#gross detail >:)

[xxplastic-cubexx]

waiting for him to come home i cant stand this game chat

[indigo6f00ff]

you have unwound

[clockworkreapers]

[cleoselene]

god, the details in that new Nail Gaiman story are revolting. He is gross, he is a violent rapist, he is trash

trust me when I tell you that unless you have intensely morbid curiosity, you don't need to read it. It is stomach-churning in a very real way. But tbh I think he should probably drop dead.

I feel awful for his fans and the people in his life who thought he was a different kind of person. Tori Amos' recent interview on this made me so sad for her and others who felt like they knew someone only to realize they really, really didn't. I'm devastated for her who made neil her child's godparent,because no matter how close you think you are to someone and how well you think you know them and how long you've known them -- Billy Joel was spot on when he wrote "The Stranger" because EVERYONE has a Stranger that no one knows but themselves. You can never truly, truly know someone.

Amanda Palmer, though? Thoroughly unsurprised that she seemed to be at the very least complicit. She has always given off the most rancid of vibes.

[onthehighwaytomel]

My prediction: @the-muppet-joker will come back to life (post and become active on Tumblr again) three days after their death at Dashcon 2, much like Jesus did in the New Testament. This will give the Croaker new and unique insights for their rewriting of the Bible, and reignite the war with @strange-aeons (even though she won this battle.)

OR: Maybe The Muppet Joker will remain "dead" until Easter Sunday 2026...at which point they'll post again. And most of us won't see it coming 👀

[feng-shui71]

I don't know if this is as interesting as I think it is, but what shenanigans would ensue if Albert and Jordan randomly switched bodies for a day? This can be whatever time in their relationship you think would be the most interesting/funny. Would they be able to succesfully mimic each other without causing suspicion?

Not at all anon, these two are terrible it’s a miracle nobody caught on.

[urban-shade]

saboteur'ing isn't all it's cracked out to be

detailss

[anglerflsh]

a craving that cannot be fed

[character co-written with @sheerunfilteredhubris ]

[mumblingsage]

Product Recommendation: Surviving the Respiratory Crud Edition

Various unpleasant viruses and stuff are going around, and I think I got the mild version - it's not COVID and in my case didn't even include a fever, just a ton of congestion and a nagging cough. It's been a week and I'm on the recovery upswing but still not there yet. The good news is I can forget, for hours at a time, that I'm ill, thanks to taking these products on the scheduled doses. And Robitussin wasn't lying when they said their raspberry is 'better tasting': it still tastes like cold medicine, but is strikingly palatable and minimally cloying (identical taste in both this and the longer-lasting nighttime formula). I can also attest it got me through my bought of COVID last year.

The Throat Coat sweet ginger fennel, meanwhile, is like candy. Naturally mentholated candy, which might feel a bit weird but in a very good way when it's simultaneous numbing your throat and cold-steaming open your sinuses (that's how it feels to me, anyway). Throat Coat does a tea that I'm enjoying, too, which doesn't taste like medicine at all but just a soothing, not-too-sweet but not-at-all-bitter herbal tea.

Anyway, this is a recommendation if you have the time and means to stock up before the crud gets you, and because it was a nice surprise to find cold medicine that's not only quickly effective but also tastes fine.

[littlesliceofimmortality]

taurgingi

[toffeesbabbles]

fell doodles but they get sillier as it goes

i just thought it was funny how small I draw fell LOL so him vs bara fell

(underfell by fella/vic and bara!fell by @/theskeletongames and was also inspired by mafia!fell)

[mrmeepsmadmind]

starscream has normal reactions

no starscream shall escape being haunted by bumblebee and vice versa. primus said thou shalt be married !!!

[voidwelt]

Today's wayward thinking.

I really wish there was voice acting for the casual dialogue on the Express. Many times, I just want to appreciate the talented EN VA as much as I can, but every now and then, I find that there are some lines I feel I miss the context of because I can't hear how they're said. I long to hear the intonation, the tone, perhaps the way they might trail off. This is why I do not enjoy muted story.

Most impacted for me is one of Welt's only early direct references to the Void Archives, from that wild time when the wiki refused to name them because the game had yet to name drop them anywhere. I have joked before about his erroneous assumption that Himeko is not mad at them anymore, but...

... The second line. I want to hear it said out loud very badly, actually.

I think about it a lot when I go into any sort of dynamic interpretation. It's not really optional for me -- it's literally all I have to go off of when it comes to how his opinion of them might have changed during the circumstances of a shared goal - I mean, how many years did they know each other for? We don't even know! Because of it, it impacts my writing. If you've read any of my fic, maybe you've noticed how much Welt finds himself thinking like this.

The pressing question.. What are they looking for out there? What does Welt think they are looking for? ...Probably more important, what does he hope they are looking for?

(He talks to Dan Heng about how your purpose can’t be defined for you. Perhaps it's something like this... Does he want them to find reason to persist on their own terms? It would explain why he hopes they succeed. That's just my baseless conjecture, but I hope it is that, Welt, because with you and that name and that legacy you bear on your heart... Let's just say that I like it when you are a little hypocritical. You tried giving your legacy up to be yourself, and you failed - you returned to it time and time again, in part because embodying Welt is simply a key part of you, now... Ahem. Where was I?)

In short, because of this very short unvoiced dialogue, somewhere along the line, my interpretation becomes something like -- Of course, Welt of Humanity is doomed to see that potential of Humanity in everything. Even the Void Archives is not immune to this. Why would they be? He literally does it to Sunday moments after realising he can sympathise with him. His hand is well bitten but he still reaches.

Side thought: He once travelled with an AI when he ran away to New York. Maybe it was a viewpoint he was open to all along, the generous definition of Humanity. These little things colour his brief partnership with someone who proclaims themself firmly "Other" in a funny way.

During 2.7's Trailblaze Continuance, he says this:

This text is probably largely intended to refer to the Trailblazers that settled and ultimately perished on Amphoreus. But, using that previous dialogue as a launch pad, could you also apply it to his view of the Void Archives - or at least, the hope he clings to? If this is his broader ideology, then...?

It does betray his charitable viewpoint, really. He's inclined to believe that someone is trying their best. Because when you've witnessed humanity struggle to persevere, you witness the beauty of human resilience.

It leads me to wonder what they did that irked Himeko so badly, but didn’t seem to leave the same impact on Welt - she is enraged, so much so she can't help but take it out on Shush, so much so she shakes with rage and vows to track them down. I find it interesting that Welt only wishes them well when he thinks she's calmed down a bit. (And that he wishes them well at all, knowing this.)

He seems resentful and apprehensive at times (when explaining his nerves around Luocha, he lumps them in with Otto re: nefarious intentions -- though I can't help but imagine his mind leapt to Void Archives because he still expects to see them lurking in the distance any day now). But at the end of the day, has still settled on 'old friend' as a descriptor for them. Still hopes they find what they seek out there in the broad Universe. Somewhere along the line, they went from cold, forced dialogue to a semblance of strained familiarity. They joked, they reflected... for a short time, they really were allies. #Divorce

Knowing this makes the uncertainty of their absence sting more than you'd like to accept. Because they could be noble and they could learn to see the beauty in the world and they could eventually learn to value it all as highly as he does, too. They could. They could. They really could. Knowing that someone could be so much more makes you more inclined to struggle with how you regard their memory.

So. Hero, do you still distantly believe that you can reflect your ideals of the value of life onto them? Do you truly think they can be changed, even now? Vote now on your phones.

"...Your idealism is going to kill you one day. Maybe even for good. I hope I won't miss it. I really do hope I'll be there to see it."

Of course, the basis for all of this is old dialogue. Maybe it is not as relevant anymore, and maybe it will not be expanded in 4.0. I fully expect to be blindsided by a lot of new animosity, and I would be pleased by any outcome, honestly. I want some conflict from this clash of ideals and perspectives. The Void Archives is very blasé about how death is often a necessity, and uses this to justify seeing lives as simple cost for greater benefit. I am sure Welt is also aware of the necessary cost of death, but he resists sacrificing others' lives at every turn. It's very interesting seeing them disagree, especially when you witness it overlap all the while...

Anyway, until then... Well, it's fun to talk. And I do like this angle, quite a lot.

Closing thought: Do you think he ever actually referred to them as a friend to their face or is this a purely post-divorce reminiscence because every other casual descriptor sounds too baggaged? Lmao.

[softantlers]

gonna have a crash out about cannibalism

i think sometimes that yellowjackets as a tv show is a bit limiting because the medium of watching necessarily puts us on the outside of the characters, like it distances us from what's happening. you don't get the same level of interiority as a written medium might be able to offer. the offshoot of that is that i really think we as fans have a hard time grasping just how bodily dysphoric eating other humans (and especially your peers) would be.

if you sit with it for a minute and really try to imagine what cannibalism would feel like, it can fuck you up. like think about your body bending inward and aching, aching, aching to the point where sometimes you can't stand properly because of the fucking horrible bite of hunger and the way that ache hums up and down your arms and legs. think about the perpetual dizzy feel, the rush of blood in your ears, the way your vision sways when you get up too fast and the absolute weakness that has you sort of pinned down into sitting and lying positions a lot of the time because you simply have nothing to give. you feel dragged out like a ghost, and it's frustrating. it's frustrating you can't think, you can't move. you're just trying to keep breathing. the pounding headaches, the painful eyes, the dry mouth, your heart is thudding so heavily you think it really just might stop...

and the desperation that comes with living in that physical state, the painful painful desire to break away from the agony of your body literally dying, the fog of your brain literally dying. the need to have some clarity, to feel the freedom to just fucking move simply again. the desperation to break away from your ragged arms and legs and rib cage which have become a prison premised on the fact that you're slowly, slowly starving.

and then it's like the concept of having something, having something that you can chew and that you can swallow and that soothes the ache and that fills that hole that's been burning inside you and making you so ill. and the texture of it would be so fucking wrong and there's a part of you that doesn't want to be doing this but it doesn't matter because the animal part of you doesn't care because it's delicious. it's so fucking gross. and it's delicious. and you're swallowing down this gushing stringy meat and you're hating yourself because it's good, it's good, it's good, and you're not hurting and you can't stop because it's good, it's good, it's so fucking good.

and i think as your stomach starts to fill, it's like something is being dragged out of you too, and you're so horrified and scared. like i can't even imagine how scary it would be, or maybe you're not thinking at all because it would be too much to? maybe it's just all becoming a blur and all you can feel is the stone in your stomach getting bigger so that you can finally breathe again. actually, it all becomes a haze and you can't feel anything past the ease at your stomach, fullness sliding down your throat, the steadiness creeping into your muscles. it's blank, it's pure, it was nothing like that, could have never been anything like that... erase, erase, push it away. it's gone. it's fine. you don't even fucking remember.

but i think there has to be a part of you that can never forget the squelch, the way you gag on it, the way you have to chew roughly to even swallow it down. and that same part of you remembers all the ways you CHOOSE to force it down, there was any moment where you could have stopped but you didn't.

and i think it's especially the case with javi, like looking at that meat and remembering that kid and eating that fucking meat. like how that would really feel through your body and the way your heart would seize like you're a little kid who just got caught doing something wrong. caught with your hand in the fucking cookie jar, and you're so small and you have no conception of how bad this is in the grand scheme of things because all you feel is the animal fear of getting caught and the jolt and spark of that in your chest. you did something so fucking wrong and someone's scolding you, like that would be the feel of it, i think?? like this jarring, wrong wrong wrong feeling up and down your spine that makes you sick with it. but it's so much worse than that because, actually, you know exactly what you did. and knowing exactly that, you just keep doing the wrong thing and there's no comfort, there's no way to make it better, it's already done. and now you've become something so fucking bad.

and that feeling stays with you like an anchor in your fucking soul. because you did the thing. you can't take it back. you'll never be able to forget. no one will ever be able to soothe it away. you are bad. you did wrong. and it's inside now. you'll never be able to rip it out. you're ruined.

[problematicsashawaybright]

Reminder that Sasha Waybright is NOT cool and has never been cool, ESPECIALLY not post amphibia. Sasha Waybright likes to PRETEND he's cool, but the first time he and Anne kissed, he contemplated leaving the country and cried so hard he threw up blood

[pansyfemme]

had a bad reaction to the anethesia during ect today :( feel like crap