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would you guys laugh and bully me if I said i was considering yumeshipping sigh
#im veeeery conflicted on this and there's no real romantic bond (?) i think#bunch of pixels yada yada#i couldn't know how to explain it
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MiqoMarch Day 6 - Secret
The jealousy that began to bubble up, though likely pointless to hide from her of all people, Arsay desperately tried to keep a secret from her dear friend Krile.
#ffxiv#ffxiv gpose#arsay nun#dawntrail spoilers#endwalker spoilers#krile baldesion#miqomarch#miqomarch2025#PLEASE TRUST that Arsay was doing her fucking best to not make anything in the last zone about herself#(except maybe when she was geeking out over the south sea lore)#even though she was getting pelted with her own parental abandonment trauma at an ungodly rate#its insane how much arsay was shaking hands with all the main msq characters in this expansion.#the tldr here is Arsay sees her parents in the aitiascope but she couldn't face them at the time and felt like she had to turn away#and instead of reaching/calling out to her anyways they just left. i dont have the tag allowance to explain the nuance in this choice thoug#I have a big thing i'd like to pose that goes more in depth with how arsay feels about this moment thats post 7.1#but this is the first time she /really/ thinks about this moment again and proceeds to do what she does best#She's framed with a big ol mask behind her and that is symbolic thank you#also cant remember if arsays echo cancels out kriles but even if krile has vibe checked arsay in this moment shes not going to bring it up#mostly because Krile has literally no clue about Arsay's parents and the thing in the aitiascope#thats the other secret that's embedded in this situation tbh since really only Graha and Yshtola know about it#i feel bad ruining this nice moment in canon but arsay also doesnt need krile to thank her for welcoming her on an adventure#because arsays would have welcomed krile on an adventure regardless of combat abilities#and like they also went through eureka together of course she trusts krile with her life already
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girls really do be raging a war in their own head whilst sitting silent in their living room
#i can't explain the thoughts going on or the emotional turmoil I just sent myself into#whilst just sitting here#on my sofa#with my little laptop open#while my dad preps his sunday school lesson right next to me#and the dog just naps#couldn't begin to express how much of a suppressed scream I have#and for what#I don't know#couldn't explain it#just girl going mental#g.txt
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the two most normal best friends in night city to share a birthday. happy birthday vitali and mikhail, here's to many more years of nobody knowing how to label your relationship <3
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@nistarot, @deadrlngers, @euryalex, @ordinarymaine, @mojaves;
@shellibisshe, @dickytwister, @mnwlk, @rindemption, @ncytiri;
@calenhads, @noirapocalypto, @florbelles, @radioactiveshitstorm, @strafethesesinners;
@fashionablyfyrdraaca, @radioactive-synth, @katsigian, @estevnys, @devilbrakers;
@aezyrraesh, @carlosoliveiraa, @adelaidedrubman, @batwomxns
#cp2077#cyberpunk 2077#art#art:mikhail#art:vitali#nuclearocs#nuclearart#for anyone new: no they're not related they share a birthday. no they're not together vitali is dating vincent. and mikhail is a virgin#how does vitali know this? i couldn't begin to try and explain it to you. i'll let you use your imagination#ANYWAY HI =] it's their birthday so i thought why not sell my soul and try to draw a comic to celebrate#this is based on a very old piece i drew which is basically the same but it was just one frame but i think it works better like this#i got too lazy for the backgrounds so i just used grocery store pictures sorry. don't look at them for too long i'm pretty sure#it's two different stores and it's definitely not aldi but i was in a rush#night city has an aldi now. i don't care
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"a photo can only be used once" — let's revisit S2E8
just thinking out loud. what does it mean in link click that a photo can only be used once? once per timeline? once per person (since we have multiple people with dive abilities, I think this is an important question)? once throughout the timelines? let's puzzle this out.
also if someone remembers what episode this rule was mentioned, please let me know! I know it was said by someone but I forgot by who and in which context and I don't feel like rewatching episodes right now...
i. once throughout the timelines? once per timeline?
I once thought it's once throughout the timelines, but that can't be the case, because if lu guang resets the timelines all the time then they shouldn't have been able to repeat their client cases. we know that they repeated the emma, ouyang, and doudou cases at least. I highly doubt they used a different photo each time. it's more likely that cheng xiaoshi had to have dived into the same photo for these cases, especially since lu guang implies that he's been using his memory of the past timelines to control the present one. with the emma case in particular, they wouldn't have had many photos to choose from as a diving point.
similarly, it's implied in yingdu that lu guang was there to help cheng xiaoshi find a picture of the bahati fire in a previous timeline. and he was there in the previous timeline when cheng xiaoshi dived into it. so, again, it seems we can reuse photos after a timeline reset.
initially I also thought that when lu guang said in yingdu that this is the "last time" he can time loop, it was because he ran out of photos to use. but if we follow the logic above, a photo use seems to "reset" when the timeline is reset so that can't be the reason why he thinks this is the "last time" he has, right? does the logic here seem sound here?
other potential reasons that he could feel it's the "last time" could be: a) his failing health; b) he thinks diving into the same photo will end in the same result, so it's "useless" to dive into a photo more than once and it's "better" to try others; c) some other reason we don't know yet.
ii. once per person?
so it's probably once per timeline. but what about once per person?
let's establish the first part. I think it's fair to assume that a photo can be used once per timeline (until the next reset). this is why cheng xiaoshi had to us multiple photos in the noodle episode, instead of retrying the same one. it also meshes with their M.O. of not changing the past, which limits what they can do in one photo.
however, I have another question. can a photo be used by multiple people at least once? I'm thinking of the hostage episode in season 2 when "lu guang" saves cheng xiaoshi from being kidnapped.
afaik the show doesn't lean in any direction so far when it comes to answering this question, so we'll mostly be talking in hypotheticals now.
it's a chicken and egg scenario, right? in order for cheng xiaoshi to dive as lu guang to save himself and not change the past, there must have been a previous timeline where this past has already happened and lu guang already saved cheng xiaoshi. because to get lu guang's phone to initiate the dive, cheng xiaoshi must reach a point where he got past the kidnapping in the first place.
it's a closed loop, but different from the other closed loops cheng xiaoshi has done before. usually, cheng xiaoshi goes through the motions of what has already happened. in the episode hostage, the show implies that what is happening (lu guang saving cheng xiaoshi) is a result of future actions (cheng xiaoshi diving as lu guang). it's still a closed loop, but the change is future-oriented instead of past-oriented.
hypothetically, could lu guang also have already saved cheng xiaoshi before in S2, thus allowing cheng xiaoshi to dive into the hospital photo?
but it's not without precedent. the closest analogy we have is the earthquake arc. chen xiao is only able to request cheng xiaoshi's help because cheng xiaoshi already dived as chen xiao in the past and saved his camera. we've established early on that this kind of closed loop is possible.
now, let's talk alternative hypotheticals. no evidence basis, just pure thought experiment.
hypothetically, one can argue that saving the camera is something chen xiao could have already done himself in some other way. cheng xiaoshi could have unknowingly repeated the same actions.
I do think that canonically, cheng xiaoshi used the hospital photo and lu guang didn't, since we don't have evidence to prove lu guang has used it yet. however, for funsies, walk with me through an alternative scenario. what it lu guang already used the photo and saved cheng xiaoshi from being kidnapped? and that's how cheng xiaoshi gets the opportunity to dive as lu guang? but for lu guang to do that, he must inherit the dive ability again because it only lasts 12h and he doesn't have it anymore by S2. but in order to do that, cheng xiaoshi must have died again at some point. did he die in S2? did S2 happen twice already in the timelines?
the reason I bring this u is because there's one thing that bothers me is in S2, which is that lu guang took the hospital photo as a save point. and it's implied that S2 occurs on the timeline yingdu arc has set, since the last episode has cheng xiaoshi repainting the shop some time after the conclusion of the li twins case.
so. if lu guang already thought all the way back in bridon that this loop is his "last chance" then why would he take the hospital photo in the first place, thus planning to do another time loop if necessary? one could argue he was just being a desperate control freak (valid) but it would kinda undermine his determination in yingdu to make this timeline the last one, right? so which is it?
anyway, point is, is it possible for lu guang and cheng xiaoshi to both used the hospital photo? even if this isn't the case and cheng xiaoshi is the only one who used the photo, is it possible for multiple people to dive in the same photo? this technically would not violate the "a photo can only be used once" rule if the rule applies to one person per timeline.
I'm sure there's probably some detail I'm forgetting that would debunk this or something, so please lmk what I'm missing here. I know link click is best analyzed through themes and character arcs rather than plot, but it's still fun trying to figure out the time travel logistics in this show
see if that's the case, that opens up a world of other possibilities. for example, we could have a scenario where cheng xiaoshi or lu guang dives into the same photo shao yuanyuan already dived into.
a fun little thought experiment.
#mine musings#liveblogging link click#link click#link click meta#apparently i'm not done writing wall of text posts for this show smh#this has been bugging me for a while now. i just couldn't articulate it until now#like. yingdu being the “last time” has some heavy implications but one of them i need to know#is how committed lg is to that? would he still take save point pictures?#or are we jusy misinterpreting what “last time” means? LU GUANG PLEASE EXPLAIN
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There's something I think a few people may misunderstand with my pining to see Juno again. No, I do not want to see him return in a future game in a manner like Sigma or Wily. His finite existence and end have significance, and I don't want it to be diminished.
Of all the favorite characters I've come to love thus far, Juno is so different. He's probably the one with the least to go from. A brief and near-insignificant presence. Little to no connection with others. Barely any sources to search from. Hardly any people for me to talk with. And I find it so wonderful.
I don't feel overwhelmed by a mass of voices as I have with my other more-popular faces. And I can be left alone to delve in peace and cry about my findings to a select few that understand.
I want to place him on a pretty shelf and admire the handiwork. I want to see those gaps in-between that we couldn't quite grasp. I want to find his black box and sift through every little thing he seems to know but never clearly stated.
If Juno were to ever "return", I want to go backwards and better understand how everything connects. Because when I come to like a character, it's not about the quantity in which I see them, but the thought-provoking details I can uncover from any trace of content which then reminds me of why I liked them in the first place.
Otherwise, if people just want to see this as yet another guy that I've gone quirky for, so be it. I am not expecting you to catch my drift.
#I'm in the middle of sketching again but this thought crossed my mind again and I wanted to stop and jot it down#for context: I had a friend (who isn't in the pit with me) trying to talk about this obsession I'm having right now#that was what they'd mostly bring up#I understand what they were going for and it was hard to explain that that's not my point here#of course I couldn't ever explain it to others#partly due to being self-conscious and that I've never been able to word my thoughts properly aloud#but I don't want people to force themselves to understand-- I feel like I want to explode but I'm Not looking for attention#so don't worry about it (don't bring it up) I am perfectly fine :)#I don't know how else to tag this so ahah I'm just glad I kinda got this out of my head. I think.#(I'll probably come back embarrassed for posting this but oh well. leaf me olone. ( ; v; ) )
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Lifted || 04/27/2025
#today was not and continues to not be perfect—HOWEVER— I am so very grateful for this afternoon#we went to mass and it was the first time I'd gone to church where i actually felt light afterwards#like i felt actually blessed after the service idk how else to explain it#all i know is i stepped out of there feeling like the heavy weight on my shoulders got lifted away#and as per tradition: after mass me my sister and her bf walked for about 15mins to grandma's grave to visit her#she delivered with this RIDICULOUSLY GORGEOUS sunset 😍😍😍#i had said out loud—just wishful thinking cuz i know it's not gonna happen—i said “i miss being able to be away from the house and watch#the sun set from start to finish. it had been a long while since i last got to do that.“#but i think grandma heard because as it turned out no Grab driver was accepting our booking so we couldn't go home#not until it was fully dark and the stars had come out. i just thought that was so sweet 💛#oh! and i wore a dress today and it has POCKETS!!! (Pockets In Her Dress by Matt Walden starts playing)#(of course i still wore my Fuckass White Converse with the dress cuz. duh. i am nothing if not on brand)#Sunset Hoe™#mandatory sunset photo at Rolling Hills
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I called Crimson Peak camp, I don't know what that says about me xD
#it's TRAGIC BUT it is very camp#how much the Sharpes suck at not appearing ominous (and ok this is explained by them having NO reference for normal + complexes)#edith surviving that fall bc she heals faster than wolverine. also she doesn't go like “BITCH YOU LIVE LIKE THIS?” arriving at allerdale ha#the whole shaming over Thomas's soft hands (ok there is some outdated masculinity thing going on I know)#carter cushing was basically questioning Thomas's masculinity over soft hands#still that man was rich so if his hands are rough it's bc he chose not to moisturize bc he's “manly”#still i seem to suck at enjoying most camp movies. I couldn't finish watching Lisa Frankenstein#I got bored. And the 80s nostalgic plasticky girly type of camp does not appeal to me.#Don't get me wrong I can tell it's well-made and it has artistic merit but it's just not my thing#crimson peak
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With the 1.5 year time skip in regards to el and mike, I wonder if they will be broken up when we see them next but it’ll be something that gets explained through dialogue and short flashback scenes? I’m wondering if that’s how they’ll give us context for a lot of what we’re greeted with after the time skip actually
But on a genuine, seriousish answer, I have a feeling we're going to be told a lot. Allegedly there's not a traditional "catch up" sequence but like they've never really done flashbacks before so it would be interesting to see them now. I think it's going to be VERY reminiscent of s2 in terms of catching us up to speed where it's provided via dialogue.
But like specifically for El & Mike, I honestly have no idea what that means. We know that they have at least 1 scene together for s5, but we also know that El is primarily with Hopper (and Lucas). I speculated yesterday that I think El & Hopper are possibly "on the run" during the skip which would make sense given that No one other than Owens knows Hopper is alive. But then what's going on with the Byers because the government knows that they were involved with El, but seemingly Will is in school??? So it's a lot up in the air.
Personally, nothing about the end of s4 gave me the impression El & Mike were "back together" in a romantic sense but again that's me personally. And I do think it's very telling that we don't actually see them talk at the end of s4.
But, I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
#I truly couldn't tell you#I think they shot a regroup scene for s4 and didn't use it#I think as time passes it's very evident that s4 was effected by the pandemic and then s5 is having to reconcile a lot of those decisions#anyways#I know ppl are convinced the field was a vecna vision but that doesn't explain how everyone saw it#including Holly and Karen so#stranger things#mike wheeler#el hopper#byler#< target audience#st5 speculation#st5 spoilers#anon asks
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Wrt LRB sometimes I'm so baffled by what people bother to ask me because my charitable assumption will be an image in my mind of the results of a search query using keywords in that question and what failures may have occurred in the transfer of information and I'll start talking like "What did you search for this? When I used [keywords] the results seemed pretty self-explanatory." Or like idk. Baseline I'll assume they've read some Bullshit that comes up when u search something. There are multiple things in this world if you use the most self-evident english search queries for you will just get misinformation. So maybe then I'll start talking as to counter those points instead and they're sooo lost and I'm like ??? and they're like I didn't bother to look it up I didn't search for any texts on this subject. And I'm like. How the fuck can you expect me to have a conversation about this then? We have to like. Have a baseline of implicit assumptions of understanding to talk about this how do you not CARE about that???
#Or like I'll assume if someone is asking me something subjective it's coz they reasonably assumed searching would be futile#& they're ok w being subject to niche/personalized information like. That is their query when asking Me in a sense given the alternative.#AND THIS ASSUMPTION DOESN'T HOLD? WHY DOESN'T IT HOLD. WHY WOULD YOU ASK ME SOMETHING KNOWING WHO I AM AND HOW I PROCESS THINGS#SOMETHING WHICH CAN BE EASILY SYNTHESIZED FROM THE FIRST 3 SEARCH RESULTS IN A STANDARD QUERY#Like idk people treat me like such an idiot sometimes too coz I'll ask things that Can Be Searched but a lot of the times I did search it#And I just couldn't synthesize the information.#Which from a stranger is like ok you think I'm a garden variety idiot whatever there are so many ways to be assumed that that I rly can't#navigate at all like. It's so hard for me to conceptualize what is a given btwn strangers. But when people who KNOW ME treat me like an#idiot for that it's like AM I FUCKING CRAZY FOR ADJUSTING THE RESPONSES I GIVE TO HUMAN INTERACTION BASED ON WHO THE OTHER PERSON IS?#Also I'm still mad abt the interaction I had here on tumblr where someone was replying 'what does TMA mean' when like.#You should have the skill of getting the context clues to format a specific search query!! If you look up 'TMA transmisogyny'#then you do get people bullshitting and being chuds but they do explain what the acronym stands for. Plainly. So then you adjust the query#you use on the human. Like. A better question would be 'I looked up what TMA means and now I know the acronym. But these explanations seem#like shit. Do you have anything on hand that explains it better?'#and i tried to explain that in absence of this skill they're wasting ppls esp marginalized ppls time and energy n they standpoint#epistemology'd at me about it WHICH DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE COZ THEY DIDN'T KNOW ENOUGH ABT THE SUBJECT TO HAVE A STANCE ANYWAY#AM I WEIRDO FREAK FOR SYSTEMIZING SHIT LIKE THIS IT SEEMS OBVIOUS TO ME#am i fucked up and weird for thinking it's a good idea to have texts on-hand that explain concepts that searches fail.#~
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Something that just occurred to be is that is isn't extremely weird for Neku and Sho to only be allowed to use one pin at a time? Because we know for sure that in the og Neku was able to use six of them and we can easily guess that Sho could as well, given his Imagination level. It's likely that Beat could, too, but I'm not well versed enough in the og's gameplay to tell.
In any case, neither Neku nor Sho can use more than one pin at once. Another piece of dialogue from Sho also reveals that the level caps on the pins have been removed, making them usable by any player regardless of their level.
Those two factors are some pretty big changes—we see how surprised Sho is when he realizes the latter. My question is: how were they made possible?
There is no reason why Kariya or Uzuki, when in control of Shibuya, would make those changes. Joshua wouldn't have either, because they make no sense in Shibuya's Game. So that only leaves Shiba, who probably made them to fit Shinjuku's rules better. Only thing is, that Sho has been Conductor before, so he should have been aware that this was a possibility. Yet his reaction makes me believe that he never considered it possible (it is possible that he didn't consider it simply because he didn't think about it or because it wouldn't have helped him with his plans anyway, but I think he genuinely didn't know it could be done) which then leads to the logical conclusion of: only a higher power could've done this.
I believe Kubo's the one who made those changes to Shibuya's Game, or Shiba, but thanks to Kubo's powers—in any case, it's a intervention of the Higher Plane. Sho isn't stupid and probably guessed it right away. I am thus adding this to the list of hints he got in order to guess who was behind all of this
#Neku couldn't have followed the same logic because he didn't know that conductors couldn't do that#and Beat probably didn't even question it. the Game is fucked up already he can't really bother with theorycrafting#anyway yeah it's not very interesting but it just crossed my mind so i'm sharing it#i think it's fascinating how Kubo and Shiba altered the Game and what it tells about the differences#between Shibuya and Shinjuku and what their respective Games looked like and what their aims were#while Shibuya was focused on personal development (more refined souls could use more pins#and more powerful ones); Shinjuku is more akin to an arena or a circus where all the players have access to all weapons#and it's up to them to use them and make the show interesting before they inevitably die (or miraculously end up winning)#(even if in neo it was impossible Shoka's story explains that it was possible to win back in Shinjuku)#(the secret reports also add that Shinjuku is a game that's focused on killing as many players at once as possible)#anyway. twewy rules#twewy#twewy spoilers#neo twewy#neo twewy spoilers#sho minamimoto#tanzo kubo#neku sakuraba#shiba miyakaze
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you don't understand i was obsessed with Night at the Museum as a kid and i loved Jed and subconsciously shipped him with Octavius before i even knew you were allowed to ship two boys together, heck, before i even knew what shipping was, and now Owen Wilson is Mobius and it's the same fucking thing again where he's playing a heavily queer-coded character but the media they're in forces him to call his soulmate his 'friend' but there's no fucking way they're straight but this time around i know what shipping is and i know what homosexuality is and maybe d*sney will never let them kiss but hell if that's gonna stop me from losing my mind over them-
#they mean so much to me#both lokius and jedtavius#it's like. now i know that's allowed#and shit may not be ideal regarding lgbt representation in media but at the very least we can have our fun with it#and it's kinda funny that my gay awakening was fucking. night at the museum.#but in all seriousness when i think about how young i was feeling those feelings i couldn't explain#wondering why i wanted two boys to kiss when 'that's so silly!'#'boys don't kiss boys!'#'they kiss girls!!!'#i just. get a little emotional. like i know i've always 'been this way' but i find comfort in every little thing like this i can point to#*remembers the subject of this post is tiny gay people and time travelling gay people* anyways-#gaylight post#loki#loki series#natm#lokius#mobius#marvel loki#night at the museum#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#jedtavius#natm jedediah#natm octavius
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Gott ist tot.
#...do you know?#god-ish#pinocchiop#hatsune miku#vocaloid#tw/ smoking#i genuinely don't know how to tag this i think i'm lost#alright let me explain#i've known of a couple vocaloid producers for a while now from playing the caligula games#but it wasn't until i started playing bandori last october that i kinda fell down a hole lmao???#don't get me wrong i still know very little about vocaloid HOWEVER i'm a big fan of the covers#anyway my favourite bandori band covered god-ish and i fell down the rabbit hole listening to covers lol#ras and hibari watarai's covers are my favourite :)#ado (obviously) and cocolu genjin's are also good though#man listening to japanese music used to be so easy... i couldn't get distracted trying to sing along bc i don't speak the language#but y'know when i hear a song enough times i'm gonna want to sing along... even if it's a different language#so now listening to japanese music IS distracting while i'm working...#but i'm still gonna do it you can't stop me#also that's definitely how smoke works trust me i looked at pictures (no i didn't)#my favourite thing about people covering vocaloid songs is when they commission artists to draw their avatars in the same style-#-as the original art :) very fun to look at and also lowkey inspiring#kas vocaloid oc when...? just kidding#...maybe#UHH ANYWAY BYE FOR NOW#my art
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with each passing day i understand less about when the layton series is meant to take place. technically vr was first invented in 1968... but these goggles? this game cartridge??
#melonposting#professor layton#as it is i first thought the series took place more in victorian times but very quickly i was like nope. this is at least the 1960s#(among other things... someone's been on the moon)#i understand they're in steampunk world so they can have weirdly complex technology#but it's still very funny to me#laytong can play video game...#and y'know how in the games luke and layton break the 4th wall a bit at the beginning to explain the touch screen menus on the ds?#the funny thing is that... yeah. i guess they could very well know what a ds is couldn't they#(also? help? is the vr machine pulling a hallucinogenic gas right now. is this how it works here. help)
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Bella made the mistake of asking if scaramouche and Durin being friends made me like him more or less
#you know its bad when i have to sit down at work#i couldn't wait until i was home to explain how mad i am#methinks
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hello <3 does anyone have any last-minute tips for idk . enjoying a (taemin!!!!!!!) concert when you have autism + adhd? HSJSJSJS
#im sooooo nervous holy shit. it's been a While since i did the whole queuing thing for an artist#and when we did it for harry i had moments were i felt truly Terrible HSJSJSJSJ and im also nervous it won't feel real#or i won't be able to like. feel grounded or present??? and just close off emotionally???#i know this is silly and ive only listened to taemin since 2020 and never religiously like i did for bt s and seventeen ofc#but yk!!!!!! it's taemin!!!!!! and obviously feel v v lucky i get to go at all (yk. godwilling everything goes well)#also if anyone has any taemin specific tips hmu dhsjsjdh i haven't looked up the setlist bc i wanna be surprised#i know all his songs i think but not all by heart?#(also everything about queuing is Stressful HSJSJD and we have to travel 3.5 hours by train first which really is a record distance#in this country GSJSJSJD)#(anyways hiiiiiii sorry)#(oh and how be at peace with what you have djjsjdd and not to regret things constantly)#(which ig with taemin im constantly like Just So Happy To Be Here but then if it's me who could've done things differently it's >:[)#also in hindsight i think i just had a ? shutdown? meltdown? at one of the harry shows rip that wasn't great#can i even say that. idk if i get those. but i was quite literally shaking crying (not throwing up!) and couldn't explain a thing#anyways i think i'll take my adhd meds so i at least won't have a billion other thoughts in my head??#i just haven't in ages but i took them today and my heart has been Pounding HSJSJS also im sweating and nervous but yk we deal#i realise im making a huge deal out of this and it will most likely be fine#it's just like. if I don't feel anything at this????? what's the point#so no pressure HDJSJSJSJDJ maybe that's not a great thought#concerts are just... tricky and so much worse still now with covid and wearing a mask as one of the only people there#also sensorily + heat wise whew. but for the best
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