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no thoughts head empty only suguru panting above you, looking deep into your glassy eyes before letting out a raspy exhale and lowering himself so he can mouth ”you’re so precious” against your neck
#something something the preciousness of the weak + u are so . defenseless in that moment and that trust does fry his brain alive#you are so weak = you are Letting yourself be this weak. for him = you are so so beautiful#he doesnt know what to do with himself#hhhhhhhhhhhh T_T
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you use lin ling's deodorant and hes following you around the whole day like a dog . btw .
#cedar.>>>general#i know that man is unsettling about scents#hes such a lonely and isolated person when he suddenly has someone filling his space and *living*-#- with him#he doesnt know what to do with himself#specifically wrote this with bf! lin ling in mind but. if ur his crush and u ask to borrow his he feels . at least a little smug .#HE WONT SHOW IT BUT. its there . lurking .
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january month of yuugi
#yugioh#ygo dm#yugi mutou#idk what was in the water on 2025 opening but it really got me thinking hm. I will finally draw yuugi#ygo has been in my dna for like close to a decade at this point and yet. I have never attempted to draw anything for it#until now. my audacity has finally reached quota#wishshipping saved my ass this lunar new year and its not even an exaggeration. thank you kazuki takahashi for the boys. rest in peace#mutou yuugi I love u.... u r my son#not mentioned in this stack but dsod's decision to thin yuugi's choker is the funniest shittiest character design decision on earth#like as a detail its so nothing. when u zoom out it just looks like a shadow dropped wrong somewhere. I have come to terms with#the other fashion choice for him in that movie but the tiny ass choker I don't accept. that's stupid. big it#I rly like the vision of older yuugi being like. obnoxiously polite and cheerful#specifically in a way that's not like ceding space for everyone else. like it's clear at all time that he's Like That#and nobody will be able to stop him from being Like That#and also tbh I can never imagine him leaving domino for long (<- definitely not projecting my city slicker ass on him)#I think the game shop's been where he's safe to be himself for so long that he'd want to keep it running and extend#that shade to other kids in the city too. his loyal customers are so scared of disappointing him for no reason#.... typed huge wall of text abt jou leaving domino for tournaments etc frequently but always coming back to hang out with yuugi#I am actually ill abt them huh.... maybe ygo was the progenitor honestly maybe it started me on the two blokes who do fuckall ships#yuugi is so cute but I do know in my heart tho he does Not cook. that kid has never learned and will never manage#I know he doesnt even have water in his office whenever he works. scared of spilling#its a good thing hes got friends galore now people are blowing his phone up wasting their sms toll telling him to drink water#(slowly tipping into mania) I just think he's so neat. love that boy he's so cute
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not so evil anymore, are u >:)
#didnt know what to caption it lol#just that reigen i think would be the msot understanding#both bc of his own self worth issues and bc his first reaction to dimple was not violence but genuine curiosity.#ekurei#mp100#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#dimple#mp100 dimple#op art#comic#and reigen has never really seen the super evil side of dimple#never saw him run a cult or take over the world (memories wiped)#but man. doesnt that also open a can of worms#in which reigen is learning to not hide himself and dimple is still hiding. hiding his evil parts from reigen unintentionally by doing that#memory wipe#he probably hates himself too#fuucuk i may have to make a comic about that ough
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sometimes you gotta lure your overly-studious ravenclaw gf into spending time with you 🥰 📚 ( from 'Every Teardrop is a Waterfall' by Kat_12739 on ao3, GO READ IT!!! the first story is about seb falling sick and still pushing himself/not admitting he's sick until he ends up in the hospital, the second story is about the birth of seb and clora's daughter and seb's reaction to clora almost dying in childbirth, and the third is about dealing with a fussy newborn lewis😭🥹THEY'RE SO GOOD AND SWEET AND SOMEWHAT SAD (not to mention beautifully written) so go check it out!!💖💖 )
#READ SO I CAN YAP TO SOMEONE ABOUT THEM🙏😩💘#the seb sickfic made me realize how much i needed barely functioning and sick seb (but him still trying to be tough)#theres also a part that cracked me up bc at one point seb is so sick he cant even see straight but he just thinks to himself:#eh its fine.... ill just ask ominis how HE functions without vision later🤷 LMFAO#so stubborn...JUST LET CLORA TAKE CARE OF YOU MFER🤺🤺🤺#defs gonna be drawing more from it especially sick seb LMAO but also seb having a tea party with celeste🥹🥹#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy fanfiction#sebastian sallow fanfiction#hphl#choccyart#also i was never planning on writing anything about clora giving birth or abt the kids so to be able to read it WAS AMAZING#THERES A PART WHERE SEB IS HOLDING CELESTE AND CRYING AT CLORAS BEDSIDE THAT I NEED TO DRAW😭😭#LIKE SRSLY seb being conflicted and not even wanting to HOLD celeste bc he doesnt know if clora is alive or not... IT WAS SO SAD BUT GOOD#i honestly dont know what seb would do if clora died in childbirth tbh.......i could honestly see him resenting celeste#esp since she looks so much like clora😭😭#LETS JUST NOT THINK ABOUT IT!😃👍#(still thinking about it)#like this line in the fic: “Sebastian hesitated; if this was Clora’s last gift to him he wasn’t sure he wanted it.”#😭😭😭ITS SO GOOD UGHHHHH😭 TY AGAIN FOR WRITING THESE💖IM SO TOUCHEDDD💖💖
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i keep thinking to myself, god we have got to put tim drake in a time loop. but also time loops just feel so perfectly like speedster bullshit, yknow? therefore lemme just smash these thoughts together like particles at cern aaannddd--
let's put tim in a time loop that bart accidentally caused. a tim loop, if you will :) specifically, tim loop where kon dies at the end and bart just kind of subconsciously went nope! and "if anyone can fix it it's tim right?" bc bart has. a normal amount of faith in his friends but also a normal amount of feelings about himself being useless to save kon bc he couldn't in infinite crisis.
and bam suddenly tim is having the worst tuesday of his life like 20 times in a row. yippee! it's bart-powered but he doesn't even know. he did it on accident. bart in the loop doesn't know what's going on. it just resets every time the ending is something bart can't accept (kon dies again). tim tries to sacrifice himself to save kon once but somehow that doesn't break the loop either (bart refuses to accept that). how long can tim go through a time loop before he goes completely bonkers bananas insane? only tim(e) will tell.
and, worse: how many times can tim watch kon die? how many times can he beg kon to value his own life, to get it through his head that being a hero doesn't mean he needs to die for the world, that there must be another way? how many times can he watch kon sacrifice himself to save others and know that if he stops kon, those people might die?
how fucked up would he be if he ever actually found out just how suicidal kon has been his entire life?
extra fun: cassie takes one look at him every time and instantly clocks that he's feeling like shit, but every time she forgets why, because the loop resets. tim is being perceived but it never lasts. this will drive him crazy so fast. he's gonna start acting out and snapping at her for being concerned because what's the POINT of talking about his feelings if everything resets ANYWAY. this will definitely not come back to bite him in the end or anything, right?
(kon-el dead wife giggling in the sunshine and playing under the sheets montage plays over and over for both tim and bart. this probably means nothing.)
#rimi talks#i will never write this fic bc i have too many wips already but like#kon and heroism as self sacrifice vs bart refusing to let him die so hard he breaks time a little bit#but bart is fucked UP by infinite crisis and doesnt think he can do it himself. like#its about the devotion between all 3 of them. timkonbart is real#and tim&cassie is also so fucking real its a cornerstone of this in a different way.#she knows him sooo well. she KNOWS what intense grief and trauma look like on him#but the time loop prevents her from actually getting through to him. because she did once. and then it reset#anyways. time loops fun everyone go play in stars and time im thinking about it again#tim#kon#bart#idiot trio <3#cassie#core four
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oh distant starry night
#my art#metalocalypse#mtl#toki wartooth#skwisgaar skwigelf#skwistok#i feel like even in situations where theyre not together theyre still like.. close (maybe in a queerplatonic sense maybe not)#and skwis kinda hates it. i figure he has trust issues from his childhood and feels best not getting attached to anyone#hence him having like a million previous bands and such. like he can fool around he can joke he can fuck#but as soon as someone gets closer he doesnt know what to do#hes exploding himself in his mind so he doesnt get too open with toki. or whoever else#anyway. enjoy ! im gonna eat my delicious meal of karelian stew and glub around the rest of the day (i have a fever)
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Learn from who? Learn from you?
Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#userspring#uservid#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit#OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros#and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember#ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene#and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc#the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won
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Shen Yuan getting transported into pidw isn't "the system punishing him for being a lazy internet hater," but instead representative of "step 1 of the creative process: getting so mad at something you decide to go write your own fucking book" in this essay I will
#svsss#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#the fact that people think scum villain#-a series that examines and criticizes common tropes in fiction-#is somehow against criticism or being a little hater is wild to me#especially since shen qingqiu never gets punished for being a hater#heck- he's still a little hater by the end of the series#he mostly gets punished for treating life like a play and like he and the people around him are characters#(or in other words- he suffers for denying his own wants and emotions and his own sense of empathy)#I think some of y'all underestimate how much writing/art is inspired by creaters being little haters#like example off the top of my head-#the author of Iron Widow has been pretty vocal about the book being inspired by their hatred of Darling in the Franxx#I think my interpretation of Shen Yuan's transmigration is also supported by the fact that this series is an examines writing processes#side note- though i understand why people say Shen Yuan is lazy and think its a valid take it still doesnt sit right with me#i am probably biased because my own experiences with chronic pain and depression and isolation#but ya- i dont think Shen Yuan is lazy so much as he is deeply lonely and feels purposeless after denying parts of himself for 20ish years#like yall remember the online fandom boom from covid right?#being stuck completely alone in bed while feeling like shit for 20 days straight does shit to your brain#the fact that no one came to check on him + he wasn't exactly upset about leaving anyone behind supports the isolation interpretation too#+in the skinner demon arc he describes his life of being a faker/inability to stop being a faker now that he's Shen Qingqiu#as “so bland he's tempted to throw salt on himself” and “all he could do is lay around and wait for death” (<-paraphrasing)#bro wants to be doing stuff but is stuck in paralysis from repeatedly following scrips made by other people#another point on “Shen Yuan isn’t lazy” is just the sheer amount of studying that man does#also he did graduate college- how lazy can he really be#he doesnt know what hes doing but he at least tries to actively train his students#and he actually works on improving his own cultivation + spends quite a bit of time preping the mushroom body thing#+he's experiencing bouts of debilitating chronic pain throughout all this#but ya tldr: Shen Yuan's transmigration is an encouragement to write and not a punishment and also i dont think its fair to call him lazy
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micro comic with no real point or punchline i just have conversations i wanna draw out sometimes
#a doodley#1. throuple lives in a mobile home esque situation on the kaye farm... they can see#al's parents' house from there! they do laundry there weekly even#so of course it wld be much nicer to spend some time there#2. talon doesn't want to meet al's parents bc he doesnt wanna meet more people LMAO#but honestly truly i think he'd die if he had 2 more people caring about him. because al's parents are SO caring#he already has Issues with his ''boyfriends'' treating him in a way he perceives as Parent/Child#having actual parents tacked on would fry his brain in every direction#so he hides#they know about him they've seen him but they've never interacted with him one on one#its SO painful for them because they wanna get to know him soooo bad they want to spoil him#AND ALSO i dont think the racecar bed was actually given away#i added that bc i needed Something there at the end ykwim#i think the racecar bed is tucked to the side of al's childhood room. with a bunch of stuff on it#in furryverse i like to think nyalon naps there#al's old room is on the second floor but it has an entrace from the outside (outside stairs‚ like#a fire escape) so i think talon (furry or human) would go there sometimes#if he needed space away from al and smunker#its their compromise when talon REALLY freaks out#like please dont skip town. there's a huge chance he'll convince himself to never come back if he does#and being out in the woods is scary what if something Happens. use my old room instead youll be safe and alone
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Now.. I'm not doubting Johnny somewhat (?) loved Alt in his own convoluted and severely misguided ways but uh.. to call them soulmates? Did we uh.. did we not play the same game? Watch the same scenes? Because it's crazy y'all r saying that when we literally play as his actual soulmate
#actually blowing up every cishet guy in tiktok comment sections who say this shit#like ofc yall would#guys im not super sure that was like soulmate type love up there on that screen thats more like#man i love this chick for what she represents to me than like.. man i love this woman for who she is as a person...........#i actually am so curious how they think they're soulmates and im mean this with genuine curiosity what r they seeing that im not#bc all i can think is like... theyre just defaulting? to a het relationship? esp if they play as male v#and god forbid they see two men as each others soulmate#and even for fem v and johnny like.. its no different?#so why alt and johnny and not v and johnny?#AND THEN THEYRE FIGHTING ABT if he loved rogue or alt more girl 💀#like tf u mean johnny loved alt because 'u never kno what u have till its gone' thats it? thats yr reason? honestly actually really?#oh lord all im finding out is there are a lot more people who hate alt than i thought......#im just saying.. johnny didnt really kno how to love beyond the image of himself#until v literally uncontrollably not just tore those walls down but literally melded them into something new#v had no choice but to see the johnny under the omage and johnny had no choice but to show v that image#and v still cared for johnny in spite of#johnny couldnt posses the love he has for v with rogue or alt simply bc that involved getting close and#he literally had to be attached to some guys brain lile a fucking parasite for that to ever happen.....#how can u say he they were soulmates if they never really knew each other#he didnt even know alt was a fucking netrunner for fucks sake and she apparently never thought it was like something worth telling him#how is that soulmate shit fr? girl she doesnt even like his ass on the basis of his character 😭 none of them do 😭😭#he literally says so 😭😭😭 and he dont even need to tell us that to see 😭😭😭😭#hes actually despicable until v makes him slightly more tolerable bc hes leeching off emotional self awareness he mever had b4 😭😭😭😭😭#im scared of tik tok comment sections ngl so really im just raving here under the false security of tumblr tags#silverv#cyberpunk 2077#ult speaking
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hijo de la luna
#okay FIRST off. song by mecano my friend said is soooo silver and it is. like. the story steers off his course but its still his song#SECOND. this isnt Actual hollow moon fanart but it is in my heart. ive reread ell's fic 3 times now and every time it kills me. KILLS#go read it. hollow moon by serenescribe. its a 40k oneshot of silver slowly but surely being moon snatched. its delicious#the tumblr crowd already knows how swagalicious ell is tho i dont need to sell it to u. the munchiest crunchiest writing ever. mwah#but yes. i want silver to be made of moondust. i want him to shimmer and glow white as snow i want him a MOON CHILD#also i do Not make OCs bc im not creative but i think his roommate is a vil fan and eats oatmeal and likes sil's birds#by proximity. doesnt care for animals otherwise. he also has a crush on silver he told me himself#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#if catríona suntails doesn't draw a dramatically lit background then what's the point#suntails
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percy found a place for himself at both, camp halfblood and camp jupiter. annabeth was made the architect of olympus. leo got a family, in the form of em and jo. hazel and frank became praetors. piper started her journey towards self discovery, reconnecting with her roots. thalia and reyna joined the hunters. will and nico both became camp counsellors. everyone had a place they belonged in. but jason was the only one who had nowhere to belong. not in camp jupiter, they treated him more like a son of zeus, a natural born leader whose only purpose is to be the perfect praetor. they did not view him as jason grace, a young boy who was thrust into this violence too early. not in camp halfblood, where no matter what he did, it could never be enough because though no one said it directly, everyone held some resentment against him for the sole reason of him not being percy. not with thalia, his only family. she joined the hunters. not with piper and leo, the entire dynamic of the trio was built on falsehoods and manipulated memories and cognitive distortions. there was nowhere for him to go after hoo. there was no home for him, waiting for him to come rest. there was no future planned for him. rick killing him off was, for the most part, for shock value, but the foundations for it were laid down since jason was first introduced. jason grace had nowhere to go, except into the arms of death.
#the tragedy isnt that jason died#its that he died because there was no life for him#which i think is just rick's way of dealing with a character he doesnt know what to do with#but thats a tragedy in itself#your creater himself couldnt give you a home so you#have no other option but to cease to exist#because every place you had ever called home has made it clear that#its not your home#jason grace#heroes of olympus
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i always forget that eddie never really talks about buck with anyone in the show, its just such a stark contrast to how buck is always seen talking about eddie to others or bringing up eddie’s Things in front of the 118 or whatever. hopefully we will start seeing eddie talk about buck to strangers in texas (kinda like he did with marjan) :) seems like a good segue into an eventual feelings realization
right now im of the opinion (and kinda what i tried to convey in my last answer) that like. NOT showing us that is starting to have weight to it. because we have gotten so many episodes of Buck's feelings ABOUT Eddie in the last two seasons. and specifically Buck HIDING feelings from Eddie (even something as small as the way Buck's face falls--out of Eddie's line of sight--in 8x01 and 8x08). i think the last time we got similar shots from eddie was in 6b during buck's recovery arc.
and like obviously one reason is that buck and eddie are very different people. eddie keeps things, especially things that matter to him, close to the chest. buck really doesn't. another reason is that buck has an outlet or two to talk about eddie to other people (maddie is a recurring one, tommy in 704 was another, chim even was one way back in s2). Eddie...doesn't have that. who does he usually go to first with things? Buck. occasionally Bobby (sometimes only after Buck has suggested it).
but regardless of the practical reasons for it, the unevenness of this POV issue is starting to feel interesting to me. like now the possibility of getting a glimpse of how eddie thinks about/talks about Buck to other people who AREN'T buck could be revealing in a fun way.
and like to be clear what i am talking about is Eddie's PERCEPTION of his feelings. because I think the show has made Eddie's feelings about Buck pretty clear over the last 7 seasons. we just don't know if HE is like, fully aware/able to acknowledge how deep his feelings go. but the show has been very clear since at least s3 about how deep those feelings are.
#sibyl answers#anon#idk if this is making sense#it almost feels like Eddie hasn't *had* to think about his feelings for buck.#whereas buck has had to confront his feelings about Eddie like 5 times in the past 2 seasons#to eddie everything is solid. buck is his rock. he's not going to question it and he doesn't have to think about it#even now with him leaving he's so focused on christopher that he just like has to keep assuming that buck is there#solid as always.#and the really fun thing is that buck knows that. and that's why he's been fighting so hard to keep eddie from seeing how torn up he is#but like eddie has not been looking at anything other than what he needs to do#even while leaving him he's basically telling himself like#this doesnt change a thing. we're still just a phonecall away. we're gonna be as solid as ever#like he's not really letting himself go down the whole road of What Does Buck Mean To Me and the associated pain of knowing the answer#he cant really afford that right now. but there are little hints that this is not something he can think about/talk about#so it will be interesting to see if something DOES force the question of What Does Buck Mean To Me
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watching house and tryna keep track of all the hilson moments, but sometimes it just surprises me how wilson and house are just . always together 😭😭 like mf arent you an oncologist this is not your department??
#need to read more abt hilson tbh#AUGH BUT THE HILSON MOMENTS SO FAR pls not the “🎶we might kiss🎶” scene thats just . theyre gay omg#i ship hilson the most fundamentally but im ngl house has crazy chemistry w some of these people like…. cuddy. i love her#i dont ship them but i love her. i sort of almost ship him and cameron? but.. its just… like i dont ship him w anyone rly#i just think he and wilson are emotionally tied together forever#some sort of life line thats been knotted against their wills#but not exactly shipping??? augh its so complicated i mean i want them to kiss but at the same time theyre the balances to each others view#and scales in the world . sighh#theyre like oxygen and lungs- its not right and it doesnt work without the other#actually insane#and i think its hard to ship house with anyone because he never shows any affection or opens up to ANYONE and i actually think it got worse#in season 2 😭😭#seven different people telling him how miserable he actually is and hes not doing ANYTHING only drugs and being meaner#house omg when i catch you house#silly talkz :p#augh people telling him stuff they dont like abt him but he already knows bc he fucking HATES HIMSELF and he never tells anyone like FUCK#please house at least tell wilson some more. i know wilson understands the best out of everyone but he is far from actually knowing whats#going on#ok end of the yap#malpractice md#house md#hilson
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You've never done that when I got close to you before. Why? None of your business. Tell me, or you can't leave.
KISEKI: DEAR TO ME Ep. 10
#kiseki: dear to me#kisekiedit#kdtm#kiseki dear to me#ai di x chen yi#chen yi x ai di#nat chen#chen bowen#louis chiang#chiang tien#jiang dian#uservid#userspring#userrain#pdribs#userspicy#userjjessi#*cajedit#*gif#every time i color this scene i get stronger. anyway there were so many expressions i just couldnt leave out. the deep breath ai di takes#steeling himself before admitting it. & the way chen yi absorbs it the way he blinks away & his mouth opens before focusing on ai di again#thinking about it. thinking about four years of attacks ai di had to withstand. understanding the way he is now but hating how its happened#and also the guilt hes gotta feel from that! & yet thats overcome in this moment by a need to not let ai di put a wall between them#which is what ai di keeps trying to do. he admits a vulnerable thing and then deflects FOUR TIMES in this scene. first when sleeping#& choking chen yi when woken(& avoiding when questioned abt it). second by dropping his guard & worrying when he finds chen yi injured#& twice more shown in this set. he has to shake it off he has to put his wall back up but his instincts are strongest & chen yi SEES them.#you can see the way ai di wants to relax into that hug. the way he just wants to BREATHE but instead uses those breaths to defend himself#he chooses to flirt hoping it'll make chen yi back off. hoping he'll stop asking him to be vulnerable. but chen yi knows his tricks now.#and hes not going to let ai di continue believing he doesnt CARE about him. its poetic the way he gives him a taste of his own medicine#like it's *strategic*. he watches and learns. he knows his own influence over ai di he knows that HE is ai di's weakness. it's..chef's kiss
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