#i'm bedridden even

[mikailys]

Top 10 things I would never say in my whole life:

[missazurerose]

"You know I'll forgive all the secret keeping if you make me your first child's godmother." Lyse grinned as the couple got extraordinarily uncomfortable. Just a little revenge for nearly an entire year of hiding the truth of their relationship.

"Lyse, the rest of the world doesn't even know we're together. We're not thinking about children!" Riona was starting to regret not telling her best friend when they got married.

"Oh I don't think it's going to take that long."

"Commander Hext, please. Let us not get ahead of ourselves..."

Alisaie bit her tongue. She couldn't believe she hadn't thought to ask first. Well, maybe she could be the second child's godmother.

[dreamboatsandtrenchcoats]

Spent half of yesterday in the hospital because I have ANOTHER kidney stone

10/10 do NOT recommend

[vampgf]

back again with a stupid fucking cough is2g if i'm getting sick again when i haven't even fully recovered almost two months after being sick as a dog....

[fullmetalscullyy]

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[deukaeloveclub]

worst part about covid recovery is that I have all these hours of free time but the ps3 is in a shared space so I can't put more hours in to DAI 😔

[heartshattering]

So...

I've been prescribed heart meds since I was 13 years old, and my doctors don't want to give me stimulants to treat ADHD thanks to my history of arrhythmia

Buuut I really have to wonder if excessively caffeinating myself on a daily basis is really any better just because you can have hundreds of milligrams of caffeine without needing a prescription? 🙃

[smilingsolemnly]

i have suddenly fallen ill and all the lights are hurting my eyes

I'm writhing in agony

who knows if i will pull through

tell my friends and family that i love them

(i have a common cold)

[danaris112]

I am actually so happy my medication is working

[ryanthedemiboy]

Not to mention, if you always wash the car, for example, i'll consider it Something You Do, so I wouldn't want to step on your toes and do it unless I knew you didn't like it or didn't want to be the only one who does it.

If the car is getting dirty I might say "is something wrong with the car wash?" Because that's what i'd assume, because you always wash the car.

I hate that thing some people do where it's like. "I left my wallet on the table to see if you'd say anything" or "I wanted to see if you'd wash the car if I stopped doing it"

Cause like

I dont know about anyone else

But I am perpetually hovering three inches above the strong subconscious belief that everyone knows what they're doing at all times except me, so if you change your normal patterns and I notice, then I will assume it is an intentional choice with a thought-out plan behind it and I will avoid interfering

And if I don't notice, because I won't, because why would I, because not much bothers me and if you don't say anything to indicate you are bothered then how would I KNOW

[frostiik]

i have a sweating problem

[quarterlifekitty]

One thing that makes me go feral is when in the middle of fucking, one person gets overstimulated and tries to crawl and squirm away from the overstimulation, and the other person drags them back by the hips like "Where do you think you're going?" 😩 which of the guys do you think is most likely to do this?

(Can you tell I'm ovulating... 🫣)

ALL

cw: daddy kink adjacent stuff for Nik, as per usual. Just a hint of aggression, and marking dubcon just in case

Gaz is literally so sweet about it. Like you’re a little kitten about to walk off the edge of a table and he’s just redirecting you. “No, no, love— this way,” he coos as he puts his hand beneath your hips to cup you and pull you back.

Soap is about to lose his mind, it’s so hot to him— “Ah’m just givin’ it tae ye so good, huh, bonnie? Cannae take it anymore? Too bad,” he tuts, his fingers sunken into your soft flesh as he pins your kicking legs and tugs hard.

Ghost reacts with some real aggression. He’s not mad at you— he’s mad at the idea. The concept of you being separated from him. He’s bruising and yanking your body, manhandling you under his weight. “Don’t fuckin’ run from me, birdie— don’ wanna know what’ll happen if’m pulled outta this cunt—“

Price can’t help but smile. Such a sensitive little thing. “If you’re already in this state— doesn’t bode well for the rest of your night, darl’— cause I ain’t near finished with you.” He’s prepared to wait upon you like you’re his ailing, bedridden queen suffering from the consumption tomorrow, cause you’ll have about as much energy left when he’s done.

König is holding you too tight to let you even begin to squirm away— he can just feel the tense and strain of your muscles against his hands. It makes him kiss you as deep as he can manage— he just thinks it’s so cute, like you’re a little moth with wings beating against his cupped palms.

Nikolai laughs. He laughs at you. You’re just so silly— thinking papochka will show you mercy. He’s not a merciful man, malýshka. He’d best remind you of that— not that you’ll ever really learn. He wouldn’t want you to, really. He likes playing this little game with you. It’s like ballroom dancing to him— very romantic and sweet.

[jezior0]

I was contacted by Moneer @lion-5 to post some important words he wanted to share here. Please, make sure to read them carefully and take action to support Moneer and his family:

"My brother risks his life… just so we can eat." 💔

"I'm a 20-year-old guy, and these aren't just words... this is a cry for help.

We are a broken family — not only by war, but by hunger, illness, and exhaustion.

My father, Raed (48), suffers from a severe skin condition that makes it dangerous for him to be in the sun or even sweat.

My mother, Amani (40), has chronic asthma, spends most of her time bedridden, and struggles to breathe without constant medication.

And me? I've had two surgeries recently, and my body can no longer handle pain, hunger, or even standing for long.

Now the responsibility for the whole family falls on my younger brother Mohammed (17) —

a child forced to become a man far too soon.

We now buy flour by the kilo…

Yes, $30 for just one kilo.

It’s barely enough to feed a single person — and Mohammed can only afford half a kilo, if that.

When he can’t?

He risks everything and goes to what they call "aid distributions" —

but they’re not aid. They’re death traps.

Thousands of people.

Shoving. Screaming.

And Israeli snipers waiting to shoot if you stay longer than 4 minutes.

If you don’t get anything in time, you go home with nothing…

Just tears, empty stomachs, and another day of despair.

But Mohammed still goes…

For us.

For my little sister Sham (5), who now suffers from severe malnutrition.

For my mother, who can barely breathe.

For my father, whose skin burns when he sweats.

Because there’s no one else left.

I’m not asking for much.

Just a smile on Sham’s face,

a breath for my mom,

and safety for Mohammed.

If you can donate even 5€, it might help us buy flour —

so Mohammed doesn’t have to risk his life to feed us.

Maybe… just maybe…

we can eat.

We can live.

We can hold on to what little hope we have left.

Please, don’t let that hope die. 💔

👉 Help us survive"

Despite living in such horrendous conditions, Moneer still dedicates his time and strenght to post and reach out to people on this platform. He deserves to be heard and seen - just like every person living in Gaza, forced to watch genocidal states unleash so much destruction and suffering on their beautiful people and homeland.

Above is the link to Moneer family's Gofundme. Every contribution matters, either €5, €20 or €200. Please follow Moneer's blog and put some of your time into learning his story and helping his campaign reach more people.

Keep in mind this fundraiser is vetted:

Gazavetters number #08

[opashoo]

The Rain World Undergrowth AU cast lineup! (which is basically just everyone)

I tried doing one of these way back in 2024 and never finished, which is probably a good thing because some of these designs have changed a decent bit since then. (Those who've seen the old, incomplete lineup know that my original Rivulet was a cis guy, and Watcher didn't even have a design yet.) With this, I'm hoping to start up the askblog soon-ish.

Anyway, Undergrowth synopsis and lore, as well as some alternate outfits under the cut:

Undergrowth is an anthro AU that takes place during the time of the Endless Winter. The blizzards of Saint's timeline have come sooner and deadlier, forcing most slugcats and scavengers to settle in underground geothermal pockets or adopt lifestyles suited adapted to the cold. All the game's events and timelines are compressed so that everything happens in quicker succession.

The AU takes place in Moon and Pebbles' retaining wall and centers around Saint after the events of their campaign, who has taken to the teachings of Rhinestones Beneath Shattered Glass and started a garden in Undergrowth. Here they have gathered all the other slugcats to live in safety. The other slugcats see Saint as a mysterious benefactor who knows more than they should, rescued each of them from certain death for unknown reasons, and has given them shelter from the blizzards, but for Saint, it's all part of a comfortable routine formed from countless lifetimes of repetition.

In their most recent lifetime, however, things have started to change. Things aren't where they should be. People aren't where they should be when they should be. Events that have always fallen on consistent times and dates simply don't. Saint starts getting dream visits from someone they've never met before in all their past lifetimes, one who brings ominous warnings about the future.

The Characters Survivor / ommuy aka omi One who persists most of all cis male - he/him

Monk / sahini mayabi aka maya One of the peaceful way cis female - she/her

Gourmand / makikanae aka maki One who knows food Yongasabi 3rd gender - they/them

Saint / sapinae aka saen One who suffers; saint agender transfem - they/them/any

Spearmaster / masinabi aka nabi Messenger nonbinary trans man - they/he

Hunter / hanitae aka hanta Hunter trans female - she/her

Artificer / sattokubi aka satto Arsonist cis female - she/her

Rivulet / yanginaeja lamlan aka lani Wandering stream afab demigirl - she/they

Watcher / banolnak yopwa aka banno Atop the watchtower unstable genderfluid - she/he

Enot (???) N/A - it/its

Survivor, Monk, and Gourmand are from a colony that has historically lived outside the retaining wall, but got lost and were separated inside the retaining wall before Saint found each of them and brought them back to the shelter.

Saint is from a retaining wall far away, built atop one of the few true mountains in this world. They were born and raised in a monastery, trained for a grand purpose that they have long since abandoned.

Spearmaster and Hunter were in the retaining wall on business before the blizzards outside kicked up and the land outside became impassable while Hunter's supply of medicine dwindled. With Hunter bedridden and cut off from NSH, Spearmaster had no choice but to take her underground and follow the stranger who promised treatment in their garden.

Artificer was taken in and trained by a corrupt scavenger clan who saw her grief and rage as a tool to be shaped and used; first, to exact revenge on the scavengers who killed her children, then to demolish the clans who had apparently enabled such a corrupt system. When she overstepped her station and terrorized Metropolis, she was deemed an outlaw and enemy to all scavs. Saint found her buried in the snow on the edge of death.

Rivulet comes from a far off retaining wall, given the mission of delivering Five Pebbles' rarefaction cell to Moon by whatever means necessary. She had no idea that removing it would have accelerated 5P's collapse so immensely. She would have met her end at a toll full of scared and suspicious scavengers had Saint not arrived just in time to defuse the situation.

Watcher has been plagued since childhood by visions, a sense of lacking identity, and a spiritual burden spanning thousands of generations. After exhausting all other leads, she hears a promising rumor: There is a former member of a religious order, sheltered away in a garden deep underground, who may have the answers he seeks.

Enot (???) kohga ota gimok juhei ha giga naka. shou kolgi cho yoshouja ihoga palakkida. kagihei nakani deila sin pagsada.

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

These are a couple doodles from yesterday, Gideon as a younger teen, before the growth spurt, maybe 14? He's discovered he's a vampire, and has a lot of recovery to do, since he's severely blood deficient.

I'm gonna let myself explode about my vampire gideon ideas, under construction, under the cut: (I don't write fanfiction, I just throw up my ideas on a tumblr post, apparently :'D)

This is what I love about tumblr - it's a place where I can throw the doodles (something that isn't finished *artwork*), and let myself be really delusional about fictional characters. So I'm gonna take a moment to ramble about the ideas I have for Gideon as a vampire.

If you're a fellow Gideon Head, HI THERE... anyway, here's my thought process on a potential vampire-gideon backstory???

I've always liked the idea of gideon being a vampire, and also becoming a much better person when he's older. And that got me thinking, maybe those two things are linked. Maybe the vampire thing is somehow tied into his reformation.

But I tend to lean towards building my ideas off canon (as opposed to making an AU). And if gideon was a vampire, and knew this during the events of the show, it would have come to light at some point. So, either he doesn't know he's a vampire, or he becomes one later. Becoming one later works narratively, but he's already so vampiric, with the white hair, pale skin, sunscreen, evil, etc. So I'm like, let's go with that.

So, gideon has gone his whole life without knowing he's a vampire, and without drinking blood. I'm thinking that being a vampire in this case (my gravity falls fan version of what a vampire would be) wouldn't adhere to typical vampire conventions. You don't NEED to drink blood to survive.

Here's the idea I got yesterday: after the events of weirdmageddon, gideons experience motivated him to become a better person. It was the awakening, basically. But in the subsequent years, he's still a little shit. Maybe he's in juvenile detention, or prison again. But now, he has the self awareness to know that what he's doing is wrong. This is where my ideas get a little fuzzy, so bear with me. Bud has his suspicions, and as a last resort, puts gideon on some sort of mission trip type of cross country trip, when he's in his teens. And along the way, maybe at the end, there's this secret group of vampires that open gideons eyes to what he really is.

Basically??? Without blood, gideon is very evil. He's an evil little shit. This may not be how it is for every vampire. Maybe some grow very sickly without blood, just get hungry, etc. The effects of blood deficiency vary from vampire to vampire. But Gideon becomes very unhinged. And he'd essentially been Blood Hangry for his whole life. That being said, some of it was just his personality that he needed to work through, but drinking some blood helped a LOT. Blood isn't food for him, it's more like his medication.

Once he has that discovery, he spends a long while, I'm thinking maybe even a year, just recovering from the deficiency. He's almost always drinking blood to keep up his levels, and he's very rarely seen in public to keep the vampire thing a secret. That's what these drawings were supposed to be, him in his pseudo bedridden state. This period in his life would be one big blur; mostly spent binge watching soap operas and being all cozy. In contrast to his usual suit + tie, he's dressing for max comfort: sweatpants, sweatshirt, a knit hat over his ridiculously big hair, and always wrapped in a blanket. Not sure if somehow he feels cold when drinking blood?? But for some reason, I feel like he'd always be wearing like 10 layers and laying under a heated blanket or something.

Eventually, he'd only need to drink blood about once a month for maintenance.

Character development wise - even as an adult, Gideon isn't sure if he's truly a good person. Is the blood deficient version of himself the true gideon? Or is this well adjusted man who he truly is? And there's an issue of the chicken and the egg, too. Gideon was born a vampire. Did these genes activate because he was predisposed to being evil? Or did the vampire thing happen by coincidence? Does being a vampire make him evil, or is it the other way around? He doesn't know, and he never will.

The one thing I'm not sure I like about this idea: i'm worried that I'd be writing off his villainous personality as an illness that can be cured with a thing. Obviously, it would be better if he faced that head on, and figured out how to be better. So I'm still grappling with that. But for now, this is an idea I'm entertaining. Of course, I think it would be interesting if there was a plot point where his usual source of ethically sourced human blood was compromised for a time, and he had to grapple with his personality going topsy turvy.

It's actually embarrassing how much I just wrote???? If you've made it this far, wow, I applaud you. I guess this was just my idea of having a good sunday night, writing down my silly thoughts on gideon gosh darn gleeful. Let me know your thoughts too!!!! I'd love to know if you have any ideas, or questions, or ways to strengthen this potential backstory.

[threadmonster]

I have the absolutely most incompetent neurologist specialist/office.

I (American) have a medicine that this specialist prescribes for migraines as a rescue/as needed medicine and it requires a yearly pre-authorization per my insurance. I have been trying to fill this medication for months. Months. I checked with the pharmacy and they sent them this notification or whatever each time I tried to fill it. The pharmacist even called the office on my behalf because they wouldn't listen to me. Even then they still failed to do the paperwork.