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#I am officially 24 hours out from my orals exam/finding out whether or not they’re going to kick me out of this PhD program#on the upside#just found out I got this very prestigious grant funded by the French government to do research there in the fall#on the downside#I am fully terrified#like ‘accidentally put body wash in my hair and conditioner on my body. tried to put on my dress with with pj shorts still on this morning’#levels of brain dysfunction#I spent a good portion of my last mock with the prof who is doing half of my comparative empires field#this morning wondering if he was being nice/pleasant to me to lull me into a false sense of security before he fails me#and my Econ thought and theory field advisor literally kicked someone out of the program last year over orals#these 150 books and I are on bad terms right now#talking to people for 2 hours straight is my hell and at this point I’m just praying to scrape by#because otherwise they’ll give me an MA and send me on merry way#and I don’t want a second master’s degree or to be restarting my life and career again at 24#not the stones#me stuff
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yet, they're both iconic anyways! like, i still see people reading your orpheyeux fics a lot, especially 14 steps,,, literally cementing yourself in the legacy of enha fic blr ngl i've been doing alright with the writing projects! don't wanna jinx it but the brain's been churning a lot of things recently. freaking FINALLY getting to that jake cyberpunk au i mentioned to you back in 20 freaking 22. also, because you reminded me of wong karwai a lot prob because of your prev pinned post, i actually just posted a jay fic but in a style of like mid 90s wong karwai movies + hou hsiao-hsien's millenium mambo *eyes* (with that tinge of asianess to it, cause enha fics recently have been westernised a lot)
bro i thought you've moved out already? but yeah, get your master's first, tho. also where do you think you'll end up, esp being your nomadic self? and a freaking novel??
it still shocks me that i get ppl coming back every now and then, finding my personal blog just to tell me they've read 14 steps or any other orpheyeux era works. i feel like a niche internet micro celebrity LOL
ahh that's so good for you though !! i miss being creative :(((( omg jake cyberpunk is something so scrumptious i can't wait !!! even if i haven't been following the enha boys lately (ngl the only kpop group i've actively been following here and there are zb1 but they're disb*nding soon so i don't know how i feel......) but for you i'd read it and come back on the blr HAHA jay x wkw is also so scrumptions mmmMMMMmMMm
#ujuasks#yeah#about that#i can't move out we can't secure a tenant#the only thing i'm looking forward to is that break clause#after that i'm FREEEEEEEEEEEEE#as for where i'll end up#i think for sure 100% i'm done w europe#the continent has been so miserable for me that i kind of yearn for my roots again#this job i got requires me to go back to tokyo#but i don't think i'm ready for that yet#i'm looking into a fully funded phd program in dublin...... but then again i feel liek at some point i need to wake up and just work LMAO#that's it for tmi !!
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so I totally get that grad school is horrible and expensive and exploitative— but my question is what is the alternative? I have an undergrad degree in anthropology (focusing on language and disability, mostly in the US, in part to flip the script of exploitation and extractivism in anthropology) and have spent some of years outside of academia, which has also not been a great time for me. It also seems like in order to do anything anthropology related you need a PhD; I have also been in the process of applying for PhD programs. If we view grad school + academia as a job, which is all it fundamentally is (given you have funding; my plan is not to go anywhere that will not fund me), what makes this so specially horrible? Isn’t it a gift and a huge privilege to be able to, even if it’s not much money, spend time learning about things and teaching others? And what would you suggest people who are thinking about grad school do instead?
So, the thing is, very few people work in anthropology jobs.
There are very very very few anthropology jobs in the world.
The vast vast majority of people with anthropology degrees do not work in anthropology, including most of the people with Master's in the subject and many of the PhDs. Just like the majority of people with psychology degrees do not work in psychology, the majority of history-degree-havers don't work in history, and on and on.
This is part of what makes academia such a predatory and hierarchical scheme: academic departments require hundreds of new undergraduates to major in their subjects and take their classes each year, in order for them to generate enough revenue to hire instructors, fund research, and continue to operate. A very limited number of teaching staff and researchers are actually needed relative to the number of people who are taking these classes and getting these degrees -- and the number of tenured positions has been on a sharp decline since the 1980s and gets worse literally every year, so the odds of getting a career in one's chosen field of study only worsen over time as more people graduate.
Getting an advanced degree in anthropology is far from a guarantee that you will get a job working in anthropology. The job placement statistics for that field are pretty brutal. Some are worse (say, art history, or english), but it's still pretty bad. You'll likely have to apply to hundreds of jobs and be willing to move anywhere in the world that will have you if you want to ensure you get a job in that field after graduation from your PhD program.
Now, to your point, the only way to have a hope of getting to do the anthropological work you are interested in is by getting that PhD, for the most part. And if you are applying to funded PhD programs, you will get paid (very shittily) and incur no debt (a major plus) along the way.
I generally recommend that someone only consider going to graduate school if they are able to be fully funded in that way. My social psychology PhD was fully funded and that is what has made it possible for me to have the life I have today.
BUT
I was also terribly exploited and overworked along the way, causing me lasting trauma and physical illness and I would not ever do it again.
I'm one of the luckiest people i know, academically speaking -- I have no debt, an advanced degree, and a job in my field of study within academia. And I STILL wouldn't do that shit again. It was horrible for my mental health, social life, physical health, political awareness, and self-concept at every level. I succeeded in doing what academic study trains you to do -- become a professor -- only to realize along the way that I didn't actually want it anymore, it wasn't what i thought it was, and that it wasn't good for me.
And once you have that PhD in a highly specialized field, you generally have very few other career options should you decide that academia is not for you.
Looking at your own life and priorities, you might decide that the only way to get a *chance* of working in anthropology is by pursuing a PhD, and you love the field and long for that chance so strongly that it's worth throwing the dice (and getting some free schooling while you do so).
That's fine! That might be the rightest option for you.
I just want to make sure that you and everyone else knows exactly what a gamble they are taking when they make that decision -- and even more importantly, I wish that all undergraduates who pick majors like psychology, art history, anthropology, sociology, french, etc knew they were being used as a revenue source and studying a field they in all statistical likelihood will never get the chance to ever work in.
It's a pyramid scheme.
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author’s note / hi everyone! i’m anwar (not hadid, u know how it goes) and i’m super excited to get this show on the road. i present to you nakajima shoma, yeonhwa’s unc + future phd candidate. below is a messy concoction on yours truly, and feel free to like in hopes of plotting together! 🤓
links and stuff: general, overview, resume
background
shoma’s from a shitty small town in southern japan where everybody knows one another and their business, the elderly are left behind when their kids have a chance to escape, and people work until they die. his mom gets lucky (sarcasm implied) with a baby by some older married man she’s been seeing. gives birth to the baby in hopes of keeping the man who doesn’t want it (not me calling shoma “it”), leaves shoma behind to her older sister, already married, and now shoma’s their responsibility. we’re off to such a great start
so essentially he’s been raised primarily.. ish by his aunt (homemaker) and her husband (healthcare salaryman), who—mind u—are preparing to have their own kid. he’s not really they’re favorite, but he’s his grandparent’s favorite as their firstborn grandson. lower middle class family, everybody dreams of living but they’re only surviving by the margins. and for the most part, shoma was a decent boy while he was coming up. engaged in typical mischievous deeds: stole a few bags of karamucho potato chips at his local lawsons and family marts, snuck out the house to meet up with friends, got his ass beat for everything and anything slight of trying to be raised as a gentleman (or whatever tf that means), u get it
shocking: he wasn’t an academically-inclined lad in his days, no. shoma was more focused on meeting girls, baseball, and underage drinking/smoking as a teen. his marks in school was to keep himself afloat on the baseball team, though he did have a startling interest in natural sciences over the years. enjoyed visiting natural science museums with his grandfolks, watching documentaries with jii-chan while baa-chan was out on her neighborhood walks, yeah. while shoma was focused on doing his own thing and found school to be a hindrance, but somehow, his marks in science-related classes was always above 85%
but ofc it was inevitable that shoma had to Lock In approaching senior year in high school. he was no longer motivated into becoming a professional baseball player as reality began setting in. he had barely a 2.8 gpa after graduating high school and a dream, so off to community college he goes! (we all cheered) his grandparent’s had somewhat.. of a savings fund for college, but shoma took a year off from hs to work and save up on his own as he no longer wants his grandfolks to work for his sake.
ok honestly wallah i’m not gonna really yap (continues to yap) about his undergraduate days because he was just working like dog, studying, and showing up to summer internships with half a brain cell. but i will say that having a stellar combination of wanting to improve public health while making access to such has Highly influenced his desire into medicine/higher academia. so that, having a knack for scientific inquisitiveness, and knowing a relative of his as a cancer survivor really secured the deal. he also has personal motivations of wanting to take care of his family, in which he sends money for them whenever he can. they’re only getting older and he’s trying to get them out of hasami but he feels like he’s running out of time ugh he’s so locked in guys..
so yeah :3 that’s pretty much the gist of things but i’ll likely yap away in terms of plotting/fully fleshing out any other minor details bc i think i have the major ones listed above. he’s basically in yeonhwa kind of on a phd/research branch from his former employers at osaka university who have fully paid off his phd program at yeonhwa!!!! even if he’s here until summer ‘26! also, i imagine the professor he works directly with likely was either an adjunct or visiting professor back at kyodai (kyoto university) when shoma was a stupid undergrad, so he has a really great relationship with her
um (clears throat) ok i’ll stop here but there’s more below i fear
personality
gives off vibes that he’s uptight but really isn’t.. shoma’s just so used to professional environments that it has become his default setting but he’s usually relaxed(?) i swear! very friendly, is someone you can rely on, although he has an air of emotional detachment about him. prefers to not have people know too much about him, yet somehow he’s always with someone who overshares. he’s a combo of both type a and b: is a workaholic until he feels like not to be one, enjoys the frequency of changes; some times he’s strict as hell and other days it’s just him being like ‘yeah you know what? what the hell, go ahead’ lmfao?? prone to stress eating, stress break outs, stress doom scrolling on tiktok, stress smoking (a guy researching cancer but he smokes……. right. but also tbf he’s been cutting back A LOT ok) the whole nine yards. he’s like a coworker that you would actually want to get a few drinks with outside of work, but depending on how he feels with u then that’s debatable. has a habit of closing his eyes when hearing some bullshit, reading some bullshit, etc. is not afraid to take on leadership or initiative, shoma hates sitting there with all talk and no action. trust, he’ll do something about anything when he gives it a good thought but sometimes his ass goes fuck it fr gfoijfigf idk he’s really just a late millennial trying to chill u know
what to expect (if he’s ur ta because a medicine/natural science course can fufill a science credit for undergrads)
lemme preface this by saying that some or many of his decisions are ran by the professor ok but anyways
he is usually flexible about his office hours, just schedule accordingly with him! shoma can’t organize spontaneous appointments (whether in person or thru zoom) because he’s already busy as shit so please sign up online using yeonhwa’s portal to discuss lectures, any work being assigned, tips on how to do said work, any career and/or undergrad and grad outreach programs in terms of job networks.. yeah! he doesn’t look at his yeonhwa emails past 5-6pm every weekday, and also doesn’t look at his emails on weekends point blank. while he is understanding with accommodating your situation or needs, please contact him if you’re running on time constraints with exams, assignments, quizzes, papers, etc. he will 110% work with you then, but won’t do so if past the deadline with some bogus excuse. also won’t grade stuff “written” by ai so that’s basically a fail. shoma used to write emails addressing students this but now he can’t be bothered so fuck around and find out with ur laziness and inability to think? he’s one of those “i care about your ability to comprehend the material instead of getting a perfect grade” type of tas, which is why he’s 120% open to assistance. i think his favorite policy is essay revisions for students who earn below an 85% that want to re-do theirs with his feedback for a higher final grade. he also looooooves dropping your lowest exam or essay grades towards the end of the semester too :-) so yes, he can be a lil Stiff asf but he really wants to see students grow the same way he did!
plots / connections
funny how i wrote ^ all that and have no ideas for plots on hand fdjifdjif but!! i prefer chemistry and seeing how things go with initial ideas to piggyback off so yeah.. or if i get ideas i’ll update this bit, whoops
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I'm still a couple years off deciding if I want to go to grad school for real, but every program I've looked into mentions fully funding students. should I still expect debt in that case?
It depends. I wish I had a straightforward answer for you, but there are a lot of variables to take into account, including but not limited to:
Master's or PhD? PhDs tend to be fully funded, while master's often are not. Some programs will allow you to get your master's on the way to your PhD, which is the best deal, although they are often more competitive.
How much is the school actually paying you? They love to say "fully funded" when they mean about $25,000 a year, which is far below the living wage for many areas.
How many years will you be funded for? That "fully funded" is usually conditional, and you should read the fine print. Most programs will fund you for X amount of years, after which you will be expected to fund yourself through grants, fellowships, and outside opportunities.
What will you do for work in the summer? That "fully funded" does not cover the summer break in the academic year (at least in the US). There are often pots of money around your department/university, or you can find a summer job inside/outside of academia.
What is the cost of living in your area? Are you someone who can live with roommates, do you have accessibility needs when it comes to housing, do you have a car that would allow you to live further away from campus (where the rent is often cheaper)?
Do they offer health insurance? How good is it and are you someone who has a lot of medical expenses?
When it's time, check out my guide to applying to graduate school. One of the things I mention there is talking to current graduate students. We are the ones who will be honest with you about the financial reality of the program.
Another thing to check is whether the grad students at the university are unionized. A strong union can fight for better contracts for grad students.
But all of this being said—do not go to grad school if it will put you into debt (unless you are in a field where getting the degree will allow you to pay off loans shortly after graduation). A program that will not pay you enough to keep your head above water is not a program worth going to.
-Reid
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☾ How I Manifested My Dream School and My Dream Partner ☾
one might expect a perfectly structured post — a neat list of steps, rituals, and timelines explaining how i manifested the things closest to my heart.
but if i’m honest, my journey wasn’t linear or perfectly packaged. it was intuitive, shifting, and deeply personal.
so instead of trying to force it into one tidy spell, i’ll be sharing each desire — piece by piece — because each one arrived in its own way, and each one taught me something different.
My Dream School:
this story took time. more than a season, more than a spell.
i first applied to this program years ago, drawn to the school’s prestige and the city’s energy. it felt like a dream stitched into my future, but when the rejection letter came, it initially felt final.
still, something told me it wasn’t a “no,” just a “not yet.”
so i stayed close to what i could afford: a public university, familiar faces, grounding. it wasn’t what i wanted, but it was where i was meant to be.
i went on to complete a fully funded master’s there — in a field i hadn’t originally intended to enter, but one that aligned perfectly with the program i’d once dreamed of. funny how things root into place before they bloom.
with each project, paper, and meditation, i kept that dream in my mind’s eye. it seemed borderline obsessive, but i spent two years reminding myself that it was mine. i visualized walking the halls, learning in that city, becoming the version of myself i saw so clearly.
on the night before PhD interview decisions came out, i lit a candle in the school’s colors, surrounded it with charms that reminded me of the place, and visualized receiving the offer.
i spoke it into existence — gently, confidently, like it was already mine.
when I finally got the email inviting me to interview, i knew.
the interview was short; they simply wanted to hear me speak in the language i’d come to love and study. three hours later, i was accepted.
sometimes the universe delays your dreams to let you grow into them.
and sometimes, when you’re ready, they arrive quickly, as if they’d been waiting for you, too.
My Dream Partner:
during the first year of my master’s program, i finally turned inward. for the first time in my life, i focused on myself— not through isolation, but through curiosity. i talked to people, felt out energies, and practiced being present in each season. i learned how to date without clinging. how to release what didn’t align.
for so long, i moved in and out of relationships, believing that maybe if i stayed, if i settled, i’d eventually feel chosen. but after ending a three-year relationship at the end of undergrad, i made a quiet promise to myself: i wouldn’t force myself into spaces that weren’t meant for me ever again.
i began to manifest. i wrote a list, detailed and specific, of every quality i desired in a partner. brown hair. blue eyes. fluent in another language. brilliant with numbers. soft, but solid. i didn’t filter or shrink my desires. i let them live on the page.
and then the real work began: i met the universe halfway. i let go of every connection that didn’t align. it wasn’t easy. it felt like constant testing like the universe was asking, do you really believe you’re worthy of what you asked for?
and even when it hurt, i chose to say yes.
one night, not long after, i had something beyond a dream. i found myself astral projecting into a strange version of my room, where someone waited for me. i couldn’t see them clearly as they were disguised, but they hugged me. they told me they loved me. and i zoomed back into my body with the softest certainty: they’re close.
i held onto that for a while, trying to decode it, name it, find them. but eventually, i let go. i stopped searching, but i didn’t stop believing.
then came my study abroad program — part of my master’s, part of the greater path. i was living in a country where my chosen language was spoken, sharpening my skills for the program i still dreamed of getting into.
a few classmates encouraged me to try Bumble while abroad. i wasn’t taking it seriously, just curious. but then i matched with someone. at first, (seeing as i was talking to him online) there wasn’t a moment of clear recognition, but he had the same dog as me, and something about his kindness stayed with me. he even offered to help set up my international data. i agreed to meet him (with friends nearby, just in case).
after class, i walked to our meeting spot. the moment i saw him, my chest lit up like a candle being struck. he was beautiful.
and over time, i realized that he matched every box on my list. we went on fairytale dates, visited castles, and spent weekends in new places, living out a dream i had once written on paper.
now, after a year of long-distance, he’s moved to my country. we’re about to build a life together in my dream city, while i attend my dream school.
some things take time. some things take trust. and some things find you when you stop chasing and simply allow yourself to receive.
Conclusion
none of this came all at once. nothing was rushed.
each desire found me when i was ready. not just to receive it, but to hold it with care.
i used to think manifesting meant control. now i know it’s a co-creation: part spell, part surrender.
trust your timing. trust your becoming. what’s meant for you will always know how to arrive.
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awkward situation with my parents bc obviously they think this phd means the world to me and is a matter of pride and I don't know how to even tell them i completed the degree without them making a big deal out of it. I wrote my dissertation in a matter of a few months and spent the rest of my program milking the department for funding to save up and being an alcoholic stoner. i don't feel anything about the degree except mild relief that it's over and I didn't fully waste my 20s (only mostly)
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I’m considering going to grad school but it’s been a while since I graduated. Where do I start?
i went to grad school straight from undergrad, so take with salt. but here's what i recommend:
step zero figure out what you actually want to do in grad school. many people say they want to go to grad school but are not chasing a question! you gotta chase a question, or multiple question - otherwise, the dissertation isn't going to happen. what keeps you up at night?
look up schools. this is kinda the fun part, it's window shopping. get an idea of where you can see yourself, check who is fully funded (do NOT do a non-fully funded phd program), what their teaching requirements are, their normative time to degree, and so on. are there particular scholars you'd like to work with? particular institutes and programs conducive to your interests? do they require the GRE? make a note of this. be picky bc the applications are expensive out the fucking ass.
once you have a project and list of schols in mind, get in touch with old professors you had positive relationships with that are still teaching/working in academic institutions. think people who would be able and willing to write recs for you.
reach out to people at the schools you're interested in, too, especially during the fall that you're applying. it doesn't guarantee acceptances, but can make an impact.
ask if you can touch base regarding your plans, and perhaps to talk through what you plan to do/what you might want to write a dissertation on.
prepare some draft materials. the book/website The Professor is In has some tips for this, but i think the best tip is just to ask some recent admits in your field to take a look at theirs. you'll need, at minimum, a modifiable personal statement, statement of purpose, diversity statement (however universities are handling this now), and updated, education/research-focused CV. you'll also need 3 recs, and i think at least 2 should be academic people/people who have seen you in academic settings. you should be asking for these at LEAST a month before they're due.
i guess that's the end of the list for how you "start." last thing I'll say is that it's never too early to start drafting your grad school documents. it's easier to have them than not, just like it's easier to have an ongoing CV doc to update than make one from scratch. the more practice you get, the more you'll be able to adapt your writing for opportunities that might arise.
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Sorry, I’ve been busy (school started up again, but I found out I got accepted into the PhD program I applied for, *and* I’m fully funded which means I get money!!!)!
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A PHD! That's exciting! What are you researching?
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“Yep!” Buck confirms cheerily. “Carrots, peas, and tomatoes.”
“Carrots, peas, and tomatoes,” Shannon repeats.
“You got it,” Eddie nods.
“Why are you planting carrots, peas, and tomatoes in pots in the yard?” Shannon asks.
“Well, we considered a raised bed,” Eddie says. “But that would be harder to take if we ever need to move, and considering that this house was purchased for just Chris and I, we may need to eventually move.”
Shannon’s brain blanks a little. Like, sure. Yeah. That makes sense. But where the hell is any of this coming from?
“Okay, let me rephrase. What the hell is going on, guys?” She asks, laughing a little.
Eddie stands up. He’s got a mask hanging off his chin, and he pulls it over his face before taking a few steps closer to her.
“Uh, we wanted to do something for Chris,” Eddie says. “Something that maybe got him outside and cheered him up… And, well, we can’t connect him with his friends. But we can connect him with us, at least.”
“You’re not mentioning who thought of the garden idea!” Buck interjects.
“Buck thought of the vegetable garden,” Eddie amends.
Shannon feels a little breathless. “You’re planting Chris a garden?”
“Yeah,” Eddie says. “And we’ll come over twice a week to help him with the chores.”
Shannon wants to cry. “Eddie, he’s going to love it.”
“Well, go wake him up,” Eddie says.
So she does. She wakes Chris, who nearly scrambles out of bed when she says Dad and Buck are here. She wakes the baby, too. Sort of a cardinal sin. But… Eddie deserves to see her. As close as he can.
By the time they make it back to the backyard - Shannon and Chris wearing masks - Buck and Eddie are wiping down all the gardening tools with disinfectant wipes. They put their masks up and give themselves a wide berth from the garden. A safe distance from her and the kids.
“DAD!” Chris exclaims brightly when he sees them. “BUCK!”
“Hey, buddy!” Eddie calls back.
“Hi, Chris!” Buck tacks on, and Shannon can hear the grin in his voice.
“What are you doing?” Chris asks, looking between them and the gardening tools.
“Well,” Eddie says. “Buck and I thought the three of us could start a little project together. At a safe distance of course. How does that sound?”
Chris vibrates with excitement. “Really?”
“Really,” Eddie promises.
And Shannon has to turn around when Chris, full of joys, heads across the yard to see his new garden. She doesn’t want him to see her cry.
▶️
Eddie thinks it’s the best thing they could have done.
He’ll admit it. He was skeptical at first. A beginner’s vegetable garden? Chris likes video games. He’s not a super outdoorsy kid. Eddie wasn’t sure how it would go over. But Chris is elated. He’s interested and enthusiastic, and listens to Buck’s memorized gardening instructions like they’re law.
“And you’ll both really come over to help?” He asks when Buck is done with his spiel.
“We will,” Eddie assures him. “Socially distanced, and as long as we feel it’s safe. We promise.”
“Thank you, thank you!” Chris beams. “This is awesome!”
“You’re so welcome, Chris,” Eddie replies, voice thick. He feels sort of shaky. Like despite talking to Chris every day, this is the first time he’s been able to reach him. He wishes he could reach out and touch him. Hug him. Tell him he’ll be home soon. But he can’t do that yet. So this is a good start.
Secretly, though, for Eddie, the best part is when they’re about to leave, and writhing in Shannon’s arms, Jane reaches for him. She extends both chubby little arms in his direction, and makes a sort of frustrated noise. And even though Eddie’s heart sort of snaps in half at not being able to give her what she’s asking for, he’s also relieved. Immensely relieved. She remembers him. He can see it in her eyes. His baby remembers him. She wants him. But unlike Chris, she doesn’t understand why he can’t hold her.
“It’s okay, baby girl,” he says to her across the yard. “I’ll see you again really soon. I love you, Jane.”
“She knows,” Shannon smiles. Her eyes look a little wet. “I tell her all the time.”
Eddie has to wipe his eyes.
This whole garden thing may have been for his son, but he had no idea how much he needed this, too. And how much he’ll need it, going forward.
Clearly he’s not the only one who feels that way, either. Later, Shannon calls him to thank him profusely.
“You don’t understand how happy today made him,” she says. “He… It’s like I saw our Chris again. Eddie, thank you. Thank Buck for me, too.”
“It was our pleasure, Shannon. Really. I… I loved today.”
“Me too,” she says. “And Eddie?”
“Yeah?”
“Thank you for… I guess, just for being there.”
“Of course,” Eddie says. “You and Chris needed me.”
There’s a bit of a pause on the other end. He thinks he hears her take a deep breath.
“Yeah, I know. Um… Just, throughout this whole thing… I know it isn’t easy, being away from them. The kids. But you’ve been amazing. You’ve both been amazing.”
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using my work computer to research fully funded phd programs this monday. good morning.
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manifestation circle i will get into a fully funded phd program i will succeed in that program i will pay off my undergrad loans in 15 years max and i will get a fulfilling job
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So, I tuned in a little late (hour 13) but it is now hour 15 of 100 of the climate science livestream. At first I was all -- really interesting aca talks being live streamed into my house(!!!WHOOT!!!) but then a really young phd student came on to talk about her work and I was just .... WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN TO EARLY CAREER TRAINEE-SCIENTISTS IN THE US? what the fuck people. And the reality was so depressing I could hardly focus on her very interesting talk (on a topic very relevant to me).
All along the bottom is a constant scrolling call to action: Call your representatives at http://wclivestream.com/act
People in the US: Plz call.
Fund US Weather & Climate Science The United States has long been a world center for climate and weather prediction. We have pushed the scientific bounds of what humanity thought possible, by pioneering computerized weather and climate forecasts, furthering our understanding of the physics of our world, and deploying an unparalleled observational network. Thanks to this work, we can now predict both future weather conditions days in advance and the impact of carbon pollution over the coming decades. This “quiet revolution” in science was made possible by decades of investment by the American public and has benefited everyone from farmers to city planners, from first responders to businesses, and many more. Cuts to the funding for meteorologists at the National Weather Service (NWS); for scientists improving climate and weather prediction methods at NOAA and NASA and through the NSF, DOE, EPA, USGS, and other federal agencies; and for the observational programs supported by all these agencies that keep these predictions grounded in reality undermine our ability to continue our research to protect American lives and livelihoods. Congress must support weather and climate research for prediction and communication of day-to-day weather, extreme weather events, and climate change by fully funding NOAA, NASA, NSF, EPA, USGS, and Department of Energy (DOE).
http://wclivestream.com/act
#kudos to all of these american phd students hosting and speaking#during the graveyard shift#climate science#us politics#call to action
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How hard was it to move to montreal/canada from out of the country? Is there a particular career u know of thats a good way to get in?Should I learn French?? xoxo need to flee my country where gay propaganda is illegal and move somewhere gay
okay, so i came to montreal as a grad student and will remain one for the foreseeable future. that’s the situation i’ve found myself in and it has its pros and cons.
there’s two main aspects to answering your question— finances and visas.
i’ll start with finances. i’m really lucky in that i got fully funded by my university to do the MA— tuition fully covered plus RA & TAships for my living expenses. and i’ve been awarded sufficient funding for my PhD program too. i also saved up as much as i could before leaving but really postgrad has been my version of securing employment here. if you can’t secure full funding for your studies i would not recommend coming here as a grad student. international tuition is exorbitant.
i’m on a study permit which is precarious. there’s no dropping out of my program because it’s tied to my place here. i had to take medical leave and go back to sydney for six months last year and that sucked. i currently have no guarantee that i’ll be able to stay in canada beyond my program. there are post-graduate work permits but i don’t fully understand how they work because i’m not at that stage yet.
you should look into what kinds of visas are available to you and go from there. there are skilled worker programs but quebec is trickier than canada in general— you need french for starters. the government website canada dot ca has a lot more information than what i can tell you!
oui, learn as much french as possible. the only reason i’m able to get by with such shit french right now is because i get paid by an anglo university, but it’s extremely limiting. learn french if you have your heart set on montreal. i’d recommend you come here for a visit first if you can.
wishing you all the best x
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