#i know this is probs annoying and depressing

[eenochian]

i found a song that i listened to the night before my family had to put one of my cats to sleep and now i am just. sitting here crying. fuckin hate it here man.

[thankstothe]

It's personal

How long has it been personal?

[tentglitch]

I'm crashing tf out grandson

[chocosvt]

HER | teaser.

✧✎ synopsis: wonwoo, a heartbroken and burnt out writer nearing the end of his math degree, wants nothing to do with the seemingly perfect, intimidating girl who has everyone under her thumb. you. unfortunately, his literary talent has got him shoved him between a rock and a hard place when you want to write a book and require his expertise. you two are the furthest from compatible. wonwoo can’t see this going well. at all.

pairing: wonwoo x fem!reader teaser word count: 1.4k actual word count: 140k (yes, u read that correctly) genres/tropes: writer!wonwoo, university!au, plug!vernon + boyfriend!mingyu as prominent side characters, SLOWBURN (i am not fucking around this is my slowest burn yet), relationship drama, soul searching, strong angst/hurt (i’m coming for the jugular), comfort, romance, smut, a smoothie of every emotion on earth.

(!) warnings for the full fic: drug use (weed, coke, ecstasy), wonwoo has anxiety + anxiety attacks + fairly dark thoughts, prescribed medication, gambling, intense language, infidelity, throwing up.

✧✎ a/n: as i descend to one knee and cup my hands together at your mercy, i offer a tidbit to the wonwoo fic i have finally completed after two years (lol). i know i ALWAYS say this, but i truly wasn't expecting the fic to be THIS FUCKING LONG! thankfully, i planned it well and although i lost momentum countless times (nervously side eyes the approximate & several 5 month breaks i took in between), my dedication to seeing the characters through & "completing" their growth was smth that i could not leave behind!

not having posted a fic for two years is prob a little much :0 so hopefully the length of this makes up for it (?) usually my writing is just teehee silly little romance agonizing slowburn surface level dilemmas of the self BUT THIS ONE HAS A LITTLE KICK!

so read it if you want! don't read it if you don't want!

hearts & flowers, xoxoxo (me :*)

UPDATE: read the first part here!

—MARCH 19TH.

“I have a relatively big favour to ask of you.”

 No. Wonwoo didn’t want anything to do with favours.

The fact that Seokmin had actively picked out his presence in the coffee shop like he was some shiny contortion of plastic had actually offended Wonwoo. He came here for two things: to not be bothered, which his friend knew, and to work on the book he was halfway through typing and had been halfway through typing for the past six months. Call it writer’s block, or an inspiration drought, or an absolutely depressing lack of drive—it had been hanging over the writer with an annoying persistence and it seemed that no number of lemony scones or cold coffees were going to make it vanish.

“Uh, Wonwoo?”

“Sorry… what?” He forced his gaze to shift from the blank page on his laptop to Seokmin’s apologetic, softly expressional face, slightly flushed from his time outdoors in the chilled March weather.

“I was just wondering if you’d be up for a favour—a pretty big one—and I know this is your special creativity spot, but she’s been like, breathing down my neck about it and I can’t put it off again.”

“Whose been breathing down your neck?”

At first, Seokmin didn’t say a word, or even make a sound. His lips twitched for a moment, but then he pressed them together and his chest visibly sucked in with a breath. God, Wonwoo hated the suspense and he hated Seokmin for interrupting him when he had been so stupidly close to putting a sentence down that he probably would have back-spaced in frustration a minute later.  

“Y’know…” he trailed off, “Her.”

Her.

No, not her, you.

But most people—if not everyone—referred to you by an alias that had seemed to stick so well the majority believed it actually was your name. When people said her they meant Her, and so in a confusing mess of finger-pointing they really meant you. Come to think of it, Wonwoo had no idea where the nickname even came from or who gave it to you or what it even meant.

And he was perfectly fine with never knowing.

“What?” Wonwoo deadpanned. “What on earth could she want to do with me? She doesn’t even know me.” He slid down in his chair, fingers pulling at his circle-lensed glasses so they tilted uncomfortably across his nose bridge. “Or, is this a joke?”

“Oh—no! Absolutely not!” His friend was insistent on proclaiming, vigorously shaking his head. “I’m being serious.”

“Why don’t I believe you then?”

“Okay, well, if you let me explain everything, it’ll all make sense. I said I know someone who writes really well—”

“Meaning me?”

“Yes, meaning you. And the only reason that was even brought up is because she wants to write a book.”

Wonwoo couldn’t help it. He laughed—a very short, disbelieving laugh that flashed a transient smile to his face as he readjusted his crooked glasses. You were the last person he would ever envision wanting to write a book. He then navigated the trackpad on his laptop, deciding to close the document simply titled, 01, that harboured the fleet of pages to his own current work in progress.

“Yeah,” Wonwoo disregarded, “sounds like bullshit.”

“I’m telling you the truth!” Seokmin exclaimed, gripping onto the metal back of the café chair like he was squeezing someone’s taunt shoulders. “She won’t tell me about what, okay? Just that she’s been thinking the idea for a while now. It’s not like I didn’t try to get details. But she refused—said the only person who can know is whoever’s going to help her. Look, y’have to understand, she was pestering me about it nonstop. And you’re my only writer friend!”

“Well, you’re about to have none.” He answered, reaching for his coffee cup but stopping it just short of his lips. “How serious is she about this, anyway?” Wonwoo sighed. “Do you know how much fucking time you need to dedicate to writing a book?”

He stomached a slow, somewhat grimacing sip as he tasted the coffee’s coldness, meanwhile Seokmin swallowed heavily, and at last pulled out the chair he’d been white-knuckling to take a seat.

“Yes, I’m aware it takes time. I know that. And she is serious or else I wouldn’t be here, bothering you. She takes everything seriously.” The boy began unbuttoning his sleek black jacket. “Really, who knows what’ll happen? Maybe you’ll meet her once and she’ll decide she can’t stand you, and then you’re off the hook for life.”

“Yeah, well have you ever considered what might happen if I can’t stand her? Are my feelings even being considered? Minutely?”

“Minutely, they are being considered.”

“Liar.”

It wasn’t that Wonwoo disliked you.

In actuality, you scared him more than anything. But to be associated with you was to be drawn into your life and caught like a firefly in a glass jelly jar. The proof was right in front of him—to Wonwoo’s eyes, Seokmin was basically your little mailman that scrambled around in hectic nature to do your bidding, because most tasks apparently weren’t worth the time or effort.

“I can’t believe you’re trying to rope me into this. You know I can hardly write my own shit, right?” Wonwoo said bitterly, wishing it was the opposite, “my mind is a desolate, blank canvas of fuck-all and if she thinks I’m writing it then she needs a reality check.”

“No, no—of course you won’t write it!” Seokmin reassured him with his big, opalescent smile. “Really, you’re just giving tips, maybe guiding her process, helping with the planning… you know, this could be facilitated so much easier if you spoke to Her yourself!”

“So, my nightmare?” Wonwoo huffed, shaking his leg.

In an instant, Seokmin had whipped out his phone, tapping around the screen quickly using his thin pointer finger.

“I’m just going to pull up her schedule. It’s always pretty packed, but more into the summer break, it thins out a little. “

Wonwoo exhaled, staring off into the warm, afternoon sunlight that hailed in through the windows, striking all the shimmering flecks and pieces of dust afloat in the café air. When he breathed in again, he could smell the luxurious coffees brewing in their rich and distinctive notes. It was such a beautiful day—still chilly as the snow outdoors began to thaw—but pleasant nonetheless.

“This is such a fucking waste.”

And Wonwoo spent it being miserable.

“No, it’ll be useful. Trust.” Seokmin chirped.

“You’re trying to dip me in your optimism gloss again.”

His friend smiled affectionately, tilting his head.

“This will be good. You’ve been a hermit since I’ve known you.”

“Yeah,” Wonwoo scoffed, “so you think it’s a good idea to shove me with the person I relate to least on the entire planet?”

“Really? The least? So, what you’re saying is, you relate more to serial killers? Or animal abusers? Or like, literal fasc—”

“Stop.”

“You want to do this. I can see it in your eyes. I’ll set you up.”

A part of Wonwoo knew there might be no wriggling out of the situation, especially with Seokmin sitting across from him, characteristically eager and brightly pushy as always, like a goddamn salesman. For now, it could be easier to let himself get cuffed.

“Can I at least have some time to think it over?”

“Uh… well… the thing is… the thing with that is—”

“You’ve cornered me?”

“I wouldn’t word it like that.”

“… Okay.” Wonwoo removed his glasses, shoved his knuckles tender but deep into his eye sockets, massaging through flashes of white as he came to accept a fate he didn’t know even existed in his astrology. “Just, I don’t know—fuck—schedule me in wherever.”

“Ha! It doesn’t exactly work like that.”

“I really don’t give a damn how it works, Seokmin.”

“Right,” his friend laughed nervously, “I promise that I’ll get back to you pronto. Sorry for the disturbance. And, uh, good luck.”

 “With what part?” Wonwoo grumbled, fixing his spectacles back on to clarify Seokmin’s sympathetic face, the light bouncing off his head of brassy hair like a disco ball. “My incapability to write a goddamn thing or the fact I have to help your perfectionist friend who’s probably going to chew me up and spit me out?”

 “Both parts.” Seokmin grinned. “It can only go up from here.”

✧✎ a/n: tada!

this is the introductory scene! i think i've read it so many times that i could probably recite it from memory at this point ;_; anyway! as i mentioned, i know that it's been a hot minute since i last uploaded any scenarios. but one way or another this monster is getting posted! i did NOT have this lurking on my poor tired macbook causing it to overheat and sputter and spew FOR NOTHING!!

i swear that i don't plan for my works to get this goddamn long. before i hardly planned at all. maybe now i plan too much? i guess i have yet to find a happy medium!! but again, i do hope the size of the fic makes up for all that missed time :_( life has been ruff. but this fic was there as a handy distraction mechanism (when i prob should have been facing reality fhwejfhwk) so i guess it's been a double-edged sword!

also just want to preface that the reader goes by an alias throughout the fic. i'm not sure if this is like... a very huge or popular concept nowadays? so if it hits your reading ear a bit weird at first i apologize! but i swear it has purpose!! *chekhovs rule* *winkwink*

ANYWAY! no more rambling!

i'm pondering the idea of adding a taglist for those who are interested, just as i did with honey boy :3 so if that tickles ur fancy then feel free to each out!

BUT PLZ HEED THE FOLLOWING:

the fic in its entirety will be split across 6 parts

the word count of each part ranges from 22-24k!

i do not YET have a set posting schedule, simply bc i am unsure of how long it will take ppl to get through each part

(so that would be smth i'd have to gauge afterward)

REVISIT THE WARNINGS!!

i will not be flagging mature/nsfw/triggering scenes throughout the fic as the fic itself already has a heavy nature to it

so pls read the warnings!

if there's any additional questions i encourage u to swing by :3

*deep breath*

THANK YOU!!!!!

[aleksa-sims]

RL Story

CW: depression, inferiority complexes

While Sandra & Patricia got their eyebrows done, Bianca and I had a short chat alone. She noticed that I was upset about her twin sister.

Me: Why didn’t you tell me right away that she’s coming with us? I thought you were my friend. 🙁

Bianca: No offense, I truly care about our friendship. I just want us to get along! You, my sister, Sandra... we all, yk? I told Patricia you are important to me and she should apologize to you. She agreed with me! She wants to leave this embarrassing dispute behind. So it’s up to you, A.

Me: You really care about me? 😳 ... I'm sorry, you're right.

Bianca: I just love you girl. Come here, you sweet little thing. Aww, you’re as cute as Lucas.🥰😘

Me: Are you comparing me to my Baby? 😊 ... Love you too.

Bianca’s little declaration of love was actually sweet. I liked her and she also liked me. At least I thought so!!! Since I believed her, I tried to get along with Patricia. Still, I never trusted her. After I got my eyelash extensions, Bianca had planned another cosmetic treatment for all of us.

Together we went over to a changing room, a large comfortable room with a private area for changing. They offered us spray tanning. I’ve never done this before. As long as I don’t get orange 🥕, why not? Bianca and her twin sister went first, I wanted to see the result before I decide.

The twins looked so good with their perfect bodies. They are beautiful!! When I realized that I had to undress, I hesitated. Seeing these perfect girls, totally intimidated and unsettled me. Sandra suspected what was going on.

My complexes caused a kind of panic attack in me. I was so ashamed. Next to Bianca and Patricia I felt totally fat and ugly. But even more embarrassing was my insecurity. 😞😞 I didn’t want them to know about it, so I followed Sandra to the changing area to get undressed. Without her I wouldn’t have done it.

Sandra: You ok, A.?

Me: I feel like I’m having a panic attack. Are the two gone? Are we alone?

Sandra: Yes. They get dressed next door. C'mon, A.! You can put on a towel if you don’t feel comfortable.

Me: There were no towels!! 🤷‍♀️

Sandra: Honestly, you look good. Why are you so ashamed?

Me: Actually I’ve been happy with myself lately. But now I realized that I am far away from what I imagined. 🤦‍♀️😞

Sandra: For whom are you trying so desperately to be perfect? Your Mom? Does this really, still have to do with her?

Me: Idc what my Mom thinks. There’s just something wrong with me, I’m the prob!! Anyway...

Me: You know, I don’t want that! You mad at me now?

Sandra: No! It's ok, A.!

Me: Sorry, I know how annoying this must be for you. I’m glad you’re here, thank you for trying to cheer me up. I’ll wait behind the curtains and get dressed.

Sandra: The main thing is you feel better, don’t worry about me, okay? All right, I'll be back in ten.

I was so disappointed in myself. I felt like 16 again. 😞I thought I wouldn't still be dealing with this shit, but I guess, I was wrong.

Previous/Next

[astrofhobia]

Post-Mortem AU

It would be amazing to have a Tsams AU based on mexican culture, where real moments from the history of that country are interpreted... WAIT

PUM 💥💥 I'm here.

I started designing these guys again a bit, I didn't really like their first designs that much, but I definitely like these ones.

For now, we have three, the most important ones, within this messy story.

The Sun, The Moon and The Eclipse

I want to give a little information about these silly guys, also some fun facts.

Sunrise

Sunrise. Called "Life" in this AU. Life is the third child of the "Creator" and the youngest. His older siblings are Lunar and Earth. He was born when a star appeared in the universe, the brightest and largest star the universe had ever seen, for this reason, he is considered the god of light, the god of the sun.

His purity caught the attention of "Creator" and he proclaimed him as his son.

Life's arrival brought many changes to the universe. And thanks to him, he convinced the other gods to create things that would worship them, based on the perfection of his father. Life called them "humans" tiny humans who lived on a balanced planet, the Earth.

Sun brought mankind. And mankind called him "The god of the creation" "The god of the Sun" "The god of the life".

Sun used to rule the earth. That was for a long time... Until things started to go wrong, very very wrong.

Moondrop. They used to call her "Death" in this universe.

She was born when the first human died. The bones of that human had joined together into a sticky mass which had formed a body and finally, a consciousness. "Creator" didn't consider her a daughter of purity. But "Killcode" did, he proclaimed her his daughter, his little daughter.

She didn't usually communicate much with the other gods, she always, always kept her distance, in her own bubble.

She used to have a kingdom, "Mictlán", where the souls of humans could rest for eternity. The place used to be quite... Depressing. Souls rested... But the place was completely alone, filled with the bones of humans and only Death there...

Something you really should know. She's not here anymore.

Eclipse. Called "Death" in this AU.

War. It was his first name. He was born from Killcode's blood, the drops of red blood fell. They formed a large puddle. And from that puddle, War appeared.

Creator considered him a god... different. He really repudiated his existence. But Killcode didn't, he called him his son. His first son.

Nobody knows that. He just appeared one day with the other gods.

His arrival was controversial. The gods called him "A mad god"...

Actually, Death has forgotten most of his past. He doesn't really know how he existed, or why he is the "god of death".

Fun facts

Death has the same personality as Eclipse (EAPS).

Death (Eclipse) often has constant nightmares. Surrounded by fire as his metallic body slowly burns until he wakes up, locked in a room without light until darkness consumes him completely, bloodcurdling screams of children, etc.

Death's body parts constantly fail, they just stop working for no reason. It's something... really annoying.

Death feels nauseous at the sight of blood, he really can't stand it.

Death is uncomfortable being around a lot of children, he doesn't really know why. He is not bothered by noise, if they are dirty or naughty, he simply cannot be with children for a long time.

Death is the current prince/god of Mictlán.

Death doesn't like the rain.

Death and Life live together on Earth. They live like normal humans, in a lower-middle class house, they pay taxes and are afraid of the SAT.

Life maintains the same personality as Dark Sun (SAMS) but here it is a little calmer and much more depressing.

Life has a place to sleep. He literally has a bed that he shares with Death but the idiot can end up sleeping in a shower if he wants because he's a weirdo.

Life, ironically enough, hates humanity. No one knows why.

Life can't stand loud noise, make some noise when he's upset and you probably have a ticket to Mictlán.

If Life really had to work in the human world he would be a doctor. An emergency doctor, he practically created anatomy, he can work with this.

Life used to run a daycare alongside Death (Moon). It burned down.

Death really likes music with movement, salsa, cumbia, she's really good at that.

Death's clothing is inspired by the catrina and the traditional clothing of Nuevo Leon, Mexico.

Death hates fire.

Death really wants to stab Life.

The skull on Death and Death's chest isn't just decoration. It's practically their exposed cores. Rip that off their chest and they'll probably pass out immediately.

Death and Life are Pro-PRI. Life is ignorant. Death is evil.

Death is Pro-PAN. She really is a evil girl.

If you want to know more about these fools, you can ask, my inbox¿ is open

[daisytheflower21]

Amy my beloved!!!

Here are some head canons of Amy Rose (mostly SCU)

• I headcanon Amy as a sort of hybrid between a hedgehog and an equidna, she has more signs of hedgehog, but the stain of an equidna (I hc that equidnas are the strongest anthropomorphic animal) that explains why she is so strong.

• Another Hc of her backstory is that her father died during the war between the equidnas and Longclaw and she was raised by her mother, who eventually died of depression when she was little. She was mostly raised alone and she learned tarot in a way to cope with all of that(she thinks that if she knows the future, she could prevent it and never suffer).

• I feel like she was ones ashamed to be hybrid so she cut her spines in the back and takes some medicine and passed surgeries to look more hedgehog alike.

• Her favourite colour are red and green

• She gets angry very easily but is more calm when she is with Sonic (prob love ig 🤷🏻‍♀️)

• She wears pants under her dress so she wouldn’t be so worried if her panties are showing of or anything

• She gets distracted very easily but when it comes to her interests she’ll be the most attentive girl ever

• She is #1 vanilla ice cream! (And strawberry too)

• Would annoy Knuckles 24/7 if she gets the chance

• She has several copies of her red dress in case one damages

• She’s (practically) besties with Shadow (dw, Sonic knows and respects, even tho he gets kinda jealous sometimes)

• Tails is Amy’s baby boy (She spoils him a LOT)

• Maddie and her cook together and go shopping and do pyjamas party

• Fan of fan fiction and lover or “comfort/fluff” trope in Ao3 or angst (she’ll cry saying she regrets reading them, but yet still reads them)

• She writes fanfic of herself saving the day and having superpowers as cool as Sonic and the rest (and also some fanfics of her interest and ships obv) she’ll also draw it but she’s not good at it 😅 (Definitely wrote some Stobonick old man yaoi angst)

• Amy’s the type of person to show up randomly and give physical affection (hug, cuddles, etc)

• One day, she hit Wade’s sister with her hammer cuz she was being mean to him (or knuckles)

• She would play Barbie’s with Jojo (Rachel would try to get her of, but she’s feels treated by Amy’s hammer)

• No one can lift her hammer (only her) and because of that she kinda brags about it (would make Thor references)

• She talks with her hammer in secret like it was a person and clean it and hug it

• She likes Agent Rock as a person but hate his actions (she would be gentle to him tho). She would show him her fanfics to annoy him and to blackmail him (he secretly reads them and likes them)

That’s all the headcanons ideas I have until now. Please write in the comments 4 more and even tell me your personal headcanons of Amy or any Sonic character.

Byeeeeeeeeee!!

[okamiz36]

MORI IS NOT A PEDO. DAZAI IS NOT A WOMANIZER OR 2D. A rant about the BSD universe, characters, and fanfic writers and how people mischaracterize the MCs

SPOILERS FOR THE BOOK NO LONGER HUMAN

Ok so, for those of who don't know in BUNGOSTRAYDOGS ANIME each main character was based off an actual writer and the character's came to be a blend of the universe/anime mixed with the novelist's books. For example, Dazai Osmau wrote the book No Longer Human which explains the tale of a man who had been acting his entire life, struggles with depression, fitting into society and eventually at the end comes out as gay (shoutout to the soukou shippers because this practically confirms the ship is canon). It shows how Dazai is more then a womenizer and comedian whereas in the anime we just take the character at surface level.

I'm a fanfic reader, I enjoy alot of different stories and right now I'm reading StrayBoundIsakai on AO3, amazing fanfic to some extent. I love it and whatnot but they included some notes on NaomiXTanizaki, and like a true fan I've done a bit of reasearch on the books written by the characters (I read crime and punishment+No longer human because those are my favs plus another Dostoyevsky book I can't remember the name of) So y'know it annoyed me to see people claiming that Tanizaki and Naomi are an actual incest couple because they are not. Here's my theory, Tanizaki n Naomi arent real siblings, in the book Naomi by Tanizaki two lovers have to pretend to be siblings to hide from a man who I'm pretty sure forced Naomi into a relationship with him, ill read the book prob tmrw if i got time, and its a common theroy that Naomi in bsd isnt even real, shes a hallucination ofa dead girl made by light snow ability. So one or the other.

We don't have any confirmation as to pretty much any of the BSD characters so we don't know the details between Tanizaki and Naomi as they've been kept secret. BSD is an odd anime because it goes from silly detective to vampire outbreak, to Fyodor is god, but within layers there are so many hidden clues on what the real story is.

Dazai is a tricky one for me because i've read so many theories on him but my favorite is why he abuses Akutagawa. Dazai is abusive to Akutagawa bc if he isnt and praises aku then aku loses his reason to lvie and be better then he alreayd is, akutagawa needs to be told he's a failure, dazais nice to atsushi bc atsushi is already so far broken if he doesn't get praise he'll go insane and suicide or smth similar. Dazai's character and entire personality is within the book no longer human (amazing read would recommend but it will mess you up) people often call him a womanizer but it's him simply trying to fake a personality as to what he deems is the most likeable persona or sterotypical persona. He's not annoying, his entire personality is a facade in which he's just trying to be likeable because he has no clue how he's suppose to act. In the PM/dark era/15 dazai he acted cold and ruthless because that was what was to be expected of him. Dazai has no personality, he's a pathological manipulator, YALL PLEASE READ NO LONGER HUMAN IF YOU ARE A DAZAI FAN.

And then Mori... PEOPLE PLEASE STOP SAYING HE'S A PEDOFILE. I'm going to take context from a reddit thread and the link will be posted because the post I'm quoting omg is amazing helped me so much, "Elise is the character of a short story by Mori, "The Dancing Girl" [a japanese student in Germany falls in love with a 17yo local girl who was poor and danced for a living, they have a complicated relationship until the guy chooses Japanese Moral Integrity over Love and goes back home. The girl realizes she was pregnant and goes mad, the student finds out and has painful regrets because he wanted a child/family and truly loved the girl" "In "The Dancing Girl", in the end the girl was pregnant with the student's child. Could BSD Elise herself be that child? Well, I don't very much believe this actually (imo BSD Mori and Elise don't have a father-daughter kind of relationship, I will elaborate), but anyway it's something that popped up in my mind. 2) I'm sure I read this somewhere, though I can't remember the source rn, that RL Mori himself said that his sexuality is "like that of a child", meaning that he does not really feel sexual attraction but he understands love and affection, and he stated that he loved his wife and children. So, my personal opinion is that Elise could be just that part of him. That's why it's shaped like a child. (+ Little side note idk if it's something worth mentioning but Elise has blue eyes, blonde hair, western outfit... Is she European? Given RL Mori's literary tastes I mentioned at the start, Asagiri might have chosen this specific design on purpose?).  Anyway that brings me to my next point: What is Mori and Elise's relationship in BSD? Like I was saying, Elise is literally a part of Mori, so she is Mori himself, his preferences, the influences he had, etc. He loves and cares for her because he loves and cares for himself. After all, Mori is not shown being "affectionate" towards other kids: there were Q and Kyōka right there but Mori never showed interest in them if not to exploit their abilities. So is BSD Mori a pedo yes or no?? Here we are. I think BSD Mori might be asexual (as for RL Mori, he probably was, but we'll never really know, also who knew about asexuality in 1800-1900s lol). That said, the character is never shown feeling sexual attraction (and reminder that pedophile means sexually attracted to children, y'all say this word so lightly smh). But Mori really says a lot of inappropriate stuff, doesn't he? Fukuzawa was shocked and Elise picks on him. But what if the shtick is that he just doesn't realize that he appears sus to others, exactly because anything he does isn't intended as sexual in his pov? He's a criminal mastermind but he also probably thinks dressing up Elise is like dressing up a doll and saying she's his wife is like playing house."

Asagiri prob just made him seem creepy because guess what HE'S A MAFIA BOSS LIKE WHAT DO YOU EXPECT?! Link is here please read: reddit.com/r/BungouStrayDogs/comments/17zes5z/vita_sexualis/

Reading or watching videos of recaps on the BSD writers made me hate so many fanfics honestly.... I shared all of these thoughts with my friend @kreepyveebs because they wanted to makea Ranpo fanfic and I figured I should also make a post on this.

I'm going to link a channel who made videos on Dostoyevsky's books just because it helps clearify what Fyodor is even talking about/explaining in the books, it's also a psychology channel so I recommend just binge watchin this guy https://www.youtube.com/@unsolicitedadvice9198

Can writers and theorists also please start figuring out what made Kunikida have his ideals, or made Ranpo the way he is? Ranpo wrote black lizards so me and Kreepy have made the theory of he had mafia parents or somehting similar, maybe related to Hiroshi? (im pretty sure i got his name wrong- ack), stop focusing on just the mains, like jeez.

SHOUTOUT TO @kreepyveebs (second ping mwahhaha) THEYRE AN AMAZING ARTIST AND WRITER AND YOU SHOULD 100% FOLLOW THEM IF YOU SEE THIS POST.

oh yeah @unknowntalesbymiles you should enjoy this post so ping for you!

[sanest-bsd-delegate]

Alternatives

Headcanon: Parent! Reader with Teen! Dazai, Chuuya and Akutagawa A/N: Ch 109 made me write this.

MASTERLIST

✧Dazai

⤷Humm I mean look at him? He screams attachment issues. I am pretty sure he hides the fact he wants affection, but lets be honest Parent's instant and He gets a hug.

⤷As a kid, he would be the type of person (kid?) who gets sugarrush just by taking one piece of candy. Lets be honest, the minute he eats one, its the time your whole house is covered in glitter and gold.

⤷He has difficulty opening up his thoughts, or rather, sharing his real views on anything, but I feel like he would have once in a while mental breakdowns and you can do nothing but hug your kid, and support him. (He is adoptive kay?)

⤷He LOVES whatever you make for him. He would be the type of person who would never skip a meal when it comes to you eating with him as a family.

⤷GIVE HIM HUGS PILLOW AND KISSES.

⤷A LOTS OF GOODNIGHT KISSES

⤷You read him a bedtime story. (You cant deny that)

⤷He once got kicked in his nuts as a kid, and honestly you cant blame the kid, your son's actions are questionable [PLEASE]

⤷You both will have Parent-son hangouts, considering how much you both tend to drift apart due to work.

⤷You once had a breakdown in front of him and he gives the warmest hugs.

⤷As he grows, (and you grow older) I feel like he would just randomly lift you from the floor and twirl you around.

⤷Also, he is the person who would prob come up to you in the middle of the night and say, "Mama/Dada I peed on the bed" (I cant stop laughing writing this)

(I wouldnt comment on his um depression cause cant we have a genuine fluff headcanon?)

✧Chuuya

⤷A pure good boy

⤷He doesnt like to disappoint you which is honestly cute and concerning

⤷I think he might as well get valadation issues.

⤷And anger issues. He is just built that way

⤷"YOU DONT UNDERSTAND MY PAIN" Phase

⤷Probably had a jewellery obsession phase in middle school. But you wouldn't blame him, everyone has concerning phases in middle school.

⤷You and him have movie nights.

⤷He gets annoyed when you give him a goodnight kiss on forehead, but secretly love it.

⤷As a kid, he would prob try to hide his crying whenever he got hurt, but you could see his eyes holding back tears. You just look at him and go over him, holding his hand while kissing it, saying the boo-boo while go away. (He thought you had magical kisses to heal wounds till 6th grade)

⤷He might as well have nightmares, but that doesnt stop him from waking you up at the middle of the night, (even though he will hesitate) and sleep with you.

⤷Kid! Chuuya would probably love playing dress ups and now he regrets it because everytime he finds an old albumn, he will see himself in a pink tutu.

⤷He was once being bullied in school because of his height, and he kicked the guy in his nuts. #neverbeensoproud You gave him icecream as a treat.

⤷You accidently caught him drinking wine when he was a teen in highschool. Now you have two options, either go bizzare or drink with him.

✧Akutagawa

⤷ 10/10 had an emo phase in middle school

⤷You once opened his music app and well you know...

⤷He doesnt like when you waste money on him, like why are you even buying him merch of his favorite band??

⤷He doesnt speak much with you, he is a quite kid of the school.

⤷He aces his test, like full?

⤷Yeah even he got validation issues, but severe.

⤷Okay but why can I imagine him as a kid, he would probably enter your room in the middle of the night [he gets scared or nightmare occurs] and just stare at your sleeping figure questioning whether to wake you up or not. Ofcourse, being a parent you became a light sleeper, so imagining your kid staring at you at the middle of night is something-

⤷He believes EVERYTHING you say. Monster in the closet? Monster under bed manifesting if he doesn't sleeps? YES EVERYTHING.

⤷My little baby just needs a lots of hugs.

⤷Okeh buts its honestly so sweet of him to try bake a cake for you when its your birthday.

⤷He can cook, he can clean he can cough

⤷He would randomly come to you and give/get a hug from you while you try to process why your 'don't touch me' kid was hugging you

⤷He might as well be stealing eyeliners from you or buying it secretly.

⤷Also you regret opening his search history. (Don't ask)

A/N: AHHHHH I know this is like short and stuff but I literally have angst ideas at the moment and seeing the fandom condition i am speechless. I mean you all just made #bungou stray dogs trending on tumblr. P.s Chapter 109 made me loss my ability to write.

[asktheevilgeniusesson]

Brain is stuck on the thought of infinite, shadow&sonic as a pairing, but i know damn well thats a VEERRYY toxic ship for my main verse, and probably alot of other peoples.. cause. One. Main verse Infinite thinks shadow killed his family. Then infinite goes to torture sonic for a year cause of it. And alot of other shit.. but GOD. Just my brain thinking up scenarios for those three, in some other context where they arent hating the fuck outta eachother…. Oh one can dream…..

“But metal mod, you can just make your own little side au to fix that!”

Stares at you. My eyes go all big like a cat who just saw something they like. Flutters lashes.

NYEHEHEHE. IM GOING TO MY CAVE OF THINKING FOR THIS SELF INDULGENT AU. MOOTIES YOU WILL NEVER HEAR FROM ME AGAAAAAAAAAA-

Nah im not actually going anywhere, i Am however, going to think on a side au for something like that for my own self indulgence, cause its cute to ME.. also not to mention ive also had some thought on silver and infinite but we’re not gonna unpack that rn….

I may or may not have someone else write as shadow/sonic for this au, i’ll see if any moots or my boyfriend are interested in this sort of pairing, but its most likely going to all be written by me. In either case, i’d LOVE for you guys to throw some ideas my way! Either in dms, asks, or comments, idm. Infinites backstory is the core of how i write him in the main verse and the reason for his entire personality, so making an au where the whole “YOU KILLED MY FATHER-“ schtick never happened will make it interesting to think of another backstory for inf.

..is this annoying?? This is prob annoying- y’all are here to see me like write depressed robots n shit not listen to me ramble about my favorite character and ship dynamics/aus of him- im gonnnaaa zip my lip now and expect this post to just uh. Sit here. Untouched. Lmao

[enden-k]

Youn...Please reccomend me some games that I can/should play.

I'm soo bored, there's nothing new in Genshin(Idk..the game sucks rn), HSR is boring rn(I don feel like doing their like side activity and I'm stuck midway in the Penacony storyquest- I prob will pause with that for a long time and then finish in one go) and zzz....I feel I fell behind a lot and have no intrest in completling the main story. The other games on my PS are boring, Idk what to do with life...(srry if this was confusing/hard to understand)

But like- I fell I need to play some sort of game to help myself. I install a few games on my phone but deleted them cause they got boring quickly..(I may be depressed or perhaps going insane idk at this point...)

- 🌙

when im depressed, i like to play dark/sad story stuff. when im bored, i like to play chill stuff keeping me busy. tell me something youre NOT looking for. if youre able to, name smth you are looking for

(if its gacha i cant help there, hsr/zzz and fgo are the only ones i play since i usually dont like/am not rlly interested in gacha. same goes for mobile games, i dont use my phone for anything other than comfy bedtime reading tbh)

(i also dont know if im a good person to ask this, my top fav games are all dark fantasy/depressing games or old games that some might find annoying to play in this time n age)

general tip tho, stardew valley or sims 4 or even skyrim is always a nice moodlifter/stress reliever imo. when i mess around for days in there i recharged enough to go back to hyv games whenever i grew tired of them

[cookie-run-confessions]

The story in kingdom feels like the writers laid out a beautiful tapestry, but someone else just cut out the "pretty parts" which is what we see. PV's depression is so subtle to where you'd only notice it if you took entirely too much time looking into it. It's like they fear taking risks that would help them and it's annoying, and hurts.

Devsis gave us a static world and almost static characters. I don't like PV and I hate WL cus they feel so... flat. WL feels more of a "well, we gotta have all FIVE of them!" addition rather than something that makes sense. It would be so cool if WL was truly DE now, DE could be more of an antihero than straight up villain. What if she helped release the beasts thinking they'd help her confront the witches! We could have a dynamic character that ACTUALLY CHANGED WITH THE STORY!

Somehow, their PV favoritism also leads to Holly and Cacao feeling like better characters. Holly visibly regrets leaving, she feels guilty about not being there as Princess's grandmother! She's cheery, but also worries, she's pretty much an alcoholic in any sense of the word. Cacao hates himself for not raising his son well enough, but ends up learning to accept that and let himself enjoy life again.

Pure Vanilla? He suffers and always seems like a pretty little pacifist cus the hints are so hard to see you need a blacklight. He has so much hidden depth that I can't even like him as much as I want because the story barely explores any of it!

If this is about "profits" or something, I want to personally slap whoever's doing this in the face because they wouldn't have to censor beautiful stories if they had MORE PHYSICAL, NON LIMITED MERCH.

You know how fast the Shadow Milk plush sold out? FIVE MINUTES! PEOPLE CLEARLY WANT MORE! HELL, I'D READ PHYSICAL COPIES OF LINZER'S BOOKS, I'D BUY MORE PLUSHIES, OUTFITS, DINNER WEAR, YOU KNOW HOW MANY FANS THERE ARE?? 8 MILLION players in kingdom alone. Even if only a fraction would buy the merch, THAT'S STILL A LOT!

They have all these opportunities to take risks that would HELP the game and the company, but NEVER DO. It's infuriating!

My half baked, two year old au that's barely complete because of how complicated it is has BETTER CHARACTERS! AND THERE'S ALMOST 600 OF THEM!

Anyway, that's my two cents. Hope my ramblings ain't too incoherent lol I'll probs reblog to my writing/art blog (Coelacanth)

If anyone wants to help with my stupid au and the game I'm planning to make out of it, contact me there !!

-=[🐟]=-

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[wendytestabrat]

yes, kyle WAS a dick in “you’re getting old/ass burgers”

ok i’m so tired of all the people who defend kyle in this episode with the same half-assed argument of “yeah ofc kyle didn’t wanna be around stan bc it can be hard to be around someone with depression!1!!1” like yes i agree with that and i can DEF understand why kyle didn’t wanna be around stan when he was depressed. it can be hard AF for me too to be around someone who’s negative and wants to mope around and be miserable all the time LOL. it’s one thing to be there for someone depressed bc they just experienced something rlly difficult and traumatic (bc i mean we ALL go through shitty times and get depressed at some point) like that’s just being a good friend imo, but it’s another thing to completely enable someone who just wants to be miserable and play the victim instead of trying to overcome their depression. in that case i aint gonna feel bad for u and i’m prob gonna wanna distance myself lol. so yeah it DEF was realistic and understandable why kyle didn’t wanna be around stan anymore bc it can be draining AF to be around someone THAT negative. however, what us kyle haters had an issue with is the HYPOCRISY from kyle lol. like rlly you’re saying KYLE BROFLOVSKI the absolute king of codependency and martyrdom doesn’t wanna be around stan bc he “can’t save him” and is “bumming him out” like ok sure jan lol. and what i rlly have a problem with is kyle saying he doesn’t wanna be around stan but then has no problem hanging out with cartman instead lol. like um cartman is wayyy more toxic and annoying to be around than stan. so you don’t wanna be around or help someone with depression, but you’re fine being around and helping someone who’s a racist murderer????? (and literally the same person who gave u aids) make it make sense LOL. THAT’S why kyle seemed fake af and a shitass friend to stan in these episodes lol. it just seemed like kyle was looking for an excuse or waiting for his opportunity to dump stan as a friend to hang out with cartman and wanted to do that for a long time but never had a valid enough reason to before without it looking sus on his end. bc we didn’t even see kyle make any effort whatsoever to get through to stan, it’s like the MINUTE he found out there was a problem with stan he was like BYE. i hate that shit, kyle is like that one friend who just waits for you to screw up or make one tiny mistake so they can stab you in the back and abandon you lol, yet is fine hanging out with other friends who act wayyy more toxic who do worse shit. not to mention kyle himself is negative and whines 24/7…so i mean LOL. that’s a HUGE red flag to me is if a friend only wants you to be perfect or only likes being around you during the happy times, but the moment something goes wrong in your life they aren’t there. THAT’S how you know a “friend” is just using you. it just seemed like kyle was holding stan up to this impossibly unfair standard that he aint holding cartman up to lol, so OFC he would dump stan once he realized there’s no use for him in his life anymore.

[themosthatedbeingg]

//— Good morning everyone , thank you to all those that helped me last night and Gave me someone to talk to, depression/manic eps suck but I’m glad I have friends here to help, I’m feeling a lot better but not fully better if that makes sense then again that’s my base line for everything since Covid so ya.

Anyway.. sorry to cut the M!a short last night so I’ll be carrying it on through a bit longer today to make up for it, also I really love the fc lol

Gonna focus a bit more on drafts and get some starters that I owe out .

But for now the M!A is still active for about 3 more hours .

I also I know this is prob the depression talking but plz let me know if I’m too much or annoying or just not what your looking for in a Lucifer rper I feel like I’m a bit of a burden… taking up space from other good rpers here >.>; really sorry about All of that .

[death4myluv]

bsf lore. warning, it's not crazy and prob therefore boring

I met my bsf when I was 3 yrs old. we were both at a princess class (don't ask). one of the actors thought me and him were siblings when we didn't know eachother. after that we were buddies for the whole day. our mom's exchanged info. turned out she was almost a yr older than me and lived a town over, someplace my family and I never needed to go. me and my bsf never would have met if not for this class.

Anyway, I can say I do not remember living without them. I don't remember my life before we were best friends. they have been my only bsf. we have known each other now for 14 yrs. I hope to keep knowing them 4ever.

we have never fought. not even as kids. no arguments over toys or different games to play (tho I did get very annoyed when she didn't want to play pretend horror lol, sure she had those moments w me too). the closest thing to an argument w him I remember was when he made me feel not smart by bragging abt school, and I cried to my mom abt it, and my mom brought it up to him and he started crying. but as soon as that happened we were hugging and saying sorry and it was over. that's all.

I have not gone more than a month without seeing them for as long as I can remember. this became rlly rought when they graduated last spring. now they live 8 hours away and I went all of fall without seeing her. :( I gen believe that the absence of her in my life played a huge role in my mental breakdown, but I will never tell her that.

Anyway I am pretty much in love w her. probably, idk. for the past year everytime we hang out I'm thinking abt how good a life w her would be. we have so much in common, seriously, and I want to spend the rest of everything in wtv way they'll allow me to for the rest of my life.

I see him as the kindest most selfless person in my world. I would have kms by now if not for him. I have had a few vivid nightmares where he takes his life, I can gen say that those r the worst dreams I've had. we have both struggled w a lot of the same mental health issues, thought I think mine might be more severe in the present. I'm always worried that they are actually like me rn. I'm always worried that I'm putting to much on them by having my problems. but if either of those things were true I would do anything to alleviate it. I can also gen say that seeing her cry makes me cry. like fr, not metaphorically; literally.

and in these past few months of terrible depression, all I rlly want is him. which doesn't make much sense, bc we never get thst emotionally intimate with eachother, but it's true. I've had to rework some of my future college plans bc I js can't do this shit how it is and I think being around them would help so much. in my world, I see them as my other half, even if I'm not theirs. and ig I'm okay w that. i do have some jealousy issues regarding her, but wtv.

ahh this is so stupid. I js don't know

the last time I saw them, when they came down for Thanksgiving, we went on a walk in the snow. they were so beautiful. I realized some things.

if the opportunity to date them presented, I wouldn't. it isn't the time for that yet. it's too.. special, ig, to not wait. I don't think that'd go well. I don't even want to do that. but I do really like the idea of trying when we are older and stable and can make smth work, like I imagine.

idk if I love them like that, but I do love them. i'd choose them everytime

[chilewithcarnage]

for the ask game:

pavitr and hobie

spiderdads

rio morales and jessica drew

explanation time ⏰

goldenpunk aka pavobie: makes sense as seen in the movie they've known each other for awhile and are pretty good friends. compels me in that they display a natural comfort and playfulness with each other that shows they've established a solid bond that has the potential to transition into romance. they're really cute I like them together ^_^

motomami aka jessrio: on the crux between makes sense but leaning more towards doesn't makes sense solely on the technicality of them being from different dimensions and never meeting one another. BUT do I think they would make sense together excluding these factors? Yes. Them being both confident, caring, and successful women in their line of work. rio seems like she has that typical mom humor and jess would find her jokes so corny but cute. I think they'd have some really nice banter and shade throwing about coworkers and the like with a bit a flirting thrown in. I also see jess being able to let her guard down and find comfort in rio. rio seeming to have that natural patience and compassion (probs why she became a nurse practitioner). they'd also appreciate that both of them ain't no slouch, and if they need to get rowdy when someone comes around with some nonsense, they'll do it. also also, i love me some milf yuri. p.s. y'all like the name motomami? i came up with that myself; cause the spidermoms tag was taken over by rule 63 peter x miguel. SPEAKING OF WHICH...

spiderdads aka petermiguel: hmm, where to begin with this well. also on the crux of makes sense/doesn't make sense; but I lean towards doesn't make sense because i don't see what would attract one to the other. someone one spiderverse twit said that peter and miguel don't even give off the vibes of being friends, rather just coworkers that were bonded by a traumatic event. in scenes that they share together, miguel seems more annoyed with peter's comedic nature than anything. on peter's behalf it seems like he trusts miguel (you wouldn't let somebody you don't trust to hold your baby) and doesn't have any animosity towards him. but i think that's just his usual nature, that peter parker is friendly and wise cracking when he's not he's not depressed and stressed. i know i'm gonna get hate for this but jessica (jess literally being his second in command) has way more romantic potential with miguel than peter does, and the only reason why its not as popular as peter x miguel is because its a m/f ship involving a black woman (in general the spiderverse fandom pay jess dust specifically BECAUSE she is black, i guarantee if they kept jess white in atsv there'd be way more content of them). the dynamic that most spiderdads content has is just flanderized versions of their characters where peter is constantly sexually harassing miguel and miguel is perpetually pissed off at peter (ha, bars). overall spiderdads just seems like a 'yaoi for the sake of yaoi' type ship to me. its popular because everybody loves to see two conventionally attractive men fuck. other than that, it doesn't do anything for me.