#idk just needed to pace back and forth on the sidewalk of the internet muttering to myself for a bit | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

eevachu · 3 years ago

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Life just kinda sucks lately, but at least my antidepressants seem to be working because I haven’t been… bad about it like I would’ve been in the past. I never know where to talk about this stuff because I’m still working on getting a therapist; tumblr just feels like the right place. Like sitting under an old tree in a quiet graveyard.

#my grandma who helped raise me died and i caught covid so i couldn't go see her #and i'm sad about it but i'm not catatonic and guilt-ridden about it which is weird #every emotion for my whole life felt so BIG; both bad AND good #now they're still there just smaller #i've got a follow up with my psychiatrist tomorrow and i'm mulling it all over but not stressing #anxiety ruined my life so many times and i'm glad i'm on the road to stopping it from ever doing that again #i'm living and that's what matters even if i'm desperately sad while i do so i'm still living #my sleep is FUCKED tho omg #and i'm still fucked up from covid lbr #chu rambles in the tags #sad girl bummer summer #just chu things #might delete in the morning #idk just needed to pace back and forth on the sidewalk of the internet muttering to myself for a bit

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