#hiiii~ sooo i've been dead...

[pimerscribblings]

Drawing I made for an art challenge on my friends' server

[allisluv]

hiiii madi again!

ik i've asked for sooo much lesbian!katniss shit but i need comfort today so,

would you mind doing a katniss comforting fem!reader after a panic attack with kisses and affection?

ly <3

kissable.

pairing: katniss everdeen x fem!reader

content warnings: hurt/comfort, description of a panic attack, physical touch as a grounding technique, praise, kisses, teasing, katniss is a softie.

word count: 0.7k

Katniss can tell something is off the minute she gets home from hunting in the meadow. The cottage is eerily quiet and it puts her on edge. She sets her bow and arrow down on the hook by the front door and follows her gut instinct, footsteps soft as she moves towards your shared bedroom.

She stops outside of the door, hesitating for a split second, before peeking her head inside of the room. A subtle frown tugs at the corners of her mouth when she doesn’t immediately set eyes on you, but then she hears the quiet sniffles and muffled sobs from the other side of the bed, and she knows what’s going on.

Shrugging off her leather jacket and laying it on the back of the desk chair, she moves effortlessly to the side of the bed closest to the windowsill. Sure enough, she finds you curled up in a tight ball on the floor with your back against the bedframe.

Katniss has been witness to your panic attacks more than a few times to know what to do in this situation. She crouches down, ignoring the click in her knees, and settles beside you. Your chest is heaving with uneven breaths and she can tell that panic has well and truly got you in its clutches by now.

She reaches out a tentative hand and once she’s sure you’re not going to freak out, she links your pinky fingers together. The last thing she wants to do is make it worse, but she knows that, right now, you need her support, and she’s glad that you’re responding well to her.

She shuffles closer to you, inch by inch, until your knees are touching. Your ragged sobs are still going strong and you’re starting to hyperventilate.

Katniss places a reassuring hand on the length of your back and smooths her fingers up and down in gentle motions. “Breathe, darlin,” She reminds you gently. “Put a hand on your tummy, okay?” You shoot her a quizzical look and she smiles. “Just trust me.”

Tentatively, you put a hand on your stomach, and she squeezes your shoulder in approval.

“Good job. Youre doing so well. Now, we’re gonna redirect your breathing to your tummy. You just keep your hand there. It’s going to help because it’s sending subconscious signals to your brain, a silent reminder to breathe, if that makes any sense. You get me?”

You nod, furiously wiping the apples of your cheeks with the back of your hand. “I get you,” You eventually hiccup out in-between shuddering breaths.

She leans in and presses a kiss to your forehead. “You’re doing such a good job, darlin’. Just keep breathing with me, alright? You’re nearly there, you’re starting to calm down already.”

It takes a while and a lot of patience on Katniss’ part, but eventually, your breathing starts to even out and you start to come out of your panic-induced high.

“Feeling any better?” Katniss asks softly, still rubbing your back.

You nod, swallowing around the lump in your throat. “Sorry.”

Katniss tuts and shakes her head. “You don’t have to apologise, baby. It’s not your fault.”

“I was crying like a baby,” You mutter.

“You’re allowed to have emotions, you know. It doesn’t make you weak and it doesn’t make you a baby.” She pauses and smiles slyly. “Someone very wise once told me that.”

You roll your eyes fondly, but you can’t help from smiling. “Really? And who would that be?”

Katniss lets out a sigh of relief now that you’re coming back to her. “Hm. Well, she’s really pretty. Drop dead gorgeous, some would say.”

“Mhm. Tell me more.

“And she’s got this face that’s just…” She kisses your forehead, “…so…” She kisses the tip of your nose, “…Kissable,” She pecks your lips. “—But you wouldn’t know her.”

“Katniss!” You scold, but she just throws her head back in a laugh before pecking your lips once more. She peppers your face with kisses until you’re giggling, and the tears have dried up.

Katniss leans back and cradles your face in her hands. “Do you wanna talk about it?” You shake your head and she hums. “That’s okay. We can talk about it later. But for now, I think you should let me run you a nice warm bath.”

“Only if you’ll get in it with me.”

“I thought that was a given, darlin’.”

[waitafrikk]

Out of curiosity what is Blood Worth Bottling?

hiiii again tysssmmmm for the ask!!!!

blood worth bottling is my vampire story im working on!!! it probably wont be long enough to call it a novel but its currently 14k words and follows Nate who gets turned into a vampire by Basil

the main plot is currently nate adjusting to no longer being human, trying to keep normality in his life and keeping in contact with his friends and family despite. not being able to do that.

i've got alot of art about it on my oc account @chrromie !! the pfp is basil in a cunty coat.

It had been a long time since Nate had been left for dead in an alleyway. He slumped against the chill bricks, doing his best to avoid looking at the oozing red wound in his side. Instinctively, he reached into his pocket for his phone with his good arm. Idiotic Nate, he thought. His wry laugh turned into a whimper as blood pooled onto the ground. He’d always assumed a stab wound would hurt more. If anything, he was more upset that his favourite Deftones tee had a hole in it. At least he liked the tangy scent of blood — even if it was his own. The mugger would be far enough away by now that Nate doubted he’d be getting his stuff back. Quiet streets on a Wednesday night meant passers-by were few and far between, so it was unlikely Nate would be getting any medical aid before he died. Either way, he wasn’t sure he had the energy to call out for help any more — the adrenaline had long since faded, and left him feeling exhausted and pathetic. Closing his eyes, Nate let the dying heat of the wound flood his senses. The quicker this ended, the better.

this is how the story starts teehee

i've been working on this siince about november last year and im. sooo normal about it my friends irl know how much i talk about it LMFAO.

[atopvisenyashill]

Ok so hiiii....I think some of the stuff you post is great although I'm not a believer in Sansa QiTn so...I would really like for you to convince...oh and Bran ruling from harrenhal makes the most sense I don't understand why people would say anything else....oh I so feel like House Martell is heading for extinction...2nd question why do you think Aegon the iii amd viserys II didn't have something done about Rhaenyra being recognised as queen in the history books...I mean I feel like it could literally been a raven to the citadel or to the 7k... although the citadel is on oldtown sooo....but anyway thanks I appreciate it .

POINT ONE: Sansa QITN

Well firstly…..and pls note I am be ribbing you a little but I mean it in a hee hee ha ha way not a mean way.....but if you believe that Bran will rule from Harrenhal.....why wouldn't Sansa rule the North? Obviously there's a lot that's up in the air about what's happening with Rickon but if it’s not likely Rickon is getting out of this whole thing alive….and if Bran is king in the south…..whomst is next in line? She's the next oldest, and if Bran is not the Stark in Winterfell, that means either Rickon needs a regent or Rickon is also not the Stark in Winterfell (either because he is in the South as Bran's heir or dead). Why wouldn't being The Stark In Winterfell fall to Sansa?

But beyond that. So much of Sansa’s story is involved with the politics of the series and so much of Sansa's story centers around her learning what not to do as a leader. There's lots about her having the temperament and skills of a Queen and parallels between her and other Queen characters.

“You,” Ned said, kissing her lightly on the brow, “will marry a king and rule his castle, and your sons will be knights and princes and lords and, yes, perhaps even a High Septon.” Arya screwed up her face. "No," she said, "that's Sansa."

"I've never seen an aurochs," Sansa said, feeding a piece of bacon to Lady under the table. The direwolf took it from her hand, as delicate as a queen. Septa Mordane sniffed in disapproval. "A noble lady does not feed dogs at her table," she said, breaking off another piece of comb and letting the honey drip down onto her bread. "She's not a dog, she's a direwolf," Sansa pointed out as Lady licked her fingers with a rough tongue.

She is good at this, he thought, as he watched her tell Lord Gyles that his cough was sounding better, compliment Elinor Tyrell on her gown, and question Jalabhar Xho about wedding customs in the Summer Isles. His cousin Ser Lancel had been brought down by Ser Kevan, the first time he’d left his sickbed since the battle. He looks ghastly. Lancel’s hair had turned white and brittle, and he was thin as a stick. Without his father beside him holding him up, he would surely have collapsed. Yet when Sansa praised his valor and said how good it was to see him getting strong again, both Lancel and Ser Kevan beamed. She would have made Joffrey a good queen and a better wife if he’d had the sense to love her. He wondered if his nephew was capable of loving anyone.

Ahead he glimpsed a pale white trunk that could only be a weirwood, crowned with a head of dark red leaves.

In their midst was a pale stranger; a slender young weirwood with a trunk as white as a cloistered maid. Dark red leaves sprouted from its reaching branches.

There's the Naerys-Sansa parallels, which I went into detail about here and here - not only does Joffrey compare himself to Aegon the Unworthy, and Tyrion compare himself to Viserys II, but Sansa compares Margaery and Loras to Bethany Bracken and the Toyne Brothers. So who is Naerys? Obviously it's Sansa. Then there's the fact that she's named for a Sansa Stark that was meant to inherit but ultimately has to marry her nephew and rule only as his wife rather than ruling lady herself. That part of the Stark family tree isn't just thrown in for giggles - in fact there are several changes and elaborations to the family trees in recent years that were added specifically to parallel and foreshadow the main plot (see also: little Daenerys dying of the shivering sickness after being denied the "princess of dragonstone" title by her father).

And there's plenty that shows she's clearly learning from the mistakes of the people around her-

"The night’s first traitors,” the queen said, “but not the last, I fear. Have Ser Ilyn see to them, and put their heads on pikes outside the stables as a warning.” As they left, she turned to Sansa. “Another lesson you should learn, if you hope to sit beside my son. Be gentle on a night like this and you’ll have treasons popping up all about you like mushrooms after a hard rain. The only way to keep your people loyal is to make certain they fear you more than they do the enemy.” “I will remember, Your Grace,” said Sansa, though she had always heard that love was a surer route to the people’s loyalty than fear. If I am ever a queen, I’ll make them love me.

She never knew why she got to her feet, but she did. “Don’t be afraid,” she told them loudly. “The queen has raised the drawbridge. This is the safest place in the city..." [...] Sansa raised her hands for quiet. “Joffrey’s come back to the castle. He’s not hurt. They’re still fighting, that’s all I know, they’re fighting bravely. The queen will be back soon.” The last was a lie, but she had to soothe them. She noticed the fools standing under the galley. “Moon Boy, make us laugh.”

Lancel was one of them, yet somehow she still could not bring herself to wish him dead. I am soft and weak and stupid, just as Joffrey says. I should be killing him, not helping him.

And of course there's plenty pointing to the idea that Petyr has some Queenly plans for her and that Sansa is trying to get out from under his thumb.

"You would not believe half of what is happening in King’s Landing, sweetling. Cersei stumbles from one idiocy to the next, helped along by her council of the deaf, the dim, and the blind. I always anticipated that she would beggar the realm and destroy herself, but I never expected she would do it quite so fast. It is quite vexing. I had hoped to have four or five quiet years to plant some seeds and allow some fruits to ripen, but now … it is a good thing that I thrive on chaos. What little peace and order the five kings left us will not long survive the three queens, I fear.” “Three queens?” She did not understand. Nor did Petyr choose to explain.

This morning her eye was caught by a parti-colored gown of Tully red and blue, lined with vair... “And you’d best change as well.” Alayne looked down at her dress, the deep blue and rich dark red of Riverrun. “Is it too—” “It is too Tully. The Lords Declarant will not be pleased by the sight of my bastard daughter prancing about in my dead wife’s clothes. Choose something else. Need I remind you to avoid sky blue and cream?” “No.” Sky blue and cream were the colors of House Arryn. “Eight, you said … Bronze Yohn is one of them?” “The only one who matters.” “Bronze Yohn knows me,” she reminded him. “He was a guest at Winterfell when his son rode north to take the black.” She had fallen wildly in love with Ser Waymar, she remembered dimly, but that was a lifetime ago, when she was a stupid little girl. “And that was not the only time. Lord Royce saw … he saw Sansa Stark again at King’s Landing, during the Hand’s tourney.”

"I dreamt of a maid at a feast with purple serpents in her hair, venom dripping from their fangs. And later I dreamt that maid again, slaying a savage giant in a castle built of snow."

no, this isn't about her ripping the dolls head off. The castle made of snow is clearly Winterfell, and the savage giant is clearly Littlefinger (his sigil is literally a Titan). All of this to say - she's going home and she's going to be instrumental in rebuilding Winterfell.

Then there's all this stuff about her claim. No one will ever love her for her claim, everyone wants her for her claim - it's important, it's integral to her story that she must be aware of who she is marrying because of her claim. That's not about to go away any time soon! And why does it echo so often in her story specifically?

And for all the "well she watches politics but she's not involved in them" arguments (not accusing you of this, just bringing it up). a) that's stupid don't pmo, and b) she's the only character with an arc like this. an arc that is completely predicated on her seeing and learning rather than doing. She is the only character to come into contact with basically every great house (Tyrell, Lannister, Baratheon, Tully, Stark, Martell, Greyjoy, and Arryn) and so many of the lesser but still noble and highly regarded houses such as Redwyne, Royce, Dondarrion, etc. She is the protege (however unwilling) of not one but two of the biggest political players in Littlefinger and Cersei. She is on friendly terms with several Tyrells, several Royces, arguably Tyrion & Lancel Lannister, arguably Myrcella Baratheon, and is acting as a surrogate mother to the current Lord of the Eyrie, Sweetrobin. She has all of these connections from her mother's house and allies in the Riverlands, she's currently building up a host of knights who are both untested and eager for battle and loyal only to her and Sweetrobin (the Winged Knights), and she has Jon arguing for her right to rule Winterfell all the way at the Wall.

Do you know what I call that? I call that setup!

POINT TWO: MARTELLS

Ya that’s a common thought that the Martells are fucked and I’m not saying it’s not a fear I have but I think it really sucks, in a decidedly racist way, to introduce a family motivated by the brutal rape and murder of a woman in their family, destroyed by grief & clawing their way back onto the stage, only to get summarily wiped out with a finger wagging aesop's fable esque moral about how revenge is always wrong. Beyond the optics of it (which I cannot stress enough, the optics are racist) that, to me, doesn't really fit with the much more nuanced discussions of revenge throughout the story. Even in similarly orientalist storylines like Meereen, there is a lot of discussion of violence, when violence is necessary, when violence is unnecessary, when violence is necessary but people are using it as an excuse because they just really like killing, and the effect of violence on everyone from the top of the pyramid to the bottom. The idea that all the Martells are going to wiped out because "revenge is bad" is just silly.

It’s also like. I mean but HOW are ALL of them dying? They’re not like the Baratheons, or Targaryens, where there’s only 2 or 3 and they're in deep shit. I think things look bleak for for some of the Sand Snakes and the Lyanna parallelism with Elia makes me nervous, and also Doran is just old and sick, but like. Arianne? Trystane? Sarella? They all feel fine to me! I think people forget how many Martells there are, frankly, and how scattered about they are. It's not like you can take out the entire family tree with one hit!

POINT THREE: Aegon & Rhaenyra

I think acknowledging Rhaenyra as queen was something Aegon felt was impossible politically and Viserys felt was unnecessary. I think we’ll see, not dissimilar from Corlys, that Viserys sees getting Rhaenyra’s blood on the throne as “good enough” because he’s missing The Point.

For the beginning of Aegon’s reign, he doesn’t have a lot of real power & very few clear allies, and I think that gives him pause when he first comes of age. I think by the time he dies, he doesn’t really have the political goodwill to acknowledge her. His mother is not fondly remembered, the dragons are all dead, and Aegon himself is a very withdrawn, little seen and little loved ruler. I’m fairly positive it occurs to him, but what can he do, even as king, when he himself is not popular and doesn’t seem to do much to make himself so? IMO this is part of why daeron & baelor are so insane - they watched their father board himself up in the red keep and drown in his misery, and he never accomplished anything except living and dying with that crown forced on his head. He didn’t feel like he COULD do anything, and he probably didn’t try because of his despair.

[synesindri]

hey sin!! do you have any book recommendations? i feel like we share a lot of the same interests and taste in literature, it’s always nice to see your posts and reblogs on my dash :)

hiiii hi lovely!! what a delightful message to receive <3 here are some books i have been thinking about a lot lately, for one reason or another!

the fifth wound, by aurora mattia: read this one earlier in the summer and my god. never have i ever seen elaborate prose poetry like this before. incredible vibes, incredible, beautiful, harsh, delicate engagement with experiences near and dear to my heart. painful in a lot of ways but super unique and kind of an instant favorite for me

rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead, by tom stoppard: technically a play but what can you do. rewired my brain at age 17 but on my mind again because i'm trying to figure out if i can go see dom monaghan and billy boyd perform it lol. existentialist qpr buddy tragicomedy of all time

the round house, by louise erdrich: a very bleak and emotionally intense book set on an ojibwe reservation in north dakota. i originally read this in a community ed class i took five years ago on revenge narratives that consisted of me and about fifteen retirees, not sure why it's been haunting me recently but there it is.

harrow the ninth, by tamsyn muir: i'm only about half way through this which explains why i've been thinking about it a lot but like. how often do you encounter books written almost entirely in second person?

from a swedish homestead, by selma lagerlöf: loosely assorted stories about life in mainly-rural sweden ranging from medieval to contemporary (early 20th century). kind of bleak, kind of quaint, kind of bizarre, includes a fair bit of magical realism. i originally listened to it as this audiobook and the reader, lars rolander, is sooo part of the experience for me

if you have any recs for me i would love to know about them!

[what-if-nct]

hiiiii!! i have been dead but its ok bc mental health and college is demanding asf 😭 on a lighter topic (bc im still sad asf) is anyone else absolutely obsessed with the what it is haechan tiktok edits?? like dayum man, how do you move like that?? haechans dancing us sooo smooth and so underrated 😭 also i am having a slight sexuality crisis bc im attracted to literally every pretty girl i see but only like kpop boys or fictional ones :( or the really pretty boys, like i have never had a crush on a dude i knew irl, then again i grew up in a place filled with with white trailer trash. ooh i did just move for college tho so we'll have to see if that changes. rn either im just into femininity or im bi?? or?? im confused, we'll say that. anyways, how are you doing? hows life? i hope you're doing ok <333 lysm 💓💖💘💕💞🩷💗

Hiiii, well it's almost summer so you'll have a nice long break soon. And yes oh my gosh and he looks so good for like no reason, like lately he's been looking too good like him and Renjun, it's too much. But I think I'm just finally out of seeing them like babies. Finally they took way longer than Jeno and Jaemin. And I Iove how every few months there's one song used for everyone but it just becomes Haechan's song cause it's literally perfect for him.

I think it is pretty common to be solely attracted to women but only really be drawn to unattainable and pretty men. I see it talked about a lot. Because I'm Bi my experience is a little different also since after something happened I'm slightly afraid to date women at this moment but I still love women but my main focus has been men for like three years so I can't exactly provide any proper insight. But I do know preferring just feminine people is definitely a thing. That's what it is for me I love women and pretty pretty boys. But I think being in a new environment might change your perception of things. But also it's normal to be attracted to one gender but find people in the opposite gender aesthetically pleasing. There's so many possibilities it will kind of work itself out while you're remaining aware of all of your feelings and putting it all together.

And I'm doing fine, a lot better than I was last week, Mercury being in retrograde really got me, mercury retrograde hasn't really got me like that since I think 2019 but it was during Scorpio season. And last week the moon was in Scorpio. So I wonder. Plus I was expecting my period which finally ended today yay! so ya know the planets, stars, and hormones just got the best of me. But I did start reading oracle cards again and I'm just using them for inner healing more than divination. They're just telling me I did all the hard work already I just need to wait, take care of myself, be nice to myself, protect myself and realize what makes me special. And it's actually kind of calmed my mind and I'm not crying every night. Also read a comment on a psychiatrist reacts to A&W by Lana del Rey video. A&W is already a song that I relate to but that comment was something I really needed to read. because it was exactly what I've been going through and feeling and it was really what I needed to read.

[alivegirlmari]

hii it's the same anon from rose's blog hopping over here because your tags on that mari post are so. yeah. it IS an inevitable car crash she is creating that which destroys her BECAUSE she's so scared it's so!!!! and YESSS there's a REASON why there are only two people she regularly like. makes fun of or snaps at and it's because everyone else will bite back in some way, because they know and she knows that she IS so close to the bottom of that totem pole. it's something she does out of social survival but it's both obvious enough to everyone where her position in the group is that it's kind of futile, and it pisses enough people off that it's probably dooming her further. thank you fellow mari warrior for your service she's so funny but if i think about her too long she makes me sad

HIIII anon hiii sorry for answering this late but please know you can ALWAYS hop into my inbox bc the mari stans need to stick together. it’s hard out here for us AND our girl 💔 this is long as hell so putting it under a readmore :-)

anyways ur last line is soo real. mari reminds me so much of jackie in the sense that they’re literally just sad teen girls!! yes ofc everyone else is too but bc neither really contribute majorly (in both the literal sense of contributing to the group the way nat-as-hunter does, and in the driving the plot sense the way lottie and tai do), their characters feel so much more grounded and real. bc without the possession and dreams and sleepwalking and relationship drama, everything's stripped away and you're just left with a scared teenage girl at the centre, desperate to survive. but mari lives when jackie doesn't bc mari does adapt!! mari moves with the status quo, and mari sides with power. and yet! she doesn't have that power herself! she's shielded by it at times, but she's not holding the shield itself, so ofc it can always be used against her. which is the whole point! nothing she does is enough to save her! mari, to me, feels like a character who barely scrapes by, if that makes sense? or like, a character who is at least never close to being on top. a real 'i submitted the assignment five mins before it was due' beat. the 'i made the cut off, made it into the next round, but ranked in last place' special. aka: she's doomed! she's a car-crash girl!

and sooo true about the futility of snapping at the only two people she can...like who is it helping/hurting, exactly? crystal & misty didn't really give a fuck because they were *secure* in themselves (see: not minding the taste of snackie, wanting to make snackie broth, generally being unapologetic), and also had each other. mari has akilah, which i don't think is enough (esp now that akilah's integrating herself into things, and has been given a reason to get home lol), and mari isn't secure! she's defensive when ben questions the cannibalism, she makes awkward jokes about it, she shot down the broth idea, she clings to whoever has power even when it seems like a sinking ship (insisting on the competition rules when there was a moose to save), she desperately needs a leader. as you said, being mean to crusty - while #valid - is like, 'oh look, i'm not your number one target, look at these two losers, i've got power and status over you two, this makes me (feel) safe'. but mari IS the loser in everyone else but crusty's stories lmao! all she's doing is just making that clearer!! it's not only futile but also like, incredibly short-sighted: what does she think would happen if crystal and misty just stopped existing? who'd be on the bottom then?

so yeah i'm v v v excited to see her maybe get even more bitchy now that crystal's gone, i think (hope) it'll shake her. she's operating on a whole different dimension of fear lmaooo, she's gonna be scared for normal reasons (someone is missing/dead) AND bc she's another notch lower on the totem pole now!! and she'll know it!! the literal only target she has left is misty, who is a) about to be useful and deliver a baby, and b) potentially at her most fragile (not emotionally, just in terms of looking suspicious & her role in the group being less secure bc of it) in the wake of crystal dying. so i wonder how that'll effect their three seconds of shared screentime dskdkfdsdfmf. i think they're really similar honestly, in terms of understanding the power of power, control, status. can a weirdgirl and a hatergirl ever be friends? not in this cabin unfortunately </3 (idk if you've seen it but misty's actress was like 'yeah if crystal hadn't befriended her she probs would've ended up snapping mari's neck' lmao)

idek if this all makes sense im running on 5hrs of sleep but feel free to message me anything about mari nolastname or anyone/anything else whenever!!! ty for sending this ask!!!!