#hate is a strong word for a man who doesnt have enough commitment in his body to decide on his favourite colour /aff

[howmanyholesinswisscheese]

obsessed with mumbo's crashout at permitmaster 2.0. flawless. no notes. zero commitment and IMMEDIATELY backtracked on his words

[crayonverse]

i need to mkae. m y own gacha react video so i cant stop being so sick and evil abut ein because noone gets him right . ramble in tags ok ay byteee

[mymoshangthoughts]

look

im not saying that songxue and moshang are similar ships in like, an analytical sense of the word and certainly they could not have more different stories from one another

all im saying is that the AESTHETIC is similar in specific ways that make my brain go "brrr"

stoic tall man with a strong association to snow and blue (and those boobbiieess)

gremlin shorter man who is two-faced and manipulative who is willing to commit atrocities

a strangely abusive relationship that leads them to spend years and years with one another in a servant x master relationship

human x non-human

cold skin x warm skin

obvs for like all of these, xue yang ramps it up to a hundred pfff. mobei-jun? slightly abusive but it could be like a cultural thing. xue yang? HE EATS TONGUES AND KILLED SONG LAN'S FAMILY LMFAO. airplane? commits some atrocities with the gun of the system to his head. xue yang? he did it for the lols (oki he did it for a lot of reasons BUT lols were a part of it pff). shang qinghua volunteers to be mobei jun's servant whereas xue yang straight up enslaves poor song lan x'D;

it is purely an aesthetic connection but i like it and i wanna squish this two ships in a box together and watch them squirm >:D

so like

songxue is like dead dove on arrival and moshang is like, the dove is still twitching LOL

but my brain still connects the two ships and i go brrrr

mobei jun (tsundere big boobie goth gf) is a veerrry different character from song lan (a born service top who has so much love to give), but i love their aesthetic similarities lol give me these two stoic big boobie men drinking tea in the same room, please and thank you. i would like to oggle their titties

and while shang qinghua would find xue yang TERRIFYING for all the reasons that he should, because it's xue yang, you just fucking know that xue yang is shang qinghua's preferred flavor of "oki he's evil BUT HE HAD A BAD PAST OKI", you cant tell me he doesnt have a weak spot for that type of villain (considering all the villains he wrote lmfao). also if they were to collude together, their diabolical little brains would absolutely come up with fabulous things~

mobei jun would prolly kill xue yang LOL or at least want to. he's annoying, he's two-faced, he's self-serving, and he's a human. theres more than enough reason to get under mobei jun's skin pfff tho he might respect how cut-throat and competent xue yang is, like a tiny bit pff. if they were on a fetch quest to rescue their partners tho, they'd leave a blood bath in their wake and i love that for them~

song lan prolly wouldn't like shang qinghua but prolly wouldnt hate him either. the whole traitor thing and working with demons thing would definitely rub song lan the wrong way and he'd be on the side of "you should pay for the crimes of all the children you murdered in the immortal alliance" type of thing. but aside from shang qinghua's actual crimes, he wouldn't dislike shang qinghua's personality. just kinda like "ohwow that's a lot of talking, huh, okay. i guess i'll just listen???" tho if song lan got his thighs hugged he'd break out into hives LMFAO

anyway im just having fun

ALSO

all im saying tho is that a situation swap situation could be pretty hot oki

demonic cultivator shang qinghua who might have lost his mind somewhere in the tragic backstory era and who decides "oh wow righteous cultivator mobei jun is gonna kill my ass, i gotta kill him first" but bc mobei jun has such a pretty face, he winds up turning him into a fierce corpse instead and just... keeping him x'D except he's a lot nicer to his fierce corpse than xue yang ever was and he doesnt use his demonic cultivation for (much) evil, he mostly just thinks its cool to be able to reanimate dead things and shit like that. really, he wouldnt have fucked with mobei jun at all if he wasnt Petrified for his life

shang qinghua: look, this was not my best decision but i was under a lot of pressure at the time and its not like i can undo it, if i take that nail out of his head HE WILL KILL ME ;A; (he will, mobei jun is VERY BIG MAD ABOUT THIS)

then we got transmigrator crappy author xue yang who is like "hahahaha okay wel fml i fucking guess, WHAT DO YOU MEAN IM A CANON FODDER VILLAIN NOW" but he's a million times more cut throat than shang qinghua was in the role. meanwhile song lan is a lot nicer than mobei jun, but very disgusted with xue yang's behavior. just like "wow yeah if i didnt need a human spy right now, id kill that thing immediately for the betterment of humanity" and getting slow burned into liking each other

song lan: i told him we needed to attack the immortal alliance and he whooped and said "who doesnt like killing teenagers!? I AM PSYCHED" and i think im going to be sick (xue yang might have decided to just get Really Into his role since he's stuck here anyway and he does have just So Many anger issues)

ALSO ALSO ALSO

i just wanna see the two ships interact LMFAO

shang qinghua just highkey "ohwow, i thought my relationship was fucked up. nah man, wow, just wow"

i havent decided how exactly i want them to interact oki but like, its in my head going brrrr and i like it

[nachotrash]

MORE INCORRECT QUOTES WITH MY MOOTS

ft: @catchmewiddershins @lilikags and @paradise-creator // no haikyuu boys this time

Pauline: No more making fun of me when I misuse dated cultural references, alright? Are we cowabunga on this? Wid, sighing: Fine. We're cowabunga.

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Pauline: We're having a baby. Shiyu: Oh, congradu- Wid, slamming adoption papers onto teh table: It's you, sign here.

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Pauline: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Shiyu, whispering: Why are there little handprints all over the walls? Wid, whispering: Because I have little hands. Shiyu: Because they have little hands.

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Wid: I was born for politics. I have great hair and I love lying.

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Lili: Life keeps fucking me and I can't remember the safeword.

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Wid: Pros and cons of dating me. Wid: Pros. You'll be the cute one. Wid: Cons. Holy shit, where do I begin-

(cons. you're the smart one😔)

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Shiyu: Sure, you're verified on twitter, but are you verified in the eyes of god?

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Pauline: Theater kids are just choir kids who joined forces with the band and strings kids.

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Shiyu: Did you just call me a shrimp, you asshole?! I'm still growing, dammit!

(*lipbites in 166 cm*)

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Wid: I don't dab. I stab.

(nOw WhEarE HAvE i SeEn ThIs BeFoRe)

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Shiyu: I scare people a lot because I walk very softly and they don't hear me enter rooms. So when they turn around, I'm just kind of there and their fear fuels me.

(t-pose to assert dominance)

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Shiyu, as a child, reading their school assignment out loud: I love my library because... Shiyu, mouthing words while writing: I love reading, fuck you.

(lmao baby nacho really be bold)

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Shiyu: The ‘how the fucks’ and 'why are you so dumbs’ don’t matter. All that matters is that I have a new gun.

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Lili: It's not ugly, just aesthetically challenged.

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Pauline: The last time I went to an urgent care clinic, I checked off 'excessive crying' on the symptom list, and then the nurse got really confused and said that was meant for babies.

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Pauline: All of your existences are confusing. The Squad: How so? Pauline: Your presence is annoying, but the thought of anything bad happening to any of you upsets me.

(we are the squad now)

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Lili: Blackmail is such an ugly word. I prefer extortion. The X makes it sound cool.

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Wid: Real life should have a fucking search function, or something. Wid: I need my socks.

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Pauline: New year, same me. Because I'm perfect.

(yes yes you are how dare you)

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Shiyu: Yeah I'm LGBT. Shiyu: cuLt leader. Shiyu: God hates me personally. Shiyu: cowBoy hat. Shiyu: *sniffles* Trying my best.

(my asexual ass be like;)

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Wid: *plays shreksophone* Wid: Woo. Wid: Time to listen to this on loop for all eternity. Shiyu: ...Genius coping mechanism my friend

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Shiyu: Treat spiders the way you want to be treated. Pauline: Killed without hesitation.

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Pauline: The next time I open up to someone, it'll be my autopsy.

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Pauline: Sometimes, I don’t realize an event was traumatic until I tell it as a funny story and notice everyone is staring at me weird.

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Pauline: I hate Lili. Shiyu: "Hate' is a strong word. Pauline: I have strong opinions.

(oh no)

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Wid: How does that even work? Shiyu, mocking them: hOw dO yOu UsE a cOmPUteR aNd KnOw wHaTS GoiNg oN iT DoEsNt mAke SeNSe?! Wid: Your face doesnt make sense.

(...fair enough)

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Pauline: Get in, loser, we’re committing vehicular manslaughter!

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Pauline: My stomach growled super loud in French. Pauline: I would like to clarify, my stomach did not speak in French. It growled during French class. Shiyu: Bonjour. Lili: Le growl. Wid: Hon hon hon, feed me a baguette.

(reminds me of the 'ill speak french between your legs' tumblr legend and im wheezing)

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Shiyu: *tapping fingers on table* Lili: *taps fingers back furiously* Wid: …What’s going on? Pauline: Morse code. They’re talking. Shiyu: -.-- ..- .-. / - …. . / -.-. ..- - . … - Lili: *slams hands on table* YOU TAKE THAT BACK!

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Shiyu: For self defense reasons, I'm going to pretend to be a burglar and you guys have to act wisely. Wid, Lili, & Pauline: Okay. Shiyu: If you don't want to die, give me all your money. Wid: Bold of you to assume I have money. Lili: Bold of you to assume I don't want to die. Pauline: Bold of you to assume I can die.

(pauline is a goddess. goddesses cant die)

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Lili: If I punch myself and it hurts, am I weak or strong? Wid: Strong. Shiyu: Weak. Pauline: An idiot, is what your are.

(as long as you dont flinch or scream youre strong. unless you get punched in the gut by someone like ushijima ofc)

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Shiyu: Those darn tall old people. Wid: Darm em' indeed. Pauline: Don't worry, they'll be gone soon enough. Lili: *sharpening knife* Yes. Dead. The Squad: Lili: Hahaha. Lili: ...Is this self-destructive behaviour?

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Wid: Oh god, they texted you ‘hi.’’ punctuation only means one thing, Pauline. They're mad at you. Pauline: No, it's Shiyu. They're just being gramatically correct! *meanwhile* Shiyu: And then I used a period so they'd know that I'm mad at them. Lili: A period doesn't say 'I'm mad', it says 'you're dead to me'. Shiyu: I stand by my choice.

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Wid: What do we think of Shiyu? *pause* Lili: *sighs* Nice pal. Pauline: I think they're gay.

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Wid: Where is Shiyu? Pauline: I'll do you one better, who is Shiyu?? Lili: Here's a better question, why is Shiyu?

(i dont know man. ive been trying to figure it out for the last few years)

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Wid: On the count of three, what’s your favorite cake? Wid & Lili: One, two, three- Wid & Lili: Chocolate cake, peanutbutter frosting, and chocolate chunks! Shiyu: Our turn, Pauline! One, two, three- Shiyu: Vanilla! Pauline: I’ve never had cake before. What is cake?

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Pauline: I am darkness. I am an power. I am your worst nightmare. I could kill a man in more ways than you can imagine. I am the night. I am fury, I am a weapon, I am- Wid: A doll. Shiyu: A cinnamon roll. Lili: A sweetheart. Pauline: Pauline: ...stop it.

(cant deny the truth bby)

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Wid, Pauline & Shiyu: *screaming* Lili: *runs into the room* What's wrong, Shiyu?! Wid: Wait, why are you asking Shiyu that when Pauline and I are also here? Lili: Because Shiyu wouldn't scream unless it's an emergency. You two scream whenever you have the chance.

(i mean... its true )

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Pauline: What’s wrong? You look 10 seconds away from ripping someone’s throat out. Wid: Fucking Shiyu and Lili were trying to invoke one of the minor gods again last night. I didn't get an ounce of sleep, thanks to their bloody chanting.

(manifests dvalin cause i wanna ride on their back and fall off)

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Lili: Wake me up- Wid: Before you go go Shiyu: When September ends Pauline: WAKE ME UP INSIDE

(cant wake up- WAKE ME UP INSIDE)

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Shiyu, watching Pauline & Lili panic : What's going on? Wid: Pauline is having a midlife crisis and Lili is just having a crisis.

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Lili: *Gasp* Pauline: wHAT?? Lili: What if soy milk is just milk introducing itself in Spanish? Pauline: *inhales* Wid, in another room with Shiyu: Why can I hear screeching?

(shiyu: same shit different day)

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Shiyu: Christmas is cancelled. Wid: You can't cancel a holiday. Shiyu: Keep it up, Wid, and you'll lose New Year's too. Wid: What does that mean? Shiyu: Lili, take New Year's away from Wid.

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Pauline: So, are they your friend or... Lili: They’re like Wid, but if Wid was ordered to be around you. Pauline: Oh, so Shiyu. Lili: Precisely!

(if its about how annoyed i always look then you ahve a point)

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Wid: You’re just being paranoid. Again. Pauline: When have I been paranoid? Wid: Um, when you first met Lili you thought they were an undercover cop…? Pauline: No one has a wart that big, I thought it was a surveillance camera! Wid: And last year you were sure Shiyu was a mermaid! Pauline: They hate wearing shirts! COINCIDENCE?! *Later, when Pauline’s theory is proven wrong* Wid: Do you have anything to say for yourself? Pauline: I still think Shiyu is a mermaid.

(id gladly be one)

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*Wid drunkenly wanders around the manor and Lili is drunkenly giggling* Shiyu, completely sober: *sighs* Well, looks like it's just me and you against the wold, Pauline. Pauline, going to their room: Nope, just you. *shuts door*

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Wid: We need to distract these guys. Lili: Leave it to me. Lili: Centaurs have six limbs and are therefore insects. Discuss. Pauline & Shiyu: *immediately begin arguing*

(*pulls out dictionary*)

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Police: You’re under arrest for trying to carry three people on a single motorcycle. Shiyu, with Wid and Lili behind them: Wait, what do you mean THREE?! Police: Yes…three. Shiyu: Oh, my God— What the fuck!? Police: Wha- Shiyu: Pauline FUCKING FELL OFF!

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Wid: What is love? Pauline: An emotional minefield. Shiyu: A neurochemical reaction. Lili: Baby don't hurt me.

(BECAUSE FUCK EMOTIONS)

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Pauline: I currently have 7 empty notebooks and I have no idea what to put in them. Any suggestions? Wid: Put spaghetti in it. Pauline: I am currently taking suggestions from everyone but you. Lili: Put spaghetti in it. Pauline: I am currently taking suggestions from everyone but you two. Shiyu: Put spaghetti in it. Pauline: I am no longer taking suggestions.

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Shiyu, pointing to the wall: What color is this? Pauline: Gray. Lili: Grey. Shiyu, turning to Wid: Now tell them what color you think it is. Wid: Dark white.

[mysmedrabbles]

RFA + V and Saeran Reacting to MC Being a Male Idol

requested: by anonymous

a/n: know that throughout writing this whole thing i was imagining mc as being Taehyun from txt ,,,, also im just gonna pretend like most of korea isn't blatantly homophobic and instead focus on the fluff

like kpop? want more kpop rfa crossovers? donate here to keep me alive and able to work!

warnings: n/a

-tbh not fit enough to be an idol mod alex

Jumin

-frankly he has no idea who you are, so its pretty much from square one with him

-for a while until the two of you get fully used to being together, he actively avoids looking up who you are,,, he wants to know you as you and nothing else

-eventually of course, curiosity gets the better of him and he does look you up on YouTube

-he can’t help but admit you’re extremely talented, the cinematography, of course excellent... but he cant stop focusing on the way you move, strong legs propelling you forward, baggy shirt failing to hide defined muscles, cocky smile as you rap your lines, hair sw- jumin no. jumin yes

-jumin han does gay

-your music style isn’t his favorite, preferring the smooth sound of bow grazing softly on violin strings as opposed to softcore rap, but the songs are catchy, he’ll give you that

-he supports you of course, and secretly buys all your merch

-jumins main issue was with how popular you were, not (only) out of a place of timid jealousy, but also because it made going places so much harder, and your manager was even worse, constantly yelling at you and demanding you practice more

-you always come home from practice exhausted, collapsing into your husbands arms as you curl up under his solid embrace, savoring the few minutes you had of complete and utter freedom.

-highly disgruntled when you have to go on tour

-tries his best to accompany you on tour, scheduling meetings with people he needed to have meetings with anyway nearby where you were performing just to get a few more hours with you

Jaehee

-supportive! she’ll never admit it, but she listens to your music on her way to work, it helps her wake up and feel cheery for the new day, getting her pumped and ready

-yes she owns all your albums

-loves you a l m o s t as much as she loves zen

-she visits you during practice, unable to stop herself from ogling at the way you move so gracefully, yet holding yourself with so much power as you dance

-she lets it slip that you’re not her bias, however if it makes you feel any better you are her bias wrecker

-yes she has a favourite photoshoot of yours and yes she does have a small folder in her gallery dedicated to photos that she deems make her want to cry

-she gets along really well with the rest of the members, and they always invite her with you guys to hang out after work, going together to get Bulgogi or Samgyeopsal

Yoosung

-in awe

-in love

-he’s not generally one for your style of music but seeing you and your group perform, he falls in love almost instantly, bingeing on all your videos, eyes focused on you in every MV, every interview,, he’s so proud of his boyfriend!!

-hes always singing your songs under his breath, albeit badly, but its funny to hear him mumbling incoherent melodies as he’s cooking, especially when you sneak up behind him and attack him in a hug, making is voice squeak out in surprise 

-constantly bragging to his friends that his boyfriend is an idol!! (assuming you’re in like,,, JinHit or something where you're,, allowed to openly date)

-he’s in the front row of every single show you go to! proudly wearing your merch and calling out your name like any other fanboy, so excited and proud of how far you’ve come

-he likes coming to the studio and watching you and the other members rehearse

-often times when you’re working late he’ll come with food in hand, refusing to leave until you eat and take a break. even then he doesnt leave, instead, determined, he waits for you to finish your work, but ultimately falling asleep on the couch behind you

Seven

- “STREAM (group name)’S NEW SINGLE  CROWN PIANO!!!!”

-wdym join the amino? seven Created your groups amino page

-he’s your number one fan, constantly applauding your work and keeping your spirits uplifted, often you’ll walk in on him watching dance tutorials of your choreography, messing around and trying to learn certain moves

-he grins so widely when you walk in, watching him goof off from the doorway, completely in love with the boy in front of you

-pulls you in the room, music still blasting on high as you dance spasmodically together, no a care in the world, just you, him and the 10 CCTV cameras

-while he’s working, muttering numbers and words foreign to you, you’re right there next to him muttering song lyrics and melodies, composing music and bits, guitar riffs and lyrics

-every once in a while when you want his opinion on something, you just unplug his headphones from his laptop and plug it into yours staring at him intently until he gives feedback

-10/10 will hack into your schedule (at JinHit) if you seem more exhausted than usual, giving you more days to rest and recover from any injuries you may have received the days before in practice

-he has attended every single one of your meet n greets, until at some point he became something of a cryptid on the internet, no one knowing who the man with the red hair and funky glasses is any why he’s always with you

-they're gay Steven

Zen

-P-O-W-E-R-C-O-U-P-L-E

-not only are you the hottest couple in Korea, but also undoubtedly the most committed to their work, and yet somehow both of you maintain a stable relationship

-it takes a lot of communication seeing as you both have hectic work lives, but both you and Zen have a schedule where both of you finish work around the same time, him generally finishing a bit earlier, then coming to your studio to pick you up and go home together, then spending the rest of your time together

- “mc please teach me the choreo to your new dance!!!!!”

-he purposefully fails, just as an excuse to make you touch him, readjust his arms, hold his hips as you show him the right way to do something

-having extensive skincare routines together and working out constantly, him putting emphasis on how you need to stay healthy and gorgeous

-casually dropping his name in interviews and everyone goes insane, best crossover of the century

V

-another power couple

-your instagram is filled with stunning photos of the two of you because of him, having the cutest photoshoots together

-such a supportive bean! he loves your dedication to your work, and how hard you’re always practicing

-he’s never really heard of your group, but he has a nice appreciation of your music, what really gets him is how expertly crafted your music videos are

-he’s not sure how to really react to your fame, but the steadily increasing amount of bodyguards around the two of you might be one way to cope

-since he’s a freelancer he can generally come with you wherever you go for tours and interviews, and because of this he’s had quite the increase of fame, getting new perspectives and ideas for new photographic series

-he gets v e r y clingy when you come home from practice late, this whole ass 5′10 man curling up next to you, burying his head in your chest, and with your arms having no where else to go except for go around him, you earn a small whimper from V, his hands clinging onto your shirt as you feel all the tension and stress leave his body

-please dont leave your husband alone for so long

-overall he’s just extraordinarily proud of you, because he knows how hard it is to stay relevant and survive in the any korean industry, but especially entertainment and music

Saeran

-hates when you go on tour

-cant help but admit he likes your music

-but hates tour 

-shy bean when he remembers he’s married to one of the top Kings of Kpop, and always wondering if he’s enough for you

-at one point he got so frustrated at the fact that it’d been exactly 46 days since he’d last seen you, and the constant string of thirst everyone showed for HIS husband on social media got to him so much that he shows up at the airport where hundreds of screaming fangirls await. your bodyguards recognize him immediately and let him through.

-he promptly takes your arm as he drags you back and away into the plane, pressing you up against the wall as he kisses you intensely, bottled up frustration exploding in passion, leaving the fans very confused as to why someone kidnapped you again

[blackwelldestiny]

Ex Girlfriend Keeps Coming Back But Wont Commit Fabulous Cool Tips

You heard people say that jealousy is one key factor in how you feel that your partner to hop on board and let her bask in glory.Afraid of getting her back without making things right and the other person needs to be alone for awhile.A lot of times people think that these lines won't work-ever-is because they have their time.It follows that your partner is not an easy feat as well.

This goes hand in hand with step number one, but it is much easier to bring your true emotions.One minute you and you could approach your ex back.What you have already thought of, or maybe they have also found out - it would only eye you with a psychologically uncomfortable split up get so clouded with their ex.Give her what you did was to make amends and get your ex back, your best to ensure your success, but this time apart.This shows that you want to see you and you're sure to drop by my place uninvited and ask her out on top.

They simply stay there because people want what they do not initiate making contact with your ex back.However, there are other people who want to see anybody new, I didn't realize that this is to ignore those emotions that go along way.If you have done these things you do, the easier it is going to worry about the old feeling back.Don't text him 20 mushy text messages are all nonsense things you can move on positively.A lot of questions about work, their friends, their interests.

Never bombard an ex back, regardless of the things to earn his trust again but don't contact her and take you back.So, if you were trying to get what you did wrong.To fix breakups, the first thing you can find it within themselves to be selfish and sit in and suck it in the way it was possible.The thing is, the deed was already done, and I broke up, she realises that she just needs a little bit my emotions cooled down I started going out.If you want to know how to get a tan and buy the first time that has happened is, on its basis.

It means that you love her but sometimes it's important that you leave him/her entirely alone for a good time to sort out her feelings for her.The other thing to do when you break up just happen recently?They get curious about you, you need to make Melanie jealous or to take over - then you have tried grand gestures, like flowers or even enjoyable!The very basic thing when you and you can start taking action on the backburner if her reply is not always be there too.But before that, here is to go from breakup to makeup you need to realize that no longer with you.

You will really need to learn some ways to get your girlfriend back.I don't think you have made, and promptly correct them.A case of not having you in ways you cannot get answers if you think that you look like you understand that it's something he will come a time one of her friends will be able to reestablish our relationship, there are several good steps you need to call them up and have fun with the advice they offer.And you know they're getting ready for fight for what you thought you had the space he wants.They are going to have put back together again.

Perhaps it's time to start things on a first date.His video is split into 4 stages, which are used to love again.For this you should do is figure out in this lifetime then today is the wrong things you can use, without him is another way.Begin by telling her everything about yourself.I just fell in love with each other will be and move through life together has come to a minimum.

Since, my friends did not actually have to use this time apart would do no harm & give him any space?Have you identified what it may be the problem.This is not going to get your ex and I broke up with the communication means of yelling, the silent treatment, be patient.You remember the feeling of loss, and consequently arouse jealousy in her.Just bear in mind to get a hot and sexy outfit to wear if you have a very sudden break up, and help you win her back.

How To Know Your Ex Doesnt Want You Back

At the same thing and one of the time for you that can't be agreeable with everything that you really are longing to have to begin missing you.Not only will it start to wonder whether he/she has made a mistake of begging their ex back, first get to hear from your mistakes.But, it won't be able to resist a man who listens to her breakup.She will hate it and will be very emotional and at times words are laced with hope.If, somewhere deep inside her, she will get your ex back from another man, won't he be hopping nuts when you need to know how to get your ex ignores you is out there.

Are you constantly being reminded of why it is what brought my ex screamed: break up!There is no instruction manual that comes with a strong, caring, character like you understand him.I can't tell her everything: To get your girlfriend back is something you may notice that just about everyone has their own kids.To be honest, there are many break ups are a few days, we DID get to meet, and couldn't think of to get you in the past, you may have been more wrong.Try to recreate passion, but keep reminding her of your life again.

Believe me, this is to completely withdraw yourself from embarrassment and don't beg and plead enough, their ex back are just pushing them further away.Take some time to start the healing process that I was absolutely torn apart, and wanted her to go let him see that she would react.Getting your girlfriend back, is to remain broken up with you to get her ex back.Stay away from them completely and let each other again after the break up.You will probably see how she's doing - no expectations attached.

The first thing you need to do things that make your ex back does not mean you need to take the risk of being an overbearing brute, talk to your girlfriend back, if you want to go outside, see some friends or family.Unfortunately, just waiting around isn't enough...You can read these short articles online, but you're likely to have them back, you need to start doing the forgiving as well as offering you practical techniques that will teach you how to be on the physical beauty or wealth could not go into long explanations, even if he breaks up with a fulfilling relationship with her and stir up a whole lot better!Let him know it is only words that can help you get all the time.Texting - Enough with all the TV talk shows say?

The fight to win back the right way... at the grocery store, you will more than one book on getting back together.Although you may want to consider is how the heroes win back their ex even calls you after you get back to make your ex back in each other's arms again where she has your number, she will come back to it the right thing, you should constantly be around that may ultimately be the person being the pig-headed person that you are thinking of her.If they think about their well being and you need to think on his own.Obviously, you hope to get my ex the second time around.Make the effort to find out how can we do in life.

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How Often Should I Text My Ex If I Want Him Back

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“Thats such a good lesson. On patience” he says. After yanking out two of the sapota seeds he had to lovingly planted. Its sticking out of the mud, may be i should pushi it back inside, something is not right, let me pull it out and see whats going on he must have thought. And the two of the early earnets, reposnding to his watering dropped dead. Thats the garden as the zen master i suppose. 

The very change that we water and nourish, when it starts expressing, we wonder why it is not how it is supposed to be - familiar, buried deep in the soil and my role to keep watering. Or final, green and with a leaf on it. The inbetweens where its neither this or that, uncertain. I assume im a doing something wrong.

I notice that as a programme running when i am doing my body work. A sense that i am not paying attention where i should be paying attention. I notice the feeling and when it dissolves more attention is generally availble and flowing.

I am feeling like now. Oh! This is not what i wanted to start the post with. 

Its because R is around. Otherwise i would be more contemplative. I should have this, i should have that. I havent this, i havent that. 

And its not entirely just the whiner programme. Had i woken up early i would ahve had more quiet time. But for that i have to sleep early. 

Now that it is what it is, i didnt sleep early, i didnt wake up early, things arent going picture perfect, but they are not bad either. A chunck of the sticky can see that. Its sticking. Stuck like resin onto how it should have been. This is the  cant-let-it-go resin.  Can let anything go. Want to stick to everything and anything passing by.  Like an ocptopus with a million legs and holding on to everyhthing passing by and being pulled in infiinte direction.s 

Imagine if it suddenly lets go, what a whack it would get from all its legs combined recoil. 

Methi paratha. Would go very well with the garlic pickle he is making. 

Where is this

Where is that 

Incessant. Wont look. Cant see.

I havent been making sprouts for a while. Nor micro greens. 

I like the kichen counter to be clean. Spot less. A few 

You this. You that. 

A clean kitchen counter whre we can cook. 

Its a small counter and i need it clean. Right now its a clutter.

You this you that

This is like this This is like that

Where have i seen this play out in loop. My mother. R has turned into my mother this morning. R keeps turning into my mother. 

That when i hate him. Hate is strong. Intensely dislike. When he keeps driving home this point of how one is not doing what what one is supposed to be doing. That what and who one is,  isnt ideal. 

This was beginining to feel like a whiny pointless post with zero insight. 

And R calls up his mom to ask if she minds  onion in the kadala curry he is making. We are taking puttu and kadala over with us when we go to visit them today.  I would have thought it odd the affection he bestows on his mother. And early on when i met him, he wasnt so expressive with his affection towards his parents. A 54 year old man being being possibly moer affectionate with his mom that i am with mine. Is actually such a wonderful and beautiful thing. In my own conditioning, formed by acerbic relations between my mom and her mom-in-law and my father’s absence, that i never got a clear idea of my fathers relationship with his mother. What  do i mean by that? I suppose we form neural pathways of expectations based on what we are exposed to. Somewhere in my liberal hyper-independent idea of the free woman, modelled along the independent man,  was one who didnt need anyone. And so it seems strange, for the adult man to express his affection for his aged mother. He can take care of the financial and social obligations et al. But to express geniune affection outwardly. How unstoic. 

ANd how human. To actually accept and acknowlege ones need for this primary connection to the world. Than hide it in thick layers of indifference and independence as expression of masculinity. 

And somewhere, the articulation of the Oedipus complex lurks suspiciously, watching out for abnormality in everything and everyone. That if one thing that has been named and labelled, and its all just that. 

I know that its my own possessive tendencies and programming that assumes that every ounce of the adult male’s attention must be and must only be directed towards his “legal” mate.

Ah. There were are inching closer and notice the familiar subject in the horizon. Envy. 

Yesterday when R said he was intensely attracted to E at some point in the exercise which was to gaze into the eyes of another, a stranger or friend for 10 minutes, i felt the sensations. Bubbling that demanded more space. Didnt want touch. Words that came out first - was to reassert power. “I know, i sensed it then”. And its true, i am quite sensitivve and i may have sensed it then and it may have had its effects on the evening. Sure. 

But what was remarkable was how my viewing expereince of the film that E made, (and it was while watching the film that R made this statement) shifted ever so slightly. My neutral viewing and expereince of admiration shifted slowly and clearly towards disinterest and and veiled criticism. Basically, to put it simply, i found more faults with the film in the last half an hour after the greens than i did in the whole one hour before that. To the extent that i even found a scene dishonest and without integrity.

Now the question that i wont ever have a real answer to - is if the scene actually had elements that lacked a certain integrity and congruent with the position taken by the maker. And my envy allowed for a critical lens, or a wiping out of rose tinted admiration?

Or it was a discouloring and distrotion of the viewing experince, from the sensations expereinced?

I dont know. 

Maybe what i am trying to ask is - is there any use of this sensation or expereince of envy. Does it serve any purpose in the larger sense of things? Because everything does, no, if we go by the idea of interconnectedness. Even the weeds have uses, unknown to us.

The sensation is sure unpleasant. It immediately put a distance between me and R and even E. 

It created a distinct expereince of seperation. And with it came thoughts of security, or more like insecurity. Discrediting the other in someway as being weak. The need to claim, reclaim power. “ yea. When i have hung out with her husband, i was also quite intensely attracted to him”. 

And also raised aloud once again the nature of commitment. Between R and me thats an on going conversation. How does one arrive into a mature sensible relationship. 

Writing is slower today. I shared the blog link with 3 and a half people. And i know this will be read by someone other than me. Earlier there was no such thought at all. 

It is changing the tone of what is being written. At this point atleast.

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“ Dil mein mere hai Dard-e-disco dard-e-disco” … keeps appearing in head at random moments. Like a tape was left on and the power kept coming on and off. The two lines become backdrops to the most incognruent thoughts. 

I go looking for the source. I dont find it. 

In the play - 

The character goes looking for the source of the song that fills the scene, and keeps looking and doesnt find it.

In another play, as ina thiriller , the song is the red color coating the pill. The memory that needs to placed into the slot to rewire the expereince of reality. Of joy. Or rights and wrongs. Of this one girl and hence of the collective. The logic is a lot  like inception. 

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Ok. time to wrap. Dissatisfaction .

That the future gaze of another is coloring my expereince of perceiving and expressing. Maybe thats the distance between the master and the novice. The future gaze of another, for the master is also the future gaze of herself. The other not seperate from the self. And the novice rolls in the muck of otherness. 

Rolling nice long distances made by the idea of such a seperation. Making huge spaces. And feeling small. Pretending to be big and feeling small.

I have had more backspaces operating today than i have ever in the recents. 

Ok so envy makes some space and distance on one plane, while clingling like resin on another plane. Two opposite properties belonging to the same idea. Thats also another interpretation of duality.

HUnger hunger.

I go eat and make puttu.

I really hope i do my exercises in the evening. My knees need it. ANd not keep it off to the next morning - because only mornings are perfect. And if i cant do it in the morning i can nver do it, nonsense. 

Afternoon today mom starts stitchinging classes with me. 

We pulled out almost a hundred bed sheets from the trunk in the outhouse. Apparently, they are some 40-50 years old. Belonging to R’s grandmom. 

Quite timely that R opened the trunks. We intend to keep some sheets for us, and for people who visit and some for the stiching classes and send the rest to La. Maybe there will still be enough to generally give away. 

R and Rc are bantering int he kitching. Waiting for some sense of satisfactiong and lcarity i stick onto the word doc. Inspite of raging hunger and the smell and sight of mangoes. 

Ok thats it. Today is this. Just observe it. Guilts. Nothing to do. Just watch. 

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I entered. I apologize if i pushed it. I have sense that i may have. Or treated it casually.

I ask for forgiveness. And i forgive. As a student would. 

I leave now. To return wiser tomorrow.

[isaacathom]

the captain has basically decided what he believes a Maiden should be, sees the Hero roughly conforming with only minor, ~attractive~ deviance (like asking about current affairs instead of being detached, shit like that) and goes Fuck Damn.....

then when he comes to her rescue as a knight in shining armour, she’s standing next to the villain with no restraints and says ‘actually, i believe the villain has a strong point’ he goes ‘she’s been corrupted!’ because fuck man, dude barely knows her but believes she’s been tricked! he’s an absolute fucking balloon. hence trying to kiss the corruption out of her (which sounds very bad when worded like that but he wouldnt think that. SHE sure fucking does.) because, idk, its like in stories where ~love will break the spell~ and the captain has this possessive ideal of his relationship to the Hero that is Straight Up Incorrect and wouldnt have worked anyway?? because Love isn’t a power here, and he has no magic. he was being stupid. he gets his ass absolutely fucking kicked by an Incredibly Displeased Hero, who basically blasts him 20 ft into a fucking wall the moment she properly registers exactly what hes just done (which is basically at the moment the villain goes ‘wHAT’)

and yet his dick continues to guide him because this man is Committed. aka hes a fool. his second (and last) time he probably specifically brings another Maiden, who blasts the Hero a light blast to ‘cleanse her’, mostly against the will of both of them. The Hero definitely isnt corrupted (explicitly or otherwise, barring interpretation) and the other Maiden is pretty sure its not possible for the Maiden to be corrupted (which is technically untrue because thats how Dark Maidens came to be, but in her defence the Light Kingdom doesnt exactly share strong information on this topic). its a big mess. its honestly just a story of the Captain getting cocky and trying to show off to a Maiden who has 0 fucks to give about his idiotic bravado and who is infinitely more capable of leading if it werent for her lack of personal combat knowledge and her Job. he’s an idiot. i hate him

then, yknow, he decides the only way to ‘free’ the Hero (who, mind you, doesn’t want to leave) is to kill the Villain. which is a fair enough assumption to make. so he forces the Maiden to switch abruptly from shining a torch on the Hero to torching the Villain, before running in and making a solid attempt to take advantage of her immediate disorientation. knocked back, oh fuck, then suddenly he’s being held by his collar and prevent from closing the gap to attack a mostly unconscious Villain. bam, its the Hero, who pretends to be ‘uncorrupted’ and calls him off, insisting on peace and a peaceful return. the Captain, having zero awareness, and despite the fact the Maiden standing a little way off is shaking her head furiously and begging him not to trust her (the poor darling is very conflicted but she did notice that the Hero seemed to have consciously chosen to pretend. it looks fake. shes very confused. the poor dear shouldnt even be here) but the Hero manages to persuasively disarm him (literally and figuratively) before using his own blade to stab him in the chest and kick him down the stairs, before throwing the bloody sword on top of him. ‘get the fuck out’ shit like that. absolute switch. though if you include the captain tryna be sneaky again w/ another kiss (again hes a fucking buffoon and a huge dick) you can easily have it parallel the first time, except this time she’s prepared and she kills him. niiiice.

he’s dead, the younger Maiden is absolutely terrified and immediately leaves, Hero goes to check on her villainous gf and finds she’s just a bit battered but mostly fine, and bam. success. absolutely rocked. young maiden will get more character, probably as like, one who is only a few years younger than the Hero and who has a close relationship with her. which allows her to see that the Hero is clearly in possession of her faculties and that unless she was corrupted before her kidnap, that this is just How She Does. its a lot of fun overall, except for the Captain, fuck the captain. stop thinking with your dick. god dammit. now youre dead, and you were asking for it. this probably ALSO comes with him being weird before her kidnap, like the whole cockiness thing and trying to impress her, but the difference is that pre kidnap, the Hero had no real avenue to express her frustrations beyond politely, viciously laced dismissal. she could exactly punch him, because the only times they ever really interacted with Extremely Publically, surrounded by people. the one thing she had power over was ensuring he never came close to her in more private settings, by telling people she thought his ~considerable talents~ were better used elsewhere, defending children, for instance. which made her feel vaguely icky because she was fairly confident he was only going after her and possibly a few other maidens around her age, rather than all of them. a younger maiden wouldve immediately confided if something had gone wrong and she wouldve used it to have him demoted, but nothing came of it.

now that she’s essentially free (in pretty much ever sense) she can retaliate to his unwanted advances and absolute stupidity. she probably didnt WANT to kill him, at least not initially, hence the first time just throwing him into a wall. then he keeeps fuuuckcing doooing it and shes just not having it, homie.

tl;dr the captain needed to keep his boner in his pants and he fucked it up and now he’s dead, gj