#felt this on such a deep level

[cicimellie]

jaime and brienne literally make me heartsick. i have never felt so genuinely distraught at anything as i was at how they ended. like braime makes me nauseated and miserable and closer to tears than anything ever. i delight in it mostly except for the late nights where i burn at the unfairness of their ending and how brutally they massacred jaime's growth and the LOOK in brienne's eyes when she was writing his deeds in the book. the noise of anguish that was punched out of me the first time i watched their story through was unholy.

[atwas-gaming]

I've had a scenario in mind for a while now about what it would take for Sonic to finally own up to his feelings about Amy. And I think what it would take is...

Shadow.

Well, just plain jealousy and a fear of losing Amy before he even has her. But Shadow would be the best one to instigate it.

First, some headcanons about how they behave romantically:

Amy's maturing and spreading her wings. She's not moving on from Sonic, not really, but it's possible that she's starting to notice other guys. There's some hints in the Twitter takeovers that she may be developing some small interest in Shadow.

Sonic is clearly interested in Amy, and if you pay attention, he has been for a long time. What he's not interested in is marriage- at least, not yet. And Amy is clearly wifey material- she cooks, she takes care of people, she has a caring nature, she's protective, and she's extremely loyal. She's not someone you can use for a one-night stand, you take all of her or you risk shattering her into pieces. She's Sonic's friend, no matter what else he may feel about her, so he avoids any romantic interaction because he doesn't want to hurt his friend.

Meanwhile, Shadow is... not aro-ace, per se, I don't know what you'd call him. He can see that Amy is attractive, but so is Rouge, and Shadow has no interest in Rouge. He just isn't interested in the physical side of romance.

What I think it would take to get Shadow's attention is something deeper, an emotional or spiritual connection.

So here's the Sonamy/Shadamy love triangle scenario that I came up with:

As Amy ages, she feels her desire for male companionship growing stronger. Sonic takes little notice of it, but it doesn't escape Shadow's attention.

Somehow or other, Shadow and Amy end up alone together, probably on a mission or something. I haven't figured out the exact circumstances, but they're together for quite a while. Amy loves to talk to people and get to know them, and Shadow has a soft spot for her, so she's able to get him to talk to her about things that he's probably never told anyone before. And he knows she won't tell anyone about them, either, so he feels safe telling her.

At some point, Shadow realizes, she's done it. She's broken through his barriers, and at the same time, she's calmed the storm of emotions that he's had swirling inside him for 50-odd years. He hasn't felt such peace since... no, not even then. This is something else. He's never felt this way before, and he doesn't have the words to describe it, but he's fallen head over heels for her.

This is why he never lets his guard down, even around the people he trusts most. Because if he lets them in, even a little bit, he might let them in too far. ("Can you see all of me, walk into my mystery, step inside and hold on for dear life.")

He loses control of himself and kisses Amy.

And when he lets go, he instantly hates himself, he starts throwing his barriers back up, because... she's crying. She's crying because she liked it, and she wants more of it, but she's still so desperately in love with Sonic, and she's starting to think she'll never get it from him, so she'll accept affection from just about any man, and it's not like Shadow's unattractive, and, and, and...

So Shadow's raw and open and hurting, he knew before he said or did anything that he was going down a dangerous path, but talking to Amy felt so good he didn't want to stop. And he wants to erase what just happened like it never did. But now he has to be the one to comfort Amy, because this was his fault, Amy was just being the kind and compassionate person she always was and Shadow was an idiot for letting it get to him and making more of it than what it was and losing control. So he has to keep his barriers down for just a moment longer, just long enough to hold Amy and tell her it's not her fault, until her tears finally stop.

It leaves Shadow burning with rage, and as soon as he can, he forcefully confronts Sonic (I imagine Shadow slamming Sonic against a wall or a tree and shouting in his face 😝) and basically tells him, "Amy needs attention from a man, she wants that man to be you, but if you can't grow up and do what it takes, then I'll be more than glad to take your place."

Which scares Sonic good and proper. It's bad enough to think that he could lose Amy, anyway, but to lose her to that faker??? And it finally makes him go to Amy and (very, very awkwardly) ask her to be his girlfriend. And... I'll let y'all imagine the rest.

As for Shadow... he, quite understandably, becomes somewhat aloof towards both Sonic and Amy for a long time after that.

But Shadow's immortal, right? And there's other Amy's in the world. He doesn't have to be alone forever.

Oh, and as for why Shadow would confront Sonic instead of just taking Amy for himself: because he respects both Amy and, especially, himself far too much to do that. He knows good and well she will never be able to fully commit to anyone else as long as Sonic is still an option. If Shadow was to start dating her, she'd go along with it, but it would become a power play between him and Sonic to try to "win" Amy's affections. Shadow has no issues with fighting Sonic over just about anything, but when it comes to his own feelings, he won't stoop that low, and he's not about to hurt himself by playing such a game. I also don't think he would view Amy as "a prize to be won."

[weak-nude]

Annihilation, Jeff VanderMeer

[alixanderkrex]

I felt this in my bones, touched my soul.

[yourlowkeyidiot3]

I think we're sleeping on the opportunity of a Luigi and Cozette friendship dynamic. Here me out -

[rustedleopard]

Still thinking about how Clover on the No Mercy Route likely would've given up their quest for vengeance and lived with Martlet had Axis not told them that he killed Integrity. The only real difference between Aborted No Mercy Run Clover and No Mercy Run Clover are a few more destroyed robots and the knowledge of what Axis did, which sent their LOVE skyrocketing to LV 19.

Look at them. They can't even look Ceroba in the eye after they inflict the final blow.

[otto-von-gay]

Growing up the gifted kid means no teacher ever bother trying to teach you how to understand the deeper meaning in texts so you've now grown up, and can understand the words in a text separately, but not together.

[caterjunes]

had felt So physically good for a couple of days in a row but :[ yesterday & today i am back to feeling Fucking Terrible again

[sendmyresignation]

one thing about my steadfast belief in the beautiful inevitably of mc5 is it will remain unwavering because i have been through harder times. i was a believer when no one had faith (2020)

[superchat]

are you turned on by self-deprecation

no, not really honestly. i actually dont get the "guy in his underwear kneeling in front of someone begging to get called a disgueting pig"

it just feels gross. self centered , selfish? idk ig most media portrayal is that with the person theyre kneeling in front of just like, not being into it, being uncomfortable/shocked. "step on me!" "h-huh!??" type of beat

i see a lot of Doms like to do humiliation too, "youre just a sad pathetic loser begging for my attention because you have no one else in your waste of a life"

and it just makes me feel bad abt myself lol ill lean into it sometimes tho for low self esteem reasons. but its never sexual

[dazzelmethat]

how come whenever i try to go for the early 2000s anime style i can feel my anatomical knowledge disintegrate..

Anyway this is technically a redraw of a deep sea miku from 2016.

[camgoloud]

you ever just. become overwhelmed by a sudden out-of-nowhere wave of tenderness and affection and longing for reconnection directed towards someone to whom you no longer speak for Very Good Reasons

[rexxdjarin]

oh no I am now sobbing lmaooooo

it’s just that dude sometimes my capacity to love so passionately feels like it will never be matched by anyone ever

like it’s such a burden to feel. to feel like you feel so much harder so much deeper than other people

Sometimes I feel like no one understands how it feels even tho I know other people feel things too. It doesn’t feel like they’re as strong as mine are.

and I suppose that’s why I’m attracted to these gravitationally fantastically strong stories of emotional bonds between two people that is almost impossible to tangibly quantify. like it’s bigger than words can express.

because those are always how my feelings are and it’s so often not shared by anyone I’ve felt things for. the positive emotions are unfettered and unyielding and the negative emotions that follow are even more so

I want someone to feel for me the way I feel for everyone else. And it’s painful in a way that no words can ever describe when they don’t.

[arundolyn]

man. whenever i see someone discussing it/talking about liking it i feel myself Wanting to like. respect? extreme horror as a genre. more than i do. and i think my problem boils down to like. some of the places these things go.. you need to be a damn good writer, and you kinda need to make it have a Point or a Reason at least somewhat. you gotta be able to suspend your disbelief. that doesn't go any different for any flavor of horror than any other type of nonfiction writing tbh and in my opinion is generally harder to pull off. what happens does, in context, need to at least kinda sorta make a little bit of sense in some way and not be happening Just Because. and because of the rarity and stigma of extreme horror its less likely to qualify well for either of the above and just ends up attracting people who want to write some Really out there shit and get upset when they get justified critique from readers (usually people who bought their book and Enjoy extreme horror!) and always want to couch it like they're being oppressed for Writing which is a super disingenuous way to put it

[barklikeagod]

unfortunately cursed with the desire to discuss and read comments on everything i watch and engage with so i'm in the comments on the new contrapoints video and

seeing this comment made me feel unbearably sad. it's funny too, sure, but the confusion and loss i feel from it just hurts.

[ourstarsystem]

honest to god I really enjoy academics (in university, not fucking k-12), but i despise the structure of the system. since it's the goddamn united states of america the protestant view of "soul crushing work is gooder because suffering means youre dedicated to GOD" bleeds into every aspect of society. I'm especially annoyed with how seriously some professors take the 1 credit = 4 hours of work per week, meaning the work from all courses add up to 48 hours per week which is fucking absurd to me. so that means some professors litter you with pointless busywork that adds nothing of value, especially if it's just reiterating material that's already been touched upon other course materials