#her trust needs to be earned gradually and carefully wrt massive settings
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//As a sort-of extension to a previous post, while yes Sasume's working alone can be accurately attributed to expected things like not needing allies or moral differences or even just trust...
But the actual, severe, primary reason is that she's horrific with attention.
Not in a 'oh time to get awkward' way or even stage fright way, but a lot of attention, from people she doesn't know very well, especially from groups? It triggers her flight or fight response, at best.
At worst, it festers and worsens, turning from nebulously worsened anxiety into paranoia and panic— makes her hyperaware of her every rough edge, of every half-flicker of Shinrei coming out with her rage. Of just how many people are seeing it, judging her for it, hating her for it, waiting for the perfect opportunity to turn on her and hunt her for sport. For fun. Just because they can.
The reason Sasume needs a deep trust before she'll work alongside others longterm is not because it's the barebones needed for such a relationship— it's because if she doesn't, sooner or later, she'll feel like a caged animal they're waiting to put down.
Also, see: the drabble on her issues with crowds.
#im just. sits and thinks abt her. u kno?#meta //#meta // sasume#about // sasume#not to say shes running on paranoia brain Immediately but like :')))#her trust needs to be earned gradually and carefully wrt massive settings#if she works w ur merc company once or twice and then she bounces? w/e#or if the ppl shes In The Midst Of often are a handful or less?#probably always gonna be fine. not exactly Confident but. fine.#if you try and shove her into a massive position asap?#shes going to need a fuck ton of tlc and careful management lmfao#lone wolf not in a cool inherent way#but in a 'traumatized puppy expects everything to Retraumatize them and Literally bites about it' way :')
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