#he doesnt think about it and doesnt have enough impulse control or self respect to turn anything down

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s5e8 - The Devil's Grip

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I havent written in a very long time. Im grateful i wrote previously and have something to look back on. So much has changed. S and i broke up. Its been more than a year, depending on how you count it, maybe 1.5 yrs.

Im not sure where im going with this, or in life. There were things i believed in before, had hope and ideals. I havent any hope now, i dont know what to hope in (apart from God). Its been like this for a while. What does it look like to hope in God now?

Ive ended up in a specialty i didnt plan on going into. What’s done is done. But the learning point is, it would have been better to take more time to rotate around before deciding, because it was an emotional, impulsive decision (felt way too rushed, i knew this even at the time of applying). It wasnt a peaceful decision, the way such “life-defining” decisions should be made. It was an emotional time - literally six days after S sent that message to break up with me, my boss texted to ask if i was still interested in applying. Im deeply grateful for the opportunity he gave me which i didn’t and don’t deserve. I should have a word with him at some point. On a side note, im deeply grateful that this dept and the people i work with now are mostly of incredible Godly character, a very unique and irreplaceable quality in a workplace.

So much has fallen apart. My career, and the relationship with the person who became my best friend over the course of 7-9 years. It felt unreal, standing there watching everything explode. I couldnt believe what was happening. I never expected things to explode this way. I never expected myself to leave, and i never expected him to leave. He didn’t mean to be cruel, but i experienced it as such, through the whole months of me begging. Especially at the point where he physically walked out on me and closed the door when i was crying hysterically - not to be overdramatic, but it felt like pure coldness to do that to my uncontrollably hemorrhaging heart (like watching that aorta spurting on cardiothoracics). He still thinks choosing not to carry on is right and directed by God, which i doubt. He declined reconciliation despite months of my sincere apologies, pleading with him and my attempts to remediate where i screwed up (he hasn’t made an effort to reconcile with me in 1.5 yrs, cos he’s lost faith in our relationship and, it seems, me, entirely. Unfair as it might feel, that’s the way he feels). All in all, the break up was devastating. I’m still disoriented and trying to find my feet.

Ive significantly lost respect for him, because of his choice not to carry on and to, well, give up on us. I feel that this was more an emotional decision than a decision based on a true seeking of God, true dying to self and true obedience, especially to certain biblical instructions (love your neighbour as yourself, in humility value others above yourself, the relationship as an expression of love for Christ “what you did to the least of these you did to me” rather than a competition for love for Him, 1cor13).

I feel his decision to give up, abandon and betray is not biblically based, even if it can be justifiable by a twist of verses (he justifies not carrying on as him “putting God first”). I feel his decision was driven more by his hurt that i broke up with him, over text, last feb, and my cheating on him in july, than a real, honest, self-challenging attempt to “put God first”. I feel the decision not to carry on came more from his hurt over what i did to him than a true excavation of what it means to obey God and seek Him first. Its not necessary to leave someone whom youve built up a relationship with in order to put God first. Its arguable that being there for one’s friends IS putting God first, rather than leaving them because you can’t deal with it emotionally (greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for one’s friends).

E says that its never so simple as “i heard it from God”, its all a mix of (sometimes sinful) human emotions as well as right-minded intention to follow God. How much of this move is driven by God vs his own human uncontrollable emotions? I doubt he’s admitted the whole truth to himself or me.

But i think his hurt is valid. It definitely is. He says he still doesnt feel whole coming out of 2019 and how i broke things off with him over text in feb and how i cheated in july. I’m not sure what he feels because i cant identify, but he says he doesnt want to deal with the pain with me because it was caused by me, and he’s not ready to talk to me (“can’t deal with it”). He tried to forgive me at the time, attending counselling with me, but gave up after 2 sessions. So i guess i can believe there may be a part of him that could want to work towards a friendship at some point (tho this is thrown into doubt at times, because of our apparent fundamental and irreconciliable differences). On my end, I feel that ive given him the benefit of the doubt many times, and hes always disappointed me in this process, since the break up. He’s never showed up or been the bigger person.

I could give him time, or i could end things. I could give him time to process what he needs to, and give him the chance to potentially engage with me the right way at some time in the future.

Should i, though?

Well, yes and no. Part of me knows he will only ever disappoint me cos thats all hes ever done consistently. The other part of me wants to give him the benefit of the doubt and just let him process things in his own time because its destructive to operate with such cynicism. One is overly cynical, the other is overly hopeful, and both responses arent centred.

Overall i just dont want to think about this anymore. I just want this whole thing out of my mind.

But is that enough for me to cut him out completely and forever? When i ask him, he replies that he wants to be friends but doesn’t know how or when that could happen. He isn’t at all invested in this “friendship”, even if he says its what he wants. He thinks God needs to encourage it or something before he will put in the effort... its all so screwed up cos of his ridiculous view or way of hearing from God that’s so mystical and non-bible based. I honestly feel really disgusted by him. He has been asking me not to contact him for a long time, more than a year. I’ve agreed to honour that. Mainly out of an understanding that he’ll never change, and ive outgrown him and his cuckoo ideas about how to hear from God. I know even if we become friends in the future, he’s gonna be the exact same dud - and why would i want to go back to that? Even as a friend. My basic requirements for friendship are that i respect the person and they respect me back. He absolutely does not respect me, and i absolutely dont respect him. Even tho we pay lip service to each other in emails for the sake of appearing holy and peace loving, we each are 100% convinced we know better. I don’t see a friendship here. I see disgust. I see contempt. Its beyond repair. And theres no instruction from God to repair it. So it will lie unrepaired for life.

Thinking about him makes me get into unpleasant thoughts and feelings. I dont have the exact words to describe how i feel. Not quite just anger (im over the peak of that), not really sadness (i do feel its sad that i still care about him and think about him so much when he wants nothing to do with me and wants me to not contact him - i mean, i dont have a practice of asking people not to contact me indefinitely, i think its rude, unfair and cruel), not just superiority cos i do admit i dont know everything and God works in mysterious ways and He still establishes a relationship with S even tho there is likely disobedience and misguidedness in S that he may never ever come to realize in this life). Its not purely a sense of betrayal as i walked out first - i knew he wasnt what i wanted, cos he wasnt loving me, or kind, or Christlike in his countenance towards not just me but everyone around us. I shouldnt just have walked out i should have pointed us to God, but there you have it. I dont regret ending things cos i know if i had continued we would be in a worse place than we are in now, where im stuck in an unhappy relationship out of obligation and fear of being alone. Its better to not be in a relationship than to be in one where you arent respected or loved.

I would say this whole event has had an impact on my relationship with... effort and commitment? Knowing you can try your best and have everything still fail. I used to believe in the “power of my dreams”. That i could get anything i wanted if i wanted it enough. But ive learnt that where the outcome is dependent on things outside my control (eg other people, genetics, politics), just trying my best and bringing my best intentions isnt enough. Its something but it doesnt guarantee an outcome - nothing can. You can say God can guarantee an outcome, but i would be cautious to believe only what He’s given in the bible and some revelations that are consistent with that and have been confirmed by wiser believers than myself, and those who know me well.

I have to hope again. And i have to stop wallowing and being selfpitiful. No. I have to hold myself to a higher standard.

The between places.

To focus on the next right thing - passing anatomy and being punctual. Seeking God, esp in my work...

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I’m just gonna rant about my boi Eredhon here for a bit because I have thoughts.

I’ve been watching Silver Quill’s archetype videos on some of the MLP cast, and most of the inspiration of my self reflection comes from his video on Fluttershy

Now, in many ways, Eredhon and Fluttershy are already very alike. Both are timid, shy and anxious, and generally prefer the company of animals over others. Yet they’re still not interchangable as character archetypes (thankfully)

Eredhon’s main difference is how he interacts with the world and the groups around him. At first, he often tends to single out a specific character and hides under their wing until he’s comfortable enough to come out and play with the rest of the cast. This part has been played by Malgelir, Pietro, @legolasgoldy‘s Finrod and more recently @hclliish‘s Hel. More often than not the character he singles out is far more sociable than he is (which isn’t difficult to be) and acts like somewhat of a shield to take away the initial terror he feels at having to be in groups.

His anxiety, for one, is very based on what the group’s opinion of him is. He gets anxious and unsure if he feels like their value of his worth is endangered by things out of his control (ie his mutation powers), and thus he often seeks a way into a group via a backdoor: the character he singles out generally already has a respectable social standing and can vouch for his worth.

Interestingly is that he is consistently picking out other character types to hide behind. Malgelir and Finrod are both social butterflies who don’t seem to care for cliques and often close the ranks around those they feel are falling over the edge or not given an opportunity to shine.

Pietro and Hel on the other hand seem less of the same “cut” or type, but they are essentially “cool” type characters (no pun intended for Hel) who are on the opposite of Eredhon’s anxiety. Pietro doesn’t care for the group’s opinion of him because in a way he’s invulnerable, Hel on the other hand has had so much shit thrown at her that minor shifts in group dynamic don’t bother her as much as it does Eredhon.

With that said, I don’t think any relationship Eredhon is involved in is as simple as him being a meek and shy trope in need of protection. While protection from life as the overwhelming force he experiences it to be is needed for him, in return he gives a lot.

With Malgelir, he became her devoted husband and is often her anchor into reality, as without him pressing her for matters depending on timelimits she would just completely surrender to her maladaptive daydreaming and get nothing done.

For Finrod, it became a warm friendship signalled by deep and loyal devotion. Talk shit about Finrod, I dare you. But aside from that within Finrod he found a kinship as they are both hopeless romantics, and thus Eredhon will often take it upon himself to comfort Finrod in the rare moments of grief- moments that others might not notice in a character as warm and generous as Finrod often is. Plus, in their rockstar au, Eredhon’s timid nature and sensitive nature often helps reign in the more wild parts of the band.

There haven’t been much threads between Eredhon and Hel, but I think their relationship can blossom into something equally mutually benefitial.

Which leaves us with Pietro. Or even more specifically, Pietro across three distinct interpretations. First of all, the MCU.

A character that by all rights had his heart in the right place, but had his own methods of getting things done (and was taken out of my life far too soon, Marvel, to really and truly get to the nitty and grit of his character). Arguably this is because his love for Wanda held him in check and kept him on the moral path.

On path two we have the interpretation of X-men Evolution.

A character who is technically surrounded by the wrong crowd if only because they enable him in all the wrong ways. While the Brotherhood is a rather tighknit collection of misfits, within the context of the show itself they work more on an individual level than as a complete group. Aside from that, the only one really keeping Pietro in any kind of control in this series is Lance, and that’s only because they’re usually in a struggle for leadership. This feeds into my headcanon of Lance being a natural born leader (moreso than even Scott in my opinion) because Pietro fails to dethrone Lance. But as far as their friendship within the show is concerned, none of them are pushing the others to be better.

And that leaves me with option three, the Fox universe Peter Pietro, for the sake of consistency.

Easily the fan favorite and I think I know why. In my personal opinion, Evan has combined the previous two interpretations into a single, solid character. This Quicksilver is with the Xmen as opposed to the Brotherhood, and morally aligns more with his MCU counterpart- while not sacrificing the fun loving sass and attitude of the Evo counterpart, creating an interesting balance between morality and fun. 

This also comes with another clause; within the context of the Fox movies, much like his Evo version, this Pietro doesn’t have anyone to really hold him accountable as Wanda does for MCU Pietro. His mother is exasparated enough to just sign away the cost of anything he steals without bothering to put her energy into disciplining him. His father doesnt know of his existence. Police can’t get evidence of his misdeeds because he’s just too damn fast. There are no consequences to his actions, not even in the small tidbits and commercials that show him with the team he’s in.

Which is where Eredhon comes in.

Now aside for my love of the “classclown befriends the shy introvert” trope, I think Pietro needs Eredhon as much as Eredhon needs Pietro. Eredhon needs Pietro much like he does his other friends at first; for a way in. Hiding under Pietro’s wing is necessary for him to find a point of calm within himself, as Pietro’s carefree nature and social abilities drag the focus away from Eredhon, until he’s ready to peek out and try and befriend others in various degrees (he tends to work his way up from least intimidating to him to most intimidating, and his judgement on that is his alone. His qualifications of “scary” vary from person to person.)

You’d think that would mean Eredhon gets roped into Pietro’s antics because he’s timid and hates confrontation, and that because of it if Pietro wanted to he could manipulate Eredhon into doing what he wants by threatening to take away that comfort of a safety zone to retreat to.

That is what I think Evo Pietro would do, anyway, but that is not how Fox’s Pietro works. 

Instead I discussed with legolasgoldy a scenario where Pietro does try to kind of rope Eredhon into his misdeeds; ie just complacently going along with him stealing something from a store. But Eredhon is having none of it. The idea of being caught, being in trouble, bringing someone else in trouble, bringing a store in trouble, and ultimately being scolded by school authority brings Eredhon to a point of a straight on panic attack as all of that would diminish how the group as a whole views him.

And for this moral Pietro, who watches his new friend having a panic attack over something so inconsequentional to him- except, it has a direct consequence now; it’s upsetting a friend to the point of a full blown panic attack and his moral values in this interpretation make him feel guilty over causing that.

It’s through this that Eredhon is able to put a much needed break on Pietro as it forces both of them to mature; Eredhon in standing up for himself, and Pietro in caring about the emotions of others.

Because of that, their friendship blossoms into a deep romantic bond as Pietro’s simultaneous connect (being part of the group on his own accord and for his own reasons) and disconnect (still having a giant basement to himself at his mother’s house plus his nature to act on his impulses and be away from the group if he wants to be) to the group gives Eredhon a way to socialize with others while having a safe haven to retreat to hide and recharge. 

In return, Eredhon connects Pietro to his own emotions and to his inner moral values. Thus, for a lack of a better way of putting it, making a speedster slow down and take responsibility for his actions.

Because of that, the classclown is given more reason to be a bit more serious, and the shy introvert is given a reason to come out of his shell and explore the world and all its possibilities. And I think that is why I adore Eredhon and Pietro’s relationship so much, because they bring out the best in each other just to try and help the other grow.

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Fucking I don't give a shit

I guess I'm in my relationship again. I don't know how it happened. For weeks it's just been me waiting for him to decide, and me having to deal with close nights that are fun and easy and like they used to be, with not wanting to it with talking about where we stand. But also nights of talking about it and having him say there's no way it'll ever work, because we can't change, even if we took a break. Then there are the night last when he agreed for a break, or he would consider trying again; and those were filled either with ok times, or it would be just like it used to be. I'd have a panic attack at the wrong time, or I would be emotional and scared and call him freaking out and he would feel like he had to help because I don't have many other people. Or he would be frustrated at me for not making a decision, or he would get frustrated because he would be busy and he would have to come be with my scared panicky needy self. And we agreed to try it, and I don't know how I feel about it. Not good now. It's started bad I told him what I wanted for a relationship, and he asked a bunch of questions for why I wanted certain rules, I was upset already when he asked and I was so anxious and didn't know how to say anything that wasn't self deprecating. I phrased everything poorly and occasionally he freaked out. He keeps saying he can't be with me if I don't respect myself at all. And I'm trying, and I do respect myself in an odd way. And I can't describe how I feel about it without getting backlash for how I actually feel. I do respect myself, I think i deserve the same as everyone else in certain respects. In the general sense, I respect myself. But it's when it gets into specific instances, in specific shades of myself I turn different. My outlook gets dark, and I believe that I'm the worst on the planet. That I'm a pitiful mistake of a human, and that I only mess up everyone's lives despite how much I love all the people I spend time with. Then my respect shifts. Sure I still believe I deserve respect in some way, but it's severely demolished and warped by my perception and rumination. In those cases I feel horrible and like I'm undeserving completely. I don't deserve happiness or love or even things like my body or food. It all gets warped, and can be caused by my impulsive panicked behaviors, or even by something as simple as eating something or weighing myself. I punish every behavior I make, I over apologize, I feel guilty, I overthink and try and backtrack every behavior; which generally leads to more self destruction, confusion from those around me, someone getting super angry at me, or even me lashing out at them in anger because I know their anger towards me will be much worse. I push people away and tease them to come closer, only to completely switch and hurt them or push them away farther. Then I go back, begging for them to forgive me for the confusion I caused. I go back completely broken and lucid, realizing that everything I had done had stemmed from a delusional thought that since everything was fine for a moment, that must mean that I'm fucking up or in some manipulative play where the other person will take off their mask. Only to reveal that they've always hated me and that they only stuck around because they didn't want to have to live with the thought that they were one of the only "friends" of a lifeless girl in a bodybag. I always go back, begging for forgiveness. Promising that I won't be as panicked I won't be as scared or irrational I won't say harsh things I won't rip out my hair and scratch my body until I bleed or give myself black bruises I won't cut my body open I won't burn my wrist I won't hit my head on corners until I bleed to make it stop I won't beg you to take me to the hospital I won't throw up I won't tell you over and over how I'm not hungry and that I don't want to or shouldn't eat, until you break and force me to eat something I won't scream I won't shake and shut down I won't call over and over begging for you to sit with me, scared that I can't be alone, apologizing over and over I won't scavenge for alcohol I'll stop splitting I won't try and kill myself I won't tell you I've tried to end it after the fact and brush it off like you wouldn't care anyway I won't put myself in bad situations I won't hurt you I don't know what to do I've done all of these recently, it's like I just get too scared and sad that all the guilt and shame of existing in my body and with my personality becomes too much. It takes over, and I'm back to the old manipulative behaviors. Not understanding my sadness or fear and not being able to hide it has caused issues. I used to lock it all down, but doing that for 17 years doesnt turn out well. And now when I can't control it it's explosive. I panic and cry at the thought of eating something, and I feel the same if I haven't eaten for a day or whatever and no one brings up food. It's like I get scared if they offer food, but if they don't or say nothing about eating, then I get scared and I rationalize it by thinking: "they're not bringing up food or offering it because you look healthy, you look good, you look fat enough already. They've seen you eat, most of them have seen you binge. They know you're a disgusting animal who doesn't care and will shovel any food into her giant mouth. They don't want to bring it up because they know you'll eat it all, and hey think you're fat already." And I can't stop these behaviors and thoughts I want to, I want to be good, but I was in an unhealthy relationship. I'm trying to get out of the unhealthy, abusive part, but a lot of the unhealthy parts and abusive parts are my fault. Either I unintentionally manipulate with things like food, or not being able to decide something out of fear of making the wrong decision, or I'm just too emotional or too much and it makes the other person fed up and react to my fear with anger or hatred. It all spirals I hate it I'm in a relationship again and the last 3 times I've seen him, we've fought horribly. I feel sick and I told him a summary of what's happened to me recently He said he felt sick and betrayed, we were broken up, but I fucked up. I don't know how to defend any action. Not at all. Because I hurt someone I love. He hurt me too, of course, but I seriously harmed things. I know I did. The things that happened though, I actually don't regret. At all. I finally felt kind of ok being in a situation like that. A situation that's happened lots this semester in other situations, by this was different. I felt ok, better than ok, I didn't feel shitty and I felt super guilty, but not for the interaction itself, just all the backstories behind it. It was the first time I felt ok and actually kind of safe? It's hard to describe But it's horrible that the one good interaction that I had that I briefly mentioned is causing all this pain in everyone. I feel so much guilt and sadness now, but I also still don't feel terrible Maybe that's cruel, but I don't know what to feel. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I don't want to keep beating myself up. The circumstances were all allowed and all ok, given the fact that I was not in a relationship, But I still fucked up And I don't know how to feel It's two extremes. I feel two extremes. How typical I guess I'm used to this, I just wish I wasn't

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Leaks Suggest Trump’s Own Team Is Alarmed By His Behaviour

WASHINGTON President Donald Trump was a little confused the dollar: Was it a strong one thats good for the economy? Or a strong one?

So he made a call except not to any of the business leaders Trump is incorporated into his administrationor even to an age-old friend from his periods in real estate. Instead, he called his national security consultant, withdrew Lt. Gen. Mike Flynn, according to two roots familiar with Flynns reports of the incident.

Flynn has a long record in counterintelligence but not in macroeconomics. And he told Trump he didnt know, that it wasnt its own area of expertise, that, perhaps, Trump should ask an economist instead.

Trump was not stimulated with that answer but that may have been a function of the time of day. Trump had residence the call at 3 a.m ., according to one of Flynns retellings although neither the White House nor Flynns office responded to requests for confirmation about that detail.

Pool via Getty Images

President Donald Trump does appear to take great pleasure in some aspects of the presidency but can also register great sorenes at harassments.

For Americans who based their intuition of Trump on the skilled and deciding financier he depicted on his Apprentice TV reality pictures, the description from these and many other morsels arising as a result of his government may seem a stun: an impulsive, sometimes petty chief executive more interested in the adulation of the nation than the details of his own the development of policies and quick-witted to designate blamed when circumstances do not travel his way.

Unsurprisingly, Trumps volatile behavior has created a better environment ripe for leaks from his executive agencies and even within his White House. And while divulges commonly commit staffers sabotaging one another to improve their own standing or trying to scuttle plan thoughts they find genuinely problematic, Trumps 2-week-old disposal has a third category: reveals from White House and agency bureaucrats fright including the president conduct.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this, suggested Eliot Cohen, a elderly State Department official under President George W. Bush and a member of his National Security Council. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally healthy president.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally health president. Eliot Cohen, former State Department official under George W. Bush

There is the matter of Trumps briefing information, for example. The commander in chief doesnt like to read long memos, a White House aide who asked to remain unnamed told The Huffington Post. So preferably they must be no more than a single sheet. They must have missile parts but not more than nine per page.

Small things can provide him enormous joyfulnes or generate intense irritant. Trump told The New York Times that hes fascinated with the phone system inside the White House. At the same experience, hes registered individual complaints about the handwriting towels aboard Air Force One, the White House aide said, because they are not soft enough.

Hes been particularly obsessed with the capabilities of his aides on cable tv. Past chairwomen frequently didnt make time to watch their press secretarys daily briefs with reporters, but Trump appears to have reached it part of his routine. Saturday Night Lives weekly skewering of his administration is similarly on his must-watch register with his reaction wandering from unamused to seething.

Information about Trumps personal interactions and the inner workings of his administration has come to HuffPost from souls in administration the institutions and in the White House itself. They spoke on condition of obscurity for suspicion of losing their jobs.

While some of the discloses are based on opposition to his policies the travel censor on all refugees and on visitors from seven predominantly Muslim people, for instance numerous seem motivated by a belief that Trumps statements, deeds and tweets pose a genuine threat.

When Trump tweeted about North koreans rocket engineering three weeks before he took office, for example, it scrambled then-President Barack Obamas national security apparatus, which construed increased risk in provoking an precarious young despot who possessed nuclear weapons.

Richard Nephew, a State Department expert on Iran sanctions under Obama, said some of the discloses from the agencies are likely efforts to let the public know that their admonition has not been followed, in the event something bad results down the road. This, I imagine, is about becoming it clear that these kinfolks have tried to do the right thing and there is only so much better they can do with a hostile organisation, Nephew said.

Perhaps along those lines, The Associated Press reported a detailed description of telephone calls Jan. 27 between Trump and Mexican President Enrique Pea Nieto , noting further that Trump responded Mexico had bad hombres and that he might need to send U.S. units to take care of things.( The White House later did Trump had been joking around .) The Washington Post detailed a Jan. 28 communication between Trump and Australian Prime Minister Malcolm Turnbullin which Trump angrily deplored an agreement to resettle refugees held by Australia in the United States.

The New York Times, meanwhile, covered a photograph of a brooding commander in chief, straying the White House alone in a bathrobe at night, watching too much cable television and expressing his exasperations through enraged tweets.

I think its a cry for help, did Elizabeth Rosenberg, a counterterrorism expert at the Treasury Department under Obama. She replied numerous staffers still working in the national security business under Trump watch whats arising and are driven by a simple reason: Skepticism, and the need to share it.

There’s ever leaks. Every president in history has said the press hates me, and there’s too many leaks. Ron Kaufman, former White House staffer under George H.W. Bush

The White House has repudiated many of these histories, including the idea that Trump owns( let alone wears) a bathrobe. Others feud the premise that Trump staffers eroding his competence is rare. Ron Kaufman, who worked in George H.W. Bushs White House in the late 1980 s and early 1990 s, argued that the Trump administrations leaks are par for the course for a young organisation. Theres always discloses, Kaufman spoke. Every president in history has said the press detests me and theres too many leaks.

And Republican National Committee member Randy Evans, a veteran of Newt Gingrichs leak-prone House loudspeakers suite in the 1990 s, said he doesnt get that sense that Trumps staffers are interrogating his fitness for the number of jobs.

Not hitherto, anyway, Evans remarked. Were simply too early in the process. I think you interpret a lot of political jockeying going on and a lot of self-importance going on.

The idea that Trump is temperamentally ill-suited for the presidency is nothing new. It was the primary proof against him during both the GOP primaries a year ago and the legislative elections last-place summertime and descend. At experiences, Trump seemed to embrace the characterization, wearing it as a button of reputation for his status as an anti-establishment outsider.

But what were only hypothetical relates on the campaign trail are now life-and-death decisions inside the White House as evidenced by the death of a Navy commando in a botched raid in Yemen on Jan. 29. Trump agreed with that attacked following a dinner gratify that included his top political consultant, former Breitbart News Chairman Stephen Bannon, whose permanent membership in the National Security Council was itself the basis of widespread holes and alerts from “the member states national” security establishment.

The intelligence community is desperately looking for a route to get some leverage in altering hazardous policies away from a disastrous vector, spoke Rick Wilson, a former Pentagon official familiar with intelligence issues who has become a vocal Trump critic.

Evans responded at some degree the White House will have to get serious about harmful divulges if they want to control their message, just as Gingrichs office had to two decades ago. He described the method of intentionally liberating goodies to various staffers to construe what turned up in photograph. If the administration gets serious about leaks, theyll do the blue-dye measure and find them, Evans said.

But to Cohen, who now learns at Johns Hopkins Universitys School of Advanced International Studies, the problem is not the leakers. Its the president. Because Trump has shown no genuine tendernes or respect for anyone outside his immediate house, Cohen spoke, he cannot expect that of his faculty. This is what happens when you have a narcissist as president.

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[apsbicepstraining]

Leaks Suggest Trump’s Own Team Is Alarmed By His Behaviour

WASHINGTON President Donald Trump was a little confused the dollar: Was it a strong one thats good for the economy? Or a strong one?

So he made a call except not to any of the business leaders Trump is incorporated into his administrationor even to an age-old friend from his periods in real estate. Instead, he called his national security consultant, withdrew Lt. Gen. Mike Flynn, according to two roots familiar with Flynns reports of the incident.

Flynn has a long record in counterintelligence but not in macroeconomics. And he told Trump he didnt know, that it wasnt its own area of expertise, that, perhaps, Trump should ask an economist instead.

Trump was not stimulated with that answer but that may have been a function of the time of day. Trump had residence the call at 3 a.m ., according to one of Flynns retellings although neither the White House nor Flynns office responded to requests for confirmation about that detail.

Pool via Getty Images

President Donald Trump does appear to take great pleasure in some aspects of the presidency but can also register great sorenes at harassments.

For Americans who based their intuition of Trump on the skilled and deciding financier he depicted on his Apprentice TV reality pictures, the description from these and many other morsels arising as a result of his government may seem a stun: an impulsive, sometimes petty chief executive more interested in the adulation of the nation than the details of his own the development of policies and quick-witted to designate blamed when circumstances do not travel his way.

Unsurprisingly, Trumps volatile behavior has created a better environment ripe for leaks from his executive agencies and even within his White House. And while divulges commonly commit staffers sabotaging one another to improve their own standing or trying to scuttle plan thoughts they find genuinely problematic, Trumps 2-week-old disposal has a third category: reveals from White House and agency bureaucrats fright including the president conduct.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this, suggested Eliot Cohen, a elderly State Department official under President George W. Bush and a member of his National Security Council. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally healthy president.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally health president. Eliot Cohen, former State Department official under George W. Bush

There is the matter of Trumps briefing information, for example. The commander in chief doesnt like to read long memos, a White House aide who asked to remain unnamed told The Huffington Post. So preferably they must be no more than a single sheet. They must have missile parts but not more than nine per page.

Small things can provide him enormous joyfulnes or generate intense irritant. Trump told The New York Times that hes fascinated with the phone system inside the White House. At the same experience, hes registered individual complaints about the handwriting towels aboard Air Force One, the White House aide said, because they are not soft enough.

Hes been particularly obsessed with the capabilities of his aides on cable tv. Past chairwomen frequently didnt make time to watch their press secretarys daily briefs with reporters, but Trump appears to have reached it part of his routine. Saturday Night Lives weekly skewering of his administration is similarly on his must-watch register with his reaction wandering from unamused to seething.

Information about Trumps personal interactions and the inner workings of his administration has come to HuffPost from souls in administration the institutions and in the White House itself. They spoke on condition of obscurity for suspicion of losing their jobs.

While some of the discloses are based on opposition to his policies the travel censor on all refugees and on visitors from seven predominantly Muslim people, for instance numerous seem motivated by a belief that Trumps statements, deeds and tweets pose a genuine threat.

When Trump tweeted about North koreans rocket engineering three weeks before he took office, for example, it scrambled then-President Barack Obamas national security apparatus, which construed increased risk in provoking an precarious young despot who possessed nuclear weapons.

Richard Nephew, a State Department expert on Iran sanctions under Obama, said some of the discloses from the agencies are likely efforts to let the public know that their admonition has not been followed, in the event something bad results down the road. This, I imagine, is about becoming it clear that these kinfolks have tried to do the right thing and there is only so much better they can do with a hostile organisation, Nephew said.

Perhaps along those lines, The Associated Press reported a detailed description of telephone calls Jan. 27 between Trump and Mexican President Enrique Pea Nieto , noting further that Trump responded Mexico had bad hombres and that he might need to send U.S. units to take care of things.( The White House later did Trump had been joking around .) The Washington Post detailed a Jan. 28 communication between Trump and Australian Prime Minister Malcolm Turnbullin which Trump angrily deplored an agreement to resettle refugees held by Australia in the United States.

The New York Times, meanwhile, covered a photograph of a brooding commander in chief, straying the White House alone in a bathrobe at night, watching too much cable television and expressing his exasperations through enraged tweets.

I think its a cry for help, did Elizabeth Rosenberg, a counterterrorism expert at the Treasury Department under Obama. She replied numerous staffers still working in the national security business under Trump watch whats arising and are driven by a simple reason: Skepticism, and the need to share it.

There’s ever leaks. Every president in history has said the press hates me, and there’s too many leaks. Ron Kaufman, former White House staffer under George H.W. Bush

The White House has repudiated many of these histories, including the idea that Trump owns( let alone wears) a bathrobe. Others feud the premise that Trump staffers eroding his competence is rare. Ron Kaufman, who worked in George H.W. Bushs White House in the late 1980 s and early 1990 s, argued that the Trump administrations leaks are par for the course for a young organisation. Theres always discloses, Kaufman spoke. Every president in history has said the press detests me and theres too many leaks.

And Republican National Committee member Randy Evans, a veteran of Newt Gingrichs leak-prone House loudspeakers suite in the 1990 s, said he doesnt get that sense that Trumps staffers are interrogating his fitness for the number of jobs.

Not hitherto, anyway, Evans remarked. Were simply too early in the process. I think you interpret a lot of political jockeying going on and a lot of self-importance going on.

The idea that Trump is temperamentally ill-suited for the presidency is nothing new. It was the primary proof against him during both the GOP primaries a year ago and the legislative elections last-place summertime and descend. At experiences, Trump seemed to embrace the characterization, wearing it as a button of reputation for his status as an anti-establishment outsider.

But what were only hypothetical relates on the campaign trail are now life-and-death decisions inside the White House as evidenced by the death of a Navy commando in a botched raid in Yemen on Jan. 29. Trump agreed with that attacked following a dinner gratify that included his top political consultant, former Breitbart News Chairman Stephen Bannon, whose permanent membership in the National Security Council was itself the basis of widespread holes and alerts from “the member states national” security establishment.

The intelligence community is desperately looking for a route to get some leverage in altering hazardous policies away from a disastrous vector, spoke Rick Wilson, a former Pentagon official familiar with intelligence issues who has become a vocal Trump critic.

Evans responded at some degree the White House will have to get serious about harmful divulges if they want to control their message, just as Gingrichs office had to two decades ago. He described the method of intentionally liberating goodies to various staffers to construe what turned up in photograph. If the administration gets serious about leaks, theyll do the blue-dye measure and find them, Evans said.

But to Cohen, who now learns at Johns Hopkins Universitys School of Advanced International Studies, the problem is not the leakers. Its the president. Because Trump has shown no genuine tendernes or respect for anyone outside his immediate house, Cohen spoke, he cannot expect that of his faculty. This is what happens when you have a narcissist as president.

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Leaks Suggest Trump’s Own Team Is Alarmed By His Behaviour

WASHINGTON President Donald Trump was a little confused the dollar: Was it a strong one thats good for the economy? Or a strong one?

So he made a call except not to any of the business leaders Trump is incorporated into his administrationor even to an age-old friend from his periods in real estate. Instead, he called his national security consultant, withdrew Lt. Gen. Mike Flynn, according to two roots familiar with Flynns reports of the incident.

Flynn has a long record in counterintelligence but not in macroeconomics. And he told Trump he didnt know, that it wasnt its own area of expertise, that, perhaps, Trump should ask an economist instead.

Trump was not stimulated with that answer but that may have been a function of the time of day. Trump had residence the call at 3 a.m ., according to one of Flynns retellings although neither the White House nor Flynns office responded to requests for confirmation about that detail.

Pool via Getty Images

President Donald Trump does appear to take great pleasure in some aspects of the presidency but can also register great sorenes at harassments.

For Americans who based their intuition of Trump on the skilled and deciding financier he depicted on his Apprentice TV reality pictures, the description from these and many other morsels arising as a result of his government may seem a stun: an impulsive, sometimes petty chief executive more interested in the adulation of the nation than the details of his own the development of policies and quick-witted to designate blamed when circumstances do not travel his way.

Unsurprisingly, Trumps volatile behavior has created a better environment ripe for leaks from his executive agencies and even within his White House. And while divulges commonly commit staffers sabotaging one another to improve their own standing or trying to scuttle plan thoughts they find genuinely problematic, Trumps 2-week-old disposal has a third category: reveals from White House and agency bureaucrats fright including the president conduct.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this, suggested Eliot Cohen, a elderly State Department official under President George W. Bush and a member of his National Security Council. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally healthy president.

Ive been in this town for 26 times. I have never seen anything like this. I genuinely do not think this is a mentally health president. Eliot Cohen, former State Department official under George W. Bush

There is the matter of Trumps briefing information, for example. The commander in chief doesnt like to read long memos, a White House aide who asked to remain unnamed told The Huffington Post. So preferably they must be no more than a single sheet. They must have missile parts but not more than nine per page.

Small things can provide him enormous joyfulnes or generate intense irritant. Trump told The New York Times that hes fascinated with the phone system inside the White House. At the same experience, hes registered individual complaints about the handwriting towels aboard Air Force One, the White House aide said, because they are not soft enough.

Hes been particularly obsessed with the capabilities of his aides on cable tv. Past chairwomen frequently didnt make time to watch their press secretarys daily briefs with reporters, but Trump appears to have reached it part of his routine. Saturday Night Lives weekly skewering of his administration is similarly on his must-watch register with his reaction wandering from unamused to seething.

Information about Trumps personal interactions and the inner workings of his administration has come to HuffPost from souls in administration the institutions and in the White House itself. They spoke on condition of obscurity for suspicion of losing their jobs.

While some of the discloses are based on opposition to his policies the travel censor on all refugees and on visitors from seven predominantly Muslim people, for instance numerous seem motivated by a belief that Trumps statements, deeds and tweets pose a genuine threat.

When Trump tweeted about North koreans rocket engineering three weeks before he took office, for example, it scrambled then-President Barack Obamas national security apparatus, which construed increased risk in provoking an precarious young despot who possessed nuclear weapons.

Richard Nephew, a State Department expert on Iran sanctions under Obama, said some of the discloses from the agencies are likely efforts to let the public know that their admonition has not been followed, in the event something bad results down the road. This, I imagine, is about becoming it clear that these kinfolks have tried to do the right thing and there is only so much better they can do with a hostile organisation, Nephew said.

Perhaps along those lines, The Associated Press reported a detailed description of telephone calls Jan. 27 between Trump and Mexican President Enrique Pea Nieto , noting further that Trump responded Mexico had bad hombres and that he might need to send U.S. units to take care of things.( The White House later did Trump had been joking around .) The Washington Post detailed a Jan. 28 communication between Trump and Australian Prime Minister Malcolm Turnbullin which Trump angrily deplored an agreement to resettle refugees held by Australia in the United States.

The New York Times, meanwhile, covered a photograph of a brooding commander in chief, straying the White House alone in a bathrobe at night, watching too much cable television and expressing his exasperations through enraged tweets.

I think its a cry for help, did Elizabeth Rosenberg, a counterterrorism expert at the Treasury Department under Obama. She replied numerous staffers still working in the national security business under Trump watch whats arising and are driven by a simple reason: Skepticism, and the need to share it.

There’s ever leaks. Every president in history has said the press hates me, and there’s too many leaks. Ron Kaufman, former White House staffer under George H.W. Bush

The White House has repudiated many of these histories, including the idea that Trump owns( let alone wears) a bathrobe. Others feud the premise that Trump staffers eroding his competence is rare. Ron Kaufman, who worked in George H.W. Bushs White House in the late 1980 s and early 1990 s, argued that the Trump administrations leaks are par for the course for a young organisation. Theres always discloses, Kaufman spoke. Every president in history has said the press detests me and theres too many leaks.

And Republican National Committee member Randy Evans, a veteran of Newt Gingrichs leak-prone House loudspeakers suite in the 1990 s, said he doesnt get that sense that Trumps staffers are interrogating his fitness for the number of jobs.

Not hitherto, anyway, Evans remarked. Were simply too early in the process. I think you interpret a lot of political jockeying going on and a lot of self-importance going on.

The idea that Trump is temperamentally ill-suited for the presidency is nothing new. It was the primary proof against him during both the GOP primaries a year ago and the legislative elections last-place summertime and descend. At experiences, Trump seemed to embrace the characterization, wearing it as a button of reputation for his status as an anti-establishment outsider.

But what were only hypothetical relates on the campaign trail are now life-and-death decisions inside the White House as evidenced by the death of a Navy commando in a botched raid in Yemen on Jan. 29. Trump agreed with that attacked following a dinner gratify that included his top political consultant, former Breitbart News Chairman Stephen Bannon, whose permanent membership in the National Security Council was itself the basis of widespread holes and alerts from “the member states national” security establishment.

The intelligence community is desperately looking for a route to get some leverage in altering hazardous policies away from a disastrous vector, spoke Rick Wilson, a former Pentagon official familiar with intelligence issues who has become a vocal Trump critic.

Evans responded at some degree the White House will have to get serious about harmful divulges if they want to control their message, just as Gingrichs office had to two decades ago. He described the method of intentionally liberating goodies to various staffers to construe what turned up in photograph. If the administration gets serious about leaks, theyll do the blue-dye measure and find them, Evans said.

But to Cohen, who now learns at Johns Hopkins Universitys School of Advanced International Studies, the problem is not the leakers. Its the president. Because Trump has shown no genuine tendernes or respect for anyone outside his immediate house, Cohen spoke, he cannot expect that of his faculty. This is what happens when you have a narcissist as president.

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