#idk rambling about programming

[juniemunie]

[Abandoned by the Lightners, his heart became cracked with hatred.]

Hitting a lil' too close to home?

[strivia]

So, I've been rotating a new fic idea in my head that I've been calling the "Mantah Corp Kenji AU". And I made manips for it! It's so hard to get clips of Kenji not flecked with dirt, I'm dying out here, SAVE ME.

The basic gist of the idea is a "Kenji never went to Camp Cretaceous & thus never got stuck on Isla Nublar" AU. He was still intended to go to Camp Cretaceous, but something changed last minute. So it's this dark mirror of, these other kids could have been me! I feel like having that "I got so bizarrely lucky I dodged this bullet" experience only to be confronted with the kids he would have been with would be causing wild cognitive dissonance that he's actively trying not to unpack.

This would begin as an alternate S4 with Kenji meeting Darius when Kash catches him. Kenji is 'working' on the island at his dad's behest though lbr he's probably not doing a whole lot of actual work, but like it's meant to be character building for him ig. Go to the island with no wi-fi and help our business son.

So suddenly here's this kid here who was apparently trapped on dino island for 6 months (Darius). And cause Kenji's the bosses son he "takes Darius off of Kash's hands" and drags him into playing video games with him and Darius does not know wtf is happening.

Kenji says, this is now my traumatized best friend actually.

There's more to the idea and a whole lot of ripple effects to the timeline to consider but !!!!!

[frosting-surfeit]

Ill bet all aliens on all the nearby planets on the map we saw need to be resistant to EXTREMELY cold temperatures. Since i bet space travelling and planet hopping could be common. We saw zim without a spacesuit in open space which is hundreds of fucking degrees below zero. Ill bet irkens are built for such cold they really wouldn't have fathomed there would be need to be built for much warmth let alone hot temperatures. And earth being a planet of living beings that need the planet to be warm to survive is probably something near non-existant in those nearby planets

Im a dummie so i dont know what that means for irken blood and anatomy but nonetheless I hc that irkens are averse to touch because it actually doesnt feel good physically as well. Theyre not built to seek WARMTH but (maybe) the cold... ! or at least they feel more comfortable around colder things.

So while zim wants to hug a cold unfeeling machine he's really averse to like... keef's hug because of this reason too... on top of everything else. They can tolerate touch but like... theyd always prefer to keep distance even if they wouldn't mind a hug or whatever.

Plus there's the obvious comparison to computers since theyre cyborgs, so they need to be cool and they probably overheat (and therefore "malfunction") in the sun and whatnot and zim had downright hallucinations with hot wheather as he complained about the earth's sun

But mostly i like to think of this bc I love that earth being primitive dirty and polluted is the reason behind a lot of Zim's suffering as an alien who was mostly just exposed to perfectly built, cleaner, sanitized and tidier industrial spaces in his upbringing

[3point14a]

@chocottang OK. ok uh,,,,, word vomit about pupleon because they are my curse and they curse me repeatedly and im gonna be needlessly long with with it so sorry you asked somehting very simple

Ok flash summary of what the hell is up with pupleon first of all:

Leon is a guy who wants attention and hes a bit deranged about it! deranged enough to be evil (tm). He really really really wants to be the center of attention and is envious of others for being more naturally interesting, his envy is weird? cause he mostly tends to get really intense about people who he thinks are interesting. With owynn (who has VERY long hair, weird pupils, and dyed flashy hair) he just hates his ass, he just hates him. With eak cami and tony he mostly swallows it because theyre his friends and he likes them! the entire reason he has hair over his scars is to not make Eak feel shitty about them even thouh he loves them cause they make him "more interesting". With Puppet, it was weirder!!!!

It was weirder because he thought Puppet was super cool despite not really being all that loud (specially next to Mai). And then Puppet! is a curious bastard!

Puppet's emotions don't work quite right (he also can't feel pain, so) He's just constantly in the search for interesting stuff to keep his attention because he gets bored insanely easily, and he lacks a bit (a lot) of empathy, so he mostly sees people as things that can be interesting.

So they're a bit of a nosy kid, they get all up in your face and ask ten trillion things about your life and it really just makes you feel like youre under a microscope. They talk in riddles, confuse you and drag you along to see your reaction to things.

When Puppet met Leon, He got up to his usual schtick of being nosy, get all up in her face and asked him insane shit without any tact, like if hes really deaf, how deaf, if his skin is gonna change more, etc etc, mostly things that people with common sense wouldn't ask someone they just met. Unfortunately, Leon loves being treated like that, he loves showing off his scars and his vitigilio and his deafness and everything. And being given that much attention (getting interrogated LMAO) by a guy he thought was cool made him fucking exstatic.

Longs story short, Leon just follows Puppet around Puppet doesn't really care because he doesn't really care about anything. Shadow shenanigans happen Puppet gets fucking pissed because trying to fully completely understand what shadows was something he had done for really long and the only thing he had that could qualify as a heavy "interest" of his.

Sorry no one asked for the recap but i need to word vomit. Ok with that out of the way, how the hell do they even come back from that. Well uhm.

Basically Leon gets HEAVY guilt over it because yeah, you ruined his life bro i dont know. Puppets desire to be involved with all the shadow stuff and truly understand it was something much more important/heavier than Leon just, wanting attention!!!! and he feels REALLY bad

Puppet over there in hell land just kind of??? gives up? stop doing stuff unless they're prompted to, just sort of lays around and does nothing, without his infatuation for the supernatural he's just sort of on autopilot

The the like thing with them is that Leon tries really hard to get Puppet back into being more normal??? Mai doesn't really do it because she also doesn't get emotions all that well and her idea of helping people is going "TURN THAT FROWN UPSIDE DOWN <3" so thats nice. And he doesn't really talk to anyone else so its that blue haired snake against the world

Tries to get him on walks or to play games or to watch this funny video or ANYTHING you know?? just keeps bugging him ten thousand times, and Puppet actually drops the ten million theatrics and riddles and just talks very straight forward about what the fuck is up with him

Both him and Mai are cagey about their issues because no one ever believes them (which is FAIR how did THAT happen) so they mostly just avoid being straight forward about some quirks on how they work (aside from emotional stuff, for example. Puppet cannot feel pain, but Mai feels pain for the both of them; Mai can't feel temperature, but Puppet feels it for the both of them; etc) But since bro already gave up on everything at this point and since Leon IS involved with the weird magic bullshit he just tells him, straight up "I'm more of a machine than a human, I can't feel and I cant hurt. Whatever infatuation you have with me will lead nowhere because I can't make it go anywhere. And whatever you're trying to do right now with dragging me places won't make me a normal "passionate" guy. " and Leon is a fucking stubborn bastard who IN SUMMARY goes "you functioning differently doesn't make you any less human" and that him trying to get him interested in something wasn't to "fix him" just to get him into the same normality he used to have when he was fixated on supernatural stuff.

BASICALLY the end point with them is that Puppet has been very fixated on fixing themselves all their lives to be a "normal human", no one is really GLAD he's like that, they just like him DESPITE it. His mom and his family don't like him FOR being broken like that they like him despite it, and so Leon waltzing in saying that she can hold out affection for him AND his flaws as a part of him. That they're not something he tries to ignore or fix For someone to fully understand that it is magic bullshit and that he cannot get medicated or change or get better, and then NOT see him as some poor bastard or some empty shell but just a guy. It's audghdhdfgggghhh he can't be a full guy and he can't have love and he can't get the happy ending because it's not fixable vs guy who can accept that.

ANYWAYS IM FINALLY ANSWERING THE QUESTION CHRIST the point is yeah. the facades and the self.

ok in those things I have red as the self and blue as the facade. The colors dont really have significance lol theyre just there

Puppet is ALWAYS smiling, but he doesn't really mean it at all. He doesn't really understand what smiling means, it doesn't come naturally in the slightest and it makes him feel more inhuman than they already do. His "real" self is the showcase of how hes broken (eyepatch of doom) and his blank as hell expression. I did a thing with these two that is fun to me where its like the opposite of "stone faced but only smiles near their loved one <3" where Puppet smiles at all times every waking second but when he's with Leon he stops really giving a fuck (she already knows everything thats "wrong" with her so like who cares) and around leon he just looks completely dissenterested and bored.

Leon tries to present himself as normal guy, even though he REALLY wants attention its mostly because he IS a caring dude and he knows that showcasing his ears or his eye scars would freak out his friends. He also tries to not come off as intense as he actually is. Just a nice chill guy

then his real self is more???? outwardly a bit crazy. He loves his scars he loves his teeth he loves showing off and have people stare at him, he gets fixated on people and how "interesting" they are a LOT and tends to just STARE at people or come off REALLY intensly

Puppet's facade is what i already sort of mentioned, he smiles around people and tries to mask his lack of feelings into casual nonchalance that makes him come off as more normal than Mai even though he gripples with his brain a lot more than she does.

and uh the point of both of them being together for that is that they both just roll with it??? Leon does not care about how differently Puppet processes stuff / if they're unexpresive because yeah thats just how he's wired. Leon, as much as he loves attention, REALLYYYY dislikes pity, he doesnt think his scars or his deafness are something to be pitied rather than something COOL he has, and puppet can't really pity him so he just sort of agrees and goes "yeah man cool idc"

AND THATS IT THATS IT I DONT KNOW. HELP. SORRY.

[e77y]

Hiiii trying to kill time til my second audition of the day

[svtskneecaps]

feel like the global tasks sweep strat should probably be nerfed somehow. my thought would be, give each team an individual ten minute overall cooldown on global task claims. that is to say, a certain team can only claim one global task per ten minutes. say, deliver gas masks, and then in ten minutes you're allowed to deliver tea, and then after another ten minutes you can claim hot chocolate.

another teams would be able to claim a global task for bananas during this time, and their own ten minute cooldown would start.

(the global tasks can either keep their individual ten minute cooldown [i.e. after tea is claimed no one else can claim tea for ten minutes] or a slightly shorter cooldown, say 5-7 minutes)

when a global task is claimed, everyone is notified, right? if not, in my hypothetical, they will be.

then, a team trying to sweep six tasks at once would actually take sixty minutes to do, allowing another team to swoop in and have a chance to stop it in cinematic, entertaining fashion rather than tubbo having to grind resources and then log out in front of the merchant to counter this, which is boring for everyone (including the person delivering). plus, if a team cuts it down to the last second and ends up getting delayed, they physically wouldn't have time to make a delivery, meaning even being a BIT of a nuisance could be a viable strategy, even if you can't manage to kill; if you can STALL you could still wreck their plans.

that's my dream anyway idk i'm not a game designer. just think it would be interesting for most players

(i elaborate under)

red team would have to shake up their strategies, which is fun since they're a team that kinda has to rely more on strategy than outright brawn (overall the team's pvp can't be relied on unless they have carre or phil, as seen today when pierre, bad, and etoiles attacked phil cellbit foolish and baghera, and cellbit and foolish both died to etoiles in the attack, despite it being a 4 on 1 at the time. baghera was killed by bad soon after. phil was the one to get the kills. the first day, when blue attacked [niki, tubbo, and bad as i recall] carre got both kills)

the other teams would then still have a way to stop a global sweep since a sweep would have to start earlier, allowing not only more time to arrive at global to pvp about it, but ALSO allowing another team to swoop in and steal the goal out from under the team again

i'm gonna use it in a scenario bc i'm badboyhalo and i can't stop myself from making examples:

so, tonight, if the proposed cooldown was in place, bad and tubbo would both still had roughly 17 minutes when red team would have HAD to start the sweep process if they wanted all six global tasks: 1 hour until the server closed at absolute MINIMUM. more for safety's sake.

therefore, in this scenario, there's a lot to happen

blue team could wait at globals, knowing red will probably try this strategy, and attempt or perhaps SUCCEED in killing red. if they kill red entirely, the operation is a wash; red doesn't have to gear to come back from scratch and take out blue team, and even if they could, the travel time to return to globals alone would mean they wouldn't get all the global tasks, potentially meaning they don't take the lead. if blue team is unable to kill red and dies themselves or has to retreat, but succeeds in delaying red, red would face the same problem.

if red sends in all of the task items on one person, and that person dies, even if the rest survived, blue could loot the items from that person and would be able to either use the items themselves, if green is currently the owner, or could run away with the items, effectively wasting red's time and again, meaning they wouldn't get all tasks claimed even if they were able to overtake the runner and reclaim their items.

i'm unclear what would happen if red divided the task items between them since it seems like the person claiming the task doesn't have to have all (or any? again, unclear) the items in THEIR inventory in order to claim so long as a teammate is nearby with the items in their inv (evidence: pac's vod "voltei... o que tá acontecendo no QSMP?!" at roughly 3:00:00; tubbo claims tea and tea is taken out of pac's inventory. i don't know the limits of this strategy)

blue team also has time to swoop in and steal a global task out from under red during this time. say, if red team had claimed the task for 10 tea leaves, upping the price to 15 tea leaves, and then blue team snuck in and claimed the task and set the price up to 20 tea leaves, (since the proposed 10 minute cooldown on claims would be TEAM LIMITED; red's cooldown applying to red only and so on). if red waited until the last second, they wouldn't have the time to reclaim this task even if they did have the resources, possibly forcing them to start their sweep earlier to counter this possibility, at which point team members who had logged on earlier and are out of time by the end of the night, OR members who live in time zones that don't allow them to stay up until server close, may have an easier shot at participating in defending against a global sweep.

all of this DIRECT CONFLICT would make for good audience entertainment and heighten the stakes of an attempted global sweep, since it would practically have to be one team defending globals for an hour while they pipe all their resources into it, knowing that if they die another team could easily swipe their task resources and use it themselves (along with the rest of their gear). it makes it more interesting, while still mostly viable.

plus it would force more strategizing for red team which is maybe just a personal plus, i just really like seeing people planning both in advance and in spur of the moment. it's really satisfying to see how a plan comes together and succeeds or fails; plus, since red team is the main team using this strategy at the moment and their main draw and strength as a team is cohesion and communication this would be completely fucking riveting for me as a viewer so maybe this is just a personal thing. but i really really think it would be fun

but again, i'm not a game designer, or a qsmp player, or a qsmp admin, or honestly even really a gamer? so maybe i'm off my rocker and out of my gourd and this isn't viable or balanced in any way shape or form but YKNOW what is this blog except putting stupid thoughts into the void and seeing if this time the void spits back hate mail so. i'm folding this into a paper airplane and throwing it into the abyss. hopefully it made sense.

k love you appreciate you getting this far, have a good week!!

(i hope your team gets a win in dramatic fashion and celebrates together!!! i hope they come together and unleash a plan so spectacular it takes the server by storm!!! i hope it's so good it becomes a vod you go back to even years in the future!!!! i hope you have a good week!!!!!)

[askthe-littlepoet]

Betting this relationship lasts for 3 weeks at best.

until its decided we get "silly" and the yaoi gets toxic

[yume-fanfare]

it is that time of the year again (filling out applications for things and having to come to terms with the realization that ive only ever drawn the same 2 maybe 4 guys in the past year)

[isekyaaa]

Lazy story idea today, but what about a.... Idk how to describe this. A more lower level basic level robot falling in love with a human, so it keeps seeking to upgrade itself over and over until it has the kind of body that is the closest to that of a human.

[tiredwiredanduninspired]

It may be oakworthover but Dan and Phil games is back so it’s a win for the gays

[than487]

maybe if I bang my head against the wall enough times, I will get my art style to be as intricate as it used to be.

that, or I start giving enough shits.

[mooseonahunt]

One of my professors recommended me as a potential candidate for a Congressional internship program in DC and idk if I should apply...

Everything about the program sounds stressful and uncomfortable as hell but... it's all expenses paid and it would make my resume and academic career look fucking fantastic if I'm accepted.

Idk what to do 😭 I’ll probably apply just to test my luck, but I don’t know if I’ll go through with it if I’m accepted. What do I dooo

[seoafin]

ok i will preface this by saying i have JUST recently discovered the ripverse (i am kicking my legs giggling twirling a phone cord reading all the asks and like. supplementals you’ve posted/people have sent in though have NO fear) but something about how rip!mc was supposed to die at 16 but was saved by love really stuck with me. and i think this is kinda similar to what the other anon said (hi) but i also never felt like i was meant to live long like not even through anything tragic just like. i could not picture a future for myself! and high school was desolate enough as is but no one i knew there could picture me having a future either which did not help things. so i kinda drifted through just in the back of my head knowing i was gonna be gone soon and being okay with that. and then i went to college and i met my friends and my ex and i’ve never mentioned it to them and idk if i will bc the feeling isn’t completely gone but just through existing in my life they did kinda save me. or at least made me consider myself as a permanent living thing and that life wasn’t just something happening to me but was my actually life. and idk if this makes sense but i love the idea of being saved by love and how people really can have such a positive impact sometimes without even knowing it. like what is the point to anything if not to love and be loved. and i think being saved by it kinda exemplifies that perfectly. anyway thank you for writing the ripverse and through that giving me a reason to ramble about love <3

me sobbing and blowing my nose into a tissue: i-it's about l-l-l-love.....

[vine-o-fish]

rrrgggggahhhh I watched Barbie, which probably will be remembered as the best big movie of the decade, and left with a migraine and the thought that it “was really fun but too clumsy in its messaging and themes.” And today I watched Emesis Blue, a fucking horror movie fan animation of Team Fortress 2, and found it so beautiful that I’m laying in the dark just thinking about the kickass themes and symbollism….. IT’S SO GOOD??????????

[dreamties]

not to depression post on main but while we get closer to the holiday season I will likely be distancing myself further from social media, etc.

Writing is still one of my greatest comforts !!! and i really wanna be able to write and share things on here with y'all !!

but i come first before this blog does. and i have a lot of healing to do. and a lotta trauma to work through- that writing alone cannot mend 💗💗💗

[quatregats]

I haven't met with or talked to many people this trip, but I will say that it has helped a lot with the focusing on what I actually want to study and making me want to study it and also teaching me how I should move forward in the research process. Like idk in the US I get a lot of theory and such but no one knows anything about my topic so they all just kind of go "cool sounds like you know lots about it 👍" whereas people here can actually get into the nitty-gritty of it and can see where my knowledge is lacking (and also the professors have just given me better advice lmao). The only hope is that I can keep this good energy up when I get home.