#i'll try and get better for TCAF

[monster-noises]

Well two hours until the wrap of my 30th birthday

As a special gift i got myself a Single Chocolate Croissant, the first i've had in over a year, it was lovely.

I wanted to write a whole big thing reflecting on this time and the last decade but, like many of my original big celebratory plans i'm.. just not in a place for it.

But i also feel weird and bad not saying Anything so i'll just say this..

I want to hope my 30's will be better, I want to believe I can grow and change the ways i need to, and that i will stop stalling out and twiddling my thumbs and settling for whatever happens to be around me. I hope but i'm also afraid you know? Worried that it won't be... Better, that it will be the same the same the same

But you know 10 years is a long time

God know the last 10 years has been a fucking Eternity. Anything could happen, i'm just hoping i find it within me to believe it and act accordingly.

And so I become 30, the start of something new or just more of the same who knows, only time will tell. That's all I got really, and thank you everyone who wished me well, it would be a lot harder without out you all really and truly