#idk how itll actually be but it sounds good in theory!!!

[hirokiyuu]

ok i did a huge ship meme for fun. if you read it u have to like this post. also i have more thoughts under the cut

some of these are copy pasted from twt so if u saw it there u can read them again i guess. theres some new ones also. perish by my hand

at a glance

yuujin calls leona "leona-san" until theyre both old n gray. they probably try "leona" a few times but it feels weird to them. leona's fine w/this

love languages are what they prefer to receive rather than what they naturally give wwww if it were that way around id switch it LOL. high natural compatability

"problematic a bit" in the sense of. well. if youve played twst. youve met leona. u see how he acts around mc at first. u kno.

dynamic stuff

i dont think leona would've had a Relationship relationship before. fwb? fucking around w/ppl? sure. but a Relationship? sounds like too much work

yuujin meanwhile had World's Shittiest Not Boyfriend before isekai'ing. mostly fwb but yuujin did have feelings and also he was the only person yuujin was ever like. emotionally close to beyond their sister. so

? on caretaker for leona bc its definitely not Traditional Caretaking but he does put in the work to help yuuin in ways they do really need. still.

? for yuujin mostly bc if they had to do more caretaking like they did for their sibs theyd die but also they do help leona how they cna. u kno how it is

re:attachment, theyre both independent but yuujin is more likely to pull Away if shit happens while leona is more likely to get territorial (lol) this is probably the only thing that ever causes any real fights

idk if i'd call it "wants to Corrupt yuujin" but leona definitely does sometimes wish they were less of a good person. not always. but sometimes.

nsfw stuff

being used is situational for yuujin bc when theyre into it theyre Really Into It but theres also a chance itll trigger them really badly. u kno how it is

my pillow princess leona agenda strikes again

i htink leona is in theory fairly ambivalent abt topping/bottoming but in practice if he tops he's expected to do more work. so.

theyre both shameless during sex but occasionally yuujin will remember they have Feelings for this guy and this guy has Feelings for them and they'll get flustered. they can nad will talk abt sticking their tongue up this man's ass w/o batting an eye but the moment anything abt Liking each other comes up? they get a little shy LMAO

the sex is pretty good for both of htem but again. leona is lazy. yuujin is hte one doing all the work.

particulars

re:things to change, if leona were a more classically Good Boyfriend (ie more demonstrative, trying harder, more obvious w/his feelings etc) yuujin would absolutely run. so. leona's personality is a good (?) thing

engagement

(looks at the checklist) (points at leona) Go King Give Us Nothing!

the one abt killing the other is v like. dependent on timeline i think. leona might be more willing at first but over time i dont think hed be able to.

yuujin is technically the pursuer in their rship at first but leona definitely catches the Big feelings before yuujin does. lmao. eat shit loser

tbh their communication style from the outside probably looks pretty callous. a lot of talking Around things and giving each other shit to hide the fact they both Hate talking straightforwardly in some respects. the kind of couple that never ever once say 'i love you' to the other even tho they're both aware they do (eventually)

they touch a lot, in terms of pda they're not obnoxious but usually leona will have a hand on yuujin's back or yuujin will be on his arm or w/e. leona generally initiates if theyre out in public but yuujin doesnt mind they just dont start it usually wwwwww

re:expectations, i actually dont think leona expects too much from Yuujin Specifically, just in general. but also. in some ways i dont think he believes he'll get it. if that makes sense

OK THAT WAS REALLY REALLY LONG if u read this whole thing thank u tell me if u like them. i am rotating them constantly

[reserved-system]

WOAH!! HEY GUYS I JUST READ YALLS JON IN HERMITCRAFT FIC AND LIKE !!!!!! WOAHEOAHWOAH!!!! VERY COOL!!!!

i havent even listened to magnus archives yet [its literally the next podcast im planning to listen to dw] but i am obsessed with this fic. its actually so cute despite the poor guy being in distress most of the time.

i will now theorise and talk about ur fic in ur ask box if thats ok sjdbhdhdhhedjbdjdb

🤔🤔 i wonder why jon was put for a day instead of respawning immidiately? maybe the server was struggling to connect him for the first time or somethin? or xisuma was tryin to block him or somethin? idk, itd be funny if it was The Universe forcing him to get some sleep for once. actually yea i hope thats it.

itll be very funny [or angsty depending on how yall spin it] to see jon realise that death is a consequence-less action in this world, either he watches someone die or dies himself. bros in shock like,,,, my brother in christ i just witness a death 😱😨😱☹️😟😱, but then the person rematerialises in a nearby bed like,,, a second later like,,,, oopsie daisies 😅😅 just got pranked and exploded along side my house 😝😝 mustve been that pesky bird 🤭🤭🤭 I'll be back, just have to collect my stuff 😮‍💨😮‍💨 and jons sitting there like (,,#ﾟДﾟ)

BAHAHAHA if jon was shocked at the ears and tail on ren then i cannot wait to see his reaction to doc adfsfjakggkagkkgaakgagakg

*clapping!!* Cub!! my favourite basement dweller!!

Omg i didnt even Think of how people casually talking about mining for supplies would sound!! very thoughtful on yalls part :D

Woooo!!! map mechanics!!!!

also!!! cub saying that jon would make it to Tangos by sun set IF he doesnt get lost feels like,,,,, foreshadowing,,,, where jon gets lost and has to deal with zombies and skeletons and spiders™️ 👀👀👀 bro will not survive the night sjdbjdbdhdhd

lmao no pressure to answer this but just know that i very much enjoyed the reading !!

WAAAHHHH JBSDJGBJDG Hi! I'm sorry, we were not expecting to wake up to anything this morning. We are extremely flattered!! We're going to try to talk/answer any of your questions or theories without spoiling anything we have planned but firstly! You should definitely listen to The Magnus Archives it's such a good podcast. You don't have to worry about our fic containing spoilers for any of the events in the podcast (to my knowledge, at least. Anyone is free to correct me).

____ 1) Our main reason for having him wait a day before respawning was so THIS MAN COULD SLEEP. This man hasn't had a proper 8 hours of sleep in weeks at this point and needed the rest. The Universe spoke and said he needs to sleep.

2) We're actually going to start to explore people dying in the next chapter and we are VERY very exciting to start on that. What I think will be funny even going forward is seeing how terrified Jon is of seeing people die verse how laid back the hermits are about it. Cause realistically this is what, their ninth season so I'd say they're pretty desensitized to it.

3) I think about his reaction to Doc a lot cuz here comes this shirtless creeper goat cyborg with crocs. IT'S JUST TOO PERFECT. We haven't pin pointed when we're going to introduce the two but when we do it's going to be so much fun to write.

4) Cub <3 <3 <3 So far Cub has been our favorite hermit to write cuz he's just so chill. He could say the most out there sentence and you'll be looking at him and he's just got a blank expression. You'll look at him like did you not just hear what came out of your mouth and he'll look like he's said nothing wrong. Love his guy

5) It's just a few things we think about the difference between hermits and non hermits. For hermits mining for resources is an (at least) a once a week things. Non hermits haven't needed to mine for resources by hand since what, since heavy machinery was introduced on the scene. So it's not something they think about unless their job is to mine for those resources / work those heavy machines.

6) I wouldn't say it's foreshadowing but mainly a light jab at Jon cuz maybe he looks like the kind of guy who you'd give him simply directions and he still gets lost.

(We are those people. Driving downtown is confusing even with a gps)

But yes, maybe Jon does have an encounter with some mobs later on. Who's to say? Hehe.

Anyways, I'm super glad that you've been enjoying our fic so far! Super exciting to get back to writing it more often now that we have a lot more free time.

Hope you have a good rest of your day/evening <3

-Xavier

[lnane]

yknow a thing bout sweden that im actually kinda tired of cuz its a detail that sounds nice in theory and is constantly mentioned and used against me about life n that shit.

and its the fact that gymnasium, what is equivalent to highschool (ages 16-19 basically), is legally optional.

Like once you get out of högstadiet you gotta make the active choice to keep studying and what to study. And this looks great cuz you get the freedom of choice of what to study and you can even choose to not study at all! isnt that great, letting the kids pick.

although, there isnt actually much of a choice at all. Like, if you were to make the choice to not study, what the fuck are you gonna do? Youre not gonna have the qualifications to do any more advanced studies until you basically do the gymnasie education, which is WAY harder to get into the ordinary way if you dont go for it immediatley, and while yes there are adult courses thatre meant to compensate for not having that education theyre not available until youre in your 20s. You also dont have the qualifications for any job. Like, at best you can get a part time position somewhere that pays you way too little for anything (fun fact semi-related to this: sweden has no set minimum wage), since youre a kid with no education to make you more appealing for hire.

and this is not even mentioning how the social aspect of itll affect you, even if you soley focus on the familial side of it. Like, my parents are constantly nagging about "oh but gymnasiet is optional thus by choosing to go you make a free will commitment to commit to every apsect of it, and you chose to stop going to some classes. What kinda idiot chooses to do something of their free will and then skips the parts that bore them? That just shows poor work etiquette", and i still went to school. If i didnt id be surprised if id be allowed to stay at home at all, and since i lack any qualifications how am i gonna find any way to survive without the support of my legal guardians? Let alone keep myself healthy on top of all that?

like. it keeps getting waved around to kids that "hey, gymnasiet is OPTIONAL guys, so you HAVE TO fully commit to every aspect of it NOW. Otherwise your life is mostly fucked." and idk. im not sure if id prefer the alternative of it not being optional but just the fact that the illusion of choice gets used against you like that. Doesnt feel good.

[roughentumble]

i watched the poughkeepsie tapes and, ignoring everything else about it, i seriously legitimately at the end of the movie went "huh, thats a cool twist. the serial killer is the one making the documentary," but i cant.... find anyone else saying as such online

like!!!!! to me, it makes so much sense. the obsession with filming, the occasionally odd interview questions("do you [admire him]?", the entire interview with Cheryl), the fact that he's already proven to be someone who taunts the police and likes to insert himself/make his presence known somehow, it feeds into how "intelligent" and "good at hiding his tracks" they said he was, it adds a beautiful layer of irony at the end when the cop is like "man when yr documentary comes out we're gonna be watching the theaters, he'll come see it, mark my words," it explains why there was so much graphic footage that would NEVER be allowed in a documentary, and it could also explain the MISSING TAPES(he kept some of them in order to have footage for the documentary)

also i figured at the end, either cheryl's death was faked and then he went and picked her up(although that seems a bit elaborate), OR she did actually kill herself, because he left AGAIN and didnt take her AGAIN and she was too devastated to handle it.

plus, if he's that vain and intent on documenting his story and his crimes WITHOUT getting caught or revealing personal information, then surely a long movie where you hear about all his crimes, step-by-step, and also all the cops are admitting that he's a genius who gave them the run-around and saying they might never find him, where we learn nothing about who he is in the slightest except that he was so good at murder, would be pretty appealing to him.

so like you can imagine my surprise when i dont see ANYONE else mentioning it lmao. so after that i gave it another thought.

admittedly, it does raise a few issues.

1) the cheryl interview. the weirdness of some of the questions couldve just been awkwardness in the face of someone so clearly and extensively traumatized. she didn't fall over herself with joy about how "you came back for me!!!" but with how hardcore he trained her, i think he could easily get her to act like she doesnt know him. in general, her acting here works for being read as both "abuse victim and no other reason" and "youre pulling a con and im in on it but i dont know the plan and im Flighty and Nervous(and also an abuse victim)."

the "i dont know what you want me to say," is completely applicable whether he's the killer or not. she's either saying "i dont have an internal barometer yet for what answer you specifically are looking for from me, so i dont know what to say," or shes saying "im frightened that if i answer that im happy to be home youll be mad at me for saying i missed it, but if i say im not happy to be home itll make your documentary unconvincing, you didnt fill me in on what you wanted from me(possibly on purpose to distress me) and im scared of the repercussions of me making the wrong choice." the stuff at the end about how she loved him makes just as much sense if its not the killer, but when i saw it i read it as a semi-coded message. "i love him(you), and i know he(you) will sweep me away from here soon, *makes heavy eye contact with the camera man*"

2) the mother didnt recognise him, and no one recognised his voice from the tapes. this ones a big sticking point, but if hes so meticulous at preparing crime scenes and has such a wide array of tools and "toys", he must have a decent amount of time and money on his hands, so he couldve possibly hired a dude off, idk, craigslist to interview the mom. as for his voice, he was only ever shouting and growling in the tapes, but the interviewer was very quiet and softspoken whenever he did speak. possibly that was enough to make him sound different? he was shown using sign language at one point, so maybe he hired an interpreter and signed questions to obscure his voice, so the voice we hear when the interviewer speaks would actually be the interpreter's voice.

3) i guess, thinking about it, documentaries usually have a whole crew, not just the guy doing the interviews but a lighting guy and a sound guy and a camera guy and an editor... but again, he doesnt lack the resources to do time-consuming and expensive tasks, so i dont have a hard time believing he'd be able to cobble together a small crew, just bare-bones enough to technically function.

actually, if he had something to mount it on, he wouldnt need anyone to hold the camera, and he could set up the lights and sound himself before he starts each take. and i cant imagine he'd let anyone construct his magnum opus except himself, so he'd do the editing. itd be work, but he could probably pull off being a 2 man crew(him+either an interpreter, or a craigslist interviewer.)

4) if he did, indeed, take the missing tapes in order to use them in the documentary, then as soon as it was played somewhere, theyd find out this was previously unseen footage and theyd know he was the killer. BUT if he gave them fake info and didnt leave any dna, they might not be able to find him. BUT ALSO itd be nearly impossible for them to not get him on surveillance footage, so he'd have his image spread around like wildfire. but then again, this issue could be solved by just saying "ok he used footage from the tapes in police custody. the other ones were special, possibly mementos or future breadcrumbs to taunt the police with."

idk. idk!!!!! i think my theory holds up. i think it makes a lot of sense, and also its literally the only reason i can think of that such graphic scenes would EVER be allowed-- or put-- in a documentary... because he doesnt care about censors or ratings(like pg-13 sort of ratings) or legality. all he cares about is showing off and preserving his legacy. he led the cops to the house because he wanted them to see the tapes, yaknow?? he wanted someone to see them.

like!!! the interview segments, while not perfect, were good enough that i felt more than a little jarred when we just straight up saw mr. serial killer decapitate someone. and not, like, a good jarring, like how horror movies are supposed to be upsetting. it just brought me out of the experience and felt so fake it was almost goofy. it was preposterous. (and also the effects were a little cheesy/plasticy in that scene, so that didnt help.)

a regular editor, putting that clip in, unblurred? who. who on gods green earth would ever do their job that poorly

a vain serial killer who wants people to see his creepy snuff films putting in that unblurred clip? extremely logical. makes sense.

[s3venpounds]

okay so chapter 193...

spoilers for those who dont read the manga or those who didn’t read up to chapter 193. just a theory about deku

okay hear me out here. I think deku DOES have a dormant quirk. Its the quirk to “attract power” very vague and unnoticeable but it makes sense. Quirks can work genetically and since the father is nowhere to be seen I think it still holds true since Deku’s mom could “pull things toward her”. Then theres the overeall argument between one for all and all for one about how the worlds unfair blah blah blah blah. But this raises the question how will this play into the final confrontation or at least deku’s journey from point a to b. I’m willing to bet (i’ve also watched chibi reviews on this chapter so its got me going on this kinda thought process) that deku’s gonna have some sorta goku spirit bomb moment to defeat one for all. it would play into this dormant quirk, it would result in everyones quirks being gone (thus making it true deku becomes the worlds greatest hero since super powers stop at that point or maybe one for all stole the worlds quirks somehow idk maybe involving eri by tracing and rewinding a quirk that used to be the very first and absorbing that thus gaining every quirk in existence? I just think eri has to play a part in it somehow, you dont give someone that overpowered quirk and not use them as some sort of turning point later) Theres also the mystery behind deku’s dream with the original holder of one for all (lets call him OFA (OFA deez nuts ayyyyyyy) ). kay so yknow how all might is basically just covered in flames? I think thats related to how he used his last bursts of one for all. I also like to think he wasn’t actually USING One for all , not in the truest sense or the way its intended to be used and that the previous holders that are clearly in vision are ones that actually mastered it and reached the same stage deku is currently in. ( seeing the predecessors and shit) It would make sense since All might has no idea that was a thing and was completely oblivious to it when deku brought up the first hints. It would also fit with his “dormant quirk” Like chibi says , he think itll be like an avatar state or imo, hit man reborn where the main characters meet their past guardians and inherit their power or fuck it even like naruto and the tailed beasts chakras. He learns from them, masters new techniques and eventually gains the predecessors quirks. This whole thing makes even more sense when you think about how all might has a muscle form but even during the fight with all for one, Nana shimura didn’t have a muscle form. All might wasn’t using one for all he was more of like, a guy who got his hands on a big sword and swung it around. The real one for all stockpiles basically the essence of all previous users. This makes it sound even MORE cool because one for all becomes this antithesis of all for one. Taking power by force or misdeeds vs a power build up through trust friendship and respect. Then theres OFA appearing like “ boooooooo~ i wanna show u more but u can only access 20% oooooooooooooooooooooooooooo” that relates to izuku only being a head and hand with no mouth. The more he masters and accesses one for all the more in sync? i guess? he will be with the predecessors and once he gets the full story of OFA and AFO and gets the powers of the previous people he can be like “ oh damn both sides need saving or some shit” saves them and is like “ ayyy greatest super hero in the world” 

okay okay i went wayyy off on some points like with the whole “attracting power” okay hear me out. deku’s quirk has been activated from the very start. since that good cinnamon roll popped out of momma midoriya’s cooch this boi has been quirking it up and attracting power setting shit in motion. as a kid he attracted bakugo, a kid who everyone adored as strong and amazing because of his quirk (of course only after it manifested). skip time and suddenly Deku is a hero fanatic. watching heros in action taking notes. now I understand that society has evolved to have these heroes roaming around on a daily basis but would it be so hard to believe that conflict is attracted to him enough that he gets these front row seats to all these hero fights? enough to say... study them? then all might appears the biggest fish his quirk caught. then slime ball appears whos so powerful no one in the immediate area could counter his quirk cept yknow, all might. I like to think none of these are coincidences it makes for much cooler development. fast forward and suddenly out of all the robots, the BIGGEST FUCKING ROBOT JUST WALTZES TO FACE. something none of the applicants could fight. theres so many situations this could apply like????? todoroki and endeavor??? big fucking powerful. fucking nighteye, eri and overhaul? HELL FUCKING MUSCLE MAN GUY AT CAMP?!? WHY WAS HE THE ONE TO RUN INTO DEKU INSTEAD OF ANY OF THE OTHER OPERATIVES

also the two people who were in shadows or too far away. Using my theory it would mean those two ALSO reached the true potential for OFA however theyre “out of reach”? Maybe they were forced to transferring the quirk? or maybe like chibi said theyre alive somewhere, or maybe even villains OR MAYBE THEYVE BEEN TURNED TO YOUMU AND THE ONE FOR ALL CONNECTION GOT SEVERED DURING THE NOUMUING PROCESS(after they passed it on of course) since that still remains to be seen just how exactly noumu are made. 

[junipeach]

Please gimme the other 17 things to hyperfixate on im literally sick of this show-

im going to list out every single thing thats caught my attention for more than 6 seconds which is a feat on its own for my adhd ass brain 

bnha (of course)

pokemon

every 80s movie john hughes has made

x files (there r so many eps, rewatch it for fun even)

hellboy comics

miraculous ladybug (i think they just got canon gay rep!! so now we stan a good kids show even if the animation is a lil ugly)

we bare bears (casual bg gay relationships shown a lot, plus its just so cute)

a band or singer of your choice, personally ive been listening to the frights a lot so ;o

rewatch ouran high school host club!

star vs the forces of evil 

rewatch gravity falls!

i havent seen it but i heard ok ko was cute

a webcomic, i recommend going onto hiveworks and searching through all the comics they host and finding one you like!

this sounds fake but u can hyperfixate on ur art in a healthy way. be SAFE like dont get carpal tunnel but ig this is the most productive one, work on your anaotmy or learn color theory!

rewatch atla!

rewatch lok! (ive never seen this one so thts my next thing to do sklgnsdfg)

nobody wants me to say it. i might even lose followers for this. but nothing, and i mean NOTHING, has caught my attention the way homestuck has. i dont even remember a lot abt the main actual story, i dunno how itll hold to 2018 morals and i mean that seriously, so im sorry if im rly promoting something uhh in poor taste here, but listen theres so much of it and idk i just remember rly enjoying it and it took up so much of my attention and everything since then has been trying to fill that void in my soul so ya, if you wanna lose years of your life and dont mind putting up with whatever 09-16 shenanigans take place in it, ...... ya

i hope this helped in any way shape or form, and sometimes going through a rut without a hyperfixation is good for you! it can help you focus on things in your life, but also i understand sometimes we reeally dont wanna focus on irl stuff, so i hope this is ok!!!!

[perfectionistincrisis]

Day 79

soooooo i went to bed at 8 am in the morning today. Cause i was on the treadmill. with breaks after 30 mins. for a total of 3hrs. so i started at around 3 am and ended around 7 am almost 5 hours for an actual 3hr workout Oh great! 

oh now i put a sticky note on the webcam thingy on my laptop. Lol now ik for sure why almost everyone at uni puts an ugly sticker on it. cause someone might hack into it and stuff. saw it in mr robot. 

oh yesterday we went to a mall and dad had to park and come later after we already entered the mall. so when he was entering he saw some lady lying on the floor having a nose bleed i think. anyways so later in the car he was talking about it and telling how when he saw that he was almost about to call me and then he saw that the ladys like surrounded by more than enough people so theres no need to but then he was like i came to his mind right away. idk what he thinks about me but im sure i havent thought as much about myself for sure lol. hmph. But i wish to live up to his expectations one day inshaAllah. 

so my doctor has been telling me for months now, and once again from my most recent lab investigations results i am supposedly having a very bad bacterial infection. And i have no idea where the hell it is :) so i have to go to the hospital agaaaaaaain to see a nephrologist or urologist after doing an urine culture & bleh not looking forward to it but gta go. maybe tomorrow 

so my mom is really cool. i mean she knows so much about medicine. ‘clinical stuff’. A lot of it. Tbh she knows more than me. ever since year 2 and 3, whenever i find out some interesting clinical management i always ask her about it only with the intention of telling her about it once she didnt know the answer WHICH i only assumed everytime. She mostly answers them right and on top of that i end up learning a thing or two from her esp the medicine names cause like in med school they dont teach us the brand name but the generic name. she knows a lot of brand names too. i mean shes just awesome mashAllah.  Anyways so why im mentioning all these is cause, she freaks out every time my results are out and the doctor goes like i have a bacterial infection. So from urine analysis. Normal level of ‘pus cells’ should be ZERO to 4. Even SIX pus cells means infection and i have like around 26 Pus Cells. Oh Holy

So after hearing that mom who id expect to not say silly things comes up with all weird theories Ughh! she tells about how im so dirty and i dont wash my water flask so it has lipstick stains on it and maybe thats where i got infected from “-” AND once i laughed it off she suggests maybe its from all the ‘burgers’ i eat from outside “-” “-” and how the fast food chains dont maintain hygiene and all Ughh. 

Btw ik my posts are usually really long and all but then its actually funny sometimes. I mean i hardly write anything. There is just SOOOO much stuck in me. i mean you can say i write 1% of it. And if you think im just bluffing, ill raise it to a 3%. But if i say i write even 10% of whats in my head then Ill call myself a liar! See, the thing is. I dont like talking to anyone about these. “except” for him. And that is because i ‘chose’ to. Like its not that i dont have people to talk to, more like i dont even need people to talk to. Cause i dont want to. Its just me ‘wanting’ to open up to him. to trust him. to let him be a part of my life. What im trying to say is. The reason i have so much stuck in me is not because i cant talk to anyone but more like i dont want to. And theres just one person I want to talk to with. Other than that, I find more comfort in my own company rather compared to anyone elses tbh. 

Now i remember in one of my post i was talking about our last conv where he told me to wait for him and he’ll come for me one day inshaAllah and i was talking about idk how much i can do with regards to that to make things easier for us! Idk i think theres more to what i can do. I keep thinking about it and, i believe that i need to be stable and successful enough too. And not just simply stable financially but like, I need to be at good place. A marriage is a two person thing and you always need to lift each other up as much as you can.

One way or the other, this thing always just slips whenever i sit to blog but it entered my head and scared the shit out of me quite a few days ago. So i was thinking of us, life.. Btw when i say ‘life’ it still means ‘us’. Its the same god damn thing “-” Aha! So i was thinking about us, and how times passing by. i really cant say if its going fast or slow. so no comments. i honestly dont know! BUT i feel like there is so much to come yet. i mean.. and then i was thinking.. i mean some day itll be the 100th day. cool And then months will pass. AND suddenly it hit me! NOW if theres some month i really wna skip, like s.k.i.p. like God, can you like pause my life or like fast forward it to the next month or something please? THEN, that would be January! Yesssss. Like, i totally have no. freakin. idea. how ill spend that month. Im like -blank- Like idk how ill be breathing in peace. its that much of a killer for me. im not even exaggerating, idk if it sounds stupid but then maybe i am stupid Ugh. But like honestly, im more okay with feb, than i am with jan. i really have no idea what ill do or how ill pass the time :) 

Ill talk more about it prolly tomorrow. but enough for today i guess! 

OH ANDDDDD - “I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.”  ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ ^ I read that in one of his posts & words cant say what it pulled me out of... Tada b’bye c: