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[szilverer]

BREAKING NM NEWS!!

a while ago i saw this pin and produced the sketch. now coloured this anime shipbait poster ass thing to commemorate my ghostie's getting their first ever nat20 on their edcard rolls.

Big Things were always set to happen the first time either rolled a nat 1 or nat 20, so... this means they're Aware of their Feelies now. still laughing my fucking ass off at these circumstances however RNG continues to be one of the biggest nm fans.

so, context that led to this latest groundbreaking development in TL;DR format:

rei gets invited to a wedding. edward finds out

they argue abt their weird fucking marriage

he's forbidden from attending, as expected, but it still pisses him off incredibly. he stays home nicely though drinking wine til he passes out instead

rei attends but is haunted by the conses of their own quences regarding matters of love and couples

they end up dreaming of the orphanage the very next day again and finally puts 2+2 together about Some Things

well .

more context!! context for the context god!!:

two days prior. we receive an invitation to a extravagant wedding. the literal next card draw was poor fucking edward i kid you not. he knew.

these two argued badly (read: in a non-fun way) like they hadn't in quite a while. it's less about the event itself and more what it represents. this particular kind of thing – romantic partnership that isn't there despite both still clinging to the "marriage" word – really triggers edward. and when he gets tilted he gets really antsy & full of violent thoughts about wanting to ruin things for his terrible horrible spouse somehow.

here's the thing: reisz has always been putting quite the work in making sure he still Is. which means that although

the guy in question can technically manage to sneak out when they're not looking just fine. He doesn't because he feels compelled to stay in the Orphanage, and the sheer reality of the Is after so long in the mirror makes him feel nauseous and smothered to almost an incapacitating degree. But he can.

i rolled again to decide the outcome. first was how much he was okay with complying. he got a whopping 2. (if it was a nat 1 I'd have to bite the bullet and say he actually went to commit a faux pas of some sort and this would set their relationship back really hard LOL.) then whether he actually complied. got a 18. he was a good boy despite it all

rei goes to the wedding and does have a great time But. it's a marriage. there's couples everywhere in the afterparty. there's love mentioned all the time. they didn't feel like courting anyone bc they kept uncomfortably being reminded of the fucking guy on their basement. also known as their husband lmfao

it's not that they wanted him there, or anyone to know; but the concept of bringing someone along to go to an event, the fantasy of having an actual partner they could lock arms with and take a walk around town; all these silly things they loved doing & that they gave up on when they removed themself from the dating pool and chose to keep him...

it was a little lonely.

the next day, on rei's 16th (or 17th) edcard draw (fuck i lost count), their subconscious yeets them on the Orphanage again and. 20. the day finally arrived. the Realization comes like a trout jumping out of the water straight to their face:

- they really miss doing actual couple things

- they ? are okay with the idea of doing these with him ?¿

- they DID wish they could have him there .

- they DO feel kinda ??something about the things he said in the argument

- whenever they think too much about love or romance or company they end up drawing an edcard dreaming about their husband. this was a pattern. (literally tho. many such cases on their journal lmao)

maybe they actually like him?

huh.

ok.

what do they do now?

(and the answer so far has been: literally nothing . this got them so destabilized they started working on the railway board again. cheers!)

anywho og pics below :3c