#for me and me alone bc elaborating on this is insanity and im not sure how solid any of it is bc its just been loading in the bg
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grif-hawaiian-rolls Ā· 7 months ago
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MAN I SURE DO LOVE THIS TOTALLY REAL GAME WITH MY FAVORITES FROM THE HIT WEBSERIES RED VS BLUE
Mock Screenshots from that i definitely didnt get carried away on, not at all...
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menlove Ā· 1 year ago
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[image id: an ask from @harbingerofskulls that reads: "im gonna b real i only knew the jerking off i would love to hear you elaborate more if you want to go on the whole situation" /end id]
answering here so i can save as a draft without risking the ask disappearing bc tumblr's been doing that lately but
oh god </3 for everyone else- it's talking about this post. sooo i'm gonna go through each one bc i've been feeling insane for several weeks. i'll do my best to cite my sources lmao
i don't know (johnny johnny)
this is referring to this unreleased VERY early beatles track from 1960. the audio quality is absolute shit & as such unfortunately people love to put words to it that don't make much sense in either direction (i.e a lot of mclennon fans want to hear "you're in love with me" and a lot of people that hate mclennon will just make up the weirdest lyrics that make 0 sense so it's Not Gay). some of the lyrics that ARE clear make it obvious this song is about the two of them running away together- at one point i'm fairly certain paul says "how am i gonna tell my father that we're leaving town?" probably referring to them leaving to hamburg. which would be fine but some of the other lyrics areeeee..... very..... Hm. like multiple times paul refers to john as "my boy" and there's bits of them talking about not knowing what to tell their friends & wanting to just run off together alone. if i were the other members of the band having to record this i would have killed them with hammers <3 also the entire end is just paul going "oh johnny" like 1 million times. okay. sure. also since the lyrics ARE so garbled i mean i guess people could be right about it saying "how am i gonna tell my father you're in love with me" but i just don't hear it. still, a very gay song about running off together and getting away from everything and everyone, complete with moaning the other's name </3
2. paris
this one is a huge part of McLennon Fandom Lore lmao but for good reason. not citing sources on all this bc it's one of those that's just Fact & can be found in like any beatles biography or thebeatlesbible.com (my savior) but. for john's 21st birthday, he got 100 pounds from a rich relative. instead of taking his girlfriend or any of his other friends, he decided to use the money to take paul to spain. but they stopped in paris on the way and just decided to stay there. which i mean like. taking your best friend over your girlfriend to the city of love is a little weird but it's not THAT weird. it's everything else that makes people want to chew glass about it. including some of the other things on this list. like this audio of john just goofing around singing about paris and paul, with such hits as "my cheri, my pau pau my pau paul." which is :| okay best friend. and paul has this picture hung up in his house that he took of john sleeping in paris. okay. sure. why not. (although ig there's some doubt about if the photo is from paris? either way it's a picture paul took and has framed in his house which is incriminating enough my man). also NOT in the original post but may pang, a woman john had a brief affair with in the 70s, wrote a book called loving john. in it, there's this quote:
After a late lunch, Linda launched into a long paean to the joys of living in England. When she was finished, she turned to John and said, ā€œDon’t you miss England?ā€
ā€œFrankly,ā€ John replied, ā€œI miss Paris.ā€
okay! also in an interview once he said:
The thing was all the kissing and the holding that was going on in Paris. And it was so romantic, just to be there and see them, even though I was twenty-one and sort of not romantic. But I really loved it, the way the people would just stand under a tree kissing; and they weren’t mauling at each other, they were just kissing.
(interview with david scheff for playboy in september 1980)
3. if i fell
this one i already made an insane post on that started my spiral into posting about the beatles publicly </3 but, essentially, the song "if i fell" by john is..... well it's most likely about paul. he said it wasn't about his wife but that it was auto-biographical and he never really had any public affairs that weren't flings, certainly not a lover. but most damning is he wrote the complete lyrics for the first time on a valentine's day card addressed "to paul with love" with some hearts and arrows pointing to where the lyrics were written. absolutely insane. made me insane.
4. oh! darling
rawest paul song of all time if i do say so myself lmao. but it's just.... Highly Suspicious, that's what it is. a Lot of beatles fans/historians will admit this song is most likely about john but they won't admit that it's fucking romantic if it is. like.
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like that is so blatantly romantic idk what to say other than that. also, in the official recording on abbey road, there's Several points where paul says "darling" that sound more like he's saying "johnny" which is what he called him. people brush it off by saying it's his accent, but there's a very clear difference between when he's saying "darling" and when he's saying "johnny". i mean the Lore behind this is that it was written right when things were splitting up between them (& the rest of the band) so it makes sense and it's why most people are willing to accept it's about john. it's just insane to me that they'll accept it's about john without considering the implications of that.
5. the real life demo
this one made me want to light myself on fire i won't lie to you. but here it is! john had a song called "real love" and this is a very early demo of it. but instead of the lyrics that came to actually be in the song (which are thought to be about yoko but let's not get into the fact that it was on a tape labeled "for paul" but whatever), it includes john fucking crying as he sings saying:
"was i just dreaming or was it only yesterday? i used to hold you in my arms. and now a baby and another on the way... la la la la farm..."
which can quite literally be about no one else but paul, as this demo was recorded when he'd just had two children with his wife linda and linda was pregnant with their third child. they'd moved to a farm in scotland. hearing this audio clip did genuinely make me want to lie down in the dirt for a week. also "i used to hold you in my arms" just... yeah. god. when people think it was unrequited idk what to say, really.
6. If Paul Were A Woman-
shoving these two together but. in april of 85, paul said in an interview about john and yoko's relationship:
"I mean, I couldn’t stand in the way of someone who’d fallen in love. You can’t say, 'Who’s this?' You can’t really do that. If I was a girl, maybe I could go out and…"
okay bestie <3 and what would make your relationship different if you were a woman? interesting! and yoko had something similar to say. in this audio, she says:
"I’m sure that if he had been a woman or something, he would have been a great threat – because there’s something definitely very strong between John and Paul."
just reminds me of being a kid and telling my best friends "if i were a boy i'd date you" lol. incredible. does anyone here know about bisexuality.
7. stuart!
not much to say here except that john had a best friend, stu sutcliffe, who died young & before that had been the bassist in the band. paul fucking hated him sooo much oh he SEETHED. a lot has been written on that relationship but it was.... very interesting to say the least. it could have just been about the band, or just jealousy over john's friendship, but take that with a lot of john biographers suspecting john had feelings/even a sexual relationship with stuart and it paints a very Interesting picture to say the least
8. john's bisexuality
here's a compilation of quotes about it, but john was more than likely bisexual. which has nothing to do w paul, really, but more to do against people that like to claim they were both Heterosexual Men. although an interesting quote in this compilation is him saying he's "had paul" lmfao
9. paul's post-beatles work
there's just.... there is so so so much here i don't even know where to begin. @ringompreg has a good compilation of paul songs here. a lot of them do take a bit of Lore but like..... it comes down to the fact that both him and john have/had admitted many times to using their lyrics during The Breakup Years to talk to/reference each other and sooooo many of these lyrics are insanely blatant. the two i mentioned were tug of war and let me roll it, both of which are acknowledged to be about john by most people WITH NO ONE BOTHERING TO ACKNOWLEDGE THE IMPLICATIONS OF THAT which..... tug of war has this:
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we could stand on top of the mountain with our flag unfurled? dancing to a beat played on a different drum? this is what gaylors think gaylor conspiracy is but paul mccartney is really out here saying this shit.
and let me roll it is so fucking blatantly romantic but every reviewer is like haha! what a cool song that's "making fun" of john and clearly in his style! like are straight people stupid genuinely. anyway:
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bonus to that but about JOHN'S solo work :)))))) he wrote a song called "watching the wheels" and when you consider he very much responded to MANY of paul's solo stuff it's :)
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which as a response to let me roll it would just be... so devestating but it may be a stretch idk if i'm onto anything there it's just worth Mentioning
and there's a lot of others, a lot of them in that post up there. like far too many where paul mentions falling in love with a friend like Alright.
10. paul's first lsd trip with john/"i know" "i know"
this one is less blatantly romantic but it is just insane. here's an article. and a quote from george martin about it. the first time paul tripped on acid w john was bc john accidentally took some and he took him home & then took acid w him bc he didn't want john to be alone on the trip :( but, notably:
"And we looked into each other’s eyes, the eye contact thing we used to do, which is fairly mind-boggling. You dissolve into each other. But that’s what we did, round about that time, that’s what we did a lot," the singer recalled, "And it was amazing. You’re looking into each other’s eyes and you would want to look away, but you wouldn’t, and you could see yourself in the other person. It was a very freaky experience and I was totally blown away."
he also apparently saw john as the, and i quote, "emperor of eternity" during this trip??????? okay
SOMEWHERE i can't find it rn and i'm getting lazy but somewhere they (i think paul?) talk about the fact that they used to just stare into each other's eyes and then say "i know" "i know" which. considering john's song "i know (i know)" makes me crazy
11. in my life/i will
these are really just some devastating songs with lyrics that make you really raise your eyebrows. for in my life, written by john, it's just an incredibly romantic & sweet song that is again, not about his wife. given that the lennon estate is still out here posting pictures of paul to those lyrics i have to say it's a liiiiittle suspicious. and i will is...... it's one that paul insists is not about his girlfriend at the time, jane asher. and when you look at the lyrics vs how him and john met.... like. the song goes:
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and the story of how they met was that paul saw john repeatedly before they ever met, when he didn't know who john was other than that he thought he looked cool & admired his sideburns (lmfao). and when they did finally meet, it was when john was singing at a garden fete (party) and paul was in the crowd just Mesmerized. so. well. you can see.... you can see how fitting that is. makes me crazy makes me want to chew glass actually
12. "we were each other's intimates" and other insane quotes
"we were each other's intimates" is a paul quote about john which is just insane but that's not even the tip of the iceberg. here's a ton of quote compilations.
13. "literally everything else"/honorable mentions
some honorable mentions go out to: john going on stage w elton john & playing i saw her standing there and introducing it as "a song by an estranged fiance of mine" okay! the "just like starting over" demos. okay! which isn't even to MENTION the fact that paul locked himself away in the studio listening to "just like starting over" on repeat for DAYS after john died like???? john saying repeatedly that he considered paul & yoko to be his two major partners in life including in an interview the literal day he died. a whole ass rpf movie where they kiss & talk like they're ex-lovers and dance in central park (two of us) made by the same dude that made the let it be movie like. he knew them personally? he worked with them closely? and the only thing paul had to say about it was just essentially that it was what he wished would've happened like???????? i can't find a super reliable source for this so take it w a grain of salt, but apparently paul referred to mclennon fanfiction as "beautiful stories" and doesn't mind them being written. paul also had a cat that had kittens & he named two of the kittens pyramus and thisbe after fictional lovers he and john played and he gave pyramus (the character paul played) to john :|
and literally so much else like all of this and it's not even all of it. it's not even close to all of it. i didn't even get to talk about the way in "get back" the documentary, paul started talking about john leaving the band for yoko and how john would choose her over them and then he got teary eyed, started choke laughing, and then started singing "build me up buttercup" before looking at the cameras and stopping. what the FUCK was that about! IT'S NOT EVEN GETTING INTO THE SONG "TWO OF US" THAT'S SO OBVIOUSLY ABOUT JOHN THAT IT HURTS. it's. it's not even scratching the surface. they were just genuinely insane about each other.
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angelmortcafe Ā· 22 days ago
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About the dialtown sex lives thing, what do we think about post chapter 3 Norm?
okay lots of ways to go about this but im gonna list out some of the people he's having sex with and then elaborating on it. Which that list might be insane it might not i dunno. my mind is vast and beautiful you see
generally speaking. erectile dysfunction disclaimer. when speaking on Sgt Norm Allen's Sgt penis i think a lot of people take him not being able to get it up that one time as sign that he has some kind of chronic erectile dysfunction, which to my understanding isn't realllyyy how that works? Like persistent inability to achieve and maintain an erection is more often a symptom of something else going on, whether that be mental, physical, or a combination of both, instead of a stand alone condition. So assuming he just couldn't get it up the one time (which is more where i lean tbh i think the guy just has wicked performance anxiety but ill keep going for the sake of debate) then thats a whole other issue he should probably get checked out. But regardless they make like. pills for that. among other things, im sure you could do devious things to his flacid penis
GINGI
im biased bc pre dlc i was fighting every day, day and night, in the normgingi trenches but the fact that there's not more illicit material of these two is bananas to me. But this isn't about that. This is about me and my horrible oral fixation manifesto. I just think there's a lot to be done with the fact that these are some of the only characters in game that can yaoi kiss with tongue (don't confuse my use of the phrase "yaoi kiss" as me calling gingi a man, he/himgi is my enemy and i will destroy him. "yaoi kiss" and the subsequent "yaoi spit strand" are a mindset. ) I think gingi is shoving their long disgusting tongue in there, and whats norm gonna do about it? Nothing that's what. Before meeting them he thought he was never going to get to mouth kiss anyone again. And like, is gingi's mouth the most vile and disgusting place on earth? probably! But isn't that part of it in a way-- to owe so much of your life to someone else, to be so utterly smitten with someone that you let them cram their horrible, slimy tongue as faarrrr down into your throat as possible? its gotta be this way.
I think ultimately the main appeal here, sexually, both for my enjoyment and the characters in universe enjoyment is that Norm is exceptionally easy to piss off and embarrass and Gingi is exceptionally eager to do both of these things. Its fun for them I think, just generally, but in a sexual context the material there is endless. Gingi has tried to do cock inflation in real life, Norm doesn't know what a hitachi wand is. (which side note i had to google when hitachi wands were first released to make sure this joke was funny and the answer is 1968. which is way earlier than i was expecting but he did still miss it UNLESS the crown presidency shifted this part of the timeline in a similar fashion to how it shifted the moon landing. but we just don't know.)
I also wanna preface this with I was not raised catholic, my parents were normal people (mom was raised christian but has a distaste for organized religion and my father is something of a "reddit atheist") so i never developed one of those catholic guilt/repression kinks thats really in vogue on this website. I don't understand bible belt pinterest posting, or priest kinks, or like 85% of internalized homophobia as kink or what have you but like, objectively, i think at a certain point premarital sex with norm is gonna have those undertones. i love the guy but he does have a cowboy hat with the american flag on it. that's a tall hurdle to jump. I think midst impulsive tent dry hump norm sometimes weakly protests that what theyre doing isnt right for some lame jesus doesnt want you to have sex outside of marriage reason idfk but it really doesn't work after you've met dialtown god. gingi suspects he's mostly just saying it bc it gets him off at this point. whose to say. speaking of marriage i am a firm believer that he shamefully takes his wedding ring off before sex.
Uhhh what else. Okay it would be really hot if he wasn't but I do think Norm is topping. he's gotta be i'm not sure he's emotionally ready for the alternative. Which is fine, I think Gingi likes having him in their weird little yaoi hole (the cloaca of the hentai universe). Now's as good a time as any to discuss Norm's canonical breeding kink. Really funny thing to know about him. in the game. It works out for me, one because it is one of the things I'm shamefully into (i think ""normie"" kinks weigh down on my soul a lot more than like. the parasitoid wasp posting. in a way) but also gingi is sooooo good at getting pregnant so they've got a good thing going. AND they've got six milky teets which is a win as far as any respectable tit man's concerned.
MINGUS
i'm gonna show my ass here and say that i like a sexual adversarial relationship as much as the next guy and the weird aggressive tension there is a lot of it for me. Now i understand that if i talk about my wish to see norm put his single action in mingus's kitty mouth i'm going to sound like a reylo but that is my burden and my burden alone to bear. m/f """""enemies to lovers""""" ,as much as thats term i hate using, is a tough thing to sell if youre in certain circles. I think thats why pre-yaoi hivemind it had more or less no presence at all as a thing ppl thought about despite the suspicious amount of jokes/allusions to it as a possibility in official media. And like I get it. I think they have a kind of dynamic that would be really easy to make lame as fuck. honestly I've been writing this post on and off for the past couple of hours and im looking at the reylo joke with post "ocd over explaining/justifying things nobody thinks or cares about" clarity but im keeping it because its funny. ANYWAYS
I think what scratches my brain here is the push and pull of at any given time i think one of them has a weird fixation on the other, but very rarely is it going both ways. In the game itself Mingus is taking up 75% of Norm's brain space at any given time and Mingus genuinely does not give a shit about him. She routinely forgets he exists whilst hes in the woods writing "mingus crown hate manifestation journal" number 3. And then post canon she thinks about him constantly bc he's one of the only things keeping her from spiraling worse into cartoon villainy and he doesn't care because he's too busy doing the aforementioned tent dry humping with gingi. its great. just another thing that green fuck has stolen form her.
So they have a lot of really heavily fluctuating strong feelings on each other and now BOTH of them are weirdly repressed sexually as opposed to gingi and norm where gingi does not give a shit about anything. I think Mingus has of complexes about viewing herself as a human person with feelings. I don't think she's gonna be super open to herself about wanting cock from the second most annoying person she knows. Likewise Norm wants in her business so bad and it kills him, he hates it. All of this to say they are bumping and grinding in Mingus's office and then they feel really bad and weird afterwards. don't worry they'll get over this eventually.
Also, again, the mouth thing. they both got em! and by god i am going to make them evil yaoi kiss with tongue. Especially hot bc now there's baggage-- i think there's a part of norm that's self conscious about his weird disgusting flesh mouth, even if he's never getting rid of it. and she's the source of a lot of that baggage. I've written about this a little in my secret santa fic, which im not entirely happy with, i think its a bit unpolished. My writing isn't good enough for my casual writing "doodles" so to speak to be very good but i still like these bits.
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i wanna revisit what i was doing here sometime. eventually. maybe. i dunno i have my plate full with things i wanna write. speaking of which
RANDY
"Fig why are you making him have sex with Randy" everything is a part of my twisted game.
Now you all get to hear me and my husband's norm and randy sexually charged weight gain manifesto. context, one of my friends had the cute idea that post canon norm builds a new house on the outskirts of the funfair in the woods. Still in town but maintaining some privacy, best of both worlds for him. But this does mean Randy is in walking distance of him. at all times. which is dangerous because her ass is scurrying over there at the slightest inconvenience. It'll be almost midnight on a wednesday during a thunderstorm and she'll crawl up to his door soaking wet like "mr allen its really scary in the ticket booth can I stay with you?" 🄺 and this somehow works every fucking time.
his ass is feeding her his scrumdiddlyumptious southern breakfast until he can stop seeing her ribs i know even post canon randy's is eating saltine crackers, stray slices of ham, and the occasional meal from doordash and it cannot continue. and if the weight shes gaining goes to her boobs and her mustard stained goodwill scrap of cloth doesn't fit anymore well. that's just how it's gotta be. I dont think this started as a sex thing but its turning into one!
I think Randy just gives him real bad cuteness aggression. punching the wall like he's got a can of white monster over how horny he is over her stupid ass except the wall is made of wood and it really hurts. I think they should frot their floppy dicks together while watching chopped.
I have more things to say but this post is already embarrassingly long WHOOPS. feel free to send more asks though this is fun
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bbina Ā· 4 months ago
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this is peak angst ever bbina that is SO TRAGIC MY BINYN😭😭😭 binyn ended where they started 🄲🄲 but we all know its bins fault for being such a coward!! the way im having so many what ifs since it wouldve all ended well if bin just man up and confess.
the part where u mentioned he ended up not only hurting himself but also the girl he love, THAT WAS CRAZY bc i felt like i got stabbed directly into the heart šŸ’”šŸ’”šŸ’” most smau ended up having a happy ending but this… this is so realistic(?) and fresh…. bbina ur never beating the genius smau writer allegations 🫔
AND OMG SIOYN IS REAL I REPEAT SIOYN IS REALLLL😭😭😭😭😭😭 its so great to see yn being so happy and freshed out??? in a healthy relationship w sion like my girl… you’ve came from a long journey… sioyn plz be happy together forever šŸ„¹šŸ¤—šŸ©· today marks the end of another user bbina’s heavenly majestic insane masterpiece… i’ll miss alone together for sure šŸ˜žšŸ˜ž
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WE WENT FULL CIRCLE BABYYYYY they ended the same way they met same greetings and everything but just roles reversed! this time its not yn whos moping around its wonbin ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹
i wanted to make a smau that didnt have a typical happy ending despite the shit they went though in the fic LOL and from how i see it (despite not being in a situationship lol) not ending up together seems the more plausible outcome cus its realistic. most situationships dont end up too good šŸ’€ and im so happy i was able to do that with at! i tried to summon my inner gasligher with wonbin’s character and i think i did a pretty good job LMFAOOO cus i got everyone heated after the debut of his downfall lol
sioyn .. my new babies…. theyre so cute for some reason.. maybe because in my eyes sion is the sun šŸŒž im obsessed with the photo sion posted šŸ’” i feel like he’d be a film guy irl LMFAO
anywayyyssss thank you sosososoosoososoos much for reading and enjoying my works!!! again it always means the world to me that you guys enjoy the shit i put out ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ im so glad everyone enjoyed at as much as i did making it (not really, will elaborate on another post LOL HAHAHAHAHAHHA)
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franeridart Ā· 4 years ago
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Anon said: i love love love LOVE how you just draw gojo leaning onto getou, hiding his face in getou's neck or back or chest <////3 im just so heartbroken over those two
So glad to hear you like him clingy as much as I do!! TT^TT as far as I’m concerned he wasn’t clingy enough in canon, so I’m fixing it as much as I can with every new doodle haha
Anon said: whenever im sad i just come to your account and look through your art :")) it brings me so much comfort :')) also i gotta mention that the teacher getou art you've made has healed my broken heart bc of jjk and now that is the only canon i accept thank you very much gege akutami has nothing on me
GAH GETO-SENSEI MY ONE AND ONLY I’m happy he makes you as soft as he does me, he’s such a comfort to me ;;;; and thank you for liking my stuff!!!! Means the world to me to hear it ;A; <3
Anon said: I miss your krbk sm šŸ˜” No pressure intended!!!!!! I still love and support u and ur art!!!
Man I miss them too!!!!! @ hori when are you bringing my loves back from the war I’m here waiting good sir!!!
Anon said: v v curious on your thoughts on what’s currently going on in bnha manga :)))
HMMM what are my thoughts on it? Well, let’s split it in two: Deku’s side and Todoroki’s side, because that’s how it’s split in my brain atm, and allow me to start from the second because it’s easier to get through for me
I’m in love with everything Hori is doing with Todoroki and everyone involved with him - that’s to say his whole whole family and Hawks and Jeanist too, all of it, I’m so into it it’s no joke at all. Always been in love with how he handles Enji’s character and his interactions with his family and the latest developments didn’t disappoint me at all, wasn’t very much into Dabi right after the ā€œrevealā€ but the more I think about it and about the story from his pov the more behind it I am, forever and always head over heels for Shouto’s way of dealing with a situation that’s as complex as one would expect from a protagonist of their very own story you could really make a manga out of the Todoroki’s family plot from Shouto’s pov alone, it’s incredible I can’t state how in love with it all I am enough. And Hawks, don’t make me start on him I’ll straight up never stop, absolutely and most definitely my favorite pro-hero I would trust him with my money and my kids 100/10 just assume I’m constantly crying over him. Also Jeanist is just hilarious so bless him and his presence in an otherwise too heavy story
Deku’s side........ well, the main problems I have with it are that one, I don’t really understant the need to keep ofa a secret from the class for the biggest part of the story when the reveal wasn’t forced upon Deku, didn’t have a huge impact on him or his relationship with the others (his leaving wasn’t directly caused by him coming clean after all, he wouldn’t have had to leave earlier had he not kept it a secret and he would have still left at this point had the class already known all along) and didn’t, like. Matter. All that much. Two, this manga is called my hero academiaĀ and I’m genuinely starting to wonder why. What was the point of all the arcs set inside the school anyway? Most of the characters growth (Deku’s especially) and the progression of the main plot happened in the arcs outside of the school anyway, and at this point it’s clear we’re not going back to the school after this or even seeing anyone graduate. What of Shinsou? What was the point of his plot when we’re not even gonna see him being active part of the class in a school environment? I’m just confused about it all, I guess. Three, which is really my biggest problem with it all, is the way Deku’s set on saving Shigaraki. It’s not like I don’t like a story in which all the villains are saved and the good guys win and love prevails and all that, call it corny but they’re exactly my type of stories, but I’m not sure I can get behind it when Twice died like that, and Midnight did as well, and Aizawa lost a leg, and Nighteye died, and Hawks might have lost his wings, and Shirakumo ended up Kurogiri and it’s still unclear whether he can be saved, like... why does Shigaraki get to be saved when so many people suffered like that? And it’s not only about them suffering by his hands, it’s about HoriĀ and how he was ruthless with so many characters but lets the story show arbitrary kindness to Shigaraki alone, it’s all... well. Unfair. The way I see it. At this point I at the very least expect kindness for Touya as well, here.
That said if I pick the chapters one by one by themselves I do enjoy them very much. I just don’t gotta think about the big picture lmao AH but it’s all a personal opinion, of course! I know people who enjoy the way the story is going and I can see where they’re coming from, this is all arbitrary tastes and preferences on my part, I’m aware of it!
Anon said: Hi hi! I finally got into jjk AND finally caught up on the manga and i appreciate your doods soooo much more now!! They’re so great!! But imcurious, is there one specific moment in the story where you Gojo and Geto became IT for you? Just genuinely curious!!
THANK YOU happy to hear you liked jjk!!!! And that’s!!! a great question, I’m not sure I have an answer actually? I binged the manga in a day and a half, you see, and when I binge stuff that fast I rarely stop to overthink things - I did ship them as I read too since, well. They’re in love lmao but I shipped them in the same way I shipped itafushi or yuutoge after I read the prequel, you know? Just a general aknowledging of how good they were together. The main point with satosugu specifically was probably that satoru has been my favorite character since the beginning of the story and suguru got there as well as soon as I read their backstory, so once I was caught up they’re the ones I ended up spending the most time thinking about, both by themselves and together, and that ended up making me a bit obsessed..... just a bit lol
If I had to give one specific moment that got me by the heart and squeezed the hardest it’d be... probably Satoru’sĀ ā€œmy soul knows otherwiseā€. And the way his voice alone could bring Suguru back, even for just a single moment.Ā The thing about satosugu for me!!! one of the many things about them, but the main thing for me, is that they love each other. Be it platonic or however you wanna see it, they love each other. Despite everything and after it all, even if Satoru had to kill Suguru, even if Suguru killed so many and betrayed Satoru and they went their separate ways in the harshest of ways, they love each other. It’s insane, isn’t it? That they’d love each other so much they could pass over everything and anything. I’ve seen theĀ ā€œbest friends become enemiesā€ trope so often in shounen manga, but this is the first time I see it treated like this - with love so strong that they never blamed each other or turned that love in hate. The way satosugu do it is all-encompassing! It goes beyond the world and their differences and death itself! So if I had to pick it’d be that one, because that scene happens after it’s all over, and it all went to shit and way beyond too already, and still their souls resonate with each other and answer to each other and that sends me insane, just thinking about it. Like, god, they really still love each other. Satoru’s mourned for Suguru for a year, Suguru’s been dead for a year, they’d been separated ten whole years before then, and still! And still!!! It’s so tender I don’t know how to deal with it
Anon said: ā€œWhat’s a god to a nonbeliever?ā€ā€”That tag is going to haunt me for a while. The entire tag section for your latest Gojo and Geto drawing is meta-worthy.
THANK YOU it’d been eating at my brain I had to write it down somewhere why are those two like that
Anon said: Do you take commissions? No pressure! āœØā¤ļø
Not right now!
Anon said: How do you feel about sukuna ? like/dislike or thoughts on him
AMAZING QUESTION I love him. I have absolutely zero clue as of why so don’t ask me to elaborate, I’m literally that marge pic with the potato when it’s about Sukuna, I have no meta thoughts about him nor deep reasonings behind it - by all accounts, I should dislike him! But he shows up and I’m like nghhh king, so that’s where we stand. It’s Sukuna, you know. I just think he’s neat.
Anon said: sighs time to get into another fandom bc i simp too hard for ur art šŸ˜”
HAH thank you for the trust I hope you’ll like ror if you do get into it!!! hahaha
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Anon'd here before as someone who followed an actual gay closeted couple in a country where homosexuality is prosecutable and where one of the guys confessed to entering PR relationships, I kinda hope it might be insightful to explain how these went for the CT lurkers out there. From what I saw and tend to believe, at no point these relationships were ~staged~, they all looked genuine but then added a sprimkle of - listen carefully besties - !HARMLESS! PR stunts. Think whats his name, jake paul and his gf and their wedding they forced people to pay for lol. All the "stunts" I saw from the guy I followed were such - announcing all over the media that they're planning a ridiculous extravagant wedding hosted by hobama the only true ship; the public eyerolls, the wedding never happens. NOBODY is hurt by this, there are no "fake" kids and people being forced??? to fly across the world to pose for paps tf??? if you think that louis/harry are successful musicians, thinking that they can also afford to fly out to "stunt" are two mutually exclusive realities, where the latter is not where performers are booked for months to come but only revolve their lives around their partners. Moreover, muddling the details bc they might be too specific, but that one time when the already fake relationship was evidently real? he was talking about how much they love each other to the press and like the next day turned out that his gf was in the middle of giving birth to a kid from another man asdfg, and THEN the dude was like OKAY FINE we broke up ages ago no cheating there im not involved with her in any way nowadays. and the craziest thing, no it's not all about an uwu gay boy getting a beard. turned out the reason why they still pushed the romantic narrative like a year into the gal having another relationship was bc the circumstances of this gf and her new bf getting together involved like financially scamming and abandoning family members in their billionaire circle (re: rich people are fucking CRAZY!!!) and so shit DID hit the fan when the new relationship news leaked. so turns out the straight girl needed a beard for her heterosexual relationship and the "gay" dude was just chilling asdfghj (it is delightfully crazy but not unusual if you follow any showbiz circle like how thats any different from the kardashians). oh and why these "pr" relationships were originally genuine? bisexuality exists :) did they get "papped" together during that year? aha, but not ~elaborately~ on the streets, but at official events, as people with jobs. no one, not even this scum i used to follow who grab millions and support actual war crimes, have time for the elaborate multi-level stunts larries claim are happening with celebs who barely get a line about them once a month on tmz. getting photographed walking from point A to B with your partner is not a stunt, neither is enjoying your 3 seconds long holiday with your partner in the middle of 400 booked events. agreeing to stunt a whole ass child is absolutely a choice because there's a line you cant cross, and if your fave can under the whatever excuse, he is simply scum. straight up nobody has time or is willing to invest in what larries claim is a normal showbiz oppression practice, not even actual gay couples under the threat of persecution. the fact that these stories are still INSANE is irrelevant but my god lmaooo larry cant even beard properly, ask yourselves - is your fake partner as exciting as a scamming billionaire pregnant ex gf? is your elaborate beard just some woman who wants to be left tf alone?? if so, then huh....sounds like maybe the conspiracy is not the real one here.....
Hi anon, I do remember you! I’m sorry it took me so long to reply to this it was sitting in my drafts (I’m bad for that sometimes). Again I don’t know the ins and outs of who you are talking about so can’t comment on any of that, some of it sounds quite sketchy tbh and not sure how much I’d agree with but can’t comment back without knowing the facts. However, I get the general point you are making. Are bearding contracts etc for fake relationships a thing? No. Can relationships be used for PR? Yes. Have celebs stayed in the closet for the sake of their career? Yes. Was any of this forced upon them by contacts? No.
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uselessheretic Ā· 4 years ago
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short excerpt from the juban fic im writing where juza takes a short gig at a camp and banri proceeds to throw a temper tantrum for 10 days bc he maybe misses himĀ 
The next few weeks leading up to the summer camp were mostly uneventful. Autumn started constant practice, trying to get as much of the basics down before Juza abandoned them for ten whole days in the middle of rehearsals. Nobody seemed annoyed about this other than Banri (which was insanity) but even he had begun to simmer down.Ā 
Let Juza fuck around in a camp for ten days. It’s not like he cares. At least Banri wouldn’t have to see his face for ten blissful days.Ā 
Which is exactly what Banri tells Juza. Repeatedly.Ā 
ā€œ-and maybe I can actually sleep for once,ā€ Banri continued his list of reasons why, actually, it was fantastic that Juza was leaving. That he preferred it this way even. ā€œNo more loud ass snoring or tossing around. I’m gonna sleep good for once.ā€Ā 
ā€œUh huh,ā€ Juza barely acknowledged him from his place at his desk.Ā 
Banri sat up in bed, scowling from his place in his loft as Juza continued to ignore him.Ā 
ā€œWhat are you doing anyways? Don’t you have to get up early tomorrow? If you sleep through your alarm, I ain’t waking you,ā€ Banri said.Ā 
Juza looked up at him with all the contempt as if he was staring down a particularly obnoxious mosquito. He held up a stack of well worn, dogeared pages. Juza’s copy of the script.
ā€œTryna go over my lines while I have time,ā€ he said. ā€œNeed to make up for inconveniencing the rest of the troupe.ā€
Banri laughed, but even he couldn’t force the malice in it to be more than half-hearted. ā€œIt’s not like practicing is gonna get rid of that shitty, wooden acting.ā€Ā 
Juza didn’t respond, choosing instead to focus on his script once more. It was the same intensity Juza always held when it came to acting. An almost desperation to work himself to the bone in the hopes of putting on a show that was worth watching. It pissed Banri off, that singular, all encompassing focus. The way Juza could blur out everything else in the world and immerse himself in his own self-contained bubble within the script.
Banri frowned, shuffling around in bed with antsy movements, before giving up with a deep, heavy sigh.
ā€œAt the very least, you’re not gonna get rid of that shitty, wooden acting practicing alone,ā€ he amended.Ā 
ā€œWhat d’you mean?ā€ Juza asked, not getting it, and forcing Banri to spell it out for him.Ā 
ā€œI mean that I’ll practice with you. Most of your lines are with my character anyways.ā€
Juza still looked suspicious, but also enticed by the offer. Anything to improve was worth it in the end.Ā 
ā€œI’ll still need to practice on my own at camp,ā€ Juza said.Ā 
Banri quirked an eyebrow at the response. ā€œJust ask someone to practice with you.ā€
There was no response. Juza glowered at his script, not even reading it now, just avoiding Banri’s gaze.Ā 
ā€œWhat?ā€ Banri asked.
ā€œDon’t wanna bother anyone,ā€ Juza mumbled under his breath.Ā 
Irritation bloomed under Banri’s skin. As if any of the two dozen acting junkies in the company would ever be bothered by more rehearsal. Even the weirdo, isolated adults like Hisoka or Itaru, who could barely be bothered to come to dinner unless it was convenient for them, would go out of their way to offer support. Hell, Masumi, the little director obsessed freak who desperately needed a goddamn therapist, still showed up consistently if asked.Ā 
Nobody would be bothered by helping Juza.Ā 
Not even Banri.
ā€œThen just call me,ā€ Banri said finally. He saw Juza still struggling to comprehend, and exhausted, Banri elaborated. ā€œWe can run the lines on Lime call. Not every night, I have shit to do, but I’m pretty sure we can squeeze two or three practice sessions in between you flopping around a lake and terrorizing children.ā€Ā 
ā€œOkay,ā€ Juza said, and for a terrifying moment, Banri thought that he might even thank him. He stayed quiet though, his agreement fizzling out in the air between them, until there’s nothing but awkward silence once again.Ā 
Banri fell back onto his pillow in relief. ā€œNow go the fuck to bed. I can’t sleep with you mumbling to yourself like that.ā€
ā€œFuck off,ā€ Juza said, but Banri could hear the sound of papers shuffling around as Juza wrapped up for the night.Ā 
He turned on his side, staring at the wall as the lamp was clicked off, and Juza changed into clothes more suitable for sleeping. He could hear the thump of a shirt being stripped off and tossed onto that godforsaken chair full of Juza’s ā€œnot clean, but not dirty enough to justify washingā€ clothes.Ā 
(He didn’t think it was too much to ask for him to actually clean up his side of the room before he ran away for a week and a half, but whatever.)
The creak of the ladder echoed in the room as Juza finally climbed up to bed. His mattress squeaked under his weight as he settled into a comfortable position and he drew his covers up, even though they would inevitably be kicked around into a twisted mess throughout the night.Ā 
It was almost like a game, counting down Juza’s breaths.Ā 
One. Two. Three. Four.Ā 
Banri never makes it to ten before the snoring begins.Ā 
What a simple guy, falling asleep that quickly as if it was the easiest thing in the world. Idiotic, really.Ā 
Banri closed his eyes, counting down in repetitions of one hundred until he fell into a light slumber.
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Hello! @flootweed replying to the post from before. the long format was killing me. why does tumblr look like this...
I haven’t watched episode 8 yet...or have I? If it’s the most recent one. No.
Is the hornbill a bird? It probably is but I have a terrible memory and I’m dumb so. I skipped the last few weeks because I’m scawwed. How are you liking it? I did see someone say that the hornbill makes sense (without knowing what it is...at all) bc heart transplant patients only live like 5-15 years after but someone in those comments pointed out that he was so young when he got his and that’s pretty rare so he has a higher likelihood of survival. Frankly, this is the only way I will proceed. Since when did shows ever care about the heart transplant health? Never and it needs to stay that way!
What did we think of ep 6? LMAO. I need opinions! And omg it makes me feel special when I can point things out to people because I so...rarely get to LOL. Editing is like one of my favorite things ever so I can be super particular about it but I try to do the thing you do when you’re supposed to see if it works within its context. I’d like to go in with scissors and glue but alas.Ā 
THe mic covering....the rustling....it’s like guys...please. Ironically the audio today wasn’t great. I don’t know why. IDK if you watch c-dramas but I am not even sure what’s worse between them because they dub their dramas. But actually no it’s best to have the dubbing because even tho it is painful they have to put a lot of effort into it. LOL.Ā 
Right? @ Aey! It’s just weird if they would show us more about what he’s done instead of saying he’s done sth bad and not even explaining that....like you could even do some shitty exposition. I think if he is to be a true villain then we really need to be privvy. All the warnings make it seem like he’s a fuckin’ serial killer so when we get the scene of him at home it’s like....actually this is really serious? Maybe his pain is like...for a reason. Althought you won’t even TELL US WHAT HE’S DONE WRONG BESIDES BE JUST FUCKING WEIRD AND ANNOYING! So from what we have it’s just a realllllllll fucked up sad person lol. god i forgot about the dinner! and i totally agree. he really needs them to succeed. i like your theory because it would make the scene where he like blocks the twitter user make more sense. he also says they dont really know each other etc so it’s realllllyyyyy probable that he just sees it as a way out. if not then we shall pretend u wrote it :)
god yea i wouldnt say it is art but i also guess we technically have to since it is technically. in the way that technically performance artists are artists but mostly i uh technically ignore them. Also one of my fav BLs is called the best twins. If you do not know what it is I will not elaborate further.tĀ 
i want to know more abt poli sci majors lmao but they sound DRAMATIC/ hopefully most ppl in ur cohort arent losers!Ā 
hahahha i understand. there was just a thing on twitter about DSA and then the day before about reading discourse. the same thiings. over. and over. and over. and over. we are our own worst enemies but also our own best friends? but i hate tankies and that wont change. but hasan’s a decent guy. he said sth abt black ppl during biden’s primaries in GA or whatever and i was like chill. but he’s insecure and has adhd which means ur more open to being wrong and changing otherwise u will suffocate and die.Ā 
and totally about hiding fuck ups. i’ve tried really hard bc of organizing IRL to like...be honest, question, etc but also like...approach it naturally? because if you’re trying to be perfect and so worried you’ll fuck up you don’t realize that putsĀ  more stress on you, makes you seem like a robot, and could potentially not make you realize the mistkaes you made. also if we’re privileged in certain spaces there is just no possible way we won’t get something wrong. im light and i know that honestly any way to speak up on colorism is going to be difficult and that’s a space where i have power so i just have to figure it out. we should be uncomfortable because we have to sit with unpleasant feelings and sort through our own whatever. that just makes the next time even better and people can trust u more.Ā  i think some people sweat it sooo much or maybe they think their personal life and what theyve been through is more the norm? on the other hand people can be sf reactionary in the worst way and idk what their issue is. there was also a user who said sth very inch arresting about tankies which i thoroughly enjoyed (how like violent lefitsts or tankies / ppl who are like ooh a gun whatever just want to be violent in another space so they have shit tendencies from jump and nothing of substance which i think i agree with tbh fo ra lottttt of ppl. like their anger is actually like ā€œno im about to beat that assā€ instead of what we actually want to get done)Ā 
sort of in the same vein re: taking it easy...we coudl all be more understanding too. to slow it down like you mentioned about not being privvy to fucking eveyrthing and saying anything on our mind. i saw this person talk about y2k which was a huge deal while happening bc it was the turn of the millenium (bruh were u even alive?) but this twitter user grew up in a super super SUPER religious household and was like why do ppl make jokes about Y2K it was insanely traumatizing? though my first instinct was confused ive tried hard to like look more before i judge especially thanks to a friend of mine. turns out that with the further reading the more we found out he was just really traumatized; it was very common in religious households to be afraid of 2000. so we could have come at him with no understanding and he could have thought that everyone had the same experience with that year that he did. his feelings sit precedent though but i think it was just very hard for him to fathom.Ā 
i didnt reply bc he didnt need that and what could i have said? he’ll see what the truth is with exposure and unfortunately this was something he really did go through.Ā 
and that’s what makes most people think others could be over the top. because it sounded ridiculous but then it was this huge traumatic thing that we could have never known about. so maybe when someone sounds like actually crazy they have an explanation? of course some ppl are just batshit or annoying but that’s anywhere not just leftists it’ just means more i guess when a ~~librul is annoyed~ but it can be easy to want to make fun of ppl too. lmao.Ā  basically what i am saying is the internet? especially twitter? for leftists? in this economy? bitch it’s the wild west out here.
i am 29! idk if i said it or not. i am OLD u probably werent even born in the year i was talking about wah. i know not old-old or old at all but compared to you i’m due for a colonoscopy.
omg i hope u can get vaxxed soon! are you wfh rn? i hope ur also not in a bad state as in state state not state as in ur being :| bleh what a fucking time. it sucks that you have to fucking do work. well unless u like school. which i hope u do. i just assume everyone hates it cos i did lmao
was it the lindsay ellis drama? that bitch is dumb. if there was other drama oh wait the drama i was referring to it all happened on the same day. idk book twitter that well but i saw something from someone who was abt that shit and wowie! the american people are not that.....intelligent to put it lightly.
i’ll get better. ppl tell me they miss me and im like aw. i have insanellllyyy bad insomnia and a lot of stuff happened this year HOWEVER I SLEPT FOR TWO DAYS FOR 8 HOURS AT A REASONABLE TIME. im a new woman.Ā  anyways you too! i hope ur not too burnt out with school. we just dont know when the burnout is or we just dont know we are burnt out until we are. the panaramiciccici hit and all the things i was ignoring kind of just fell on me and sooo much happened at once. and frankly it’s hard to take care of ourselves. lord.Ā 
Like if you aren’t interested in expanding on the issue in a way that hasn’t been done before all you gotta do it like… spread resources and donate if you can. I dont see the point in having to say something about every issue especially if you (not at you specifically just in general) aren’t immediately impacted by the issue. Like is the 14 yr old white marxist named sarah on twitter really gonna have meaningful insight on anti-asian violence ?
this is part of why i cannot telecommunicate. i dont want to do shit on the internet. i am able bodied so i know that this time has been of such ease for other people. but mentally i just can’t. i don’t have a comment on hand like that and i hvae no desire to engage with ppl that way. i am a super super super solitary person but thats bc it’s MY time so when it’s like all this effort with other people i dont ever want to be alone. it’s the same with the way i approach filmmaking. it isnt a sole thing so i hate it not together. that’s part of how u can get so sucked in and repeat doom scrolling. i was in this webinar last may after [redacted] and this black woman prof saidĀ ā€œread with a community and talkā€ because otherwise she said we are torturing ourselves. you can’t carry that weight all on your own. unfortunately i hate zoom, discord, slack, signal, whatsapp, facetime. you name it this panera has made it evi.. L
you make a really excellent point. i think the young young gen zers are really really just interesting because it’s like this whole new world for them with leftist politics and they just can’t grasp the horrors of the world and the kind of freedom being a leftist can bring. and so many people don’t grow out of it. those people so happen to be theĀ ā€œleast productiveā€ in terms of how much time they spend IRL withe these issues. naturally, younger kids are gonna have a harder time. they are not as mobile as well so the internet becomes this place. but then it’s this echo chamber. and many times just things posted without sources. and social media NEEDS that to exist.
i think of the irony of leftist kids on tik tok and while i am happy it’s reaching them it’s just....different. very different. the growth of social media is so good but also so fucking sad, it’s too much! i think the point about not writing everything is major. even i have to do this which is part of the disappearing.y ou need to detach and make sure your head is on straight again. but when you think eveyrone has to be privvy to every thought and you can’t just sit back....which twitter and social media doesn’t encourage. you have to join in. that’s often why when i have something to say it is dense because i don’t feel like repeating it. ever. lmao ust ever. i cant pay attn. social media is a fucking minefield for my brain u can get so lost in it and absorb it but once u start talking you may not be able to stop.Ā 
i think a big part of that is it not being a leisurely thing but sort of just in our lives always. this sounds like a grandpa rant but ykwim. We dont have to see the same thing over and over again. And eventually it gets sincerely diluted or its diluted bc of capitalism or whatever. Or if theyre very young or maybe they don’t have like the greatest way of sharing the knowledge? then it can be butchered. I hope this is making sense...i’m talking beyoond the boring surface-level milquetoast shit. i see really ahistorical stuff on there from leftists (like this thing about NK + africa and it being a beneficial rship as opposed to a um not beneficial one. and it isn’t.Ā  beneficial but this young black girl was talking abt it and noname rtd and i was like it’s just too complex. there’s no good/bad here just bc it’s not america. dont get me started on this.)
but Lol that was kinda off topic but I think what I meant in my last reply about not turning off the voice in my head is about when I consume media, not necessarily when I’m online talking about. Even if I have criticism for something, I’m usually pretty chill when consuming fandom content bc I think being serious online all the time is kinda boring. Like sometimes I’m analyzing theme and shit but really most of the time im memeing.
exactly.........gotta laugh. thats why sometimes im like i cant think lmao. unfrotunately i have been ARGUING with ppl on the internet for rly no reason whenĀ  i could have replied to ur very nice fun wholesome message. i love torture. i miss memes.
ā€œ i think the people who get the least enjoyment out of that are those so obsessed with getting upset with anyone thinking outside of their lines as if it equates to them ā€œ EXACTLYYYYY
kekekekeke im glad u got it. it’s like with conservatives throwing around snowflake. now im beginning to question who the real complainers are.Ā 
LMAO exactlyyyy. i posted a screenshot of this writer from twitter saying that exact thing. Like first of all, I’m...an adult? and if you are as well uh? i’m sorry for you but are we 12? But how is it affecting u this viscerally? And if it does why dont u...do...research? pihgofuaipoajghou but honestly everything u said. we’re trained to go into it with nothing. i was only around ur age when i started to get more serious about this stuff but you’re like lightyears ahead of where i was at 21. did i say this but i’m in iww and literally i can tell u in 2016 i did not think 2019 me would be in a union bc i told my friend in a train station that we don’t need unions. i was 23...but the thing is i didnt know what i was talking about. at all. and i knew i didnt know and she knew i didnt know and now i am the clown.
also yes at critical engagement. i had to learn so much through experience and this is tuff that i coudlnt be shielded from. there’s an empathy you kinda have to develop and this understanding that you move through the world as this person who isĀ ā€œnowhere and everywhere; nothing and everything�� so i’ve always had to think about things differently just to survive. that’s also what can drag a lot of people towards it like theres so many black kpop fans bc i think a lot of the pain in SK can be mirrored (sort of) through our history. and theres currently a history now but it had to be forged. uh what was my point oh yea however i wouldnt have been able to move further if i didnt have my background to go off ofĀ  bc i knew something was off when i started getting into all these things (ill give u a hint) but if i had no prior knowledge and didnt have to think about it then the critical approach is either stale or stupid.Ā 
i had to research but i dont understand how ppl are so bold with little to no research and understanding? thhey just inherently know with also like ZERO experience in what they need experience in. engaging critically meansĀ ā€œhow i see the worldā€ with dashes of trying to be open adn understanding or whatever. actually that’s another thing like being afraid of criticizing things bc theyre foreign to you so u give it a pass (like we discussed) but it doesnt hAVE TO BEEEE JUST REAAAAAD and then take all the info ur teensy brain and apply it. be a normal human being and dont be fucking rude and racist. thats it! u can complain abt literally anything without being a dick.
as we start with LW and end with LW.....what do we think (i asked this already) omg please share wbl thoughts i THINK i know what ur talking about. well it could be two things; their rship when they came back and the physicality and then pei shou yi. i almost dont even want to use my brain to fucking look at that. i think wbl can get away with more bc of visual~*~*~* reasons (like literally, the look of the show. there’s more space to get lost in the frames. many thai dramas are a lot more literal? this isn’t the right word but it’s very heavily character focused particularly bc of $ i think) though good production also underscores flaws so i am also wrong. but like do u know what i mean? u have to kinda focus on it? or maybe it’s just cos like.....ur so used to it in thai bl idek. i’ve seen tw bl ofc.Ā 
look i swear i will justify this forever bc there are some things we miss right but if u feel like someone’s a bad actor....theyre bad. it’s about tone movement etc etc etc and since most thai bl productions have 0 interest in that....well. they take these newbies and put them in these situations. we dont understand thai but if we see them and we’re likeĀ ā€œwow this is really badā€ then they’re bad lmao. IDC i will never be like cos idk what theyre saying NO WHY HE LOOK LIKE A ROBOT???????? DOES HE EMOTE? why is he CRYING WITH NO TEARS? and it’s not even a total requisite to cry with tears(i mean for me it is) but it’s just like what is happening on ur face right now young man????????
painful.
the inflection stuff is very valid ooh good point tho but that’s only a part of the piece. plus we get used to the way they communicate. like the ppl from sotus were prtty bad. i dont like that show but thats an ex of ppl liing the actors and the person i thought was better other ppl dont think that? well apparently hes a shitty guy but. um. so when theres decent acting its so glaring.
although i must say even tho i dont care for 2gether anymore and would never like to be reminded about its existence (only bc i just cringe lol) i honestly....didnt think bright was a bad actor? but people keep saying he is and i am much more inclined to believe them than myself. though i am not often dickmatized that could have been it. until he opened his mouth and ruined it and then i stopped paying attn.
although honestly i’m so much more critical than i could be positive. i have ben stumped for the last day about how i wasnt mad at his acting in the show. is it me? is it him? who’s......the wrong one.....(me)Ā 
oh shit they have been denied? i haven’t been paying attn to whats been going on recently. i just got into it on MDL because of snowdrop. sometimes i literally cannot engage bc ill just be like alright well im black so this power button in my head is going off when ppl talk abt that shit. back in the day when kpop jawns were saying some real outta pocket anti black shit (now everyone is slick with it) it’d always be THEY DONT HAVE GOOGLE THEYVE NEVER SEEN A BLACK PERSON but really it’s like no...maybe they are just racist? that’s ok too.
also the past 2 weeks have been um atrocious bc how fucking easily people fell into the pit of white supremacy and started to turn their ire towards black people and making a competition between our groups just like they wanted. it’s not about the women who are dead anymore, who were sex workers, their womanhood, being asian, being poor anymore. it’s about how much black people get attention and why people only pay attn to us. i am not feeling very generous this week for ppl to excuse that hsit.
on a lighter note, ppl say that abt the whole husband and wife thing. i dont know how to explain how angry that shit makes me but maybe it’s because i do not want to think of my body in relation to a fucking penis at all hours of the day. if bls could kindly not do that it would be nice lmaoĀ 
yes there are a lot of those. who are only there to gawk lmao. and just idk worship bc of the cult of personality thing bc of how weird and open they have to be as actors. some of the others are people who /think/ theyre really smart (i think im asmart but i also think i am very dumb and i have adhd to prove that MEDICALLY!!!) but are actually not? or their observations arent great? or idk if they are they arent interesting? but i think well..........we have more refined palettes :P
jk also theres just different personalities. you andĀ  i mesh more bc we have a lot of the same beliefs and are coming from the same place. that makes it easier to understand as well. i really try to remember that but some people are really weird so. again just...the perception of certain things even down to acting skills. but i also dont like.......believe this genre can really do anything at all. on one hand i want them to do it right bc it’s a piece of work so they should. be proud of it. cos most things arent advancing us bc representation and culturalism are a lie bla bla. it’s just that when the depictions are negative or not done well it adds to the problem as opposed to the things that are well done are fairly benign and can’t really pull us back (perf example is the black panther film. i woudl definitely not say it was transgressive as a literal work but visually it’s just stunning. and it’s sad that it’s stunning and surprising but still with basically an all black cast of mostly dark people abd like what it means in the zeitgeist yes. it’s also just a good movie. but it’s still imperialist prop and unfortunately and this is fucking pathetic to say itĀ ā€œopened eyesā€ in other countries where they hate black ppl and ignore their own racialized minorities HENNYWAYSSSS a better ex is moonlight except moonlight isnt mainstream and is indie tho...still thru a funnel of capital bc a24 but who cares bleed the fuckers dry is my motto. my point is moonlight is both a great work and doesnt bring any failures to the table and its existence helps in ways outside of art but they arent the defining things giving us material advancement sooooo i mean it’s complex (this is my conclusion to everything um guys it’s complex)Ā 
er i had one more point in conjunction to above. oh yea so i like dont need all these extra things to make it progressive. like people really want more women in the show and i am honestly like i really dont. i dont want them to actively do this. if they cant do it naturally then let someone else do it. i am not asking for more bc i dont want it from them. when something comes along i embrace it but i do not see why women should be represented when the genre RELIES on patriarchy. there is no complete satisfying existence for the women in these series. i dont want it. i dont ask people to show us~*~* or respect~* like fuck no the people who make it make it and hopefully more will make it in the future but i will not beg bc THEY DONT WANT TO DO IT SO WOULD FORCING IT MAKE IT BETTER? just fucking leave them out entirely. that’s the answer if theyre gonna make nasty female characters then those bitches can geaux. we have other plcaes to be. booked. and. BUSY!
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