iranai 」-> not needed

「子 ; ko 」-> children

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「くって ; tsukutte 」-> making

「これ ; kore 」 - > this

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「現代 ; gendai 」-> modern era; nowadays

「ヒーロー ; hiro 」-> hero

「なんだ ; nanda 」-> explanatory particle

「ぜ ; ze 」-> emphasis particle

= “Well, that time I was to blame. Shouto wasn’t at fault. But dad was also to blame! We’re failed creative works, so we aren’t being associated with. Terrible, isn’t it… making children they don’t need. Is this the modern era hero?”

We know that Touya attacked Shouto when Shouto was a relatively fresh baby, but here Touya is 13, so this is roughly 5 years after that incident and yet Touya is still thinking about it and still feeling guilty about it, too. It’s also obvious that he never properly spoke with either one of his parents about this since a parent would then sit him down and help him work through these feelings of guilt. Then again, not his parents! Maybe he did tell them this before too and he didn’t get any reaction from it. It’s also sad how well he understands the whole situation and how much critical thinking he has (more than most of the fandom!), questioning how someone like Endeavor can be considered a hero when he isn’t even a decent person to his own family.

「たまには姉ちゃんことで言ったら。。。？」

「たまに ; tamani 」-> occasionally; once in a while

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「姉ちゃん ; neechan 」-> big sister

「こと ; koto 」-> phrase nominalizer

「で ; de 」-> with; via

「言ったら ; ittara 」-> if you said/told

= “If you told big sister one in a while…?”

This one sounds a bit strange when just doing a direct translation since this is one of those cases where the rest of the sentence is omitted because this part is enough to understand what he’s trying to say. 

The one compliment I always have to give Horikoshi is managing to write very believable sibling dynamics/interactions. Also, I can’t help but wonder whether they are sharing a room (which doesn’t really make sense considering they live in a large house) or if these two just like to have sleepovers (I prefer this theory).

「夏くんまで俺をたしなめるのか！？やめてくれ！夏くんしか理解できないから話してるのに！！わかるだろ家の女は皆だめだめなだ！」

「夏くん ; natsu kun」-> Natsu-Kun

「まで ; made 」-> even

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「たしなめる ; tashinameru 」-> to chide; to rebuke; to reprove

「のか ; noka 」-> question marker particle seeking an explanation

「やめてくれ ; yametekure 」-> quit - asking for a favor (やめて + くれ)

「夏くん ; natsu kun」-> Natsu-Kun

「しか ; shika 」-> only (with neg. verb)

「理解できない ; rikai dekinai 」-> able to understand/comprehend/sympathize (negative form because of shika)

「から ; kara 」-> because; therefore

「話してる ; hanashiteru 」-> speaking; talking

「のに ; noni 」-> even though (used when complaining to someone)

「わかる ; wakaru 」-> to understand

「だろ ; daro 」-> right; I think

「家 ; uchi 」-> one’s family; one’s home

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「女 ; onna 」-> woman

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「皆 ; minna 」-> all

「だめだめな ; dame dame na 」-> entirely useless

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “Even you are chiding me, Natsuo-Kun!? Please stop! I’m talking to you because you are the only one who can understand me, Natsu-Kun!! You understand that the women in this family are entirely useless, right!”

The kure at the end of yametekure is used when asking a favor from someone, in this case, Touya is essentially asking Natsuo to please stop.

I know a lot of people said this is somehow manipulative and sexist?! About the sexist part: this is literally just a way for him to sum up that he’s talking about Fuyumi and Rei, which makes sense, considering he is not allowed to talk to Shouto, and obviously he can’t talk to Endeavor, either, which means the only remaining candidates he is able to talk to are Natsuo, Fuyumi, and Rei. Since he is talking to Natsuo, that only leaves Fuyumi and Rei (= the women in the family). It’s not that deep. It’s not like he said “they don’t understand because they are women” he just said “the women in this family are useless” which is an understandable feeling. While we don’t know exactly how his conversations with Fuyumi were like during this time, we know that Fuyumi is more on the neutral side in the present time and later on in this chapter, she even admits to having turned a blind eye in the past. And the next scene shows us why Touya thinks his mom is useless, too. He has legitimate reasons to view them as useless because neither of them acknowledged his feelings or listened to him properly. So no, he isn’t sexist he just uses this term instead of saying “Fuyumi and mom”.

And about the manipulative part - I’m not sure if some of you don’t have siblings? You are allowed to vent to your siblings. Also, let’s not forget that Touya is a drama queen, so him being a little dramatic here is just him being himself. More importantly, though, Natsuo is the only one that listens to him, so of course, he’s worried when the one person that he feels understood by tells him to talk to someone who doesn’t understand him. Not to mention the fact that Touya didn’t exactly grow up in an environment that taught him how to properly handle his feelings, which is the core problem in his life, so if he doesn’t perfectly articulate his feelings then remember that his parents never taught him any better.

「待ってまたお山に行く気でしょ。。。！たまにはクラスメイトと遊んでみたり。。。」

「待って ; matte 」-> to wait

「また ; mata 」-> again

「お山 ; oyama 」-> mountain

「に ; ni 」-> to

「行く気 ; iku ki 」-> feel like going

「でしょ ; desho 」-> it seems; right?

「たまに ; tamani 」-> occasionally; once in a while

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「クラスメイト ; kurasumeito 」-> classmates

「と ; to 」-> with

「遊んでみたり ; asondemitari 」-> try to do things like playing

= “Wait, you feel like going to the mountain again, right…! Once in a while, try to do things like playing with your classmates and…”

「友だちなんかいらない！世界が違う！」

「友だち ; tomodachi 」-> friends

「なんか ; nanka」-> make light off something

「いらない ; iranai 」-> don’t need

「世界 ; sekai 」-> world

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「違う ; chigau 」-> different

= “I don’t need friends! The worlds are different!”

Obviously, he has adapted this mindset from Endeavor. Thinking that heroes live in their own world and are somehow different - better - than anyone else. Being a hero in the bnha universe isn’t about anything heroic in most cases, but rather it’s about status and being a superior person. Sure, not every hero is as cruel to people as Endeavor, but even the other heroes believe that some people are worthier than others. In a way, they really are in a different world because they have the power to decide who to save and who isn’t worth saving, even though none of them are able to recognize this. To some people, though, like Endeavor or Touya, these different worlds are very clearly there.

「燈矢おまえ。。。本当にヒーローになりたいの？」

「燈矢 ; touya 」-> Touya

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「本当に ; hontou ni 」-> really

「ヒーロー ; hiro 」-> hero

「になりたい ; ni naritai 」-> want to become

「の ; no 」-> question marker particle seeking an explanation

= “Touya, you… do you really want to become a hero?”

「お母さんには。。。お父さんに縛られて苦しんでる様に見える。。。燈矢。。。世界は沢山あって選択肢は無数にあるの。お父さんだけじゃないもっと外を見て。。。！その中で本当になりたい自分を見つけてほし。。。」

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「には ; niwa 」-> as for

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「に ; ni 」-> by

「縛られて ; shibararete 」-> to tie, to bind; to restrict (freedom)(passive)

「苦しんでる ; kushinderu」-> suffering

「様に見える ; you ni mieru 」-> seems like

「燈矢 ; touya 」-> Touya

「世界 ; sekai 」-> world

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「沢山 ; takusan 」-> many

「あって ; atte 」-> to be; to exist

「選択肢 ; sentakushi 」-> choices; alternatives; options

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「無数 ; musuu 」-> countless

「に ; ni 」-> to

「ある ; aru 」-> to be; to exist

「の ; no 」-> explanatory particle

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「だけ ; dake 」-> only

「じゃない ; janai 」-> isn’t

「もっと ; motto 」-> even more

「外 ; soto 」-> other place

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「見て ; mite 」-> look

「その中で ; sono naka de 」-> therein

「本当に ; hontou ni 」-> really

「なりたい ; naritai 」-> want to become

「自分 ; jibun 」-> oneself

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「見つけて ; mitsukete 」-> to discover; to find

「ほし ; hoshi 」-> want

= “To mom… it seems like you are suffering and being tied down by your father… Touya… There are many worlds, there are countless choices. Look more outside, there isn’t just your father…! I want you to find out who you really want to become therein.”

See, she can’t really blame him for becoming Dabi when she literally tells him he should find out who he wants to become. He only took her advice...

「お母さんが何を知ってんだよ！？啓発本でも読んだのかよ。。。！？」

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「何 ; nani 」-> what

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「知ってん ; shitten 」-> knowing

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

「啓発 ; keihatsu 」-> enlightenment; development

「本 ; hon 」-> books

「でも ; demo 」-> ...or something

「読んだ ; yonda 」-> was reading

「なのか ; nanoka 」-> question marker particle seeking an explanation

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “What do you know, mom!? Were you reading some enlightenment books or something…!?”

Once again, the official translation makes him talk in the weirdest way. We get it, he speaks informally. But no one talks like that. Please stop. Also, while the official translation only called this a “self-help book” keihatsu is defined as the act of teaching and leading others by teaching knowledge and awareness and is based on a saying from the Analects of Confucius about teaching only those who have the desire to learn and struggle to express themselves with words. There’s another word for enlightenment in Japanese, keimou, which is defined as being about teaching people the answer, whereas keihatsu is about leading people to think about the answer themselves.

Again, in a way, Rei did lead him to think about what his answer to “find out who you want to become” is so it’s somewhat fitting since she didn’t explicitly tell him who to become.

I’m sure Rei hasn’t actually read any enlightenment books, but I’m sure Touya has (that and parental books, probably). Smart boy!

「おばあちゃん達が貧乏してたからお母さんを売ったんだろ。お母さんはそうするしかなかったんだろ。」

「おばあちゃん達 ; obaachantachi 」-> grandma and the others

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「貧乏してた ; binbou shiteta 」-> was poor

「から ; kara 」-> therefore

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「売ったん ; uttan 」-> was sold

「だろ ; daro 」-> right?

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「そうする ; sousuru 」-> to do so

「しかなかった ; shikanakatta 」-> had no choice but~

「んだろ ; ndaro 」-> right?

= “Grandma and the others were poor, so they sold mom, right? Mom had no choice but to do it, right?”

Remember how in chapter 301 I said that the first flashback seemed more like a business transaction? Well, well, well. Of course, just because Touya says that Rei was sold doesn’t mean that she was actually sold, but I do think that she was sold in the sense that Endeavor is providing for her family, which would also explain why they are never seen visiting Rei (aside from the fact that this story isn’t about her and they are just not important) since they are financially depending on Endeavor and thus don’t want to get into any sort of fights with him that would possibly result in him not providing for them anymore.

Again, it’s sad that a 13-year-old is already aware of these circumstances.

「燈。。。」

「燈 ; tou 」-> Tou

= “Tou…”

「だから俺が生まれたんだろ。。。！？お母さんも加担してんだよ。」

「だから ; dakara 」-> therefore

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「生まれた ; umareta 」-> was born

「んだろ ; daro 」-> right?

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「加担してん ; katan shite 」-> being complicit

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “That’s why I was born, right…!? You’re also complicit, mom.”

Honestly, he looks so hurt there. Some people like to claim that he was too harsh or whatever, but he basically just poured his heart out to her and told her that she can’t understand his pain - which is true - and it’s so sad to think about how long he must have had this thought already at that point. Again, he is thirteen. That’s a tough age for most people as it is, and when your own family doesn’t listen to you or understand you that makes it even worse.

Another thing to note is the sweat drops on his face. As we learn on the next page, when his emotions increase, so does his fire, so it’s likely that by yelling at his mom and getting angry, his body temperature was rising, thus making him sweat. This also matches with the line that comes right after:

「火が。。。。消えないんだよ」

「火 ; hi 」-> fire

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「消えない ; kienai 」-> won’t go out

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “The fire... won’t go out.”

Again, this could refer to the fact that a literal fire is lit inside of him as he’s more emotional right now.

「燈矢」

「燈矢 ; touya 」-> Touya

= “Touya.”

This conversation is similar to two other conversations we’ve seen so far: First, Rei gives him the exact same “advice” that Endeavor has given Touya before: “Make some friends. There are more worlds than just the hero world!” and then, Rei also tells Touya that there isn’t just Endeavor, similar to how she told Shouto “You aren’t bound by his blood.” So why did these two things not work on Touya?

The first piece of advice doesn’t work because it pretty much ignores Touya’s feelings, problems, and goals. He wants to be a hero, but his father won’t let him. Similar to how his own father couldn’t just give up on his dream of being a Number One Hero, thus starting a family and his little eugenics project, Touya can’t just give up on his dream of becoming a hero. To him, it’s not even necessarily about being a hero - it’s about proving himself to his father, to have his father say “I’m glad you were born” instead of just ignoring him and only focusing on his new masterpiece, Shouto.

The second advice worked on Shouto, so why didn’t it work on Touya? Well, the two of them are the same, but they are also opposites. Shouto has only ever had negative feelings towards Endeavor since he had to witness him hit his mom and terrify his siblings. Shouto always wanted to be a hero, but he didn’t want to become like Endeavor. Shouto said that he wants to make people feel at ease, and he knows that Endeavor doesn’t make his own family feel that way, so clearly becoming like him would mean not becoming the kind of hero Shouto wants to be. So by Rei telling him that he isn’t bound by Endeavor’s blood, she’s reassuring him that he can be independent from Endeavor and doesn’t have to be like him. 

So how is Touya different? Touya always wanted to be a hero, but more importantly, he wanted to be good enough in his father’s eyes because unlike Shouto, he saw the “good” days of his family. While Endeavor never unconditionally loved him like a parent should, to a kid love is love and all that matters is getting their parents’ attention. Touya had that, but then suddenly was only met with excuses of “We can’t train anymore for your own good!” which doesn’t really help a child understand why they are now being ignored. While Shouto didn’t want to become Endeavor nor did he want to be around him, all Touya ever wanted was for his father to be proud of him and view him as worthy. So of course telling him there are more worlds than just Endeavor couldn’t possibly be helpful, because how can you expect a child to just not crave their parent’s love anymore?

「早生まれの小さな身体に漸く訪れ始めた二次性徴」

「早生まれ ; hayaumare 」-> someone born between January 1 and April 1

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「小さな ; chiisana 」-> small

「身体 ; karada 」-> body

「に ; ni 」-> at

「漸く ; youyaku 」-> finally; at last

「訪れ始めた ; otozurehajimeta 」-> begin to appear

「二次 ; niji 」-> secondary

「性徴 ; seichou 」-> sexual characteristics

= “Secondary sexual characteristics finally begin to appear in the small body of someone born early in the year.”

Of course, we are all surprised that “Touya was always small because he came out of the oven a little early” isn’t a literal translation.

Hayaumare is a term that describes someone born between January 1 and April 1, since the school year in Japan starts in April and kids start going to school at age 6 and so kids born between January and April will be the youngest in their class, sometimes almost a year younger than their oldest classmates. Shouto is also a hayaumare since he is also born in January, thus one of the youngest in class 1-A. So while this doesn’t mean that he was born prematurely, he would just seem smaller in comparison to his classmates since there is still so much development happening during that time. Obviously, that doesn’t explain why he was so much shorter than Natsuo. While it’s true that Natsuo is the kid that most resembles Endeavor in appearance, Rei is also pretty tall and I believe even now taller than Dabi. I think that overall, this is more to amplify that Touya has a weak body.

Also, this is clearly a great moment for him to develop secondary sexual characteristics, which include things like body hair, only for him to burn them all off right then and there. This also means that they wouldn’t have recognized Dabi by his voice, since it wouldn’t have gotten deeper yet before he left the family.

「そうか。。。身体機能だもんな！感情の昂ぶりが火力に直結するんだ！すごいぞ俺。。。これならお父さんもきっとびっくりするぞ！」

「そうか ; souka 」-> is that so? (rhetorical)

「身体 ; shintai 」-> body

「機能 ; kinou 」-> function; feature

「だ ; da 」-> be

「もん ; mon 」-> because; indicates reason

「な ; na 」-> sentence ending particle; used to seek confirmation/ introduce new topic

「感情 ; kanjou 」-> emotion; feelings

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「昂ぶり ; takaburi 」-> excitement; stimulation

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「火力 ; karyoku」-> heating/fire power

「に ; ni 」-> to

「直結する ; chokketsu suru 」-> to directly connect

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「すごい ; sugoi 」-> incredible

「ぞ ; zo 」-> emphasizes the speaker’s will or opinion

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「これなら ; kore nara 」 - > this one

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「きっと ; kitto 」-> surely

「びっくりする ; bikkuri suru 」-> to be surprised

「ぞ ; zo 」-> emphasizes the speaker’s will or opinion

= “Is that so…? It’s the body function, huh! The stimulation of the emotions is directly connected to the firepower! Incredible I… this one will surely also surprise dad!”

Look at him still smiling! Wasn’t that All Might’s thing, to smile no matter what? Touya sure had that down too, still holding on to the hope that his dad would care.

「身体の変化と共にその炎は赤から蒼へと色を変えていた」

「身体 ; karada 」-> body

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「変化 ; henka 」-> transition

「と共に ; to tomo ni 」-> together with

「その ; sono 」-> that

「炎 ; honou 」-> flame

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「赤 ; aka 」-> red

「から ; kara 」-> from

「蒼 ; ao 」-> blu

「へと ; e to 」-> to

「色 ; iro 」-> color

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「変えていた ; kaeteita 」-> was changing

= “Together with the body’s transition, the flame’s color was changing from red to blue.”

「ああでも。。。くっそ昂ぶると何だって涙が出ちゃうんだろう。」

「ああ ; aa 」-> Ah

「でも ; demo 」-> but

「くっそ ; kusso 」-> extremely

「昂ぶる ; takaburu 」-> to become excited; to become aroused (of emotions)

「と ; to 」-> when

「何だって ; nandatte 」-> why?; what for?

「涙が出 ; namida ga dechau 」-> to shed tears (出る + ちゃう)

「ん ; n 」-> used for emphasis/ to show surprise

「だろう ; darou 」-> I wonder

= “Ah but… I wonder why I shed tears when I become extremely excited?”

Dechau consists of deru (to come out) and chau, which is used here to emphasize his emotions. The n after dechau is an explanatory particle and can also show surprise (basically asking for an explanation for this new discovery of him crying as a result of becoming excited).

Anyway, this is a super important new detail we now know about Dabi. In this post I talked about Dabi currently experiencing emotional numbness (in response to him telling Shouto that he doesn’t feel anything anymore), a coping mechanism that can occur after traumatic events. It doesn’t mean the person experiencing this doesn’t actually have any emotions anymore, but those feelings get repressed because sometimes it’s easier for your brain to pretend those feelings aren’t there rather than letting you become overwhelmed with extremely strong emotions. However, individuals experiencing emotional numbness might still show emotions like anger in situations where they might feel powerless or threatened.

While I still do believe that this does apply to Dabi, this chapter is proof that he still feels very strong emotions since strong emotions make his fire stronger. A little later in this chapter, we also find out that Touya was only shown how to increase his flames and not how to decrease them (imagine Endeavor teaching you how to drive lol, no thank you!) so it also seems like even now, he doesn’t have full control over his flames - or rather their intensity - since otherwise, he could have just used a weaker flame up until now instead of always using blue flames no matter what. So his flames are still controlled by his emotions, therefore showing that he still has very strong emotions now.

In other words, while he is suppressing his emotions and not fully experiencing them the same way he used to, those feelings are still very much there even if it doesn’t feel that way to him.

I think something very interesting to see would be if at some point (should someone ever properly decide to save him) someone would get through to him and we would just see his blue flames slowly turning red as he, for the first time, truly calms down...

「お父さん今度の休み瀬古杜岳に来てよ。」

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「今度 ; kondo 」-> next time

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「休み ; yasumi 」-> holiday; day off

「瀬古杜岳 ; sekototake 」-> Sekoto Peak

「に ; ni 」-> to

「来て ; kite 」-> come

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “Dad, come to Sekoto Peak on your next free day!”

Again, can we just appreciate how strong this child is still smiling and being hopeful despite years of being neglected and told he’s not good enough? Even now, he’s still trying and not giving up. He looks so cheerful here like he still has positive feelings for his dad here.

「火傷。。。周囲から見られない箇所での訓練。。。！」

「火傷 ; yakedo 」-> burn

「周囲 ; shuui 」-> surroundings

「から ; kara 」-> from

「見られない ; mirarenai 」-> can’t be seen

「箇所 ; kasho 」-> place

「での ; deno 」-> in (the no adds emphasis on the preceding word)

「訓練 ; kunren 」-> training

= “Burn… training in a place that can’t be seen from the surroundings…!”

「おまえまだ。。。！！」

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「まだ ; mada 」-> still

= “You still…!!”

Obviously, this is very different from the official translation’s “Dammit! Again?!” but I think the criticism only stems from people who think that swearing is some sort of terrible taboo way of speaking. No, he doesn’t swear in Japanese but there are so few swear words in Japanese and usually, the way you would swear is by speaking informally. Anyway, it matches his expression and you can see that he’s yelling so it’s one of those changes that aren’t that dramatic, and anyone that cries over this better also address the heavier changes in regards to Dabi and the rest of the villains. Also, as I’ve said before: the changes in Dabi’s speech are far more severe and impact how people view him as a person since the entire content is sometimes changed for the worse. He is also someone who is clearly smart and knows how to use language, so making him speak in weird ways like the official translation does definitely changes how he is perceived. Endeavor, on the other hand, is not perceived differently by the minor changes made to his speech, which don’t even affect the content. For example, with this line, he is literally yelling at his child. Saying “dammit” isn’t the reason I view him as a terrible father since him neglecting and abusing his children for over ten years at this point is enough proof for that already. Whether he swears or not doesn’t change that.

「すごい事になったんだ必ず来て！」

「すごい事になった ; sugoi koto ni natta 」-> to go crazy; to get out of hand; to end up in an extreme state

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「必ず ; kanarazu 」-> certainly; without fail

「来て ; kite 」-> come

= “It ended up in an extreme state, so you certainly have to come!”

What’s interesting here is the “sugoi koto ni natta” part, which is an expression with the above-mentioned meanings that certainly all fit Touya’s state there. But if you break it down then you have “became a terrific thing” - which is close to the  “what I can do now is pretty cool!”

「焦凍にだって到達できるかどうか。。。！オールマイトにも負けないかもね！お父さんもきっと認めざるをえなくなるからさ。。。！俺をつくって良かったって思うから！」

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「に ; ni 」-> at

「だって ; datte 」-> after all

「到達 ; toutatsu 」-> reaching

「できる ; dekiru 」-> to be able to

「かどうか ; kadouka 」-> whether or not

「オールマイト ; orumaito 」-> All Might

「にも ; nimo 」-> also

「負けない ; makenai 」-> don’t lose; to not be inferior to

「かも ; kamo 」-> may; might

「ね ; ne 」-> sentence ending particle; used to seek confirmation

「お父さん ; otousan 」-> dad

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「きっと ; kitto 」-> surely

「認めざるをえなくなる ; mitomezaru o enakunaru 」-> cannot help to grow to recognize/notice (認め + ざるをえなく + なる)

「から ; kara 」-> expresses sympathy

「さ ; sa 」-> emphasis particle

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「つくって ; tsukutte 」-> to make

「良かった ; yokatta 」-> to be glad

「って思う ; tte omou 」-> to think

「から ; kara 」-> expresses sympathy

= “Whether or not I am able to reach Shouto after all…! I might also not lose to All Might, will I! Surely, you cannot help but grow to notice me too, dad...! And you will think you’re glad you made me!”

Later on, we get Endeavor and Rei both expressing that they didn’t know what to say to Touya around this time. When your child says “I will do this thing that’s damaging me to prove my worth to you and have you think it’s good that I exist!” maybe just say that you’re already glad they exist and that they’re already good enough! I’m sure parenting is hard, but affirming your child’s worth should not be one of the difficult parts of parenting. 

Also, I would like to point out that the fandom has talked a lot about Touya’s jealousy towards Shouto, but I don’t fully see it. First of all, Touya is fully aware of why he and his siblings exist and therefore also knows why Endeavor is training Shouto. This doesn’t mean that Touya isn’t jealous at all, but he also doesn’t really dwell on those feelings. He sees Shouto as his competition, but not even in a negative way. If Endeavor had allowed it, Touya probably would have trained with Shouto and the two of them could have motivated each other to reach their full potential. The only reason Touya had any amount of jealousy in him was that Shouto was his replacement and as long as Shouto was around and better than Touya, it meant that Endeavor wouldn’t pay any attention to Touya. The whole “Whether or not I am able to reach Shouto” phrase shows that he recognizes that Shouto is stronger than him at the moment, but again, it comes from a place of trying to show Endeavor “Look, I can do what your masterpiece can do, too!” because he knows Endeavor is currently only impressed by Shouto. Shouto sets the bar and Touya is trying to make his father see that he can reach that bar too (probably). If Endeavor had changed his mind and let Touya and Shouto train together, then Touya might not have had any ill feelings towards Shouto, so when talking about this jealousy, please keep in mind that all roads lead back to Endeavor here and taking him out of the equation would make for a good bond between the two brothers.

「何故止めなかった冷！！！頼んだはずだ！！！」

「何故 ; naze 」-> why

「止めなかった ; tomenakatta 」-> didn’t stop

「冷 ; rei 」-> Rei

「頼んだ ; tanonda 」-> entrusted to; requested to

「はず ; hazu 」-> expectation that something took place

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “Why didn’t you stop him, Rei!!! I entrusted him to you!!!”

Hazu is used with the past tense of a verb to express negative feelings in response to something not having turned out how you expected them to.

「お母さんいじめないで！！やめて！いじめないでよ！」

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「いじめないで ; ijimenai de 」-> don’t be cruel to

「やめて ; yamete 」-> stop

「いじめないで ; ijimenai de 」-> don’t be cruel to

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “Don’t be cruel to mom! Stop it! Don’t be cruel!”

「焦凍は出てろ！関係ない話だ！！」

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「出てろ ; detero 」-> get out

「関係ない ; kankei nai  」-> not involved

「話 ; hanashi 」-> conversation

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “Shouto, get out! The conversation doesn’t involve you!!”

「お母さんが何を知ってんだよ！？」

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「何 ; nani 」-> what

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「知ってん ; shitten 」-> knowing

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “What do you know mom!?”

「選択肢は限られていたけれど選んで進んだのは私の足でせめてその先では笑っていようと思っていた。。。のに」

「選択肢 ; sentakushi 」-> options

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「限られていた ; kagirareteita 」-> was limited

「けれど ; keredo 」-> however

「選んで ; erande 」-> to choose

「進んだ ; sunda 」-> to live

「のは ; nowa 」-> topic maker particle

「私 ; watashi 」-> I

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「足 ; ashi 」-> foot

「で ; de 」-> on

「せめて ; semete 」-> at least

「その ; sono 」-> that

「先 ; saki ; 」-> the future; destination

「では ; dewa 」-> topic maker particle

「笑っていよう ; waratte iyou 」-> should smile

「と思っていた ; to omotteita 」-> was thinking

「のに ; noni 」-> even though; and yet

= “My options were limited, however, and yet I chose to live on my feet and thought I shall at least smile in the future.”

「私じゃ止められない。」

「私 ; watashi 」-> I

「じゃ ; ja 」-> topic marker particle

「止められない ; tomerarenai 」-> couldn’t stop

= “I couldn’t stop him.”

Again, he’s thirteen. Maybe she didn’t read enlightenment books, but she sure should have read them. And also brought Touya to a therapist.

「そして。。。あなたは行かなかった。」

「そして ; soshite 」-> and

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「行かなかった ; ikanakatta 」-> didn’t go

= “And… you didn’t go.”

「出るな。。。！涙なんか。。。」

「出るな ; deruna 」-> don’t come out

「涙 ; namida 」-> tears

「なんか ; nanka 」-> expresses strong emotion; used to belittle something

= “Don’t come out…! Stupid tears…”

Nanka doesn’t really have an actual translation here, but the “stupid” from the official translation conveys that nuance of belittling something pretty well.

「。。。薪をくべてしまうだけだと。。。いや。。。」

「薪 ; maki 」-> firewood

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「くべてしまう ; kubete shimau 」-> to completely burn

「だけ ; dake 」-> only

「だ ; da 」-> be

「と ; to 」-> quotation marker

「いや ; iya 」-> disagreeable

= “... I thought it’s only completely burning the firewood… no…”

The to could be interpreted in different ways since it can also mean “and” but here it makes more sense to go for what the official translation did, which is assuming that it’s the quotation marker which would normally be followed by omou (= to think).

「ちくしょう。。。」

「ちくしょう ; chikushou 」-> damn it

= “Damn it...”

「何と声を掛けたらいいのかわからなかったんだ。」

「何と ; nanto 」-> what

「声を掛けたらいい ; koe o kaketara ii 」-> should start talking (to)/ give vocal support (to)/ to let (somebody) know (声を掛けた + らいい)

「のか ; noka 」-> question marker particle seeking a clarification

「わからなかった ; wakaranakatta 」-> didn’t know 

「んだ ; nda 」-> explanatory particle

= “I didn’t know what vocal support I should give.”

The official translation went for the more natural way of saying this, which is “I had no idea what to say to him.”

「おとうさ」

「お父さ ; otousa 」-> dad

= “Dad-”

「私もそうだった。」

「私 ; watashi 」-> I

「も ; mo 」-> also; too

「そう ; sou 」-> in that way; so

「だった ; datta 」-> was

= “I was also like that…”

Something that bothers me a lot about this exchange is that they both claim they didn’t know what to say to Touya, which is a weird conclusion as to where things went wrong. First of all, Touya is in all honesty probably smarter than both his parents combined and despite the translation constantly trying to make him sound like he’s speaking his own language, he has always been someone well-spoken in the sense that he chooses his words carefully as seen by how he knew exactly what to say to Aizawa in the summer camp, how politely he spoke in his broadcast, etc. He knows how to word things in order to get specific reactions out of people and be perceived however he wants to be perceived by people. More importantly, though, he had made it very clear on multiple occasions growing up what his problems were. He was always clear about his needs - wanting to train with his dad, having his dad come to the mountain with him, etc. - yet here it sounds a little like he never voiced his feelings or was somehow unable to comprehend what his parents told him.

Second of all, saying they didn’t know what to say to him makes it feel more like the whole thing was just a one-time slip and not years and years of problems piling up until it all collapsed. They knew Touya wasn’t fine. They saw him try to attack Shouto, they knew that he continued training and didn’t stop, they knew he wanted Endeavor’s attention.

As mentioned earlier, their advice failed because neither of his parents could practice what they preached. Endeavor telling Touya to give up on his goal of surpassing All Might and becoming a hero failed because Endeavor himself couldn’t stop to the point he started a whole family in the hopes that one of his children could do what he wasn’t able to. Rei telling Touya that he looks like he’s suffering and that he should find out who he really wants to become failed because Touya was aware that Rei didn’t marry Endeavor out of her own will but for her parents’ sake. And the thing is, he told them. He told them both that this advice wasn’t good enough, and then they just gave up. One piece of advice was what they deemed trying hard enough and now they boil it down to “I didn’t know what to say to him” even though the real reason Touya “died” was because they gave up on him from the start.

「わあっ。」

「わあっ ; waa 」-> Waa

= “Waa.”

「あれは熱かったな。」

「あれ ; are 」-> that

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「熱かった ; atsukatta 」-> was hot

「な ; na 」-> sentence ending particle; used to seek confirmation

= “That was hot, wasn’t it.”

「あつ。。。！止まらない！炎がー！！」

「あつ ; atsu 」-> hot

「止まらない ; tomaranai 」-> can’t stop

「炎 ; honou 」-> flame

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

= “Hot…! I can’t stop! The flames are-!!”

「ま自業自得だよな。」

「ま ; ma 」-> well; you might say

「自業自得 ; jigoujitoku 」-> paying for one’s mistakes; getting one’s just deserts; suffering the consequences (of one’s own actions); reap what you sow

「だ ; da 」-> be

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

「な ; na 」-> sentence ending particle; used to seek confirmation

= “Well, you reap what you sow, don’t you?”

I know we all made fun of the “that’s just deserts'' line in the official translation, but that is, in fact, one of the actual dictionary definitions of jigoujitoku. And to be fair, Touya was a smart kid. Maybe he just knows all these strange expressions no one ever uses. Maybe the official translation is onto something here… but to the rest of us, who never heard anyone say this before, it just sounds weird. Maybe we’re just all too stupid for Dabi… 

「火力の上げ方しか教えてくれなかったもんなあ。」

「火力 ; karyoku」-> heating/firepower

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「上げ ; age 」-> raising

「方 ; kata 」-> way of; method of

「しか ; shika 」-> only (with neg. verb)

「教えてくれなかった ; oshiete kurenakatta 」-> taught (教えて + くれなかった)

「もん ; mon 」-> because; indicates reason/ excuse/ dissatisfaction

「なあ ; naa 」-> used to say something emotionally when looking back on the past

= “Looking back, he only taught me the way of raising the firepower.”

Again, the kure in oshiete kurenakatta is used when saying that something was done for the speaker.

When speaking to yourself, naa at the end of the sentence can be used when reflecting on the past, as Dabi does here, which makes it sound like he wasn’t necessarily aware of this before or at least wasn’t aware of it back then. I know there were some people when the spoilers came out that claimed that Touya had obviously faked his death on purpose, but aside from nothing pointing to that as it is, this part makes it especially obvious that he didn’t do it on purpose. Touya was clearly surprised that his fire grew so strong there and that he was unable to stop it. And the naa here indicates that if he had been aware back then that he never learned how to properly control his flames, then he might have been able to prevent this incident from happening.

「あの日全て諦めていれば。」

「あの ; ano 」-> that

「日 ; hi 」-> day

「全て ; subete 」-> all; everything

「諦めていれば ; akirameteireba 」-> had given up (conditional)

= “If only I had given everything up that day.”

THIS would have to be about the saddest sentences in this chapter and I haven’t really seen a lot of people mention this. This is Dabi reflecting on the day where his life completely changed and although he just had quite a success by revealing his identity and broadcasting the truth about his family to the whole country, he’s looking back on the day he almost died and thinks “if only I had given everything up on that day.” If you didn’t think he was suicidal before, here is your proof. Yes, he’s freer now in the sense that Endeavor can’t tell him what to do anymore (not like that worked before anyway), but this is still not the life little Touya had wanted. He wanted to be a hero and someone his father could be proud of, and yet here he is as a villain whose sole purpose is to kill Endeavor. So not only is he still not free from his life being dictated by Endeavor, but he also turned himself into someone he never wanted to be. While revealing his true identity to the country was somewhat of a victory for him, it doesn’t change that he won’t ever get back all the years Endeavor took from him. He might be fighting, but deep down he’d rather just be dead.

「燈矢を殺してしまったことで後に引けなくなっていた。。。焦凍に傾倒する他。。。なくなっていた。」

「燈矢 ; touya 」-> Touya

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「殺してしまった ; koroshiteshimatta 」-> was killed completely (殺して + しまった)

「ことで ; koto de 」-> nominalizes the preceding phrase

「後に引けなくなっていた ; ato ni hikenaku natteita 」-> couldn’t stop

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「に ; ni 」-> to

「傾倒する ; keitou suru 」-> to devote oneself to

「他なくなっていた ; hoka naku natteita 」-> can do nothing but; have no other choice but

= “I couldn’t stop after I completely killed Touya… I couldn’t do anything except devoting myself to Shouto.”

As mentioned before, verb + shimau can mean that an action was done completely, but it can also mean that something was done regrettably. This is one of those cases, where both meanings can apply. Endeavor completely killed Touya, thus Dabi was born, but this is also regrettable since Touya shouldn’t have died. It’s just weird to admit that you're responsible (and cry about it in front of your victims) and then also blame the victim for how you treated your other victim.

「燈矢が消えて。。。エスカレートしていくあなたが悍ましくて。。。こどもたちにまで面影を見るようになってしまった。」

「エスカレートしていく ; esukareeto shite iku 」-> to continue escalating

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「悍ましくて ; ozomashikute 」-> disgusting; repulsive

「こどもたち ; kodomotachi 」-> children

「に ; ni 」-> in

「まで ; made 」-> until

「面影 ; omokage 」-> face

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「見る ; miru 」-> to see

「ようになってしまった」-> completely reached the point that

= “Continuing to escalate, you were repulsive... until I completely reached the point of seeing your face in the children.”

Okay, first things first. Rei’s line created a lot of confusion since it contradicts what Fuyumi says in chapter 250, where she mentions that Touya died shortly after Rei was hospitalized. This tweet from the official bnha twitter account states that the “Touya disappeared and…” part in Rei’s line in this chapter was a mistake and will be erased in the volume release, so I didn’t include that part in here. I do think that this scene overall makes no sense, then, though, since the idea here is that Touya’s “death” made Endeavor worse, made Endeavor become abusive, made Rei pour the boiling hot water on Shouto, made Endeavor put Rei into a mental hospital. But that’s not true.

Endeavor saying that he started to obsess over Shouto after Touya died is also weird, since we all know that he was already obsessed with him before and didn’t pay attention to any of the other children, which is exactly what led to Touya dying when Endeavor couldn’t even be bothered to go to the mountain with him one time.

「壊れてるのを知りながら。。。怖くて踏み込めなかった。。。上っ面で繕うことしか。。。してこなかった。」

「壊れてる ; kowareteru 」-> to be broken

「のを ; no o 」-> nominalizer + object marker

「知り ; shiri 」-> to know; to be aware of

「ながら ; nagara 」-> while

「怖くて ; kowakute 」-> scary

「踏み込めなかった ; fumikomenakatta 」-> wasn’t able to step into

「上っ面 ; uwattsura 」-> surface; apppearances

「で ; de 」-> at

「繕う ; tsukurou 」-> to fix; to cover up (mistakes); to keep up appearances

「こと ; koto 」-> things

「しか ; shika 」-> only (with neg. verb)

「してこなかった ; shite konakatta 」-> continued to do

= “While I knew it was broken... I was scared and unable to step in… I only continued to… fix things on the surface.”

Tsukurou has several meanings like “to fix” and “to keep up appearances” so that’s probably why the official translation included both meanings here. The Japanese also only says “scared” and not “too scared” like the official English translation, though this is most likely just done to make it sound more natural. Another difference is that in the official translation, Fuyumi says “All I could do” whereas in Japanese she said that she “only continued to” fix things on the surface. The panel also shows a small flashback of Endeavor dragging Touya away and Rei trying to stop him, while Fuyumi is standing in the background and slightly turned away. She’s shown in the sailor uniform that is typically worn by middle school students, so she would be around 12 years old, which was around the time Touya “died” - obviously at that age there wasn’t really anything she could have done against Endeavor so the translation isn’t entirely incorrect, however, judging by Touya telling Natsuo that he can’t talk to Fuyumi because she doesn’t understand, it seems like she probably always tried to remain impartial instead of siding with her older brother. While she couldn’t have stopped Endeavor, she could have at least been there for Touya as emotional support - which, might I add, is her whole purpose for existing - so that’s why saying that she “continued to” only fix things on the surface is a more accurate line.

「全部あなたが始めた事であなたが原因だーでも

俺がぶん殴って燈矢兄と向かい合わせてやれてたら。。。荼毘は生まれてなくて焦凍に盛り蕎麦をご馳走してやれてたかもしれない。」

「全部 ; zenbu 」-> all

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「始めた ; hajimeta 」-> to start

「事 ; koto 」-> situation; incident

「で ; de 」-> and

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「原因 ; genin 」-> cause

「だ ; da 」-> be

「でも ; demo 」-> but

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「ぶん殴って ; bunnagutte 」-> to hit hard; to give a hard blow

「燈矢兄 ; touya nii 」-> Touya-Nii

「と ; to 」-> with

「向かい合わせてやれて ; mukaiawasete yarete 」-> let someone face each other

「たら ; tara 」-> if

「荼毘 ; dabi 」-> Dabi

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「生まれてなくて ; umaretenakute 」-> wouldn’t have been born

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「に ; ni 」-> to

「盛り蕎麦 ; mori soba 」-> cold soba

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「ご馳走してやれてた ; gochisou shite yareteta 」-> to treat someone to a meal

「かもしれない ; kamoshirenai 」-> may; might; possibly

= “You started all of this situation and you are the cause - but if I had hit you hard and could have let you face Touya-Nii, then Dabi wouldn’t have been born and he might have been able to treat Shouto to mori soba.”

The yarete that appears twice in this sentence is the potential form of yaru, which is used when something is given/done for someone from someone with higher status to someone with lower status. In combination with the causative form (making someone do something) as is the case with mukaiawasete, it changes the nuance from simply making someone do something to allow someone to do something.

Concerning this line, there was a huge difference between the fan translation that I read and the official translation. While the official translation matches with the Japanese line by having Natsuo say that he should have punched Endeavor (can we appreciate how funny that would have been, but also sad if TWO of your children have to stand up to you because you mistreat another family member), the fan translation that I first read had Natsuo say that he should have punched and faced Touya, which is a very different message. Fortunately, that doesn’t make sense and isn’t the actual line, though.

More importantly, mori soba??? I thought Shouto’s favorite kind of soba was zaru soba (it’s basically the same, but zaru soba has nori seaweed on top)… 

「責任はあなただけのものじゃない。今回のことは私たち全員の責任。心が砕けても私たちが立たせます。あなたは荼毘と戦うしかないの。」

「責任 ; sekinin 」-> responsibility

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「だけ ; dake 」-> only

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「もの ; mono 」-> thing

「じゃない ; janai 」-> isn’t

「今回 ; konkai 」-> this time

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「こと ; koto 」-> situation; circumstance

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「私たち ; watashitachi 」-> we

「全員 ; zenin 」-> all members; everyone

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「責任 ; sekinin 」-> responsibility

「心 ; kokoro 」-> heart

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「砕けて ; kudakeru 」-> breaking

「も ; mo 」-> even if

「私たち ; watashitachi 」-> we

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「立たせます ; tatasemasu 」-> make someone stand up

「あなた ; anata 」-> you

「は ; wa 」-> topic marker particle

「荼毘 ; dabi 」-> Dabi

「と ; to 」-> with

「戦う ; tatakau 」-> to fight

「しかない ; shika nai 」-> have no choice but

「の ; no 」-> explanatory particle

= “The responsibility isn’t only yours. We are all responsible for this time’s circumstances. Even if your heart is breaking, we will make you stand up. You have no choice but to fight Dabi.”

This is one of those lines that really make you wonder whether the character is supposed to be like that or if the author just doesn’t understand what he’s writing. It’s questionable - to say the least - to say they are all responsible this time. While I continue to wonder how the non-heroes of the family are supposed to do anything here, why would a mother expect her children to be part of this? They are civilians and she expects them to somehow take care of saving their villain brother? Sorry, but she wasn’t even able to stop Touya from going outside to train, and now she expects her children to do better than her? No.

There’s also something very odd about her referring to him as Dabi. I understand that this is done to say that they intend on fighting Dabi and not Touya, and it’s true that Touya is in a way dead and Dabi was born instead. However, the problem with this idea of fighting “Dabi” is that it suggests that Dabi could somehow be killed while Touya survives when that is not at all how helping somehow who has been traumatized works. You can’t just reset him and somehow get him back to the state he was in prior to the traumatic experience (especially when the traumatic experience was basically his whole life). They won’t be able to just kill Dabi and have him go back to who he used to be because he has never been allowed to just be himself. Dabi is now a part of him. And not just that, but Dabi is the result of the trauma and thus functions as Touya’s surviving mechanism. This doesn’t mean that Dabi can’t be redeemed or be saved, it’s just that this idea of fighting Dabi and removing Dabi from Touya is bound to end in failure because that’s an impossible task and, again, the wrong approach to this.

Why exactly is a mother asking her and her children’s abuser to fight her child? Them going against Touya is what caused Dabi’s existence in the first place, which is what the conversation is more or less about, and yet she continues to think that fighting him is the right option here? A lot of people have suggested that this is done to cause a problem later down the line with Hawks and Best Jeanist listening in on the conversation and probably assuming the family doesn’t intend on saving Dabi in any way. But this is still a somewhat weak argument for two reasons: One, Hawks and Best Jeanist talk with the Todofam in chapter 303 and tell them that they will help to fight Dabi, so them teaming up means they should discuss this a little more and with that, there shouldn’t be any problems in terms of communication; and two, anything that happens in a story still has to be believable. If there is an issue or conflict it’s absolutely vital to convince the readers that this couldn’t somehow be prevented or easily resolved. But Rei isn’t vague here. She literally talks about Endeavor having to fight Dabi. So even if this is just in order for the other characters to misunderstand her, I do find it odd for a mother to suggest that her abusive husband should fight their child instead of finally acting like a parent and saving this child.

Until we know what exactly the family is going to do, we can’t determine whether this is just Horikoshi’s writing or if he intentionally made Rei like this, but for now, this just seems like a really weird thing to say. And even Endeavor can see this as shown in the next line:

「おまえ。。。本当に。。。冷か。。。？」

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「本当に ; hontou ni 」-> really

「冷 ; rei 」-> Rei

「か ; ka 」-> question marker particle

= “You… are you really… Rei…?”

「私たちよりよっぽど辛いハズの子が恨んで当然の私を再びお母さんと呼んでくれた。」

「私たち ; watashitachi 」-> us

「より ; yori 」-> than

「よっぽど ; yoppodo 」-> greatly; to a large extent

「辛い ; tsurai 」-> painful; difficult (emotionally)

「ハズ ; hazu 」-> ought to; should be

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「子 ; ko 」-> child

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「恨んで ; urande 」-> to bear a grudge against; to resent

「当然 ; touzen 」-> it’s natural to

「の ; no 」-> explanatory particle

「私 ; watashi 」-> I

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「再び ; futatabi 」-> again; once more

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「と呼���でくれた ; to yondekureta 」-> called (と呼んで + くれた)

= “It’s natural for the child that should be in more pain than us to resent me. He called me mom again.”

Originally, I thought this was about Touya since these chapters are about his backstory. But then someone asked me whether this was actually about Shouto and someone else also pointed out that the next line is about Shouto, so it makes more sense that this is about him. And this is what I mean when I say that this writing is contradictory. How do they all reflect on the past, recognize that they didn’t understand Touya and neglected him and didn’t know how to be parents to him, but then say that Shouto is the one that suffered more than the rest of them? Obviously, it’s not a competition, and comparing who has it the worst is not helpful at all, but Dabi is literally alone right now and has been alone his whole life, while Shouto at least has his family and emotional support right now. Do they not hear what they are saying? How are they so dumb? Shouto also literally never resented you or stopped calling you mom, so maybe shift your focus to Touya? No wonder he left.

「雄英高校でお友だちをつくって私たちをつなぎとめてくれた。焦凍が轟家（ウチ）のヒーローになってくれたのよ。」

「雄英高校 ; yuuei koukou 」-> U.A. High School

「で ; de 」-> at

「お友だち ; otomodachi 」-> friends

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「つくって ; tsukutte 」-> to make

「私たち ; watashitachi 」-> we

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「つなぎとめてくれた ; tsunagitomete kureta 」-> saved (someone’s life)

「焦凍 ; shouto 」-> Shouto

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「轟家 ; todoroki uchi 」-> Todoroki household

「ウチ ; uchi 」-> one’s own family

「の ; no 」-> possessive particle; similar to an apostrophe

「ヒーロー ; hiro 」-> hero

「になってくれた ; ni natte kureta 」-> became

「の ; no 」-> explanatory particle

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

= “He made friends at U.A. and saved us. Shouto has really become our hero.”

Here we have another case of Kanji and Furigana being different. While the Kanji (what the character means) says “Todoroki household” the Furigana (what the character says) simply says “One’s family” and to be honest, I’m not entirely sure why there is a difference here. Like yes, obviously, by family she’s referring to the Todoroki family.

Anyway, this is probably the worst sentence in this entire chapter. There is nothing inherently bad about saying that Shouto is a good person and that he helped his family. However, he is a literal child. A minor. And a victim in this, just like his siblings - just like Touya. None of the kids are responsible for their family’s well-being or for correcting their parents’ mistakes, and yet here we are. Shouto shouldn’t have to be the family’s hero and feel the need to save his brother just because both his parents failed to be parents. Don’t get me wrong, I agree that Endeavor wouldn’t possibly get through to Dabi now (although realistically, Natsuo is the only one that could really get through to him) so it makes sense to get Shouto involved. But everyone praising him just further shows their inability to recognize that this exact mindset is what caused the problems in the first place. This whole idea of someone - specifically Shouto - being the one in the family who is able to be a great hero is what was part of Touya’s mental downfall. It’s also a harmful statement to make in general, as it pushes the “good victim, bad victim” mentality, where Shouto is seen as the good victim for being able to stay on a good path, live his life in a normal way and still speak with his parents, whereas Touya ended up turning himself into a villain and essentially throwing his whole life away in order to ruin Endeavor’s life, too. Aside from the fact that this mentality is problematic in itself by making it seem like there’s a right and wrong way to be a victim and that people who end up not being able to just move on from their trauma are somehow worthless and don’t deserve to get help, this sentence also shows the problem the family has: not learning from the past. Despite all the self-reflection we’re shown in this chapter with each family member expressing what they did wrong, they then continue to not change at all and just continue to demonize Touya. They are taking responsibility and admitting that they were wrong, just ignoring the problems and not saying the right things to him, but by claiming that Shouto is the hero of the family they continue to neglect why Touya ended up the way he did. Shouto was supported in reaching his goals. Obviously, Endeavor wanted Shouto to become a hero, but Shouto also always wanted to be a hero on his own accord. His mom reassured him that he could be whatever hero he wanted to be and not just be the next Endeavor. He was always supported both in his journey of becoming a hero and also emotionally through his family and his friends. That isn’t to say that he is somehow less of a victim, but it’s important to acknowledge that the reason he ended up on the “good path” was that he had people that reminded him that he wasn’t Endeavor and that he was free to be his own person. He was never held back from reaching his goals.

Touya, on the other hand, received the exact opposite treatment. He was kept from pursuing his goal and was only met with cheap excuses as to why he shouldn’t train, yet none of those arguments ever worked on him and so he continued to train on his own for almost ten years. Despite both his parents knowing about this, they never did more than just say “stop training” and thus actively ignored his problems. Even when he lashed out to Rei, she just watched as he walked away. It’s not surprising he calls her and Fuyumi useless when both of them sided with Endeavor instead of acknowledging his pain. Of course, he was going to end up on a “bad path” when he didn’t have a proper support system.

So saying that Shouto is the family’s hero might sound like an innocent compliment at first glance, but it only further shows how little the family understands why Touya has become Dabi, which becomes a bigger problem when they want to save him, something they won’t be able to do as long as they continue to fail to really see him and his pain.

「ここに。。。来る前お母さんと話した。おまえが。。。もう戦えねェと思って俺がやるしかねェって思ってた。。。でも違うみてえだ。」

「ここ ; koko 」-> here

「に ; ni 」-> to

「来る ; kuru 」-> to come

「前 ; mae」-> before

「お母さん ; okaasan 」-> mom

「と ; to 」-> with

「話した ; hanashita 」-> spoke

「おまえ ; omae 」-> you

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「もう ; mou 」-> yet

「戦えねェ ; tatakaenee 」-> unable to fight/ compete against

「と思って ; to omotte 」-> thought

「俺 ; ore 」-> I 

「が ; ga 」-> subject marker particle

「やる ; yaru 」-> to do

「しか ; shika 」-> only (with neg. verb)

「ねェっ ; neee 」-> not

「て思ってた ; te omotteta 」-> was thinking

「でも ; demo 」-> but

「違う ; chigau 」-> to differ

「みてえ ; mitee 」-> looks; seems

「だ ; da 」-> be

= “Here… before coming, I spoke with mom. You… I thought you couldn’t fight anymore and I was thinking only I would do it.... but, it seems different.”

「泣き終わったら立てよ。皆で燈矢兄を止めに行こう」

「泣き終わったら ; nakiowattara 」-> when you’re done crying

「立て ; tate 」-> stand up

「よ ; yo 」-> emphasis particle

「皆 ; minna 」-> everyone

「で ; de 」-> with

「燈矢兄 ; touya nii 」-> Touya-Nii

「を ; o 」-> direct object marker

「止めに行こう ; tome ni ikou 」-> let’s go stop

= “When you’re done crying, stand up. Let’s go stop Touya-Nii with everyone.”

Anyway, that concludes the comparison for chapter 302, which took a while to make because, to be honest, this is a very odd chapter. I know people continue to view this as the Todofam intending on saving Dabi, but the problem is simply that the present time scenes don’t really make sense in context with the flashbacks. Endeavor crying for three chapters straight somehow symbolizes that he regrets the past and has changed when in reality, none of them fully understand where everything went wrong and are trying to fix the problem incorrectly. It feels a bit as though they are downplaying what happened and how much Endeavor and Rei are responsible for Dabi’s existence by simply boiling it down to them not knowing what to say to Touya and by having both Fuyumi and Natsuo say they are also responsible without their parents telling them that they were children and thus could not possibly be held responsible the same way.

Personally, I’m glad that the focus seems to be shifting away from this storyline for now because it was really hard to read this chapter with all these weird lines. While I do continue to hope that Dabi will be redeemed and saved by the end of the story, I also still think that Horikoshi isn’t writing this in a good way, considering the contradictions and the constant “good vs. bad victim” mentality that all these characters are constantly voicing paired with the really odd ways characters are acting at the moment (= Rei in chapter 303???). It’s odd they want Endeavor to be involved in this and even weirder that they (in chapter 303) accept Hawks and Best Jeanist wanting to be part of this too, when they all saw the broadcast and thus all saw that Hawks killed Twice, aka Dabi’s friend and someone on the same side as him, which makes it feel like they are either too dumb to realize or simply don’t care that there is a high chance that Hawks is just going to end up killing (or at least trying to) Dabi, too. It’s also odd that Rei is apologizing to both Hawks and Best Jeanist since Dabi hasn’t done anything to Best Jeanist so what’s up with that? Anyway, she better apologize to Dabi too...

Anyway, so right now, the translation differences aren’t so much a problem as the writing in itself is and for now, we will probably have to wait a while to see how this storyline will continue and how exactly they plan on taking care of Dabi. 

Thanks for reading!

[kats-baku1999]

Little Lies

Part One

Part Two

Part Three

Part four

So much angsty shit in this part. Wow. Sorry.

please be cautious there is some VERY SLIGHT mentions of homophobia in this post, if this could be triggering to you in anyway, do not read this okay? take care of yourself <3

(Y/N) and Todoroki agreed they would get pictures at his house before meeting up with their friends. Both sides were nervous, because both sides knew that meant having to meet his family.

Todoroki was not as worried about his brother and sister, or even his brother’s girlfriend. What he was mostly worried about was his father. Things were better between the two of them, but still not perfect. He was still trying to forgive him for things they haven’t spoken about. Like the incident with his mother, or even his estranged older brother.

“Todoroki, you almost look nervous for your girlfriend to show up?” Natsuo smirked at his younger brother, who was currently letting Fuyumi fuss over his tie.

“She isn’t my girlfriend,” Todoroki sighed, rolling his eyes at his brother. After tonight there would be no chance of it ever happening either. Todoroki had tried so hard to stay positive, over trying to convince himself that she would hear him out and forgive him. He didn’t deserve her forgiveness, not in the slightest. 

When there was a knock on the door, both of his older siblings became overly excited. Meanwhile Todoroki did his best to force a smile, trying to remain calm over the idea that this was it. The girl that used to bother him, and annoy him for no reason, was now the girl he was worried about losing. A few short weeks together, and he couldn’t help but admit that she was his peace. Everything that happened in his life, she was the one who made him smile for that. 

That smile faded though when he heard two voices on the other side of the door. He opened it to see his oldest brother, leaning up against the side of the house, smiling at Shoto’s date. They were laughing together. Todoroki’s eyes stayed focused on his date for a second, taking in how absolutely gorgeous she was. He knew he would have to tell her that five hundred times, but right now he couldn’t figure out why Touya was standing on his front porch. 

“Ah baby Shoto!” Touya grinned at his little brother, ruffling his hair. Shoto smacked his hand away, glaring at him.

“You decided to dye your hair back to white I see?” Todoroki glared at him, sending a small smile towards a confused looking (Y/N). 

“Don’t be rude Shoto, let’s get your pretty little girlfriend inside,” Touya pushed back his little brother, heading towards the dining room. (Y/n) stepped inside the front room, staring up at her date. 

“Todoroki, is everything okay?” She smiled, and he felt himself ease up at the sight. He didn’t want to try explaining what was happening. Why this wasn’t just some endearing drop in from an older sibling. How could he tell her all of this now? She was going to hate him by the end of the night.

“Yeah, of course, did your mom not want to come in?” Shoto smiled down at her, gently kissing the top of her head. A blush dusted her cheeks, and she shook her head.

“She had to rush off to work, Touya promised to get pictures of us for her,” She smiled up at him, and caught onto how he instantly tensed back up.

“Yeah, hey Fuyumi set up this whole thing to take pictures in front of, so I am sorry if it is all a little over the top,” Shoto sighed, laughing slightly. His sister insisted that they don’t just take pictures in front of the wall. After all this was the first time she had seen her little brother seem genuinely excited to be with somebody. 

“That is the sweetest thing, at least we will have some nice pictures, Bakugo’s cranky ass will probably ruin the group ones,” (Y/N) laughed, linking her arm with Shoto’s arm. They walked towards the dining room, where everyone was waiting. Except for Shoto’s parents, which (Y/N) quickly became curious about. Touya was leaned back in a chair, his legs propped up against the table, still just smirking at his little brother. His other siblings seemed tense now too, looking at one another. Natsuo smiled at (y/n) brightly, and walked over with Fuyumi to shake her hand.

“We are so excited to meet you!” Fuyumi grinned, shaking the girls hand a little too excitedly, “Shoto has done nothing but talk about you since you two started studying together,”

“Wow, she is a lot prettier than the last one too,” Natsuo smiled at his little brother, who shot him another eye roll, smirking slightly.. The smirk soon turned into a full on grin once he saw the triumphant smile that was on her face thanks to the comment. 

“Where are your parents?” (Y/n) looked over at Shoto, who went stiff for the fifteenth time since he opened the front door. Fuyumi let out an awkward cough, and a nervous laugh.

“Dad got caught up at work, he says to be a perfect gentleman, and I am supposed to send him pictures,” Fuyumi smiled happily, but it quickly turned into a frown once there was hysterical laughter coming from behind her. Touya had his head leaned back, chuckling loudly.

“Oh that’s the act he is following now right?” Touya’s comment made all of the Todoroki siblings tense up this time. Natsuo shot his older brother a dirty look, and shook his head slowly. Touya held up his hands in defense, before making a motion like he was zipping his lips. 

“Well, let’s take some pictures so you two aren’t late to meet your friends!” Fuyumi changed the topic, or at least tried her best to. Touya then stood up from his seat, walking over to Todoroki and (Y/N), smiling at the pair. 

“Why don’t you let your big brother hop in one picture?” Touya smirked, going to stand in front of the back drop that Fuyumi had created. Shoto led (Y/N) over, and made sure to put himself in between the two of them, “Maybe we can print it off to send it to Mom in your next letter Shoto, or are the doctors letting her have a phone now?”

Shoto quickly shot his brother a dirty look. Just as Fuyumi clicked to take the picture, (Y/N) looked over at the pair. She felt a little guilty, she hadn’t known Todoroki’s mother was sick, if she was with doctors?

“Your mom is sick?” (Y/N) frowned, and earned a panicked look from her date. Touya leaned over, shaking his head. His grip was tight around his little brother’s shoulder.

“No, she is probably quite well, but dear old Dad got her locked up after she burned his favorite child’s face,” Touya said it so calmly, but the energy in the room quickly shifted. Even Natsuo’s girlfriend seemed a little shocked, looking over at her boyfriend. (Y/N) looked up at Shoto, staring at his scar. His mom did that to him? The one time they had had a discussion about it, he said that it was an accident.

“Touya,” Fuyumi hissed, looking between her older and younger brother. She was expecting some kind of fight to break out, just like the last time the oldest Todoroki son had come. Shoto smacked his brother’s hand off his shoulder, before grabbing (Y/n)’s hand. She gave a small wave to his siblings, as she was dragged out of the room, and then out of the house. 

Todoroki walked her over to his car, opening the door for her. Of course Touya had to show up just to ruin this. He knew that as soon as Fuyumi had put some status up, with a picture of him getting ready, that the oldest sibling would do everything he could to ruin it. There was always some kind of tension between the pair of them, even before Shoto could understand why. After all Endeavor had practically pitted them against each other, without even intending too. Shoto had tried reaching out to his older brother, but Touya wanted nothing to do with him. Then after Endeavor and Touya’s falling out, there was no hope. 

The car ride was eerily silent, even with the music playing through the speakers. Shoto was gripping the steering wheel, tapping his fingers impatiently at a red light. He was hoping with everything in him that she wouldn’t ask questions, but it was (Y/N) and she worried about people. She was constantly fussing over everybody, like the days Kirishima’s hair has gotten too long and his roots are coming through. She knows he doesn’t want his natural hair to show through, she is quickly asking when they need to go to the store to buy his hair dye. She also has the tendency to ask her friends if they had eaten that day, especially when Bakugo and Midoriya are talking about some stupid lifting competition they want to have with one another. Shoto knew she had no intentions of just leaving this alone, and he was right.

“Are you going to explain any of that to me, or do I need to take a few guesses?” (Y/N) whispered gently, Todoroki could only reply by letting out a small sigh. He pulled into a parking lot of some convenience store. They still had an hour before they had to meet up with the others. 

“Neither of my parents are bad people,” Todoroki whispered looking over at the girl, his voice a little shaken, “My father has made some questionable mistakes, and was negligent towards my mother and my siblings, he was obsessed with becoming the best in his profession,”

“In return, my mother had some issues she had to work through, and she had reached her breaking point, I had caught her in the middle of a breakdown, and she ended up pouring hot water on my face,” Todoroki sighed, reaching up to touch his scar, “I told you once that it was an accident, and it was, but my father still had her admitted to the hospital,”

“She is still there?” (Y/n) questioned, and Todoroki nodded sadly.

“She doesn’t believe that she is ready to leave yet, and still has plenty of healing to do,” Todoroki tried his best to force a smile, “My old man is trying his best too, we have all been talking about possibly doing group sessions together soon, to discuss everything that happened,”

“Shoto, I am so sorry,” (Y/n) frowned, reaching her hand over to grab his shaking ones, “What is the issue with your oldest brother then?”

“What isn’t an issue with him?” Todoroki smiled slightly at her use of his first name, “He was my dad’s pride and joy before I came along, and then for some reason my father fixated on me, and began ignoring him along with my other siblings, it caused some big rift between us all,”

“Then Touya turned nineteen, started dating some guy, and sadly my father was still an absolute asshole at the time, he flipped out on Touya for potentially ruining the family image, and called him some pretty terrible names,” (Y/N)’s jaw fell a little bit, no wonder he seemed so mad. Still though, the way he took it out on Shoto..

“He targets me because he isn’t man enough to target Dad head on yet,” He answered her unasked question, and she just nodded sadly. Trying her best to not look at him with pity, she knew that wasn’t what he wanted right now.

“Thank you for trusting me enough to explain this all to me,” She smiled at him, kissing the back of his hand. He looked her face over a few times, feeling his heart twist up at the fact that she was so sincere. That she cared so much. The one time he tried talking to Momo about this, she completely blew him off about it. Shoto grabbed the sides of her face, pulling her into a kiss. Usually he would do something cheeky, and try and take it to the other level.. This time though, he was soft, gentle, and nothing but passion resonated throughout the kiss. 

His way of telling her thank you for listening to him. 

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“You damn slowpokes you were supposed to be here twenty minutes ago!” Bakugo was standing outside of Kirishima’s yelling at the pair of them as they walked up.. The kiss had inevitably turned into the pair of them making out in the front seat of his car. Todoroki had to force himself to stop though, because he knew where she was trying to take it judging by the fact she had tried climbing on him.. He hated that he had to stop it. 

“We got caught up, stop yelling,” Todoroki smiled at Bakugo as they stepped onto Kirishima’s front porch. Bakugo pointed a finger at a bit of lipstick that Todoroki had forgotten to wipe off his neck.

“Nasty,” He smirked, earning a middle finger from his friend. (Y/N) just laughed, before reaching forward to pull down the collar of his shirt, revealing a few hickey’s along his collarbone.

“So that’s why you call Kirishima Sharky?” (Y/N) smirked, and Bakugo smacked her hand away. His cheeks turning bright red, it was his turn to flip them off. He sulked back inside, yelling to everybody that they had finally arrived. 

Kirishima walked over happily, hugging his best friend, and shaking Todoroki’s hand. Ochaco let out an excited squeal and ran over to the pair, hugging her friends. The only person who seemed off was Midoriya, who would barely look at his two best friends. He was gentle when hugging (Y/N), shooting Todoroki a knowing look. Todoroki frowned, nodding his head. Trying to let his friend know that he knew what he needed to do. The rest of the time they were taking pictures felt forced, and everyone could feel the obvious tension between the “Three Musketeers”. 

When they finally arrived at the dance, it only took a few songs before (Y/n) had Todoroki dancing. He hated it a little bit, but he enjoyed watching her smile.

 Finally a slow song came on, and he couldn’t help but grin. It was a little embarrassing to admit, but he had been waiting to sway with her to some slow song. He wasn’t even sure what the song was, he just pulled his date in by her hips. Smiling brightly when her face instantly began to blush, but she was quick to connect her hands on the back of his neck. Her eyes darted around the room, embarrassed to make eye contact. Todoroki didn’t like that, so he placed his forehead against hers, gaining her full attention. When he pulled back a little bit he took in the entire moment, watching how her (y/e/c) eyes scanned his entire face. 

“I am happy I agreed to tutor you,” (Y/n) whispered quietly, and the taller boy nodded his head slowly.

“I am happy I asked you to tutor me,” He whispered back, leaning down to kiss her gently. (Y/n) grabbed a few pieces of his hair at the bottom of his neck, pulling herself more into him. Todoroki broke away a little too soon for her liking, once again telling himself he had to stop before it went too far.

“I want to do this, you know that right?” She smirked up at him, and he just nodded his head. The song ended, and he needed to get away from this situation. The guilt began to fill his entire body.

“I am going to grab some punch, I will be right back okay?” Todoroki quickly walked away, towards the refreshment table. Kirishima was watching the pair of them, and kissed Bakugo’s cheek before going to dance with his best friend. 

Todoroki watched Kirishima dramatically swing her arms around as they bounced to the song blaring through the speakers. Then everything began to move in slow motion. Kaminari had walked up the pair of them, smiling at them both. Then he began talking, and the two of them stopped smiling. He continued talking and Kirishima shot a look Todoroki's direction and then towards his boyfriend. (Y/n)’s entire body seemed to go ridgid, and she slowly turned to look at Todoroki. He dropped his cup when they made eye contact, her eyes beginning to fill with tears. 

Kirishima dragged her away from the crowds of people. Bakugo looked towards Todoroki and they followed after the pair of them. Ochaco and Midoriya had been watching the entire scene, and they followed close behind. Todoroki was practically running through the halls, and found Kirishima and (Y/N) in the parking lot. Kirishima was helping her into his car. When he saw the group walking towards him he quickly walked up to Todoroki, and shoved him back.

“You piece of shit,” Kirishima screamed, and (Y/n) climbed out of the passenger seat of the car and walked up to the scene. Bakugo put his hand on his boyfriend’s chest, trying to stop him from going after Todoroki again.

“E, please don’t do this,” Kirishima smacked Bakugo’s hand off of him.

“You had something to do with this too!” Kirishima shouted, getting in Bakugo’s face, “Do you want to explain this fucking bet you had with him about MY friend?!” 

Bakugo looked terrified. Usually he wouldn’t let anybody talk to him in that way, but he couldn’t even process what was happening. Kirishima had never yelled at him before. 

“Kirishima can we please just go,” (Y/n) finally spoke up, her voice shaking. Todoroki looked back towards her, his heart breaking at the look on her face.

“(Y/N) please, just let me explain,” Todoroki pleaded, stepping forward. She looked back towards him, and shook her head.

“I don’t want to hear about your bet,” She whispered, her voice cracking completely, “You are exactly who I thought you were,”

“No, look listen, when Bakugo and I made that bet I never expected that you would actually be this way, I saw you as some annoying girl who hated me,” Todoroki was frantic trying to explain himself, “Now you’re somebody I can trust, somebody I want around, please I wouldn’t have told you the things I did on the way here if that weren’t the honest truth,”

“You are a liar!” She shouted, tears finally falling down her face. Midoriya rushed over to her, pulling her into a hug. Ochaco was confused by the entire scene, going to the other side of her boyfriend. Kirishima and Bakugo were staring at one another, Bakugo’s mouth cracking open slightly to begin speaking.

“Save it, you knew how much she meant to me, you knew who she was and you still let your best pal use her as some kind of game,” Kirishima growled, “I am done, with both of you.”

(Y/N) looked at Todoroki, tears still streaming down her face. Todoroki couldn’t do anything but stare back at her. Trying to find any of the words to say. (Y/n) shook her head slowly, and turned around to walk to the car. All he wanted to do was scream for her, yell anything to get her to stop. There was nothing he could say though, he had hurt her. This was the outcome he had deserved, and he should have seen it coming.

 After all, he was his father’s child.

[bbq-hawks-wings]

Hawks doesn't realize he's been adopted. He doesn't have experience w/many people actually caring about him for him. So he thinks their just being nice since he's helping. That letting him crash at their place when he accidentally fell asleep was their way of saying thanks. Maybe their just inviting him to dinner out of politeness. Their world is falling apart right now & it is hard to stay strong so it's only natural they'd be happy to have an extra hand. He dismisses it because it's not

important. After awhile Hawks starts to think maybe he's over staying his welcome & feels guilty. Somehow he forgot that he was just a guest & started to feel like he belonged there. Not wanting to be selfish Hawks starts to make excuses to stay away & give the family proper respect. Enji keeps bringing him there or the other house after work where 1 or more of the family are. They keep trying to hint that they want him to stay but it's hard for him to accept that anyone want him.

Someone help me articulate how much I love this!!!!!!

At a time where the Todoroki family is doing their best not to crumble, collapse in on, and lash out at each other fighting their own individual demons in their determination to band together and heal, they had no idea how much Hawks just being there helped them in ways that seem too well and tailor-made to each of them to be true.

For Fuyumi, she has to practically break his fingers to get him to stop helping her with the house when he's over. He memorized how she likes her tea after the second visit, sends over treats with an encouraging note at random, neatly stacks her lesson plans on her desk when she gets caught up with dinner, and for once she feels taken care of instead of being the caretaker.

Natsuo gains someone who can just shoot the breeze and let him vent about anything and everything from being overworked, to the family mess, to feeling like he doesn't stack up or do enough - he even gets that fabled "guy talk" which is just genuine nonsense mixed with deep philosophy into the wee hours of the morning he's always heard about but never had a safe enough relationship with which to be comfortable to have it. All of it gets validated with just a few words that gives him the impression Hawks has seen some shit himself, but he never makes it about him. For the first time Natsuo feels seen and heard.

Shouto is used to hard work - he's been training himself to the bone his entire life. However, he's only recently started doing so for himself, and he's never had a teacher that so easily makes that easy and clear. Hawks is more than capable of pushing him until he collapses, but he's good at knowing his limits and stopping before then, spotting his mistakes, capitalizing on every opportunity for coaching, encouraging him on every improvement, and most importantly listening to him and what he wants to be as a hero and specially catering his training in that direction. Shouto's never known what it's like to have someone who feels both like a teacher he can look up to and want to emulate and a peer whose company is not solely for training.

Rei has spent the last 10 years battling the memories, nightmares, and overwhelming guilt at not doing more or being able to help her children. Watching them all have to struggle without her and not being able to even have the strength to stand up for herself until they're practically grown crushed her heart to pieces - especially since she's lost her first forever. In many ways he's so much like him - the bright smile, expressive demeanor, and a clear admiration for Enji. For a while it's hard to look at. That is, until the others leave the room and Hawks addresses her by name and looks her in the eye with kindness and a smile. He encourages and lifts up her and her other children and is nothing but helpful to all of them; but when he thinks she isn't looking she catches the tiredness in his eyes. She catches the feelings of guilt and inadequacy in him that she's all too familiar with herself. And suddenly, she feels like maybe it isn't too late for her to do something to help, after all.

Endeavor has been systematically picked apart, rifled through, and crushed as a person over his entire life. He's never been satisfied when he looked in the mirror, and the events as of late have been worse than ever. He can't escape the image of that monster he was to his family that crushed his children, drove his wife to madness, and destroyed any and all hope he had to at least bask in the presence of his precious, oldest son. He knows he has no one else to blame but himself, but that doesn't make living with the reality any easier. The world as a whole is right to throw him aside. But Hawks never does. Time and time again the boy sought him out, lifted him up, and stood by him. Even when the corrupted ghost of Touya Endeavor had twisted with his own hands decided to drag Hawks through the mud with him as if he was anywhere close to the same level of depraved, Hawks is the first one to jump to his feet and reach deep into that bog of despair and pull him out - anticipating he might even have to do it alone. For the first time since he can remember, someone has told him he wasn't a failure and he might actually be able to believe him.

Hawks has no idea that he is in virtually every sense of the word the Todoroki Family's personal guardian angel. They only wish they knew how to tell him.

[broken-blue-heart]

Yknow what I've been thinking about the past few days ever since seeing the loads of tumbler posts about the recent chapter 301 of BNHA?

It's that while, everything everyone says about how the Todoroki's couldve been better parents and found a righter way to raise Touya is very valid... but...

People need to remember that they were also first time parents.

I'm in no way excusing their actions and words, and I'm not defending them from the critique, but I'm also not actively against them either for how Touya turned out.

First time parents aren't perfect. They have no way to tell if their actions/words will have a positive or negative effect on their child and interfere with the way they grow up. That's why parents with more than one kid, tend to get the idea and learn from their mistakes after dealing with the first one.

And we don't even know that much about the Himura's or Todoroki's families, so Enji and Rei could have very well been raised in a single child homes. They wouldn't have known the effects of having and raising their own child from simply their own single experiences, and most new parents don't tend to ask other people or their families about tips or help on children unless they're genuinely stumped or in a desperate situation. And families with single children tend to spoil them, since they essentially don't have to share anything and can keep their entire focus on that one child.

They didn't have any experience with children when they raised Touya. And really, they were doing an ok job at it, just up until Enji encouraged Touya's obsession of being a hero, essentially spoiling him with words and praises, and the way he had forcefully stopped the training that Touya had wanted and genuinely enjoyed without much explanation on why.

Rei's idealogy of wanting siblings to support each other isn't a bad thing either, and they did manage to raise Fuyumi and Natsuo just fine and Touya got along well with them, but obviously letting the eldest know that they were looking to replace or get a better child over them wouldn't lead to great things and can cause serious problems mentally and emotionally in a child as small and vulnerable as Touya.

When Shoto was born, that wouldve been the breaking point for Touya, but because Rei and Enji were still so new to parenting and Touya being the eldest, they didn't expect their relationship to be any different than what the oldest three have together.

They had spoiled Touya in his quest to become a hero and inherit his father's legacy, and then had roughly pulled that dream from out under his feet, giving all that attention to another instead of him.

Parents aren't perfect, especially first time parents. So when Rei and Enji realized their mistake when Touya went to attack Shoto, they did something about it in the way they raised their next child to prevent anything like that from happening again, hence Rei showing Shoto videos of All Might and teaching him the proper lessons on being kind.

The were first time parents who spoiled their only child, they wouldn't have known that somewhere down the line that same child that they loved would commit an action that they never taught. They wouldn't have known what specific life lessons they were supposed to teach, in order to make sure their child grew up with the right mindset. They simply did their best to raise him with love and affection, but even the most innocent and benevolent of actions can have dire consequences if not done correctly.

Children are very fickle and dangerous things. You have to be aware of every little thing you do in order to make sure that they grow up ok and prevent any future damage to their psyche and those around them.

They did their best with their circumstances and lack of information on how to raise a first time child.

So those of you who say that with how Shoto grew up perfectly fine despite everything that happened to him and should have applied those actions to Touya, then you either haven't been around children for long, or you have never raised one. Cause you literally never know what might happen when raising a child, especially your very first one.

Who's to say that if they did raise Touya with lessons of kindness, that he'll even come out of it with compassion just like Shoto? That's the thing- you never know. Every child is different, and even if they show no outward signs that they're suffering, that doesn't mean that they won't have their breaking point. Touya simply had his breaking point after everything his psyche had gone through, and his parents simply didn't predict it with their lack of experience.

And as a middle child who studied psychology myself, coming from a very large and dysfunctional family mostly comprised of children smaller than 10 years old, I know just how well and bad certain actions can be for a child's psyche, no matter how small or big, insignificant or significant, lovingly or unloving.

But yea... that's about it for my rant. Just wanted to get thru to ppl that parents arent perfect, uncles, aunts, cousins, and siblings arent perfect, no matter the intentions meant by everyone involved.

[1-800-sunset]

Rei was the goddess of ice and snow. With great peace and beauty she painted towns with a gentle snow in winter. She was a beloved goddess to many people and towns with temples built in her honor and celebrations. However when she was forcefully married Enji the god of fire. He wanted her to bear his children so that they could become powerful gods, and her titan parents wanted to tie her down so that she may not realize how powerful she could be. After her marriage, her winters were harsh and unforgiving. Rei was treated terribly by her husband and wept for her children that were forced to train their powers too young and when they couldn’t do what their father wanted he punished them. 

Touya was the oldest and he had inherited his father’s red hair and turquoise eyes, but his fire was brighter and hotter than his father’s. However he was stubborn and resented his father, leaving him to be banished from the pantheon as a lone god of chaos flames and cremation; hair turning a charcoal black. Fuyumi was her second oldest, with hair as white as Rei’s but steaks of red from her father and eyes a gentle grey. She had inherited Rei’s ability to frost the trees and grass but because she held some of her father’s heat she could not command the ice as well as her mother. Natsou, her third oldest, shared her white hair and grey eyes as well. Natsou created such beautifully made snowflakes, each one unique. He held the same resentment towards his father as Touya but after the banishment of Touya distanced himself from the pantheon but never gave up his role. Now her youngest Shoto had split hair red on the right side and white on the left. His eyes were heterochromatic as well with one grey eye and one blue eye. He was the one who had inherited both his parents abilities. With his left he could command the ice and snow as well as his mother and with his right he could control flames. He was the most powerful of her children.She was forbidden to see them during their time of training. Which only fueled her anguish and fed her winters.

 She was stuck in a loveless marriage and missed her children growing up. But she didn’t notice that her winters were wiping out crops that people need and temperatures were always so cold. Many people died because there was no warmth  to keep them alive. The people did not know what to do and believed they had done something to upset the goddess of snow. It was until a village decided that perhaps a virgin sacrifice would please her to end the harsh cold that has already taken too many souls. So they raised a young man with beautiful red wings that was given the title Hawks to be that sacrifice for the goddess. It was on his 23rd birthday that the time came. His birthday was on the 28th of December which was towards the end of the first month of winter. They took him to a pristine white quartz temple which was built in the snow goddesses honor. Rei was aware that there was a presence in one of her temples and decided to check in and watch from afar. It has been awhile since she had anyone come visit her temple. There was a circle of sigils and offerings with a young man in the middle and a cloaked person standing over him chanting with a dagger in their hand.

The young man looked like he was the child of the sun. Hair and eyes both shining gold, beautiful scarlet wings draped behind him, not to mention his eyes had the markings of a bird. Although Rei thrived in the night and was her sacred time of the day, she could see his beauty. The morning and sun were too intense and blinding for her, but this child of the sun radiated a gentle warmth. The same warmth she received from her children. But his eyes were not filled with that Same warmth; they looked sad as if someone had stolen his sunlight and pocketed. 

He was sporting white silk robes with a gold trim falling down his shoulders revealing sunkissed tan skin; those were traditional robes for a Virgin Sacrifice. A crown of Rindou flowers on his head. The Rindou were her sacred flower indicating this sacrifice was for her. She couldn’t let this man die because of her. It was unfair to end this man’s life who hasn’t wronged her in any way. It was her fault that the humans believed they had wronged her. She had to intervene. Enji had once told her that she was a weak woman with a bleeding heart. But she would no longer listen to that man. Rei was going to take back her own life.

Before the dagger was swung down ready to pierce the heart of the young man, she turned it into a pure white dove. With a strong yet soft voice she commanded the group to leave  the temple and let the man stay with her. Once it was just the blond she emerged from a pale blue glow, she was tall and in long elegant dark blue robes with beautiful white snowflakes dancing around her. The man’s golden eyes widened in shock and bowed before her.

“Please forgive me, my child. It was my fault that your people thought they needed to sacrifice your life for the sake of survival. I will give you the freedom that was taken from you, you are to do as you wish from now on.”

“My goddess before I was taken by the mages my family worshipped your husband the god of fire but I have been raised to worship you. You are my patron goddess. Although I am grateful that you granted me freedom I wish to become your servant. I have nothing left for me here. I might as well do something for you”

Rei wasn’t expecting for the young man to look at her with such a warm gaze. She thought he should be angry with her for almost costing him his life. But here he was offering to be by her side. It’s been such a long time since someone had said she was their patron goddess. Most people have decided to worship Shoto if it came to offerings to the cold. Rei sees that this man has suffered but she could not bring the mortal with her to the Pantheon as much as she wanted to. They didn’t allow mortals to live there only divine entities. Immortality is possible to gain but usually one who has to do a great heroic deed or marry a deity. However she did have an idea to keep him close to her.

“My dove, I can not take you with me. But if you so desire to continue to be of my own I know where to take you. I will make sure that he will take good care of you. But the road is long and you will get tired. The decision is yours.”

“My goddess I would do anything for you. I accept the journey.”

“What is your name, my dove?” 

“Keigo is my name.”

“Rise Keigo for we have a long journey ahead of us. I will guide you.”

That winter was like the ones she had brought before her marriage, with snow falling slowly down from the heavens. From afar she knew Natsuo was creating snow flakes and sending them her way. She felt Fuyumi gently frost grass and trees while Shoto helped create icicles on the branches. Rei knew that Touya must be watching the winter from his home. She knew he always loved the cold. She felt a great deal of offerings of gratitude that winter. 

Rei had Keigo by her side and learned a great deal about him, enough to learn he had a great deal of hardships. She could say that she had become rather fond of him, Rei knew it was going to be hard to say goodbye to the little dove when the time came. She just hoped that her plan would work, she glanced to her side where Keigo had been sitting staring off at the frozen lake. Snow flakes were lightly dusting red feathers but Keigo was unbothered. After all she had blessed him with the gift to withstand the cold and to be able to lower his temperature to keep cool in the heat. Where he was going he was going to need this gift. 

By the time spring was around the corner when they reached their destination. The obsidian temple, were there was torches lit with blue flames. Only Rei and Natsou knew of the hidden temple and of who lives there. Keigo walked the steps behind her, white robes pristine after last night’s washing. The top was part was still fell around his shoulders and a single Rindou was tucked behind his ear. When they entered the main room the slam of the door echoed. Hopefully alerting the owner that he now had guests. A pillar of blue fire erupted from the ground, before a familiar tall man with turquoise eyes and black hair stepped out. She heard wings ruffle behind her.

“Mom?”

“Touya!” She replied before reaching out to hug Touya who looked confused and accepted her hug.

Then he noticed that there was someone else here, Rei pulled away and gently grabbed the blond to pull him closer. Touya scanned the man before him, he was pretty short compared to the two gods. His eyes trail to the blond’s exposed shoulders and collar bones, before graviting to meet the gaze of honey like eyes. Touya would admit he was rather lovely but the real question was who was he and why did his mom bring him here to his temple.

“Touya I know I probably have no right to ask this of you but I do need your help. You see Keigo was going to be sacrificed because of me, and I couldn't just let him die so I stepped in. Now he is one of my own but you know I can’t bring mortals to the Pantheon. So I was wondering if he can stay here year round but I take him for the winter months?”

Touya was going to say no but he knew he couldn’t turn down his mother’s request. He saw how beautiful this winter was and knew Keigo probably had something to do about it. Plus it wouldn’t hurt to have someone around the temple right? Especially someone as pretty as this man. 

“Fine. He can stay here. I assume you already blessed him to be able to handle the heat. Or else he would have burned to a crisp by now.”

Wings fluttered from the imagery, heh, how cute. Rei pressed a cold peck on top of windswept blond locks, tears slightly pricking her eyes. Her heart ached but knew she would be back. 

“I will come back for you, Keigo. You and I will spread the winter when the time comes. Please protect him, Touya. Goodbye my little dove.” She said walking away 

towards the door.

“Guess you have changed mom.”

Rei looked over her shoulder with an amused smile.

“Yes it seems I have.”

After Rei left there was an awkward silence between Keigo and Touya. Touya decided to lead Hawks to a spare room he had. The room itself was far from his own on the other side of the temple. Keigo felt slightly nervous and felt his wings slightly flutter. He knew Touya wouldn’t hurt him, he trusts Rei’s judgment. If she thought this was for the best then he was going to believe her. Touya brought him to a spacious room with a high ceiling and candle chandelier. There was pretty dark furniture and a dimly lit fireplace. The bed was bigger than any Keigo has ever seen, and looked like the sheets were made from a black silk and a sheer light blue canopy. The room looked luxurious and way better than any room the mages have ever given him. He thanked Touya with a gentle smile taking Touya’s breath away. How could one mortal’s beauty rival that of a deity? Touya knew then that he was going to make sure that this mortal would be protected and live comfortably. Later that day he brought the blond a variety of beautiful and high quality robes to replace the one he was wearing.

Touya invites the blond to eat all their meals together in the dining room every day. He tells Keigo that he could go anywhere in the temple, no part is off limits. Keigo rather enjoyed this freedom and wanted to explore as much as he could. Until he stumbled upon a library filled with scrolls and books. So many stories that Keigo has never even heard of. Sometimes Touya would be in the library and the two would talk about anything and everything. There were times they spent almost the entire day talking. Touya learned more about Keigo and how he ended up being saved by his mom. The way Keigo Talked about his mom made his heart clenched and he was glad that she was able to step in and save him. They opened up to each other enough to share past traumas. Keigo eventually wanted to make the temple feel more at home and asked if he could decorate. And Touya lets him do as he wishes, he doesn’t think he could ever deny the blond anything. If Keigo asked him for anything he would bring on a golden platter. The temple wasn’t as big or alone as it used to feel. As the seasons passed their own feelings grew.

With the months passing by, Rei never forgot her promise to Keigo. At the Pantheon, she had stopped letting Enji talk down to her and didn’t let him hurt her. She was more than happy to send cold gusts at him to put out his stupid flame beard or make ice barriers between them. Her children were happy to see this change in her and asked what had happened this winter. She couldn’t tell them just yet. Rei hoped that things were going alright between Touya and Keigo. Before this winter she was always worried about how lonely it must be for Touya to live alone. She just hopes that they were getting along. Maybe something would come out of it, after all the way Touya looked at Keigo did not go unnoticed. 

When it was time she made her way to the Obsidian temple ready to see her son and her dove. She entered the main chamber and saw there was definitely more light pooling in with the curtains pulled back. Oddly enough there were Rindou flowers in vases everywhere. The place looked so much more lively. Touya and Keigo walked down the staircase to meet with her.  Keigo no longer had the white robes, but instead they were a shiny gold with a black sash around his waist. The top still opened, he must just really like wearing them that way. He looked happy and well taken care of. Not that she doubted Touya, he  himself looked content. Before they parted she couldn’t help but notice the pained expression in Touya’s eyes. So there was something going on like she suspected. 

During the winter months, Rei learned of the kindness her son showed Keigo. How he allowed him to decorate the temple and do as he pleased. They ate together peacefully at the dinner table. The two have gotten very close, Keigo confided in her that he indeed had feelings for Touya. He thought she was going to be mad at him but instead she chuckled and stroked his hair. She was truly happy for them. The two travelled the land together again and spread a quiet winter wonderland. The frozen lands looked so serene and magical that it was almost hard to believe that there were ever harsh snow storms. When returning Keigo back to Touya’s care she saw the utter relief and happiness cross Touya’s blue eyes and Keigo’s smile so warm with joy. Rei knew that the two of them would be fine, it wasn’t long before the two entered a relationship in the spring. 

The next year before it was time for Keigo to join Rei for the winter, Touya asked his mother for Keigo’s hand in marriage. As Keigo is a devotee to his mother, he belongs to her. She gives him her blessing to marry him after the winter on the condition that he would continue to come with her for the winter. Touya agreed to terms and when they returned he wasted no time in asking the blond to marry him. Keigo was surprised but accepted as tears welled in his eyes. Touya was incredibly happy and took the bird by the waist and spun him around. 

The two got married in the Spring and invited Touya’s siblings, Rei, and a very small group of gods. That was the day Keigo gained immortality, and his godly glow was a soft gold.  He was wearing a Garland of red flowers upon his head and robes were golden with patterns of red and black birds. His wings shone brightly in his golden glow. While Touya wore a blue robe with the color matching his flames, gold and black thread embroidered a pattern similar to fire along the bottom of his robes and the end of his sleeves. Although Keigo did grow slightly taller both Rei and Touya still had more inches than him. Their marriage marked the day that the two would spend their immortality together. They would never know sadness or loneliness ever again, after all they had each other.

(Honestly I just wanted to write Rei being like a mom to Keigo and then my mind went to a gods au. Then I thought to add a little Dabihawks and accidentally made them have a little bit of Hades and Persephone love story. Hope you enjoyed.)

[victory-red]

why tōya being the oldest todoroki sibling makes no (or very little) sense.

Warning: Manga spoilers. Long post ahead - big paragraphs, lots of reading, and at least one (1) rabbit trail.

So I know this is old news, but I’ve been meaning to make a post about it for a little while now. I know a lot of people already headcanoned that Tōya was the oldest Todoroki sibling even before it was officially confirmed, but it just never really made sense to me, particularly in regard to Enji’s timeline. And then, after Chapter 291 came out, it made even less sense.

(A couple of quick disclaimers, before I continue: I’m not trying to pass anything off as fact. My conclusions are simply opinions based on observations I’ve made. I’ll also note that there are definitely gaps in what information we do officially have, so there is still a chance that what seems to me like a fairly significant plothole will eventually be explained.)

I’ll start with Enji - more specifically, his current confirmed age in relation to Fuyumi’s, who is the oldest Todoroki sibling whose age we do officially know. As of the current manga arc, Enji is 46 years old, and Fuyumi is 23. Since Enji’s birthday is in early August and Fuyumi’s in early December, that means that Enji was a little over 23 years old when he and Rei had Fuyumi.

From what we know of Enji’s history and personality, that seems like a reasonable age for him to have started having kids. He said in Ch. 165 that he became Number Two at age 20, at which point he immediately realized that he wasn’t ever going to be able to surpass All Might on his own. He said that it was because of this realization that he passed the torch (no pun intended) to Shōto. But, Shōto wouldn’t be born until a decade later. So, it makes sense to me that this would be the point that Enji decided it would be best to instead try having a child that could surpass All Might. In other words, it makes sense that this would be the catalyst that led to Shōto’s birth.

The most recent information we got regarding Enji and Rei’s relationship in Ch. 291 seems to be just a bit conflicting with how Shōto had described things back in Ch. 31 - unlike Shōto’s account, Ch. 291 sort of implied that Enji did care for Rei to some capacity, at least early in their marriage. (How he’s been portrayed in flashbacks recently is actually very conflicting with flashbacks from earlier chapters, and even with his entire personality in earlier chapters. But I won’t get into that - we’ll just make the assumption that Shōto’s story was biased, because it probably was.)

Since he essentially bought Rei’s family off, it only makes sense that he would have to grow to care for her over a period of time - you know, maybe like a year or two. I’m not sure how long the entire Quirk Marriage process took, but factoring in the 9 or so months Rei had to carry Fuyumi before she was born, it makes sense that after Enji’s realization upon attaining the Number Two title, the entire process of creating the plan of having hyper-powerful children, finding a suitable partner, buying her family off, marrying her, and having their first child would take anywhere between two to three years. That would mean that he was 20 when the process started, 22 when Rei got pregnant, and 23 when Fuyumi was born. Boom.

(Frankly, even that timeframe seems a bit compressed to me, but since Enji’s and Fuyumi’s ages are both canonically set in stone, I have no choice but to work with it.)

Tōya canonically being older than Fuyumi begins to screw a lot with the timeline - especially taking into consideration what the implied age gap between them is. I unfortunately can’t find where (or if) this is explicitly stated in the manga, but the wiki says that most Quirks develop around the age of 4. Now, it’s entirely possible that Tōya was born with his Quirk, but given Rei’s constitution, I highly suspect that there would have been severe complications with both her pregnancy and Tōya’s birth. It also makes sense that if he had developed his Quirk at an exceptionally young age, there would have been some note made of it. But since neither of those things are mentioned to have happened, we’ll just assume he was between 3 and 4½ years old when his Quirk manifested.

I don’t know how long afterward it took for Enji and Rei to decide to have another baby, but I can’t imagine that the decision took any longer than several months. I’ll be conservative and say that they decided no longer than a few months after Tōya’s Quirk developed, because remember - Enji literally, canonically cannot be any older than 23 when Fuyumi was born. Jumping 9 months forward from that time, Tōya would most likely have been between 4 and 5 years old when Fuyumi was born.

Now I will note that in the top panel, Tōya looks to me to be between 4 and 6 years old, which was presented as being before Fuyumi’s birth. But in the lower one, where he’s crawling over to look at baby Fuyumi (or at least I think that’s what’s happening? It’s a bit dark to tell for certain), he looks a lot younger - in fact, he doesn’t even look to have the white streak in his hair yet. But given how it’s explained that Enji and Rei even came to the decision to have Fuyumi at all, it doesn’t make a whole lot of sense contextually. But, I’ll let it be and just assume that the manga didn’t present those panels chronologically. It could also be the zoomed-out view that makes Tōya seem smaller. Either way, I’m overanalyzing, and that’s sort of off-topic, anyway.

Okay, I think that’s all the setup I need to finally get to the meat of my argument, which I will start with this: If Tōya is anywhere between 4 and 5 years older than Fuyumi, that means that Enji was anywhere between 18 and 19 years old when Tōya was born.

In any other situation, that might make sense, but here’s the thing: it’s already been established, or at least very heavily implied, that Enji didn’t even consider the possibility of having children to surpass All Might until he attained his Number Two status, which as I’ve already mentioned happened when he was 20. Even if Tōya was only 3 years older than Fuyumi, which doesn’t make much sense because he would then have had to develop his Quirk at age 2 or younger, that still would mean that he was conceived before Enji even became Number Two.

If that doesn’t make sense to you, think of it this way: If Enji was between 18 and 20 years old when Tōya was born, that would mean that Tōya would have been conceived when Enji was 17 at the youngest - still a student, unless he graduated early. Regardless, that also implies he would have had to create his elaborate plan to beat All Might, as well as find and marry Rei, before he even graduated secondary school. Given what information we have from canon, that just does not make any semblance of sense.

As compelling that argument alone may or may not be, there are others to support it as well. Let’s consider what that implies for the age gaps between Tōya and the other Todoroki siblings. If he’s 3-5 years older than Fuyumi, that means he’s roughly 7-9 years older than Natsuo and 10-12 years older than Shōto. That would mean, if Shōto were between 5 and 6 years old in the following panels, Tōya would be anywhere between 15 and 18 years old. Fuyumi would be between 10 and 13, and Natsuo would be between 8 and 11.

While I understand that Tōya inherited Rei’s slight constitution, puberty usually begins for boys around 12 or 13 years old (although to my understanding it often starts later in Asian boys), so Tōya would likely have already begun to go through his growth spurt by this age. Even assuming that Natsuo had started going through his own growth spurt, Tōya still has 7-9 years on him - so the chances that Natsuo had this much height and mass on him are pretty slim. I might be able to buy Tōya being 15 years old in those panels, but I find even that a bit of a stretch.

And finally, let’s talk about how old Tōya was when he “died.”

Assuming that the second panel is the most recent (halfway decent) photo the Todorokis have of Tōya before his “death,” I’m inclined to agree with the people who have pointed out that his clothes resembled a junior high school uniform, similar to what Midoriya and Bakugō were seen wearing in the story’s earliest chapters and episodes. Junior high school in Japan is attended by students between the ages of 12 and 15, roughly - so it’s safe to assume that Tōya was no older than 15 years old when he “died.” However, I will note that given how Horikoshi draws most of the 15-year-old male characters in the story, he does look younger than that to me. I am keeping in mind that Tōya was mentioned to have had a slight build - even as Dabi, he still does - so there is the possibility that my conclusions there aren’t accurate.

If Tōya was 12 when he “died,” Shōto would probably not have any memories of him at all - at the time of his “death,” he would have been anywhere between 2 years old and a newborn. It’s implied in the manga and the anime that Tōya disappeared sometime after Rei burned Shōto’s face, which undoubtedly happened after Enji had begun to train him - so, likely well after he had turned 5. In the somewhat unlikely event that his face was burned while he was still 5 years old, Tōya would have been between 15 and 18 years old, as mentioned above. If it had happened when Shōto was 7, he would have been between 17 and 20, and so on. Going with the junior high school uniform theory, which honestly seems rather plausible, he essentially cannot have “died” after age 15 - so, more than likely, he would have been gone before Shōto even began his training. Obviously, this is disproven by the soccer panel in Ch. 39.

Honestly, I don’t know how else to say it - no matter how I angle it, it just does not make sense to me, canonically, that Tōya is the eldest Todoroki sibling. There’s a lot of information stacked up against it, and though I’ve mulled over it for a bit now, I can’t actually think of a scenario in which it actually is a logical conclusion.

TL;DR: Tōya being the oldest Todoroki doesn’t make sense in light of information we have regarding Enji’s timeline as well as previous images we’ve seen in the manga and anime.