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evercelle · 6 months ago

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2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

#ever makes art #i bsky tweeted a bit but it feels weird talking there still so ill do my usual rambling into tags here :)c #i burned out super bad in the middle of this year for months where it felt like i couldnt draw anything good no matter how hard i tried #and the harder i tried the worst it felt - to the degree that i legitimately thought i wasnt going to be able to draw anything again #which sounds SO dramatic i know i know. but feelings arent always rational!!! and so many others things were going wrong at the same time #so it was strange putting together this year's art summary and realizing Huh. i did still have paintings to put in every space #that fear/anxiety spiral seems even sillier and more meaningless now that i have distance and proof of how irrational it was...#...but in reflection i'd like to think of it as proof that even when you feel at your worse it's worth it to keep trying...!!#after the Black Hole of Nothing i've been working every day on never ending doujin and xv anthology and orv sketchzine and merch #i can't say that i feel my artistic skills have like. improved or anything... but the passion i feel for the stories i read and #the stories i want to tell is still there!! and the happiness from getting to put form to those feelings large or small is worth it too #anyway......... lotta words to say tho i haven't posted much anymore and socmed is imploding and the world is dark #thank you very much for staying with me another year. i am - as ever - always grateful

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by-saiyuri · 7 months ago

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really quick doodles because xie lian's second flashback was a glorious depression galore holy heavens

#tgcf #doodle #xie lian #hua cheng #every time I think “it can't get worse” and guess what happens next chapter #and I'm like “HOW DOES IT GET WORSE”#xie lian my poor man

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badninken · 7 months ago

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I'm telling Kakashi that you abandoned him /t

I do not respond well to attempts to guilt me. It doesn't matter if it's a joke or not. Don't give me that shit, it will backfire immediately.

I'm still feeling spiteful against the anon who tried to guilt me after drawing Kakashi and Zabuza kissing by reminding me that I've never drawn Kakashi and Obito doing that. Guess what I still don't feel like drawing?

This is my blog. I post about the things that bring me joy right now, because it's for me. I know that a lot of people who follow me won't be interested when I stray from the usual and it's unfortunate if I clutter someone's dash with stuff they don't want to see but you can filter the tag or unfollow. I won't hold that against anyone.

Just don't make comments like that, it makes my fucking skin crawl.

#i had a boyfriend once who liked to make little jokes about i abandoned him #every time i did anything that didn't involve him #and then it stopped being jokes #and it got really bad #and I get the instinct to explain that I've spent nearly every day these past weeks painting Kakashi #only that it's stuff I can't post because it's secret #because I feel guilty already. enough to stop myself from posting about things I don't think others will like #even though it's my fucking blog #so I don't need your shitty guilt jokes to make it worse. go away

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a-vibing-potato · 22 days ago

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I have ONE (1!) more episode without Cas until I GET TO SEE MY BOY AGAIN. MARTHA SWEETIE I'M COMING HOME. I WATCHED 7X15 TODAY, HOPEFULLY I'LL WATCH 7X16 TOMORROW OR FRIDAY (I have work tomorrow :( so we'll see if I get to watch any) but if I watch 7x16 on Friday I could also watch 7x17!!! He's here, he's queer, I love him, and he'll be back <3

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thatoldbooksmellsstuff · 11 months ago

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@anotheroceanid This is for shattering my heart in chapter 5 🤩

#wthb #wthb fic #KILLED ME AGAIN #EVERY TIME I THINK “oh this can't get worse”#MISS OCEAN GOES “sure babe”#AND IT'S 😭 WORSE 😭

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unionizedwizard · 1 year ago

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funniest thing ive learned (and that's coming from someone who had debilitating perfectionist tendencies) is that making your own mistakes is actually thrilling and really fun because it really feels like gaining xp and leveling up but irl. like ah shit i see. well i'll know that's a soak marker next time kinda deal

#it's like. making your own mistakes and then examining where you went wrong and the mechanism of it is THE ultimate personalized lesson plan #a mistake is an opportunity to really understand for yourself the framework / laws of the art in question #if you get it right every time / from the very beginning then you learn Nothing #you just exist. like a fish in water. you don't really understand the rules and the reasons for anything #this is why i ended up being happy i (-gets sniped before finishing the sentence)#not to sound like an annoying therapist-adjacent but mistakes and the ability to make them for yourself really are a gift #also it does not have to be Painful like i think the thing i learned most is that you do not HAVE to extra-worry and harm yourself #and shame yourself after making a mistake because actual understanding comes with clarity of mind #and you can't make a sound judgement when your mind is clouded by horrible amounts of shame and guilt etc #in fact it is more likely to make you double down and dig your heels in and make the mistake So Much Worse #this is something i learned thanks to 1) being forsaken by god and 2) getting into candlemaking #extra relevant now that i'm getting into music again

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bittermarching · 2 months ago

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God, every time my coworker tells me something about her ex-husband the need to hit him with a car grows stronger

#wdym he wouldn't pick up ur pain meds after u had an emergency c-section bc they made u drowsy which meant he'd have to help w/the kids #wdym he left u w/3 kids at the hospital when u were recovering from hernia surgery #wdym he kept getting u pregnant even tho u told him not to & each one came w/serious complications #every time i think this scrote can't get worse she tells me some insane shit that just sinks to an even lower depth

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letmetellyouaboutmyfeels · 2 months ago

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As someone who watched last night’s episode, you had the right idea to stop.

Why’s it so bad

Because Tim Minear is a power-drunk hack.

#lincoln answers things #I was deeply concerned and upset at the end of season seven but wow the bar was on the floor and he still dug under it #back in earlier seasons he had good writers who could limit or make something good out of his crazier ideas #but it's clear that two things have gone to his head: 1. how popular the show is #2. FOX not allowing Buddie canon and probably also not letting him do other things he wanted (the network REALLY jerked them around)#2.5. going to LS and doing whatever the hell he wanted there and instead of learning from the bad response and shit ratings #letting the absolute power get to him and make the resentment towards FOX re: OG even worse #so when he hopped over to ABC he stopped listening to anyone and just went power-mad and abandoned any restraint he previously exhibited #and his talent and skill are actually not good enough to keep up with his ego (frankly nobody's is enough)#(but some people are skilled and talented enough that it can cover for quite a long time or cover most of it and Tim is not one of them)#every writer/artist/creator needs someone to tell them 'no' sometimes #everyone needs parameters and to be checked #you will sometimes have bad ideas or bad impulses that's just being human #and the moment you stop listening to people (like firing your editors *cough* Anne Rice *cough*) you're fucking doomed #some people are just doomed faster and harder than others and Tim was doomed immediately because again:#his skill and talent are not nearly enough to cover even a little bit he is a mediocre white man who fell upwards like so many of them #and now that he's let the power get to him we are all - and more importantly in my mind his EMPLOYEES are all -#suffering the consequences of that #hey Tim remember how you said repeatedly that you regretted killing off Shannon so soon and she wasn't even a main?#you think you would've recalled that before making the stupidest possible writing decision #it's been a while since I've seen someone kill their show in one (1) choice #congrats you stand among giants like Game of Thrones and HIMYM #anyway as silly as this might be I am honestly in very deep pain over this #I wasn't in a great place to start because of other shit going on but. yeah.#so I'm trying not to talk about it much which means if I ignore any tags asks comments etc that's why #but sometimes the rage takes over and I can't help myself so!

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themonkey2025 · 2 months ago

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upside of getting really really really good at pretending to feel normal and fine and amazing constantly: no one tries to send me back to the psych ward. downside: OH MY GOD U GUYS DO NOT KNOW HOW FUCKING BAD IT IS RIGHT NOW .

#HOW DO I KEEP HITTING ROCK BOTTOM AND THEN GOING FURTHER DOWN 😭😭😭😭#LIKE HOW CAN IT POSSIBLY KEEP GETTING WORSE. EVERY TIME I THINK IT CAN'T GET WORSE IT DOES. OHHHH MY GOD HOLY SHIT.#anyway i'm going to go wash my hair for the second time in 6 hours. i'm fine.#hello world

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junebugtwin · 2 years ago

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even while it was happening, you knew it wasn't going to last

#parahumans #worm #lisa wilbourn #tattletale #feeling BAD about my girl lisa in the club tonite #i am convinced she is the most tragic main character in worm #which is a bold statement i know #but i just cant handle even thinking about her shit FOR REAL #she knew the cops and robbers shit was bullshit! from the very beginning!#of course she did! Coil fucking forced her to work for him at gunpoint and she totally understands that #if she doesn't do what he wants shes going to end up in a torturebasement!!#she knew aall of taylors funny little problems n Issues from the start! she tried SO hard to keep her alive and at least a little happy #struggling and clinging and digging in her claws as she watches this girl somehow get Worse(?)#and every time taylor takes a step towards the void guess who sees it in excruciating detail even when taylor can't/wont!!!!#and in the end it doesn't matter!! all her schemes and plans don't amount for shit!! she doesn't save the girl!#she doesn't save the girl.#my art

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masterfuldoodler · 5 months ago

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breaking news! taking off your glasses does effect your vision.

#every time. time to get comfy! *takes off glasses* woah whyd my vision get worse?#personally tho. i like to think my eyesight is the perfect amount of bad #bad enough i jumpscare myself taking them off #good enough i can function fine without them #bad enough people get surprised by the things i can't see #its the optimistic mindset for younger me. who totally freaked out when she found out her eyesight wasn't 20/20???? perfectionist much hmm??#girl went home and had to change her shirt because 'i was wearing that shirt at the doctor it will remind me of it'#like girl chill out your world is not ending????? someone explain to me why i lost it fsbknccg #text #august rambles

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mjrdm · 8 months ago

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#I dont wish for this post to show in any general tags in any way shape or form. consider it a vent #d*scord has been banned as a lot of other different things and I can't fix it especially with my Computer Curse (tm)#which is frustrating to say the least. it's not like I've been there often but I Did contacted a lot of ppl through it #there is always people who has it worse and I feel like even thinking about it makes me a horrible person but #as much as I hate posting about stuff like that I genuinely believe that my country slowly tries to become second n*rth k*rea.#and it heavily affects me even if I live in the countryside.#first you ban gay people from existense so I can't even hold hands with same-sex friends in public and if my social media is leaked I can b #send to. like. an actual pr*son. which is very real and not a joke at all.#then you ban every online payment services so I'm forced to work double time to be able to feed myself since commissions are barely availab #anymore. and THEN you ban ways for people to connect. don't get me started on how much is fucks up my calling scheldue w friends & I miss #servers I used to visit to get my mind off of all of this bullshit #this is just upsetting. not gonna lie #with a cherry on top that the winter is close I'm freezing dead in my living space & the roof is leaking & my phone is dying &#I thought the vicious thunder the other day was another midnight b*mbing LOL. at this point I have no idea how I'm still sane #not gonna say Ive got it bad because I'm slowly reaching my goals and it's gonna get better eventually. it's just one of those days #where all of the things come at once overwhelmingly and I'm paralyzed to start anything on my to-do list #I think I need to go outside and stop overthinking it as I usually do.#I'm absolutely gonna miss LN3 release and will slowly fall out of fandom (but not stop being interested in it. at this point it's impossibl #sigh #tumblr is the only way for me to contact outside world and even tho the real world is not so bad I'm still missing a lot and falling out of #my interest in fandom & art in general. if they're gonna ban tumblr I think I'll fall out completely and vanish #bcause runet algorithms are not fandom- and/or art-friendly & I'm not really popular in my space to gather any meaningful interactions #I'm gonna boil in my already-formed company and that's as much as I can get. pretty much a foreseeable death of me as an artist.#how it's gonna affect me is unpredictable and I'm not gonna grief for inevitable future #but I'm sure I'm gonna be very sad. as if there's not enough weight already on my shoulders.#let's pray they won't do that. but I'm ready for the worst already since they're trying to make people's lifes as much miserable as they ca #overthinking wins for today fellas. it seems.#memento mori by will wood starts playing #vent #its bad to say but the w*r doesnt affect me much since Ive been living in a horrible conditions this whole time. it truly can't be any wors

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watermelinoe · 6 months ago

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i think if discipline could cure a sleep disorder it would have worked for me by now

#you're supposed to just force yourself to get up at the same time every day and that makes your body accept the routine eventually #but i did that. for years. getting up and going to school. and it never got easier #and all i have to show for it is a pain disorder that will keep my ass in bed if the sleep debt accumulates too much #i did what i was supposed to and i got worse #but everyone thinks you're a lazy sack of shit. why can't you just drag yourself out of bed.#except i dragged myself out of bed over and over and it never got better. it never gets better.#but you have to listen to people who have never stayed up all night and day to hard reset their schedules #tell you not to take naps no matter how tired you are #and imagine if you were at the peak of your day energy-wise. but everyone else has gone to sleep and they're telling you to go to sleep.#because this is your only chance to sleep before you're expected to be awake for fifteen more hours #and everyone thinks you're just not trying hard enough!!!

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thebluebygracieabrams · 8 months ago

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i think growing up is just life repeatedly sucker punching you and saying bitch you thought things were gonna better lmao no you're so naive and stupid for having hope in 20 years the world will be flaming bag of garbage and no matter how hard you work you'll get eliminated at some point

#and then you just have to get up and keep living anyway because what else is there to do?#but man my heart keeps feeling heavier with every blow #2024 has literally been the worst year ever god personally too #like everytime i think it can't possibly get worse than this it does #i remember literally 9th jan i had such a horrible breakdown in an auto because the first friend i ever made #after school was leaving my work and therefore my life #9 days into the year. seriously. and i was so happy on 8th because it was my birthday #i don't know im trying hard to think okay this doesn't even affect me it's fine im privileged enough that even my own countrys politics #barely affects me #but just. india is already so behind in everything. if developed nations are doing shit like this then well #it will never get better right like who do we even strive to be #i want to get more into indian politics but my god. it's so horrifying and depressing all the time #like i remember resolving to follow politics closely few years ago and the first news #i read was about some minister talking about how girls skirts lengths IN SCHOOL is the reason boys do sa and boys will be boys etc etc #i know i could just follow business news stuff like that god knows it'll help in my field but it just. doesn't resonate with me doesn't #make me feel anything at all. like i so desperately want to care about ooh stock markets and how to grow your money etc etc #but when i think about being rich enough to invest idle money all i can think is sitting in my own home peacefully #drinking a glass of cold coffee and just being able to breathe freely because me and my sister used to joke in childhood #when dad went thru a coffee v bad for health phase and he wouldn't let us drink it so we would drink it very sneakily #at night when he was asleep or went out for an hour and make absolutely no noise while mixing the sugar. we said that we know #we'll* know we have achieved true freedom and happiness in life when we can peacefully drink cold coffee in the hall and not secretly #in the dead of night in our room #i don't even know what im talking about and my period is late again and nothing is working and my lazer focus #that i had built in the past few weeks is gone because suddenly im like what is the point????#i just don't understand how the fuck humans can fight over stupid fucking things like who is kissing who and who is doing what with their #body instead of focusing on collective issues like our planet is dying so fucking fast and every summer is getting impossibler to survive #i hate that the united states control the UN fuck this world fr man i hate being born in such horrible helpless times #like call me a kid or dumb or whatever but i cannot understand how MILLIONS of people do not #have sympathy for ppl around them and who don't care about the planet at all like how????? how did you grow up????#not trying to boast but this is so natural to me!!! didn't you make save water save earth posters in school!!! didn't anyone

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the-golden-vanity · 1 year ago

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Endurance expectation: Madhouse at the End of the Earth, but with more overland (over ice?) adventure

Endurance reality: The Terror (2018), but nobody dies.

#every time I think it can't get worse for these poor bastards it does #endurance #alfred lansing #ernest shackleton #polar exploration #heroic age of polar exploration #boat books #boat stories #boat media #madhouse at the end of the earth #the terror

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