#i dont know if i could part with my current one... :[

[welostheplot]

── friendly fire

a one-shot about streamer!ellie being shamelessly flirted with by another streamer — and you reminding her exactly who she belongs to (a part two to stream sniped).

content: streamer!ellie x influencer!reader, modern au, established relationship, twitch chat antics (if you love me you'll recognize the work i put in to be consistent with the usernames from the last part), jealousy, possessiveness, reader's kinda bossy, little loser ellie loves it, MDNI 18+, slight dom!reader x slight sub!ellie, tribbing

word count: 2.6k

author's note: guys... i did not want to write more streamer!ellie. to be clear this is NOT a series. but y'all love her so much and this request was cute so here you go i'm feeding the children.

you were halfway through your eyeliner when the laugh caught your ear—ellie's giggle, tinny through the wall, the kind she only did when she was nervous. and not in a flustered-cute way.

no. this was her "i don't know how to handle this" kind of laugh. the one that came out when she was on the phone with a big-shot company discussing a paid partnership or when you forced her to actually order for herself in the chick-fil-a drive thru.

you paused, liner pen frozen mid-wing. you pressed your ear to the wall, but her words were muffled by the sheetrock and insulation between you two—you were in the guest room because the lighting was ass in hers.

then, casually—you weren’t nosy, not at all—you unlocked your phone and clicked into the twitch app.

twitch.tv/smellie — LIVE: collab night! w/ @ cataclysmik 😻🔫

you blinked.

oh. that’s cat?

she was hot. like, annoying hot. box-dyed black hair, perfect makeup, cat-ear headphones hot. and she was currently leaned all the way into the camera, chuckling at something ellie had just mumbled.

you glared at the screen. ellie could've mentioned that the collab stream she forgot she committed to—the one she just couldn't cancel and was the reason you had to change your dinner reservation for date night tonight to later—was with a chick who looked like she was the subject of everyone's wet dreams.

“oh my god, ellie, do you always bite your lip when you’re concentrating?” cat’s voice lilted flirtatiously through the stream audio, followed by a soft, knowing laugh. “cute.”

even with how small the preview was on your phone, you could see how ellie was fidgeting with her hoodie string, face flushed as she hunched deeper into her headset.

"uhh. yeah, i guess." her voice cracked. "it's my focus face."

v4nitymirror: all that focus with 2 kills LMAOOOO princessp3ach: not her stuttering ellieuseslightmode: CAT RIZZING HER UP???? altaccnumber26: doesn't ellie literally have a girlfriend? tima0911 replied to altaccnumber26: well where she at then 🥱

you finished the last flick of your eyeliner, rolled your eyes at your reflection, and moved to respond:

pastaluvrrr: 😐 i’m literally right here

“wait, you’re cracked—holy shit,” cat’s voice was syrupy sweet through your phone speakers. "you're carrying me, babe."

ellie's chest puffed up a little at the statement. ignoring the petname, she boasted, "yeah, that's what i'm here for. fortnite carry god, remember?"

you didn’t know if you were more annoyed at cat's persistent flirting or the fact that ellie didn't seem to notice you were in the chat. your acrylics tapped away at the glass screen of your phone as you typed up another message.

mikuirl: BROOOOO dusty_diamond: you literally killed a bot it's not that impressive ellieclips: alright dont get ahead of yourself smellie pastaluvrrr: huh. didn’t realize it was that kinda collab stream 😇

“oh shit—hi, baby,” ellie smiled dorkily at the camera, so excited to see your message she accidentally threw a shield pot instead of shooting the player in front of her. “you’re—lurking?”

babygirltummyache: 😳👀 elliebutinallcaps: OMG GF IN CHAT iclutchforpastalover replied to pastaluvrrr: LEAVE ELLIE FOR ME I'LL TREAT U GOOD I PROMISE pastaluvrrr: yeah. stream’s so fun. cat’s super friendly ❤️

ellie swallowed audibly, scratching the back of her neck nervously as she noted your sarcasm. cat just giggled. “that your girlfriend in chat? she’s cute.”

ellie coughed. “haha yeah. she’s… literally in the house right now. visiting for the weekend.”

cat hummed, not acknowledging that. "well lock in, there's only 13 people left. we can soooo win this."

you got up from where your makeup was sprawled across the vanity and took the short walk down the hall to her bedroom. ellie sat at the desk in the corner, headphones crooked, one leg bouncing like she was trying to take off.

you strolled in and flopped dramatically across her bed, the hem of the dress you were wearing sliding up to show more of your smooth thighs. if it was on purpose, your face didn’t give it away.

she saw you in her peripheral and froze, the tips of her ears turning pink.

whiffytiffany: SHE LOOKS SO GOOD WTFFFF nonbinarybullets: no fucking way maybemaddie: GF CAM GF CAM GF CAM timcanrust: her dress is a little short, no? message deleted by a moderator elliesdischarge: THAT SHOULD BE ME IN THAT BED

ellie’s voice was shaky. “i’m, uh… wrapping up soon. we’ve got—like, a thing tonight. reservation.”

cat pouted. “aw. that's a shame, babe, we were just warming up. now who will carry me when you're gone?”

usuallylurkin: she’s right there??? ellieuseslightmode: WHY IS CAT STILL FLIRTING nerfventure: girl. be serious. chousey203: NOOOO DON'T END STREAM

you watched ellie try to laugh it off. a few more minutes passed. they lost—placing third—and queued back up, cat making some obnoxious comment about how they should match skins this time.

growing agitated, you eventually stood, padded over barefoot, and crouched down next to ellie’s gaming chair.

she startled a little, tilting the mic up. “baby, i’m almost—”

you leaned in close, lips brushing her ear, your voice perfectly crisp in the mic: “you should end stream so we can fuck before our date."

topnoodle44: 💀💀💀 leilaniiii: DID SHE JUST— ghostpeekr: AYOOOOOO maybemaddie: I’M ON MY KNEES

she whipped her head toward you, eyes wide and mouth agape. you were smirking, all soft and smug, trailing a hand up the back of her neck.

she fumbled for a keybind, the screen flashing to her "be right back" screen—some dumb meme of her photoshopped onto a png of an alien.

“i’ll get off in like, five minutes,” she whispered, breathless. “let me just close out, say bye.”

"nuh uh.” you kissed her softly, nicking at her bottom lip. then leaned even further to suck a mark into the curve of her jaw. “don’t care about the outro. right now.”

she shivered in her seat, her hand reaching to hold your head there as she let out of a soft, audible moan. "ah— feels good."

macetotheface: YOURE NOT MUTED YOURE NOT MUTED YOURE NOT MUTED elliesdischarge: HOLY WHIMPER elliesyumyum: SHES MOANINGGGGGGGG ellieclips: NOT AGAIN

cat’s voice suddenly cut through her headphones, making her jolt.

“…umm. ellie? i think you forgot to mute. but—i had fun. play again soon, yeah?”

ellie slammed her hand on her stream deck. everything on the screen cut to black.

“oh my gooood,” she groaned, slumping back in her chair with her hands over her face. “i think i just committed career suicide. chat definitely heard all of that. cat definitely heard all of that.”

"honestly? good. maybe now she’ll get the hint.”

ellie blinked, wide-eyed, throat bobbing as your thumb brushed over her flushed cheek. you slid into her lap carefully.

“you’re mine,” you murmured, voice low but sharp, every word deliberate. “not hers. not anyone else's. mine.”

ellie nodded so fast it made you smile. “y-yeah,” she breathed, hands twitching against your thighs. "yours." you pulled her into a kiss.

“you’re insane, you know,” she muttered against your mouth. “you can’t just say shit like that into my mic—”

“oh, i can't?” you teased, dragging your nails lightly down the back of her neck. “but it's good for engagement! what's that shit you're always talking about? clip farming, right?”

ellie groaned—actually groaned—and her hips bucked under you, shifting like she didn’t know what to do with herself.

“fuck you,” she whispered, chasing your mouth despite the words.

“you will,” you said sweetly, then kissed her like you meant it.

she melted, her hands everywhere at once—sliding under your dress, gripping the backs of your thighs, dragging you closer until you were straddling her properly, knees pressed against the arms of her chair.

“god, i love you,” she mumbled, pulling back just long enough to press her lips to your jaw, your neck, the edge of your collarbone. she was all over you. “but jesus, you’re fucking mean. coming in here, making me—”

you tilted your head back when she bit at your throat, gasping softly. “making you what?”

ellie’s breath stuttered. “making me fucking whimper on stream like an idiot.”

“mm.” you smirked, threading your fingers through her hair and tugging just enough to make her groan. “you want me to feel bad?”

“yeah,” she whispered, a little laugh in her voice. “but you won’t.”

“nope,” you agreed, and leaned down to kiss her slow and deep, grinding down just to feel her curse into your mouth.

ellie’s hands slid up over the dress now, fingers skimming your ribs like she couldn’t believe she was allowed. she tugged at the zipper, impatient. “take this off. please.”

she unzipped it fully and you pulled it off immediately, tossing it somewhere behind you. her hands immediately cupped your chest through your strapless bra, thumbs rubbing lightly over the fabric, making you shiver.

“you’re so fucking hot,” she murmured, almost reverent. “can’t believe you’re mine.”

“say that again.”

“you’re mine,” she said instantly, eyes dark and wide.

“that’s right,” you whispered, tugging at her hoodie now. “now take this off and prove it.”

ellie scrambled out of her hoodie like it was burning her skin. she practically vaulted it across the room before her hands were on you again, tugging you closer until your chest was flush against hers.

"you're so bossy," she muttered, and you smirked, rolling your hips into her. "and you're so fucking slow. you gonna make me wait all night?"

ellie’s breath hitched. she didn’t answer—just slid her hands up your back to unhook your bra.

you stood just long enough to shove your panties down your legs in one go, stepping out of them and tossing them aside as well. when you settled back into her lap, fully bare, ellie let out a punched-out breath.

"jesus christ," she whispered, hands gripping your hips. "you’re so—fuck—you're perfect."

you tilted your head, feigning innocence. "you think about me when you stream? think about this?"

"yeah," she admitted hoarsely. "always thinking about your pussy—fuuuck, baby—thinking about how wet you get."

you gripped her jaw, made her look at you. "you liked her flirting with you?"

"no," she groaned, hips jerking helplessly under yours. "hated it. i just kept… picturing you. how pretty you look when you do your makeup. how gorgeous you were gonna look tonight at dinner."

"mm," you hummed, inwardly preening. even in the middle of sex, she couldn't help but compliment you. always so sweet, your ellie.

but then, coming to, you leaned in to nip at her earlobe. "maybe next time i'll make you cum on stream."

ellie whined—actually whined—and you smiled.

"bed," you commanded, climbing off her lap. "pants off. now."

she scrambled out of her sweats and boxers so fast it was embarrassing. she was wet, a sticky mess coating her thighs, and when you drew two fingers up her slit to feel for yourself she groaned like she was in pain.

"babe, please," she panted, hands twitching at her sides. "i need you so bad. don't—don't tease me."

you pressed her back onto the bed and climbed on top of her, lining yourself up with her.

"who do you belong to?" you asked, gripping her thigh.

"you," she said instantly, without hesitation. "always you."

"good girl," you murmured, and settled down, your centers meeting with a wet squelch.

ellie choked on a moan, head thrown back against the pillow.

"fuuuck, you feel—" her hands gripped your hips hard enough to bruise, like she was holding on for dear life. "oh my god, babe, you feel so good."

you rode her slow at first, savoring the way her jaw went slack, the way she tried so hard to keep her eyes open and watch the way your hips undulated above her.

"please go faster," she begged, thrusting up into you with clumsy, needy rhythm.

"you don’t get to tell me what to do," you said sweetly, dragging your hips in a pointed circle that made her curse.

"i'm sorry," ellie babbled, already wrecked. "just—please—i wanna make you cum."

you leaned down, kissed her hard. "you will," you whispered, and then you started to move for real.

ellie was incoherent within seconds. her hands gripped your ass and your hips and anywhere she could reach as you rolled into her, wet and messy and loud in the quiet room.

"oh my god," she groaned, jaw slack. "baby—fuck, you’re—i can feel how wet you are—shit—"

"you’re so loud," you teased, riding her harder. "would probably be this loud even if chat could hear you, huh?"

"i don’t—i-i..." ellie gasped, thrusting up into you, eyes glassy. "fuck, i’m close—please—"

one hand still gripping her leg beside you, you leaned down to pinch one of her nipples, tugging at the pebbled peak. the combined feeling of her against you and the erotic visual sent you over the edge fast.

"ellie—" you gasped as you came, clenching hard around nothing.

she followed with a broken moan, hips bucking so hard she almost toppled you over. "ah— fuck, baby!" she clutched you like you were the only thing tethering her to earth.

and when you finally collapsed on top of her, both of you sweaty and gasping, ellie pressed sloppy kisses to your temple, your cheek, your shoulder.

“i love you,” she murmured, voice raw. “so, so much.”

you laughed, breathless, kissing her back. “i love you too, smellie.”

ellie groaned, hiding her face in your neck. “we definitely missed our reservation,” she mumbled, voice muffled against your skin.

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[scented-morker]

When Idol s/o covers their song !

enha when idol s/o covers their song, bf!enha x idol!reader, gn, shoutout to the anon that requested this bc i was so excited to write it!! 1.1k words

HEESEUNG

• he’s your number one fan and thinks you’re the coolest person ever so OBVIOUSLY he’s going to be in the crowd when your group performs a special stage at kcon!!!

• he promised the managers that he could be so cool and nonchalant and not get in a dating scandal

• until the first few notes of Moonstruck start playing

• “there’s no way” 😃

• the camera shows the boys ofc so they’re all giving thumbs up and such but hee is just STARING SO HARD 🫠

• completely ruined bc how are you so majestic????

• when you do his vocal runs towards the end???

• you killed him, he literally has chills

• tells you that you’re the most talented person he’s ever met

• accidentally likes a fancam the next day and has to blame it on a glitch 💔

JAY

• supportive boyfriend to his core, he’s watching you and your members get on stage like it’s his kids soccer game

• probably gets smacked for pointing at you while whispering to whatever guy is next to him

• “that one’s mine” 😭

• you perform your current song and he’s ofc smiling and dancing along

• but then the song changes ????

• IS THAT BLESSED CURSED???????

• he’s never seen you dance so powerful and intense bro is shaking in his boots

• yn center 4ever please, you do the ‘and i walk like a lion’ the first time and stare into the cameras soul OH MY WORD SAVE HIM

• literally cheers like you just single-handedly wind the superbowl or something, i’m talking clapping far too long, hands up to his mouth like a megaphone to yell

• your cool ending fairy is ruined bc you can hear him from the stage and end up laughing

• he gives you a water and a hug when he sees you backstage and tells you how proud he is 🥹

• goes “those enhypen guys need to watch their backs”

JAKE

• he is so feral, he had to be warned

• “They’re performing one of your songs, so the camera will be on you a lot. DONT YOU DARE SIMP IN 5K”

• he begged you to tell him which song but you refused

• so when FEVER STARTED PLAYING!?? 😛

• he’s trying SO HARD to be chill, but WHY ARE YOU BITING YOUR LIP LIKE THAT

• you are literally copying him, winking when he did, biting your lip, all of it

• he’s too foggy headed to even realize you’re literally performing as him, move for move (he doesn’t need to know how many times you watched his fancam)

• when you’re all on the floor and they zoom on you when you get up 😁

• i think he literally stops breathing

• let’s out the most feral screech you’ve ever heard at the end of the performance 😭

• bro is NAWT slick

• but it’s okay bc he fawns over you for the next week

SUNGHOON

• he’s so professional and cool, he’s gonna watch his partner perform quietly and politely and totally normally

• and then PAUSE bc IS THAT NO DOUBT????

• WHY IS YOUR HAIR WET, WHYD THEY PUT A CUT ON YOUR FACE, HE CANT HANDLE IT

• when you do his part in the center his jaw tightens so hard, he’s fighting for his life to look normal 😭

• one of the guys leans over and goes ‘their footwork is so cool’ and he just goes ‘i know’ 😁 he’s definition proud bf

• he lowkey can’t look at you immediately after, he’s a little flustered

• but he makes sure to tell you ‘you looked really good out there’

• and then makes it up to you by taking you out to get a sweet treat bc you deserve it!!!

SUNOO

• he specially bought tickets just to watch you, okay? he is masked up, lightstick in his hand, and jungwon who he dragged along READY

• bopping around, dancing along while you perform and then the lights dim and he sees some outfit rearranging… cue Bad Desire

• SQUEALS SO LOUD

• he and jungwon are just sitting there smacking each other bc THATS THEIR SONG

• you specifically requested him to come, and now he knows why 🤪

• when you sing the ‘to the world you’re just an angel’ DIRECT EYE CONTACT

• bro is smiling SO BIG that’s his angel!!!! and he’s your angel!!!

• lowkey forgets to dance or anything because he’s just so transfixed

• makes everyone in his section chant your name during your ending fairy 🥰

• literally has tears in his eyes when he sees you backstage, picks you up in a hug, he’s so excited

JUNGWON

• you told him that you had a surprise during your groups performance and made him pinky promise to be there

• when you walk out with BRIGHT RED HAIR!??! (stan twt is divided on if it’s a wig)

• he thinks that’s it, you knew he would be sitting there stuttering like a fool as soon as he saw your new hair

• but the PARADOXX INVASION STARTS PLAYING!??!

• LOSES his mind im sorry

• you’re dancing HIS part, in HIS song, with HIS hair from the comeback

• heart palpitations, face is red, cannot breathe

• you have SO much energy and stage presence he feels like he’s drooling but he can’t help it 😭

• ATTACKS you when you get off stage, full on picking you up, fixing your hair, kisses you lightning speed when he thinks no one will see 🤩

• will literally talk about it on live for the next three weeks

• “that group did a really good job, i especially liked yns part!! do you think we look alike? we look good right? maybe we should do a challenge together!”

RIKI

• he knew you were doing a cover, you’d been talking about trying to do really well with the new style and talking about how cool the choreography was even though it wasn’t what you’re used to

• so he’s got high hopes and is ready to be super supportive even if you feel nervous about it

• appreciated how cool your outfits are when you get on stage, hee gives him a little nudge bc he knows how much riki has been talking about it

• and then Bite Me comes on and they all freeze

• it’s the version without other dancers, although you and one of your members do a paired part that he thinks looks SO COOL

• oh my, oh my god is CORRECT bc he chokes when you start dancing 😆

• seeing you being so cool singing his groups song and doing choreography that he helped with????

• he is A GONER

• tries to keep it so cool, dancing and singing along

• he gets sooooo smug when you do his part and the crowd goes crazy 😏

• afterwards he’s like ‘yeah you looked pretty cool, whoever did that song must be super cool’ like he didn’t save your fancam to his phone and like all of the videos comparing you and him side by side

[transgenderer]

so everyone's discussing restricting children's access to media rn. my instincts lean pretty strongly libertarian (libertine? liberal? lascivious. libations) on this issue ofc but i do think theres probably an age under which you should be careful about what media your kids have access to. maybe...8? ish? my intuition for children's ages is vague now.

there are two angles here: the boring one is addiction, or at least habit forming. it seems good to discourage your kids from developing unhealthy screen habits at a very young age. i think it makes sense to not let your kid have access to the ipad or whatever before 5, or whatever

but the interesting one is agency. i dont know about you, but there was definitiely a part of my childhood where i didnt really comprehend that i could *stop* watching what i was currently watching? like it just didnt occur to me i guess. i suppose it must have eventually, i wouldnt sit watching tv literally indefinitely. but it was difficult. not so much in an enthralling way, its more just that i wasnt fully aware of the connection between my agency and my desires yet. and when a kid is young enough to still have that disconnect, i can imagine encountering porn or gore or whatever being pretty distressing!

[neuroticpeach]

some tkdb ramblings under the cut, read if you want i guess. Mostly some theories and centered around Rui

ok so first off, forgive me if this is something someone else has rambled about already; I am still new to the fandom, literally only started a few months ago and it has consumed me

so i am currently writing what is unexpectedly turning into a long Rui fic so most of my thoughts are about this blondie

I love that tkdb lets me reread chapters.

So when Rui is introduced, we learn about him right away that MC says he "seems like a player" and feels like she was "in a host club" (as a long time OHSHC fan and former Tamaki cosplayer, the sound thay came out of my mouth when Rui was introduced was NOT HUMAN).

Haku points out in conversation that MC and Rui, yes, both have a curse, but fundamentally different.

Obviously, there's the idea that one is going to kill the person with the Curse (er, turn them into an anomaly but we found that out later) and one kills whomever the Curse-haver touches (a fact that torments my angsty brain constantly ;_;)

but part of what Haku said is further itching in my brain at the moment while my fic is cooking: not only is the effect of the curses different, but how they got them is different as well

we know how MC got her curse. we were there.

how did Rui get his?

A little we know about Rui: formerly in Clementia, healing house, right? Hung out w/Romeo and Haru at least a little cuz he comments early on how happy it made him to see them kicking around together again. Rui also seems to be close enough w/Taiga and Haku that everybody has nicknames for each other.

Haku also teases Rui about using "that one brain cell."

okay. theories time.

MC is essentially an innocent when she gets her curse. That's part of what's so tragic about it.

my theory is that Rui did something he shouldn't have to get his curse, that is to say, he is not innocent.

So I'm looking at his curse and, as a punishment goes, it's particularly poignant because he is such a flirt. And here is where my brain went a little Disney—

Beauty and the Beast.

Wouldn't it make sense if Rui did something that spurned someone, because he's such a flirt with anything with a pulse, and the person spurned just happened to have a curse up their sleeve that was particularly punishing? And poor little simple minded Rui (said with all the love in my heart) just doesnt seem to be getting the lesson that he's supposed to learn, which is why clever Haku teases him a bit.

I need to knead and let these thoughts rise a little more for my fics. Someone talk to me about them. ;u;

OF COURSE, I could be 1000000% wrong. Maybe I'm reading into Haku's comments too much, but I dont think so. The devs have been really good at dropping tantalizing breadcrumbs for us where we aren't always expecting them.

Another thought I had was how even though Rui is sweet, his stigma is super useful, and he's fine as hell, he's still one of the Murder Suspects. Is it just because of the nature of his curse? Or could it be related to how he got the curse in the first place? Maybe the cursing was related to a jealous and/or spurned lover(s)? We still don't hear a lot about the victims in the case.

Example Scenario:

Pre-Curse Rui has a little fanclub (of course he does. see previous "fine as hell") which includes person we will call A. A happens to have cursing ability, and is spurned by Rui (Maybe intentionally, maybe accidentally, we don't know pre-curse Rui much). A gets mad and curses Rui. Then Sleeping Beauty murders end up with A and members of Rui's fanclub as victims. It would make sense that people might blame Rui here, thinking he did murders [allegedly] over being upset about the curse.

why am I kept awake at night thinking about PNGs

[arsenicflame]

Bonus round! Do you use a queue tag?

[holdmymetaphor]

how i have 10k words on ch 7 and its not even halfway written 🗿

[autism-corner]

about that

[mistyechoes]

deep and thorough sigh i suck at video games

[blackvahana]

Thankyou for answering my question about mindscapes and mental spaces. A follow up question:

How would one go about creating a portal from your mindscape to the astral then? You mention ‘birthing’ it of sorts, would that be a lengthy process? If I don’t set up a portal, can I still make like a temporary one?

The last question is, people mention having homes and pocket spaces in the astral, is this the same as mental space but in the astral, how does one go about obtaining an owned space in the astral that they can alter and change like a mindscape.

Sorry for the lengthy ask, I appreciate your time 💙

No problem at all! Hope it helps, and I'll try to answer this best I can.

I think... it's important first and foremost to solidly understand the difference between the two, and what both feel like.

The issue with answering questions like these is that... well. Look at magic on this plane: One person's answer to "how do you curse" would be rotting froth sea water and whispered sea goddess curses, and another's would be to write their name on fire and burn it. One, both, or neither - more likely neither - is going to suit the person asking especially if say the person asking is a nature witch. Well, they could make it work, both saltwater and fire strangle nature, but... The ways to get things done naturally involve pushing your own self and elements to the cliff between you and the world at large, and another persons way of pushing themselves is probably not going to be yours - especially because elementally, energetically, we all have very different selves

That... Is amplified in the Astral. This is why I sort of... have a "dont teach people unless its in person and in a way I can possess and give visions to directly show" - part of why I made my realm lmfao. I can give you a basics rundown answer to your questions, but its not really... its not like giving baking steps where we both have flour and both have cups and both have ovens

the Basic answers are: yeah. First and foremost practice getting a solid grip on what is astral and what is mental. both exist in the same ALL/universe, like fire and oil, disparate but transmutable into one another if you know how to rearrange atomic structures and... many other things. or you could just set fire to the oil lmfao. Anyway.

Birthing the portal: When you grasp both astral and mental, it's important to understand the link. This can be done through existing in the astral and trying to manifest things, taking thought and idea and weaving it into reality. In the astral, you believing you can fly wont make you be able to like what happens in the mental, to birth wings out of yourself you need to stitch thought with substance. You need to give reality programming - which means you need to be able to grasp reality and walk the path between mental and real.

It's... yeah. hard to explain to someone if theyre not already used to portal work (maybe you are! Im just presuming a baseline level of understanding because i dont want to miss any important details). But the idea is... there is a point where the mental and astral touch. There is mental in the astral. The mental - referencing for a second how i talked about reality shifting and mindspaces and such - is very... accepting of programming. The key issue though is that if you programme "a door to the astral" in the mental without actually literally linking it to the astral, you'll end up with "a door to the astral" that takes you to a simulated astral reality. Thats why i say understanding what the astral feels like and the differences is key

The idea is... to birth a nothing. The astral compared to the mental is a lack of mental. Theres a phrase that Hermes impressed on me with great importance lmfao regarding the mental: "Do not assign features to it." This is essentially saying... just that, if you assign it personhood it will become a person. If you assign it reality it will become real. If you assign it a doorway itll become a door - and you will still be interacting with unreality, just now with a mask. But if you grasp both mental AND astral, and use their shared elements, you can birth a point in reality rather than the mind where... the mental gives way into externality

its. yeah. Its rough to explain. You basically want to create a place where the mental stops having a say in things, and you want to create that in the mental, which means you dont want to Create anything you want to more so make your mindspace a sighing body with you as the breath.

Is it a lengthy process? No, it can take place in an instant if you know what youre doing - Ill say when you know what youre doing because it genuinely is just a matter of practice and getting familiar with the two things. It can happen in an instant because mindspace is... extremely reactive, and mental creation can happen even backwards in time - you could have a portal to the outside thats built by your future self lmfao

I just. would recommend really to leave this kind of thing and just try more so to project or bilocate. The reason I have a portal in my mindspace is uh. it actually goes to the sky in mongolia, which it to say the gelatinous-crystalline window in between God and Creation, which is why the portal exists in the first place. Its way easier - and better for the brain to avoid becoming confused - if one just projects from real to real aka physical to astral - the portal is specifically uh. theres a psychological benefit to going from unreal to real wrt this portal specifically

Yes, you absolutely can make a temporary one! To be honest as much as this might sound counterintuitive, i think its actually both easier (that parts not counterintuitive) and more effective to make a temporary one. Itd be way easier to skirt the mentals tendency to take on the properties of the external (as in to stop it from making a pretend portal outwards) by making it temporary and purely for utility. The mental would probably react more "yes on it boss ill collapse and invert" if you arent trying to forge something mental.

Homes and pocket spaces... I personally - just so we're on the same page, you dont have to agree w this use of the word or use the words like this - i see pocket realms/spaces and realms proper differently. Not even based on size, but function. Effectively.... Theres more types of spacetime than atomic, realms are their own sort of... realities with their own spacetime, pocket realms/pocket spaces are... specifically sort of... uh. Realms are dresses, pocket realms are pockets on those dresses. Dens under trees, in that they tuck into spacetime thats tucked into spacetime

Its definitely possible to realm weave or pocket space weave. I.... im gonna be honest I wont recommend it at all before one's familiar with astral-mental spectrum things. Specifically if you cant tell with pretty high certainty when somethings mental youll probably end up weaving a mental realm which. is. devastating or can be. its devastating to find out your entire territory, people you know and love, and so on are all masks of the mental lmfao ie nonexistent. part of why i want to shoo people away from reality shifting before they have a huge grasp on the mental and the "reality" creation function.

Theres several ways to do it though. My realm is actually woven through... what im going to call gateworking, and chronomancy. Using reality itself as a system of gates, utilising my aspect of the fabric of spacetime to stitch a pattern on my own fabric.... insert one of my selves answering to Yog-Sothoth here, I Am That Which Is And Is Not. Knowledge/data/code-weaving and shit. this is to say that my own experience is. not. going to be applicable to everyone. Ive seen others weave tapestries, or plant seeds in the folds of reality, but at that point you need to know how to programme thread and seed.

I think seeds are... not necessarily the easiest method (realmweaving a stable realm beyond a mental flimsy movie set of a place is already not easy lmfao) but i find them actually the most intuitive type of magic to teach others - as in someone brought it up and im like "huh, yeah, thats good actually". But... then you need to know legitimisation and shit. The process (in my eyes) would be programming a seed, slipping it between the cracks of non-spacetime where theres a necessary gap and set of substances, and "watering" it - this is a good method because it allows the ability to grow something one cant more consciously guide and grow and allows magic to spread virulently into a self-sustaining realm...

But - you specifically asked how one may obtain one... I would really just suggest getting a realmweaver to make you one or... making a claim on someone else's territory lmfao. Obviously that last one is a human social faux pas at best, horrifically selfishly violent at worst, but look. we gore others for their territory all the time over there lmfao

Either way... im sure theres more beginner guides to making these things? But... I genuinely dont recommend beginners get in on this. I kinda do, Ive said before and Ill say it again that for certain species (fae especially, and I am part Void Fae so that checks out) its a third function like growing ones own body and conceiving/growing a child, and... people have a right to their own bodily functions without having to be super knowledgeable on shit

however... theres so much that can go wrong that its... it is possible to grow a realm/pocket reality without -

actually. hold a minute. I hate when people presume competence and skill levels over text. I need to actually clarify what Im talking about here because Im not presuming youre "just some lousy beginner haha im soooo much better than you" type shit I loathe that. So specifically: Im presuming you dont have access to libraries of information in the astral with records of realmweaving + what realms are + the differences between mental and astral, i presume you havent been brought through testing learning by spirits to show you the differences between mental and astral, and i presume you dont have the ability to talk with spirit teachers to have them guiding you along the process... Which is all absolutely possible to get, its just this is basically the level I would suggest being at before realmweaving, and uh. when youre at that level - hence why i presume you arent - generally you learn from those means rather than tumblr. Meant totally neutrally here, i still learn shit from tumblr (and hey i mean clearly im ON tumblr im typing on it right now, this isnt a bad thing)

The dangers specifically are just... Hermes' warnings were specifically about the Mental and oh my god did he impress that on me and boy do i get why. The astral? Worst thing you can go through is probably for the average person being hunted down and having your family slaughtered in front of you and then being killed and having to come back to your body and live with it. Worst thing on average for that same person mentally? Ohhhhh fucking boy. way worse. You could go through all that and have to cope with it not being real - or never find out it wasnt real, and then keep going through it, and then start becoming psychotic irt hallucinations, and then completely lose yourself, lose your ability to interact w any reality, etc. the Mental is..... If you lose your body, you still have your mind. If you lose your mind, you have nothing - and youre still forced to live through having nothing, because if you cant sever your connection to your reality because youre no longer able to tell what reality is... its fucked! Mental is extremely dangerous lmfao

Dont take this as discouragement. Chemicals in a lab can do horrible fucking things to you and fuck you up for life, but you can learn chemistry quite easily if you just. take the steps to do it lmfao. Same with this, skill here is just. learning to navigate risks. Also honestly if you do fuck around to find out you probably wont have anything hugely awful happen, its just... when you get stuck in the mental and cant tell the difference between simulated reality and the mental - which are, 100%, indistinguishably, identical because we perceive reality through the mental, the feeling of and experience of "real" is a mental function uh. anyway

[ajdrawshq]

listening to octopath music and drawing and writing stuff for my octopath pmd au so The Horrors(tm) dont get me

[connormoving]

so close to being done with one step in the larger step in the larger step of the spreadsheet.

i ran out of space in the tags so im continuing them under the cut bc i wasnt finished... and if you let me finish i would of finshed my santance

anyways i have some countries like. the borders r pretty close to irl countries and i have them in my notes as x country but other ones i split them into like. just smaller subregions of the continent based on irl like. regions. like i split africa into . Madagascar + East Africa + Central Africa + Southern Africa + Western Africa + Northern Africa and its referenced off of maps where those r like. the recognized regions (well. madagascar is usually just counted as either east or southern africa but yk). but idk... im worried its a shitty thing 2 do i just dont know what else 2 do with it. maybe i should just use an actual world map instead since im going more realistic with like. the time periods and stuff. IDK i just rly wanna avoid the shit the sims does so much where it lumps a bunch of cultures together like. the chinese world in ts3 world adventures having a torii gate for the icon. -_- yk. the map was kinda superfluous anyway and more judt a way to visualize where the worlds we have were distributed + also was mostly influenced by that one ts4 mod which takes that more simplistic approach but maybe i can just step away from that and just go more realism based Its just hard bc i dont wanna like. lose the more like. silly isnt quite the word (itis kind of but not fully) ig i mean i dont wanna lose the abstraction kind of thing the sims has. but like. I am auite literally making a spreadsheet to get rid of some of the abstraction the sims has so what am i on about. IDK i just have been thinking abt it a lot basically... like sims im already making shit up and locking the sims to like real world history stuff it only makes sense to like. do the same thing with The world and not have it be abstracted. so yes that was a lot of words to say i think im just gonna move to thinking of the sims as living on Basically earth. In my personal the sims palace that ive made up. this is not to say i personally think of the sims as tkaing place on earth or anything ive just decided to do like. Bc this whole thing is basically an au im making anyway like. taking ts3 sims and making them be from the 1950s thats already Not what the game is like. so ill just make it a Realworld sims au. ok yay 👍 thats all sorry for talking sm abt something so pointless and also for not using a SINGLE paragraph break im basically just writing in this like i write in the tags (stream of consciousness) but the tags have the benefit of being naturally split up so yes i dont think anybody is reading this far. when i was little and playing skyward sword for the first time roughly 7-8 years old i got to the like trial on skyloft and i got so scared i smashed the cd so that i wouldnt have to do it . and then i blamed my dog for it. and i did this even tho lamp had JUST started a skyward sword playthru which idk if i knew at the time but i do feel rly guilty abt it. but i was rly scared. ok thats all

[autistic-shaiapouf]

Oh haha yeah I'm definitely feeling better <- he is not talking to people

[bravevolunteer-a]

me vs the urge to rewrite my bio for no reason

[depresseddepot]

this is a very unique fear but I'm worried they're going to take my full time position away and try to make me part time again

[rampant-testiculitis]

i knew it was about me to some degree

[arolesbianism]

I am thinking very very hard abt the toy world guys and oh baby I love dropping in disturbing lore bits that are just sorta dripped into the actual plot and otherwise are not explained <3